#anyways i hate spring <3

[starsonmarsy]

the fuck do you mean it's gonna be 95°F tomorrow i'm gonna die

#i hate the heat #at least our ac is fixed but still #disgusting #it's literally still may why is it even this hot #it's also disgustingly humid #this close to moving to canada /j #i hate feeling like i'm posting too much so i'm just gonna add to this as i think of them until i hit the limit lol #anyways making plans is so stressful like. what exactly are we doing snd when i need to know every single detail or else i will go insane #also my allergies make me wanna not go outside at all and the temperature doesn't help either #but apparently i need to interact with people for my mental health 🙄 #is it not enough to say silly things to the little gay people in my phone #but even then i dont do that much dhfhg #ive been. attempting to interact more bht i'm also like . am i annoying do u hate me am i being too much do you think im cringe #do you doubt my intentions am i boring am i strange do you immediately roll your eyes when my name appears #social anxiety fucks me in the ass daily it's quite rude smh my head #it was easier to do things before 2021 but now i am extremely self conscious #i also need to learn to stfu bc i ramble sm 😭 i am so sorry to anyone that talks to me ever #anyways i hate spring <3 #autumn > every other season. no i am not biased just bc my birthday is in fall nope not at all 😇 #mars.txt

[guinevereslancelot]

nooo early spring sunlight, don't get dark i'm still depressed haha

#7pm isnt bad but nooooo #its so cold out i didn't spend as much time outside as i wanted to now its too late #like ik i wasng getting warmer as it was getting later but still #anyway #alas #i will try to wake up early tomorrow tho perhaps #it will be raining but also warm so i can do stuff outside 😌 #spring!!! #my depression is almost cured just give it like another week or two and i'll be fine <3 #tho my scary doctor's appointment is coming up and i have no money :( #my parents will hopefully be able to cover the treatment for me but i have no idea yet what it will cost and i hate to be a burden on them #ugh #trying to enjoy the beauty of slring without thinking abt maybe never seeing it again 🥲

[residentrookie]

i never post stuff like this but here's a little poem i wrote for class that i'm proud of :)

#click for better resolution bc tumblr hates me #anyway i wrote this for class last spring #enjoy <3

[lovesickgoose]

I didn't know snzblr was a thing until now. As someone with year-round allergies I'm fascinated lmao. But yeah I get it, I'd like being taken care of when sick too. I mean honestly who wouldn't

IT REALLY IS FASCINATING!! I happened upon it ages ago, and I was like huh ?? everything sure is a kink. While I hate sneezing and personally don't understand the appeal, the being taken care of while I'm sick sure does sound nice

#also i read some of the posts ages ago and a lot of them have disclaimers like 'do not follow/ reblog/ interact etc if you're not snzblr' #i don't frequent kink spaces really so idk if this is a general thing but it seems like a very idk closed off group #it was an interesting thing to happen upon anyway #godspeed sneezers of tumblr #also i hate sneezing because it makes my head hurt. spring is hell because i have the worst hayfever😭😭 #thanks for the ask<3 #asks #not scribbling

[bamboozled-distress]

I JUST KNOW that micheal holden loves Harry styles that dude plays music for a sushi restaurant so fuckin loud i just know

#it’s just #a fact #and Tori probably hates it #or acts like she hates it anyway #has probably sang sunflower to her #but only the end beepboopoopboop stuff #omg i want to see fanfic of this now tho #my thoughts #micheal holden #solitaire #tori spring #heartstopper <3 #heartstopper #sprolden #charlie spring #nick and charlie #osemanverse #alice oseman #nick nelson #heartstopper tori #narlie #heartstopper alice oseman #solitaire alice oseman #aroace #pansexual #qpr #queer platonic relationship #they’re so special to me #micheal Holden <3

[weidli]

okay one of my flatmates is really fucking starting to piss me off lmao

#i am away for. Four days. #i come back. 10 pm. the shared compost bin i washed and left to dry in the rack the day before i left is still where i put it. instead of #moving it (Extremely Simple Fucking Action) she has chosen to dry her dishes by balancing them on the rim of the sink. the sink itself has #food scraps in it. jars with bits of food still in are standing on the counter and i know from experience i'll snap and bring those #to the recycling bins before she does. i start scrubbing things because leaving My Kitchen unclean upsets me on a molecular level and she #walks by and all she says is a grunted hello #and i could tolerate this ALL FINE i could think ah she's just busy probably! but when other flatmate (beloved) and i attempted to initiate #a chore chart system so that kitchen and bathroom get regularly and properly cleaned #at the end of the month she was like well i hate kitchen duty because i don't think i should have to clean up your messes. i cleaned the #kitchen once this month and an hour later it was dirty again. woman 1. sorry for fucking using the kitchen 2. you cleaned the kitchen ONCE? #in a MONTH? 3. you did not fucking clean up our messes. i know for a fucking fact i was putting away your dishes on a daily basis i would #looove to know what the fuck you considered cleaning up my mess #anyway. long story short thank fucking christ she's moving out at the end of spring semester otherwise i'd snap and write her a very #pettily snide whatsapp message

[vulpinesaint]

what if i cried over having to take this stupid fucking rhetoric class again

#i am. oh my god. i don't know if i can do it. #i already had to take critical writing at previous college #and it was the same fucking class as ap lang but honestly stupider #and now i have to take ANOTHER. #the class i took before fulfills the requirement but i have to take the same fucking class AGAIN for SOME fucking reason???? #i hate the advisors i hate this school i'm going to kill someone and it might be myself if i have to analyze the rhetoric of another meme #I KNOW THE BASICS OF RHETORIC. IS THAT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU??? #genuinely fucking devastated by this i'm partway to full tears #i just can't fucking do it. i can't. i can't take it. #that class last spring made me Miserable and i can't sit through it again it'll Break me #can't take it this semester anyway cause it's full And conflicts with my only open work days BUT. #that's a full month for me to annoy the registrar or whoever the fuck until they give me my FUCKING CREDITS #literature and writing 115... don't put me back there... #I HAVE JUNIOR STANDING DON'T FORCE ME BACK INTO THE 100 LEVEL GEN EDS... #I'M AN ENGLISH MAJOR WITH MORE THAN 60 CREDITS I FUCKING PROMISE I KNOW HOW TO WRITE OH MY GOD!!!!! #feeling the weight of despair right now #do you think if i sob in the transfer office they'll feel bad for me or will i have to threaten violence #i don't wanna be a shitty person to people who are just trying to do their jobs but i might snap if they keep telling me i have to take it #</3 #valentine notes

[safyresky]

Crystal Springs Chapter 6: now on ao3!

Give it a read on ao3 HERE.

Chapter 6: Freezer Burn

Jack and Jacqueline talk it out, featuring some fun mindscape shenanigans. Jacqueline comes up with an under appreciated term for Jack's apparent lack of power.

🆕‼ Chapter 6 fell victim to the rewrite treatment.

Yeah, I know, I know. AGAIN???

YES, AGAIN! LISTEN OK. I STARTED REREADING IT AND WAS TRYING TO TIDY IT BUT THERE WAS TOO MUCH TO TIDY! YOU KNOW WHAT WAS ALREADY TIDY? THE BLANK WORD DOC THAT IS NOW SAVED AS "Chapter 6 Rewrite. Yes. fr. not joking. HELP"

So what's new this time around?

🆕 Mindscape Shenanigans are now TANGIBLE

🆕 Cold Front chat just flows better and works better ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And that's it! See? I'm not THAT out of control! I only added an extra like, 1k of words! That's NOTHING compared to Arc B's rewrite!

Anyway.

Wanna start Crystal Springs from the top? Read the Prologue: An Encounter on ao3 HERE and ff.net HERE!

#the santa clause #the santa clause 3 #tsc #tsc3 #you can see in this chapter that i absolutely HATE tscs mythos and have my OWN #were it not for the laws that govern this land #i would kill the series dead in a HEARTBEAT #anyway #cs updates #crystal springs #cs on ao3 #dani speaks #dani writes

[milo-is-rambling]

Chronic pain really got me going to bed before it’s even dark out (also my little pink unicorn lights Millie got me look so cool in the second pic)

#my back and shoulder are killing me and I’ve done nothing but smoke weed and stretch and I just hurt so bad #so I’m gonna go to bed and hopefully feel better tomorrow #I work at nine again tomorrow so if anything hopefully going to bed early helps that #I’m excited to sleep hopefully a lot and hopefully really well bc 1) weed. 2) took sleepy cough meds to try and mooch extra pain reliever #out of meds in my cabinet. 3) took a back and muscle pain Aleve (even tho I hate taking pills and it took me like three whole min to get it #down my fucking throat. 4) tired from actually using my brain and anxiety from work tired #5) period tired and chronic pain tired #like guys my brain and my body are both exhausted and the idea of getting up tomorrow and doing any of it again makes me miserable and I did #nothing but sit at a computer for three and a half hours that’s itttttt #like doing two week road-trip then non stop either emotional or physical shit every day until my first day at work #like I’m already setting myself up for this to be the summer of the grind #gonna make a bunch of money (and spend too much and blame it on the summer time and needing a little treat every time I venture out into the #heat or work a day or do anything at all) and then save a bunch all fall winter spring and once it gets colder and I feel like I can handle #my job more I want to focus on how to make moving out happen. like I need to figure out if maybe there’s somewhere I want to live that has #an Office Depot I could transfer to cause office depots are everywhere and maybe that’s an added way for me to figure out where I want to #move #hmmm okay I’m gonna lay in bed on google maps looking at Office Depot locations in New England and I’m just gonna daydream and try to fall #asleep and I’ll look at / add to my Pinterest board of house and apartment inspo #going to think about the future because I want to live !!!! #anyways yeah this is the summer of being miserable and spending all my money on bullshit and daydreaming and disappointing my mother #and also the summer of my weed tolerance doubling forever until I’m back to smoking constantly to the point where I’m making myself sick and #then I’ll get sick of smoking weed for a bit and that’ll lead me into saving money again #or force me into a tolerance break where I stop buying weed #either way I’m going to smoke all summer it’s gonna be weed and sweat and fresh fruit and laying in my room during all of my days off and it #it’s gonna suck and I’m gonna be thinking about my dad the whole time and it’ll be depressing and isolating and lonely and I’ll come out of #the summer recentered and motivated towards big goals again like I always am #and then I’ll crash and burn next spring as always. cycles continue forever thank u seasonal depression. #I want to grow up and mature in the ways I deal with myself my health and advocating for my mental health I feel like I need to grow up a #bit so I hope I do that and it feels good. I hope I make friends and I can daydream about the future every night and my room will smell like #weed and incense and sweat and love and tears and it will be incredible

[smute]

depression visualized figkcllhktnbsjskxkvkkgn

#cant believe i walked sixty whole meters hahahahahaha #certified summer hater #i was averaging 3-5 km in the spring #its not just the season though #i never know where to go down here #i live right in the center of town #and there's zero greenspace anywhere near me #well. a cemetery but its tiny #and depressing #anyway im moving this week and #i hope ill be able to start my daily walks again soon #my parents place is much better for that #right on the edge of town #a much smaller town #plus #not actively hating the place goes a long way #&

[itspileofgoodthings]

Every day i think about emma saying ”jonathan byers should be a dad if he could ever bring himself to love a woman” and it makes me scream with laughter

#he makes Nancy climb out of his window????????? #Even though Joyce KNOWS they’re sleeping together #THE ICE COLDNESS #Jonathan loves the people he loves so completely it’s easy to miss the ice that lives in his veins akskksksksksjejejjejeje #if it’s not will he kind of doesn’t care #he loves Joyce too but also is frustrated with her #and that is the extent #He hates Lonnie and also everyone else #I haven’t seen season 4 but apparently Jonathan does pot and refuses to go visit Nancy on her spring break #And i——— #I need to see their breakup PLEASE aksksjsjsjjsjsjsjdhsjsjjsjsjs #The funny thing about Jonathan is he’s like ‘I hate people and parties’ #and Nancy and the viewers are like (playfully): STOP it no you don’t #but ……… he kind of DOES #not saying the show has a full grasp on this but the actions kind of speak for themselves #anyway it’s very VERY funny #to be clear: 1) I love him. 2) he doesn’t love nancy and I think that’s pretty clear 3) he needs to have more storylines with will

[guinevereslancelot]

shoutout to girls who can't drive

#working on it but at what cost 😭 #i need a job that pays money instead of costing money tho to fund my job that costs money until it starts paying money someday 😔 #spending so much money i dont have right now on it 😬 #almost my entire savings went to trees for this spring and then i have to plant 700 by myself <3 #and we're renting sheep to restore one of our fields and just everything else to get ready is really adding up i really need some income #hopefully i can get away with part time tho bc there's so much work to do at home lol #im doing a pumpkin patch and a sunflower field this year too #and if i can scrape together 500 dollars im going to get a decent starter camera for funzies and also to take nice pics for the website #bc its very pretty but hard to capture on my phone #anyway if u cant drive u are smart you are valid you are capable you can succeed #anyway i know cars are evil etc but i live in a rural area w no public transportation of any kind and rn im relying on my mom lol #i do drive short distances with my dad in the car bc his driving is terrifying #but anxiety 😬 #there's a place im hoping i can work that's not too far i think i can handle the driving its just getting a license that's stressful #anyway @ girls who can't drive i believe in you <3 #this has been a shitpost #my mom would sometimes drive me to freelance stuff thats how i have savings but i really hate to bother her driving me everywhere #so i really want to be able to drive myself to a regular job lol

[elftwink]

one thing i do tastelessly think is funny is like. do you remember late 2021/early 2022 when you'd constantly see posts like "when the pandemic's been going on for 2 years and you've never caught the virus" or "never caught covid gang" or whatever. have you noticed how they have completely dropped off like i haven't seen one since early spring. and it's because we all got fucking covid isn't it

#good idea generator #not going to say it's karma for reblogging posts like that #but i will say that when i was in bed with a fever this spring i had a lot of time to reflect #on laughing at a meme about never catching covid. in my head i was like. had that one coming ig #sorry for bragging & next time i'll mind my business #have not learned anything though bc every 2 weeks i stop myself from making a post like #'mutuals who caught covid rise up' no matter what i love to belong to a group #love to have a unifying experience. even if the unifying experienced SUCKED. and i HATED IT #anyway if you have had covid in the past also. we are in a club together #if you have covid rn. love you get some rest <3

[lolacouldnotcareless]

b, t, and s for the ask game <3

B BEcause - dreamcatcher burn like a star - ahn ye eun & woo ye rin black swan - bts blue hour - txt bonnie & clyde - yuqi

T take me home - ateez tear drop - sf9 tears of chaos - e'last true crime - epik high & miso timeless - bibi

S save our lives - forestella scenery - ashmute sleeplessness - kim feel sweet chaos - day6 shape - nuz & jin kim

#conclusion: i love too many songs starting by b. this is a curse and a blessing #i can't put them all and it's heartbreaking #doing my very best to only put one (1) song per artist #noooooooooooo it means i cannot put tear as i already have black swan i am in RUINS why did i imposed that rule on myself i hate it here #to be fair there's already enough tears theme-wise in the t section shbfqhfj #oh god it means no turbulence either bc i already have take me home WHY am i doing this to myself #OH NO NO SPRING DAY EITHER I AM SHATTERED #i have a heart too big for that shit #encountered another beloved song -shelter- but i already have tears of chaos. 156 injuried and 349 dead. #hononary mention to victon's own bonnie and clyde GOD now the same titles i am going Mad #oh no another song with a title starting by s is playing rn but i have already finished the s section i am NOT going back to it #(a song of ash and smoke - mot) #it is finished at last!!!!!!!!!!!! #ANYWAY #hi siyuan!!! how are you? :3 #i'm. good enough i'll be better soon jhfkqj #i do hope you're doing well :3 <3 #thank you for passing by!!!!!

[mayonakano-archive]

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#vent btw #leo.screams #i get like. really unreasonably lonely sometimes. like. i have /friends/ but all of them are online #i can't talk to one of my irls since she's basically inactive on the things i use; and my other irl is moving away in the spring #so it's just. lonely. and i don't expect my friends to constantly talk to me or anything; but sometimes what contact i do get #just... doesn't feel like enough. i guess it's just the plight of being constantly online though #and like. my parents suck. i hate them. i barely talk to them. so... #im not even going to get into that just take that as it is. #all my old friends suck anyway. my two irls are the only good people i have. and they graduated #i'm going to be entirely alone in my senior year. that sucks... i hope to god im not in any classes with any of them #i think i would die... i never want to see any of them again... #i hope i die. i hope we all die. <- i'm not going to hurt myself dw i'm just very emo rn. #sigh. this got long. sorry guys. i hate being emotional on main <3 #leoposting