#anxious rambles

[stripedwolf88]

Ever take an attachment style quiz and have a wave anxiety pass over you? Or is that just me lol?

But it's helpful to know. Especially now while I am at a crossroads with someone.

Sorry for the overshare but I had to have someone know. Even if it is the peeps in my phone. 💚

#day in the life of a striped wolf #anxious rambles #anxious attachment style #it's gonna be okay #Maybe not right now but soon

[bobapplesimblr]

ngl im genuinely anxious to play the sims and make content. I’m not sure if it’s derived from the modpocalypse we’re facing or from performance anxiety, but I’m not doing great ✌ Lowkey considering asking for anxiety medication in my next visit to the psychiatrist cause shit is getting worse. I would love to play and I even fixed and updated a lot of my cc but... I don’t really know. I want to build and work on my save file so bad but it’s basically consuming my life right now and I’m not sure that’s healthy. I’ll try to play a bit in a ‘current household’ kind of way and see if that fixes it, or maybe I should wait for the pack to come out until I do anything else

I don’t know yall. I might just remove my mods all over again and keep working with vanilla on my custom save file. I love building in it and hopefully I’ll be able to keep doing so for a little longer. I’m not super interested in gameplay right now

I feel like this post is really confusing, and maybe my adhd medication of today has faded already (if thats even possible) but I’m just really unsure and anxious about things. Maybe I just need to push myself, but I’m sorry if I keep posting no content for a while longer

Also I did make a reshade preset, I haven’t made a download link for it but I do have a little post on my blog about it if you’re curious to see how that looks

g’bye!

#rambles #tired rambles #anxious rambles #executive disfunction

[sasa-slayer]

Pictures hit me like a boulder. That wave of nostalgia crashes over me and suffocates any rational thoughts-

What happened? I looked like that? I had my ideal physical appearance and I just never realized it!?

I miss being happy.

I miss being silly.

I miss being me…

but, the thing is, pictures only capture so much. They don’t capture my mother’s screams, or my father’s death. They don’t capture the sun rising as I clench my phone, and they don’t capture the anxiety attacks. No, the pictures don’t capture my fits of depression as I contemplate beside the medicine cabinet. The truth is, the truth isn’t simple. At least not in this case. You can’t see me when you’re viewing one moment of my life under a microscope.

And I can’t see life when I’m staring at an old photo

#spilled poetry #poetry #poem of the day #tw depressing thoughts #tw body image #tw sui ideation #Depressed poetry #original poem #spilled thoughts #anxious rambles

[citricacidprince]

Was forced to get a new phone today

#Bluetooth earbuds are the bane of my fucking existence and I hate them so fucking bad #I NEED those wired buds to fiddle with my hands when I’m anxious #I also like not having to fucking CHARGE the things I’m listening to stuff with #I hate this future this sucks bootyass #prince rambles in this chilies tonight

[anxiousdemi]

Me: I feel so exhausted lately. I am simultaneously brimming with the need to do things and an inability to do even simple tasks. My brain is in the microwave but it's just melting instead of cooking. My nausea and acid reflux are doing double time. Why am I like this

Also me: Maybe it has something to do with the funeral you went to not even a week ago, the frequent mandatory socializing for days that surrounded it, the travel associated, the fact that your excellent if overworked supervisor is leaving due to overwork this week, and that you're still expected to socialize and go to work as usual?

Me @ me: ........ Maybe....

#i got a whole 3 days of bereavement leave #that was basically all spent on travel #i know having bereavement at all is amazing in this economy #but i need more #the soonest i can take any more time off is admittely only the end of next week but also i have meetings Every Other Day #rambles #anxious rambles #eating hurts #i am tired #is it grief #is it depression #is it both #am i allowed to do anything about either

[thestrawberryprinces-blog]

I take great pride in the fact that IF my skeleton is dug up in like 2000 years, because of my broad ass shoulders and broad ass hips, reaserchers will have no fucking clue what my agab was and if we're still as masculine-centric as we are now (not very likely, but who knows) they'll just go

'Yeah that one's male' and leave it be

#Anxious Rambles

[flowercrowngods]

Steve startles awake, disoriented and filled with a slight bout of panic — as always when he takes a nap that turns into five hours of deep sleep and catapults him right into the next dimension for a while there.

Heart racing, he blinks his dark bedroom into existence, and it takes him a while to realise where he is and what woke him up.

And then the landline phone on his nightstand rings again, and he exhales deeply before reaching for it with clumsy, sluggish movements.

“‘Ello?”

“Steve,” comes Eddie’s sing-song voice from the other end, washing over Steve in a soothing way that leaves him falling back into the pillows. He clutches the phone to his ear as he closes his eyes, the smile already forming at how happy Eddie sounds. He rarely sings Steve’s name like that. He should do it more often.

“Hi there.” His voice sounds like shit. Like he just took a — Jesus Christ, has it really been four hours? Well. He sounds exactly like someone who took a four-hour nap after a shit day at work would sound like.

There’s fumbling on the other end, but it stops suddenly. “Did I wake you? Shit man, I thought it was past nap time.”

“I don’t have nap time,” Steve grumbles, actually pouting at Eddie’s words and realising only a second too late how ridiculous he sounds.

“Sure, man, whatever you say. We all know you’re actually just a life-sized toddler.”

Steve sputters, sitting up against his headboard as he gradually wakes up. “Hey! Also, I don’t think you actually understand what life-sized means.”

“Yes, I do.”

Steve shakes his head at this ridiculous, ridiculous man. “What exactly do you think a non-life-sized toddler looks like, Eduardissimo?”

“Like Dustin.”

The answer is so quick and deadpan, Steve cannot contain the laugh that bursts out of him, waking him up quicker and gentler than anything else in the world could have, and he revels in the sound of Eddie joining him. He must look so smug right now, and so damn proud of himself. Steve wants to see him. Wants to kiss that smile right from his lips and replace it with something a lot more genuine.

“You’re an asshole,” he says instead, pulling his blanket further around him as he lifts his knees to sit more comfortably.

Eddie hums, still teasing somehow with just that noise, and Steve just can’t stop smiling. “You like me so much, Harrington.”

“Hmm,” he mirrors Eddie’s hum, but even he can hear the smile on his face. “Jury’s still out on that one, actually.”

“Any tendencies yet on the verdict?”

“Nope, they can’t decide.”

Eddie snorts at that, and Steve has no idea how that can sound so sweet. But it does. He buries his smile in his knees for a bit, the blanket hot around his burning cheeks. He’s hopeless.

“Well, let me know as soon as they do, yeah?”

“Will do,” he laughs, ruining all his attempts to sound solemn. “So what’s up? Why’d you call?”

“Oh!” And suddenly it’s like a switch has been flipped and Eddie doesn’t sound teasing and smug anymore, but instead just fucking giddy! “I have a bed now!”

Steve smiles at it. At that voice, that tone, that infectious emotion. “Oh yeah?”

“Yeah!” More fumbling on the other end, and Steve can only imagine that Eddie is rolling around in his newly acquired bed.

Who’s the life-sized toddler now, hm?

“No more sleeping on the floor for this Munson boy, nuh-uh, my good sir! We are in possession of a bed now. A wooden bed, no fancy headboard or anything, just…”

“Just a bed,” Steve says, feeling like he’s about to burst into a million little particles of fondness and affection and the never-ending need to kiss Eddie. To hold him. To touch him in any way he can. “That’s great, Edsie.”

“It is, Stevesie.”

“Man, I hate you so much,” Steve squints at the ceiling and laughs, actually kicking his feet, the minute breeze providing a little relief for the heat in his face.

And Eddie has no business to sound so smug when he says, “Yeah, you do.”

A pause then, and it feels loaded even through the phone. Steve clutches it closer to his face, hoping stupidly that Eddie can feel it.

“You should come hate me in my new bed.”

Steve’s breath hitches, and his brain shuts off for a hot second there. Before he can overthink this, he decides to just… play along. And listen to what his heart has been telling him for months now.

“Oh yeah?” he asks, breathless still, but his whole body tingles with just these two words. With the possibility they bring. The offer that they are. The question. The everything that’s stored in them.

“Yeah,” Eddie says, and he sounds just as breathless. “I mean, if— If you want to?”

“I do.” Steve swallows. “Right, uh— Right now?”

“Whenever.” And it sounds more like an As soon as possible.

“Okay,” Steve breathes, scrambling out of bed as quickly as possible, pulling off his shirt with the phone still pressed to his ear, letting out an embarrassing noise as it gets tangled in a mess of cord and fabric. He scrambles to free it, almost dropping it in the process. “I’ll be there in thirty.”

“To come look at my new bed?”

“Sure.”

On the other end, Eddie laughs again, but he still sounds just as breathless as Steve does. Just as excited. As fragile. Just as many fucking things.

“Alright,” Eddie murmurs, though Steve can still hear the smile. “I’ll see you then.”

And then he hangs up before either of them can get lost in their own heads about this sudden certainty of change. Steve is grateful for the steady noise of the dial tone reminding him that this is happening. But that nothing has to happen.

It’s a nice bed, he finds hours later, fingers combing through Eddie’s hair who’s cuddling him half asleep. It’s the best fucking bed he’s ever seen, if only because it led to this.

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#listen i have a bed now. assembled it yesterday (actually my brother did i just stood there and looked cute) #and i’m so happy and schmoopy (@myself for myself with myself by myself) about it #steddie fic #steddie #steve x eddie #dio’s steddie ramblings #look yet more fluff from me like wow who dis??? #dio words #i feel so anxious about the permanent tag list like do yall even wanna see silly little things like this 😭😭🙏

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Well anyways its not "I can fix him" or "I can make him worse"

Its about taking someone who is in a bad place and giving them all the love you wish you had gotten when you were in a bad place yourself. To give someone the opportunity to heal and grow because you understand how painfull it is to go through it alone. Maybe even to heal together..

Because if the big scary killer robot deserves your love then you deserve it too

#i ramble #huh this sounds kinda sad #idk there is a reason i like the characters that are portrayed as anxious insecure or depressed #its he can heal and i want to be there for it #this is way too sappy #well i am cringe but im free

[whimsyprinx]

I feel like now is a good time to announce that I’m in the process of moving blogs! Im doing so for a few reasons, the main one being paranoia, so for that reason I won’t be saying my new urls publicly so like please dm me if you’d like my new url so you can follow me there! I’ll be reblogging this post a lot so ppl can see it (so sorry if you get annoyed by that)!

I’m also remaking my discord account as well so if we’re friends on there then feel free to message me for my new username!

friends and mutuals please do reblog so shared friends/mutuals have a higher chance seeing it!

#whimsy whispers #I’m just like ahdjfjjg #I’ve been considering remaking blogs for a few years now (as some of you may know) and like simply changing urls isn’t enough #no matter how many times I chnage urls the paranoia won’t go away and I think that starting a new blog is the best choice #idk what to do if my newest blog gets found by the ppl I’m paranoid about like idk the odds of that are low (I hope) alas I’m still anxious #about it #for some slight context: I’ve had several people now pop up in my life pretending to be other people/several people and while I’ve blocked #then on every social media account I interacted with them in im still paranoid about them lurking #and then like there’s other reasons to remake as well #I’m tired of this blog like I love it it’s been fun but I think starting over will be nice #tbh this is the longest I’ve had a blog without remaking I usually remake accounts every so often #I don’t intend to remake my next blog like at all but like agdhjfjg I have a habit of getting bored of accounts and staring over (usually #this applies to art accounts like y’all wouldn’t believe how many deviantart accounts I’ve had) #uhhhh idk I’ve been rambling for too long #I have this in drafts rn but you should be seeing this post soon

[linkedin-offficial]

collars of the colony

members of the colony werent always naked and bare in their prides regard. most of them used to wear reminders of their housekeepers and people, like the common housecat. it was normal to wear these reminders, like a tag, so others knew where you belonged.

not everyone agreed with these reminders, however. cats like jax and zooble felt annoyed by these restraints. jax wore none at all, as even the thought of being confined to such a small place made him seeth with rage. he loved his people, sure, but the idea of a grounding tag like this was too much. zooble on the other hand, tolerated such restraining reminders in the guise of their people, tossing it away when they werent. they knew they were smart. their housekeepers were the type to allow their presence to be outside the boundaries of their home. zooble knew they were lucky for this opportunity, and used it sparingly.

other cats on the other hand held onto their reminders longer than the average cat. cats like kaufmo and queenie felt that without such a reminder, the memory of their people would fade away into nothing. and how could such a cat let this happen? without housekeepers like theirs, theyd truly be nothing but more feed for speeding cars upon the darkpaths. theyd been given food, a home, and love. to throw away such a reminder was like throwing away a piece of themself.

of course, when it due time, queenie was the only one who couldnt seem to bare the burden of finally letting go. kaufmo eventually finally gave in, but he vowed to never let his memories of his people fade away. his vow and queenie's denial however, was not enough to save them from the dangers that demanded change, and dangers that soon lie ahead.

#MAN im having fun #i absolutely love. this au now #again not tagging as warriors bcus it isnt technically warrior cats. #but i will not stop others from doing so i guess! #i was thinking about this all night so have it while im posting about them #ramblings of an insane autismer LIVE #the amazing digital circus #tadc colony of cats au #tadc pomni #tadc ragatha #tadc kinger #tadc zooble #tadc gangle #tadc kaufmo #jax and queenie are mentioned but not here bcus jax has no collar (bwomp bwomp) and queenie's is on her ref #and yes ragatha's “collar” is a scarf of some kind #shes a barn cat ;) #gangle has a harness bcus shes like a wet tissue. a very anxious service animal #everyone else has to protect her from everything or else she will crumble like paper #oh yeah annnnddd #link's dialogue #<- putting this here bcus long rambly post #anyway ^_^ have fun with this #i sure did :3

[turtleblogatlast]

Proof that I do do comics sometimes

#based on a textpost I made a while back #props if you know which one it is! #anyway feeling super anxious at the moment and not super strong in my posts rn so I won’t be on for a bit #sorry for the deleted posts haha anxiety be killer #with fandoms there always comes a time where I end up rambling too much and then things become not as fun so time to take a steppp back #no more posts for a bit

[crybaby-bkg]

wanna bug Toji soooo bad while he’s on the phone. his ass doesn’t have a job so it’s not like he’s discussing important business, but he likes to make it look that way. phone tucked between his shoulder and ear as he uses one hand to rub circles on your exposed thigh, the other flipping through the tv channels. he’s speaking in a low tone, his eyebrows mused together in agitation as he calls the guy on the other line a barrage of insulting names.

and you’re just a simple person—the man looks hot as fuck like that and you just have to bother him. so you do, despite the side eye he gives you when you swing your leg over, foot in the air, right in his face. he swats you away gently before going back to his phone call, bites at your toes when you still try to wiggle them in his face.

"If you think you can lowball me like that, then you're stupider than I thought." Toji grunts to the other man on the phone, distracted once more. a little peeved that his attention isn't on you much anymore, you do what any little conniving imp would do.

you sit on his lap. backwards, facing the TV, looking over your shoulder at him with such an evil little grin that it makes his eyes squint to you in warning. but you've never listened much, especially when you know you'll be rewarded so plentifully in the end.

so you rock your hips, just slightly the first few times. your legs sat on either side of him, hands resting in the space between his legs on the bed, leaning your weight back on his hips that you sit against. instantly, you can feel the swell of him beneath his sweats, feel the thickness that you love to fill you up start to twitch when you circle your hips, grinding them oh so slowly against his covered cock.

when you look over your shoulder again, Toji only stares, the slightest lilt of his lip turning up at the corners. he tries to act unbothered, one arm bent back to rest his head against, the other holding the phone to his ear. but you can see through him, and feel just how bothered he really is.

so you up the ante; start to lift and drop your hips slow, slow, slow at first before the pace begins to build. you lean forward on your elbows, pull your underwear up until the curve of your ass is exposed, gasping from the friction, from the feeling of his cock rubbing so sweetly at your slit through the thin cotton.

you look over your shoulder once more, grinning, biting at your lip as you grind against him, close to completion. he can see it all in your eyes.

"Gonna call you back later. Got some important shit to take care of right now." Toji hangs up without preamble, gaze distant as he focuses on the ever growing spot of your arousal that starts to leak onto his own sweats.

but you're a little minx, with the way you scramble from his grasp before he can catch you, laughing when he snags your ankle to drag you back down. he's suddenly kneeling over you, grin sharp and ferocious, the straining of his cock through his sweats hanging so intimidatingly low, that if you lift your hips just a little, his tip would kiss your clit in the sweetest kiss.

"And where do you think you're going, you little brat?" Toji growls, dropping down to nip at the base of your neck, licking over your pulse point.

"Not letting me off the hook that easy, huh?" you tease, hands splayed beside your head in surrender, just wanting a little bit of the chase before the devouring. and by the look in his eyes, you know you'll only be bones by morning.

"Not in a million years." he promises right before the inevitable pounce.

#hello all 🧍🏽‍♀️ #my head is hurty and I feel nauseous so I think I will take some sleeping pills and lay down 👍🏽 #also think I might finally finish that fic for him tomorrow #but no promises bc I sometimes get Tired #also thinking about starting coms in late June #bc my semester ends in a few days and I have surgery scheduled after that so I’ll be down for a bit #but I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to still sit in bed and write so hopefully all goes well!!! #I set up my kofi but I chickened out of posting it here bc I am Anxious #about Everyrhinf #rambling sorry I hope u guys like this I’m obsessed with this man #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #toji treats! 🍬

[kyojurismo]

luffy who allows his s/o w an oral fixation to suck on his fingers while he’s totally free to move around as he pleases since well, he’s made of rubber.

#🍡 — rambling !! #i’m projecting on this bc i’ve been so anxious these past couple of days lol #like you know. #feeling awful yeah #monkey d. ​luffy x reader #luffy x reader #opla luffy x reader #monkey d. luffy drabble #monkey d. luffy imagine #one piece luffy #one piece x reader #one piece

[superkirbylover]

he's my favorite girlfail. just like asoingbop fr

#sugary spire #pizzelle #rosette #sklart #unironically i think it's super fucking rad that pizzelle is any pronouns and transfem #they're just like me fr! except i'm transmasc and outwardly fluid #i admit i always feel bad when i use he/him with pizzelle despite acknowledging her transfemininity #i LIKE that pizzelle is transfem and isn't always feminine #i LIKE that he uses any pronouns #i relate to that SO hard #i guess i'm just. Afraid #this doodle post is my way of telling myself not to be afraid #apologies for the ramble in tags i am just an anxious little fella #i love how much pizzelle reminds me of spongebob with the concept doodles they post on twitter #its great i think

[prince-kallisto]

Silly comfort doodle

Featuring the closest possible thing I would make to a self-insert character (but with no discernible features due to the plague doctor outfit anxjdjx)

#ahhh im so anxious over irl things that I feel so fatigued and sick ahh #chest feels so heavy im so tired ahhh #Crowley save me. dire Crowley save me 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛ #anyway I’d like to give a character/reference sheet to this self insert thing #buts that’s for the future #kallisto rambles #kallistopost #my art

[ferahntics]

Nana's 1st birthday...

#what a year its been with her though wow #went from grumpus central to certified grandma and getting married #I was thinking of actually having her uh... not live. like her going down alongside spectra where neither survive #needless to say that plan got scrapped xDD #she gets to be happy now <3 #also thank you all for liking her I was so anxious coming into the Kirby community #but ya'll have been so nice I just aaaa <333 #am rambling its emotional hours for me #quiver #quiver knight #mine #my art #trying markers and colored pencils and figuring out my scanner bare with me #kirby #kirby oc #fan character #uploading like an hour too early but heck I KNOW I'll forget dfhkjdfh birthday is 24th