#another pin read:

[el-the-cell]

saw a terf on the tube. she had a "girl dick is not real" pin

what a sad world to live in

without girl dick :(

#no but i didn't know that they actually went around with pins #another pin read: #thought criminal #she wants to feel oppressed so bad lol #but also this is so weird to me because i'm from a largely homophobic country. #i went to see a drag show once and people threw rocks at the venue and the people there. #for us there's no space for transphobia in the queer community #because the government sees us all as filthy disgraces that go against the will of god #we're fucked if we don't stick together. #and it's the same for yall out there where homosexuality is tolerated. #it only takes a few new laws to throw your progress down the gutter if we stop fighting. #it's sad some don't realize it.

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’ #nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’ #like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

[fluentisonus]

Lovers of Bordeaux

Roman Gaul, Terracotta, 2nd-3rd Century AD

Text reads: Pistillvs fecit ("Pistillus made this")

#the dog!!!!! #the way one is holding the other's chin!!! #yet another artistic representation of a couple sharing a bed! who is doing it like the etruscans & romans for that!! #thoughts #tagamemnon #posting bc although I had considered myself a fan of couples-lying-in-bed art i hadn't actually seen this one before #I rlly wish I could find the context is was discovered in (like is it a funerary thing?) but nothing I read mentioned it #possibly bc it was discovered in 1850 we just don't know lol #I'd add it to the collection in my pinned post if I knew it was funerary but otherwise here it is

[brother-emperors]

if you've ever wondered how long something can sit in my WIP folder, this one is probably the idea I've been kicking around the longest

so. you see. what happened was.

last year I was reading about socratic dialogues in the renaissance right. only at one point, I got it confused with platonic discussions, and when you start reading about platonic discussions of love, you run into marsilio ficino, and I just kind of. stayed there until I ran out of books to read, and finally decided to finish this up!

Plato's Persona: Marsilio Ficino, Renaissance Humanism, and Platonic Traditions, Denis J. J. Robinchaud

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#im going to have to do another ficino illustration tho bc the orpheus thing that both poliziano and lorenzo de' medici have to #say about him is like. okay! okay. loving the implications here fellas #....actually maybe two more ficino illustrations. we'll see. i want to get back to the sforzas #in theory i should probably also read lorenzo's writings to really pin down a specific kind of vibe linking all this together #however. i am locked out of reading an english translation of it. so i will simply invent the vibe until then #italian renaissance tag #drawing tag #anyway vibes aside i love it when the italian renaissance guys write letters. the way people are about cicero and atticus is me #about basically any renaissance letter writing pair

[blackashbluephoenix]

I let you in. He almost said. But it wouldn't have helped, and strictly speaking, it wasn't entirely true. He'd tried his absolute hardest not let Mike in.

But it had always been an inevitable thing, something as sure as the sun coming up tomorrow. From moment one in that interview room, the moment brown eyes met blue. Mike had slipped right past his defenses, pried Harvey's arms open and tucked himself right under Harvey's very skin.

And in that moment, Mike couldn't even see it. Couldn't look past what Rachel had done and see that Harvey was standing right there, would never ever do anything like this to him, never make him feel this way, like he was anyone's second choice.

What advice could he give? None. Nothing at all. Oh sure, he could layout out some bullshit about looking at everyone and everything as temporary and therefore attatchement was always pointless. But it wasn’t true for him. Not anymore.

And he didn't want it to be true for Mike either. As much trouble as Mike's big, bleeding heart sometimes got them into, it wasn't something Harvey would trade for anything. Because he wouldn't be Mike without it. He'd be someone else entirely, even if that person still had Mike's memory and his expanse of legal knowledge and movie quotes.

Mike wasn't Mike without his heart.

So Harvey told him another version of the truth. That he didn't know anything about relationships, about love, about any of it. That he was the wrong person to ask.

That part was true, anyway. And Harvey hadn't wanted to know anything about it for a long time. Now he did, because of course he did, and the one person he wanted it with was so far out of reach that he was standing in Harvey's apartment asking him for advice on how to shut the world out the same way he assumed Harvey had.

I let you in, he almost said. But he didn't.

#marvey #mike x harvey #suits marvey #dropping another teaser for those coming from AO3 #Read my pinned post if you want another teaser #Yes it will be from both POVs

[mejomonster]

Modu by priest was truly such a good read. If you like romance? It has a sweeping romance, with a well done bisexual and gay lead (and straight best friend) all written in ways that manage to feel realistic, it's got features people likely found it for when looking for a danmei - rich manipulative younger man, older investigator who's got a hero streak, and yet those categories don't really do justice to them (and of course tao ran is the more grounded detective story lead who keeps his theories to himself and worries about dragging others into his mess).

They're so much more... Fei Du is a traumatized young man who's worried he's as monstrous as the people who scarred him, who is preparing to take the leap and cross the line to become an even more terrifying version of himself if it will destroy the corruption poisoning this city and harming so many, Luo Wenzhou is a cop that used to want to be a hero and learned he will fail people and be unable to save people and holds onto Fei Du as someone who reminds him he DOES fail but also reminds him why he wants so hard to keep Trying to help people even when it seems impossible... why trying and putting in effort to care and help Even when its too late to fix things is Worthwhile. Tao Ran is a contrast to them both, Fei Du living in a world where there's only monsters and victims and Luo Wenzhou desperately trying to force the world to be a place where justice CAN prevail and win even as he sees it fail over and over, trying so hard to believe all people have the capacity for everything and are worth trying to save. Even though Fei Du doesm't believe that, being around Luo Wenzhou makes him want to consider it. Tao Ran, their contrast? Believing the world can go either way, and its up to people like him to create any justice at all, any structure at all, or else everything is just meaningless suffering chaos. As characters, the three of them serve to explore how the world works and views on it in terms of a detective murder mystery encompassing the whole city, the small scale version of the world. Modu is a romance, but its also fully commited to being a murder mystery that wants to tackle the kind of themes that come up in the setting it's created. Its characters are so much more than Insert Character Ship types here. These characters were made this way to explore these ideas (just as the villains are all made to parallel and contrast Fei Du to explord these ideas in comparison to our point of view Fei Du moments, our impressions of Fei Du from Luo Wenzhou and Tao Rans varied perspectives, all of them are different lenses to view humanity and how it works, if the world is just or if we have to make it good, if we can be inherently good and if good people will reach out to us if we just keep treading water to survive, if its luck and chaos, and how much... and much more frankly).

Modu is like. If you want a story about a corrupt city and its victims, symbolizing a corrupt world and all of us at its mercy, and you want to see the heart of the people doing something about it. First the main trio, but also every victim Fei Du recruits to help, every murderer recruited to the corruption, all the people in the cases swayed to some side. Thats what Modu is about.

The romance is just one facet of exploring that, the personal debate about what these things mean about the world as told through two people who view this world incredibly differently. Yet find some way to exist in the same space, same mutual world, when together. It hooks you in and doesn't let you go and youre wondering right there with them, left to draw your own meaning in the end. Hopefully that its worth trying, that doing something is worth trying even when its just the trying you can do and not the succeeding, at least thats what I got from it (at least in regards to Fei Du and Luo Wenzhou meeting each other, unable to live up to the pillar they put each other on but trying anyway, is what I felt from them).

Then like? Modu gives you THAT story, which in its own right is enough to make you contemplate.

And if you're like me and care about people, about characters? Well it gives you, like I said, those big themes and a city's nightmares symbolizing the world, and brings them down to an individual level. You read from the mind of the little girl who grew up in this (one of my favorite scenes and when I felt this novel was going to not shy away from dark psychological moments and bringing them to you). You read from the mind of Fei Du when he knows himself, when he doesn't. You read from the minds of all kinds of people, and the heart of much of the investigation is peoples motives and things they'd gone through and how that shaped what they'd do next. Why they'd do it. Leaving you to wonder who's right. Jaded idealist Luo Wenzhou who wants to believe in the goodness of the people he loves, but also is willing to risk that strangers may have good intent? Fei Du who thinks theres only victims and perpetrators and everyone is going to fall into one in the right circumstance? Tao Ran, who feels the world is too messy to dare declare predictable, who thinks even your closest can betray you and even you can accidentally hurt them, nevermind strangers, and the only thing you can control and rely on is your own choices? Some mix? None of them? The side characters as they come up, grow and evolve, do they understand the world better or worse, and is the world they experience different than anothers and justify why their worldview is likewise different? Modu gives you that up close and personal, over and over. Im still thinking about it. And the way its done, they all get to feel like lived in people. Not structures to tell the themes only. But on their own, there's a personal struggle between Fei Du feeling like a monster who'll destroy Lup Wenzhou if he loves him, like his dad destroyed his mom, and Luo Wenzhou carrying the guilt he could never save Fei Du and desperate to believe in Fei Du (and keep trying to save him in that way if only that way) as person who can do good despite not being saved and despite Fei Du's fears. You could cut the entire city's plot away, all of the crimes and make the city calm, and still that core of their plot would be carrying a Lot of weight. Theyre playing a game of "enemies" to lovers sure, or whatever romance story structures they fit into. But they're also made to be deeply rooted into each other, their personal beliefs tied into the outcome of what they hope or fear happens if they are close together. Modu made me care about that. Its like the fears many people might have, abiut theur own flaws, about getting close to others, about trusting and being unsure if that trust is safe to give. Its that and magnified into bigger form, in this landscape of a fucked up city and the tragedy of Fei Du and Luo Wenzhou's meeting and former lives.

Its like. Id love to to read another danmei (Ive got a lot on my to read list). But what's going to give me roo

#modu #silent reading #lb #meta #like... modu was so fucking good. #it was 3 characters symbolizing their city symbolizing the world in terms of worldviews morality justice and if theres a point to #trying to help at all. like damn #i want to read ANOTHER danmei that makes me weigh those questions. that uses the characters this personally and intimately with the readers #because the Characters weigh the themes in their OWN lives so heavily. #like... i know priest can probably give me this kind of huge delivery in can ci pin and sha po lang (at least i estimate #priesr probably can as theyre very popular novels by priest) #and 2ha can (because ive read half and know its themes) #but like. what other danmei can? can thousand autumns? can peerless? can wu shang jie? #can Mistakenly Saving the Villain? #like... the only non priest danmei i read was svsss and i got supremely lucky #cause i personally LOVE satire and critique commentary affection for the topics it explores #and svsss AS a satire is incredibly well done. having read 2ha first? and seen Eternal Love? #svsss does an amazing job at critiquing webnovel culture and flaws. at the way capitalism effects writing #at the way some tropes have become staples of certain genres and when used well yeah you get 2ha but when used badly you get #the fake novel svsss was making fun of that there Are many real novels like

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

#the chrysalis forms Inside the bug and then like... splits it open and the caterpillar's now empty skin just shrivels like a rolled sock#so like... whoever discovers howdy's chrysalis would have to deal with seeing his scooped-out body

You are killing me, This is both the best and worst mental image, Thank you!

you're Welcome!!

#it Is pretty terrible huh lmao #do you want another terrible mental image? For Free? #please picture frank deciding - for research purposes - to take the 'shell' home #and either pinning it to a wall for Observation or laying it out like a bear rug #howdy stops by franks and has to confront his past self's corpse cushioning the dining room table #normal things to do and experience #frank doesnt understand whats wrong with it. like. what else were they gonna do with the body. put it in a box?? #at least he's finding a use for it smh #rambles from the bog #yassified howdy <3 #also i was doing some more Chrysalis Reading #and saw it described as 'the caterpillars old body dies inside the chrysalis' #so howdy essentially dies and is resurrected. #basically what im saying is he's puppet jesus-

[babygirlbondage]

reminder that i dont owe you anything. yes im a nsfw blog but that does not under any circumstances mean that im just something for you to jerk off to or sext with. im a fucking person so treat me as such. i dont have to respond to your dms, i dont have to respond to you asks, i dont have to respond to your comments. if i do then great good for you, you got some attention but if not well too bad

#this is mostly directed at the men in my dms that clearly havent read my pinned post or keep being disgusting towards me #if i tell you to back off or block you dont keep going or make another account to talk to me #i dont owe any of you anything and some people dont respect that #sorry people get on my fucking nerves sometimes #t4t nsft #trans nsft #t4t sub #t4t dom #trans sub #trans dom #bd/sm community #babygirlbondage

[cosmicjoke]

Keep wasting your breath, you dumb anon fucks. Nobody's reading it. Nobody cares. Your opinions are as meaningless as your existence, and your obsession with me is pathological. Check yourself in to a clinic, please, and get professional help.

#yet another moron who can't read coming into my inbox #it expressly says on my pinned post that I won't read your trash #but you're so fucking dumb you just keep trying anyway #anon asks #discourse #tw discourse

[onepiece-polls]

Going through the new fan cast submissions for the first time in a week or so...

*sighs* why is there always that one person who submits spoilers? Thanks again for reading the rules.

#😒 #thanks for spoiling another thing for me #it's literally in the bio on this blog #and in the pinned post #AND in the rules of the submission post #that I'm anime only #sorry for being annoyed by this #if you really think it's important for your propaganda at least put a spoiler warning up front? #so I know to stop reading but other people can choose to read it anyway #now I only noticed it was a spoiler when I had read the thing and realized 'Wow - okay I didn't know that yet' #I did have my theories about this certain thing and it was fun to theorize about the connection between these characters #but now it's just spoiled #so thanks a lot #tempted to not accept this submission because the submitter didn't read the rules #not a poll #opla fan cast polls

[bumblingbabooshka]

Five more minutes! [Tuvok and T’Pel make friends at their betrothal ceremony and have to be dragged away from each other kicking and screaming.]

#read on a wiki that children aged 7 have a little ceremony so their minds are linked and they can be alerted of one another's pon farr #when the time comes so I thought it'd be cute to draw that~ They see each other and become besties on the spot #T'Pel is the first person who cries with Tuvok instead of getting frustrated with him #and if he says something telepathically she just responds instead of asking why he isn't speaking aloud #on the flip side T'Pel likes this quiet boy!! He is her friend. She says so immediately and then takes his hand #they play for like an hour and then 'five more minutes'-ing gets them another half hour #When they actually get married it's a much less instant emotional bond bc I like the idea of Tuvok and T'Pel not /really/ getting along #as newlyweds...they're awkward around each other and think the other doesn't like them but it blossoms into a love that's stronger #than even their bond... #Tuvok: I love Jara #Tuvok's dad:....I thought you said you would never forget T- #Tuvok: STOP THIS. I WAS SEVEN. #Tuvok/T'Pel #in honor of my mans getting second in the wife guy tournament v_v #but also in honor of kids being adorable in fancy clothes #also this a tiny detail but T'Pel gave Tuvok the little pouch thats attatched to his hip #and Tuvok gave T'Pel the pin in her hair #Tuvok art #Tuvok #T'Pel #T'Pel art #vulcans #vulcan kids are adorable once again #st voyager #st voyager art #star trek voyager #star trek voyager art #bea art tag #comix #child Tuvok

[vamp-kiss]

... so i might need a beta reader

i'll make drawings for who wants to be !! like a trade, if you think it that way- i can imitate artstyles too...

some examples :)

#fanfiction #ao3 #crow writes #i'm editing another old fic to publish these days and uuuuhhh #i want it to be terrifying #so i need someone that reads it and tells me their thoughts !! #it's a dead dove tho... again it's meant to be awful #pinning this until someone reaches out

[fragmentm]

> multimuse > illya themed

#❛ ˟ out of chara. #made a new pinned graphic to combat the eepiness #(unsurprisingly) of another illya art #this is just an illya fanblog nothing more nothing less #read fate stay night

[six-improbable-things]

After playing several hours of Disco Elysium I've come to the conclusion that 1) more games should let you be cringefail. Not every protagonist needs to be awesome or badass. Sometimes playing a pathetic little guy is a lot of fun. And 2) dream sequences are highly underutilized in RPG video games. Don't let resting just be resting!!! Get a little weird with it!! (BG3 kinda-sorta does this with the Dream Visitor, but those aren't really dreams. They're real conversations, so it feels different. Not as interesting.)

#I was on call with my friend who LOVES DE when I did the ''read the letter'' scene and I think they were enjoying my brief flash of panic #when it cut to the title screen. #that's another underutilized mechanic. Scare the shit out of players with fake deaths/game overs. #it really got me although I did pin that it looked different than it did when I actually did die. Plus the dialogue/no reload option. #anyways. petition for more games to get a little weird with it. #also I love the 4th wall break of the company trying to make the RPG in the Doomed Commercial Area. Very funny. #morrigan.text #morrigan plays #disco elysium

[loveofastarvingdog]

NOOOO NOT THE SELF-REALISATIONS....

#timothy's txts. #HELP. I NEED TO BE PINNED DOWN LIKE SOME SORT OF BUG TO BE STUDIED. #oh my god complete change of topic but i ate an apple yesterday and it was soooo mediocre and i loved it so so much #i want another apple..... #tw caps #anyways NEVER read fics that speak to your soul. ever.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Congradulations! I have randomly chosen your blog to scroll through as the last thing I look at for the rest of my night. I very much enjoy your blog, and I love to re-enjoy it when your posts pop up in my notifications. You are amazing! Please keep existing however you choose to do, because you spark joy! Your artwork is both very crunchy and tasty to eat, as well as very refreshing to drink like a glass of water. You have once again brought me out of my aimless wandering for things I didn't know I was looking for (like the Welcome Home and Dragons fusion), and I am very grateful for this. Thank you <3

#CONGRADULATIONS INDEED OMG #YIPPEE YAHOO FUCK YEAH HOORAY 🎉🎉🎉🪅🎉🎉🎉 #YOU SPARK JOY AS WELL ANON!!!! #another ask to pin to the corkboard in my brain <3<3<3 #a very lovely thing to read before i go to bed #i hope you have a good week! may many Delights find you! #rambles from the bog #however i choose to exist.... id like to have big sharp teeth and too many arms Thank You #anyway ill draw more dragon/wh fusion for you anon #ill get on it during my next scribble session