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krillian · 2 months

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First post lol

Anyway here's an essay on why Persona 5 is subjectively the least compelling one out of 3,4 and 5 and why just falls flat in the face of the others. (THIS IS JUST AN OPINION!!)

Also side note, this essay was made in mind without the inclusion of P3R/Reload because I haven't played that one yet, Although I have listened to some of the ost.

Spoilers for Persona 3, Persona 4, and Persona 5 under the cut.

Persona 3 has a theme of Memento Mori, its thrown a lot in the intro for a reason. But there's also a much more in depth theme of the celebration of life and how its too short to regret anything and the very overlooked theme of choice and responsibility. These themes were expressed in a very obvious way but it wasn't hitting you in the face. Like, sure memento mori was everywhere in the intro but other than that it was never really in your face. Even the shooting yourself in the head with a gun wasn't in the face and was actually a genius move. The theme is split into little pieces a d are much more subtle and very well interpreted along as being very good unconscious world building blocks. (If I were to talk more about Persona 3 themes it would be a much longer post, so we'll leave it at that). All in all, a very subtle but effective theme.

Persona 4 had a much more obviously stated than three, while P3 had more spread out themes P4 focused on one central one which was of course accepting the truth. Pursuing truth is also a theme (Its literally the title of the opening song) but persona 4 focused much more on accepting the truth, even if it is painful, and if you dont like your truth, then actively try to change it instead of simply accepting it. Also, just because people see something one way, that doesnt mean it's the truth. You need to see through the "fog of lies" and find the truth yourself. It also is about accepting who you are as a person and overcoming hardships to better yourself. Reaching out to the truth of who you are (I wouldn't say reaching out to the truth of the murders is a 'theme'). As much as I like 4 it definitely doesn't have as mature of a main theme as 3 and it doesn't explore it as deeply either.

Now why do I think Persona 5's theme isn't as compelling as the other 2? First let's ask what Persona 5's theme is.

Persona 5 is a deep delve into personal freedom especially in regards to society, especially how it can be both harmful yet beneficial. The story follows a villain of the week format where they're rotten adults that take advantage of the law for their own benefit completely disregarding the pain and suffering of others and as a result create a group of people who are unjustifiably ostracized and belittled.

By all means, this is a great theme, it's a prevelent issue within the world that absolutely needs to be discussed and a company with a previous track record of being one of the best at integrating real life themes and issues in their games and tackling them in a mature and real way yet is still able to add a lightness and comedy inside it should've been the perfect people to do that right?

Well..... The reason why I struggle to see P5's theme to be just as compelling as P4 and P3's is because of it's execution. Unlike the others, P5 has is more style and less substance. Joker is trapped in his situation and if you keep in mind that the game starts in November then it’s painfully clear that at least until then there is nothing that can be done to change that. Persona 5s main problem is the way the story is set up. The basic plot is that you are framed for a crime you haven't committed and have to spend a year in rehabilitation. You are basically a prisoner of society. The velvet room is also a prison to reflect your circumstances. This I feel is done well.

The problem comes with another part of the story. At the start of the game, through your "spirit of rebellion" you gain your persona and create the phantom theives. Throughout the game, others join you and gain their own personas. Together all of you face many dangerous criminals and steal their hearts to reform them. During the year, you also get meet new social links and give them courage to rebel against society.

The problem with this is that there is no overarching plot or goal for you. Whereas, P3 had the goal of stopping the dark hour and P4 had the goal of stopping the murderer, P5 has no concrete goal except maybe becoming popular. Sure they talk about changing society and whatnot but I really don't think that can be done by catching one criminal at a time. By mid game, they are basically choosing their targets depending on how popular it will make then anyway.

This lack of a goal, other than making your actions feel pointless, also cause one other problem, that is, that all the targets feel disjointed and give the villian of the week feeling. This makes the ending of the game feel more out of place because you are suddenly faced with world ending threats with barely any connection for what you did for half a year. Contrast this with P3 where everything in the story leads to the conclusion. It feels like everything you did through the year had weight because your choices have led you to the final battle. This is, imo, why people often say that the story of P3 is better.

Another problem in P5 is the fact that all problems in the game are solved with the metaverse. This has a bad effect on the characters. By the end of persona 4 and especially persona 3, you could feel how much your party members had grown as human beings. Meanwhile at the end of P5, I was just left thinking that these people are back to how they were without the metaverse. Sure they TALK about how much they have changed but this is not really visible in the game.

It's not at all that I dislike these themes or think they are bad, but I do believe that a greater focus on 2 or 3 themes instead of an intermediate focus on 5 or 6 themes would ultimately have ended up with those 2 or 3 themes being more fleshed out and explored a bit better than what Persona 5 did end up doing in the end.

For example, the focus on sex and sexual objectification is a fascinating subject which the game explores boldly and with conviction in the Kamoshida Arc. It feels like the game really wants to speak and communicate about these issues, which is really impressive given how many games just straight up ignore these aspects of society. However, after the game has explored the theme with the Kamoshida Arc, the rest of the game pretty much just drops the theme from the main plot, and I would even say it ends up feeling hypocritical of the game to advocate and speak about how sexual objectification and exploitation is bad, especially by using Ann's character to convey this, only to itself end up sexually objectifying Ann multiple times in future cutscenes, with the Fireworks Display and the Drive to the Pyramid. The game even forces you to pressure Ann into doing nude modeling for Yusuke because every dialogue option either straight up encourages her to do it or shames her for not doing it.

It seems like it only goes halfway with it's themes because it's trying to balance too much on its plate. Like, the game pretty much starts you off with a police officer torturing a high schooler and forcing him to sign a pre-made confession, clearly showing the faults and potential dark sides of the Japanese law enforcement. There, you have a strong, culturally relevant theme just waiting to be explored, and it's the one the game uses as a framing device for the entire story with the protagonist recalling his adventure doing a police interrogation. However, it ends up being pushed completely to the side in the end with the Political Corruption Theme, which, while NOT bad at all, ultimately results in one theme being mostly sidelined, only achieving maybe a bit more than half of what it could have been if it stood alone.

As for there being nothing to rebel against if we take away the police and the judicial system of society, I respectfully believe that there are many other things that are just as interesting to rebel against than those aspects. Persona 5 already utilizes a central theme of Family Expectations pretty well with Makoto and Yusuke, and even Hifumi (who was also originally meant to be a Phantom Thief) as well. I believe that focusing on the Family aspect of the characters and having the antagonist Shadows be characters' guardians more often rather than just using corrupt/sociopathic strangers would have given the game a more interesting dynamic, especially if it showed us why these guardians are so dominating and manipulative against their children to begin with, which could lead to redeeming them.

Now, within the realm of social links, whereas in previous persona games you would help a character grow so that they could deal with their problems, In P5, you simply solve their problems, if they have any in the first place, with the help of the metaverse. This makes it feel that none of the characters grow over the course of the game. Case in point, Chihaya.

Chihaya says how she has learned from you that fate can be changed through effort, but you solve all her problems through the metaverse. This gives an impression that fate can only be challenged if you have supernatural powers and makes what Chihaya is saying feel hollow. Contrasting this with P3 in which you simply talk to and give courage to your social links like the monk, odagiri, kazushi and yukari. They change through their own effort, whether they succeed or fail to achieve their goals.

The social links in all have the same problem of there being just one issue and their problems are solved. While I enjoyed your party members evolving their persona on their own like in 3 with the story, I do wish they did more of that like making their last rank or two being locked by certain story events. I like how social links in 3 and 4 had the Reverse and Break mechanic, where you could really screw up and ruin your relationships. I really enjoyed the realism it brought along with the AI team cause that makes more sense then telling everyone what to do every turn.

Plus P5s social links also feel a lot more "anime" like. P5s social links include a doctor who managed to make a miracle cure, a toy seller who is a former yakuza, an actual psychic and a teacher who works as a maid at night. The previous games had a lot more down to earth characters with normal problems, which imo made them far more relatable. The dialogue is a bit too cringy with its "shitty adults".

P5s pacing also suffers due to copying P4s deadline system. The monthly deadlines make the targets feel more like minor annoyance than an actual threat. The time spent waiting after completing a palace also hurts the pacing. This is another place where P3s system makes the story flow far more organically.

However, I believe Persona 5's biggest problem is not that it lacks depth per say, but it introduces a ton of different mechanics, side stories and areas that, while not bad, only end up reaching half-way to what they could have done if there was more focus put on them.

If we look at the gameplay for example, we could take a look at the stealth. The aspect of stealthing through a dungeon undetected and taking enemies by surprise via ambushes should feel fantastic and fits well with the Phantom Thief aesthetic, but for me, all that goes out the window when I figured out that enemy Shadows are not exactly... bright. If you get into stealth, as in hide behind anything, you are literally undetectable by Shadows. They won't even react if they bump straight into you in a hallway, as long as you are technically hiding behind something. Because of this, I don't feel like a badass when I get the jump on them, as they don't deliver any kind of challenge in regards to actually spotting me. Even worse, if you are at 0% alertness level, you can actually ambush them from the front, as in run straight into them while they are looking at you, and they will still get ambushed. This does feel cool to do, but it also undermines the threat and competency of the enemy if you can just toy with them like that, and if your enemies are incompetent, it doesn't feel as good to outsmart them as if they were more of an actual threat. (Although this was only in my experience playing the game, if it's different for you please feel free to share.)

That's not all. The Alert Gauge is, as we've all probably come to the same conclusion to, almost entirely pointless. Because of how good stealth is, it's rare that an enemy actually spots you, and thus the gauge rarely rises. In fact, it's actually to your advantage if you raise the gauge, as you will encounter more Treasure Spirits if you do. I'm not entirely sure the mechanic even makes sense either, because you lower the gauge by fighting enemies... what? You mean that starting a brawl in a hallway will attract LESS attention to myself, instead of more? I mean, I guess there's one less Shadow to worry about, but they respawn either way! That's like going with the "I won't be noticed if there is nobody around to notice" approach to stealth games, which, while not completely bad, doesn't really fit the 'thief' aesthetic.

The inclusion of more elements and elemental weaknesses to the game's combat initially seem like a good improvement to the series, especially when it allows the developers to make party members with more unique elemental combinations. However, I raise the objection that more elements actually take away from the gameplay rather than enhance it. Ask yourselves this: why are there only 9 elements, when we could have 12, 15 or 20? The most immediate thought is that adding more elements takes away the uniqueness of the already established ones, which is also true, but more than anything, it's for gameplay purposes. If there was that many elements, they would have to be spread among all the enemies' skill and weaknesses lists so they actually appear in the game, just like what Persona 5 did with Nuclear and Psychokinetic, but then you realize something else: the elements also have to be relevant. if nobody has an elemental weakness to a particular element, then that element is by design less useful than others. One of the central aspects of the Persona series' combat is exploiting and defending yourself against elemental attacks so you or your enemies get '1 mores' and are able to continue the assault of attacks. By adding more elements, you also at the same time makes this system of elemental weakness worse, because there is a lower chance you or your enemies posses an elemental attack the other is weak to, especially for your side as party members will only have access to one element. I myself played through the majority of the game with a persona that was only was weak to Nuclear, and I was rarely ever knocked down or was in danger of being knocked down, because so few enemies actually have nuclear attacks in their arsenals. In Persona 3 and 4, no matter what Persona I use, I always have to be careful of my weaknesses because I will encounter each element very often (and Personas in those games are designed so that if they don't have a weakness, they either don't have access to many or even any elemental attacks, unless they are late game personas), while in Persona 5, I almost never have to worry at all.

I could go on and on about gameplay aspects like how how skills cards and sacrifices heavily encourages only using a single Persona throughout your adventure that you occasionally switch out with a new one, instead of having multiple Personas you would have to switch between to cover your strengths and weakness like in Persona 3 and the original Persona 4.

Imo p5 also copies far too much from the previous games, it takes the deadline system and a "wild card user who is an antithesis to you" as well as "final boss who has controlled everything in secret" from p4, and just blatantly copies tartarus from P3 and repaints it red. While this doesn't make the story worse, it makes it feel like the developers were just going through the motions of what a persona game should be.

All of this doesn't mean that I hate the game. Its genuinely one of my favorite games of all time, I am simply pointing out the various flaws I see in it and how imo it's the least compelling in the series, however as it is, it still stands to be one of the most greatest and influential games in recent times. I admit that the various points I have are pretty biased and how people see people who hate on persona 5 even remotely as hipsters who just don't like the fact that persona has gotten so popular, to quote a reddit user. But to each their own, in my opinion it is arguably the worst in the trilogy (not counting 1 and 2 because that's an entirely new conversation), and to some it may be otherwise but all persona games are deep in their own way.

#persona 3 #persona #persona 5 #persona 4 #persona 3 portable #persona 3 reload #persona 4 golden #persona 5 royal #p3 #p4 #p5 #p3p #p4g #p5r #p5r spoilers

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tinukis · 2 months

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FINALLY SHOWING OFF MY COLLECTION !!! i finally reorganized a little bit buuut it still feels incomplete... anyway!! it's a mix of one piece and pokemon... ft other things but mostly one piece

FIRST SHELF:

again, mostly pokemon and one piece. i've been collecting pokemon plushies/merch in general since 2018. and to be completely honest with you, i feel like my life didnt start until 2018. i have no recollection of anything at least irl before 2018... i have a bunch of pokemon plushies still that arent even on here or theyre just hiding from sight! (like behind gladion is a steven stone plushie nfmshd) OH AND I HAD MY GLADION AND MIKO PLUSHIE MADE !! i just drew it and then gave the designs to a manufacturer :3 my next goal is to make another two but with their alt outfits this time :D

also on the top shelf, other than the action figures and plushies, are artbooks! for original sun/moon, usum, scarlet/violet, and it's hard to see but artbooks for the great ace attorney/dai gyakuten saiban as well !! also the gladion acrylic standee blends in well with wano zoro jfkdhjd omg do yall think gladion could do a closet cosplay of zoro (miko got him to do it <3)

also im not rlly big on pop funkos, theyre just gifts <3

AND TWO BINDERS OF POKEMON CARDS... i dont play i just collect them bc i like pretty art

SO UM. SECOND SHELF. one shelf dedicated to zolu, asl, and ace and sabo :3 behind the zolu figures are tiny plushies of them and rubber straps but well, its hard to see em </3

i got into one piece since like. early september and now i have an entire display dedicated to one piece 😭 + other things like persona lol

feat my pokemon boxes and unboxed one piece figures. ofc, this isnt Everything i have but it's Mostly everything

the last two things i'll show and the second post wont be posted until i update my stuff more

so heres my poorly made luffy cutout that was literally made with sweat and tears... in fact i startwd this project like a WEEK after starting one piece 😭😭😭 thats how you know i was strapped in for life

and my corkboard!! some cool one piece works and the wano zolu sc :3 it's really cool to have these things hfmhdjd

the ace print, frobin charms, rubber pins, and stickers i just pinned on are stuff i got from a con. everything else from jp mercari !!

tbh, the sealed gladion acrylic standee is like my most prized treasure... not that i dropped hundreds on it but i got it for a lot cheaper compared to the other sealed ones online :'D + his postcards too are one of my most prized possessions... i wonder who my favorite pokemon character is

honestly idk what to fill the empty space in with but i wanna balance out this corkboard with pkmn and OP so maybe i'll try to hunt for more pkmn stuff

this is all i'll share for now but the next post will show my two ita bags that i have :0 !!! and my comically large arcanine plushie that i named ace 😁🫶

#tin talks #dain's collection #(help me)#one piece #pokemon #how am i into like the biggest franchises ever #theyre my biggest wallet drainers considering theyre literally everywhere you go #I ALSO HAVE WHOLE CAKE ISLAND POSTER BUT next time #i want more gear 5 figures too.... my silliest guy ):#this isnt even my first corkboard either lol #but my first coarkboard is just a lot of tgaa/dgs stuff #and... selfship......... Anyway!!!

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grahamcarmen · 8 months

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Asking possibly a stupid question, but i don't really understand the opera symbolism of swan lake I understand carmen as foreshadowing for her and grays relationship and the flying dutchman as foreshadowing for grey's role in the finale but I don't understand swan lake.

Also why is your ask box named snapcracklepop.

I dont think its stupid. Lol I was asking the same thing (while mildly acknowledging maybe its just cause like carmen the opera is an easy peasy pun, swan lake is a recognizable ballet even if youre not into ballet) because idk its fun and even if its not meant to be 1 to 1 im trying to give the writers some credit since the thieving magpie and flying dutchman are absolutely not recognizable ones but while not 1 to 1 have a few beats that can be compared

Here's the Wikipedia explanation of whats happening technically

I'm looking at this ending and it looks more like a bow to me ... but point being its something hard that needs all the players to look and dance in unison since they're literally all linked

+ the context of what is happening in the ballet

Siegfried is promising his love to Odette to break her spell so that she and her friends can be free (and cause he's smitten with her aww)

So its their pas de deux and then the little swans [in the version i watched anyway] + some swan company dancing before returning to seigfried and odette

end act

Start next act and storybeatwise the following happens

Rothbart will present odile to him and seigfried promises his love to someone who only looks like odette.

Which technically speaking carmen recruits gray for a mission where her movements for the electric gates/panels...what are they called again...anyway- will have to be synchronized...like a dancer she says ^^ along with player and gray doing their roles perfectly which they manage to do good enough once

However somethings wrong with the feed causing gray to leave his spot

So at the very least its technically a " the working in unison has been broken"

Context wise that I can overthink because I can??...uuuuuuh

Carmen really does not want VILE to have him but is also having a hard time separating graham from gray huh.... and in the mission "keep gray away from anything that could transform him back" plays a part because carmens all set on the idea that these conditions (an extremely dumb plan) keep gray safe from VILE influence, promising to put his safety first but ultimately protecting a VILE constructed persona [WHICH I DO PERSONALLY TAKE ISSUE WITH I DONT THINK GRAHAMS ACTIONS THAT DAY IS SO ENTIRELY WITHOUT GRAYS OWN TRAITS >:0...but yeah lol he usually does not care at all about what the right thing is overall] with a lot of romantic insinuating outside of that dance of little swans

Points i guess for carmens underlying suspicions that she puts to rest for the moment but graham just absolutely gone for her by the end

Little swans squished in the middle of gray very blatantly wanting to be with her and carmen 🤭hoho he likes me😊

Here's a fun one I found via google

...hmmm...idk those people tho so take that with a grain if you instead want to watch and judge the ballet and its themes for yourself.... there's actually a lot of free ones on youtube :D

+ a section in the version I watched where the company talks about how pledging love to odile is odettes doom and the love isn't as pure as they're pretending it is...Carmen! 😑 gray! 😑...but isn't wholly unsalvagable because of the forgiveness and actual true love they do end up showing each other.

With the swan lake ballet having that dichotomy between true self, curses, and a flat out fake who only looks like the beloved

it is a plot point that this happens and almost dooms them ...I mean they die but its like in a ballet dang I guess their souls live then cause they manage to stick it to rothbart

In the end their true selves DO end up together.

+ bonus round

Gray being part of the little swans until he decides instead to be the one who found the red swan (haha...neatcodename) at the heart of a VILE facility and its his constant assurances that he's on her side that help carmen think she can beat VILE and keep him around/ are kinda a point . See him having and then throwing away the crackle rod when she looks all :( to help her instead (seigfried in the forest with a crossbow)

Anything for the kiddos huh...but also lending his expertise outside of the dance of the little swans to help her and her mission

Having a little rendezvous with her beforehand and then after the dance of swans mission only for her to disappear into elusive carmen (sorry watching odette be turned back into a swan)

He actually does fall a bit in love and keeps his interest in this strange girl

+dark! Carmen being chosen for a hot minute before gray sacrifices his own ambitions and loving Carmen for who she truly is is what gives them both a chance at breaking the curse- i mean VILE influence and brainwashing

TLDR: supposed to be working together only for the dance to be interrupted

And looking at beats from the whole ballet is fun to compare actually. Lottsa pledging love but also who is the true self 🧐?

My askbox is like this because

SNAP.CRACKLE POP RICE CRISPIES!...and crackle the dude...

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#red crackle thoughts #sorry to everyone who knows ballet better than me but this is what the casual has to say about it #asks #i am barbie/nest/anime/thatoneballetbook i had swan laker primarily so #odile! carmen real tho...#in the ballet ! au ☆

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p5x-theories · 1 year

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Heya, this might be a bit of a big ask, but I noticed you mentioned in a few posts that you’re learning Japanese. Seiji, Yuki and Mont have the occasional voice line (from what I’ve seen, most of them are in their stat menus, they say something when you go to inspect their character models, and I think they speak when they’re pulled in the gatcha), and I was wondering if you’d be able to translate them? I’m a lil obsessed with them ngl I love their designs and I’d love to know what they say.

It’s totally chill if I’m asking too much, just figured I’d shoot my shot. Your blog is a godsend btw, it’s awesome to have everything we know so far archived in one convenient and trustworthy place 💕💕

Aw, thanks! Glad to hear my blog's been helpful. :D

To be honest as soon as I read this ask I went to go see if I could datamine the voice lines haha, since that seemed like the easiest way to get them all, but unfortunately I'm not super experienced in datamining and can't quite figure out where those are/how to extract them, so digging through videos I guess it is! (If anyone reading this has any advice for datamining audio, any help/pointers are super appreciated!)

Anyway, let's see what I can do here; I'll format this as what I think I hear in Japanese first, then what I think that translates to (and do take this with a grain of salt, as I am still learning Japanese haha!).

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Starting with this video- Yuki appears first at ~2:12.

わたしのしは、おみせします！-> "I'll show you my work!" (honestly, it could be a lot of things besides "work", but that seems the most likely, especially with how little we know)

Seiji's right after her...

ともだち...　はい。きみとなら、よろこんでともでいたいです。-> "Friends... yes. If it's with you, I'd be glad to be friends." (I'm not 100% sure on the grammar here, but I'm pretty sure this is the basic idea at least)

And then Mont...

はあ...　りらっくす、りらっくす...　きんちょでしぱいしたら、すべてだいがしょ。-> *sigh* "Relax, relax... if recent work made you tired, everything's alright." (okay honestly this one gave me the most trouble by far. the sigh and "relax, relax" are definitely correct, but I kind of leaned on google translate + my dictionary to help me with this one, so take it with some extra salt. for the record, google translate turns it into "Everything's fine if you're tired." it's also possible the last bit is しよ instead of しょ, in which case google translates it as "Everything's okay if you're kind." not super sure with this one, sorry!)

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Next up, the gacha pulls. Yuki's first again!

はじめまして。ふじかわきんをこうきんしゃ。ふじかわゆきみです。-> "Nice to meet you. [???]. I'm Yukimi Fujikawa." (going to be honest. no idea what the second sentence is. not getting anything that makes sense from my dictionary and even google translate gives up on it haha. it's possible I'm mishearing it due to the sound effect?)

Um. This video then barely lets Mont's line play, so I'm not sure if part of it gets cut off. If you know a better one that definitely lets the whole line play, please send it my way haha!

みんあさんとみると、わたしもでつよくなた -> "When I see everyone, it makes me stronger too!" (or... something to that effect?)

And then Seiji...

これに？しらとりせいじともうします。よろしくおねがいします。-> (okay I'll be honest I cannot hear one of the words in this one thanks to the sound effect haha. the rest after the ? is "My name is Shiratori Seiji. I look forward to working with you", I'm just not sure how the first bit connects to it without that word in the middle)

Not strictly what you asked for, but I'll also do what I can of their battle lines/in-Metaverse next, since it's conveniently accessible...

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(Also referencing this video since it's a bit easier to hear some of the lines there + there's more of them）

Starting with Yuki at ~3:00!

Baton pass- おまかせを -> "Leave it to me."

One more/hitting a weakness- しんぱんごください -> (seems to be along the lines of "Please take care", but not sure exactly how that applies in this context? For sure it's "please" something at least)

Summoning Persona at ~19:08- いっしょにいきます！-> "Let's go together!", ~19:57- しめます！-> "Closing it!" (honestly this could be a couple things. "closing it" barely makes sense but I'm not sure which translation it'd be instead??)

Hitting a weakness right after that- せてくす！-> "Let's go!" (google translated, since I don't recognize... anything about this phrase tbh, so grain of salt here)

Genuinely no idea what she says when she attacks the shadow with a physical attack, haha, sorry!

Gun attack- もくひょのこくにん、できます！-> (aaanother one I'm not sure how to translate. mostly typing this out in case anyone who sees this is able to weigh in at all hah)

Her all out attack line and finisher are also very hard to hear in this video tbh, but I think I can at least make out the word たしきりました, which google translates as "That was great!" so take that as you will.

In the other video her all out attack line is more audible at ~20:11- みんあここに、かえまくです！-> (another one I'm leaning on google for, it gives "Everyone is here to return!". It's definitely "Everyone is here" something, just not sure what the second part of the sentence means.)

Post battle, ~15:02- こんばんはおろかさにうすびつきます。-> "This evening we will start to make the foolishness disappear." (REALLY guessing with this one. It could start with "This evening" or just "good evening", and I think "foolishness" is correct, but the ending of the sentence is sort of throwing me off tbh)

Next is Seiji... who doesn't seem to talk a lot in combat. Could be they're still recording his voice lines, or maybe it's something to do with his character where he doesn't talk a lot in fights?

Physical attack- そこです！-> "There!"

One more, ~46:21- おわりにします。-> "I'll end this." (might just be おわり, which'd just be "The end"; can't tell if I'm hallucinating more to the sentence underneath the Persona summoning sound effect haha?)

Spotting a chest, ~52:40- そうぞういじょうです？-> "Am I imagining some strangeness?" (kind of going out on a limb with this one tbh)

Locked door (or maybe a delayed post-battle line?), right after that- じゅうじつしたいいちにちでした。それではみんなさ、ぼくはこえで。-> "It was a fulfilling day. Well everyone, that's my opinion." (another one where I'm reeaally guessing here, so take it as you will)

Definitely a post-battle line, 1:02:22- きょうもはりきていけましょ... -> "Let's keep going today..." (this is honestly just the google translate bc I'm not sure. definitely "Let's [something] today..." at least? as an aside, he's given kind of the downcast portrait with this line, and the chinese subtitle ends it with an ellipsis, so sort of a weird tone here? is it supposed to be reluctant? or disappointed the battle was easy, maybe??)

Finding a safe room ~54:06- あぶないですね？[きょうことぱ]をすすめしません。-> "Isn't it risky? I do not recommend [???]." (honestly this sentence doesn't seem to make sense in context to me haha, and it's making it very hard to figure out what that word in brackets is. I'm not sure if I'm even hearing it right? It might be the idea is he's pointing out it's risky to keep going without stopping at the safe room, idk?)

Leaving safe room (?), right after- ろっくされていますね？るーとをへんこうしましょう。"It's been locked, huh? Let's change our route."

Can't hear the all out attack finisher in the video very well, unfortunately.

All out attack finisher in the other video, ~1:23:32- ぜんりょくをつくしました。-> "I put forth every effort."/"I did my best."

Entering an area in the Palace ~1:31:05- かぜをかんじます。[かくしつろ]がここに。-> "I feel a breeze. [???] is here." (another one where I'm having trouble making sense of the word. this would be easier if we at least had Japanese subtitles, hah).

And last is Mont, who doesn't appear in that other gameplay video I linked like the other two do (I feel like I haven't seen her in gameplay videos for P5X as much in general?), so I just have the shorter video to go off of.

Baton pass- じゅうびOK -> "Preparations are okay." (as in like, "Preparations are ready", or to extrapolate further, "I'm prepared"? I think I'm hearing this one right (OK is a loanword used in Japanese, and Mont used the english word "relax" in a line I listed earlier too))

I can't hear her line for the One More in the video- honestly even with the music overlay, it kind of sounds like everyone's voices are quieter when they summon their Persona in general? Maybe that's just me.

Gun attack- きめるは？く -> (something about deciding. In the video she fires right on the ?, so I can't quite figure out the word)

Can't hear her line well when she summons her Persona, or hits its weakness, either.

All out attack- わたしのきみつけい[ぶる]うけてみなさい！-> (something like "Observe/experience my [something]!", I'm just not entirely sure what it is, especially since I'm not sure I'm hearing the part in brackets right.)

The all out attack finisher I can actually kind of hear, but I can't figure out what sounds she's saying exactly, and honestly I've listened to it like 15+ times now so I think if I hear it much more I might lose it, haha

Sorry, this is maybe a little underwhelming since there's a lot I couldn't really translate! I also don't know a video off the top of my head that has any of their lines in the stat menus, so sorry I didn't really get to that either.

Feel free to send other videos my way (you or anyone else, ideally with time stamps for lines) if you want me to try to translate them, but this is about the level of quality you'll be getting. ^^;

#persona #p5x #persona 5x #persona 5 x #persona 5 the phantom x #yuki #yukimi fujikawa #fleuret #seiji shiratori #mont #kotone montagne #translations #might as well start that tag #first beta

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mochiwrites · 1 year

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PIRATES MY BELOVED HELLO MOCHI,,, To think you thought I wouldn't be in your inbox bc I beta read it who do you think I am I have so many Thoughts Always >:)

So first of all Mumbo's introduction is Killer. I love long haired mumbo very much. One of my weaknesses is long hair. Anyway, the fact that he's chronically late makes me DLNGKDFSGAKF ITS SO FUNNY AND IN CHARACTER!!!! And it parallels well later with the fact that he doesn't recognize Grian and his overcompensation at trying to catch him because of that fact is the reason Grian gets away mmm.

AND THE CREW OH I HAVE MANY EMOTIONS ABOUT THEM LOOK AT THEM. LOOK AT THE LITTLE FAMILY THEY'VE MADE UP!!! LOOK AT HOW WELL THEY WORK TOGETHER!!!! ITS EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEEEEEE. The fact that its Ren, Tango, Iskall, and Impulse who are drunk is so funny to me. Cleo being the one to reel them in. Pearl falling asleep I am dkdflhsgdsaf. Feeling many emotions already.

The way you have them banter off each other is great too. I told you this when I read it but this gives me like, Atlantis/Treasure Planet vibes. It's more lighthearted in tone than Goodcrimes and Songbird for sure, not to say thats a bad thing of course. I think it plays really well into the aloof nature of Grian, where he's just out to have a good time until he has to get serious, and even then its clear hes sort of 'playing with his food' - cocky but well executed. I'm absolutely sure that won't come back to bite him in the ass ;)

The way he almost flirted with Mumbo during their first meeting is so funny. The fact that everyone darted out of there like chickens with their heads cut off. REN TAKING THE DRINKS!!!! And I am EYEING the fact that Grian was looking for enhancements on the weapons AND that his sword had one. I mean, it makes sense, this is an au that features THE Architects after all, but I am vibrating under my skin.

'captain's orders' its so in character for Grian to use his power like that I love it so much I'm. Mm mm mm. Look at him. He fits the pirate captain persona so well. Gnawing at the bars of my enclosure. And once again we come back to cocky and confident and reliant on his crew its EVERYTHING to me. EVERYTHING. I can't wait for it to bite him in the ass.

SEA FRUITS HYPE SEA FRUITS HYPE HYPE HYPE HYPE!!!

many thoughts!!!! I too have many thoughts about them <3

I remember having a lot of trouble figuring out how to introduce mumbo in the au and I quite enjoy what I settled on :D long haired mumbo was mojo's idea and you Know I had to follow GFJHFH. we once again have a special flavor of mumbo in which he's got cool abilities but he's Still a wet rag of a man and I cannot wait to show more of him

I LOVE THE CREW SO MUCH!!!!! I HOLD THEM ALL SO CLOSELY!!!!! they've been together for like. at least three years before the start of the canon storyline. so you Know they've got really good chemistry and fall back on one another so easily that it's like second nature. I loved writing their banter so much!!! it comes so easily and it absolutely brings such a more lighthearted feel to the story than goodcrimes or songbird and I love how fresh it feels.

AND GRIAN.... GOD I LOVE HIM!!! grian is so cocky, so very aloof. he's here for a good time but the minute things go wrong he's prioritizing the safety of his crew and he's putting on his captain's hat.

it totally won't bite him in the ass :)

GRIAN AND MUMBO'S INTERACTION WAS SO FUN -- because like, I sat down to write it and was like "right, I need their first meeting to be flirty but also impactful, mostly on mumbo." and that's what was produced. I love it. and then it ALL goes to shit :D and grian's grabbing their drinks, and GOD REN'S WHOLE BIT WITH RUNNING WITH THE DRINKS... it's such a funny mental image, him holding four mugs of rum and running on top of tables to get back to the ship.

and hehehe, getting into the actual world they all live in is gonna be a lot of fun. because we've got that lovely steampunk influence and you Know my brain is doing a lot of brrrrr'ing. also I Need you to know that I started grinning so big upon writing grian electrocuting someone with his sword.

but he DOES!!! he does fit the vibes of pirate captain so well!!!! and I cannot wait to play around with it more. there's a lot of ideas rattling around in my brain with it <3

SEA FRUITS HYPEEEEE :D

#mochi speaks #sea fruits au

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chihirolovebot · 2 years

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hi!!!! i come bearing gifts! heeeere is physicist. i changed some aspects about them like turning the overalls from olive to black because i really enjoy the black/red/white palettes. i also gave them those gloves (for their science experiments where they mix chemicals up so their hands dont explode? i truly know nothing about physics). im definitely gonna overhaul their design at some point because i think they need more flair so they fit in with the rest of the dr cast yk. im still working on a full portrait of them atm (color shading etc etc) which i sincerely hope u will enjoy

also! i wanted to throw in here: PLEASE listen to me and michael + when you die (both my mgmt) if you haven’t already bc those 2 songs have kokichi/physicist written all over them.

the front pocket was not originally part of the overalls btw! they wanted a larger place to store more of their things so they clumsily tried to sew a pocket into an item of clothing without knowing much about sewing or anything. they were really bummed when it turned out looking weird but eventually came to enjoy the personality it added to their fit.

the kokichi doodle at the bottom is him playing with their glasses! they are basically just the talks a lot + listens dynamic,, also i feel VERY weird about kokichi’s hair i swear i messed up somehow while drawing it but i can’t figure out what exactly it was. the little stick figures of physicist and oma were me on my last brain cell but i think that’s them for the entire fic in a nutshell. oma likes to go on villain monologues and physicist is done with his bullshit!

the big physicist on the left is them posing for a picture! they look awkward because i imagine them being kinda camera shy. i also imagine whoever took the picture just kinda snuck up on them and snapped.

ah yes yes and the fan game! i’m partway through the prologue and if you want i can send you a short demo of the draft i have so far? so far it’s taken a turn from the traditional dr games since i got rid of the movement mechanic,, so now it’s more of like a VN than anything! i don’t know HOW i’m going to draw all the CGs and sprite customization options (thank you to @/goldentime for the idea by the way i really appreciate it :D) and write all the code as well as do the ost and decal and all that other stuff but i will find a way! somehow. it’s been really fun though and i’m actually very proud of what i have so far!!

anyways. ty for writing sleep awake! it’s crazy to me that such a long and gorgeously written fic is up on the internet for FREE. it’s definitely better than most original fiction is, and dare i say, much much better than the actual v3. i love what you did with chapter 3, the trial felt soo natural i forgot several times that it wasn’t what was in the actual game! it’s obvious how much time and effort you put into research, planning, and writing, and it really shows! so thank you <333

HELPPPP OH MY GOD THESE ARE SO FUCKING CUTE!!! im literally sitting so giddy here rn!!! ur mc is so special to me i LOVEEEE how they look so much god their vibe is indescribable... giving sad wet kitten energy. want to wrap them in a fuzzy blanket and place them gently on a pile of newspapers.

the gloves r such a neat addition!!! the block colouring n black and red kind of reminds me of the persona 5 artstyle which is a huge compliment!!! i lov their hair... their lil glasses... the freckles.... so so cute. will be turning this version of mc over in my head Forever !

hehe the little kokichi interactions give me so much life. the one of him fiddling with their glasses is so immaculate and u have their vibe absolutely down pat, 'talks a lot' and 'listens' is simply just THEM!!! oh but it sometimes goes the other way around when mc starts rambling abt physics n ouma is jus. jus sitting there. absorbing it all. mc's little blush is adorable and i totally think kokichi would just fiddle with their glasses or clothes while talking. is he doing it on purpose?? who knows???

I HAVE LISTENED TO WHEN U DIE BEFORE (it was actually my first mgmt song!!!) and holy shit ur so right. my third eye has been so closed,, and urs has been so open. definitely feels like kokichi talking to the mc like, putting on this evil mean facade, wanting them to hate him so he can keep up with his mastermind shtick and keep them at arms length but sigh, they know him too well and the act isn't holding up. i listened to me and michael because i hadn't heard it before and yes yes YES i see the vision. the closeness of two people being affected by red flags or toxicity or just other people or outside factors.... god. thinking so so hard abt this now and they're both going on the sleep awake playlist!!!

I WOULD LOVE FOR U TO SEND ME WHAT U HAVE ALREADY FOR THE GAME WHAT!!! WHAT!!! holy shit. it turning out like a visual novel is probably ideal, right?? i dont know anything abt game development AT ALL so forgive me if i say something dumb but most fan games dont include all the complex mechanisms from actual danganronpa games and most tend to just either be youtube vids or click and point thingies or just. yeah. visual novels!! which is so good.

as for the cg's and stuff, i dont rly know :( i would offer to draw them myself if i was any good at art, basically all im good at is sprite edits but im trash at anatomy and stuff so i rly dont think i would be any help. i would suggest commissioning but thats probably way too expensive, and again, like. i would commission stuff myself but im so broke at the moment. i COULD always commission some stuff when my student finance comes in, because i'll have a bit extra this year as my accommodation is way less expensive. but we can cross that bridge when we come to it i think!!! whatever ends up happening will be more than fine by me!!! im literally so excited

thank u so so much again for this art and for the game which i cannot believe is a real thing!!! i will treasure these for life <33

#submission #<3.kodzus #🏚.sleep awake

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daxieoclock · 1 year

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🥺🛒🎶💖🦅🤩🤲 and 🧠 for Haru!!! :D

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK AAA

🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?

Uhhh okay so I'm such a fucking sucker for when a character's mask involuntarily slips, but I also fucking love when a character intentionally lets down that mask as a gesture of trust. fucking kills me every time. In Red Gaia, you've got when Vee drops her unaffected shtick around Tifa and starts being full and genuine with her. And in DV, you've got when Akechi surrenders their knife to Kasumi, and early on the scene where Ren drops the lies fully for Ann that just fucking kills me every time.

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

@lilyhoshikawa hooked me on scar imagery, @mcpuliotjr hooked me on egg imagery, but. masks. masks are all me. i mean it's big inspired by persona 5 obviously but i think the initial piece of media that made me start obsessing with masks was Bleach. if you know you know.

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

Always. always always. I sometimes have to pause it to think through tricky parts but music helps me so so much. g-d bless character playlists, really.

song wise ive been listening to the hosiers and des rocs a lot, but Worried About Ray has been my repeat song for a few weeks. still hits so hard.

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💖 What made you start writing?

Can't remember! I was like eight, and I was always obsessed with stories and storytelling and it felt natural to me to make my own stories

🦅 Do you outline fics or fly by the seat of your pants?

Column A, column B? If it's a big fic I've already outlined at least a chunk of it in my head, and I often have to write down those details to keep from losing them. Even then, I often and up coming up with stuff midway through writing that I'd never considered, or making big changes on the suggestion of my beta readers (hi jane <3). with oneshots, it's full on pants. I get a basic idea and just sit down and flow thoughts and see what happens.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

G-d. how can I even pick. Uhhh. Ann Takamaki probably. G-d I love her and I love writing her. She's so angry and loves so fully and like ALWAYS has a strong opinion about everything and I love that about her. I also adore her friendship with Ren SO much aaa they're so good for each other.

Haru...I love her so so much but she's got like five million masks that it's sometimes hard to hit on what she's actually feeling at any time. I'm confident about how she'll react, I'm just not always sure what she's feeling.

Akechi's also really fun to write but I'm not nearly as good as Jane and Jae at writing them djfgbjb.

🤲 Would you please share a snippet of a wip?

I'll share a few actually. All from the same oneshot, which is fully first-drafted but i have no idea how to properly contextualize it without getting into my five million unposted headcanons about a Final Fantasy mobile game.

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Anyway it's fun to jam characters from different Final Fantasy games together cause sometimes I'm just like "yeah Y'shtola (XIV) would sleep with Kurasame (Type-0) to get over her angst towards Lightning (XIII) who is currently ghosting both her and her other lover, Prishe (XI)." Messy polycules of traumatized sapphics dating traumatized sapphics from other worlds. As you do.

🧠 Pick a character, and I'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them.

Oh hey I can bust out a relatively new one for this. My friends know it, but I haven't posted it here yet.

#again ty ty for the ask <3

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soft-serve-soymilk · 1 year

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I posted 1,436 times in 2022

That's 1,436 more posts than 2021! (Well of course, I started again this year 😅)

38 posts created (3%)

1,398 posts reblogged (97%)

When I say I want to be more like V this is what I meant 😅. Only,,, 3% are original :o Blogs I reblogged the most:

@askr

@midnight-rice

@theblackbutterfly02

@tag-that-oc

@lildoodlecat

V is just topping all the charts xD

I tagged 1,418 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#fire emblem - 169 posts (I can think of several reasons)

#tales of zestiria - 107 posts (somehow)

#persona 5 - 99 posts (yeahhh that’ll be all the god tier akeshu art on my dash sorryyyyy)

#tales of xillia - 96 posts (I liked it!)

#fave - 95 posts (I also like a lot of things!!)

#mikleo - 83 posts (He is a good boi. Must protect)

#persona 4 - 82 posts (Probably increased in reblog numbers ever since Dolphin started playing it :>)

#goro akechi - 75 posts (Tumblr is a fascinating ecosystem)

#captive prince - 70 posts (Hi Shadow :3)

#fire emblem three houses - 68 posts (Hi Shadow again :3)

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#dism’s concept in conception—and you wouldn’t be able to tell this now— was that he was ‘what if the sidekick best bro became the protag’?

That is true— it was my launching pad for his personality! I took so many cues from Junpei and Yosuke 🥲

I figured one of these would be about my ocs xD. It was just a lucky dip of which tag bc I knooooow I’ve hit the character limit many times talking about them 😅

My Top Posts in 2022:

V’s ask: thank you <3 i'm very happy you returned to this hellsite! our dashes wouldn't be the same without you

And then what I said (Tumblr why did you destroy the formatting): You’re welcome <3. And I’m happy to be back, no matter the form :). I even cameo on Dolphin’s new banner hehe (get on my level /lh). Anyway the whole world can enjoy this meebo doodle, as a treat for your kind words <3333

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Ah yes— my first trial of the New Art StyleTM ✨

OC-Tober Day 1: Childhood (@oc-tober2022) Sweet summer child Dism don't u know that not following the latest artificial children's toy trends doesn't make you any less valid, nor do you need to be exceedingly helpful or skilled.... no don't develop a white-knight complex ahaha you're so cute </3

13 notes - Posted October 3, 2022

MY SON MY BOY *goes on incomprehensible rambles for the next 40 minutes*

Short king 👑

26 notes - Posted September 12, 2022

I am still endeared to Jude 🥺

*Careless Whisper intensifies*

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Of course this ended up here ^^;. I did the right thing by hopping on the peonus hype train :P

My #1 post of 2022

‘The moon is beautiful, isn’t it?’

I drew my favourite capri scene (^・ω・^ ). Please click for additional quality!

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I knew this was going to be a winner before I clicked the button xD. Ah yes, my most popular piece of artwork of all time :3

It took so looong to draw tho hehe (like 2 months, even with school holidays)

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

And that was my potluck of a tumblr in a nutshell :D

#year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #I’m so happy to be back though :D #remember kids self-punishment is never the answer and never trust how you feel about ur life past 9pm 😌#I hope y’all have enjoyed my very very inconsistent blog as much as I have~#Can’t wait to see what next year has in terms of hyperfixations~ (probably tgcf. You guys dashes will be going to hell except for Jays :3)#just pav things

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star-fandoms · 5 months

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Welcome

This is gonna be my fandom sideblog where I literally will just post art of fandom ocs and absolutely ramble about them(Them being my ocs, and whatever fandom I'm hyperfixating on at the time) Although not all fandoms I like I have ocs for and don't plan on making any for.

This is also HEAVILY a canon x oc(Oc NOT personas/self-inserts!!) so if you don't like that, that's fine! Just block me and move on, no big deal! Also I do kind of change some of the settings to fit my oc's in, but it's nothing extreme I don't think. Also I am not taking this blog seriously LOL, I will just ramble about whatever, whenever because holy moly the inside of my brain is an eternal hell. Maybe I could even make some friends with similar interests FHDGHJDGHJ. If you see any fandoms you like that I also like we should ramble about them and if we have any ocs for our mutual fandoms they should be besties! I guess I should get into the fandoms I like!! Oh also cw for some of these fandoms(Like the fanbase is huge and largely toxic, please don't group me in with those toxic people. Also some of them do have some not so great creators, I'll get into it more later. If you have any feeling that you know which ones I'm talking about and don't want to see me talk about them or whatever, then I would recommend not following!) Also not every fandom I have finished reading, watching, playing, and some of them are just fandoms I REALLY wanna get into, some of them are fandoms that I'm not really involved in anymore. FC stands for Favorite Characters and some of them are more like characters I'm interested in/like their design. I've colored the series names, cause it's a lot to read so if you're interested you can just read the series names and see if you like them as well! Long post, REALLY long post below

Anime/manga

Kimi ni Todoke (I'm SO excited for season 3! One of the first animes I have ever watched!! Would recommend if you're looking for a cutesy romance story, although it's still filled with drama. I have no oc's for this story. FC: All of em honestly)

Ouran high school host club (Another one of my first animes, I hold this anime very near to my heart. I know I DID have oc's for this story, but not anymore. I don't think I'll be making any oc's for this story, at least not any time soon. FC: Mori, the twins, Haruhi)

Fruits Basket (Another one of my first anime's LOL! I watched the 2001 version and haven't gotten around to the newer version, though I would like to watch it eventually. I don't have ocs for this story and I'm not planning on making any. FC: Kyo, Momiji)

Blue Lock (I started reading the manga like peak Quarantine, I would be reading this during virtual learning. When the anime came out I watched it with my sister since she used to play soccer, though we never finished sadly, so now I'm rewatching it again on my own. I do have oc's for Blue Lock. FC: Nagi, Rin, Kurona, Kaiser)

Blue Period (I never finished this one, I really need to! I still have oc's for it though. It was recommended to me by my sister who watched it, and I was drawn in because it's an art anime so ofc I would be interested. FC: Haruka)

Tokyo Revengers (I believe I'm still on season 2, like one of the last episodes of season 2, like seriously just finish it already, Star. Anyways I had binged the first season and moved to the manga to finish what was out at the time and I kept up with updates as they came out. Still can't believe season 3 is out, feels like just last week I was watching the first season and being obsessed. I do have oc's for this anime, a lot of them lol I hold them close to my heart despite not having solid designs out yet. FC: Mitsuya, Rindou, Sanzu, Wakasa)

Jujutsu Kaisen (BARK BARK BARK CHOSOOOOO, pardon me. I wonder who my favorite FAVORITE is??? Yeah jjk was an anime I found freshman year of hs, back when Megumi was my main favorite. Anyways the love-hate relationship I hold with this anime is insane. All the bad stuff? never happened, k? I do have oc's for this jjk! FC: Choso, Ino, Megumi, Inumaki, Yuta)

Demon Slayer (I didn't finish the latest season, however I did read the manga after finishing the first season which was all that was out at the time, but I also didn't finish the manga LOL. I do have ocs for kny! FC: Inosuke, Mitsuri, Muichiro, Gyutaro)

Bungo Stray Dogs (I binged the first season and then got bsd burnout soooo yeah I'm only on the second season. I have ocs for bsd! I love the art style and had wanted to get into it for a while, I do want to go back and finish it! FC: Akutagawa, Yumeno, Chuya)

Trigun Stampede (Another anime I never finished, you'll see a lot of these LMAO! I was really drawn by the art style and animation, I believe an edit pushed me to watch it. I still need to finish it and then I also want to watch the original because I've heard a lot of good things about it! Yes, I do have ocs for it as well! FC: Vash!!)

Osomatsu-san (I remember trying to get into it in middle school due to edits and fanart I had seen, I have some old OLD art of those ocs still. I did want to try getting into it again, but I've still only watched like 3 episodes so I'm really not far at all! I want to redesign my old oc's, but yeah I still have em'! FC: Ichimatsu, Karamatsu, Jyushimatsu, Choromatsu)

Nanbaka (I never finished Nanbaka either... I vibe so hard to the opening though, it goes hard. The character designs really caught my attention cause they were just so out there, like I was pretty used to more tame designs but then here Nanbaka is using these vibrant color combos and some interesting hairstyles and catching my eyes. I also have ocs for Nanbaka! I did start watching it again since it had been like 3 years since I watched it. FC: Nico, Kenshirou, Upa, Seitarou)

One Piece (Mmmmm One pee. Yeup. I told myself I would never watch it, mainly because of the cough cough 1000+ episodes and well considering how I struggle to finish animes, knew that the day I finished this anime would be the day hell freezes over. Anyways tell me why like 2 years ago I tried watching it and only made to episode 5 and then I pick it up earlier this year(2023) and make to episode 185 in like a month or two?? What happened to me?? The chokehold this series had on my brain is insane. I definitely have my own issues with it, such as the sexualization of the women and with that the proportions, but honestly I still really like this anime. I also have ocs for one piece, they might honestly be the first ones I show, but its not all of them, just the ones I have references for. FC: Kobe, Shanks, Ace, Sabo, Luffy, Corazon, Penguin, Bepo, Nami, Robin, Chopper)

Hunter x Hunter (Oof! I really need to get watching this anime already. I've wanted to watch it for so long and I've tried over 3 times but I just can't seem to find motivation to watch it. I Did have oc's for this, but obviously since I've hardly even watched it, they're sloppy and need redesigning. FC: Kurapika, Chrollo, Feitan)

Bleach (I know a bit about Bleach through my sister cause while I was hyperfixated on One Piece, she was hyperfixating on Bleach. I sounds interesting, I just haven't made it super far mainly cause I don't have motivation to watch it. I do want to make ocs for Bleach! FC: Chad)

Madoka Magica (I had wanted to watch Madoka Magica for a while but could never find motivation, even now I'm only on episode 2. I do really like what I've seen so far and I'm excited to get to the more messed up parts! FC: Madoka, Sayaka)

Snow White with the Red Hair (It's been like several years and I'm still on the first season. I made it to the final episode of the first season before getting bored and then I came back aware of a season 2 and wanted to watch it so I wanted to finish the first season but then wanted to rewatch the first season to remember what happened but I'm still not at season 2 yet because I haven't continued watching it in months. You'll see this happen a lot as well with me. I don't have any ocs for this and don't plan on making any. FC: Shirayuki, Obi)

Full Metal Alchemist (I've only ever heard good things about Full Metal Alchemist and so I've wanted to watch it for years, but I never got around to it. I still do want to watch it, but I'm not sure when. I also don't know if I'll ever make ocs for this show either?? FC: unsure as of now)

Haikyuu (I think I'm still on season 3/4 I can't remember which one. I did start rewatching it again, I made it to episode 15 so yay, I need to watch more. I started watching in middle school, got bored and took a break and then went back to it in high school, and now I'm watching it again. I do have oc's for Haikyuu! FC: Kenma, Sugawara, Iwaizumi, Osamu)

My Hero Academia (Thank goodness I wasn't there for the peak worst part of mha. I mean I had watched a bit of mha in middle school, but I never really got into it. I do love the style and the characters though, and I really like what I've heard about with the story and stuff, I'm excited to catch up. I'm currently on the 3rd season and I do have oc's for mha! FC: Taishiro(Yes, I love both versions, there is no being a Fatgum simp if you only like the skinny version>:(, Mirio, Amajiki, Ragdoll.)

The Ancient Magus Bride (I've wanted to watch this anime for a while and finally got around to it. It's not at all how I was expecting, though I enjoy it! I don't think I'll make ocs for this anime. FC: Silky, Ruth)

Attack on Titan (This anime has a special place in my heart and honestly I was debating ever continuing it. I watched it way back when it only had 1 season with my mother and my sister and we were patiently waiting for season 2, however my mom passed away like a year before season 2 so my sister and I never watched anymore since we always considered that to be an us three kind of thing, it just didn't feel right to watch it without mom. But now that I'm older and it's over, I want to watch it again. If ghosts exist, then maybe my mothers ghost can watch it with my sister and I! I don't have any oc's yet, but I do want to make some. FC: Armin)

Blue Exorcist (Something similar to aot happened to blue exorcist as well. It was an anime that mom and I watched together. I believe one season was out at the time as well. I never watched the ova or season 2, mainly cause I didn't know they had been released, but when I found out I held back since that was like mom and I's thing, but once again, I wanna try watching it again. I don't know if I'll make any oc's for Blue Exorcist. FC: Rin)

The Apothecary Diaries (I love shoujo anime so this is a must watch. I also really enjoy the main character like a lot! Like she kind of slays, she a baddie. I don't have much to say mainly cause there's not a lot out, but I enjoy it a lot so far! I don't see myself making any oc's for this show. FC: )

Act-age (Honestly, I haven't started reading this at all. I just saw this one dude from the manga on my Pinterest and went "I like the style and this character, where he from." And then added it to my to read list. I know absolutely nothing about it so far. I don't know if I'll make any oc's for this manga. FC: unsure as of now)

Battle Angel Alita (One of my best friends in the entire universe was telling me about this. Honestly I don't know much, but it sounds interesting, I have to read it and then gush about it to my bestie. I don't know if I'll make any oc's for this manga. FC: Unsure as of now)

Pumpkin Night (Okay the website I was using to read this manga had a horrible translator and that kinds threw me off, but pushing that aside, I really REALLY like this manga. The style is really clean and pretty, and I love Naoko's design. I believe I saw an edit of her years ago in early middle school and wanted to read it since and got around to it in early high school. It's really gory, so if you don't like that, would recommend you avoid it. uhm and depending on which website you're using, you may have really horrible translations, I don't mean like bad grammar or anything like that, that would be absolutely fine, I'm talking about the translator being a shitty person. I don't see myself making any oc's for this manga. FC: Naoko

Yona of the Dawn (Kimi no Todoke gave me newfound hope that Yona of the Dawn will get another season despite all this time, I am clinging on to threads honestly. I've spent so many night crying, hoping for a season 2. Everyone who has watched YotD wants a season 2, come on please! I NEED it!! Like I still see the manga getting updates so there's plenty of content to make a season 2 and once again its in high demand from those who watched/read YotD. I do want to make oc's for this show, I believe I had some but they're old and I remember nothing. FC: uhm like everyone <3)

Land of the Lustrous (Another anime I'm clinging onto to hope with for a season 2. I NEED it. I have a hard time finishing animes, let alone rewatching them, but tell me why I could watch land of the lustrous over and over again. It is so good. I do want to make oc's for this anime. FC: Phos, Cinnabar, Diamond, Padparadscha, Aculeatus, Antarcticite, Cairngorm)

Remarried Empress (Ooooo pulling all-nighters in high school to read this was definitely my favorite decision. In all honesty though, this manga means a lot to me and has inspired some of my own stories, I didn't think I would be one to like the old-timey ruler stuff, but I am. I also love the relationships between the characters. I don't see myself ever making ocs for this series. FC: Navier, Heinry)

Death is the only ending for the Villainess (Also pulling all-nighters to read this during high school. I loved the art style and the story. I don't really keep up with it anymore which happens with a lot of manga's that I read. Either their anime's come out, or I just get tired waiting for updates. Anyways, I really like the mc and who she ends up with, they scare me lol. I don't see myself ever making ocs for this series. FC: )

Today the villainess has fun again (Honestly, read this awhile ago and hardly remember anything. I know there was the one dude with pretty eyelashes and I fangirled over his blushing face. I don't see myself ever making ocs for this series. FC: )

Spy x Family (Watched this anime with my sister, though we never finished it. We finished season one and think we made it kind of far into season 2. I think it's a really cute anime and want to finish it, I can't wait for it to get more darker and more serious. I don't see myself ever making ocs for this series. FC: Yor)

Beastars (I haven't watched the anime or read the manga but I want to! I've heard so many people talk trash about this anime before giving it a chance since it's "furries" but then like when they do watch it or for those who watched it without judging it, only say good things. I do know some spoilers, like I'd say I know like the basics. But I love the animation and art style and the story seems really interesting! I know I'll have to read the manga since no more seasons will be coming out sadly, but also because of the side stories. I don't know if I'll ever make oc's for Beastars. FC: Unsure as of now)

Chainsaw Man (I remember my sister reading the manga and then us finding out that there was gonna be an anime adaptation, so I held off on the reading. I really liked the style and animation, and the opening made it to my spotify wrapped last year. I did have oc ideas in mind, I never got around to designing them. Honestly the ideas I had I'm not really proud of either so most of them will be getting redesigned entirely. FC: Power, Angel Devil)

Sailor Moon (I haven't watched this anime in so long! It been since 3rd grade and I made it to 60 something episodes. Back when anime episodes were uploaded on Youtube with little to no problems. I wanna rewatch this anime so badly. I don't think I'll make any ocs for this anime though. FC: Sailor Mercury, Sailor Chibi, Luna )

Tokyo mew mew (I need to watch the reboot, I used to looove magical girl anime's in elementary school. I don't remember much other then liking the show and watching old Ichigo x Quiche amv's and hating the main male lead. I don't see myself ever making oc's for TMM. FC: Quiche, Ichigo, Minto)

Shugo Chara (Another anime I haven't finished. I showed this anime to my sister and she got farther then I did, I don't think I even made it past season 1. I still want to go back and watch it though. The openings are bops! I don't see myself makings ocs for this anime. FC: Amu, Ikuto, Tadase)

Cardcaptor Sakura (Never even started watching it, I just REALLY want to!! I've seen some Clips on youtube, and some funny dub moments on tiktok. I can't see myself making ocs for this series. FC: unsure as of now.)

Neon Genesis Evangelion (Another anime recommended to me by my friend. I've only watched like 8-9 episodes. I want to watch more, and I'm excited to see those darker moments cause I love stuff like that. I don't think I'll be making any oc's for this anime either. FC: Rei)

Noragami (I only watched the first season in like 5th grade or something. But now I'm seeing like all the latest chapter stuff on tiktok and like wanna rewatch/finish the anime and then read the manga, unless they'll animate the entire manga. Anyways I don't think I'll be making any characters for Noragami. FC: Hiyori, Yato, Yukine, Kofuku)

Mod Psycho 100 (Despite me only being on the second season, I do hold this anime close to my heart. I NEED to finish this anime, especially now that it's like over. I do have ocs for this anime! FC: Mob, Reigan, Teruki, Dimple)

Shows

My Little Pony (I remember skipping school in 4th grade to binge the seasons that were out on netflix. I used to have a whole bunch of mlp toys as well. I loved mlp so much when I was younger! I did want to rewatch it again recently, sometimes it's just really nice to go back and watch shows you loved as a kid, even if you cringe at how obsessed younger you was with the show(Pretty sure I tried doing a fluttershy cosplay with what I already had when I was younger.) I have a ton of mlp ocs, that I made on pony town since I really struggle with drawing ponies, but I think I'm getting better! FC: Fluttershy, Pinkiepie, Princess Luna)

South Park (I had wanted to watch south park for a long time but just never had anywhere to watch it until recently! That said I obviously haven't made it far lol. Think I'm only of season 3 or something. Obviously the show has horrible humor and touches on bad topics in a poor manner so avoid this if you're sensitive to that stuff, not that there's anything wrong with that of course! I do have oc's for this show and I'm working on my own sort of au I guess. The south parkies will NOT like me I guarantee. FC: Kyle, Wendy, Kenny, I don't know the other characters well enough to have an opinion.)

Ninjago (I remember this show airing when I was around 9-10, somewhere around that age group, and I wasn't super interested, think I watched like an episode or two. But then like I had started hearing all this talk about Ninjago online and it was only good stuff and I had wanted to watch it since. Too bad the fandom's pretty much dead :( I'm still not done watching it. I do have oc's for it though! FC: Kai, Llyod, Nya)

Lego Monkie Kid (I've rewatched this series 3 times within the past 2 months, so if that's any indicator on how good this show is and how much I love it, there's your sign to watch it. I got my bestie to watch it as well and now we're both hyperfixated. It's great and the seasons and episodes are both short so it's a really easy show to binge. I love the characters and the story. I also love the Eternal Servants au by @/emelinstriker (Sorry I don't know if it would be okay to tag her over something like this, I'll tag her properly when I do fanart!) That being said, I do have oc's for lmk and the au! FC: Macaque, Ao Lie, Mk, Redson)

Arcane (I was shocked when I found out this was a League of Legends show, it also kind of dissuaded me from watching it, but I'm so glad I did! This show is so well done! I've named plants after the characters, I have a little solar light-up polar bear named "Claggor", I named my cat "Ecko", and not that this was intentional, but when my sister and I first watched it my hair was dyed blue and hers was dyed pink. Needless to say, I love Jinx and I've never related to a character as much as I do with her. I'm so excited for season 2. I won't be making oc's for this show though. FC: Jinx, Ekko, Victor)

Bluey (I love this show so much! A huge comfort. I understand that some might be drawn away by the fact it's like a children's show, but it was really comforting to me. Like it was nice to see a good family, not perfect of course, a good and healthy family. And some parts reminded me of me and my sister. And the show isn't just like some normal kids show where the characters are asking you where an apple is when its right in front of them, no this show actually feels like it's teaching me something. Like this is something that I would show my kids and be able to watch this with them. I won't be making oc's for Bluey. FC: Bingo)

Games

AMONGUS (Among us was really fun to play with friends, it sucks that I'm so bad at it though. It's also so easy to tell when I'm imposter cause I just target one of my best friends, she does the same to me, it's great. I do have among us ocs! I even made a little story around them!)

Witches Heart (I finished watching manlybadasshero play the main game but I don't think I ever finished the bonus stories. I love the story and the artstyle, it's a big inspiration for when I'll make rpg's. I think I might make oc's for this story, but I'd want to watch it again. FC: Wilardo, Sirius, Noel)

Your Turn to Die (I haven't watched the latest update yet so I'm not caught up yet, I also haven't watched since freshman year so I want to watch it again. I was like hyperfixated on this game the entire freshman year, I was doodling my ocs and the characters on my worksheets. It was great talking to my friend, who was the one that got me into it, about it! I did have ocs, but they're old and in need of a redesign, I'll be redoing them! FC: Joe, Sara, Reiko, Keiji, Gin, Ranmaru)

Stardew Valley (It's been a while since I've played Stardew Valley, but I want to play it with my sister again. It's fun and I'm excited for their new game as well! I do have ocs for Stardew Valley! FC: Sebastian, Sam, Shane, Haley)

Genshin Impact (Oof. This one is difficult to talk about. I hardly play this game anymore, I think the last time I played it was when Sumeru came out because I wanted to explore the region. Anyways I was super obsessed with this game back in 2019-2021??? somewhere around those times. Everything was really fun in the beginning and then it got exhausting and I have issues with the creators, especially with the release of Sumeru characters. I still do have ocs and I think about them from time to time, they're still early in development as well, I want them to be detailed like the in-game characters. I feel I have more bad things to say about this game rather than good things, but it doesn't stop this game from being an important part in my life. FC: Diluc, Xiao, Heizou, Kazuha, Scaramouche, Ningguang, Ayaka, Kaveh, Shinobu)

Honkai Star Rail (I really don't play this game much but I kept up with it during development and excitedly waited for its release date. I still somewhat keep up with it but I really don't play it often. I do like the game more then Genshin though, I just get exhausted with grinding games. I do have ocs, still in early development since they need to be more detailed. FC: Dan Heng, Blade, Jing Yuan, Argenti)

Zenless Zone Zero (I'm still keeping up with the development, I can't play it though since it's still in pre-registration. I don't have much to say since I don't really know anything. I do plan on making ocs and have a few in mind. FC: Von Lycaon, Billy Kid, Soukaku)

Danganronpa (Middle school was wild. I was into Danganronpa before it reached it's peak in 2020-2021, I was into it in like 2017-2018 and then kind of got back into it in 2020, but mainly with my own ocs and fangame ideas. I just remember the fanbase being so toxic in 2020 and even now some of the fans are not so good(Which is obvious, every fandom has it's bad apples.) I also have issues with the game, such as the sexualization of the teens and even younger in ultra despair girls. I'm not super into the fandom, but I do have my own ocs that I like and want to make a fangame for eventually. FC: Kirigiri, Mukuro, Komaeda, Shuichi, Jataro)

Punishing gray Raven (I'm sadly not very far and my interest never lasts long sadly, I think I'd be more into it if was on pc since it's really hard to play games this immersive on my phone. I do have an oc for PGR though! FC: Lee, Lucia, Liv, Kamui, Chrome, Vera, Ayla)

Animal Crossing (Dude I was obsessed with Animal crossing for a bit. New horizons is the first and only animal crossing game I've played, but I remember watching the horror places in new leaf, I loved watching the scary things in animal crossing when I was younger. I do have an oc for animal crossing! FC: Goldie, Marshal, Raymond, Judy, Coco, Merengue, and so many more but these are the mains)

Cookie Run (I don't have much to say other then I just log into cookie run almost every day and that's it, I don't really do anything like I used to. Kingdom and ovenbreak. I do have cookie run ocs! many many cookie ocs! FC: Pure Vanilla, Cotton Candy, Chili Pepper, Milky Way, Frilled Jellyfish, Snapdragon, String Gummy, Chocolate Bonbon, more so many more)

Wadanohara and the great blue sea (Okay so for the Okegom stories, I'm more so still into them for the nostalgia and my own ocs. I do love the style as well but the creator is...awful. I got into these stories in middle school so it's been awhile and I didn't realize that the creator wasn't a good person. WATGBS is really nostalgic and has a special place in my heart. Once again I love the style and the music is a big inspiration. I also love the character designs! I do have Ocs for WATGBS! FC: Wadanohara, Memoca, Fukami, Uomihime, Mikotsuhime)

Gray Garden (Unlike WATGBS, I never finished Gray Garden so I don't have much to say. I might go back and try to watch it cause I'm pretty sure I made it far but I don't remember. Oh yeah, this is another Okegom game. I also have ocs for this game. FC: Kcalb, Yosafire, Froze)

Ice Scream (I think this was my first Okegom game, it's a web browser game so I've actually been able to play it. It's a short little game and I was waiting for years for updates but none ever came. I also have ocs for this! FC: Shirogane, Yukisada)

Bloodborne (I've never played Bloodborne, the only reason I am even remotely into Bloodborne is because my friend is going through extreme brainrot and got me to makes ocs for it, so yes I have ocs! FC: the Doll

Obey Me (I started playing this game like a week after it came out and yet I'm still not even at lesson 16 LMAO. I also pre-downloaded nightbringer and I'm not far in that either. I know stuff that happens though! I do have ocs for Obey me! FC: Mammon, Satan, Beelzebub, Simeon, Barbatos, 13)

What in Hell is bad (oh gosh, this game is well its a game alright. It's really funny to me, like I cant take it seriously. Mainly because of the gacha animation, but also it's just funny. Although this would be torture for me if I was actually in the game since it's really sexual and my demisexual ass would be disgusted. Anyways, I definitely have issue's with this game, like some of the philia's are problematic(like Necrophilia, I don't remember all of them but I think that's the worst of them) and also due to circumstances in the game, noncon in common in the game which is yikes. Also I just used my Obey Me oc with a few changes, I thought it would be funny if in every au she came into contact with demons. FC: Satan, Minhyeok, Paimon, Marbas, Astaroth, Zagan)

Our Life (I love pouring 70+ hours into this game. I was obsessed. This game means so much to me. Cove Holden is my standard. Just wait till a get a card and some money, I am buying those patreon moments. Also I am so SO excited for Our Life: Now and Forever! Like I WILL cry. Our Life: Beginnings and Always made me sob at so many parts, and I'm expecting the same for OL:NF. Anyways, I do have oc's for both Our Life's! FC: literally everyone)

Ensemble Stars (I love finding out how messed up this little idol game is. I was into the game before Ensemble Stars!! came out, so I was into the first game, but I couldn't ever play it, and finally it came out in English and on the phone/computer. Since it came out on pc I've been playing it a lot more! Midnight Butler is my favorite song!! I do have ocs for Ensemble stars! FC: Ritsu, Arashi, Mika, Kanata, Midori, Chiaki, Leo)

Ikemen Revolution (Heartbreaking to find out it was cancelled. I never made it very far, but still. I like watching the event stories on Youtube. I'm pretty sure this was my first Ikemen game as well, so it's even more sentimental. I do have an oc for this game! FC: Luka, Lancelot, Jonah, Edgar, Zero, Kyle, Loki)

Ikemen Prince (This is the Ikemen game I've played the most. I love the art style and the characters! I eat that shit up! I also watch the event stories on youtube LMAO! I have an oc for this game! FC: Yves, Chevalier, Clavis, Rio, Licht, Gilbert)

Ikemen Villains (I'm excited for this game to get released in English! I've been seeing a few translations on Tumblr. I don't have much to say as I barely know anything, but I do have an oc at the ready. FC: Ellis, Harrison, Liam, William)

Twisted Wonderland (Honestly, you'll probably mostly see Seele, my twst oc, on this account as I draw them the most and also get hyperfixated on twst the most. Also I did have another account dedicated to her, I'll access it another time and delete it since everything will just be moved here. FC: Jamil, Malleus, Deuce, Kalim, all of em really)

Lovebrush Chronicles (I've played this game once, but I want to play it more! I think the premise is really interesting and I know a bit about the story and I'm excited to get to that point. I have an oc in mind, but not much work has been done on them. FC: Ayn, Alkaid)

Infinite Blue (I'm excited for the actual game to come out, so far only the scavenger hunt demo is out. I do have ocs for this game, though they aren't well thought out as of now. FC: Rory, Alexei, Leo, Milo)

Tears of Themis (I really enjoy this game, I like mystery games and romance games and boom here's a combo of the two. I do have ocs for this game! FC: Artem, Marius)

Undertale (I love this gam so so SO much, it means so much to me. Sadly I was there for the worst parts of the fandoms, I had just witnessed it, I didn't participate in it. I was a sans fangirl but not those that would make videos of killing other sans fangirls, I liked the fangirls that got together and became friends! I made an entire series off of my old Undertale oc's That said they aren't Undertale oc's anymore, maybe I'll make some in the future idk. FC: Toriel, Sans, Papyrus, Muffet, Napstablook, Mettaton, all of them!)

Deltarune (I didn't finish chapter 2. I really like this game and the music if a huge inspiration for me! It definitely doesn't hit the same as Undertale due to that nostalgia factor, but I'm gonna keep up with any game that Toby Fox makes since he's a big inspiration for me! I might makes oc's for this game in the future but as of now I don't have any. FC: Susie, Ralsei, Checker King, Seam)

Wobbledogs (The silly game ever! I don't have much to say honestly, it's just a silly game where a mutate silly dogs. No ocs, just a silly game I like. Put them in the floating cheese room)

Degrees of lewdity (oop- I haven't played this game in a bit but I was obsessed for a bit. My luck in this game is shit though, one time like every move I was getting gotten. I do have oc's for this game! FC: Kylar, Alex, Harper, Robin)

Castle Crashers (I used to play this game all the time in Elementary school, although I could only play it over at my cousins house! I don't have much to say since I don't remember that much, I do have it but there's not anyone to play it with as of now. I do want to make an oc, just a little silly. FC: The pink knight)

Sims 4 (Silly character creator, that's all I really use the sims for. Although I do want to use it for other purposes to, like house designing and stuff for my ocs. I just makes characters on it though, but they've all been ruined since my mods needed updating and I forgor every single mod I had LMAO, they're all bald ad naked)

Five nights at Freddy's (haurhaur haurhaurhaur haurhaurhaurhaurhaurrrr n e ways the horror game ever ig. This game holds a special place in my heart, I need to continue my yearly fnaf phase where I rewatch all of Marks playthrough and then every game theorist video on it. I do want to make ocs for this game, I've had ideas but never went anywhere with the ideas. FC: Foxy, Sun and moon, Marionette, Mangle)

The Witches House (I think this was my first horror rpg game ever, it started my obsession. Also I have more but they weren't as meaningful as the ones on this list. Dude the twist of this game, I eat that up. I want to rewatch this game so badly. No ocs, don't plan on making any either.)

Ib (I think out of all the horror rpg's I've seen, Ib is my favorite and also the one I've rewatched the most. This game is so important to me and who I am as a person honestly. No ocs and I don't see myself making any soon, but maybe in the future. FC: Honestly, the trio ever.)

Mad Father (This is my second favorite rpg game! Also very special to me and my heart, I could cry thinking about the memories. These games raised me, which might be concerning actually, but nonetheless, they raised me. No ocs and I don't see myself making an oc. FC: Aya, Maria, Robin)

Kingdom Hearts (Don't ask me literally anything about this game, it's crazy that I basically know nothing despite this game being an important part of my mind for the past 18 years LMAO I've only played 2 and 3 and never finished either. My mom introduced me to Kingdom Hearts and I used to LOVE watching her play it! Ofc I played it myself too after watching my mom play it. I don't know if I'll ever make ocs for this game, maybe if I get hyperfixated on it again. FC: Sora, Roxas, Axel)

Wizardess Heart (I'm so upset this game was taken down off the app store, I lost all my progress. You can still play it on the SWD collection game where it has a bunch of the developers games into one, but y'know. I do want to make oc's for this game and get back into it! FC: Lucious, Elias, Randy, Yukiya, Hugo, Zeus)

Baldurs Gate 3 (Never played it, tryna get it for the holidays. My sister plays it and we're gonna play it together. Tbh I'm mainly interested in the dnd aspect since I've been wanting to get into dnd for a while, but I never really knew where to start and this seems like a good place to start. Obviously, I WILL be making ocs :3 FC: Karlach, Gale, Glut, Lae'zel)

Garten of Banban (Say whatever you want about this game, I enjoy it's chaos, it's funny as fuck and entertaining. Is it good? No, not really. Does it need to be good? Nah, it's got chaos and that gives it at least +20 points to me lol. I might make ocs for this story later but idk. FC: Bittergiggle, Bambalena, Sheriff Toadster)

Misc

Welcome Home (I really love this arg! Definitely not as obsessed as others, but I love keeping up with the creator and seeing what's going on in the fandom. I do have ocs for this! FC: Wally, Sally, Poppy, Howdy)

Mystery Flesh Pit National Park (What an outlier in this entire list LMAO, anyways THIS is my favorite horror piece. I can't explain it, and I won't in this post, I'd need time to really get down the feelings this project gives me. I've spent several hours watching the 1 hour documentary on youtube by Wendigoon and even longer playing the roblox fangame. I love this series, specifically the part where the clowns get melted, it's a horrifying idea and I love it. FC: the pit)

Poison Bugs (More Okegom! I have no clue what's going on in this story, not much is out and I'm not sure if there's any place where I can read/watch this, no clue. All I know is bugs, and I like bugs, so bug ocs. So yeah I have ocs for this. FC: Odea)

Obsolete Dreams ( Final Okegom as of now! I think this is like a comic/manga, but I've never read it. I want to, but also like I have no clue what the plot is even about and it lowkey seems all over the place. I think the main plot is a dad who has a bad relationship with his daughter and he's trying to mend it, but he's an alcoholic sooooo. Anyways, oc's, I have 'em, but no work has been done on 'em. FC: Maekami, Jork, Kiku, Glasses)

Lacey's games (I don't have much to say, I just like it! I like horror, and I specifically like this type of horror. Where it disguises itself as cutesy but it's not, it's morbid and will haunt your days.)

Vocaloid (I also don't have much to say, fandom wise. I've been into this fandom since 3rd grade, my stalker got me into this music, its great, what an important part of my life. I want to make oc's for this so badly and make them voices and stuff, using the UTAU app. FC: Gumi, Len, Oliver, Fukase, VY2)

Homestuck/Hiveswap (So never finished this but gosh the impact the web comic has had on me. I saw this one post like a couple months ago that said something like "Every homestuck fan is trans" which was really funny since going as John Egbert for Halloween made me question my gender so yeah it really was my awakening. I do have ocs! FC: Karkat, Dave, John, Rose, Nepeta, Kanaya, Xefros)

Orin Ayo/Tragicbox/incredibox (It's mainly Orin Ayo and the spin-off/sequels. Uh warning for VERY dark content if you're looking to get into it! Anyways I'm obsessed with the story and character designs, I wanna make ocs for Orin Ayo and have an idea. Normal incredibox is fine though! The beats go hord! FC: Tab, Lilac, Cratz Pur, Kaski, Mike Scarlett(From Incredibox Airline), Mason)

#So happy to finally finish this cause now I get to just ramble about my ocs #Theres probably more that just slipped my mind #This account is for my fan ocs and fandom ramble that I don't want on my main account #This will be updated eventually #like if I think of any fandom I missed #or if I end up making ocs for some #or get into any new fandoms #which feel free to suggest some!#No promises i'll get into it but I'll check it out!#wow long post #i lomv long post yippee

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yakuza 4 thoughts

I forgot to cross post my entries from my DW acc. Well, if it shows something, it’s that using three different blogs to post the same thing was a bad idea. I just don’t know which platform would be best for me. I think a lot about deleting DW and now I am contemplating it again lol (and I’ve already done that once!)

Anyway, the point isn’t my choosing problem. The point is that I finally finished Yakuza 4!

If it’s not apparent enough, Yakuza 3 was probably my favorite to play in the series. I had just finished off 2′s bonkers story and was more than enthusiastic to slip right into seeing Kiryu bonding with the kids in the orphanage. It was everything I dreamed of. The combat was so much fun. Revelations were an excellent addition and getting them was very fun also.

Not sure if it's because how much enamored I was with 3 that caused me not to fall back into the series with 4 soon, or the fact that I wanted to play the other games I wanted to inbetween, but it took me like 6 months to play this one. I had only started playing DMC3 then but that game was hard af, so I wanted to check if my potato PC could run Y4 - turns out, it struggles big time. First day, I played with the settings to get it to working and voila, hello, Akiyama-san.

I then (for no reason at all) went to play Splinter Cell and that was the biggest mistake of my life. Because I absolutely loved it. And couldn't think of any other game until I finished it around 10 days (hey, I suck). Anyway, that already has its own entry so I won't talk about it again. Then, I finished DMC3 and then finally went back into Y4 almost a month later again.

It didn't take me long to find out the problems with the excessive RAM usage this game is guilty for. The problem gets especially apparent once you get to the hostess clubs. It costs me two loading screen being stuck for me to finally understand that it wasn't because of my PC...

The different protagonists aspect of the gameplay is, well, interesting. But for my dumb brain, every time I got used to one fighting style, it changed and I was back to square one :D But that's on me, so not pointing fingers at the game here. BUT I WANTED TO PLAY WITH MY MANS so waiting to get to Kiryu was very challenging lmfao. I loved playing as Saejima since it reminded me of my favorite style to use while playing as Kiryu in Y0, the Beast style. I can see they got many of his heat actions and movement being slow, stuff like that, from Saejima's fighting style in this game.

Playing as Tanimura was my least favorite and while I didn't really have any problems with his arc or whatever, it wasn't fun to play at all. Same as Akiyama, but Akiyama at least has some more heat actions. Also... even though I completed all of Tanimura's substories (except for the hostess club one with the Mars Fighter) it didn't really affect his health bar, which made it really hard to beat his final boss. (For comparison: I barely used one health item during all of the final boss fights for Saejima or Akiyama, and probably used like two for Kiryu's, but for Tanimura's I emptied half of my whole item screen.) I'm thinking that I probably should have parried with that foreign detective in Little Asia but I just wanted to get on with this game as quickly as possible.

Now for the music...

I don't think many of them stuck with me, but that isn't to say I didn't like anything. Saejima's fight theme for one, stuck with me immediately. Same thing for this one, although it plays only once in the entire game! As always, the MEB theme was also in this game so I went in there just to listen to it as tradition of mine 😁 Another one is this one that plays in the table tennis minigame. It sounds like it could be from newer Persona games. I honestly think that vocalist is the same.

And the story... ummm??

It was certainly a very story. Don't know how else to describe it. As with the earlier games I played, at first, everything seems so random but then they all come together. But this one felt even cluttier than the rest. I didn't connect with any of the players in this game at all. But uh, that could be something to do with me. Because I rarely get emotional with these type of stuff. (But then again... I felt too connected to Rikiya in Y3 so...? Maybe it is with the story, idk.)

One last thing I'll add is that Saejima should have been able to sing smh! Neither Tanimura or him sings in the karaoke. Saejima doesn't even step inside the mf building!!

So in short... this game didn't really leave any impact on me and I'll probably forget about the story in like days. Actually I finished it last night and I don't even remember much. All I remember is that Kiryu smiled a lot in the later cutscenes during the final chapter so that was nice. I always love seeing him smile :)

Hey, he’s talking about me.

#blog: review #game: yakuza 4 #dil: ing

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nct dream as school crushes

summary/genre: the dreamies and how i envision them as crushes you'd have during school. this is literally ALL fluff.

a/n: for self-indulgence <3 also chenle's entire persona inspired this, i am literally obsessed with him!!!

warnings: language (also this is featuring a gn reader!)

mark lee: the oblivious best friend crush

y’all already know how this man is, so no need for clarifications LOL

you’ve probably been in love with him for years, maybe even the entirety of your school life and he would not have a single clue

like y’all have been friends since elementary

you thought he sounded like goofy when he laughed

and your favorite mickey mouse character was goofy

because in kindergarten you obviously have to befriend anyone who seemed interesting to you

so that’s how it started

but then in middle school

you realize what it’s like to have a real crush on someone

not just think they’re attractive

but also being attracted to them as a person

and mark was that person

like he’s the only one you’re comfortable around

and someone that you feel at ease with

obviously, you’ve tried to tell him

multiple times

but then you always miss the chance to

because dude would bro-zone you the second you bring something sentimental up

like, “hey mark, i like you a lot”

and fucker would say, “thanks bro, i like you a lot too!”

with the most oblivious and genuine smile on his face

like hello, i’m trying to tell you that i’m head over heels for you and this is how you respond?

anyways, once he goes that way, you never have the heart to tell him that you don’t mean it like that

so you just let it slide

so all through high school

you remain platonic

obviously, you’re gonna do little actions to try and hint that you might like him more than a friend

and sure, he’s smart enough to catch on eventually

because come the fuck on

you bought him tickets to see his favorite band

and took him out to a fancy, romantically ambiance-d dinner for his 18th birthday

but for a while, he just tries to brush it off because he doesn’t wanna push it

like he does not wanna ruin what y’all already have

anyways once high school is over and you start college

you try your best to get over the dumb crush you have on mark

but it’s always gonna linger because mark has left the biggest mark in your heart

*wink wonk*

homie finally realizes that you guys might be into each other more than friends when upperclassmen he started hanging out with ask if you’re his s/o

and he finally admits it to himself

“shit, maybe i do feel for them”

and then BOOM

his mindset switches and he tries to emphasize his actions in ways that will be obvious he likes you like that too

because he’s too shy and awkward to tell you up front

for example

on days where he does not have a single class

he would willingly wake up at 8 am to pick you up from your place and take you to class

sometimes, he’d show up with a coffee

other times, he’d plan it so that you two could get coffee together

eventually, he makes it a little too obvious because he starts taking you on dates

but he doesn’t call them dates

fuck, he doesn’t even know what to call it

one night, as you’re both studying for exams together until 4 am

the lack of sleep gets to him

fuck it, you know?

“we’re dating, right?”

and you’re so sleepy and tired

but you’re also kinda bewildered

like, your mind is too consumed with facts regarding human anatomy

that you swear you think your left ventricle is pumping too much blood throughout your cardiac system

gotta play it cool though

so you just kinda…go with it

“yeah”

“okay, good.”

and then you hear him mumble

“i was scared it wasn’t clear enough that i’m practically in love with you”

“you’re what?”

“fuck did i say that out loud?”

you can’t help but giggle and suddenly mark’s awake enough to process what was happening

he’s panicking now but you close your textbook and grab his face

you look him straight in the eyes and say it back

“i love you”

mark cannot help but blush as he stares at your lips

you notice and tell him, “you can kiss me y’know”

and he does.

your lips collide and suddenly all the frustration from when you were in high school disappears because you and mark are finally (officially) together

huang renjun: the enemies to lovers crush

renjun with this trope is so canon to me i cannot fathom another way this could happen

anyways you and renjun have been rivals since you were children

like battling it out on the playground to arguing over who’s “smarter”

and as toxic as it is, you both are extremely academically competitive

literally always been neck and neck in terms of grades

y’all are always taking the hardest ap classes

and you both subtly flex your grades to each other often to see who scored better

the catch though

no matter what, you can never agree on anything

debates in class?

you’re on one side trying to justify that parallel universes exist

and he’s over here trying to prove that those universes are just aliens trying to mess with us

like even with the stupidest little things

you two can never agree on anything

so obviously, it’s a little hard for you to get along

you think the only time you’ve ever civilly agreed with something he says

is when you both argue with teachers over incorrect marks on your tests/grades

like it is literally a battlefield when the two of you go against your teachers

for example, one time in stats

renjun got so angry at the teacher for being stubborn about changing his grade

that he filmed a 10-minute long “renjun rambles” video after school

and posted it on one of his private stories

that donghyuck reposted

and it went viral amongst the school

because he made some good points

you watched all 10 minutes of that video

and literally was so invested in how he was talking

but that’s besides the point

anyways

along the way you do eventually succumb to his charms

obviously, with your similarly big ego

you never ever ever ask for help

even when you’re struggling on certain topics/subjects

renjun notices this, though

because he likes to observe his competition a lot

and at first he just thinks of it as an off day for you

you weren’t really as chatty in class

but then every day was an off day for an entire week

and he hates to admit it

but he becomes worried

like how can he ignore the wrinkles on your forehead

and the bags under your eyes getting darker day by day????

so, he throws his front aside and approaches you

and at first, you’re thinking that he’s coming over to compare more test scores

and you were not gonna have any of that

“fuck off renjun, i’m not in the mood”

but when he plops next to you with a stack of notes

you’re caught off guard

“i’m not here to pick a fight, dumbass”

“i’m here because your eyebrows are giving me a headache”

and begin to ask you questions on what you need help with

you ask him how he knows you were struggling

“because that’s the face you make when you score lower than me on a test”

you roll your eyes but let out a laugh

and he tries to comfort you by saying that he struggles too

and you both make peace for the time being

he agrees to help you out with any of the material that you’re struggling with outside of class

and through this you fall for him

when he genuinely smiles at you if you get an answer right

or his reactions when you one-up him ever so often

he’d check up on you and make sure you weren’t pushing yourself too hard

gestures like that really got you wrapped around his finger and you weren’t even mad about it

and little do you know, he’s falling for you too

he likes seeing you smile

so he always tries to do something that would cause it

he never knew how pretty your smile was or how much he liked seeing your eyes crinkle

he was too focused on beating you as a competition that he never got to know you as a classmate

so you slowly become friends through these little “study sessions”

and as much as you hate losing

you lose your mind over him and his charms

you’ve both been around each other so much even the teachers are shocked

anyways, with his help, you’re back in the game

your last test score is above average again

and you’re so happy you jump into renjun’s arms after class

and he almost falls over

“shit, i’m so sorry”

you both collect yourself and you sincerely thank him for the help

“you can thank me by taking me out to eat”

cheeky bastard

“like a date?”

you’re only teasing, but you wish he’d take it seriously

“yeah”

and you’re just O.O

“if it isn’t obvious, i like you. so yes, a date would be great.”

he’d be so firm with it too like he’s not even blushing

and now you’re blushing

“you’re stupid”

“so is that a yes?”

“whatever”

lee jeno: the jock crush

okay not that type of jock…the nice kind

he has practically every single person on campus wrapped around his pretty fingers

and you find it obnoxious

like, sure

he’s a great goalkeeper and is extremely skillful on the field

and he’s smart

and he’s got this kind of humor that’s so deadpan it’s adorable

and his voice is-

anyways, whatever

he’s not that attractive

okay, continue to kid yourself man

anyways

you’ve always been friendly with each other

like greetings when running into each other in the halls

or casual conversations about your upcoming games when you see each other at practice

but it was never really that deep

yet you’ve always been fascinated by him

like you wanna know more about him

what you do know is that he’s the captain of his respective soccer team

and you’re also the captain of your respective soccer team

fun!

so on more than one occasion

you both have to decide how to share/when to use the field

he’s a nice guy so sometimes he’d let you pick first

but there are times when you both argue over which team gets which time slot

and that’s what kind of turns you on when it comes to jeno

you like competition and hate it when people back down because you’re supposedly “weaker”

so it’s extremely attractive when he starts to tease and pick a fight with you over the slots and who gets to use the field first

you often just end up deciding to split the field in half

because the coaches get tired of your bickering and banter

and then there are times when you both manage to hold a practice with both teams

but it’s more like a field day

because when your two teams are joined together

you either hear laughing or screaming

as chaotic as your teams are, at least y’all are responsible enough to actually put in work

scrimmages!!!!!!

sometimes, it’s one team vs the other

other times, it’s mixed

the day you confirm that you’ve fallen for jeno is on one of these field days

you’re scrimmaging each other

and he’s put someone else in goal

he decided it was the day he wanted to play forward

you, staying true to your position in the game, remain in goal

terrible idea

jeno is freakishly strong

that being said, he’s also got a pretty good leg

so when he swings it a little too close to you as he approached goal with the ball…

SMACK

right onto your shoulder

because you were out here, diving for the ball

and only when you hit the floor does jeno realize it’s too late to retract his leg

the game came to a pause when you let out a gruesome shriek

and jeno is PANICKING in all caps

“oh my gosh, y/n are you okay???”

as you’re laying on the floor holding onto your shoulder

jaemin would stand there kinda bewildered too and be like

“damn jeno, why don’t you swing like that during games”

and he saw how you were kinda smiling through the pain at the remark

and so he calmed down

before you could answer his question though, your coaches intervened and checked on your poor shoulder

it wasn’t broken or dislocated

and you seemed fine

so they just made you sit out for the time being and have you watch the rest of the game

jeno decided to sit out too

and his excuse was that he’d be given a yellow card in that situation

“theoretically,” at least

so he plopped down next to you on the bench

and he kept apologizing until you tell him it’s annoying and that if he tries to apologize one more time, you’re gonna kick him in the shoulder

to your surprise

he agreed

but you tried and change the subject so that he’d stop apologizing

and so you began to talk about everything and nothing all at once

80 minutes seemed like 8 when you were talking to him

you weren’t sure if it was the fact that you’re both carrying the weight of being leaders and captains on your shoulders

but you connected with him on a spiritual level

like y’all are literally the same person in different fonts

and through this you realized that you really like talking to jeno

and jeno

his jokes are endearing too

“this was actually really great”

you’d say this after coach announces the end of practice

“yeah, it was,” and then

“we should hang out sometime”

that one sentence literally knocked the wind out of you

and you kinda blushed

“yeah, we should”

“how about i take you home as another way to apologize,” and he’d have that eye smile plastered on his face and you find it so cute

but

“i have my own car…”

and he’d facepalm himself and you both giggle all the way to the parking lot

“to be fair, you tried your best” and he would sulk a little

so you suggest

“let’s go get boba instead”

“sure (.◜◡◝)”

and that was an unofficially official first date <3

lee donghyuck: the platonic soulmate crush

i feel like he’d be someone you were forced to befriend as a child

like y’all were neighbors or something

so your moms would probably converse with each other every once in a while

and they’d make you two play with each other as they gossiped

so it was like

once you got into school

you were a package deal

anywhere you went, he followed

and vice versa

at first it was kinda cool having a built in buddy

ice cream stops after school

staying after school to mess around on the stage in the cafeteria

signing up for student council together

going to each other's' houses at weird hours

watching tv or playing video games

it was great

but then

people started to assume the two of you were either dating or siblings

and it got kinda weird

because a) being close to someone does not mean you are dating

and b) you do NOT wanna be considered related to him

(tbh you didn’t mind the whole sibling thing

but it seemed like he hated it so you just went along with it for the sake of his sanity)

like, no one wanted to befriend you two because you were always around each other

so you decided and agreed to hang around each other less

starting in the first year of high school, of course

because apparently, that was the year of change

you were both engulfed into different larger groups of friends

and since you were both social butterflies

it was pretty easy

at first it was weird

because it was always just the two of you

but then it became a little easier to kind of ignore each others’ existence every so often

obviously you missed being around each other

so in your second year of high school

you were like

this is enough

and always pulled him away from his group of friends to do things with you

he’d always would go with you

no matter what

sure, he’d annoy the living daylights out of you

but it was better than having to pretend y’all weren’t platonic soulmates

he’d pick on you for liking something other people don’t find likable

like dark chocolate

but every month

dude would buy you a bar of it

out of nowhere

he’d show up either at your front door or your locker

and throw you the chocolate bar

“my mom bought the big packs and i hate this stuff”

very nonchalant

also would lend you his jacket if it got cold during the school day

he’s super caring towards you

it’s like his instinct

and you VERY slowly fall for it

and by the beginning of your senior year

you were whipped

he teases you A LOT

and you act like you hate it but secretly

you enjoy that shit so much

you both have the routine of walking home together

no matter how late the other stays after school

you both wait for each other

and one day

you asked him to stay a little later

because someone wanted to talk to you after school

and since he was protective of you

he’d follow you to where you and this other person would be talking

and when he overheard this fucker say that they wanna date you

he doesn’t even know why

but he was fuming

he doesn’t even wait for your answer

and stormed off

obviously

you tell this person that you’re not interested because you’re into someone else

and apologized

they understand and brushed it off

so when you go and look for hyuck

and he’s nowhere to be found

you called him

but he didn’t pick up

and you kind of panicked

you checked his location and saw he was already halfway home

now it was your turn to fume because what the fuck??

why would he leave you like that?

he never left without telling you beforehand

so you stormed home

angry

a couple of angry messages were sent his way too

anyways after you got home and cooled off a little

you marched over to his house

you didn’t even knock an just stormed into his room

plopped on his bed

expecting for him to turn around panicked and explain why he left you

but he didn’t even so much as look at you

smoke was coming straight outta your ears

because again

what the fuck

why was HE upset???

“lee donghyuck if you don’t give me an explanation right now i’m unplugging your fucking pc”

nothing

so you did it

you unplugged his pc

silence

he didn’t even look mad when he finally faced you

he looked more upset

“why aren’t you hanging out with your new s/o/?” in a cocky ass tone

“what s/o??”

“the one that confessed to you after school?”

you question him some more as to why he was listening and why he left without saying anything

and then it clicks

“lee donghyuck, were you jealous?”

“yeah, so what?”

“idiot, i told them i was into someone else”

and suddenly he sulked even more

you scoff

“you, dumbass”

and he’s back

“oh :)” and then

“good”

and then he would be his whiny, touchy self again and apologized for leaving you at school

would probably take you to get ice cream or something

and then admit he was jealous and doesn’t anyone else to be with you other than him

(you come to school holding hands the next day and chenle pays renjun $10)

na jaemin: the barista crush

i feel like jaemin fits into the idea of a college crush better than a grade school one

and i think he’d probably work at the local coffee shop near campus

he’d work in the mornings before his afternoon classes

because he thinks it’s a lot better to surround yourself with coffee in the morning

rather than textbooks

you were a regular at his coffee shop

every morning you’d come in with the same order

and ever since he started working there

you’d be one of the first customers he’d see at 6 in the morning

everyday

you’d order some super strong drink and sit in the corner of the shop with your laptop and a textbook

maybe an ipad

and just grind until 11

which is when he’s off

and then he’d run into you at your first class at 11:30

what a coincidence!!

obviously

you’ve noticed him too

how could you not notice him

when he looks like THAT!

you took studying at the coffee shop in the morning as an excuse to see him every morning

you intrigued him

because he aint ever seen nobody with a coffee order as strong as yours

sometimes he wondered how your heart was able to handle all that caffeine

anyways

fate would cause the two of you to interact eventually

BAM fate

you were partnered with each other for some project

someone would break the silence by saying

“let’s exchange numbers or something so we can contact each other for this”

and you both pulled out your phones to create a new contact

with names already typed in

he’d add the coffee emoji after his name on your phone though

and you found it cute

you’d both converse about the topic of your project and when your availabilities to work on it were first

and then he changed the subject

and started to talk about your insane 7-shot espresso drink every morning

“i mean, i’m taking this class”

“of course i need it”

and you’d both have a good time just getting to know each other

then

you became fast friends

you found out his favorite cartoon character is ryan and got him a ryan keychain for his *belated* birthday gift

and he wore it everywhere!

so you found that endearing

anyways

every morning when you came into the coffee shop

he’d go over and bug you

you pretend to shoo him away but loved his company

you fall for him when he texts you at 6:59 in the morning

because you didn’t come to the coffee shop

he was worried sick when you didn’t answer

and even considered leaving his shift to go check on you

but you responded at about 9

saying you weren’t feeling too hot

or actually

you were a little too hot

you had a fever

and after his shift

he’d rush to the convenience store to get you medicine

and got you soup from your favorite little shop

he showed up at your door with remedies in hand

willing to take care of you the rest of that day

and you kept saying how you did not need to be treated like a baby

but he is

damn

stubborn

refused to leave you alone

tended to you the whole day

homeboy missed class to take care of you

and asked his friends to send notes instead

jeno found it a little suspicious that jaemin didn’t show up to class

but understood when he said he was with you

you on the other hand

felt like royalty

he was so sweet

so charming and caring

and you couldn’t help it when your heart skipped a couple beats

as he fed you soup

to which you blushed at because jesus

HE FED YOU SOUP

anyways your symptoms subsided

and he felt comfortable leaving you alone

still called and checked up on you even after he left

the next day you were feeling a lot better

and showed up at the coffee shop a little later than usual

jaemin was shocked because he literally told you to stay home again

but you showed up ready to go to class with him

you waited for jaemin to go to class together

and brought him some homemade soup or some warm dish

“as a thank you for taking care of me all of yesterday”

and he’d smile really wide

“this is definitely not enough to thank you, though”

and you’d ask him what he wants or what he’d want to do

as another thank you gift

but you did not expect it when he said

“let me take you on a date”

and then added

“only if you’re comfortable, of course”

and then he’d kinda worry that he seemed a little too pushy

and took it back

“i don’t wanna make it seem like i’m forcing it on you”

and would kinda ramble a little

and you’d just giggle

“you’re adorable”

and he’d shut up

“yeah, let’s go out together”

his heart’s turn to skip a beat

and when you initiated to hold his hand

his heart ran

and you held hands all the way to campus and into class

all giddy and shit

and jeno would waltz into class content with what he saw because he was walking behind y’all the entire time

zhong chenle: the annoying middle school crush

*i am breaking the 4th wall to say this rn, but ever since i started stanning nct, chenle always reminded me of one of my friends from middle school, hence where this idea sparked*

anyways

i think he’d be that kid everyone liked in middle school

because he was funny

and really blunt

like no one could control that boy

which is what everyone liked about him

like he was always really fun to talk to

on the off side

nobody would find him attractive because of that

like he was too blunt

and denied anyone who ever piqued interest in him

you were always just watching on the sidelines

and as one of his closer friends

you got the short end of the stick

having to deal with his constant teasing and all that

like you mention ANYTHING

and he’s ON YOUR ASS

“ew what the fuck you think HE’S cute????”

“oh my GOODNESS y/n, how could you like THAT?”

it’s all in good fun, though

because he never means any harm

like he knows when to hold off on the teasing

he almost made you cry once

because you were talking about your grades for the semester

and it was something you took kinda seriously

and he was poking fun at you for taking it too seriously

so you got kinda upset and went quiet

dude felt TERRIBLE for the entirety of the day

he kept trying to apologize but in ways that were more discrete

he’d stop by the convenience store and bought you something you liked

or try to engage into a conversation with you about the grades again but would say something different

and after a while he would just straight up apologize

which was nice because he always admitted when he was wrong or when he fucked up

you also got to see his calmer side when y’all would hang out outside of school

the two of you and couple other friends would play video games together after school almost everyday

and sometimes would hoop on the outdoor courts

he would probably be on the basketball team all throughout school

as much as people knew of him as the loud kid

they knew him as the star baller just as well

like he was a legend

he even got the chance to meet stephen curry in your 8th grade year for winning state champs in middle school

he did not stop talking about that experience until sophomore year

anyways

you probably always had a crush on him

because as much of a loud mouth he was

he always made sense

like whatever he was blabbering about

he was correct

and he had a point

when people were being bitchy

he’d not be afraid to call them out

and you admired him for that

which is what made you take interest in little chenle

he obviously had no idea

because in this case

you were good at hiding it

because you knew he’d probably turn you down

like everyone else

anyways

into high school

he was on the varsity basketball team his freshman year

we’ve been over this before

man is a legend

dude was getting people slipping their numbers and socials into his locker left and right

he was still loud

but people for some reason liked that better

anyways

those numbers and stuff he’d get

he wouldn’t really care about

obviously

he’d flaunt it to you and the rest of your friends

but he would not pay ANY mind to it afterwards

he didn’t really want to focus on anything else besides his basketball career as a high schooler

he was also kinda already interested in someone else

you actually fall for chenle on your 18th birthday

he had a basketball game that day and had to miss your little get together with your group of friends

which you didn’t mind

because you knew how important the game was to him

you said you’d reschedule and come watch his game instead

but he told you all not to because it’d make him nervous

which was a great excuse

it was the game right before playoffs and would determine if the school would make it to finals

it could have also been the last game of his high school career

so you agreed to his debate and had a small dinner with your friends

you had a great idea, though

before school was over

you snuck a note in his locker

“i’m always your #1 fan!” and then a small image of someone at a door

poking their head through it

and went on your merry way

on his way to the gym

chenle stopped by his locker

he saw the note

and instead of throwing it away like some of the others

he slipped that one into his pocket

you were at your little dinner when this was happening

and it felt weird not having him there

but you were gonna show up to his game either way

just secretly

you stood by the door the entire time

and saw him score like a billion 3’s

you were so proud of him at that moment

and honestly every moment

he was so passionate about his sport

and in the final 2 seconds he scored another 3

homie made direct eye contact when he shot the ball

like he knew you’d be standing there

anyways after the game he ran to you

gave you a sweaty hug

but you didn’t mind

it was heartwarming

he doesn’t know what overcame him but he felt the urge to kiss you

and he stared a little too long

he wasn’t doing anything for so long

that you did it instead

you leaned up and gave him a soft kiss

his first, actually

and he was SO embarrassed

he didn’t admit it though

you would play it cool and say something like

“happy birthday to me”

and he would giggle

but would catch himself

BECAUSE ZHONG CHENLE CANNOT BE CAUGHT SIMPING

he’d kiss you again though

to make up for missing your dinner

“that little drawing was clever you know”

“had me looking at the door every 10 seconds”

and you would just giggle

“glad you saw it”

and kissed him for the third time <3

I HAVE BUTTERFLIES WRITING THIS MAN STOP

park jisung: the-quiet-kid-in-your-math-class crush

not the creepy kind

the mysterious kind

like he had a lot of friends but they were all upperclassmen

and they all graduated the year before

so he was only left with his one best buddy

who was not in this ONE TREACHEROUS CLASS with him

so he decided to sit with you because y’all had math together last year

and have talked a couple times

you didn’t mind either

because you thought he was cute anyways

he rarely spoke up in class though

but when there was free time

or like a break between lessons

you’d start conversations with with him

at first it was a little awkward because he was shy

but he’d give such adorable reactions that would make you chuckle

and over time he got more comfortable talking to you

sometimes

the conversations would transition over to like

the randomest things

and you would be so invested in them

you found it kinda intriguing how he found certain aspects of technology interesting

and like

it’s for the weirdest reasons

once

he called your usb stick an sd disk

which btw isn’t even a thing

and it had you rolling on the floor for 5 minutes straight

anyways

he was one cute kid

and you always enjoyed talking to him when there was time

sometimes you rarely got to talk in class because the entire day was a lecture

and you’d kinda be bummed

so sometimes you’d follow him to lunch or something

and just talk with him on the way to his table or the lunch line

and chenle would give him looks

and jisung would kinda brush it off

but his heart was literally beating a mile a minute the entire walk to his destination

and when you’d leave

you’d send him a little wave

and he ate that shit up

chenle also ate every last crumb he was seeing up like it was his last supper

homie would push jisung to ask you out like

everyday

obviously

you didn’t know about this

and thought you were the only one that was interested

so sometimes

you’d purposely try to not be in his bubble

and he’d HATE IT

but he also would not know what to do/say in that situation

but eventually he’d lean over and start a conversation

which surprised you at first

because for a while you thought you were annoying him

anyways

he’d spark the strangest but most interesting conversations with you

sometimes they’d be normal

like about hobbies

and through this you found out that he liked watching rom-coms when he was sad

(you made a mental note of this for later usage)

other times

he’d tell the funniest stories about his 5 older friends and what the 7 of them did over the summer

he would also talk about what he liked doing in his free time

and told you that he liked to dance

he even showed you videos of him at dance competitions from over the summer that his friends filmed for him

he was one hell of a good dancer

and he had this glimmer in his eyes when he talked about dance

and that shit was so adorable to you

you realized you were whipped then

because you started noticing and keeping in mind

every

little

thing

he was saying

it was something about his voice too

like it was so easy to listen to

anyways

it was nearing the end of the year

and you had very little chances left to make your move

so you decided it was time

there was a new rom-com coming out

and you heard from rotten tomatoes that it was a decently interesting movie

you invited jisung

it was really nonchalant

“hey, i have an extra ticket to see this one movie i think you’d like”

and he’d be a little confused at first

so he would just look at you waiting for you to continue talking

“i was wondering if you’d go with me”

and then it clicked

you were asking him out

“yeah, for sure!” with the fattest smile on his face

he wouldn’t even ask when it was

he’d just willingly clear his schedule to go with you

you decided he was gonna come by and pick you up and you’d drive to the theater together

to your surprise

jisung was a great driver

he was focused on the road

but also focused on your conversation

and it was so cute

he would be really nervous

but knew that you were probably too

so he tried being really chill and calm about the whole situation

you ended up hating the movie

and left a bad review under the rotten tomatoes website together

anyways

after the movie

and discussing the movie

you two would get in the car but start talking

so jisung wouldn’t start driving home yet

instead y’all started talking some more

and for some odd reason

you felt like it was a good time to confess

maybe it was because you landed back on the topic of romance in movies and shows and stuff

but he beat you to it

“hey” he would start

“i’m really bad with words”

and you would gape at him

because that was how he won you over in the first place

“but i have a huge crush on you”

and there was a pause where you realized that he was waiting for your response

“oh..sorry. forgot you can’t read my mind”

and he’d chuckle

“i’ve had the fattest crush on you for the longest time”

and he would smile so wide it brought you to smileys too

“so ahem”

and he would like

do that thing where you clear your throat a bunch of times

“uhm hmm…ahem…would you ahem…go out with me?”

you could not help but giggle so hard

“yes ahem i will ahem go out ahem with you”

“stop making fun of me”

“you’re too cute not to make fun of”

and he would really slowly and shyly reach over and hold your hand the whole drive home <3

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plutos-planetarium · 3 years

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c!sbi + reader; meeting + bonding? time !

in this, you're related to niki !

unedited

c: philza, wilbur, techno, tommy

meeting-

you met the boys through wil actually

wilbur came around your house a lot when you were growing up

though you didn't talk a whole whole lot, due to you being socially anxious, you still felt fairly close to wil :)

it took a while for you to meet everyone

wilbur had to babysit you for a few hours, n so he took you to his home

phil was the only person home that day

n due to his fatherly nature, you had gotten close to him quite quickly

wil got bored n left the room lmao

so you stayed with phil for a while

helping him make lunch before his other children came

about five minutes into your break, as you were sitting on the counter eating fruit snacks

tommy came in

very loudly too :/

he scared you and you almost fell lol

as soon as he turned the corner into the kitchen

"wot the fock"

after a few silent moments

he began screaming about how there was a stranger eating his fruit snack

though he sure as hell shut up when techno walked in

you were quite terrified at the moment

there was a child screeching at you and a very intimidating man behind him

and why were all these boys so tall??

anyway, after phil calmed down tommy

you n him brought the lunch into the living room

all of you ate in silence, besides wil and phil thanking you for doing food

bonding?-

philza:

since you only had niki and wil growing up, it was nice to have a real father figure to look up to

you often helped the man cook meal for the boys !

you had also managed to learn a few things about potions while watching him

and surprised him with a regen potion one day he cried a little bit

it was nice to have another person who had some common sence

philza quite enjoyed being around you

you were always very helpful, and eager to learn things

the two of you occasionally sat on the porch as he would tell you stories

there was one story, that you had asked him to re-tell you about a million times

it was about how him and kristin met

you always found the story so fascinating and got so excited when he would tell it

wilbur:

you and wil definitely got closer after a bit

staying in his room and watching him play his guitar

you helped him with his songs alot

you had eventually convinced him to teach you a bit

though he acted like he was annoyed, you could tell he enjoyed it

you also helped him with house chores !

which rarely ever got done because you were to busy dancing to the music and singing into broom handles

made him a guitar pick when his finally broke

his initials were carved into it so that "nobody could steal it since it has his name on it"

gave you the biggest hug :( /pos

being around wilbur is always just so fun

techno:

to say you were scared of him at first was an understatement

you were terrified

that was until you had seen him outside, reading a book near a tree

he looked so peaceful? how could he be scary what?

so you decided to join him

this became a recurring thing

not talking much unless you both were at that tree

he usually read to you while you picked up flowers and such

made him a pretty flower crown hndujsn

you also really liked carl!

helped techno groom him

he really enjoyed spending time w you

tommy:

well,,, it took a while for you and tommy to get along

he just didn't like you :/

rude ass bitch smh

but when he was finally okay with you

you helped him out a lot

whether it was creating chaos or going mining, you were there

mining was probably your favorite thing to do with tommy

it was quite relaxing actually

he didn't usually keep his loud persona around you

you both got excited over finding even the most basic ores

there was a time where you had fallen off the side of a short ravine

and i don't think tommy has ever panicked that much

thankfully, you weren't very hurt

but while you were recovering, he stayed with you alot

he was so worried when you fell, and just wants to make sure you'll be safe now

he also shares his fruit snacks w you :D

all:

movie nights were a very common thing

they almost always invited you and niki over

though niki couldn't attend very often, she always had you bring them something from the bakery

the boys all loved having you over

even though it usually added more chaos

"no! (y/n) put the bowl down"

"if you guys don't stop fighting i will take your fruit snacks away"

tommy was always the first person to fall asleep :/

and then get mad when the movie was over and he missed it

but he also got mad when you woke him up??

what do you want from us tommy, please

moving on

lots of food fights happened-

techno usually started them by throwing popcorn at wil-

mmmh yay now we'll have to spend 3 hours cleaning the house

phil, tech, n tommy are the ones who clean because, again, you and wil are dancing

it's always really nice having you over though

you and niki are like family to them :D

#sbi #sbi x reader #tommyinnit #wilbur soot #philza #technoblade #mcyt #dreamsmp #mcyt x reader #dreamsmp x reader

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kaypeace21 · 3 years

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Will and the car on fire (theories)

*this is just under the assumption this is Will in the pic and not some other character. Which is still very possible .

Why it could be Will (it's for sure possibly not)

But, most of the rebuttals saying it's not Will are iffy. Cause we really don't have much evidence to point to any 1 character. Like the hair counterargument: that the hair is too long to be Will's .Will's s4 body double has a similar hair tuff on the back of his neck. And we know st uses camera shots of the back of Will's neck/silouette ,in past seasons . So doing so here could make sense. And Will of course is the most associated with fire: using fireball for Will the wise in s1 (3 times), the will the wise drawing from s2 had flames on his cloak, Will being being burned in s2,etc.

So...Will looking at lightning. And (Will?) looking at fire. Both have a dark full body sillhouete and red in the forefront .

We also see this character is possibly wearing a watch like Will?

And i've been hearing this a lot here ... but southern california (where the Byers are) does have a lot of trees lol. Not sure why people think otherwise.But, regardless a trip from cali to Hawkins would most certainly have some forrest.

*Also, any movies I’ll be mentioning (in the theories , below) were stated to be inspiration for ST.

So theories...

Theory 1) It's Joyce's car ( and it was rigged to explode/look like an accident by Brenner or Lonnie). And Will wasn't there but sees it in a nightmare cause it's already happened/or it's a dream vision of the future.

Evidence: CAR TROUBLES: Joyce’s car model was infamous for exploding in car accidents-being sued by the state of Indianna before the start of the series. We also have Alexi tell murray about a way to cause cars to explode-and turn people into dust (and make it look like an accident). Brenner’s name means “to burn” and he already hurt 1 mother to keep a subject -so not out of the realm of possibilities for him to hurt Joyce (and make it look like an accident to try and get Will and or el).

In s3, we have Jonathan and Hopper try and fix the car-and after this cars explode with people inside. Jonathan lifts the car hood- and notices someone rigged nancy’s car . Than, right after,Billy’s car lights on fire with him inside. With Hopper (he also lifts the car hood) and joyce barely escapes the lit car (but she may not be so lucky next time).

We also have Joyce tell Will 3x she’s going to be ok... which is a bit overkill if she will be OK ...

And, notice during the hoodlift we see Will observing- which is similar to Alexi watching and warning them before hand that the car (with Joyce inside) will explode. So it’s possible foreshadowing since Will may predict the future and was was paralleled to Alexi.Alexi ‘can we watch lonnie toons now?. Will : can we play d&d now?

movie inspos:

It’s hinted s4 will be around Will’s b day: In gilbert grape- Arnie after his b day, has his mom die, and a fire was stagged that lit his mom on fire. ( Before this,Arnie was also raised by his older brother Gilbert cause his dad wasn’t around). stoker- kid’s parent dies in staged car ‘accident’ on her bday (this allows ab*sive relative closer to kid-since dead parent banned him from seeing kid). The kid was taught how to hunt, by dad. And is also a painter and bullied at school (like Will). what dreams may come-painter blames themselves for fam dying in freak car accident- the relative was getting a present for them when it happened. so they blame themselves. The descent- also had (right before a b day, the main character’s fam dying in a car accident) .And the sole survivor/family member of the deceased hallucinates a shadow chasing her in a empty hospital hall. Get out-photographer (jonathan)blames himself for mother dying in car accident.

There’s also a lot of other films where the kid (for no logical reason) blames themselves for their mom’s/parent’s death: goodson, dream catcher, analyse this,etc. Of course ... this could simply relate to max and el having survivors guilt after the mall killed their family members (in a fake ‘mall fire’). However, a fake out fire causing family to die (in s3) could be foreshadowing for it actually happening in s4?

rigged car explosions: scarface -have guys try and bomb a car with kids and parent inside. backdraft -guy raised by older brother had 1 parent die in explosion and sees the freak explosion occur- later in the film someone rigs a car to explode and masks it as a freak car accident. Same thing occurs in godfather- he sees family member die in rigged car explosion. The dark knight- rigs car to explode. batman v superman- calls superman a demon and says they need to burn the witch that bore him (aka his mom).

dreams (if in the past): Never ending story (reffed in s3)- starts with kid with bowl cut saying he had another dream about his mother who died. Peanut butter solution- kid has visions in dreams about people he knew who died in fire. this next movie (emily rose) is said to be Joyce byers inspo according to Winona - has (kid with 2 personalities) have nightmares from the past of her and her mother burning in a car fire. while screaming/sleep walking she burns windows with her hands -accidentally using her powers. Some people suspect the videogame “life is strange’ is show inspo too- it has character named max caufield with a ‘never maxine rule’, etc. Anyways in the game prequel queer chloe, who plays d&d, would have dreams/nightmares of her nice parent’s car accident . Despite , chloe not being present for the car accident. After the parent’s death, she’s stuck with her mean step dad.

dreams (if predicting the future): Will says in s3 Will the wise can see into the future. We also see Will/Will the wise via a dream predict Hopper was in danger-saying to Joyce “he’s going to die”. In ‘12 monkeys’ and ‘Rebel Robin st novel’ they mention the myth of cassandra- who could make accurate future prophecies , but was cursed to never be believed by those she warned. In 12 monkeys- he tries warning others of a dreaded event in future- and it’s dismissed as him being mentally ill. Since, Will’s other abilities were dismissed as his ptsd in s2-and with the Byers fam having a family history of mental illness (they may not believe him over such a prediction). In ‘the ring’-the movie opens with the guardian saying the boy is drawing the car accident that killed his mom -as a psychological coping mechanism. Only for the teacher to say he made that drawing before his mother’s death (and it’s revealed later the boy is psychic). Terminator 2- sarah conner says she is having future visions, which include explosions, and everyone dismisses it as her being schizophrenic. Like how in s2 a scientist said about Will “let’s see if this boy is a wizard or a schizo”.

If joyce survives the accident she may be hospitlized (and unable to have legal custody). In black swan the girl (with 2 personas) -blames herself for what happened to Winona Ryder’s character (who is in a coma after a car accident. They had had a verbal fight before the accident). In girl with the dragon tattoo- the main character (who is compared to a phoenix and dragon) has 1 parent burned in a fire- and after this her kind guardian is hospitilized so they can no longer take care of her- and she is placed with an ab*sive foster dad (who resembles her bio dad). If Joyce was in a coma - it would further parallel her to terry- and be another willel parallel.

if dead: Tokyodrift- mom loses custody, and dad who is a mechanic and abandoned the family years ago, later gets custody. Super 8-mom dies in freak accident- douche dad gets custody. Book of henry-mom dies pre-film, ab*sive dad got custody. Outsiders- parents die in car wreck, relative gets custody of teen who he slaps etc.In black swan-girl who blames herself for Winona’s accident is stuck living with ab*sive parent. good son- mom dies, stuck with violent and manipulative relative after this.

Of course-joyce may be fine. And Lonnie may just visit for Will’s b-day and ruin shit that way.

Theory 2) It's an undercover government car that Will uses his powers against in self defense... or in anger after they hurt someone he loves.

Evidence:

Joyce about ‘Will the wise’: If he’s so wise, why does he need the fireballs? Why can’t he just outsmart the bad guys? Will: cause the bad guys are smart too. Joyce: so he needs the fireballs? Will: Yeah, to burn them to a crisp.

* the fact-this flashback happens at a funeral of a Byers, could also be narratively significant as foreshadowing.

Gov agents in s1 are called “the bad-men” so Will may use fireball on “the bad-guys”(government agents) . Fire has been used on all the other adversaries relating to the upsidedown-so why not the gov agents (aka human villains) next? 2 movies on the inspo list caught my attention: firestarter & carrie (which are both stephen king adaptions with psychic kids who have fire abilities).

Firestarter- she has pyrokineseis (firepowers) . And unlike every other psychic in the film- she is the only psychic that doesn't get nose bleeds (aka mini brain hemorages) from using her powers (Will). We know el and kali gets nose bleeds.

(Anger): She only unleashes her fire abilities on gov agents after they kill her parent...

*And uses a literal “fireball” on them.

Could also be another willel parallel. kali about the US gov:" They took your mother away from you!" El str*ngles man from gov agency that incapacitated her mom . El before str*ngling him: " you hurt mama".

(self defense): While in carrie she kills people who tried to run her over with a car. And causes the car to explode.

Also, in s3 Steve does technically cause a car to explode to protect Nancy from being run over by a car (so maybe foreshadowing?). I believe, tumblr user ‘bran-who-writes-theoretically” was the first to point out the Carrie/car on fire parallel.

* This car scene could also be added to the list of Willel parallels. El in s1 uses her powers to flip a government-car upside down. And looks back at it. And it’s a ref to the film Et. So Will causing a government -car to explode and flip upsidedown (referencing carrie) could be a parallel.

Of course El flipped over a car in s3 to attack the Soviet agents and protect her friends too ( right before losing her powers). Sort of like Steve using his car as a weapon in s3 to protect his friends. so who knows, if not Will, maybe El (wearing a ponytail) got her telekenesis back and she flips the car and it explodes ? To be honest, I just find this explanation too boring, cliche, and predictable. And I still hypothosize the mindflayer took her telekensis (but not her other powers). Since in d&d mindflayers have ‘mage hand’ (what el is called) and ‘telekenesis’/ along with the ability to steal powers from other life forms. But, we’ll see...

Theory 3) The car flips (maybe caused by a deer jumping in the road) and it blows up after the crash- with Joyce inside. And maybe Jonathan survives it/ Will wasn’t there but had a nightmare /vision about it?

Evidence: in s1 Jonathan sees a dead deer that was hit by a car. This could be symbolic : because it related to Jonathan mentioning the hunting story with his dad and how he cried for a week cause he liked the film Bambi. Which in the film : Bambi (a deer) has his mother k*lled. And after his mother’s death, he’s taken in by his douchey dad who was M.I.A for most of his life ,until his mom passed away. And the hunters are the bad guys in the film . In ‘get out’ the photographer , Chris,blames himself for his mother dying in a car accident - and he sees a dead deer hit by a car -and the dying deer was used to symbolize the guilt he has over his mother’s death. in ‘the long kiss goodnight’ a character is driving home with a friend- they swerve and hit a deer and 1 of them is ejected from the car into the forrest. But their friend is unconscious in the car and it quickly explodes on the road. The survivor turns and sees the car in flames- disoriented they stumble and kill the dying deer. And it’s left ambiguous if they were helping the deer end it’s pain or if it was vengeful-hunting (since it caused the car accident that killed their friend). Cause their face was emotionless from shock.

Even in the st novel "suspicious minds' rabbits- like jonathan was forced to kill on the hunting trip with his dad (around his b-day) represented the bond between mother and child.And the mother sacrificing herself for the baby-to not get k*lled (by Brenner).

-so maybe?? jonathan before he gets the pizza job/car (may have his car break down , like hinted it would in s3).

��So him and Joyce share the car (once his car stops working) and the accident happens while Jonathan is behind the wheel -with Joyce. And after this he gets the job at surfer boy pizza. Billy was a surfer boy and that memory was used to think about his mother who is no longer around (once he's stuck with his ab*sive dad after moving away from Cali). While Jonathan moved to Cali after his mom passed-maybe stuck with Lonnie.Jonathan's actor in recent pics has a blonde mullet - which sort of resembles joyce/Billy's og hair. This may be why he starts doing dr*gs - which is pretty out of character for him- but it could be a coping mechanism(like in the s4 films). One of many examples was 'enter the void'- the older brother was surrogate parent to their lil sibling and after a car accident k*lls his parents , he starts doing dr*gs to cope. Also ‘hunger games’ was on the list- and Katniss (who was a surrogate parent to her litle sibling, like Jonathan is to Will) in the sequel, saw her family die in an explosion. And it really broke her emotionally.

I've mentioned this before but Billy is used to parallel and foil Will and Jonathan. And it may be more than a ... what if Lonnie had custody scenario. But to show how Lonnie (like most ab*sers) will later bring out the worst in the kids (once he does have custody). Like how s3 has Will mimick lonnie with the baseball bat (and we see in s3 Billy being bullied by his dad to play baseball and flashbacks showing him mimicking Neil). I've also discussed how there's a theme with pretty much every character mimicking their parent- for better or worse.

Killing a deer would certainly hint at Jonathan's possible character regression (and mimicking Lonnie to a certain extent). if he not only blames himself for Joyce's death. But is also stuck with his ab*ser.

The animal k*lling motif , and after that, mimicking an a b*sive father is already shown with el. Brenner , in s1,tried to make her k*ll a cat (using her powers) and she refused (similar to the s1 rabbit hunting story of Lonnie forcing Jonathan to k*ll a rabbit ). But in s2, she uses her powers to k*ll a squirrel (and like a deer- it's typical hunting game). Than in s3 el does literally everything Brenner ever asked of her- she spies on people and repeats the words back (like brenner told her to do), she becomes a weapon to ‘fight the commies’ (which was said to be the reason he k*dnapped her in the first place), and when looking into the void to see the mf (she mirrors the words brenner told her - when he made her go into the void to face the demogorgan).

And some s4 movies are literally about being trapped in a house with your ab*ser and slowly losing your mind because of the ab*se and gaslighting- lighthouse , black swan , good son, are prime examples. But movies like scar face , girl with the dragon tattoo, and book of Henry touch on this theme a bit as well. And ordinary people- is about a guy who survived a vehicular accident but his relative in the same accident didn't- and it causes him alot of issues /survivor's guilt.

The shadowy figure could just be Will in the shot - seeing it in a dream before or after it happens?

Theory 4) Will sees a future vision or has his ’now memories’ of someone else's car.

Evidence: i guess the s4 shot parallels El (in s3) spying on Billy while he’s hurting Heather. During that spying scene: the shot is of El near Billy's car. So it’s possibly a diff willel parallel?

If not Will. Who knows ...if El’s telekenesis is gone maybe her spying abilities strengthened and look different because of it (and now she can see background details)?

Theory 5) it's Lonnie's car and Will escapes from the trunk and uses his powers in self defense

Evidence: I’m pretty iffy on this one. This goes back to how people suspected Lonnie took Will in s1 (and could be foreshadowing). Even the recent rebel robin book-has characters say Lonnie probably took Will. Jonathan suspected Will may be at Lonnie’s - so checks Lonnie’s car trunk (to see if Will is there). We also see how the mf in s3, knocked people out by dr*gs/str*ngulation, ties them up, and throws them in a trunk (to k*dnap them). Or how the cops raided jonathan’s trunk- which had stuff to track the demogorgan (and the demogorgan parallels Lonnie) . And after looking in Jonathan’s trunk-they suspected something fishy is going on.

*heather was described as “another me” by Will- who was thrown in the trunk.

movies: “tangled” was on the s4 list- and had an ab*sive parent later try and kidnap their kid ,and that parent ends up dying. in girl with the dragon tattoo (the girl associated with dragons & phoenixes- lights her ab*sive bio dad on fire. In ‘drop dead fred’ (girl who is in love with childhood friend, named Mikey, who she met at age 5) lights a imaginary version of her ab*sive parent on fire - while in a trippy memory world. Chrissy accidentally lights her ab*sive relative (nickname “daddy”) on fire in self defense- in a trippy hell memory scape. in ‘long kiss goodnight- the girl with 2 personalities (Will/will the wise) was kidnapped and put in a trunk and escapes by jumping into a quarry. Not sure if that could relate to a flashback or something else? like in ‘don’t breath’ the older sibling who essentially was a surrogate parent to the younger sibling-mentions how their dad left the family, and her parent would throw her in the trunk for hours as a punishment.

#will byers #jonathan byers #joyce byers #el hopper #stranger things #stranger things theory

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dolce (sweetly, softly, gently)

* pairing: accompanist/violinist!katsuki bakugou x violinist!reader (gender neutral!) ft kamijirou

* genre: fluff, kinda angst, enemies to lovers, classical musician au hehe

* words: 9.5k (holy crap, this was a rollercoaster to write)

* warnings: swearing bc not only does bakugou exist, he is a prominent character, brief viola/second violinist jokes (reader’s words not mine), poor rosins being dropped :(

* a/n: SO this is very late for @prettysetterbaby‘s v-day collab!! pls check out all the other talented writers involved >< jj is an ANGEL for putting up with me being late T_T there’s some violin terminology in here but it’s fine if you don’t understand it! more notes at the end aha

* playlist (spotify in source link): violin sonata no.9, op.47 in a major “kreutzer” (beethoven) ; liebesfreud (kriesler) ; violin partita no.3 in e major (bach) ; duo concertante for 2 violins no.3 in d-sharp major, op.57 (beriot) ; clair de lune (debussy) ; duo for 2 violins in d-major, op.67, no.2 (spohr) ; 24 caprices op.1, no.24 in a minor (paganini)

* synopsis: being a soloist is not made easy by your new accompanist, bakugou. you step on each other’s toes when playing - but that’s alright, he’s just a pianist. you’re separated in your two worlds of musical instruments, until one day, you’re not. bakugou traverses over realms like a simple string crossing, and there’s a lot more he’s brought with him.

a double stop in violin is a technique in which two notes are played simultaneously. played correctly, one violin playing two notes should sound like two violins playing separate notes. if your life was a violin, you only needed double stops to play it. you'd perfected the art of being alone, playing the parts of two in your sad solo sonata. you were so, so sure you could compose and play for the whole orchestra - a symphony that would surely please the audience.

you were wrong. after all, a double stop has its limits as well, impossible to play with an interval of larger than a tenth. you were content with your double stops and playing by yourself. this was how you won countless competitions - what good would changing anything be?

you were born a soloist, or that's what your parents would say. you never followed the crowd, sticking to your own mind and doing what was true to you. you never worked well in an orchestra setting (and who knew what would become of you if you ever landed in second violin!). thus, you became a soloist, determined to keep the spotlight on you. it was you and your perfection that kept the eyes of the audience transfixed; you were desperate to keep their focus enraptured by every slight movement of your bow, every shift in finger position on the fingerboard. you wanted them to follow every dynamic and tempo change like their life depended on it, feel their emotion spark the moment your bow pressed a string. you were the only one on stage, an entertainer and an artist to the audience. you brought joy and sorrow through key changes and wonder through glissandos and held suspense with every tremolo. the audience was yours for an entire piece, for a story, for a lifetime.

oh, and there was the accompanist. what was his name again? batsugou? bakugou. the last part was a joke, of course. you'd never forget the man who ruined your first recital overseas.

katsuki bakugou was quickly made your accompanist after the previous one quit last minute and schedule clashes between any other potential candidates rendered them unable to travel with you. no one in their right mind would've come along on a plane to play a piano accompaniment for you. indeed, bakugou was not in his right mind. his name was prominent locally, an orchestral prodigy with the gift of perfect pitch since the tender age of thirteen. he never ventured internationally, though given the chance multiple times to do so. you could never understand why he never took any of the opportunities. you'd jump at any chance of expanding your musical horizons and performing for a larger audience, so it frustrated you to see someone with such potential to throw away possibly beneficial opportunities. not that you really paid much attention to him, anyway. bakugou was a pianist, and you were a violinist. you only cared about competition, not those with blessings you could only dream of achieving.

the months leading to your recital, bakugou had gone quiet. well, you didn't know him personally, so it was news of him that had gone practically radio silent. he was no longer featured in news articles or even pinned on bulletin boards for upcoming recitals. there were no updates from him on social media, too. not that you really paid attention, anyway. he was a prodigy, gifted naturally with talent, and you were a violinist.

an ambitious violinist, at that. you had dreams to perform anywhere out of the stifling air of japan. even to fly a short distance to south korea would be amazing, because it meant you'd be outside of japan. you worked towards this goal tirelessly. you dreamed of stepping on a plane, violin case in your right hand and your dreams in another, to fly to another country and perform. you wished to see the talent beyond your own bubble and feel the music resonate in an auditorium in a different way than it did in japan.

one day, that dream was realized. your violin case in one hand and dreams in another, you boarded the plane flying out of japan full of hope and the faith that good days were coming. while yes, you didn't expect to step out of that plane with anyone but your old accompanist, momo, bakugou's presence comforted you in the foreign atmosphere. for the first ten minutes, he said not a word to you but made it a point to speak to everyone else he could in what seemed like very convincingly fluent english.

to which you finally mustered up the courage to say, in japanese, "i thought you didn't travel internationally."

his japanese voice was a comforting sound. "i don't. this is my first time out of japan."

you stared at him like he just said he ate babies for breakfast (which seemed just as astronomically insane as him never stepping foot out of japan).

"but-" you stuttered. "your english is so good?"

"only because you can't understand it."

to be fair, he had a point. you could only say the basics, like, "hi," "how are you?", "i'm fine, and you?," and the ever-so useful, "do you speak japanese? my english is not good." he appeared to never use any of these phrases, so he was a god in english compared to you.

it was a miracle you navigated out of the airport with your luggage in hand and a general idea of how to get to the hotel you'd booked. you're not going to talk about the events in the hotel, though. sharing a bed with bakugou was a whole different story that consisted of him complaining about your phone usage at eleven pm and you complaining about his lack of sufficient english skills to be able to get the right hotel room (which he'd retort by saying "at least i speak english!").

the path to your first international competition was rocky, so understandably by the day of the performance, your metaphorical feet were sore and you only had water on your metaphorical mind. that is to say, you hadn't practiced with bakugou once until the day before the performance. said rehearsal was cut short due to misunderstandings as a result of bakugou's apparent not-so-fluency in english. you felt bad for him at this point.

and then you were up on stage, violin in one hand, bow in the other, and arms full of your childhood aspirations. also, definitely not prepared enough. you glanced once at bakugou before beginning and he looked confident enough. the lesson you learned that day was that looks can be deceiving.

something you could remember quite clearly was the way the spotlight shined on the varnish of your instrument as you held it, propped between your chin and shoulder. you focused on this shine before taking a deep breath, closing your eyes, and praying muscle memory would take over and you'd play the piece faithfully to the score.

you liked to think your playing was accurate. you, the soloist, were the main focus of the piece. the accompaniment made the piece richer and fuller, complementing the violin beautifully while keeping attention on said violin. the thing was, bakugou, like you, played like a soloist.

the performance was like a fight, and sadly not the graceful kind you'd see in a ballet. it was gory and a nuance to the ears, melodic tinkling of the piano becoming tears of a soldier dying in combat. at parts, you clashed by overshadowing the other by playing too loudly. sometimes it was you, and sometimes it was bakugou. it was a merciless game of tag; bakugou would be running to keep up with your playing; once achieving so, you were forced to start chasing after him. you can't exactly remember if he played well, though. for certain, he was not in sync with you, but you were mainly too preoccupied with your own playing to pay attention to his. listening to the recording of the performance, you were unable to evaluate his quality of playing properly, and thus, he remained your accompanist even when you returned to japan.

(actually, the biggest reason he stayed your accompanist was because of your classical musician friends' nagging. they were all in complete awe that the famous soloist, katsuki bakugou, had offered to be your accompanist, and begged for an autograph. of course, you declined.)

you figured that like you, bakugou was a soloist. he wasn't fit to assist your playing, far more suited to his own solos to entrance the audience with only his playing. being a soloist, he played like one too - that's simply how things worked. this understanding of him, though, still couldn't stop you from harbouring a small grudge against him for ruining your international debut.

and then there was the man himself, all standoffish and rough in words and persona. obscenities had no hesitation coming (thrust!) from his mouth. he yelled brashly and frequently and it astonished you that he was a classical musician, as most of your friends of the classical music profession were typically on the quiet, softer spoken side. those that were extroverts were optimistically so, in far contrast to bakugou, who you'd expect from looks alone to be playing in some heavy metal band. it was scary to hear his renditions of debussy's dreamy, serendipitous pieces when over your earbuds, he was yelling at some guy named "shitty hair" on his phone. you were curious how he looked recording the piece.

you didn't typically communicate, though. conversation, which only ever existed during rehearsal, was a question from you and a clipped grunt in response. there was nothing else to your relation; he played his part, and you played yours. sometimes you did this simultaneously, but it was as if you were playing two completely different things. performance, according to your friends, was now stilted. this was partially the reason you stopped listening to recorded performances. it wasn’t even like you’d ever derived pleasure from listening to them - you only nitpicked your mistakes.

your old accompanist, momo, on the other hand, was an absolute angel. she was kind, polite, and skilled on the piano, fingers dancing over the keys like a graceful ballet. you fit well with her; each performance was like a delightful conversation between friends, pleasant on the ears and twinkling with joy and laughter. with her, every performance felt like something resembling victory, even if it wasn’t a competition. to you, winning the audience’s gaze was enough.

then again, you didn't feel that you could judge quite yet. momo was your accompanist for years, and you could barely remember how the two of you sounded when you first started out. bakugou had been your accompanist for mere months (though it did feel much, much longer considering how frustrating he could be). you couldn't understand why he became your accompanist at all.

opposites. it was an accurate representation of your relationship with bakugou. he was a pianist, you weren't. he was a prodigy, you weren't. he was blessed with talent, you weren't. there was nothing to talk to him about, obviously, because of these dividing factors.

the longer you knew him, the more your disdain for the man grew. at rehearsals, it always felt like your performances were about him, him, and him. he was the star piano player, of course. he hadn't volunteered to be your accompanist as a sense of "stepping down"; no, no, rather, he was flaunting his piano playing with a violin playing in the background. he played perfectly. for a soloist.

as time passed, these frustrations with him became more and more apparent. you became acutely aware of how his performance would outshine your own, and it sickened you. slowly, the quality of your own performances took a nosedive. if the piece was originally pianissimo, you'd take it up to piano (then, if bakugou increased his volume, forte). if the tempo was andante and he was playing moderato, you'd play allegro. it was a competition at this point - instigated by him, of course. you were just upping the ante, even if it meant sacrificing your own artistry.

a lot of people warned you of what would happen, but you ignored them. the fierce competition you felt between you and bakugou caused your own downfall as a musician. slowly, gigs stopped trickling in, like a faucet being shut off. you blamed this on bakugou. ("i was international before him. now, i can barely get a gig in musutafu! why does everyone think he's so great?" you had fumed over the phone to jirou, your old roommate from university. she asked you if you had even listened to him play.)

you were scrambling for places to perform at this point. (“fire him,” the very unhelpful hagakure told you. you didn’t know what you were thinking when you asked her, a violist in a local orchestra. it wasn’t like she ever got a solo.) you’d seriously considered doing so, but came up empty when looking for another accompanist. online forums and friends’ connections could only do so much. they were all either unavailable during rehearsal schedules or inadequate in terms of adapting to the music given.

“you need to try working together with him,” jirou advised you one day over the phone.

“yeah, say that to yourself and kaminari,” you muttered bitterly under your breath. kaminari was a guitarist in jirou’s band who hadn’t quite gotten along with jirou well. jirou made fun of the lightning bolt streak in his hair. when you first met them, all they did was bicker day and night; now, according to the other guitarist, tokoyami, they still did this, though on a smaller scale.

she heard you. “well,” jirou said, slightly ticked off, “we get along better now. because of communication. look- i’m not saying you need to be best friends with bakugou or anything, but you need to talk to him about what’s working and what’s not. respect him as another musician, y’know?”

“i’ll… try,” you said begrudgingly.

you heard a muffled yell from the other side of the call. “kaminari, you idiot!” jirou called, voice a bit far. “what did i tell you about plugging in the amp? i said not to-” she cut herself off. “sorry, y/n, i need to go now. kaminari’s back to his normal antics.” she sighed, but it sounded more endeared than irritated. the call ended.

respect bakugou as another musician. you could do that. bakugou was only a pianist. you were a violinist. he was your accompanist. he was to support your playing. you’d forever be separated from him, doing your own thing. he, certainly, couldn’t understand the woes of being a violinist. not the intonation nor the techniques; you were sure that if you handed him a violin on the spot, he wouldn’t be able to even hold the bow properly. the notion of bakugou, piano prodigy, struggling to make a decent sound on the violin with a bow clenched in an ungainly grip deeply amused you.

these thoughts kept your relationship with bakugou afloat and restrained you from strangling him every time he stepped a toe out of line during rehearsals. ploddingly, with as minimal communication as you could manage, you tried to play with bakugou together, as a duet rather than as two soloists playing simultaneously. you swallowed your pride to play accurately to the music, patiently explaining any qualms you had with bakugou’s playing.

eventually, you found yourself building up your performances to the quality they had once been with momo. it was still far from the pristine playing that led you to an international invite - but it was an improvement, and that was all that mattered to you. innately, you were slightly ashamed of the thoughts that allowed you to keep working with bakugou. they were thoughts that told of your superiority to him, because he was playing piano for you. that’s all he was; an accompaniment to you. you told yourself that having these thoughts on the inside was better than fighting with bakugou.

somehow, along the strings of notes slurred together and shifts of fingers from one spot on a string to the next, you found yourself experiencing a strange joy gliding your bow against the strings of your violin. the rich sound of your instrument, withering and blooming with every stroke of vibrato you performed, fulfilled you unlike how it ever had before. up until now, you’d been playing for the audience, rather than yourself. the melody reverberating in the hollow body of your violin was never for your own ears to enjoy, it was for the audience’s satisfaction and listening pleasure. for it was their own enjoyment that won you competition after competition, playing with a blank face. on some occasions, you’d open your eyes during the applause to see some audience members crying, which ultimately confused you. how you were able to draw emotions from them with your playing when the music was unable to render you anything but indifferent?

you knew it in yourself, though, that the happiness you felt was hollow. delightful notes supposed to boast joy and love echoed in the rehearsal room, falling flat on your ears.

you were a soloist, though. you couldn’t let thoughts like these get to you. you could only play, for both your pride and your audience. these woes were for you to shoulder, on top of the violin you held between your chin and collarbone.

“you’re here early,” bakugou commented one day, opening the door to your shared rehearsal room. tucked under one arm was his folder of sheet music. he caught you in the middle of practicing one of the pieces for a gig - liebesfreud, by fritz kreisler.

it was true. the morning sun basked the window sill and laminate flooring, warming the particular spots it shone through. you’d arrived an hour or so early. pleased by the bright nature of the morning, you pulled up the blinds. typically, you ran late, arriving ten minutes after bakugou’s text of “you’re late again, idiot” with a coffee and a bagel in your hands. those mornings, you were really grateful for having a case with backpack straps. if you hadn’t the time to eat your bagel on the way to rehearsal, it was cold and hard by the time you had a lunch break.

thankfully, today was not one of those days. whether it was the sun or the title of the piece (“love’s joy,” how wonderful), you’d woken up and decided that today, you’d have a warm and soft bagel for breakfast. you had a coupon for a free coffee and surprisingly, the commute to rehearsals was more punctual than usual. thus, you arrived an hour early, a smile on your face as you opened the door. you opened your case with extra care and rosined your bow with extra zest, humming a tune you heard playing on the radio. bakugou would’ve had a heart attack had he saw you then.

you ignored his entrance, only peeping one eye open at the man and nodding your head toward the piano as you continued on with the piece. you allowed yourself to become immersed in the music, following the soft pace bakugou set in his playing. closing your eyes, you saw the audience before you and felt your fingers sliding and pressing the strings. time flew while playing the piece; you’d barely noticed that the piece was nearing its end, playing its familiar melody one last time before opening your eyes. a glance at the rosin dusted in between the bridge and fingerboard of your violin satisfied you, like salt on caramel. you surely played just as sweet, smooth and saccharine like the gooey texture of a caramel confection. you relished in the sunlight streaming through into the room, ignoring the shuffling of papers behind you (from bakugou, no doubt). that was how you should play.

“something’s off,” you blearily opened your eyes to the sound of bakugou’s gruff voice. he was frowning, eyebrows furrowed in a not atypical manner.

“what,” you said flatly. “it sounded fine to me. i didn’t mess up or anything.”

“no,” he replied, deep in thought, crimson eyes darkening a shade. “we don’t have proper… emotion in the music.”

“huh?” you felt a comical question mark rising out of your head. “i played it perfectly to score. it conveys the composer’s emotions to a t,” you said, getting annoyed with the pianist. your grip tightened on your violin’s neck.

“well- yeah,” he gritted his teeth. “but what about your emotions?”

“who cares about my emotions?” you said. “all that matters is that my playing is perfect. the audience feels the emotions, not me.” why else had you been plucked into violin lessons when you were five? surely not for your own enjoyment.

“idiot, that’s definitely not how it is.”

“it’s just violin playing!” you snapped. “it’s not complicated with- with emotions! it’s the same as anything else!”

“you’re wrong,” bakugou coldly answered.

“what would you understand?” you seethed. “you’re just a damn pianist. you follow my lead.”

he ignored your remarks. “why do you play a fucking instrument, then? why bother to enter competitions or recitals?”

“to win, like any other normal person!”

he let out a clipped, exasperated breath. “fuckin’ explains it, then.” he didn’t elaborate. dismissing the topic, he said, “whatever. play the piece from the top. actually try to look at me this time, so we can stay together. put more emphasis on the downbeat at the start.”

“it’s not like you even heard me play the beginning,” you retorted, but made sure to accent that note even more during the replay. pianists. they always were on their high horses.

something you looked forward to every year was the valentine’s recital. the organizers, an old couple, had known you since you were a child, and thus developed a soft spot for you. you were a shoo-in for the event, relied on to learn the music on a short deadline. last year, you played preludio, from bach’s partita for violin no. 3. this year, though, the catch was weird.

“the letter says it’s a violin duet?” you said to jirou while video calling her. “i don’t have a violinist on hand, just a pianist. it’s not like bakugou can suddenly master violin.”

jirou looked at you with a surprised expression. “you don’t know?”

you stared back at her. “know what?”

“he plays violin, too.”

“huh?” you must’ve misheard her.

she nodded. “he’s pretty good, too. have you not seen the videos?”

“videos?" your eyes widened as you soon realized the implications of bakugou harbouring an aptitude for violin. "i’ve… i’ve got to go.”

“he’s as good as you, y/n,” jirou said with a knowing smile. you were quick to press the hang up button.

five seconds into teenage bakugou’s rendition of one of paganini’s caprices, you exited youtube.

the next day, you kicked open the door to the practice room.

“you,” you pointed a finger at bakugou, who sat at the piano midway through a piece.

“what is it now, dumbass? you’re late again.”

“shut up,” you grumbled. “that’s beside the point. you- you play violin?!”

he shrugged, not avoiding your piercing gaze. “i’ve dabbled in it, yes.”

you shut the door behind you. “and why did you never tell me?!”

“tch. you never asked, did you?”

“you’re my accompanist, i should know these things!”

“you know i play piano, and that’s enough,” bakugou said stubbornly. “i only play piano with you.”

“not anymore.” setting your violin case down, you shuffled through the pocket that held your sheet music. flipping out a packet of sheet music, you thrust it in bakugou’s direction. “here.”

he grabbed the sheets from you, skimming the title. “duo for two violins in…. fuck,” he muttered. “why didn’t you just say no? who even is this from?”

“valentine’s recital. the pay’s good, bakugou, and we need it.”

“you need it,” he mumbled bitterly, holding the sheets out for you. “i don’t.”

“it’s not like i’m happy about it either. since when were you a violinist?”

“since when was it any of your damn business?”

"you're supposed to be my pianist! not anything else!"

you didn’t understand how he could be so musically inclined. you blinked, and your sight smeared, blurring the sight of your feet with the laminate flooring. this wasn't right, you thought as you felt a telltale heat creeping up you. why were you crying now?

if there was one thing you prided yourself on, it was your violin playing. it seemed to be the only thing you were good at as a child when academics and athletics failed you. sure, you hated it at first (as most children did when their parents forced them to do something), but as time went on, the applause of the audience and the title of "winner" rewarded you enough. you were no prodigy, so you worked endlessly every day to prove yourself worthy. you never understood how you'd worked so hard only to be in the shadows of others so naturally gifted who surely would never understand how much you practiced to become better.

when it came to bakugou, he was never supposed to be better. he was your pianist, talented in a completely different musical realm than your own, so he could never be superior to you - and now he wasn't. he never was. here you were for the past year or so, looking like a fool in bakugou's eyes. on the days you struggled so hard with fourth finger vibrato, he was probably laughing at your inadequacy at violin. as easily as he played the violin, katsuki bakugou played you like a fool.

everything collided when you stepped out of the room, leaving a particular golden haired boy alone to stare at the sheet music you tossed him. your head throbbed with the groggy sensation of almost-tears and anger coursed through your veins.

you couldn't back out of the recital now. you couldn't.

you couldn't stand to look back into the vermillion eyes of katsuki bakugou now. even more so now, you couldn't.

your solution?

"hey, what's up?" jirou's collected voice filled your ear, your phone pressed to it.

"hey, kyo, i… kind of did a bad thing," you said, feeling jittery as you sought a commute home. you'd already made up your mind that your sorry-ass wouldn't be able to look bakugou back in the face for the rest of the day.

"...again?" she asked, tone concealing a hint of surprise. "don't tell me it was with bakugou. don't you usually practice now?"

"...usually, yes…" you sheepishly shuffled your feet, standing outside on the sidewalk. "i'll be resuming it again, 'course, when i get home…"

"why aren't you with bakugou right now?"

"that's… that's a long story," you laughed nervously.

"i can wait," jirou coolly replied. "kaminari got his foot stuck in his guitar case - don't ask - so i have time."

you considered asking about kaminari, then thought better of it.

"you know about the valentine's day recital they have every year? well, this year…" you recounted the events that led you to now, standing outside on the phone with jirou.

"where are you going to find a violinist?"

a silence found itself opportune as jirou waited for an answer. "i'm, uh, not…?" you said, deflecting the question back to jirou.

"well, you can't play both parts in the duet, can you? actually, don't answer that. i know you'd try. didn't you try that one time in-"

"what's done in uni stays in uni," you hushed her before she could recall that one time you tried to play a sonata with a recording of yourself. "aren't you going to tell me to try to make amends with bakugou?"

"no," she said thoughtfully after a pause. "you've tried before, and it's not working for you. i don't think you should be forced to do something you obviously don't want to do. i just think," she continued, "you need to find someone to do the duet with, if you don't want to work with bakugou. but objectively, he's your best bet."

as jirou always was, she was right. you thanked her for her advice not before hearing a distraught kaminari shouting for jirou in the background, and then she ended the call.

you repeated her words in your head once you got home, sliding your bow back and forth on your small block of worn rosin. the score for the duet was spread next to you on the floor. it wasn't that you didn't want to work with bakugou. or was it? had you been that selfish all along, sabotaging other performances because you didn't like him? if even jirou had noticed it, had bakugou noticed it too?

your sigh let out a thousand burdens piled up in your mind, blowing air out like dust accumulating on your tribulations. you picked up your violin and bow thoughtlessly, testing out the strings and plucking a couple with your left hand.

was it really only you with the contempt for working with bakugou? you'd assumed mutual hatred with him after your international debut, but had it really been so? had you been the only one picking fights during the time you'd worked together? as you backtracked, your fingers slipped into a familiar position. you began a piece you knew positively by heart, an absolute favorite of yours for years. you played mindlessly, serenading yourself with familiar notes and string fingerings as you thought long and hard about bakugou. how much shit had you given bakugou? he hardly complained, too, but why? why hadn't he quit after you'd been so ceaselessly difficult with him?

why were you so angry at bakugou, a gifted prodigy since childhood? the answer found itself as the composition descended into an array of complicated fingerings and string changes, sounding like an incoherent chaos somehow strung together by the music. you pretended you didn't know the answer.

it was much, much easier to leave bakugou as just a pianist. respectable in his own field, and incomparable to you. it was too good to be true, obviously. all your life, you played to win, and couldn't allow anyone else to surpass you. violin was about winning, winning, winning. how were you supposed to cope when all those hours of practice were easily overcome by someone with innate talent?

the piece eased your tension with a fermata, drawing out your vibrato to think. bakugou's perfection infuriated you, you concluded. knowing this, though, didn't help with anything. you almost screeched the last note as the composition came to an end, unsettled by thoughts of bakugou. you really couldn't stand him.

in an attempt to distract yourself from your dilemma, you decided to start practicing the recital composition. you pulled out an old portable music stand, bending the parts into place and stacking it up. carefully, you placed the sheets on the stand and skimmed over the music, bringing your violin up to your collarbone.

your eyes followed one measure ahead of what you were playing as you sight-read the piece. ahead, ahead, was all you could think as your fingers fumbled the notes, eyes moving from the score to the fingerboard. bakugou was far from your mind as you caught up to the music, too preoccupied with the sharps and flats you'd forgotten and the time you had to keep. you were busied by the shifts and the repeat signs in the music over anything else. your priority lay here for the time being, after all. the sight-reading was almost enough to make you forget you only play one half to a duet. there was still still an emptiness that lurked between the rests and the redundant beats that even your stilted practice couldn't mask. you tried not to worry about that, though.

time floated by as you repeated the piece over and over, playing for accuracy first. it wasn't enough, but you pretended it was. the metronome on your phone ticked away like time, endless and impatient, until you couldn't stand it anymore and packed away your violin.

the proceeding day was filled with more of the same practicing, working on tweaking hesitations and polishing up your playing. it was kind of convenient, practicing at home rather than waking up early to practice with bakugou. you missed the bagel the most.

you were definitely not playing your best, and it was clear by the way your bow occasionally screeched and how you fumbled the fingerings when you were particularly negligent. the piece just didn't sound right without the second part. (bakugou was definitely not the second part missing. not at all.)

by the third day you gave up and admitted to yourself that yes, bakugou was the second part missing. you were only a little bit miserable buying your usual bagel and coffee and rushing to rehearsals fifteen minutes late, aware that you'd be unable to eat it before practice. you were substantially less miserable than how you were the day previous, practicing alone.

you weren't surprised to see bakugou already there, sitting on the piano bench and tightening his bow hairs. he acknowledged you with a grunt as you set down your breakfast and beverage.

"showed up, huh?" he said finally, voice rough. he stood up, setting his sheet music on a stand. you stared at him, awed by his nonchalance. he picked up his violin and bow (which, by the way, looked super expensive) and propped his violin up by his chin. it felt so foreign to see him in position to play violin, fingers already expertly in first position and wrist beautifully curved, yet it inexplicably clicked. the scene in front of you looked like he'd done this everyday, as it was always supposed to have been, his back confidently straight. his fingers arched over the fingerboard and his bow appeared mathematically parallel to the bridge, held delicately between his fingers. you'd never carefully watched him play piano (probably due to your distaste to him and lack of knowledge about the percussion instrument), but he made the violin look like an instrument of the gods. he hesitated, though, bow moving a centimeter then back. he frowned at your idle silence and turned back to you. "well? are we doing this duet or not?"

"oh," you reacted intelligently. "yeah. yeah." it kicked in what you were doing by the time you'd started tuning your violin, first bowing your a string. after tuning your violin (with the help of a tuning fork and none from the perfect-pitched bastard bakugou, who appeared to be watching you with a triumphant gleam in his eyes as you struggled to tune your violin properly), you set your sheet music next to bakugou's.

"ready?" you asked, as if you'd been the one waiting for bakugou all this time.

"ask yourself that," he snorted. "i'll do the count."

you nodded.

"one, two, three, f-"

"wait, wait," you said, squinting at your music. "isn't it supposed to be a bit slower than that?"

"it says allegro," bakugou said, tapping his foot. "need an italian lesson? lively, briskly."

"i know what allegro means," you gritted. "seems too fast, when paired with dolce."

"maybe for you," he smirked.

you narrowed your eyes at him. "and that means what, exactly?"

he opened his mouth to reply some smug, smart-ass answer, but you stopped him.

"nevermind," you said. "do the count again, at the same tempo. i can do it."

you were bluffing, of course. since when was allegro this fast? you wondered as the opening notes sped by you in a musical blur. already familiar with the melody, you messed up dynamics the most. of crescendos and diminuendos? it wasn't like bakugou would notice, too preoccupied with his part.

the ending of the piece took your breath away, storming toward you in a whirlwind. adrenaline filled your veins as you raced to the last measure of the music, overcome by the tempo and the music. this time, full of energy and exhilaration, the piece felt complete. your and bakugou's sound surrounded the two of you, overflowing the room with a saccharine melody. it felt right simply standing beside him playing a two part piece, chest heaving from the piece's energy. you could only hear your breathing, a gentle encore to your playing.

"your playing is sloppy," bakugou said bluntly. he leaned over to your sheet music, starting to point at dynamic markings.

you swatted his hand away before he could say a word. "yeah, well, i just got the music three days ago," you interjected.

"you also had two of the three days off, so i'd say you're not doing enough." he glanced back down at your score. he pointed at a measure. "this is a crescendo, moron, why didn't you get much louder?"

"just- pay attention to your own music!" you said. "besides, it's dolce. i can get away with playing softer."

"that wasn't very dolce to me," he argued. "nothing sweet, soft, or gentle about that," he mumbled.

"i can be sweet, soft, and gentle if i want to!" you retorted.

he raised a brow, as if a challenge, scarlet eyes glinting in the light. "tch. i'm sure you can, but your playing damn can't."

“it can, too! listen,” you said, impetuously raising your violin and bow again. you slowly started to play a d major scale, impatiently scrunching your nose and squeezing your eyes shut to concentrate on making the music soft and gentle, tampering with different degrees of vibrato and bow pressure.

“... that’s just piano,” bakugou said, moving to you as you bowed an a. your bow came to an abrupt halt, making an unpleasant squeal, as bakugou positioned himself behind you. you felt his body warmth radiating behind you as a sweet, homely scent wafted around you. he brought his arms around you, hands overlapping where you held your violin and bow.

“you need to be,” he murmured into your ear, gentle tone almost slurring the words together, "fragile when you play dolce." he angled your bow slightly, moving your hand. "bow closer to the fingerboard." the smooth baritone of his voice resonated within you, becoming lost within the violinist's embrace.

"most of all," he said, dropping an octave to an intimate tone, "you need to feel it. you can attempt to play it, but without feeling, it's fuckin’ meaningless."

"feeling?" you repeated blankly. “the audience’s, you mean.”

he stepped away, a gesture that made you breathless, and shook his head. he crossed his arms over his chest, unintentionally accentuating their volume. “your damn feelings. what do you feel when playing the piece?”

there’s a pause for perhaps a second too long, as you mulled over different answers in your head.

“tch.” his eyes don’t leave you, gaze a laser burning into you. “‘s what i thought. why do you play violin?”

you held your tongue from answering my parents. “to win. i play to win,” you stated.

“and that’s the damn problem,” bakugou said, releasing a breath of frustrated air. “you win to play.”

“that means…?” you were starting to get impatient with the man, who seemed to be stalling and dragging out your limited time.

“you win competitions to play more.”

you almost scoffed, but his words were plausible. “what’s the purpose in playing more if not to win?”

he made a scratching noise in his throat, cool demeanor shifting to that of the bakugou you knew. “l-l-” he coughed, “love.”

“love?” you repeated, the word a surprise to swallow.

he nodded, gagging on his reply. you couldn’t see bakugou as the romantic type - the same bakugou who called all of his friends demeaning nicknames and could barely say the word love out loud. he was explosive, maybe, and talented, sure - but acquainted with love? you pursed your lips at the stuttering man trying to advise you.

“whatever,” he dismissed, voice oddly hoarse. “just play it from the top. fix the dynamics.”

weeks passed in a blur, though bakugou’s advice was left unforgotten. it had, for the most part, faded from your mind but lingered like a ghost in an abandoned attic, stirring up dust in complete silence. it was valid criticism on bakugou’s part, but the problem was that it was criticism you couldn’t digest. it was a ghost that you could not rid of, whispering and lurking until your music played over it.

four weeks before the performance, you had the piece almost entirely memorized other than a few flukes here and there. you managed most of your dynamics, playing in sync with bakugou by your side. three weeks and the piece was mostly smooth, foregoing all sheet music and practicing in the middle of the room with bakugou tapping out the tempo on the honeyed floor. any mistakes were recovered from quickly, and you were pleased to say that the amount of bakugou’s slip-ups equated to yours. at two weeks, though, he brought up the pest bugging your mind.

“play with more emotion,” he sighed exasperatedly, letting out a huff as you played for him. “start on f sharp again.”

you’d tried time and time again, but the longer you’d replayed the same few measures (followed by his criticism for the nth time), the only emotion you felt was frustration. your bow would push too hard or your vibrato would lay on thick, immensely irritating bakugou. you didn’t know why he even tried.

the air felt stale and the lights shone obnoxiously bright. the pads of your left hand fingers had hardened by now, indented with a pair of parallel lines from your unforgiving violin strings. you inhaled rosin dust and occasional bow hairs miserably dropped to the floor. your arms were tired, sore, and sick of playing; your ears painfully endured the same tune again and again, the originally fluid and sweet notes becoming high frequency static.

“i can’t do this.” you were tempted to flop onto the ground, hopelessness pouring over you.

“you can,” bakugou insisted stubbornly. “you just need to try harder.”

“harder?” you would’ve snapped (and you were surprised your e string didn’t already by the repetitive motions on it) if you weren’t so exhausted from rehearsing.

he nodded like it was obvious. “try harder.”

you shakily inhaled, trying to smooth your voice over. “i’m sorry i can’t be a prodigy like you.”

he stiffened, tense to the point of trembling. “whatever,” and it was a strained word pulled from his mouth. it was very atypical for him to give up like this, but you didn't care. you avoided his eyes as you restarted the piece, unable to bloom anything from it.

outside of your rehearsal time, you practiced. arguably, your solo rehearsals were more rigorous. you forced yourself to add emotion to the piece, sometimes playing for jirou. she agreed with bakugou (though was a great deal less irritating), stating that your playing was somewhat hollow. (you restrained yourself from knocking on the instrument and saying that yes, indeed, violins were hollow.)

"how… how do you get any emotions from playing?" you asked jirou at one point, watching one of her band's rehearsals. they were on a break, chatting idly and taking sips from their water bottles.

“well…” jirou started, glancing back at her band members. “i think about the feelings i want the audience to feel because of my songs. i think about how the song makes me feel, then i put that into how i play.”

“how do you…” you shifted uncomfortably, “know what to feel?”

she looked at you, taken aback, but replied easily. “you don’t. it just… happens.”

her response was vastly different than what you’d been taught a child. emotions? sure, there was perhaps a time where playing evoked a feeling in you, plucked something melodical from your heartstrings. it was when you were a child, though, so it was irrational and erratic, an outburst in the middle of your otherwise level playing. your violin teacher didn’t approve when you’d follow how the music made you feel. she said it made you stray too far from the original piece and would make you lose competitions. no matter how you pushed back against her, her advice haunted you over and over every time you got anything other than first place.

your performance is the audience, she’d told you. you didn’t understand what she meant at first, but she made sure you did while practicing for your next rehearsals. the audience, she quipped with thin lips under her sharp eyes, is everything. if the audience wasn’t satisfied, your performance was worthless, no matter how well you played technically. you play for them and you win - it was that plain. there was nothing more than you wanted but to win, at the time. you wanted a trophy, a medal, a certificate stating that you were better than most. it was palpable evidence that you were good enough - for your parents, your peers, anyone. like that, you practiced, a servant for approval. you weren’t a prodigy, but you sure as hell would try to play like one. her advice worked for over a decade, soundly racking you up with countless awards that filled your otherwise desolate self-esteem.

you didn’t say anything else to jirou about it, instead thinking about the bits and pieces of human feeling you could extract in between your piece’s accidentals and eighth notes. perhaps there was a possibility, through the phrases of notes and dynamic markings, you’d find a word that said love. a renewed interest sparked itself when jirou’s band continued their rehearsals, finding yourself to be a normal audience member (maybe even crying at the end. maybe).

you returned home to practice, practice, practice, coercing any hidden message in the music to vibrate in your violin and echo around your room. you watched other renditions of the piece to find something you were missing, but imitating them didn’t seem right. this continued for the following weeks, hiding any potential development from bakugou (or trying to, at least). you knew you’d be disappointing him if you failed after trying so hard. it was only safe to play what you knew, secure in the written parts of the composition and keeping it at that.

by the time the performance came around, you were glad bakugou never found out about your secret efforts. if he had, you knew he’d be sorely dispirited by your lack of tangible progress, your sound just as hollow as the soundbox of your violin. you failed, you knew, and as crestfallen as you were on that cold february morning, the show must go on.

the performances were held in an auditorium, warm compared to the snowy wonderland outside. it was typically couples comprising the audience, all romantic and pepped up in the spirit of valentine's day (white day was no different). some arrived early, finding seats in the empty auditorium and chatting amongst themselves (or sometimes making out, which made you want to throw your violin at them and gag). bakugou’s and your performance was last; it quite the heavy honor to play the finale to the recital.

backstage was a vast contrast to the hushed atmosphere settled over the assemblage. hovering over the staff and performers for the day was a sense of panic, hurry, and hecticness. bits of rosin were scattered on the ground where you prepared for your rehearsal, some belonging to your block and others not. your pack of extra strings lay next to you on the sofa you sat on, arm resting on the side of the seat. similar to your violin's strings, spun tightly over pegs to be kept in place, you felt high-strung. the buzz of energetic excitement flitted in your head, knee bumping up and down and jerking your violin in the same motion. it was hard to calm when you tuned your violin to absolute perfection, relying on bakugou's perfect pitch to do so. the fine tuners on the end of your strings probably hadn't had a harder time in the years you'd owned your violin.

"you're shaking the entire sofa, idiot," bakugou deadpanned next to you. “some of us are trying to rosin our bow, unlike you.” he glanced at the floor, where amber shards of rosin lay amidst white dust (also made of rosin).

“to be fair, most of those aren’t mine,” you pointed out. you reached into your violin case, finding the rectangular case of rosin and opening the top. "mine's only chipped in a couple corners, and the rest is just worn on the edges from my bow."

you leaned over to look at bakugou's rosin, two stubs in its case. "and i'm the one dropping my rosin?"

his ears turned a deep red, matching the velvet curtains on stage. "that's different," he muttered, putting the lid on his rosin and putting it away.

"you ready?" you watched him swallow before speaking, not looking at you. you could hear one of the presenters speaking, introducing the first piece to be played (an ever-so romantic rendition of clair de lune), but the voices felt distant and muffled over the sound of your own nervous heart beating.

"yeah," he replied. he turned to look at you, scarlet eyes meeting your own. "what, you're not scared now, are you, dumbass?"

you gulped. "no… just excited," you said. in truth, you felt disappointed in yourself for being unable to find any emotion in your playing - thinking about the piece, you were devoid of anything but the measures and the notes. what was the piece trying to say in the white space between staff lines? after the clef at the beginning of the music, where did the emotions start and everything else end?

quiet notes, twinkling from the piano on stage, met your ears. you took a deep breath. how did they make you feel?

…not very good, because this pianist was certainly a beat or two off tempo. a large hand on your knee startled you out of your trance. its warmth was surprisingly comforting. you followed the arm connecting to the hand to meet bakugou's concentrated face, eyebrows furrowed and nose scrunched.

"don't shake your knee like that. also, why are you so damn cold?" he moved his hand away, leaving an imprint of heat on your knee. you hadn't noticed the physical manifestation of your nerves prior to bakugou's words.

you left his question unanswered, staring at your violin in your lap. you traced the patterns in wood, fingers following the shape of the f-hole and thumbing circles on your chin rest. how were you supposed to be able to pull living, breathing life in the form of emotions from an inanimate object? what sorcery were you supposed to manage to satisfy yourself and the audience?

you thought back to bakugou's words. what was it had he said you were supposed to be playing for? love, the irrational and sentimental flaw of life - somehow expressed from the symbols on a sheet of paper and through strings on hollow wood. what sort of miracle was bakugou creating with his music?

what was violin, if not just a task to do everyday? what was it, out of competitions and tests of skill? what was the sound reverberating within its vacant body, recording every shift of fingers on the fingerboard?

you looked past your violin to the rosin on the floor. friction, your violin teacher had explained to you. you put rosin on your bow so it creates friction with the strings, and thus creates sound. it was strange how friction caused the smooth sound of a violin. too much friction, added by pressure on the bow, made a creaky sound on the strings. without rosin, the bow would be too smooth on the string and make no noise at all. the happy medium of not too much and not too little created the familiar rich tone on the strings.

a happy medium, you mused. in between too much friction and none at all. maybe that was how you were supposed to feel, in between trying too hard and not trying at all. that's what feelings were in the end, right? a natural human instinct, spurred by life. could you breathe life into the music?

the stage seemed almost too big for the two of you, spotlights centering you on the wide, wooden platform. the crowd's eyes were on you and your fellow violinist, some watching with drooping eyelids. they felt far, distant under the shadows. even so, the question still besieged you - would you please them?

you teared your eyes away to bakugou, who started the count. everything was silent until he nodded to you, your cue to start the piece. it felt too fast when you began but it was the same allegro you’d been practicing with. muscle memory took control now, your fingers finding their places easily.

your fingers and bow took all your attention. everything else fell away - the lights, the crowd, the stage - until it was just you, your violin, and the music. you could practically see the score in your head, playing the notes you'd come to know so well.

you heard your music echo and resound off the walls, but that's all it seemed to do. it touched everyone in the room, looking for a place to stay, and diminished in an empty space alone. it frustrated you that it wouldn't resonate - where was the love bakugou had so told you of? this auditorium was no different than your room, where sounds bounced off walls and landed nowhere. you weren't reaching anywhere or anyone, lacking emotion and any true substance.

love - what was love if not a hindrance? how could bakugou expect so much out of you? love - had you ever felt it for the violin? dolce told you to play sweetly, softly, and gently, but what was sweet about the violin? what was so sweet about the imprints of strings on your fingers, fragmented rosin at your feet, and bruises on your neck from long hours of practice? what was gentle about the arduous replaying of the same measure, the ringing in your ears after playing to master a simple phrase? what was soft about the forte that rang in your head, the fortissimo that filled a performance and clouded your senses?

dolce filled you like an epiphany, euphoric in your eyes that finally opened and awakened. dolce was in bakugou's eyes, soft velvet like the crimson curtains onstage, downcast at his violin. dolce was in his sound as his bow skittered near the fingerboard, in his fingers sliding back and forth on his a string. dolce was in his grasp of his bow and violin, in the very essence he played the violin with. dolce contradicted everything you knew, reminding you of bakugou's soft hands over yours, guiding your fingers and bow. dolce was the morning light streaming into the practice room as you argued with bakugou over tempos and notes, the light glinting on shattered shards of rosin as you anxiously rosined your bow. dolce was the curve of your violin scroll, the bend of your fingers over your bow's frog. dolce was the white space in between staff lines on your sheet music and through half and whole notes. dolce was everything in between the rough of your violin experience, the laughter and smiling gone forgotten during sleepless practice sessions and violin evaluations.

what was dolce, if not a rebellion? what was it, if not a rebellion from the years of work and pain you'd endured in the name of musicality? what was it, if not laughing in the face of your violin instructors and the strict score you adhered to?

when you opened your eyes to meet bakugou's, whose carmine eyes dripped with a burning passion and the essence of souls, you finally felt. it was the so-sought over love, scorching every note and stroke of your bow and bursting life in every movement, breath, and echo of your performance. it was exhilarating, living through every slur and chord you played. when you finally met his eyes he understood, a satisfied smile tugging on his lips as his gaze never left yours. this was it - this was dolce, humming sweetly, softly, and gently in your ears and reflecting in the audience's heart. this was dolce, making you realize that you never wanted to play violin alone again.

you picked up a rose that had landed at your feet at the end of your piece, holding it next to bakugou's confused face. in doing so, you reached your second epiphany of the day - perhaps the more important of the two. bakugou's eyes bloomed redder than the rose, deeper than the lowest note on a double bass, and maybe it was he that was the true dolce you were looking for.

notes!!

if you’re reading this, congrats !! this is my longest fic on my account (the record will be broken soon), so i really appreciate you reading this :> (spare a reblog, perhaps?)

first, explaining the playlist:

beethoven’s kreutzer - this was played in the anime, “your lie in april,” and i simply think it fits the “fight” reader and bakugou have. this was played at reader’s first international recital that did not go so well.

kreisler’s liebesfreud (love’s joy) is in the same series as his piece called liebesleid (love’s sorrow), also featured in “your lie in april.” i personally really like the piece. of all of these listed, i think you should listen to this one the most.

beriot’s duo concertante was the other contender for reader and bakugou’s duet piece!

debussy’s clair de lune is simply a favorite of mine. it’s the first piece played at the valentine’s performance (and i like to imagine reader’s listened to bakugou’s recording of the piece)

spohr’s duo for 2 violins is the piece reader and bakugou play! it’s the second part of the duo in allegro, and i once tried to listen to it while following the sheet music. i was so confused every time i did so; i’d get lost and such, and figured my musicality was declining. nope. i was reading the wrong part. so, i started freaking out because oh god the dolce is in the first part, not the second, and thankfully, there’s a bit of dolce in the second part too! however, it did take me a while to decide whether to use the first part instead.

also, spohr invented the chinrest on the violin! crazy :D

paginini’s 24th caprice is considered the hardest out of all 24 caprices. imagine,,, teenage bakugou playing this,,, doing the left hand pizz and all T^T pain

there’s a lot i wish i could cover in this! a lot of reader’s own flaws (ahem, viola jokes) and development were something i couldn’t cover. bakugou’s arc as well! he had an arc a bit before this story takes place :)) tl;dr i’m very tempted to pick my violin up again and start playing

the frog of the bow does not, sadly, go ribbit. it’s the part violinists hold the bow by!

thank you for reading! i hope you enjoyed this :)

#bakugou x reader #bnha x reader #bakugou fluff #bnha fluff #katsuki bakugou x reader #bnha x gender neutral reader #bakugou angst #bnha angst #luna's writing #violinist bakugou

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