#anyways i'm gonna go cry now

[nebulousfishgills]

YOU FUCKERS HOW DARE YOU END IT LIKE THAT--

#once again miss minutes is fucking TERRIFYING #i hate how cute the hot cocoa scene was #i have so many thoughts and yet i can't articulate SHIT #are we getting a mobius backstory episode next week #oh my god we have two episodes left #good thing loki didn't go out to fix the loom though... right? #also once again sylvie's hot as hell please marry me #and I am absolutely LOVING B-15 this season she's amazing #anyways i'm gonna go cry now #dude this episode was DARK #loki #loki series #loki spoilers #loki s2 #loki season 2

[gale-in-space]

Okay posting the full pic of this lol. Some space bloodweave for my dear @antstarion :D gotta stay warm and comfy in space

#my art #bloodweave #gale of waterdeep #astarion #bg3 #i'm being so brave posting this on main AND in the character + ship tags T_T #please no one say anything mean </3 i will cry and that is a threat #okay i'm gonna go hide in my cave now byeeeee #edit: OH and i should explain the suits real quick #they're not like typical spacesuits. i kind of modeled them off of like snowsuits? to make them extra comfy #yeah #anyway #bye

[lynzishell]

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Over the next couple of days, their suspicions were confirmed. A blood test showed that, yes, Dawn was pregnant.

But she couldn’t shake the feeling that something wasn’t right. Phoenix hoped she was wrong, that she was just scared. Even as her migraines and nausea began to subside, Dawn became more fearful than relieved.

Given her risk factors, her doctor recommended an early ultrasound.

Though Dawn had tried to prepare herself for what she believed to be inevitable, nothing could prepare them for the moment the doctor looked up at them, with sympathy in her eyes, and told them she was unable to detect a heartbeat.

When they arrive home, it doesn’t feel like the same place they left. It feels emptier in a way they can’t quite explain.

Phoenix: Can I get you anything? Dawn: No, I just want to lie down.

Once in the bedroom, Dawn sits on the end of the bed and begins to cry. Dawn: Do you think it’s my fault? Phoenix: What? No, of course not. Dawn: Climbing Mt. Komorebi, what if it was too much? What if I…?

Phoenix: No. Dawn, there’s no way we could’ve known. And there’s no way to know if turning back would’ve made a difference. It’s not your fault. It just wasn’t meant to be this time. Dawn: Since when do you believe in “meant to be”? Phoenix: Since now.

And something about the look in his eyes told her that he wasn’t just saying it, he really meant it. Meanwhile, she didn’t know what she believed in anymore.  

#ts4 #ts4 simblr #ts4 story #sims 4 #sims 4 storytelling #sims 4 challenge #starsignchallenge #starsignlegacychallenge #gen1 aries #aries pt3 #phoenix realta #dawn stephens #tw pregnancy loss #tbh this was originally supposed to be two longer posts #but I couldn't drag it out #it was so sad I started dreading working on it #so I scrapped them at the last minute and made it a small single post instead #anyway i'm gonna go cry now 🥺

[fromtheseventhhell]

Personally I think it's time for Arya stans to unionize and collectively start being meaner. I'm tired of being "nice" and "fair" to other characters when she gets routinely misinterpreted and turned into a background character. We already get called bullies for pointing out what's written in the books so we might as well embrace it.

#I'm over here rewriting everything I say to sound nicer and for what? for annoying ass people who are going to downplay my faves anyways?? #from now on I'm just gonna post canon and watch them cry because they don't actually like their fave #no more giving certain characters participation points and development they don't actually have #maybe me whacking their faves will finally get the message through their thick skulls 🤷🏾‍♀️ #too many people in this fandom are just stupid and haven't read the books and we need to just start saying that more instead of pretending #that everybody's opinion is equally valid even when they aren't saying anything based in the books

[bilolli]

Opened CSP to finish a Misuta sketch, ended up not finding mentioned sketch and drawing Sunspot instead. Your fic haunts me @venomous-qwille

#I've got to find that damn sketch now #I swear if I accidentally deleted it I'm gonna cry #I'm already upset because my pc drawing tablet doesn't work and I can't partecipate to magmas with my stupid samsung tablet #at least i can draw :'D #anyway I want sunspot and I to be friends #like i wanna be friends with him! i like his character! #but misuta has my heart #lmao gitta go now before I make a Fool out or my self #HA #GOODBYE #bilolli's art #ghost in the machine #sunspot mk1

[formulaonedirection]

He spent the year working on his accent <3

#daniel ricciardo #lando norris #i'm gonna jump fr fr #FOR REAL #he was so SHY ABOUT IT LAST YEAR #SO SCRUNGLY #AND NOW HE'S LIKE YES LET ME JOIN LET'S GO BABY #YOU READY BOY #how fucking cute is that #the way he's let himself grow so much this year is incredible :((((((( #you can see daniel's impact everywhere :((((((( #cry. #anyway. #*dando #nadia's things

[musicalchaos07]

This will force him to open up and, for the first time, let someone in - Jonathan Byers's character description in The Montauk Pitch

#If I think about how this s1 quote is still relevant to his character I will scream #also yes the you act like you're all alone with Will in BG is intentional bc Jonathan is so dismissive of his problems in that scene #ANYWAYS EVERYONE GIVE IT UP FOR THE YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN KID #... I'm gonna go cry over blorbo now #also that's the last line of his character description and it refers to Nancy. I'm attempting to be normal #Stranger Things #Jonathan Byers #byers brothers #Byers Family #Jancy #will byers #Joyce byers #nancy wheeler #userlark #<- so abby can cry over the boy with me later

[yangjeongin]

FELIX | FINDING SKZ: GET EDITION ( EP. 1 )

#felix #stray kids #bystay #createskz #lee felix #*gif #*ccarly #*felix #*carly:felix #these don't match whatever i'm tired adasdgasdg #once again going back to my roots of making everything too red #kinda getting some kingdom gifset flashbacks with this one very reminiscent of the last episode....or whatever that set was... #anyway i meant to go to bed earlier today but i'm gonna be busy today and i started this set and wanted to finish asdfasgdgasd #i was so sleepy early but now i'm awake...cry

[throttlegainwell]

I GRADUATED IT'S DONE I DID IT IT'S OFFICIAL NOW!

#i was just waiting for the paperwork to process before i celebrated but i did it i did it it's actually done! #sorry it's just been infinity years and kind of crazy getting here the non-standard way #i had what could charitably be called a turbulent youth that disrupted my education so you know i'm not exactly 22 #anyway gonna go cry and celebrate properly now #sorry for getting personal on my writing/fandom blog #i just talk to more people on this one these days

[lord-squiggletits]

Pharma's place in a Functionist society (headcanon)

So I've talked in some previous posts about all the reasons that Pharma isn't a functionist because canon never showed him espousing functionist ideals + he's actually in a place to be a victim of functionism. And I've been working on a Pharma-centric oneshot that made me put into words the best metaphor I can think of for Pharma's relationship with Functionism:

He doesn't support Functionism, but is simultaneously a beneficiary of it and also marginalized by it, because his position of being forged both a doctor and a jet basically turns him into a "token minority" of sorts.

I know that sounds kind of silly or maybe like a clumsy political allegory, but hear me out. There are a couple facts about Pharma and the circumstances of his forging that put him at the crossroads between privilege and marginalization within Functionism:

Tyrest says that Pharma was "famous for being forged." Not famous for being a forged medic-- otherwise surely Ratchet would be just as noteworthy-- but famous for being FORGED. But also, note that this is an opinion that SOCIETY had about Pharma, not something that Pharma espouses about himself. (For the sake of an example, Pharma isn't Starscream, who has an explicit, deep-seated need for others' love and approval. Pharma himself doesn't express any opinions on his own popularity or convey that fame/adoration is something he wants.)

Functionism on Cybertron held that if someone was born with a certain alt-mode, they can/should only have certain jobs. For people born with flight alt-modes, those people were almost always regulated to military or transportation/courier jobs

SIMULTANEOUSLY, Pharma was forged with medic hands, which under a Functionist society were viewed as the peak of medical care and all the best doctors were forged or at least had a "special something" that non-forged hands lacked (according to Ratchet).

So taken in combination, this means that from the moment of Pharma's birth, he straddled a line of Functionism between two different "predestined" paths for him, where he was simultaneously forged to be a doctor and also forged to fly, fitting into BOTH of these categories despite norms of Functionism which say you're one or the other. And I speculate that the reason Pharma is "famous for being forged" is precisely because of those lines he straddles: his very existence is a contradiction, but he was also FORGED that way. The same creed that dictated the two different functions of "hands" and "alt-mode" also says that Pharma should be what he was born to be. What he was born to be was a forged medic jet.

In my opinion, I think that being "famous for being forged" is sort of like a token-minority situation for Pharma, where perhaps Pharma was seen as a curiosity or even something exotic, not just as a person. Maybe because he was a jet and people assumed jets were only soldiers/transportation, a lot of his achievements were put in the light of "Oh, he's a really amazing doctor, for a jet" or "It's crazy that he's a doctor AND a jet at the same time". The attention Pharma received for the unique circumstances of his birth WAS positive, but it would've likely been framed in a bit of a condescending way, as if Pharma is noteworthy and famous not for being a good doctor, but for being a good doctor despite being born a jet.

So I would say that as far as Pharma's personal experience with Functionism, he simultaneously experienced privilege and marginalization. He enjoyed the privileges of being a medic while avoiding the restrictions of being a flight frame. However, a lot of the idolization and attention he received would have also come from a place of tokenizing Pharma: he's "famous for being forged," because in this society he's defying expectations merely for existing as himself. That is to say, Pharma in a Functionist society wasn't treated as remarkable because of who he is as a person and how hard he worked to be a good doctor; he was treated as remarkable for the circumstances of his forging, something he had no control over and can't change, and apparently Pharma being a forged medic jet is such a noteworthy origin that he's "famous" for it.

The above paragraph is purely headcanon, of course, but I like to imagine that part of Pharma's reason for having a big ego isn't out of simple vanity or insecurity, but because of a sort of "gifted student" syndrome, in a sense. From the moment he was forged he was treated as a rarity and an incredible phenomenon, and he would have had to work incredibly hard to be seen as "an incredible doctor" in his own right rather than just "that forged medic jet." Maybe, as a jet, he also had something to prove; he had to show to a Functionist society that being a jet doesn't make him an inferior doctor and that his alt-mode has nothing to do with his skills at his profession.

That is to say, I don't think Pharma would have been openly anti-Functionist, or had many opinions about it at all. I actually lean towards the interpretation that Pharma basically saw himself as getting lucky with the way he was forged and being content with the fact that he'd managed to carve out a reputation for himself as being incredibly skilled. However, Pharma not getting involved politically in Functionism doesn't change the fact that he WOULD have had a very complicated relationship with Functionism, in that alt-mode discrimination would have had an effect on him even though he was in the scientific/medical class and supposedly privileged.

#mtmte #mtmte pharma #transformers idw #transformers meta #mtmte meta #squiggposting #pharma apologism #pharma doesn't fit neatly into categories of privileged or oppressed and that makes him especially interesting #tldr: pharma probably got microaggressioned a lot at work lmao #some med student: oh my gosh... a flight frame in medical school... how did you manage that? #omg pharma it's so craaazy that you can fly and you're also a doctor #wow pharma your hands are incredible it's a good reason you have them or they probably wouldn't have let you in #pharma smiling tightly with a drink in his hands: yeah. crazy. #pharma: anyways i'm gonna go perform a triple organ donation everyone fuck off i'm working #i think pharma never got political mainly because he comes off as the type who focuses on his job and nothing else #like he's experienced marginalization on account of being a forged medic JET but he kind of just went #well I overcame the odds and i'm the best doctor ever now and my position in society is comfortable that's all i wanted #but it's a far cry from fanon that decides to make him a full on card carrying functionist that's openly bigoted #i feel like i just repeated myself over and over again without saying much ah well

[hungerpunch]

i see even comedy that doesn't typically "punch down" has circled back around to using crackhead/crackwhore as a joke. i'm so exhausted by you all. you are so cruel, so casually callous, it's worrisome. you don't realize how easily that could be you. you think you're so superior, so pure, so intelligent as if addiction cares about how smart you are or what you do in life. as if this entire country (usamerica) is not machinated in a way to get people hooked on painkillers. as if the docuseries industry isn't busting with expositions that reveal the wide-ranging sprawl of addiction here and exactly how manipulated we have been. as if loads of people in "white collar" jobs aren't addicts. as if loads of stay at home parents aren't addicts. as if addicts can't have pearly smiles and collect a paycheck. as if there's any real merit between the person who got into a party drug as an impressionable kid then couldn't stop and the lawyer who started doing coke to stay awake for 80-hour workweeks then couldn't stop and the unsuspecting patient who was prescribed opioids by a doctor then couldn't stop. there's not. no one is better than anyone else. addiction is leveling. equalizing.

and the worst part is you are one, too, you up there on your high horse. you're addicted to something. something in this world has its claws in you, its grip on you, that you want to stop but can't, that you could not stop without support. so shut up. shut the fuck up. the people you call crackwhores, meth heads, junkies, etc. they are real fucking people. we are real fucking people just like you. we are real people who deserve your fucking respect and compassion. we are just people who are trying to exist within a system that is trying to eat us alive, just like the rest of you. it's not cute. it's not fucking cute. it's not cool. stop fucking laughing.

#lol brb i'm gonna go have a cry now then throw myself into work #i am feeling so worn by how intentionally mean people are to each other like #not the oops i didn't realize that was offensive kind but the #intentionally. on purpose. derisive and dismissive and cold. and unwilling to reach for empathy or compassion or consideration at all. #yeah keep knocking us down to size. one day it will be you if it's not already. #a doctor prescribed me xanax when i was SIXTEEN FUCKING YEARS OLD. FOR MIGRAINES. #i realize i have yet to process how that affected the next [check notes] 14 years of my life #you know. since. he just kept refilling it for me even though years would pass btwn seeing me in person lol. #anyway wow sorry think i just found out what i need to talk abt in therapy this wk! #my lyfe #driveby post #addiction #drugs

[coffee-dere]

Episode 3 of Madoka Magica at 20:03 severely fucked me up btw. if you even care.

#Sobs and cries #Sobs violently #Etc etc etc #Coffee's sillies #Between Kangel‚ Teto and now Mami I think I just really like characters with spinny hair #Madoka Magica #Puella Magi Madoka Magica #But yeah so anyways I'm gonna go cry now~ #Mami Tomoe

[running-in-the-dark]

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was. #idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃 #anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

[angryducktimemachine]

Holmes and Watson acting out the "murder" in the BBC Radio version of Lion's Mane...

[Holmes does a (fake) scream, Watson rushes to him]

"Excellent Watson, my actions to the inch."

"i thought you were supposed to be dead! 🤨"

"Not quite."

"How close?"

"Very close."

"Well, then"

"Oh sorry."

[Audio of Holmes laying down]

#radio Sherlock Holmes #Sherlock Holmes #they're so cute in this 😭😭😭 #I'm gonna go and cry about them now #anyway i absolutely adore the Holmes characterisation in the Coules adaptation it's so delightful

[watanabes-cum-dump]

I will not suffer alone sO-

Edmont singing Leaves From The Vine for Haurchefant.

Little soldier boy Come marching home Brave soldier boy Comes marching home

Here's a full version of the song bc I hate myself

Like... it fits doesn't it? Do you think Edmont regretted caring more for his country and prestige in that moment? Bro is not winning any father of the year awards but he loves his boys and he fucked up bigtime. Edmont is a terrible father but to me he loves them. I think subconsciously in the back of his mind he also tried to put the Fortemps name before any of them. But when Haurchefant died I like to think he was like "Oh shit. I don't care about the Fortemps legacy anymore I just want my sons to be safe."

ALSO DO YOU THINK ARTOIREL AND EDMONT REGRET NOT DEFENDING HAURCHEFANT WHILE HE WAS GROWING UP BEING COLLECTIVELY BULLIED BY ISHGARD'S NOBILITY!? I am so fucking normal abt Haurchefant and the Fortemps you have no idea

And to think it still says Greystone on his grave :(

#i'm gonna cry he's edmont's little soldier boyyy uuueeeeeee #i was fucking devastated when haurche died at the vault AND THEN WE HAD TO GO HOME AND TELL HIS DAD!?!?!?! I #i never want to break the news to someone that they outlived their kid #and artoirelllllll ueeee #idc to me artoirel is the loving protective older brother i like to think he lost his shit behind the scenes #and emmanellain :( #i give him shit for being pathetic but like... can you imagine losing your brother? damn #i kinda wish we saw other NPCs visit Haurchefant on like a schedule or smth #like sometimes it's soldiers from camp dragonhead #sometimes it's edmont or his brothers #i wish emmanellain would visit since he's at dragonhead now #anyways #normal normal kou you are NORMAL #ffxiv #haurchefant greystone #haurchefant de fortemps #ffxiv heavensward #Youtube #edmont de fortemps

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down