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Staff Recs - Why Don’t You Just Stab Me in the Heart? Angst

We’ve read some fantastic angst lately so decided to feature it in staff recs. Not all of these end unhappily, but some do. We classify these as medium to heavy angst. Please heed the trigger warnings! - AFTG Fic Rec Fam

Scribbles and Sticky Notes by Fortheloveofexy [Rated T, 11750 Words, Complete, 2022]

It started soon after Andrew’s official retirement from Exy.

tw: major character death, tw: major character injury, tw: car accident

Nor are we forgiven by AyeAyeAye [Rated M, 16866 Words, Complete, 2022]

“Dissociative amnesia,” Andrew said, and Aaron tried his best to listen.

“She’s really dead,” he said.

“Yes.”

“You killed her.”

Andrew said nothing, just twirled his knife between his fingers and stared Aaron down.

***

Aaron is the host of a DID system. Andrew is one of his alters.

Pre-canon and works through canon also.

tw: child abuse, tw: drug use, tw: did, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: violence, tw: vomit, tw: withdrawal

Can Nobody Hear Me (I cannot breathe) by temporaryeverything [Rated M, 23803 Words, Incomplete, Updated Aug 2022]

Andrew looks at himself in the mirror. He has electric clippers in one hand and his phone in the other, and debates which one he should turn to first. He flicks his thumb over the button of the clippers and it starts vibrating viciously in his hand. Another flick and it turns off just as quickly.

He unlocks his phone without looking and presses speed dial. He puts it on speaker and while it rings he flicks the button; on, off, on, off. On.

He starts at the front and just as the first strands of thick blond hair fall to the sink the dial tone stops and labored breathing can be heard in its place.

“Andrew?”

Where Andrew goes to see a doctor and doesn't tell anyone about it

tw: major character illness, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: explicit sexual content

Inked Petals by jaydreamz [Rated M, 11265 Words, Incomplete, Updated Aug 2022]

Andrew spent 3 years in a shithole small town in Florida trying to get through the loss of the only person who made him feel something.

Then Aaron convinces him to move to New York to start living his life again.

It all goes well until Andrew makes a tinder account and matches with his dead boyfriend.

tw: assumed major character death, tw: alcohol abuse, tw: implied/referenced drug use, tw: car accident, tw: panic attacks

Train Wreck by jaydreamz [Rated M, 8837 Words, Incomplete, Updated July 2022]

Neil never made it out of Baltimore.

Six years later, Andrew has his life together, more or less, but he's far from okay. When Bee convinces him to change the scenery and go on a trip around Europe, he knows this isn't going to fix anything.

Except, he's sitting on a train in Switzerland across a ghost who's staring at him with a familiar crystal blue gaze and no spark of recognition in his eyes.

tw: assumed major character death, tw: violence, tw: explicit sexual content, tw: implied/referenced self harm

lamb to the slaughter by skullcaid [Rated M, 405804 Words, Incomplete, Updated Aug 2022]

After being saved from a vicious and merciless kidnapper that had him for eight long traumatising weeks, Asher Foster is trying his best at normalcy; which means he continues to work at a local convenience store and continues to do his schoolwork.

However, his attempt at prevalence is postponed when he learns he has not one, but two older twin brothers, and now Asher's not only dealing with the aftereffects and the outcome of his own grisly dark past, but also with the task of meeting and understanding Andrew and Aaron Minyard and their own family, the Palmetto State Foxes.

But Asher's life is far from a fairy tale, and not all demons are content with staying buried.

or, there's another secret Minyard brother.

tw: kidnapping, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: murder, tw: violence, tw: vomit, tw: referenced forced feeding, tw: eating disorders, tw: paranoia

NB: extras from fic author @skullcaidd: ‘lamb to the slaughter’ book cover mockup (tw: blood, tw: injured animal) here, playlist here, and fandom fun post here. Fanart by @artattacker here and here, by @bevmvrsh here, and by @asher_katsumi on twitter here

just one thing series by Lyndis [Rated M/T, Collection, Updated July 2022]

Part 1: Just one thing [M, 3021 Words, Complete]

Neil is married off to Andrew Minyard. He tries to be a good husband. When he searches something in their shared bedroom he finds something unexpected, something very much not good.

Andrew likes Neil but he also knows his father and he knows what that man is capable of. He doesn't think for one minute that Neil is unharmed, even though his experience is strikingly beautiful. But while he is fully prepared to take care of his new husband, he had no clue what he was signing up for.

“These are for self-defense.”

“Of course they are.” Neil was quick to respond, looking up for the first time and giving his husband an empty, lifeless smile. He couldn’t do better at the moment.

tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: negative body image, tw: panic attacks

Part 2: The Butcher's Son [T, 3670 Words, Incomplete, Updated July 2022]

Neil kills their Chef. Andrew tries to find out what happened.

tw: blood/gore, tw: murder, tw: minor character death, tw: disordered eating, tw: implied/referenced forced starvation, tw: panic attacks

it would have been you by theresnothis [Rated T, 2142 Words, Complete, 2022]

Jeremy should have known. He should have fucking known. All the signs were there. How could he have been so blind?

tw: major character death, tw: suicide, tw: implied/referenced rape

What died didn't stay dead. by freshtaylorswiftduck [Rated T, 11065 Words, Complete, 2022]

Neil Josten is dead. Neil Josten was never even a real person.

Thank you. You were amazing.

And now Andrew Minyard was left with a pair of keys and nothing else.

tw: assumed major character death, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: panic attacks, tw: depression

The Songs Around Us by doodlingstuff [Rated M, 80076 Words, Complete, 2022]

The mission was simple: Nathaniel would join Astral Foxes as Neil Josten and make them part of Moriyama Music.

In reality, Neil became real, found a home, and fell in love despite his lies.

When the Moriyamas send the Butcher to remind Neil of his mission and Andrew's life ends on the line, Neil will have to decide how to escape his fate and bring Andrew back.

Sometimes, music is the only answer, and others, as Neil will realize, truth is the only weapon you have to save the ones you love the most.

tw: car accident, tw: major character injury, tw: torture, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: panic attacks

Skin Comes Apart (Angel in Lothian) by JuiceGremlin [Rated E, 60088 Words, Incomplete, Updated June 2022]

Andrew has signed with a team halfway across the country. Neil is determined to make it work, to break the distance down into something manageable.

They are going to survive this.

That is, if Ichirou doesn't have other plans.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: blood/gore, tw: murder, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: panic attacks, tw: explicit sexual content, tw: implied/referenced nonconsensual drug use

Either Love is a Shrine or Else a Scar by Texfoxyard (twda1003) [Rated E, 2762 Words, Complete, 2022]

14 years.

He is 14 years old.

168 months. 5110 days. 122640 hours. 7358400 minutes.

That is how long he has been alive. Though alive would imply he has a spirit, a vigor for living, not his 14 years of barely surviving on scraps of food, scraps of affection, and scraps of love.

By all accounts, alive does not mean laying in a pool of his blood hours before he legally becomes a part of a family, finally belonging.

or, the one where pig Higgins doesn't come across Aaron, which means Andrew stays with the Spears'.

tw: major character death, tw: suicide, tw: rape, tw: csa, tw: self harm, tw: blood, tw: graphic depictions of violence

Run to You by Major_816 [Not Rated, 38078 Words, Complete, 2022]

Part 2 of The Books of Baltimore series, part 1 (also angsty) recced here

When Nathaniel wakes up after Baltimore he bides his time, and as soon as he’s left alone in his hospital room he does what he does best.

He wanted to stay this time. He’d even been dumb enough to think there was a minor chance he could pull it off. He knows better now, back in the seat of a hotwired car and heading North on instincts learned under the threat of death. Nathaniel fights until he runs, and he runs every fucking time.

Sometimes, Nathaniel wonders if that’s all he’ll ever be good at.

AKA - the one where Neil runs.

tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: major character injury, tw: blood, tw: drugs

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