I am currently getting ready to go to a funeral for a man I do not know, but probably should have
He was at my wedding, almost 13 years ago. His wife is a friend and coworker of my mom's. They gave us the artificial flowers from their recent-at-the-time wedding to decorate our venue, saving us a lot of money and trouble. Our wedding colours were even the same, by a wild coincidence.
But I don't remember him. Mom and his wife (now widow) still work together and are still close, but I haven't seen them in so long and I've forgotten.
I am going to the funeral mostly because my mother cannot travel alone and I am her de facto support person. There are going to be people there who I am supposed to know, but I don't. I am faceblind and have a poor memory.
Whatever powers that be, please don't let me turn this funeral into a social fiasco
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feeling somewhat normal for the first time in days. spent the entire day yesterday at the hospital's emergency unit thinking i was gonna have a heart attack or find some bad heart problem because i had been feeling really weird symptoms since the weekend but after a bunch of exams that came out okay turns out it was most likely just really bad anxiety. got more exams to do and advised to seek mental health support. but more importantly, it took me being drugged multiple times to sleep properly ahwjwhs i completely crashed yesterday and now i'm up too early but my heart doesn't feel as bad so far.
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I got some incredibly kind messages today after venting about my thoughts about quitting art this morning and I just want to say THANK YOU to the people who reached out to me and that I love you all 💖💖💖💖 ;__;
I’m definitely NOT giving up, I’ve just been really struggling with anxiety, imposter syndrome, and hinging my self-worth on my income lately and I’ve been losing sight of what brought me to art in the first place.... life remains incredibly stressful to us all, but this was a good reminder to take a breath and be gentle to myself despite everything
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