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#and what about the simple joy of going on a walk through nature? why do gyms have to look so hostile is my question
wiltking · 2 years
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i think i'd be a lot more willing to go to a gym if they had indoor plants and pastel colored machines. large windows. potted trees. soft lighting. plants. light green walls maybe. or soothing blue. did i already say plants? raised beds full of greenery to seperate machines. maybe a trellis or two. if space is a concern just hang that shit from the ceiling. rainforest cafe-ify our gyms right now.
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oracle-of-dream · 4 months
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Him or Me
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Summary: You've been put together for a group project with Heeseung, another one of Jake's friends. Jake is sure Heeseung is plotting to take you away from him, so Jake has to make sure you know where you belong... Notes: Male reader, handjob (Jake rec.), cum swallowing, Jealous Jake, Teasing Heeseung
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This is a request!
The clock was five minutes away from ending class, ticking loudly as it echoed in the silent class. It was another exam for you to do, which you finished almost thirty minutes ago but you had to wait till the end of class for an announcement from your professor.
Next to you, your boyfriend, Jake, was struggling through the last part of the exam. It was a free response, so you knew he’d take a while before deciding to write.
“You might want to write something soon, you’re running out of time,” you whisper to him. 
He glared at you knowingly, not trying to get in trouble for talking too loudly. 
You played on your phone until the last second of the exam when the alarm went off. The student assistants collected all the papers, Jake was still scribbling the last of his answers before they had to take it from him. Once all the exams were collected, the professor explained our next major assignment. A small interview with another person in the class to understand unique points of view when put in new situations.
Jake beamed with excitement at hearing an easy grade. A simple Q&A with his boyfriend to boost his grades was just what he needed after the exam. But Jake shrank back into his seat when the professor announced they’d already been assigned partners by a personality quiz they’d given on the first day.
“Each of you has been matched with someone you may potentially click with because of your similar personalities. Or, you could be purposefully put with someone who strongly opposes your beliefs too. Make sure to keep things civil and respectful. That’s all.” The professor sent out the email of who’s been put with whom and left the class before anyone could protest about their partners.
Jake searched the list for his name but he found yours first. “Oh! Babe, you’re with…”
You noticed Jake stopped talking. “What is it?”
Jake’s expression darkened with irritation. “It’s… him.”
“Him, who?”
“Him, me, I’m guessing. Right, Jake?” A familiar voice sounded cheerfully behind you.
You looked over your shoulder to see Heeseung standing there. Heeseung had a weird love-hate relationship with Jake. On some things, they’d be the best of friends over. On other topics, it would be impossible to think they’d ever get along.
Heeseung looked you up and down. “Hey, y/n. It’s good to see you,” he winked.
Jake let out a huff of air before packing the rest of his things.
“Oh? Jake, don’t be like that.” Heeseung swung his arm over your shoulder, leaning on you. “It’s not like we’re going to do anything bad, it’s just a project!” He giggled with joy at messing with Jake.
You honestly loved seeing Jake get jealous. Heeseung had a naturally flirty nature to him, so Jake was always on guard with him when it came to you. But he was still your boyfriend, so you had to support Jake, even if he was hard-headed.
“Jake, why don’t we interview at your place? You can sit with us and be there the whole time.” You shrugged off Heeseung’s arm and hugged Jake’s back. “Please?”
Jake took a moment to consider it. And Heeseung chimed in.
“Unless you want him to be at my place?” He smiled devilishly, trying to goad Jake into talking.
Jake took the bait without hesitation. “No! Both of you will meet me at my place.” He turned to you, “You’ll be there an hour before he gets there.” Then turned to Heeseung, “and you’ll leave as soon as you’re done.” Jake huffed again as he took your hand and pulled you along with him out of the classroom as Heeseung let the two of you walk by. 
“It’s always a good time talking to you Jake!” He shouted as Jake stormed down the hallway.
Getting to Jake’s house, he was quiet the whole ride over. Jake loved talking to you, even if it was about nothing, he loved getting to hear you speak to him. But you couldn’t think of anything to say while you knew he was in his head, he wouldn’t even hear you anyway
Jake parked at his place, got out of the car, and opened your door for you. Even when angry, Jake could never forget his manners. He unlocked the front door, let you walk in first, and then started making a snack for the two of you.
It was still bothering him, but he was trying to act like it wasn’t.
“Jake. Please talk to me, babe.” You begged.
“What do you wanna talk about?” 
“Anything, I just want to hear you.”
“Do you like Heeseung?”
You knew he was going to throw that at you. “No. I don’t. And you know I don’t like it when you imply that I’d leave you for him like that.”
Jake looked at you with wet eyes. “I know… He just gets under my skin without even trying! It’s just so–”
The doorbell rang.
You both looked at each other before he walked to the door to answer it. You followed him to see who was there. Jake opened the door to see Heeseung standing outside.
“What the hell? What are you doing here so early? We just got home.”
Heeseung shrugged. Y/n shares their location with me, so I figured I’d just come over now so we can get to work sooner. Then maybe we could go get some dinner later.
Jake cocked his head to the side and looked at you with a glare.
“Jake, we’re friends. Friends share their locations. Heeseung even has your location.” You complained.
Jake turned his attention to Heeseung again. “He’s not going anywhere with you.”
“I meant, we all go out to dinner,” Heeseung said dryly. 
“Whatever, just come in and do the friggin thingy already,” Jake said as he walked away from the door and back into the kitchen.
You let Heesung in and closed the door behind him. You set up an audio recording on your phone and started asking him some of the interview questions you were assigned. Jake stood in the doorway, watching the two of you like a hawk.
Jake eventually started squirming and shuffling. Then sighing loudly. Even tapping his foot. All signs that Jake was ready for Heeseung to wrap it up, but it was ruining your audio recording. 
Heeseung must’ve noticed that you were getting irritated because he asked for a quick break. He pushed his chair away from the table and leaned back in it, manspreading widely. “Jakey, why don’t you come sit with us? You can sit on my lap while I answer the questions since you’re going to be a baby about it. Does the baby need to sit on my lap?” Heeseung teased.
Jake made a face and sat down in a chair next to you, dragging it on the floor to make a bunch of noise. He gently took your hand and kissed the back of it before letting you continue with the interview, but he didn’t let go of your hand. Every few answers, you could see Jake roll his eyes or make a face at Heeseung. Eventually, it was getting to be too much of a distraction for Heeseung, as he was starting to tease Jake back.
“Okay, how about we have a bit longer of a break? I gotta talk to Jake for a few.” You pushed Jake out of his seat and made him go into your shared bedroom. You closed and locked the door behind you. 
“Jesus, Jake! What am I going to do with you?” You fussed.
“I–” Jake started but stopped himself from giving an excuse. “I’m sorry, I’m not trying to get in the way. He’s just so… him.”
“What makes you think he has something that I’m looking for in a boyfriend that you don’t already have? You have everything I could want.” You stroke his cheek as you come close to him for a soft kiss on his lips.
Jake wrapped his arms around you. He slipped his tongue into the kiss and you gasped as he picked you up. He carried you to the bed and sat down on the bed, letting you rest on his lap. He placed soft kisses on your collarbone before giving bites on your flesh, moving up your neck to your ears. His hands spread your legs and wrapped them around his waist. He started playing with your thighs, slowly crawling up until he got to the waistline of your pants.
You stop him. “Heeseung’s still here, if we do that he’ll hear us.” 
Jake frowned. “Does he even matter right now? It’s our time.”
You kissed him again. “We can have that kind of fun tonight, okay? After dinner.” You tried to climb off of Jake, but he wouldn’t let you go.
“You can’t leave me like this…” He looks down at the tent in his pants. “It hurts so bad, I need you.”
“My poor baby,” you cooed at him as your hand rubbed him through his jeans. “We can’t fuck, but I can at least help you, okay?”
Jake nodded as a look of relief spilled across his face from your touch, his hips lifting to rub against your hand.
You climb off him and slide his pants down enough for his cock to spill out into your hands. The throbbing, dripping shaft of him jumped as you touched it. His tip was already leaking like crazy, and you used your fingers to rub over it. Earning moans and twitches of pleasure. 
“More,” Jake demanded. “Please…” He corrected himself as he felt you squeeze his cock tightly, warning him to keep his head on.
You moved your hand up and down his cock, his hips automatically moving to meet you. The feeling was already the best for him. He loved feeling touch from you, even just a pat on the head could get him rock hard. You speed up as you see his eyes shut and his face scrunched so cutely.
“T-That’s it, keep going!” He begged.
You took it further; focusing one hand on his tip and the other on his base, working him over completely. 
Jake could barely keep still, shaking and his right leg kept twitching. He whimpered to you, “I’m so close, p-please, help me. I don’t want a mess.”
You brought your mouth down to his tip and replaced your hand with it, preparing for him to finish in your mouth. The wet sensations were enough to immediately knock him over, as he shot his cum down your throat with one hand in his hair. The other hand was holding your hand that was still stroking him.
“P-Please, stop!” Jake whined as you milked him completely for another minute. He convulsed and tears threatened his eyes. It was enough to make his eyes roll back and he held in a scream as you got the last drop of him. When you let go of him, he breathlessly thanked you before drifting off into unconsciousness.
You tucked him into bed properly and kissed his forehead. “I’ll be back soon.”
You went back to Heeseung to finish your interview undisturbed. Heeseung asked about where Jake went, sounding kind of sour like he’d known the answer already. 
“Jake felt a little tired after we talked. So I let him go to sleep so we could finish. I guess we’ll have to pass on that dinner tonight.” You smiled coyly.
Heeseung smiled and left you alone as he went back home. Letting you get back to your boyfriend who was beginning to stir. Maybe Jake would be ready for round two by now…
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whotfislyla · 6 days
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🪻Friends? - Itadori Y. 🪻
Note: This is absolutely not proofread, so I apologise for any mistakes 😔.
> fluff
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Yuji and you had been friends since the day he bumped into you in a flight of stairs during your first day at Jujutsu High. He was kind and patient, the type who's easy to get along with; and you were relieved to find out later that he was your seatmate in class. "It saves me the trouble of introducing myself again." You had explained with a grin.
You were both quick to share moments that led to small inside jokes shared between the two of you, as well as precious memories you like to replay in your mind when struggling to sleep at night. Your friendship grew stronger as you learned to fight by each other's side, patching each other up after a particularly rough sparring session or mission. Eventually, the two of you had such a good dynamic that people tended to associate the both of you as one, surprised when one was found without the other.
Somewhere along the line, you had caught feelings for your cheerful friend. It was hard not to when his presence brought you such comfort. It had started out as a small, insignifcant crush before turning into full-blown feelings. The more time you spent with Yuji, the harder you fell for him. However, you constantly felt the need to remind yourself that Yuji's kindness isn't something you alone had been graced by. Yuji was kind by nature, meaning he got along well with all of his friends. You were aware that your proximity with Yuji wasn't necessarily anything more than platonic, yet you couldn't help but let your mind drift a little, forcing your silly dreams away at the sight of him laughing with other female friends he had. You'd be lying if you said it didn't hurt, but the joy you felt when you were with him compensated for the latter.
"You're doing it again, aren't you." Nobara sighs, taking a seat next to you and interrupting your train of thought. "Him being a social butterfly doesn't mean you don't have your chances, you know." She reminds you, nudging you with her elbow.
"Nah, he's just being nice. I need to stop being so delusional before I get hurt..." You smile sadly as you rest your head against her shoulder.
Nobara snorts, giving you an unimpressed look before wrapping an arm around your shoulders. "I think it's a little late for that, idiot."
You frown playfully at her words, knowing her intentions weren't to offend you. "Yeah, well, what can I say? I'm just protecting my feelings."
"Nah, you're just being a chicken."
"Hey!"
The two of you laugh, basking in each other's presece for a while. It was during times like these where you were glad to have a friend like her, despite her occasional teasing.
"I'm serious, though." Nobara continues. "Yuji's a simple guy, just talk to him about it. It's not like he's going to hate you for it."
You let out a small sigh before shrugging. "It wouldn't hurt to try, I guess..."
"Good, because he's heading this way right now."
"Wait- what??" You gape in disbelief as Nobara walks away just in time as Yuji makes his way towards you, a massive grin spread across his face.
"Hey there, you. You'll never guess what just happened. I was talking with Maki and she told me she saw Gojo-sensei walk straight into a glass door!" He snickers, taking a seat next to you and stretching his legs. "I wish I could've been there to see it myself..."
You try to speak, the suddenness of his appearance had caught you off guard. Your heart thumped in your chest as you stared at him, unsure of what to do. Your fingers trembled slightly, mirroring the buzzing of your nerves as your mind went blank.
"I like you."
"Huh?"
"What?"
Your face goes red as you realise what you had just said. "I mean- not like- whatever." Panic rushes through you, pushing you onto your legs and turning you away from Yuji who stared at you, his expression unreadable.
"... please say something." You mumble, keeping your back turned as to hide your burning face from him.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" He asks, his voice gentle and confused. "All that time wasted..."
Your heart drops into your feet; this was it. He regretted being friends with you. He was going to leave you. You had ruined your friendship. You had-
Yuji reaches out and takes you by the hand, pivoting you towards him. "I like you too, I have for ages." He admits with a sheepish grin. "Sorry for not telling you sooner, I figured you just saw me as a friend."
The irony almost makes you laugh as you shake your head softly. "If only you knew."
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yoonrambles · 4 months
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That was such a good read!! May I please have a moment of intimacy with Godheim Clarence?
(spoilers for clarence ending)
If possible, a private moment during that stay in Godheim when he’s a teacher and they’re living together! Clarence has lived for so long but we know he has zero romance experience, on top of maybe being touchstarved 👉👈
Nothing nsfw, please! Thank you 🫶
A Simple Life
Godheim!Clarence x reader 🦋
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He was your everything; the love of your life – your partner for the rest of eternity. He took his oath to walk alongside you in the long, arduous journey called life; that he would be by your side, until the end of time. Together, you two traversed across the land of Godheim. He showed you the wonders of the mainland with great enthusiasm, and you were satisfied with each and every step, admiring how pleased he was to be with you, after that long period of being separated.
He was happy. Happy, that he was your inspiration. Fate was cruel. No matter how much your heart ached to be with him, fate had led you two astray. Being in your temporary separation, you honed your skills, led a happy life in your world, and kept on living just to meet with him again – and you did.
The day you managed to penetrate the spatio-temporal gap, your joys knew no limit. Rushing up the hill, reaching the giant maple tree, you found him resting beneath it. His body tranquil, eyes closed, resting as if he was in a neverending dream. You instantly embraced him, reminding that you had returned; to him, your beloved one across the stars.
He woke up with a startle. Noticing that it had been you, he held you in his arms.
"I'm back," you said, fighting back the tears that accumulated at the corner of your eyes. "Clarence, I'm finally back."
"But..." He paused, taking a moment to see your reaction, wiping off your tears with his thumb. "Why would you do all this for me?"
Why. . .
That single word bore many connotations. Many emotions, many feelings he failed to express before your departure. And it left him wondering, why exactly did she return to him? What did he ever do to experience this moment?
A soft smile gracing his face, a rare sight to behold, indeed; and it didn’t last long as he went back to his usual stoic expression once more. You asked him where he wished to go, and he'd replied that he would follow your steps, going wherever you took him. You couldn’t make out whether he was being selfless or he was simply making a rather romantic remark; nonetheless, you were happy.
You two settled down in a village in the outskirts of Godheim; Maple Ridge – a rather idyllic village with friendly dwellers and an abundance of natural resources. Clarence spent his day teaching the local children; educating them about Godheim and its past, he even taught them a few basic spells. And you, on the other hand, learned some spells from Clarence, and took the liberty to experiment with them. Life was extremely simple living with him.
Clarence preferred to show his love through various acts of service: holding your hand as you walked through the forests of Godheim, attentively listening as you spoke, and he even read you stories and told you about his past experiences before you'd gone to bed. But, you could say that he wasn’t the best at physical displays of love. Being secluded for ages, he had long forgotten the ways. Nevertheless, that didn’t mean he did not long for your loving touch.
You remember that summer afternoon vibrantly, when Clarence had quietly approached you from behind and rested his head on your shoulder. You instantly stiffened, looking down to see him snuggling even closer to you. A smile came to your lips as you wrapped your arms around him, earning a faint sigh from him.
"This is unusual..." You mused, but he didn’t reply. Perhaps he was feeling too shy to admit that the once imposing Archmage had turned into a simple, touch-starved lover. You simply chuckled to yourself and held him closer; caressing his long hair, pressing a light kiss against his forehead – which made him bury his face into your blouse, hiding the prominent blush on his face. You laughed.
This was the life you wished for; a simple, peaceful life with the one you love.
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Note: first of all, I apologise for the looooong wait, anon. I was dead for the time being. Second of all, Clarence is the loml and ty for this ask <3
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Tag list: @lovebrushed @xcerizex @arrodeia @food-lover9000 @nehamerchant123 @godheimm @xbalayage.
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eatmangoesnekkid · 6 months
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Being born with a womb comes with a great responsibility and requires a level of tenderness and pristine care that most of us were never taught how to nurture or manage.
One of our biggest responsibilities is that we must be able to hold union. Duality. All the yin/yang, good/bad, right/wrong, and heaven/earth. We can't be cowards and run away like little children, but must aim to live with more presence/mindfulness that creation is amplified through us. That's that Ma frequency, the Mother Matrix I speak of that can redirect the flow of energy in any room. Our female bodies have a natural and undeniable lover essence but also a real warrior essence. I think about the fierceness of a mother giving natural birth and the visual pushes me to do hard things with minimal to no complaints. 15 years ago, this was as "simple" incredibly complicated as learning to live more present to how I was breathing, holding my jaw, and walking through the world. To slow my breath down, soften my jaw, and walk slower was hard and required every ounce of my fierceness to integrate, but I did it!
Consider Living More Confident, Grounded, Phat, and Thickened Up In Your Female Body
We can indeed hold it all as long as we stay in contact with the earth. Being barefoot on the land or a small patch of grass in the city. Looking up at the sky. Listening to breeze. Talking to trees. Using our sounds--moaning, humming, singing, or box breathing. We can hold it all as long as we entrain our delicate nervous systems to slow down, stay regulated, and live in a more grounded state.
Know what is happening in the world without feeling the need to constantly attune to it. Feel the unfathomable heartbreak from what's happening while also being conscious and mindful that your female body is receptive and naturally lives in a state of continuous creation, divine (parthenogenesis) union. Your cells and tissues need this kind of love, care, and remembrance from you. Allow your body to return to presence as often as possible.
“Breathing in, I arrive in my body. Breathing out, I am home.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh
Many smart, brilliant, compassionate women and other female bodied people have problems with their wombs, bellies, breasts, and reproductive/sexual organs. This is why, Loved Ones. This is not judgement either but a tender reminder on why it is critical to not stay up in our heads and lose contact with the tissues in our bodies no matter what. When shit goes down in the world, I sense how we easily forget and live disembodied.
Birthing a new reality doesn't come from division (a root chakra energetic) but from an active belly, heart, throat, 3rd eye, and crown. It comes from embodiment--being in your body. When shit goes down in the world, we tend to lose our bodies and stay up in our heads about whatever is going on. And when we are NOT in our bodies, other "energetics/entities" can invade our tissues and stir up even more havoc upon this planet.
Women and other female bodied people like to talk a lot about "manifestation," but our ability to focus on and be devoted to unconditionally loving ourselves, loving our bodies (as they beautifully show up today), loving our loved ones, and loving this life, our creations, no matter what....positions us squarely into a love frequency. And from this love frequency (feeling present, feeling connection, feeling loved, feeling joy, feeling ease, feeling blessed, feeling celebration, feeling what is, trusting life, trusting nature, accepting what is, feeling the goodness of a homemade meal, etc.), we instinctively plant ourselves firmly in a natural momentum where we begin to consciously and deliberately get freed up to truly create and add more harmony and value to this world (where we are in the world and beyond far beyond it).
A Fractal of the Whole
We live in an energetic system. Never forget that loved ones. We are all entangled and connected in a web of invisible energy that becomes a force. That's why there is a real correlation between our ability to invite peace into our bodies, our homes, our shared meals, our baths, our lovemaking, etc. and positively effect change in some way all over the world. As part of the collective, what energy are you gestating on and impacting others with?
Because we are individuals who also belong to one other. We get to receive what we each have to give.
--India Ame'ye, Author
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Shinrei Tantei Yakumo volume 10 - file 03
Shinrei Tantei Yakumo novel translation
Volume 10 - Signpost of the Spirit
( prologue | file 01 - omen | file 02 - confession )
file 03 - signpost (translation notes)
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His body felt incredibly heavy, and his vision blurry as if surrounded by a thick fog.
He tried to move, but to no avail. His body refused to budge even an inch, almost like it was already detached from his consciousness.
He felt like he had already lost his body and only his consciousness remained. Strangely enough, however, a sharp pain plagued him at regular intervals.
What is happening to me?
Gotou asked himself.
At the same time, multiple shadows rapidly flashed through his mind.
Nao, standing at the street at night, looking at Gotou with hollow eyes—
Headlights of an approaching car shining upon Nao’s figure. Her elongated shadow. Gotou’s body had naturally moved at the sight of it.
He had jumped across the street to save Nao.
Afterwards, he had felt a hard impact—
When he had come to, he had been lying down atop the asphalt.
Nao had been staring down at Gotou from above.
Although the outward appearance had been Nao’s, Gotou was certain they hadn’t been Nao’s eyes. Rather, they had been someone else's.
After smiling faintly at Gotou, Nao had slowly walked away.
Stop! Don’t go there! Gotou yelled.
However, his voice had refused to come out.
Nao had gone increasingly further away.
Don’t leave. Without you, how are we supposed to continue on living afterwards?
What a strange feeling.
Prior to Nao’s arrival at his household, things had felt normal without her presence.
But what about now?
After having Nao’s presence up close and feeling a sense of normality in their togetherness, he had grown scared of losing the little girl.
In a way, perhaps love was humankind’s greatest weakness.
No! That’s not true! Gotou shouted within his heart.
Be it strength or weakness, he didn’t care. Living with Nao had brought him happiness.
Reasoning be damned. He didn’t want to lose those days of joy. That’s why—
“Nao…” called Gotou.
A white space flashed before his eyes as if clouded with fog. Nao’s figure was nowhere to be found. Besides, Nao wouldn’t appear just from calling out her name.
Even so, Gotou continued to call out for her.
“Nao...”
Gotou repeatedly choked from pain, yet he called out for her nonstop.
“Nao.”
A black figure had been standing amidst the fog for quite some time.
For a moment, he thought it was Nao.
No, that’s not Nao.
Who?
“Don’t worry,” whispered the figure.
While the tone may have sounded unenergetic, the voice was gentle.
“I will definitely bring Nao home,” said the figure again.
Gotou’s heart, which had been filled with worry, immediately grew calm. While he didn’t know the voice’s identity, he felt that he could trust it.
“Please help Nao...” said Gotou, to which the figure nodded. Relief came over Gotou afterwards and his consciousness then subsided—
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Rays of sunshine entered from the gaps between the curtains—
She didn't know how long it had been since morning arrived.
Morning would always come around no matter what. Such a simple fact made the void within her heart grow larger.
After returning home from the Movie Research Circle clubroom last night, Haruka felt no motivation to do anything and remained lying on her bed.
Haruka felt a sense of fatigue she had never felt before, even lifting a finger felt like a chore. And oddly enough, although fatigued, drowsiness never came over her.
Haruka had attempted to close her eyes several times, yet she remained wide awake.
Her mind began to wander, all the while feeling as if she was floating on a body of water.
Her thoughts were mostly filled with regret.
That night, Haruka had gone to Yakumo’s hideout with the intention of expressing all of her thoughts.
While her intention had been achieved, regret began to emerge within her over the realisation that she could have chosen her words differently. Spewing her thoughts emotionally the way she had might have only puzzled Yakumo even further.
Furthermore, she had ended up expressing her hidden feelings at the end of their conversation.
Even though Haruka had prepared herself to be hated, she couldn’t help but feel a gaping hole within her heart at the thought of never seeing Yakumo again.
Haruka could never imagine life without Yakumo. She was reminded of that fact once more.
No, that wasn’t it.
She knew that Yakumo had become an important person to her, one who was irreplaceable.
Hence, she had avoided expressing her feelings all this time out of fear of destroying their relationship.
However, it was too late for regret.
The words that had been said couldn’t be taken back anymore. The time that had already passed couldn’t be treated as if it had never happened.
She turned to change her position and sighed.
Funny how she had only thought about her feelings now. She should have already made up her mind not to care over what Yakumo thought about her, as long as he would make a move to look for Nao.
Perhaps this trait of hers was her weakness.
That’s right. I have to find Nao.
The thought popped into Haruka’s mind yet again.
Truthfully, she was drained physically and mentally and didn’t even feel like moving an inch. Even so, she couldn’t stop here. No matter what happened, Haruka needed to step up and search for Nao.
She didn’t think Nao would be found solely through her own actions, but if she continued to not do a thing, she couldn’t be one to criticise Yakumo either.
Come on, search.
Haruka tried to sit up, but her body remained motionless. It was as if the connection between her consciousness and her body was severed.
Perhaps it could be that while she wanted to get up, she was actually fast asleep and was in the middle of a dream. Haruka felt that way right now.
Yakumo-kun, help, mumbled Haruka within her heart.
Strange. Without realising, she had turned to ask Yakumo for help.
That was proof of just how big Yakumo’s presence had become within her.
“This is bad…” said Haruka, shedding a tear.
Even though she had cried herself to exhaustion last night, her tears hadn’t completely run out—
Suddenly, her phone rang.
Maybe it was a call from Ishii or Makoto. There might have been some development around the case. No, it could also be from Atsuko–
Her blood drained at the thought.
Did something happen to Gotou-san?
Haruka forced herself to reach for her phone, before pressing the answer button.
“Hello?” greeted Haruka, picking up the call apprehensively.
<It’s me—>
The voice heard from the other end of the call was Yakumo’s—
Haruka nearly dropped her phone without noticing.
“Yes.” Haruka held onto her phone with both hands.
She grew fearful at the thought of what Yakumo was about to say. She wanted badly to just hang up the call, but that felt the same as running away.
Haruka had dumped her feelings one-sidedly last night. So Yakumo also had the right to state his thoughts like Haruka had done.
And, no matter how scared she was, Haruka had the duty to hear him out.
<You sound like a mess. Did you have too much to drink?>
Yakumo chuckled at the opposite end of the line.
“N-No,” Haruka hurriedly denied, but she didn’t understand at all.
Why did Yakumo suddenly—?
As she had braced herself to get hated on just a moment earlier, Haruka grew even more dumbfounded.
She couldn’t understand how Yakumo could joke nonchalantly after everything that had happened yesterday.
However, she didn’t want to question it.
<Do you have a moment to talk?> asked Yakumo with a serious tone unlike before.
“Y-yes.”
<I’d like to request for your assistance.>
“Eh?” Haruka got more confused.
What is Yakumo-kun actually talking about? What did he mean by requesting my assistance?
<I know this is selfish of me to say. But I’d like to ask for your assistance. I want you to help me. For the sake of saving Nao—>
Yakumo’s words vibrated through Haruka’s eardrums, creating a massive ripple within her heart.
The tears that should’ve dried by now began to fall once again.
“Of course!” yelled Haruka in a sob.
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3
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A cell phone ring could be heard from a distance.
The noise harshly woke Ishii up from his sleep. He had been sleeping on top of the table for an unknown amount of time.
He searched for his glasses and examined the surface of the table while rubbing his eyes. They were nowhere to be found. Had they fallen somewhere?
However, as he shifted his wheeled office chair, he heard an ominous cracking noise.
Ishii hurriedly went down from his chair, crouching on the floor. That was when he found his glasses, laid there in a horrendous state.
The left lens was cracked, and the frame was bent as well.
Goodness.
With disappointment, he attempted to wear them.
They could still hang over his ears, but they were out of shape. Not to mention the left side was completely broken.
“That thing is already unusable. When you have time, go and buy a new one,” said Miyagawa who sat across from him.                                                                                               
Apparently Miyagawa had just woken up as well; he held back his yawn with a sleepy expression.
“I can't. We haven’t found Nao yet,” said Ishii firmly.
Although the left side of his glasses was totally broken, it wasn’t like he couldn’t wear them at all if he were to adjust the frame a little. There was no way that he could casually go to an eyewear shop while Nao remained missing.
“There’s no use if you collapse from overexerting yourself.”
“But I can’t just leave it be.”
“Well, that is true. But we can’t do anything anymore,“ Miyagawa lightly clicked his tongue.
The search for Nao that they had been on since last night hadn’t seen any development. In fact, the situation became messier because Sayama had fallen to his death.
However, Ishii had no intention of giving up.
Even now, Gotou was fighting between life and death. There was no way he could rest.
“I’m still going to keep looking!” exclaimed Ishii.
Miyagawa snorted, laughing in disbelief. “Yes, yes. No time for small talk, let’s go and look for her.”
“Yes!” Ishii answered energetically, but he didn’t actually have a plan.
Like this, they could only continue their search for Nao while interviewing people around the area.
While he had now equipped himself with burning determination, anxiousness returned to taunt him.
Is there still time for us to do something?
This was the second day since Nao had disappeared. The longer they took, the less likely it would be for her to return alive.
All the more if she were actually possessed.
Yakumo had previously said that humans possessed by a ghost would slowly grew weaker and weaker, before eventually dying—
Even if they were to find Nao, there would be no use if she was already dead.
“Nevermind that, somebody rang your phone earlier,” said Miyagawa, returning Ishii to his senses.
It was only then that he realised he had been shot awake earlier from the sound of the phone ringing. He had forgotten all about it because of his broken glasses.
Ishii hurriedly grabbed his phone, checking the incoming call history.
It was from Yakumo.
Amidst the chaotic situation, a call from Yakumo was something he greatly needed. Yakumo had to know how to get them out of this situation.
Ishii intended to call back immediately, but he stopped his hand.
Yakumo’s left eye could no longer see.
An average human being like Ishii would be able to live a normal life relying exclusively on his right eye. Just like his current predicament, where he could continue about his day despite his glasses’ left lens being cracked.
But Yakumo was different.
Yakumo’s left eye saw a completely different world. And right now, Yakumo lost a world that he had always been familiar with.
Would the current Yakumo still be able to find clues to solve the case?
No, I shouldn’t think of these things.
Ishii shook his head.
Yakumo had called him, so he had to have some business with him. Ishii convinced himself and promptly called back.
Unfortunately, Yakumo’s phone appeared to be busy so the call didn’t go through.
Having already braced himself, he became disappointed.
As Ishii slumped his shoulders listlessly, the phone he was holding began to ring.
He jolted out of surprise and picked up the call.
“Hello? This is Ishii Yuutarou.”
<I know.>
Ishii thought it had to be Yakumo calling, but the voice at the other end of the call turned out to be Makoto’s.
“Oh...Makoto-san?”
<You sound disappointed that I’m the one who called.>
Makoto’s tone sounded angry.
“No, no. It’s not like that. Um...I thought it was from Yakumo, so...it’s not because I don’t like getting calls from you or something.” Sweat began to form all over Ishii’s body across his forehead, armpits, and back, at the thought of Makoto hating him.
<Oh? Then maybe I shouldn’t call you again next time.>
“No, no. Really. That’s not what I meant.”
<I’m joking. You’re forgiven.>
Ishii felt relief upon hearing Makoto’s stifled laugh.
As he thought about it again, it felt strange.
When they had met for the first time, Ishii had been scared to receive calls from Makoto. It hadn’t been Makoto’s fault, but rather the circumstance in which they had first met.
Ishii had first met Makoto while she had been possessed. He had grown fearful of the sight of her face as it had reminded him of the horrors of that time. Even so, his fear had long since completely disappeared.
While he didn’t fully understand the reason, the previous case might have been a significant trigger.
Wait, now was not the right time to think of such unnecessary things.
“So, what’s going on?”
<The truth is, Yakumo-kun left a message for you.>
“A message from Yakumo-shi?”
<Yes. He said he had tried to call you but there had been no answer, so he wanted me to deliver the message to you.>
Earlier, Ishii hadn’t been able to pick up Yakumo’s call in time. When he had attempted to call back, Yakumo’s line had been busy. It turned out to be because Yakumo had been speaking to Makoto.
“I see. So, what was the message?”
<He said he wanted some information to search for Nao-chan and asked for you to meet him as soon as possible—>
“Is that true?”
<It is. He said, please help me out—> said Makoto, imitating Yakumo’s way of speaking.
“I can’t imagine Yakumo-shi saying such a thing,” said Ishii straightforwardly.
Yakumo was a calm, composed person who kept to himself. He wasn’t the type to show his weakness in front of others.
Ishii was surprised that Yakumo had said ‘help me’.
<I had the same thought. But I think it was because Haruka-chan had given her all.>
“Haruka-chan?”
<Since Haruka-chan is the only one who can change Yakumo-kun.>
“That’s true—” Ishii said naturally.
This was strange as well.
He used to be jealous when seeing Haruka, whom he liked, getting closer to Yakumo, but now those feelings were nonexistent.
<Since Yakumo-kun is making his move, we’ll be able to find Nao for sure. I’m also on my way to see Yakumo-kun now.>
“I’ll go over there immediately,” said Ishii before ending the call and hurried to leave the room.
But Miyagawa suddenly pulled the collar of his shirt.
“You! How could you go on a date at a time like this? How dare you!”
“D-date?”
Miyagawa seemed to have misunderstood.
Ishii tried to explain the situation, yet he struggled to do so. “That’s not it!” he denied as he forcefully freed himself from Miyagawa’s grasp before running.
And then he fell—
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4
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Haruka stood in front of the door to the Movie Research Circle clubroom.
Memories of the events from last night flashed vividly in her mind once again, making her scared of opening the door.
Yakumo’s call from this morning felt like a fever dream out of her own wishful thinking, and when she opened the door, perhaps Yakumo would insult her, saying ‘you still have the nerve to come here?’
No, maybe Yakumo wouldn’t even talk to her.
It was perhaps even possible that Yakumo would refuse to meet Haruka’s eyes, as if Haruka didn’t exist.
What now?
“Morning.”
Someone abruptly patted Haruka’s shoulder.
She turned around, jumping out of surprise.
Makoto was standing there.
“M-Makoto-san. Why are you here?”
“Yakumo-kun called me over. Same goes for you, right?”
“Eh? Ah, yes.”
If Makoto had also been called over, then the call she had received from Yakumo this morning hadn’t been a dream after all.
“Haruka-chan, good work,” said Makoto gently whilst staring at Haruka’s face.
“Eh?”
“Yakumo-kun finally made a move to find Nao-chan because you cheered him on, right?”
“I...didn’t do anything...” Haruka quietly said, shaking her head.
She wasn’t trying to be humble. Haruka really hadn’t done anything. The only thing she had done had been dumping her emotions as she pleased.
Had there been a change of heart within Yakumo, it had to come from Yakumo himself.
“With that swollen face that looked like you’ve been crying the entire night, there was no way that you didn’t do anything, right?” said Makoto with a smile, adding a wink in the end.
Having it pointed out made Haruka suddenly feel embarrassed. She had in fact worn thicker makeup than usual to cover it up, but apparently her face was still obviously showing that she had just cried a lot.
“Let’s go,” invited Makoto as she opened the door.
Haruka entered the Movie Research Circle clubroom while hiding behind Makoto.
Yakumo appeared to be sitting in his usual chair. His hair was messy, his face gloomy, and he wore his usual pair of white shirt and jeans.
Yakumo didn’t look any different from yesterday, except for one thing. He had taken off the eyepatch that he had been wearing over his left eye.
The vertical scar on his eye was clearly visible.
Upon noticing Haruka and Makoto’s arrival, unlike usual, Yakumo said, “Sorry for calling you over so early in the morning,” before ushering them inside.
“Your left eye...is it able to see already?” asked Makoto, throwing a question that Haruka wasn’t able to say.
“No. I still can’t see anything,” Yakumo shook his head flatly.
Haruka felt disappointed, but to think about it, it was to be expected. They wouldn’t have been struggling had Yakumo’s eye been able to heal so easily.
“Is that so...” mumbled Makoto listlessly.
The corner of Yakumo’s mouth formed a little smile. “Although I can’t see yet, I’m taking off my eyepatch to show that I want to be able to see.”
Yakumo’s words moved Haruka’s heart.
She had said harsh things to Yakumo last night, despite knowing that he had been suffering. And despite it all, Yakumo was now saying that he wanted to be able to see.
Yakumo had to have gone through a long internal struggle before finally reaching that decision. Without being prepared to accept his past, he wouldn’t have been able to say he wanted to see.
Haruka was happy for Yakumo’s preparedness, yet she felt guilty at the same time, as she felt she might have forced Yakumo to take a cruel path.
“Don’t worry. Even if my left eye can’t see, there has to be something I can do,” Yakumo said in a firm tone as he briefly stared at Haruka.
Haruka had no idea what he was thinking. Nevertheless, Yakumo’s gaze had never been this strong.
Receiving the stare, Haruka made up her resolve. There was no use in regretting at this point. If Yakumo had made up his mind, then she would follow his lead.
Even if the outcome might be painful, she would see it to the end. It was the only thing Haruka could do now.
“We’ll be in your care,” said Makoto with a smile before sitting on the nearest chair.
Haruka also sat herself down on a chair right across Yakumo.
The chair that Haruka had always sat on every time she came to this room. As she had thought that she’d never be able to sit here ever again, the rigid feel of the folding chair now felt so nostalgic.
“So...” Yakumo’s words were stopped as the door opened loudly.
Entering the room was Ishii.
“S-sorry. I’m late.”
He looked like he had been in a hurry. His forehead was sweating, breaths panting. Furthermore, Ishii’s glasses frame appeared bent and the left lens was missing.
“Ishii! What happened?” Makoto yelled in surprise and stood up. 
“No..that…the traffic was unexpectedly heavy...” explained Ishii, scratching his head with guilt.
“Not that. Your glasses...” said Makoto, staring at Ishii’s face.
Perhaps Makoto thought that Ishii had been hit by somebody, or something along those lines. Haruka had thought the same upon noticing Ishii’s glasses.
Even so, his face looked too clean to belong to someone who had just been hit.
“Aah, this? It’s embarrassing, but my glasses broke because I crushed them myself...” said Ishii, laughing bitterly.
“Silly you,” exclaimed Makoto, hitting Ishii’s shoulder.
Given everything that had happened, the enjoyable conversation made Haruka’s heart feel a little lighter.
“Has everyone gathered?”
The door opened up once more, and Eishin was the one who entered this time around.
“Eishin-san too?” asked Haruka.
Eishin nodded. “Of course. I was the one who brought up the case. I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night if I continue to ignore that,” he said, bursting out laughing.
“Anyway, please be seated first,” ushered Yakumo. Ishii and Makoto nodded altogether and sat on their chairs.
Eishin also sat on a nearby chair, while Haruka turned to face Yakumo once more.
Yakumo’s red eye might not be able to see yet, but since Yakumo had begun moving like this, they now had the expectation that he would be able to solve the case.
Yakumo’s presence was indeed significant.
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5
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“Now...I’d like everyone to tell me everything you have discovered so far—” said Yakumo while rubbing his hands together.
Looking at him, Makoto sighed in relief.
Ever since his left eye had been injured, Yakumo had lost his confidence and had the appearance of someone who had completely given up.
It was different now, though.
Makoto turned to see Haruka’s face. Though covered up by makeup, Haruka’s eyes appeared as if she had just cried a lot and her eyelids looked heavy. Her nose was red as well. Those were proof of Haruka’s efforts.
Yakumo had to have been able to get himself back on his two feet thanks to Haruka who had pushed herself that far.
I’m jealous.
Makoto felt that way.
Yakumo and Haruka had become irreplaceable to each other. 
They were intertwined not merely just by love, but by their souls. The very definition of soulmates.
Would she ever be able to achieve such an existence, too?
Makoto grew embarrassed and quickly got rid of the thoughts in her head. Just as she did, Ishii began talking.
“Miyagawa-san and I were tracing Nao’s whereabouts, but it hasn’t been going well...” said Ishii as an opening before further explaining the progress of their search up to that point.
Based on the driver’s testimony and the scene of the accident, Gotou had suddenly jumped into the street. There hadn’t been anyone else at the scene aside from Gotou and Nao.
Then, Ishii had traced Nao’s footsteps from security camera footage and witness’ information.
According to those two sources, Nao most likely had gone to the Signpost apartment. Yet, despite searching all over the apartment building, Nao hadn’t been found.
He had asked nearby residents as well, but had failed to gain any valuable information.
At the end of his story, Ishii explained how Sayama had died from falling.
Makoto’s heart sank upon hearing that fact once more. Had they acted more efficiently, Sayama might not have died. Her chest ached at the thought.
Her mind knew there was no use regretting now, but her heart refused to ditch the feelings so easily.
“Died from a fall, huh,” said Yakumo with a serious expression, seemingly interested in Sayama’s falling incident.
“Yes. His apartment window was open. It was suspected that he had gone out to the balcony from that window and fell,” elaborated Ishii while reading his notes.
“Suicide?” asked Yakumo, putting one hand under the chin.
“There were no signs of struggle in the room, and the entrance was locked. The detective handling the case assumes it was a suicide, but...”
“You have a different idea, Ishii-san?”
“Yes. A few things feel out of place.”
“What things exactly?”
“First of all, apparently Sayama had been living with a woman, but after this incident, the woman was nowhere to be seen.”
“I see. If the person who lived with him was his lover, it would be unusual for her not to show herself.”
“Yes. Furthermore, before Sayama fell to his death, he had said something strange.”
“Something strange?”
“Makoto-san knows better about it,” said Ishii, turning to Makoto.
Makoto responded with a nod before explaining about Sayama.
As her story would make no sense if she solely mentioned the phone call prior to Sayama’s death, Makoto began by explaining how Sayama had consulted her about a spiritual phenomenon whilst showing the ghost photos that Sayama had taken.
Yakumo carefully examined the photo displayed on the tablet.
Now that she thought about it, Sayama’s phone call was difficult to comprehend. From the conversation, there was no doubt that something had been happening to him. Makoto didn’t think he committed suicide.
“Is that so….” mumbled Yakumo once Makoto had finished talking. “It wasn’t a spiritual phenomenon or anything like that…are you certain Sayama-san said that?”
Makoto nodded at Yakumo’s question.
“Suppose that the man’s words were true, does that mean there really wasn’t any spiritual phenomenon at that apartment?” asked Eishin, rubbing his split chin.
Judging from Sayama’s way of speaking, it was likely. The events occurring at the apartment building hadn’t been spiritual phenomena and Sayama had been killed for discovering that secret—while the idea sounded forced, Makoto suspected that had been the case.
One reason behind her suspicion was how the events at the apartment building didn’t match the theory of how ghosts were incapable of physical influence.
Another reason was Sayama’s line, ‘why didn’t I realise all this time’, so it was natural for Makoto to come to that conclusion.
“I can’t comment on anything for now, but I can’t deny that possibility either. Anyway, there’s still one more thing I’m curious about,” said Yakumo as he leaned against his chair, arms crossed.
“About what?” asked Makoto, leaning over.
Yakumo laughed bitterly. “No. The basis is weak as of now...”
Yakumo seemed to have a different impression of things compared to Makoto. However, once he responded like this, Yakumo would refuse to elaborate his line of thinking no matter how much anyone tried to pry it out of him.
“Makoto-san, you have been investigating the spiritual phenomenon, correct?” asked Yakumo, changing the topic.
“Yes.”
“Could you tell me what you’ve found out as well as the status of the investigation in detail?”
Makoto nodded. She then began explaining her investigation with regards to the apartment building.
Before the apartment had been built, there had been a shopping mall at the location. Prior to that, it had been an orphanage called Michishirube.
Michishirube had been burnt to the ground in a fire that had claimed the lives of ten children. Preceding the fire were suspicions against the orphanage that had caused further problems down the line. To support that suspicion, Hirosawa Shozo—the man who had been running the orphanage—had committed suicide following the fire. Makoto spoke while showing old newspaper articles of the incident.
As Makoto finished her explanation, Yakumo let out a long sigh. 
Yakumo appeared to have something in mind, but Makoto wasn’t able to make a guess.
“So, how is it?” asked Ishii to Yakumo while adjusting his glasses.
Everyone who was present in the room turned their eyes to Yakumo.
It would’ve been good had they been able to solve the mystery of this case by themselves, but that wasn’t possible. Unfortunately, they had no choice but to rely on Yakumo.
Everyone thought that despite Yakumo’s left eye being unable to see, he would be capable of leading them to solve this bizarre case.
Still crossing his arms, Yakumo turned to gaze at the ceiling before closing his eyes.
Silence ensued.
All of them gulped as they waited for Yakumo to finish thinking.
Yakumo must have felt the expectations of the four people in the room.
After a long period of silence, Yakumo opened his eyes and sat upright. He touched the base of his nose with his index finger, narrowing his eyes.
Makoto shivered at the sight of Yakumo’s sharp gaze. At the same time, she felt that Yakumo had reached a different conclusion from what they could think of.
“I would like to ask for all of your help,” said Yakumo.
The heavy atmosphere from earlier was gone in an instant with that sentence.
“Ishii-san and Makoto-san have worked so hard. But, please help me a little bit more,” said Yakumo, bowing his head, and no one there had any complaints.
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6
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After receiving instructions from Yakumo, Ishii, Makoto, and Eishin left the room.
They were back in high spirits now, that the glum atmosphere that had been enveloping them since earlier felt like an illusion.
Nao was still missing and the dire situation hadn’t changed. Even so, each of them had discovered what they needed to do.
All thanks to Yakumo.
Amidst the endless darkness, Yakumo had become the beacon of light for everyone.
Last night, he had said that he couldn’t do anything without his red left eye, but now he knew that wasn’t true.
Just like this, Yakumo had the power to move others’ hearts.
“Now—” said Yakumo whilst standing up.
He must be about to begin the investigation. No matter what he was going to say to her after last night, Haruka wanted to follow after him. That was why there was something she had to say before Yakumo said anything.
“Yakumo-kun—” called Haruka, who stood up to follow suit.
“What?” Yakumo turned to her.
Facing each other like this made Haruka grow scared. However, she wouldn’t be able to go on about the day without speaking out on what had been bothering her.
“I sincerely apologise—” Haruka bowed down. No matter the reason, she shouldn’t have one-sidedly spewed her emotions the way she had the night before.
“Why are you apologising?” mumbled Yakumo.
“Why…? I knew that you had a lot on your mind, and yet I went and said something so cruel...”
Haruka realised that she had essentially rubbed salt into Yakumo’s wounds last night.
Yakumo had suffered so much and felt deep sorrows because of his red left eye. He had become devastated as his life’s meaning had crumbled the moment his left eye could no longer see. Haruka knew all that, and yet she forced Yakumo to continue facing them. Not to mention after saying such cruel words—
Just from the thought, her chest tightened as if her heart was being squeezed.
“That’s enough,” said Yakumo.
“But I...”
“I said, that’s enough.”
Yakumo placed his hand on top of Haruka’s head.
His touch could be felt over Haruka’s hair. It was heavier than she had ever felt, yet warm at the same time.
“But…”
“I’m glad,” said Yakumo calmly before removing his hand from Haruka’s head.
“Eh?” When Haruka finally lifted her face, Yakumo had already turned around and she was facing his back.
“Just as you said, I’m a weak human being. I keep my distance from others, yet I’m scared of being lonely.”
“No. Yakumo-kun...”
“You weren’t wrong. I’ve always lived while hiding my weakness. No one has ever pointed that out loud to me.”
“........”
“Everyone who has ever interacted with me is careful not to offend me. But you were different. You faced a weak and fragile person like me upfront.”
“That was because...”
It had been the only thing Haruka could do.
“Thanks to you, I realised. Even without my red left eye, there’s still things that I can do. No, it’s a little different.”
“What is?”
“I viewed myself as meaningless without my red left eye. That was why I had concluded that I couldn’t do anything.”
“Yakumo-kun...”
“But you’ve told me that I was wrong. Even if my left eye couldn’t see, I’m still myself. So...”
After speaking to that point, Yakumo stopped.
Staring at Yakumo’s back, Haruka waited for the continuation of his sentence. However, Yakumo didn’t say anything further, shaking his head as if erasing his next words.
Yakumo turned to Haruka and spoke with a confident tone, “Enough talking. Anyway, let’s get going—”
Haruka actually wanted to know what Yakumo was thinking. But now wasn’t the time to think about that. Nao’s life was still on the line.
She could ask Yakumo about it once this was all over.
Haruka braced herself once more, but she was suddenly reminded of the words she had blurted out last night right before she had left.
Though she had been carried away by emotion, she had yelled to Yakumo, ‘what I like isn’t imaginary!’
Those words were true from the bottom of Haruka’s heart, but depending on the interpretation, it could have been read as a love confession.
Did Yakumo realise that? There was no way he didn’t. If so, what did he think about that?
While Haruka knew the timing hadn’t been right, she couldn’t help but feel curious.
“Why are you spacing out? Let’s quickly be on our way,” said Yakumo, placing his hand on Haruka’s head once more.
True. Now wasn’t the time for unnecessary thoughts, Haruka prepared herself again before answering, “Yes.”
No need to worry about her own matters. Right now, she had to do everything in her power for Nao.
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7
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As soon as he left Yakumo’s room, Ishii immediately contacted Miyagawa—
<Hey! Where have you been running off to?>
Miyagawa’s yelling greeted him. 
Indeed, Ishii had left the office without explanation earlier. Miyagawa was understandably upset. The usual Ishii would’ve jumped in surprise, but he didn’t have time for that right now.
“Sorry. I will explain the situation later. Nevermind that, I’d like to ask for your help.”
<Hah? What are you saying? Explain what’s going on first!>
Miyagawa grew even angrier on the other side of the phone.
Ishii understood his superior’s feelings, but there was no point in them arguing then and there. Ishii one-sidedly expressed his request and ended the call before Miyagawa had a chance to protest.
He thought Miyagawa would call back straight away, but he never did. 
Although he complained a lot, Miyagawa was the type of person that couldn’t ignore those who needed him. That trait of his was similar to Gotou.
Miyagawa would certainly investigate the matters Ishii had requested in a thorough manner.
Ishii then got in the car to go to the hospital.
Not the hospital where Gotou was being treated, but the one where the forensic doctor Hata Hideyoshi worked.
Upon reaching, he quickly went past the entrance and descended towards the basement.
He still grew fearful of the place despite having been there many times.
The lighting in the long and narrow corridor was dim from the lack of fluorescent lights. Not to mention that the scratches and stains along the wall stood out and gave off a run down impression.
Furthermore, the pungent smell of antiseptic made Ishii anxious.
Despite that, he had to keep moving. Bracing himself, Ishii walked all the way to the door at the end of the corridor before knocking on it.
“Come in, the door isn’t locked.” A hoarse voice could be heard from behind the door.
“Excuse me,” said Ishii as he opened the door.
The smell of antiseptic grew even stronger. No, it wasn’t just antiseptic. What seemed like a hint of blood was also mixed in.
Ishii was further riddled with anxiety.
“Just as I suspected, I thought it’s about time that you came,”
There was a work desk at a narrow corner of the room, filled with rows of cabinets, and Hata was sitting there.
His appearance was that of bones wrapped in skin, along with large, fish-like eyes. Combined with his maniacal way of laughter, it made him comparable to a demon.
“How did you know that I was coming?” asked Ishii.
Hata’s lips widened into a smile. “That bear died, right? So I thought you’d want me to perform an autopsy on him.”
Hata’s tone sounded like he was joking, but his gaze was serious.
While he worked as a forensic doctor, Hata was a pervert who didn’t hesitate to admit his work was a hobby. He had mentioned in the past that he had wanted to autopsy Gotou, and apparently to this day he hadn’t changed his mind.
“Please stop that. Detective Gotou is still alive,” Ishii loudly emphasised.
Hata slumped his shoulder out of disappointment. “Oh. He’s still alive? I heard he was hit by a car, so I thought he was already dead. What a stubborn man.”
“Stubborn…?”
“Rather than a bear, he’s more like a cockroach,” commented Hata while giggling eerily.
“Please stop.”
“So, if not for that bear’s autopsy, why are you here today?” Hata tilted his head.
“You knew about the person who fell to his death from his apartment last night, right? That’s why...” said Ishii, explaining his business coming there.
“Ahh, that one?” Hata gave a disinterested answer.
“I heard you were the one who autopsied him, Hata-san.”
“Yes. It was indeed me.”
“I’d like to ask your opinion about that…”
“Erm, where was it again?” grumbled Hata as he began searching amidst the stack of documents that had piled up on the desk. 
His movements were almost like that of a demon.
“Ooh, found it. Here it is,” exclaimed Hata cheerfully as he pulled a document and handed it over to Ishii.
Ishii took it and opened the document.
A photo of Sayama with blood on his head came into view so suddenly that Ishii spontaneously looked away.
He thought he was now braver than before after Gotou had trained him. Yet, to this day he still struggled with photos like this one.
It wasn’t out of disgust. He felt fear at the sight of a human that should have been alive, now transformed into a mass of flesh.
Whenever he looked at these photos, he was reminded of how fragile humans were. He grew restless at the thought that one day, he too would become a mass of flesh just like this.
“What was the cause of death?” asked Ishii as he shifted his gaze from the document to Hata.
“As you can see, it was from cerebral contusion, a traumatic brain injury. I think he died on the spot.”
“Died on the spot…?”
“Yes. Most likely he didn’t even have the chance to feel pain at all.”
Ishii couldn’t decide whether not having the chance to realise that he was dying was a good or a bad thing.
“Is there anything else that caught your attention?” asked Ishii.
Hata frowned. “What are you suspecting?”
“Even if you asked what, I don’t know myself. It’s just that no matter what, it’s difficult to treat it as a regular case of death from falling.”
“The young detective that’s handling this case thinks that he committed suicide.”
“Yes. But either way, something is off.”
“What exactly?” asked Hata.
Ishii briefly explained everything that had happened thus far whilst focusing on the message that Sayama had left right before his death.
Once Ishii was done explaining, Hata exclaimed “Ooh,” and touched his chin. “Interesting,” he said, laughing.
“I don’t think it was interesting.”
“Is that so? There’s no need to be so rigid. Not that there wasn’t anything that caught my attention, though,” said Hata.
“W-what thing?”
Ishii leaned forward without realising.
“While it could possibly be an accident, I think there was no way he committed suicide.”
“Eh?”
“Just look at the photos and you’ll understand,” said Hata.
Ishii gagged at the idea of looking at the photos again, but he wouldn’t be able to make any progress otherwise.
After mentally preparing himself, Ishii stared at the photo inside the document. However, he still couldn’t understand what Hata meant afterwards.
“What do you mean?”
“Looking at the man’s wound, he had fallen with his back first.”
At Hata’s explanation, Ishii came to a realisation.
There was a large tear wound at the back of Sayama’s head so it was obvious that he had bumped his head from the fall.
When Ishii had been at the crime scene, Sayama had been laying down on his back as well.
If he had committed suicide, normally he would have fallen face first.
“Have you pointed this out to the detective that’s handling the case?” asked Ishii.
“Of course,” Hata answered confidently.
“Then, why was it suspected to be a suicide case?”
“You’ve been in the police force for a while, so you should know why as well,” said Hata.
His words weighed on Ishii’s shoulders.
The police handled a lot of cases. Compared to the number of cases, the amount of manpower was extremely lacking. They were severely understaffed. As a result, cases that didn’t stand out were often closed as either a suicide or an accident.
Not too long ago, there had also been a commotion when a case that had first been treated as a suicide had been revealed to be a series of murders targeting insurance payouts upon further investigation.
Whilst embarrassed at himself, Ishii now realised that this case may be being treated similarly to those cases.
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8
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The first thing Makoto did was send messages to everyone who might have known Sayama through social media.
Her goal was to gather information about Sayama’s lover.
Sayama’s death wasn’t widely reported, so most people probably didn’t know about it just yet.
Because of that, Makoto had struggled to compose her message and it had consumed a considerable amount of time.
After sending the message to everyone at once, Makoto sighed in relief.
With this, hopefully she could gather some information, although she shouldn’t get her hopes up too much.
Next, Makoto made a call to Otone Real Estate.
She requested the woman who picked up the call to transfer her call not to Miyama, but Yamashina.
The waiting tone played for a while before Yamashina’s voice spoke, <Hello?>
“Thank you for yesterday. I’m Hijikata from Hokutou newspaper.”
<Ahh. You…> answered Yamashina listlessly.
From his response, Yamashina appeared to let his guard down around Makoto.
“There’s something I’d like to ask you…”
<I told you everything I knew yesterday. After that I was scolded for talking about unnecessary things. Please just end it here,> Yamashina quickly replied.
It was hard for Makoto to imagine how Miyama would’ve scolded Yamashina. Most likely, Miyama had reported him to higher management and Yamashina was scolded by their superiors.
“Yes, I know. That’s why I won’t trouble you more than this, Yamashina-san.”
<Even if you say that…>
“Actually, I’d like to ask, Yamashina-san. Could you introduce your older brother to me?”
There was a moment of silence from the other side of the call.
<My brother?>
“Yes. Based on your story yesterday, your brother was involved in the construction of the shopping mall and had experienced some strange phenomena. I’d like to ask him about it.”
Yamashina went silent once again upon hearing Makoto’s words.
Perhaps he was trying to figure out what exactly Makoto was looking for.
<Why do you want to investigate that after all these years?>
Yamashina’s question was to be expected. He must have felt odd that someone was pursuing events that happened over forty years ago. However—
“These aren’t events of the past,” said Makoto firmly.
<What do you mean?>
“To this day, spiritual phenomena continue to occur in the apartment building, right? So, I think these aren’t past occurrences, but an ongoing one.”
<That’s true...>
“Personally, I think that the current spiritual phenomena have been going on since forty years ago.”
<Well, perhaps that’s really the case.>
“That’s why I feel that this case might be solved faster by asking Yamashina-san's brother, who knows about the events from forty years ago.”
<Why are you so curious about that spiritual phenomena?>
Yamashina must’ve wanted to say that Makoto’s interest had gone past that of work-related reasons.
It was understandable of him. In fact, Makoto had never considered this case as work since the start of her investigation.
Furthermore—
“You know that someone had fallen to death at that apartment yesterday, right?” asked Makoto. She could hear Yamashina sighing at the other end of the call.
The atmosphere of rejection could be felt in an instant.
After yesterday’s incident, Yamashina must’ve been pressured to immediately reject Makoto. His superiors clearly had instructed him not to say anything unnecessary.
<Sorry, regarding that—>
“The deceased was my co-worker,” Makoto quickly interrupted Yamashina’s sentence. She could feel Yamashina holding his breath on the other side. 
<He was your acquaintance…?>
“Yes. He had consulted me about the spiritual phenomena at that apartment building. That was why I had been investigating it. But I was too late...”
Makoto’s chest felt heavy as she spoke.
Indeed, the death of an acquaintance could leave a deep scar on one’s heart.
<Is that so...> 
There was sympathy in Yamashina’s voice.
Since they first met, Makoto had had the hunch that Yamashina was an emotional person. It didn’t feel right taking advantage of Yamashina’s kindness, but Makoto couldn’t just end their conversation with no outcome.
“I want to find out the cause behind the spiritual phenomena for the sake of Sayama-san.”
<I understand how you feel. But the case from yesterday was from a fall, right? Isn’t it completely unrelated to the spiritual phenomena?> Yamashina replied doubtfully. Even so, Makoto felt that deep down that wasn’t his true feelings.
“I don’t think it was unrelated.”
<Why do you think so?>
“The timing was too odd.”
<Well, that’s true...>
“If strange rumours were to surface about the apartment building because of this, wouldn’t it cause trouble to your company? I think that solving the spiritual phenomena is important not just to me, but to your company as well,” emphasised Makoto.
Yamashina went silent. If he still refused after all that talk from Makoto, she would try to come up with something else.
<Alright. I will reach out to my brother,> answered Yamashina.
Makoto stroked her chest in relief. “Thank you very much.”
<Goodness. I’ve lost against your persistence. How about you take my son’s hand in marriage?>
“Sorry. I already have a partner,” replied Makoto, making Yamashina laugh on the other end.
<Don’t take my words seriously like that. I was just joking.>
Makoto laughed as well.
Her words had come out on their own earlier, but who did she even mean by partner? She felt embarrassed now.
“Um…Sorry, even though I’ve just pressured you to help me, there’s actually one more thing I’d like your help for.”
Makoto could feel the uncomfortable atmosphere from the call.
<What else are you asking me to do?>
It couldn’t be helped if she were rejected. With that in mind, Makoto stated her request.
Unexpectedly, Yamashina gave a positive reply. “I’ll give it a shot.”
Makoto thanked him repeatedly, and gave him her contact number before ending the call.
Upon checking her tablet, it turned out she had received a message whilst talking to Yamashina.
It was from Shigemori, a freelance writer. Now that she thought about it, Shigemori had often worked together with Sayama and they had been close in their personal lives as well.
This might just be a good side.
Makoto proceeded to open the message.
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9
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Haruka stood in front of the apartment with Yakumo—
The building had eight stories with a sizable area of land. The field was filled with greenery and had a spacious feel, one wouldn’t be able to tell that spiritual phenomena took place there just from looking at its appearance.
Haruka was reminded by the fact that while she had heard about the spiritual phenomena, this was her first time setting foot in this place. Like she was finally standing on the starting line.
Normally, she’d ask, ‘what do you see?’ to Yakumo, but this time there was no use in asking that question.
“Come on—” mumbled Yakumo, who walked towards the building entrance and contacted the building management through the intercom.
Not long afterwards, a man wearing a blue shirt appeared.
On his chest was a name plate that spelled Takemoto.
“I’m Saitou. I believe Detective Ishii from the Setamachi precinct had contacted you earlier…” said Yakumo.
“Yes, I’ve heard from him,” answered Takemoto who then handed over a key. It was the key to Sayama’s unit.
Usually, outsiders wouldn’t be able to enter the apartment units this easily, but Ishii seemed to have made some prior arrangements.
They thanked him before entering the elevator.
“Are there really spiritual phenomena here?” asked Haruka to Yakumo as the elevator ascended.
“What do you think?”
Yakumo asked her back whilst staring at the elevator ceiling.
“I’m not sure. The apartment’s very clean, and the atmosphere isn’t eerie as if a ghost would appear at all…but since I’ve been told that there’s spiritual phenomena here, I’m starting to view it in that manner…”
“I have the same thought,” said Yakumo, dropping his gaze down to his feet.
“Eh?”
“So everyone is anxious like this, huh…” Yakumo softly mumbled.
Haruka wanted to ask the meaning behind his words, however the elevator had finally reached their destination floor and the door opened.
Yakumo was the first to walk out. Haruka followed suit.
As they arrived in front of the apartment unit that used to be inhabited by Sayama, Yakumo stopped walking. “So this is the place…” he said.
“Yes.”
Yakumo held the keys with hesitance.
Did he sense something?
Before Haruka had the chance to ask, Yakumo turned the keys, pulled the door knob, and entered the unit.
Haruka came in after Yakumo.
The foyer was spacious, equipped with a neatly arranged shoe rack; far from the one-person apartment that Haruka lived in.
Signs of living still lingered here.
That reminded her of the fact that the owner of this apartment had just fallen to his death yesterday.
Yakumo removed his shoes, entered the corridor, and walked straight into the living room far inside the apartment.
Haruka wanted to follow him, but she hesitated.
“What are you doing?” asked Yakumo, urging her to move faster.
Many things were in Haruka’s mind, but nothing would get going if she merely stood there. Haruka steeled her resolve, before removing her shoes and ran after Yakumo’s back.
The living room spanned nearly twenty tatami. Inside was a dining table, sofa, and large-screened television.
Sayama, who was now deceased, or the woman who had lived with him had to have been strict about cleanliness. The space had been thoroughly cleaned.
Yakumo walked all the way towards the television and crouched.
What is he doing?
Ah, right, that was where the ghost photo had been taken.
Yakumo stayed still for a while, before he stood back up and opened the door leading to the balcony.
There were no other tall buildings within the vicinity, so they were greeted by the sight of the city panorama.
The night view from here must’ve been beautiful.
As Haruka’s mind wandered, Yakumo began inspecting the handles of the balcony railing.
At that sight of Yakumo, Haruka was reminded of the fact that Sayama had fallen from there, and her back shivered at the thought.
The railing was quite tall. It looked difficult even for an adult to accidentally fall from it.
After some time, Yakumo stopped inspecting and returned to the room. 
Like a duckling, Haruka simply followed Yakumo around. She was truly being useless. Haruka thought hard of anything she could do to help even if just a little, but she ended up merely closing the window.
Yakumo stood in the middle of the living room, covered his right eye using his palm, and casted his gaze across the room. 
“So this is how it is…”
Yakumo stared around the room for a while before lowering his hand.
“Did you find something?” asked Haruka.
“Yes,” answered Yakumo, ”now I know that this is how it feels.”
“Eh?”
“Being able to see ghosts was something normal for me. So I didn’t understand the feelings of people who get scared easily by the presence of ghosts.”
“Is that so...”
Having explained that, it was true.
From Yakumo’s perspective, who was used to seeing ghosts, the exaggerated reaction people had towards ghosts must have looked ridiculous.
“But now I understand.”
“About what?”
“Not being able to see makes me this anxious.”
“Yakumo-kun...”
“Them being invisible, yet being able to sense their presence is perhaps even more anxiety-inducing than being able to see ghosts. People are scared because they have no idea what sort of presence they are sensing,” said Yakumo with a light chuckle. His expression looked a little sad.
Haruka wanted to say something to him, but there weren’t any words that she could come up with.
Turned out there was nothing else she could do.
“I think it’s about time we leave this place,” said Yakumo as he took a step.
Right at that moment, a strange event began to occur.
A groaning sound could be heard all of a sudden.
What?
Haruka gazed at her surroundings.
The vase at the kitchen counter began to make noise as it vibrated. Snapping sounds as if the lights had gone out could be heard from all directions.
Could this be the spiritual phenomena in this apartment building?
Moments later, the photo frame on top of the sideboard fell with a thud.
Along with that, the sounds stopped, and the vase that had been vibrating went still.
“This...” said Haruka.
Yakumo shook his head with a serious expression. “I don’t know. If my theory was right, this kind of phenomena couldn’t possibly happen,” he said while ruffling his messy hair in annoyance.
When Gotou had first told them about it, Yakumo had suspected that the spiritual phenomena in this apartment building had been a prank.
Reason being Yakumo’s theory that stated that ghosts didn’t have any physical influence.
And yet, a phenomenon occurred that had gone against that theory.
Had Yakumo’s left eye been able to see, he’d be able to clarify directly whether this was a true spiritual phenomena or the work of a prank. Unfortunately, Yakumo couldn’t do that right now.
Yakumo had to have been plagued by frustration from his inability to know for certain.
“Even if you can’t see right now, I think it’s better if we hold on to your theory,” said Haruka.
Yakumo gave a little smile. “I’d like to do the same, but the ghost photos looked legitimate.”
“That’s true…”
“Maybe my theory was wrong all along.”
“What do you mean?”
“The theory was based on my own experience. So, maybe ghosts could actually exert physical influence, I’ve just never experienced it before,” explained Yakumo as if talking to himself, before approaching the sideboard to pick up the fallen photo frame.
A photo was displayed within the frame.
It was of a woman standing at the edge of the lake at dawn. The person who had taken the photo had probably been Sayama, the owner of this apartment.
Since he had been a photographer, the photo was beautifully taken.
Yakumo stared at the photo intently for some time, before his lips widened into a smile as if he had discovered something.
“So that’s how it is...”
Yakumo’s words were almost like a whisper to Haruka’s ears—
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10
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“You fool! Where have you been!”
Miyagawa’s yelling greeted Ishii as soon as he returned to the Unsolved Cases Special Investigations Division.
“S-sorry,” Ishii hurriedly apologised, but Miyagawa’s anger didn’t seem to match the loud volume of his voice.
Ishii felt disappointed for some reason.
“What on earth are you doing while Gotou’s daughter is in danger…?”
Miyagawa’s words made Ishii freeze.
“What happened to Nao?” asked Ishii in a panic.
Miyagawa grimaced in annoyance. “What? She went missing, didn’t she?”
“Oh…I thought something else had happened to Nao…”
Ishii truly felt relieved.
Just now, Miyagawa’s words had made him imagine the worst case scenario in cold sweat. But that wasn’t the case.
“Here. The document that you requested earlier,” said Miyagawa, tossing an old document towards Ishii.
“Thank you.”
Ishii intended to catch the document, but to no success and the contents ended up scattered on the floor. His aiming seemed to be inaccurate due to his broken glasses. He hurriedly gathered the papers from the floor.
“So, what do you need that document for?” asked Miyagawa, who plopped himself on a chair and lit a cigarette.
Ishii really didn’t feel like explaining. Even so, he couldn’t just say nothing after asking for Miyagawa’s help. He then summarised all the events leading up to the current situation.
“So that was how it is. Basically, you’re just being ordered around by that brat without knowing what the document is for,” said Miyagawa, sighing.
“Well, more or less so.”
“Goodness. How pathetic. You’re a police officer, yet you’re not only relying on the help of a university student when the investigation reaches a dead end, you’re even working as his assistant.”
Ishii never thought of it that way before, but being spelt out in such a manner, he now realised that it was true. However—
“But Miyagawa-san, the current situation requires us to rely on Yakumo-shi.”
“Well, that is true.” Ishii thought he was going to get scolded. Unexpectedly, Miyagawa acknowledged the same thing as well.
While indirectly, Miyagawa too had witnessed how Yakumo had managed to solve a myriad of cases.
Yakumo’s abilities were acknowledged by just about everyone.
Despite the lack of vision in his left eye, he would certainly be able to lead them to the truth of the case. Yakumo was a marvel, to be able to make others feel that way.
“In that case, what are you going to do after this?” asked Miyagawa as Ishii’s phone began to ring.
It was from Yakumo.
“Sorry, give me a while,” Ishii excused himself to Miyagawa without answering his question, before moving elsewhere to pick up the call.
<Ishii-san, have you managed to obtain the document?> asked Yakumo directly.
“Which document?”
Yakumo had requested multiple things from Ishii. Without being specific, Ishii had no idea which one Yakumo was referring to.
<The list of names of the children registered at the Michishirube orphanage.>
“Ah, I already have that one.” Ishii glanced at the document he had just received from Miyagawa.
<I would like to see that document as soon as possible...>
Yakumo’s manner of speech was more eager than usual.
Not too long ago, Ishii had still thought that Yakumo was scary, due to his lack of expression that made it difficult to tell what he was thinking.
However, recently Ishii had realised that although Yakumo hardly showed any expression, there were hints of emotion in the tone of his voice.
Yakumo had probably discovered something and was getting slightly fired up.
“I understand. I will bring it over now,” said Ishii.
He could also explain the information from Hata at the same time. Ishii then asked for Yakumo’s location before ending the call.
“What is it this time?” Miyagawa raised an eyebrow.
He must have guessed that the person Ishii had been speaking to on the call had been none other than Yakumo.
“I am delivering this to Yakumo-shi now,” said Ishii, holding up the document.
Miyagawa laughed in disbelief. “You’re really becoming his servant!”
Ishii couldn’t deny that. If somebody unrelated were to hear about a police officer delivering documents to a university student, they would have been puzzled.
Furthermore, a police officer on duty was leaking investigative information to a university student. If word were to come out, things wouldn’t end with just Ishii's dismissal.
Regardless, there was no use worrying about that now. Besides—
“There’s no other way, in order to solve this case.”
“Goodness…hurry up and go.”
Miyagawa waved his hand as if shooing him out.
He might have appeared scary, but this flexibility was proof of Miyagawa’s kindness.
“Yes!”
As Ishii was about to leave excitedly, Miyagawa suddenly called out to him.
“What is it, sir?”
He had been the one who had told him to leave, yet why did he call out to stop him now? Ishii turned his head in confusion.
“What else are you guys investigating aside from that?” said Miyagawa as he puffed a smoke towards the ceiling.
“Eh?”
“Don’t ‘eh’ me. Surely there are other things you guys are looking into, right? I’ll look into it while you’re away, so hurry up and tell me.”
His way of speaking may have been harsh, but Ishii was deeply moved by his concern.
“I-is that okay?”
“Since when are there things that are okay and things that aren't? It’s all for the sake of finding Gotou’s daughter, right?”
“Yes.”
“Then it’s something I have to do,” said Miyagawa, putting out his cigarette in the ashtray.
“Thank you!”
“No need to thank me. So, what needs investigating?”
“Ah, yes—” Ishii then explained the things that Yakumo had requested to be investigated upon.
Miyagawa frowned in confusion.
He must have had no clue why those things needed investigating. Ishii had the same thought. But since it was Yakumo’s request, there had to be a reason behind all of it.
“Understood. I will see what I can do,” answered Miyagawa, although dissatisfied.
He was truly a reliable superior.
“Thank you very much!” After thanking him, Ishii left the Unsolved Cases Special Investigations Division…and fell—
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11
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Makoto paid a visit to the family restaurant in front of the station and sat at a table for four next to the window.
It had been less than an hour since she had called before Yamashina had called her back, stating that he had some free time during lunch to meet her.
If the meeting spot was too close to Yamashina’s office, they might catch the attention of people who knew him, so they decided upon a family restaurant two stations away as their meeting spot.
Although the agreed timing was rather early, restaurants tend to be crowded during lunchtime. Because of that, Makoto had arrived early to reserve their seating.
After ordering a drink, Makoto took out her phone and contacted Shigemori, a writer who replied to her message about Sayama on social media.
The call immediately went through.
<Mako-chan, is it true that Sayama-san passed away?> Shigemori asked promptly.
He seemed to be unaware of Sayama’s death prior to receiving Makoto’s message. His replies were filled with shock.
“Yes...” answered Makoto. A long sigh could be heard from the other end of the call.
<You’ve got to be kidding. Last I saw him some time ago, he had been doing just fine...>
Shigemori’s disbelief towards the situation was the same as Makoto’s.
A sudden death never gave anyone time to sort out their feelings.
<Even though he was such a good person…> Shigemori’s words were filled with emotion.
“I know.”
<Despite his appearance, he was serious and passionate about his work...What a fool...>
Shigemori sniffled.
He must be crying at the loss of his best friend.
Makoto couldn’t find the right words to say to Shigemori, and could only respond to signify that she was listening.
<How did it end up like this…?> said Shigemori with a trembling voice.
“I don’t know the details either. The police seem to be treating it as a suicide case...”
<Impossible!> said Shigemori harshly. <An optimistic man like Sayama-san would never have killed himself.>
“I know. That’s why I am investigating it privately.”
<That’s the reason why you wanted to know about Sayama-san’s lover?>
“Yes.”
Regardless of whether Sayama’s death was an accident or suicide, it was strange for the woman who should have been his lover not to show her presence.
<As I had written previously in my reply, I don’t know much about it either.> Shigemori’s voice weakened.
“But you’ve met her before, right?”
<I didn’t exactly meet her, since Sayama-san had never introduced her to me. By coincidence, I just happened to see Sayama-san walking with a woman. Then I joked with him, ‘since when did you have a girlfriend?’, that’s all...>
“What was the woman like?”
<I couldn’t really see her face as she was wearing a hat, but I think she was pretty.>
“Did you manage to exchange words with her?”
<Not at all...She turned her face away when I greeted her. I thought she was probably just shy, so I didn’t ask any further.>
“Is that so...”
Makoto had been hoping for clues to find Sayama’s lover, but it seemed to be difficult to find any leads from Shigemori’s story.
Yet, after hearing the story, something bothered Makoto’s thoughts.
“Where did Sayama-san first meet that woman?”
<I was curious about that too, so the next day I called Sayama-san to ask about it, but…>
At that point, Shigemori’s words turned vague.
“But what?”
<He seemed to be avoiding the question. Now that I think about it, I realise that was uncharacteristic of him as he’s usually an open person.>
Makoto understood what Shigemori was trying to say.
That was how conversations typically went. Whilst talking, people tended to just follow the flow of dialogue, and wouldn’t realise something was off until the conversation had ended.
“When did Sayama-san start dating that woman?”
<I think not until recently. Around a month ago he was still saying that he wanted a girlfriend.>
“Is that so…”
As they had already lived together, Makoto thought that they had been in the relationship for much longer. But based on Shigemori’s story, apparently Sayama had only been dating for a month.
Could one’s relationship really develop to the point of living together within such a short timespan?
With Makoto’s own life values as a measurement, such a thing would be impossible. But that didn’t mean there didn’t exist any couple who lived together since their first meeting. In fact, some decided on marriage almost immediately.
Sayama might have also felt something that compelled him to live with his lover.
<Sorry, my story isn’t of much help.>
“Not at all. I got to know a lot of things.”
<Is that so? No matter what, I can’t believe that Sayama killed himself. Mako-chan, please find out the truth,> pressed Shigemori.
“I will do my best,” answered Makoto, ending the call.
Makoto cupped her face with both palms and leaned against the chair.
This chain of cases had gone in an unexpected direction, starting from the spiritual phenomena at the apartment, Gotou’s accident, Nao’s disappearance, now further complicated by Sayama’s death.
The investigation might have been progressing, but unexpected pieces of information were revealed one after another, from the strange phenomena during the construction of the shopping mall on that land, to the children who died in a fire at the orphanage even further back in time.
Makoto began to feel as if there were no exit to this labyrinth of mystery.
“You seem occupied,” someone said to her.
Makoto quickly lifted her face and saw Yamashina standing there. Next to him was an old man around the same age as him.
He must be Yamashina’s older brother. Their faces look alike.
“Apologies. I was deep in thought… Please have a seat,” Makoto adjusted her posture and ushered the two to sit.
She exchanged name cards with Yamashina’s brother along with a simple greeting. On his name card was the name of a middle-sized construction company and the name Yamashina Hideyuki.
“Thank you for coming all the way here,” said Makoto.
“No need to thank me like that,” said Hideyuki cheerfully. “So, you’d like to hear about a ghost story?”
Hideyuki began the conversation.
“Yes.”
“Even so, you’re quite the interesting fellow, to be interested in a ghost story from nearly forty years ago,” Hideyuki loudly laughed.
“That’s true,” replied Makoto with a friendly smile. “So, what was the incident like?”
“There were all sorts of incidents—” mumbled Hideyuki. His face quickly turned serious.
“What kinds exactly?”
“At that time, I was responsible for working on the building’s foundation, and the machinery kept breaking down.”
“Breaking?”
“Yes. For example, the motors would refuse to start, some malfunctions would occur, things of that nature. But whenever inspected, no abnormalities were found on the machines.”
“That is indeed strange.”
“Yes. Then, some said that it might have been the work of the ghosts of the children who had died during the fire at the orphanage...”
“I see.” When something unexplainable happened, it wasn’t strange for people to say such things.
“Nobody believed that at the time, though. But due to such working conditions, the construction progress became delayed and we had to work nights.”
In the present, construction work using heavy machinery during nighttime would have caused an uproar due to the potential disturbance to the neighbourhood. Back then, however, the regulations hadn’t been as clear as they were now.
“And then?” Makoto pressed further.
“Until one day, as I was about to head home after my nighttime work, I heard the sound of children’s laughter. ”
“Children?”
“I didn’t believe in ghosts then, so I assumed a child from the neighbourhood had snuck in. I thought that it would’ve been dangerous if they were to get injured at the construction site, so I went to follow the sound...” Hideyuki then stopped talking and stared at Makoto.
His gloomy eyes made his cheerful self from earlier felt like an illusion. Fear grew within Makoto at the sight of those eyes.
“Then…I saw children playing near the prefabricated building used as a resting station. And it wasn’t just one or two of them. Lots of them. With just one look I could tell that they weren’t living humans. I immediately screamed and passed out...” Hideyuki quickly continued.
A group of ghost children playing about—Makoto’s throat dried up at the thought and she gulped in response.
It wasn’t surprising that Hideyuki had passed out from fear.
After a moment of silence, Makoto tried her best to let her voice out to ask, “What happened afterwards?”
“The next day, my coworker found me lying down over there. No one believed my story at first. But some time after, a few other workers also experienced the same incident.”
“Did you ever report it to the company?”
“I did report it. But they ignored me. After all, our work would be finished not long after, and we wouldn’t have to go there ever again.”
“I see...”
“Apparently though, the same things happened when the construction above ground was being worked on.”
“Is that so?”
“Yes. All the workers grew fearful and the construction was delayed as a result. Even after the shopping mall was opened, there were neverending rumours of visitors or employees who saw a ghost child at restrooms and such.”
From Hideyuki’s story, the spiritual phenomena that had happened forty years ago and the ones that took place at the apartment appeared to be alike.
In other words, the spiritual phenomena at the apartment didn’t just happen recently, but had been happening for forty years.
If that were the case, something was off.
“Did such incidents also happen during the construction of the apartment?” asked Makoto to Yamashina.
Yamashina seemed to have expected that this question would arise. He didn’t look surprised at all and nodded his head slightly.
“I had the same concern, so I decided to check with the company who handled the construction, and confirmed that similar incidents did occur.”
So it was true.
There was no doubt about it. The cause behind the spiritual phenomena at the apartment was none other than the children who had died in the fire at the orphanage.
With that said, the case had become troublesome.
If Nao had been possessed by the ghost of a child who had died forty years prior, where, and what would she be doing now?
Even if they managed to find Nao, how would they be able to save her?
Makoto didn’t have a single idea about it.
“From what I heard, the shopping mall went bankrupt as they couldn’t get enough visitors because of the ghost rumour spreading around,” Hideyuki ended his story.
That was likely to be the case. Not to mention the additional cost of demolition, it wasn’t a surprise that the building had been abandoned to fall into ruins instead.
“Thank you. Your story helped a lot,” Makoto politely thanked the two.
The two of them stood up, about to leave. However, Yamashina suddenly remembered something. He took out an envelope from his bag and placed it on the table.
“Here. The copy of the document you requested. They are going to make a fuss since it’s personal information and all, so please use it well,” said Yamashina carefully.
He must have brought it out of his office in secret.
“Thank you so much,” Makoto thanked them once again.
After the two left, Makoto stared at the document on the table. The document felt like a Pandora's box that shouldn’t be opened.
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His right arm hurt really badly—
No, it wasn’t just that. His back and waist felt painful as well, like his bones were being ground against.
He thought his body had gotten used to pain, but the pain he felt now was so great that he wanted to scream.
“Ugh...” Gotou groaned.
Upon opening his eyelids, bright light from the fluorescent lights shone against his eyes.
Where is this?
His neck was the only thing he could move with great effort. Gotou then looked at his surroundings. The place seemed to be a hospital. He was lying on the bed, the tube of an IV drip embedded in his arm. He could also hear the beeping sound of the vital signs monitor.
He tried to lift his body, but was hindered by the pain. On top of that, his body felt so heavy that he became helpless.
“Hey! Don’t move!”
He heard a familiar voice.
Gotou turned to see Atsuko standing next to the bed, staring at him with disbelief.
“I…”
“Goodness… Don’t cause a commotion again like last time. You nearly died.”
Atsuko’s scolding triggered the return of Gotou’s memories.
Gotou had forced himself to get up from the bed to look for someone. That’s right. He had been looking for Nao.
He had been chasing Nao, who had run away from home, and had gotten into an accident.
“Nao! Where is Nao?” yelled Gotou.
Atsuko’s face turned glum.
Why are you making that face?
Despite not hearing anything from her, Gotou began to imagine the worst possible outcome.
“Nao hasn’t been found,” said Atsuko hoarsely.
Gotou felt relieved as it wasn’t the worst scenario that he had previously assumed. Even so, he couldn’t be at ease yet.
Nao’s whereabouts were still unknown.
“Nao...”
Gotou tried to force his body to get up, but Atsuko stopped him.
“Cut it out. Your body isn’t capable of moving yet,” she said.
“Let go…I have to look for Nao...”
“What can you even do with a body like that?” yelled Atsuko, making Gotou freeze.
He knew. He wouldn’t be able to look for Nao with the current state of his body that could barely move from pain. Despite that—
“I…have to look for Nao...”
“Don’t worry. Right now, everyone is trying their best to look for her.”
“Everyone?”
“Yes. Ishii-san, Makoto-san, Eishin-san, Haruka-chan. And, Yakumo-kun as well...” said Atsuko with a pleading tone.
I see.
Gotou was worried as Nao hadn’t been found, but he was overjoyed at the news that everyone was working hard to find Nao.
Excluding Ishii, who was a police officer, and Eishin, who had started everything in the first place, it wasn’t Makoto nor Haruka’s duty to look for her. And yet, they tried to do their part for Nao’s sake.
Their feelings moved Gotou’s heart.
While he was thankful for their efforts, Gotou still couldn’t rest easy.
“Still, I...”
“Stop it. Don’t let all of their kindness go to waste.”
“But...”
“Yakumo-kun left a message for you.”
A message?
Hearing those words, Gotou’s clouded memories quickly cleared up.
When his consciousness had been drifting between dreams and reality, Gotou had seen a shadow standing in front of his eyes. Perhaps that shadow had been Yakumo.
“What did Yakumo say?”
“I’ll definitely find Nao. So, bears should just hibernate in peace…that’s what he said,” said Atsuko whilst doing an impression of Yakumo’s voice.
Gotou spontaneously laughed.
As expected of Yakumo.
When Gotou had first come to discuss the spiritual phenomenon, and when he had requested his assistance because of Nao’s strange constitution, Yakumo had refused on the basis of his left eye being unable to see.
Having lost the ability to see the things he had always been able to see, Yakumo had lost his confidence. That was what Gotou had felt.
And yet, the message from Yakumo that Atsuko had passed earlier signified that Yakumo had gotten better.
Gotou didn’t know what had happened, but if Yakumo himself said definitely, perhaps he really could rest assured.
Yakumo was someone who kept his word.
That was why, Yakumo wouldn’t say anything when he was still not confident or unsure.
I can leave her to you, right? Gotou asked Yakumo, who was currently elsewhere.
There was no answer. Even so, Gotou’s anxiousness began to subside.
“That’s true...” mumbled Gotou, closing his eyes.
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13
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Eishin paid a visit to a home at the outskirts of the city.
The building was one story tall with roof tiles. It appeared to have stood there for a long time, but the land was spacious.
After gathering information from some of the families supporting the temple and following the stories of various others, he ended up here.
To tell the truth, the place was difficult for Eishin to locate. The current relationship between the temples and the families supporting them was different from how it used to be a long time ago. It may have been partly due to the fact that temples were now primarily only needed for funeral processions.
Despite that, unlike what Eishin had thought, the families’ network was really good. Word got around fairly quickly and before he knew it, they were able to find the person who used to live at the Michishirube orphanage.
They were even kind enough to offer a meetup with Eishin.
“Truly not to be underestimated,” said Eishin, mocking himself whilst pressing on the intercom.
“Yes,” A voice then answered from inside, and the sliding door opened to reveal a woman in her fifties.
Her face was chubby and appeared friendly.
This woman must be Tokue.
“My name is Eishin,” said Eishin introducing himself.
“Please come in,” Tokue ushered him inside.
Eishin went inside, taking off his sandals at the foyer before being led to a room on the side of the corridor that appeared to be the living room.
It was a Japanese-style room with the size of around eight tatami. Despite being an old building, it was clean and tidy.
Perhaps Tokue was a diligent person.
Eishin reluctantly said, “There’s no need to trouble yourself,” but Tokue left shortly and returned with a tray containing tea and some snacks.
“Thank you.” Although he felt bad for troubling her, Eishin took a sip of his tea.
Tokue sat across from Eishin and once the two of them had settled down, Eishin began to bring up the main topic.
“I came over today to ask a few questions about the past,” said Eishin.
Tokue nodded as if she had known. “Yes. I have heard. About Michishirube, yes?”
Tokue’s face appeared slightly gloomy.
This woman had also grown up in an orphanage. For whatever reason, she had had to live away from her parents.
Such wasn’t a regular experience.
She might have appeared tough now, but many things must have crossed her mind.
“Since when were you at Michishirube?”
“When I was six years old, my parents left me and disappeared… I began living in Michishirube afterwards.”
“Disappeared?”
“Yes. Apparently they had gotten into debt, but I don’t know the details.” Tokue shook her head listlessly.
This must have been the reason behind her gloomy expression.
Parents abandoning their children. The news had reported an increase in such cases in recent times, but that wasn’t true.
Such cases had existed in just about any era.
“I see. You must have been through a lot.”
“Well, more or less so…” Tokue laughed bitterly.
Eishin wanted to ask further about Tokue’s life up until now, but he didn’t have the time to hear a long story like that for the time being.
There was a lot he had to do still.
“Were you at Michishirube when the fire happened?”
“Yes. As far as I recall, it happened when I was ten years old.”
“I heard ten children died in that fire...”
“Yes.” Tokue held her own body, trembling.
The incident must have been engraved into her mind as a terrifying memory. Not only did she have no parents, she had even lost her friends. The trauma she had suffered must have been immeasurable.
“It must be hard for you, but could you please try to describe the event in detail?”
Tokue nodded, took a sip of her tea, and placed her hand on her chest to calm herself down before saying, “The fire happened at midnight. I was sleeping, and I heard someone yell that there was a fire. I woke up because of that. By then, my surroundings were already covered in smoke...” Tokue was at a loss for words afterwards.
As she described the devastating incident that happened a long time ago, Eishin who had been listening to her couldn’t help but feel sad as well.
Even so, he had to find out what happened next.
He didn’t know how the story was related to the current case, but since it was Yakumo’s request, there had to be something about it. 
“So you managed to escape?”
“Yes. The girl whom I had been roommates with pulled my arm…so I managed to get out.”
“You were lucky.”
“But, the other friends didn’t survive...” Tokue sighed, slumping her shoulders.
As if she was embarrassed for being able to survive.
It wasn’t uncommon for people to experience a similar feeling whenever there was an incident that claimed many lives. They would blame themselves out of guilt towards others who didn’t make it.
“Tokue-san, you didn’t do anything wrong. No one will blame you for feeling relieved for being able to survive,” said Eishin as he placed a hand on Tokue’s shoulder.
Tokue nodded. Despite that, Eishin wasn’t convinced whether she had actually accepted it. Human emotions couldn’t be cast away as easily as that.
As someone who practised Buddhism, Eishin knew it wasn’t good for him to think of these things. But not even Buddha could heal the wounds of a human heart so easily.
“So, did you know the cause of the fire?”
According to the article that Makoto found, it was likely that the fire had been started by children who had been playing with fire.
However, Eishin felt something was off about that statement.
While he hadn’t said it out loud, Yakumo had probably felt off about something as well.
“As the source was deemed to be children playing with fire, it had caused a public uproar, but I don’t think that was true. Someone had started the fire on purpose.”
“Goodness!” Eishin exclaimed without realising.
He had been wondering about the cause of the fire, but wouldn't have guessed that the idea that the fire had been intentional would surface.
“Was there a reason for you to think that the fire might have been intentional?” asked Eishin once he had composed himself.
“Because we were frequently disturbed…”
“Disturbed?”
“Yes. The windows often got smashed, the buildings vandalised, that sort of thing.”
“It wasn’t done by the children from Michishirube?”
“It wasn’t,” Tokue vehemently denied.
“Do you have a basis for that?” asked Eishin.
There didn’t seem to be any certainty. Eishin couldn’t jump into conclusions now, but this could have been what was called persecutory delusions.
It was possible that her regret from the fire incident led Tokue to believe that an outsider had put them in danger.
Even if that were the case, there was no point for Eishin to try and clarify that now.
“What happened after the Michishirube fire?” Eishin asked a different question.
“We were split up and transferred to different orphanages...” said Tokue with a tense expression.
It seemed that her life at the new orphanage hadn’t been too pleasant either.
“You must have been sad having to part ways with the other children.”
“Yes...but I managed to overcome all that and continue on living up till now...” said Tokue while staring at the distance.
Eishin knew Tokue’s heart had to be tired from remembering many unpleasant things. The man wanted to go home soon, but there was one last thing he had to confirm.
Eishin turned to Tokue once again.
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14
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Haruka and Yakumo returned to the Movie Research Circle clubroom to meet with Ishii.
As they opened the door, Ishii had been waiting there.
“Yakumo-shi, Haruka-chan,” greeted Ishii as he stood up.
“Apologies for the wait,” said Yakumo, who then sat on his usual chair.
Haruka felt a change in Yakumo at the sight of it.
She had seen Yakumo apologise several times, but his apology had always felt expressionless, as if he merely mouthed the words out.
Yet now, she could clearly feel that Yakumo’s words toward Ishii had been filled with apology and gratitude as Ishii had come all the way here.
If asked, however, Yakumo would probably have said ‘I didn’t change’ ....
“Why are you spacing out?” asked Yakumo to Haruka, who had been standing still.
“Ah, it’s nothing...”
“You’re probably just thinking about food. The case won’t be solved just by gluttony.”
“T-that’s not it!”
And here she was just thinking that Yakumo had changed.
Halfway in disbelief, Haruka sat down on a chair.
“Here is the document you asked for in the call,” said Ishii as he handed over a document.
Yakumo accepted it and began reading it carefully.
“What document is it?” asked Haruka to Ishii.
“The list of names of the children registered in the orphanage that burned down.”
“List of names...?”
“Yes. It’s called a list of names, but the details of how they came to live at the orphanage are also recorded here.”
“Such a document exists, huh?”
“Yes. While there are also privately owned orphanages, the right to register the children falls upon the local prefecture, and the one who decides upon it is the head of the Centre of Child Consultation.”
“Is that so?”
“It’s a rare case nowadays, but in the past there have been children whose identities and how they ended up in an orphanage were unknown. When that happened, the mayor would be the one to give them a name.”
“I didn’t know that.”
Apparently orphanages had many procedures in place.
Whether Ishii had known from the start or had discovered that fact during the investigation, Haruka was still impressed at his knowledge.
“Found it,” Yakumo suddenly exclaimed.
“Eh?” blurted Haruka and Ishii, before turning to Yakumo.
Still staring at the document, Yakumo’s lips curved into a thin smile, as if he had discovered the root cause behind all these incidents.
“Found…what?” asked Ishii reluctantly.
“I found the identity of the ghost possessing Nao,” said Yakumo, brimming with confidence whilst pointing at the list of names.
The name Akira was written there.
Haruka didn’t know how Yakumo was certain that this was the person in question. But since Yakumo had pointed at a name from the orphanage’s list of names, then the ghost possessing Nao had to be one of the children who had died in the fire.
“Then, what should we do next?” asked Ishii to Yakumo.
“Before that, there was something else that you had discovered, right? Please tell me,” Yakumo replied with another question.
“Ah, that’s right,” said Ishii, taking out a memo and talking as he read through it. “I haven’t found out much, though…” he started, before explaining how Hata had doubted that Sayama had committed suicide.
“I agree with that,” mumbled Yakumo once Ishii finished his explanation.
If the man called Sayama hadn't committed suicide and there was a possibility that he had been murdered, who could possibly have killed him, and for what reason?
Even if she wouldn’t reach an answer just by thinking about it, Haruka couldn’t get rid of the thought.
Maybe it was the final words Sayama had left to Makoto before he had died that had been the key. “It wasn’t a spiritual phenomenon or anything like that—”
However, Haruka had just experienced for herself the spiritual phenomena at the apartment. The incident had been significant enough not to be treated as mere misunderstanding.
“So, after this…” Ishii yet again requested for further instructions.
Yakumo stopped him and took his phone out of his pocket.
Apparently someone was calling him.
Yakumo picked up the call and began discussing something. Haruka didn’t know the details of the conversation, but based on the voice she heard, the call seemed to be from Makoto.
“In that case, I’ll leave it to you—”
After a brief conversation, Yakumo gave a number of instructions before ending the call.
“Anyway, regarding what we should do next…” said Yakumo, turning back to face Ishii. 
“Yes.”
“Actually, I’d like Ishii-san to help me find someone.”
“You want me to find someone within that list of names?” Ishii pointed at the document on Yakumo’s hand. He then pointed at the name of the child that Yakumo had claimed to have possessed Nao.
“There’s no need for that,” denied Yakumo immediately.
“No need?” Ishii frowned in confusion.
“There’s no use in looking.”
“Why?”
“This person is now possessing Nao. In other words, the person is already dead.”
Putting it that way, he was right. If the person was possessing Nao as a ghost, then the person was no longer alive. They wouldn’t be able to find that person even if they tried. 
“In that case, who are you looking for?” asked Ishii once more, which made Yakumo grin in satisfaction.
From the looks of it, Yakumo seemed to have discovered the truth amidst the confusing situation.
Yakumo spoke the name of the person he was searching for. Ishii jotted it down and quickly left the room.
“Then, what about us?” asked Haruka once the two of them were the only ones left.
“That’s right…. I got a message from Atsuko-san earlier.”
“Atsuko-san?”
“Yes. She said that Gotou-san had regained consciousness and that his condition had stabilised.”
“That’s a relief...” said Haruka sincerely.
Ever since she had received the call that Gotou had gotten into an accident, the worst possible situation had repeatedly crossed her mind and her heart was crushed by her anxiousness.
Since Gotou’s condition had improved, all that was left was to find Nao.
After Haruka had renewed her own feelings, Yakumo suddenly said something unexpected.
“That’s why, let’s go and visit Gotou-san,” said Yakumo as he stood up.
“Eh? You’re serious?” Haruka spontaneously exclaimed.
“What? Aren’t you worried about Gotou-san?”
“Of course I am worried. But, we have to look for Nao-chan.”
“There’s no need for that.”
“What are you talking about?”
Could it be that he had given up on looking for Nao?
If that were the case, there was no point in requesting Ishii and Makoto’s help. Besides, there was no guarantee that Nao was alright.
“If my speculation was correct, she’s going to show herself without the need to look for her.”
“What do you mean?”
“I meant just as I said,” replied Yakumo as if it was obvious. Haruka didn’t understand at all.
Even so, as they have come this far, she could only agree with Yakumo.
“Alright,” said Haruka, who also got up from her chair–
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15
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After she finished her call with Yakumo, Makoto let out a long sigh.
She had just examined the contents of the envelope given by Yamashina upon returning to her office from the family restaurant.
Just as she had suspected, the envelope was like Pandora's box.
If only she could find the beacon of hope whilst escaping a series of calamities, just like in mythological stories. However, there were no signs of such a thing thus far.
Makoto’s mind was shrouded in darkness and confusion.
Despite that, something bothered her.
When she had stated this important piece of fact to Yakumo, he simply responded, ’so that really was the case—’ as if he had known about it all along.
He could’ve just been doing it to impress, but Yakumo wouldn’t have done such a thing.
In other words, Yakumo likely had predicted all of this information. He might have gotten the bigger picture, and had in turn requested for Makoto to investigate.
Makoto was curious about a number of things, but now wasn’t the time to sit around. There were still things left to look into.
Yakumo had requested for more assistance just now.
Firstly, to send a photo to someone. Although the request had come from Yakumo, Makoto had the same speculation after reading the documents from Yamashina.
Makoto opened the file from the computer, putting the photo in full view of the monitor.
She shivered at the sight of the face displayed on the monitor.
Hopefully we are mistaken, she wished.
With trembling hands, Makoto attached the photo to an email, typing a message before finally sending it out.
It would get a reply for certain.
Next, she had to investigate an orphanage. Not the one that had burned down, but a different one called Kazaoto.
Yakumo had never elaborated on why she had to look into this orphanage, but Makoto had a few ideas of her own.
After Michishirube had burned down to the ground, the children who had managed to survive had been transferred to other orphanages.
This orphanage might have been one of them.
Makoto opened the browser in her computer and tried to search for the keyword kazaoto orphanage.
She quickly found some relevant information.
Apparently, the orphanage had been located in Kanagawa, and had since closed down. Makoto couldn’t believe her eyes upon reading the reason behind its closure.
“This...”
Child abuse by the orphanage staff had taken place for a prolonged period of time at Kazaoto orphanage. The orphanage had to be closed down once the truth had come to light.
Unfortunately, the website she was on didn't provide any further information.
It wasn’t surprising as the incident had been made public over thirty five years ago. Back then, news sites and the like hadn’t existed yet.
However, if it had been an incident, the newspaper company Makoto worked at might have an article about it as well. If the journalist who had covered the story was still alive, she might be able to ask about it directly.
Makoto immediately sprinted to the data room.
She searched around on the computer. It was just as she had thought. She then clicked on a few articles.
A-san, who used to live at Kazaoto orphanage, reported the abuse that took place at the orphanage to the Kanagawa prefecture police…
“Goodness...”
Makoto felt sick reading the contents of the article.
The children at the orphanage had been in a situation where they had no other choice but to live without their parents.
They had to have gone through more hardships compared to other children.
Not to mention that they had nowhere else to go. Taking advantage of that situation to abuse them for one’s own satisfaction would simply be a brutal thing to do.
It wasn’t a crime that could be forgiven by merely punishing them with the law.
Makoto felt like closing her eyes, but that would have been the same as running away.
As she examined the details, she discovered that the article had been written by a journalist named Takabe. Takabe had retired due to old age, but was now hired doing contract work.
Makoto searched the list of contact numbers on one side of the table and found Takabe’s name. She promptly reached for the handle of the office phone and dialled the number.
After a brief dial tone, Takabe picked up the call. <Takabe here.>
His manner of speech was slow and peculiar, but since he had even been reemployed, his work had to be sharp.
“I’m Hijikata from the culture department,” said Makoto.
Takabe quickly exclaimed, <Oh, the daughter of the ex police chief?>
He seemed to know about Makoto.
“Please don’t address me that way. My father is no longer in the police force.”
She ended up remembering some unpleasant things.
<That’s why I used the word ‘ex’, though.>
“Well, that’s true...”
<So, what’s the matter? Since you’re calling from the data room, you’re probably getting yourself involved in matters outside your scope of work again.>
He probably knew Makoto was in the data room based on the incoming call number.
“What do you mean, again?”
<It’s common gossip at the office that you like to poke your head around cases that has nothing to do with you.>
“Eh?”
<Sometimes you would get exclusive news stories, so no one would complain about it. But, well, some aren’t too happy about it either.>
“What are you saying?”
<I’m saying that you’re more well known than you think.>
“Oh...”
Even when told such a thing, Makoto had no idea how to deal with it.
Perhaps all this time, her coworkers had been uncomfortable around her, and she was the one who had never noticed.
<Well, anyway. Putting that aside, what did you want to ask?> said Takabe.
He was right. No use in worrying about what other people thought about her now.
“I’d like to ask you about an article from thirty five years ago.”
<That’s pretty far back.>
“Yes. About the Kazaoto orphanage...” Makoto could instantly feel as Takabe held his breath on the other side of the phone.
<That case was rather unpleasant...> he mumbled.
“I heard there were incidents of child abuse…?”
<That’s right. Not to mention it had been going on for over ten years. I could somewhat understand had it been a sole perpetrator, but we’re talking multiple staff abusing children together.>
“How cruel…”
Since multiple staff were involved, the children must have had nowhere to escape.
<Getting hit or kicked was a routine for them. The children were covered in bruises. Furthermore, they had cold water poured over them during the winter, fed insects for food, ordered to run around barefooted…they were overall treated in an extremely cruel way.>
“Goodness...”
<It didn’t end there. Some of the children were sexually abused. Boys and girls were victims, no exceptions made—>
Makoto gripped the phone handle tightly.
Had those abusers stood right in front of her eyes then and there, she wasn’t confident she’d be able to keep herself together. That was how angry she felt.
“Truly unforgivable...” commented Makoto with great effort.
<I agree. They had kept the children’s mouths shut. The case was only revealed because someone who had left the orphanage reported it to the police.>
“I see...”
<Then, I wasn’t able to include this in the article, but something strange happened after.>
“Something strange?”
<Yes. Three staff that were involved in the abuse eventually died one by one.>
“Eh?” exclaimed Makoto in a high pitched tone. “Died? How so?”
<One died in a traffic accident. Another was found floating at sea. The other one fell from a building—>
“That’s...” said Makoto, swallowing her next words.
There was a possibility that the children who had been abused had sought revenge on them.
<I had the same thought as you,> Takabe sighed as if he could read what Makoto was thinking.
“Did you look into it?”
<Yes. But I wasn’t able to find a connection between their deaths. The police eventually reached the same conclusion and closed the case just like that.>
“So that was the case…Thank you, your story was a lot of help.”
Even after ending the call, Makoto remained enveloped in anguish.
Since the police had reached the same conclusion, their deaths might have actually been mere coincidence. Yet Makoto’s heart rejected that idea.
There had to be something behind them—whilst thinking that, Makoto received a message from Shigemori regarding the photo she had wanted to clarify with him.
<I only saw her briefly, so I’m not too sure, but I don’t think this is the person.>
That was the contents of Shigemori’s message.
Unexpectedly, Yakumo’s prediction seemed to have missed its mark.
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Gotou turned towards the window.
He could see the usual city scenery from it. Even so, his chest felt crushed at the thought of Nao being out there, somewhere. He was fighting hard against the urge to leave right there and now.
Gotou, who wasn’t good at thinking, held the principle of taking action first before using his brain. For that reason, he made a great team with Yakumo, who had the brains but struggled to take action. It was the same with Ishii.
It felt ridiculous for Gotou, who could only prove himself by making a move, to be in his current state.
His frustration towards himself grew uncontrollably.
“Your injuries look rather horrible—”
Gotou turned to the source of the sudden voice, and found Yakumo and Haruka standing at the entrance of his hospital room.
“Yeah. I can’t move in this condition.”
His right shoulder and left leg was broken, his back was bruised, and his hip bone was fractured. He had also gotten a concussion and there were lacerations in multiple places over his body.
The doctor said that an average person would have died by now and was impressed by the sturdiness of Gotou’s body.
Despite that, it was no use if he couldn’t even move amidst the urgent situation.
“Sounds like a good opportunity. How about reading a book for a change? If you know how to read, that is,” Yakumo chuckled lightly.
“Shut up!” yelled Gotou, who instantly felt a jolt of pain across his body.
His condition was really pitiful; he couldn’t even yell.
“Well, you’ll need to stay still for a while,” said Yakumo.
However, Gotou couldn’t just do as he said. “Nao…I have to find Nao...”
The moment Gotou said so, Yakumo shook his head. “Did you not hear the message I passed to Atsuko-san?”
I heard.
The message from Yakumo. A message that had stated that he would definitely find Nao.
“In that case, how could you come over here so nonchalantly?”
He hadn’t heard any news that Nao had been found. Yakumo shouldn’t have the free time to pay Gotou a visit.
“No need to be angry like that.”
“Of course I am angry. Nao’s life is in danger!”
“I know. But rest assured. I have cracked most of the mystery. All that is left is how am I planning to face it—” said Yakumo as if it was common sense. Gotou still didn’t understand.
“What are you talking about?”
“Well, you’ll understand eventually. For now, you should peacefully rest up, Gotou-san.”
“That’s why...”
“If you were to force yourself to move now, you won’t be able to move when it’s absolutely necessary,” said Yakumo with a grin.
“What are you saying?”
“I’m saying, I might need your help later, Gotou-san. Well, only if you’re willing.”
There was no need for contemplation. His answer was clear.
Gotou was being treated at the hospital and couldn’t move freely, but if there was something he could do, he would do whatever it is.
“Of course. I won’t be satisfied until I beat up the person behind all of this.”
“That’s relieving to hear—” said Yakumo as his cellphone rang.
“Hey, Yakumo-kun. We’re in a hospital,” scolded Haruka.
“I know,” answered Yakumo, who nodded at Gotou before saying, “See you later,” before leaving the room.
“Please don’t push yourself too hard,” Haruka said to Gotou before chasing after Yakumo.
Gotou wanted to go after them too. But as Yakumo had said, there was no use forcing himself to move now and rendering himself incapable of doing so when needed.
Gotou leaned back against the bed and sighed whilst suppressing his annoyance.
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When Ishii stopped his car in front of the hospital Gotou was in, Yakumo and Haruka had been waiting for him.
The person Yakumo had been looking for had been easier to find than he had thought, so he contacted Yakumo soon afterwards.
His call had been left unanswered, but Yakumo had promptly called him back and once Ishii had explained the situation to him, Yakumo immediately expressed that he wanted to meet this person.
As a result, Ishii came to pick them up with his car.
“Sorry for the trouble again, Ishii-san,” said Yakumo as he sat in the backseat alongside Haruka.
Seeing them side-by-side like this, they looked like a couple. Ishii felt strange as he had never viewed them in such a manner before.
No, that wasn’t it. His heart used to be riddled with anxiety at the sight of the two next to each other.
Now, it felt more like watching a little sister with her partner.
“Are we really heading there?” Ishii asked Yakumo once he got rid of the strange sentimental feeling in his mind.
“I’ll be counting on you.”
“Alright,” answered Ishii, starting the car.
“Why do you want to meet this person?” questioned Ishii as he glanced at Yakumo through the rearview mirror.
The person Yakumo had requested him to find was Kazue, wife of Hirosawa Shozo, who had been the headmaster in charge of running the Michishirube orphanage.
Kazue now resided in the Institute of Elderly Welfare.
The orphanage that she had been managing had burned down, taking the lives of ten children. On top of that, her husband—Shozo—had died from hanging as if responsible for the incident.
Forty years after the event, how did Kazue feel now? Furthermore, what did it have to do with the current case?
Ishii couldn’t find an answer for those two questions.
“We won’t be able to solve this case without her,” answered Yakumo firmly.
What could be the reason behind Yakumo’s words? Ishii tried to think about it, but he still couldn’t understand. In that case, he could only leave the rest to Yakumo.
Ishii grew quiet and drove the car.
Thirty minutes later, they arrived at the Institute of Elderly Welfare, where Kazue was.
Ishii stepped out of the car, thinking that they would be entering the place together, but Yakumo stopped him.
“Sorry, but I’m going to meet Kazue-san alone,” said Yakumo with a stiff expression.
“Why?” blurted Haruka in surprise as she had also thought she would be going in with Yakumo.
“She may refuse to open her mouth if we were to meet her as a group. If I’m by myself, she will certainly speak up.”
Yakumo had a point. She might put her guard up if there were a large number of people seeing her at once. However, a group of three people wasn’t that large.
Besides, whatever it was that Yakumo wanted to find out from Kazue, Ishii felt that his role as a police officer, and Haruka as fellow woman would put them at an advantage.
As Ishii expressed that fact, Yakumo’s face frowned into a complicated expression.
“Fine. I’ll tell the truth. This is something that I have to face alone.”
Yakumo’s explanation only confused Ishii even more.
“What do you mean?”
“Exactly as I said. I wanted to ask Kazue-san about someone’s past. To recover my left eyesight, I have to face the truth by myself,” said Yakumo firmly.
Ishii still didn’t understand.
However, Haruka seemed to have a different reaction.
“Alright then. I’ll wait for you here,” she replied.
Satisfied with Haruka’s response, Yakumo nodded before walking away.
“Did you get what Yakumo-shi is planning to do?” Ishii asked Haruka as they watched Yakumo walk into the front entrance.
“Not at all,” Haruka added with a smile.
“You let him go all by himself despite that?”
“Yes.”
“But, if that’s how it is...”
“Yakumo-kun said that this is for the sake of recovering his left eyesight.”
“Right. He did say that.”
Those words did nothing to make Ishii understand. He couldn’t fathom how listening to Kazue’s story could contribute to Yakumo’s recovery.
“Yakumo-kun must be in the middle of trying to accept his own existence,” said Haruka gladly. Ishii couldn’t understand yet again.
The only thing he knew was that Haruka wholeheartedly placed her trust in Yakumo.
“You’re putting your trust in him…” said Ishii.
Haruka nodded firmly as if it was only natural for her to.
It made Ishii realise how much Haruka liked Yakumo from the bottom of her heart. There was no place for Ishii there from the start.
Haruka and Yakumo were bound by such a deep mutual trust.
“It makes me jealous.”
Words came out of Ishii’s mouth without him realising.
“Eh?” Haruka tilted her head.
“I mean...to be able to like someone to such lengths is an impressive feat.”
“No, it’s not like that...” said Haruka, looking down with a flushed face.
Her expression was more adorable than anything Ishii had ever seen Haruka made before. Even so, he knew it wasn’t directed at him.
Back then, this would have hurt Ishii’s feelings, but now he could watch over it with a smile. The whole ordeal made him feel bizarre.
“Enough about me. Rather, how are Ishii-san and Makoto-san doing?”
Out of nowhere, Haruka asked an unexpected question.
“Eh?”
“I’m saying, are you and Makoto-san dating now?”
“Th-there’s no way,” Ishii denied in a hurry.
His forehead suddenly grew sweaty for some reason.
“Is that so? The two of you looked like you were getting along really well recently, so I thought it was official.”
“N-no…that…would only trouble Makoto-san,” said Ishii, wiping the sweat on his forehead.
“Eh? Why?”
“Why…? There’s no way someone like me would suit a remarkable woman like Makoto-san.”
“This isn’t a matter of suitability, rather, how does Ishii-san feel?”
“No, I...”
“Ishii-san, what do you think about Makoto-san?”
“I…”
What do I think?
During the last case, Ishii had realised how much Makoto meant to him as a person.
But, he suspected that his feelings were slightly different from love.
He felt comfortable around Makoto and was always happy to talk to her. Back then, he might have been afraid of her, but now Makoto was among the few people of the opposite gender that he could converse with without feeling nervous.
“How would you feel if Makoto-san were to date someone else?”
Haruka threw an unexpected question that horrified Ishii for some reason.
“There’s no way!” he reflexively exclaimed.
“Why?”
“Why...? Well, as to why...”
Ishii couldn’t explain the reason. It was simply that he felt immediate rejection at the idea of Makoto enjoying herself with another man.
“So it’s true, you really do like Makoto-san—” said Haruka, filled with emotion.
Those words echoed repeatedly within Ishii’s heart.
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Haruka stared at the building entrance intensely whilst leaning against the car.
Earlier, she had nodded when Ishii had asked if she trusted Yakumo, but she would be lying to say that she wasn't worried.
Having watched Yakumo go past that entrance with a firm resolution, Haruka grew annoyed at herself for only being able to stand back and wait.
She turned to Ishii’s direction, who was speaking in a call a few distance away. He had to be in the middle of gathering more information about the case.
Haruka sighed and looked at the sky. Line-shaped clouds floated across the dim sky as night approached. Soon enough those clouds would be swallowed by darkness.
She grew increasingly anxious at the thought.
Yakumo-kun, you’re coming back, right? Haruka asked within her heart.
Yakumo had only left to ask for information. He would definitely return. So Haruka’s request wasn’t about that.
Even if his body was physically fine, it would be pointless if his heart wasn’t as well.
Haruka was glad that Yakumo was willing to face his red left eye. However, it would come at a great deal of mental pressure for him.
He might not be showing it, but Yakumo must have been suffering even now.
In other words, he was still mentally unwell. Haruka couldn’t say for certain that Yakumo wouldn’t be consumed by the darkness in such a state.
All her worries made her feel that she should’ve tagged along with Yakumo, but she chose to keep waiting.
Perhaps this was merely her own feelings, but she believed that by trusting him and waiting, she could become Yakumo’s support. Or at least she hoped so.
The winds roared strongly.
Haruka glanced at the entrance and saw Yakumo walking out from it.
He’s back.
For a moment, Haruka was delighted, yet she soon noticed something was off and her heart froze.
Yakumo’s expression was clearly unlike how it had been prior to entering the building. It was difficult for Haruka to describe, but Yakumo seemed to be carrying a different burden from before.
“Yakumo-kun—” called Haruka. Yakumo responded with a smile. A clumsy one, as if he was forcing his face muscles to form a smile.
What happened?
She wanted to ask him, but the words wouldn’t come out of her mouth.
Perhaps because she was afraid.
Almost as if Yakumo would disappear if she were to find out what he had heard and felt.
“Ah! Yakumo-shi! How was it?” Ishii ran towards Yakumo after finishing his phone call.
“More or less, I finally got the bigger picture...” said Yakumo.
His mouth might have said so, but he didn’t sound too enthusiastic about it.
“So does that mean you’ve solved the mystery?” asked Ishii excitedly.
“Yes. From the start, this case didn’t have a lot of mysteries to it. Even so, the events that had caused the spiritual phenomenon happened way too far back, so we wasted a lot of time gathering information,” explained Yakumo effortlessly.
“I-is that so?” responded Ishii in surprise as he gestured excessively with his body.
Normally, Haruka would’ve laughed at Ishii’s antics, but right now she found herself unable to.
“Yes. Anyway, Ishii-san, you’ve discovered some new information as well, right?”
Ishii hurriedly took out a memo from his pocket. “Yes. I heard a few things from the call with Miyagawa-san earlier.”
Ishii promptly described the information he had received from Miyagawa to Yakumo.
Yakumo remained silent, listening intently to Ishii’s explanation, before sighing deeply as he watched the sky.
There had been a faint sunlight left earlier, but now the sky had turned completely dark. The line-shaped clouds from earlier had been covered in a sea of black.
After a moment of silence, Yakumo spoke up. “Thank you, I know a lot now. I think it’s about time we go pick up Nao—”
Yakumo’s tone sounded glum to Haruka.
“Pick up? How exactly?” asked Ishii.
“I’d like for us to rendezvous with Makoto-san and Eishin-san. Please pass on the message to them to gather at my room.”
“Understood,” Ishii replied excitedly before contacting them on his phone.
“Yakumo-kun—” called Haruka softly as Yakumo was about to enter the car.
“What?”
“You’re not thinking of anything funny, aren’t you?“ warned Haruka.
“Yes. I’m merely thinking about what the best plan is to save Nao.”
Yakumo’s words stabbed into Haruka’s chest.
Although she had no basis, Haruka felt an ominous premonition. Yakumo’s words were just like the sky now; no presence of light to be found.
“What are you saying…?”
“I’m really grateful to you,” said Yakumo with a smile.
His smile was filled with sadness.
“I...”
“I could only get this far because you’re with me. Thank you—” said Yakumo before getting inside the car.
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Makoto hurried towards the Movie Research Circle clubroom.
The campus was dead silent during nighttime, so much that the buzzling activities during the day felt like an illusion. The stark contrast terrified her.
As she opened the door signed <Movie Research Circle>, Makoto found Yakumo sitting on his usual chair. Ishii, Haruka, and Eishin were present as well.
Since Yakumo had requested them to gather, Makoto had assumed that the mystery behind this case had been solved, so she excitedly came over. Yet, the air around the room felt suffocating.
“Sorry for troubling you to come over,” Yakumo politely bowed his head.
Makoto thought that Yakumo’s optimism had returned thanks to Haruka, but his expression appeared listless like a corpse.
What happened?
Puzzled with questions, Makoto sat on a chair next to Ishii.
“So…you’ve solved the mystery?” Eishin opened up the conversation.
“That’s right. Although there was hardly any mystery in this case in the first place.”
“Eh?” blurted Makoto without realising.
How could there be no mystery about it? What about the cause behind the spiritual phenomenon? Nao’s whereabouts were still unknown. Not to mention Sayama’s death.
Makoto emphasised those to Yakumo, but he shook his head in response.
“No,” he replied, “I was uncertain at first as I couldn’t believe myself, but from the start there wasn’t anything you could call a mystery.”
“How is that possible?”
“I believe everyone is now aware that the cause behind the spiritual phenomena at the apartment building was a fire that took place forty years ago,” explained Yakumo as he narrowed his eyes and stared into the distance.
“So that means there are ghosts of children lurking in that building?” confirmed Ishii.
“Yes. As we have discovered through Makoto-san’s investigation, after the fire had taken place, the spiritual phenomena had occurred during the construction of the shopping mall and its business operations later on after it opened.”
“I confirmed it again afterwards. As it turns out, similar phenomena occurred during the construction of the apartment building as well.”
Prior to coming here, using the number she had obtained from Yamashina, Makoto had called a construction worker who had been involved in the construction of the apartment building to hear his story.
She had discovered that the worker had experienced similar phenomena as Yamashina’s brother.
As all the workers grew fearful, progress of the construction work had halted. One cause that had factored into the apartment’s exorbitantly high price had been the increase in construction costs from all the delays.
Makoto explained her investigation in detail, to which Yakumo nodded in satisfaction.
“This story confirmed that the children who had died in the fire had been haunting that location for the last forty years.”
“Does that mean the ghost possessing Nao was one of the children who died back then?” interrupted Haruka.
“It’s a little different, but yeah, something along those lines.”
“What do you mean…?”
Dissatisfied with Yakumo’s vague answer, Haruka wanted to ask further questions, but Yakumo stopped her.
“I’ll explain the details later. That aside, the question is, where is Nao? Furthermore, how can we save the ghosts of the children who had been lingering for forty years?” said Yakumo with a hardened expression.
“Do you have something in mind?” asked Makoto.
Yakumo let out a deep sigh. “Honestly, I don’t know anymore.”
“About what?”
“The fire forty years ago. Do you think it was really caused by children playing with fire?” asked Yakumo. Makoto fell silent.
At first, she had considered the possibility. However, upon reading the documents given by Yamashina, those thoughts had completely vanished.
“I don’t think it was...” said Makoto.
“I-it wasn’t?” Ishii added.
Apparently Ishii hadn’t heard about the fact. If he had, it would’ve shifted his line of thinking entirely.
Makoto intended to explain, but Yakumo shook his head without saying a word. He appeared to be asking Makoto not to talk about it for now.
“Ten children lost their lives all because of the greediness of a few people. Despite having to face the harsh reality of moving into an orphanage, those children had continued to live optimistically.”
Yakumo’s voice shook. Overwhelming sadness and anger spiralled together in his heart.
Even Yakumo wasn’t acting like himself as his vast emotions carried him away.
“Yakumo-kun...” Unable to ignore the state he was in, Haruka called out to Yakumo.
“Those children were innocent. Yet the culprit easily took all of their lives in the name of greed. Such an act is unforgivable,” said Yakumo, curling his fists.
If he continues to wallow in anger, this can go badly.
“But...” started Makoto.
“Would you be able to forgive him, Makoto-san?” Yakumo glared at Makoto, eyes burning with anger.
Unable to win against such pressure, Makoto couldn’t say anything more. Whatever had happened, she could feel that Yakumo’s heart was greatly shaken by it.
If this went on, would Yakumo end up being swallowed by darkness?
A long silence ensued.
Moments later, Yakumo slowly stood up.
“I’d like to request all of your help.“
Everyone’s eyes in the room turned to Yakumo.
“I will do anything to save Nao. In exchange however, I have to surrender myself.”
“Yakumo-kun, wait! What are you saying?” shouted Haruka, unable to withstand the situation.
Her reaction was understandable.
Yakumo spoke as if he was about to die.
“There’s no other way than this—”
“What do you mean?”
“Don’t worry about it. Anyway, once Nao is safe, please tie me up as soon as possible. I will leave the rest to all of you.”
Makoto couldn’t understand the meaning behind Yakumo’s words.
Everyone exchanged glances with confused looks on their faces.
“It may not make sense to you now, but when the time comes, I’m sure you will all understand,” said Yakumo with a chuckle.
“Don’t tell me you’re planning to die?” asked Makoto, who couldn’t bear it anymore as well.
Yakumo didn’t answer and simply stood in place. Makoto felt as if his silence was the answer itself.
Makoto turned to Haruka who was now staring at Yakumo, half-flabbergasted. For Haruka’s sake, nothing should be allowed to corner Yakumo to his death.
“Whatever happens, we have to save Nao,” said Yakumo, immediately leaving the room—
“Ishii-san.” Makoto called out to Ishii, who had been sitting next to her.
“I know. We have to protect Yakumo-shi no matter what.” Unlike his usual self, Ishii’s words sounded dependable.
Despite that, restlessness emerged within Makoto. She felt that what was about to happen would turn into an unchangeable course of fate—
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Yakumo looked up at the apartment building that stood out amidst the darkness. Stone covered footpath extended all the way to its entrance.
It was late, so most of the apartment lights were out and the building appeared more terrifying than it was in the daytime.
Haruka felt even more chills as Yakumo had mentioned earlier that the ghosts of the children who had died in the fire were haunting the place.
Hey, what are you thinking right now? Haruka asked Yakumo in her heart.
Whatever Yakumo had talked about with Kazue in the Institute of Elderly Welfare had caused him to behave strangely ever since.
Even now, he emitted a tragic aura akin to that of a soldier marching to his death.
Not to mention what he had said at the Movie Research Circle clubroom bothered Haruka.
Yakumo had said that in order to save Nao, he had to surrender himself in exchange—
Did he mean it in a literal sense? Or—
Haruka wanted to ask him, but her words turned against her and refused to come out.
But why? She had already made up her mind to face Yakumo without fear of being hated.
Perhaps it wasn’t out of fear of being hated, but out of fear that if Haruka were to say the quiet part out loud, it would become the truth.
“I’m glad you’re here,“ said Yakumo without turning around to face Haruka.
“Eh?”
“Because you’re here, I’m able to go this far even though my red left eye doesn’t work.”
“Yakumo-kun…”
A burning sensation filled Haruka’s chest.
In truth, even this time around Haruka hadn’t been able to gather any information to help solve the case, unlike Ishii and Makoto.
All she had done was to stay by Yakumo’s side, and she was annoyed by her own helplessness. And yet, Yakumo’s words earlier seeped into her heart.
“You’re a signpost,” said Yakumo.
“Signpost?”
“Yes. I suppose all this time you’ve always been like a signpost to me.”
What Yakumo said only made Haruka’s brewing anxiety implode.
“Stop saying those kinds of things!” yelled Haruka, unable to hold herself anymore.
Yakumo turned.
“...”
“Why are you saying those things? Why are you making it sound like it’s in the past? We’ll be walking together even from now on, right?” said Haruka following her emotions, inciting a chuckle from Yakumo.
A truly empty chuckle.
“Don’t worry.”
“How can I not worry?”
“If you’re with me as a signpost, I could always make it back no matter where I go.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
Last night, Haruka had emotionally revealed her deepest feelings, despite her true intentions. She had intended to express them in good terms, unlike what happened that night.
She didn’t care about the outcome.
Haruka only wanted Yakumo to know, just how much she liked him—
That’s why—
“There’s still lots of things I’d like to tell you.”
“What things?”
“I can’t say right now.”
“Why?”
“I believe in your words. So I’ll tell you everything once you have saved Nao. I won’t say it now.”
“Alright. There’s something I have to tell you as well.”
“What is it?”
“It’s a long story, so let’s save it for when everything is over...”
Haruka got curious about what Yakumo had to say, but it was better not to ask now. She wanted Yakumo to think of the future—
“Sure,” Haruka nodded.
Yakumo placed his hand atop Haruka’s head.
Haruka’s chest heated up. Her tear ducts welled until her tears were about to fall that instant. However, she held it in as much as possible.
If she were to cry here, perhaps Yakumo would never come back. So—
“I believe in you.”
Yakumo walked away without giving Haruka a reply.
They might have not been far apart in distance, but Yakumo’s back felt incredibly distant. She was even worried that Yakumo would be swallowed by the darkness.
“It’ll be fine,” a voice cheered up Haruka’s gloomy feelings.
Haruka turned to find Makoto, who had stood there for some time. Ishii was next to her.
“Makoto-san—”
“Don’t worry. Whatever happens, we’ll help Yakumo-kun. Right, Ishii-san?” Makoto smiled and turned to Ishii beside her.
“Of course. Leave it to me.”
Ishii thumped his chest in an act of bravery.
However, he didn’t adjust the strength of his fist, so he was soon coughing violently.
“Ishii-san, are you alright?”
“S-sorry. I hit too hard.”
“Goodness, what are you doing?”
Watching Ishii and Makoto’s banters, Haruka reflexively smiled.
That was true. She wasn’t alone. Ishii and Makoto were here. Even Gotou, although physically he was lying in a hospital bed right now.
Besides that, while they weren’t present, Atsuko and Eishin would support them as well.
“What are you doing?” called Yakumo whilst turning to them, having walked ahead earlier.
Haruka, Ishii, and Makoto exchanged glances and nodded, before stepping forward together.
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21
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Ishii chased after Yakumo in front of the apartment building entrance.
More precisely, Yakumo was waiting there. As he didn’t have a key, he couldn’t get in.
“Ishii-san. This apartment building has a basement, right? I want to go there...” said Yakumo, narrowing his eyes.
It wasn’t clear why Yakumo wanted to enter the basement right now. That aside, Ishii didn’t understand why they went to this apartment building either as Yakumo had said that they were going to save Nao. Ishii and Miyagawa had searched all over this building, including the basement.
Ishii questioned that fact, but since this was Yakumo's request, there had to be a reason.
“I understand. Let me borrow the keys.”
Ishii called the management office through the intercom. Luckily, Takemoto was the one who answered. As soon as Ishii expressed that he wanted to borrow the basement key, Takemoto simply grumbled, “Again?” and arrived at the apartment entrance bringing the key.
Ishii had thought that Takemoto would ask a series of questions, but he merely reminded, “Please don’t do anything strange,” before handing over the key.
“Let’s go,” said Yakumo.
“Yes,” replied Ishii before leading the way down the stairs that were connected to the basement.
He opened the metal door with the key borrowed from Takemoto.
Upon turning on the lights, they entered a square shaped room surrounded by concrete walls. There was a large control panel, with water pipes twisting like a labyrinth.
Unlike the apartment building’s exterior, this room felt barren, like a factory.
“Why are we here?” asked Makoto.
“I wanted to confirm something,” answered Yakumo before touching the nearest pipe.
“Confirm what?” asked Ishii.
Yakumo smiled a little. “Regarding the poltergeist phenomena in this apartment building.”
“So it was really a poltergeist,” said Ishii excitedly, but Yakumo responded to him coldly.
“It wasn’t,” he said.
“It wasn’t?”
“Yes. I’m sure about it now.”
“About what?”
“I defined spirits or ghosts as clusters of emotions of people who had passed.”
“Yes.”
It was a theory that Yakumo had repeatedly said.
“Because of this, they don’t have the ability to exert physical influence.”
Up until this point, Ishii understood what Yakumo was about to say.
“So, there weren't any spiritual phenomena here?”
“I never said that.”
“Eh?”
Ishii thought he had caught the flow of Yakumo’s explanation. But that one sentence instantly rendered him unable to predict the direction of the conversation.
“It’s just that there are a number of phenomena that can be explained scientifically,” Yakumo continued.
“Which phenomena?”
“In this apartment building, people have heard groaning sounds and some units have also experienced earthquake-like vibrations, right?”
“Yes.”
Ishii had felt it firsthand.
“The cause behind those phenomena was this—” said Yakumo as he knocked on the pipes.
“Eh?” Ishii blurted in surprise.
Haruka frowned in confusion as well.
Unlike the rest, Makoto had a different response. “So that was how it is,” she said, clapping her hands together.
“Throughout this case, I wasn’t able to see ghosts,” said Yakumo as he traced the bottom of his left eye with his finger.
“Yes.”
“I lost faith in the definition I had defined because of it. As a result, I was thrown off and couldn’t judge the authenticity of the spiritual phenomena.”
“S-so?” Ishii braced himself.
Yakumo turned to Makoto.
It seemed that he wanted Makoto to take over with the explanation. Makoto replied with a nod and said, “If Yakumo-kun’s theory was correct, putting the groaning sounds aside, it was impossible for them to cause the apartment units to vibrate.”
“Well, to put it that way, yes.”
“So, another possible cause could be these pipes.”
“W-what does that mean?”
“After some research, I discovered that most poltergeist phenomena had a physical cause, such as vibrations from pipes or problems in air ventilation flow.”
“So that’s the case for this apartment building as well?”
“Yes, most likely,” Makoto nodded in confidence.
However, Ishii still couldn’t accept it. “Well…if it’s an old building, perhaps it could be due to poor construction or something. This apartment building was built recently, though. Did they do a half-hearted job at it and somehow ended up causing the strange sounds and vibrations?”
“That’s true...”
“Not only that, based on information from Miyagawa-san, the phenomena didn’t occur for all of the apartment units,” Ishii briefly explained.
“I can easily answer Ishii-san’s question,” said Yakumo.
“Easily?”
“Yes. After inspecting these pipes, the construction wasn’t poor and there didn’t seem to be any specific issues with it. In that case, the problem lies not on this place, where the pipes originated, but rather on the branching pipes that go along the apartment units.”
“In other words, some of the units were constructed poorly?”
“Something like that,” Yakumo shrugged.
“But…how could such a thing be…?”
“Recall the story that Makoto-san heard from the apartment building’s construction worker.”
“Which one?” There was so much information, Ishii didn’t know which one Yakumo had meant.
“The construction worker informed her that the spiritual phenomena had occurred during the construction of the apartment building as well.”
“Ah!”
Ishii finally understood.
Out of fear towards the spiritual phenomena, the workers had done a poor job on some of the units so that the construction work could be completed faster.
It wasn’t like Ishii didn’t understand their feelings. It must have been difficult for them to focus on their work whilst being scared of the spiritual phenomena.
Ishii nearly accepted the explanation before realising a contradiction.
“So, the spiritual phenomena in this building was caused by the poorly constructed pipes?”
If that were the case, then what had the construction workers been afraid of?
“The phenomena thought to be the work of poltergeists weren’t the only thing that occurred here.”
“You’re saying...”
“There are two separate phenomena taking place here; the phenomenon caused by faulty construction, and the genuine spiritual phenomenon.”
“I-is that so?”
“Yes. Previously, I had assumed that the various phenomena occurred as a whole. Had I been able to see with my left eye, I wouldn’t have gotten confused over something like this…” Yakumo laughed at himself.
“So that’s how it is!” Ishii spontaneously clapped.
Roaring sounds and vibrations weren’t the only phenomena in this apartment building.
Some people had heard voices of children laughing, or even witnessed figures of them. Sayama had taken a ghost picture as well.
As it turned out, the phenomenon from the faulty construction had gotten mixed up with the actual spiritual phenomenon.
It was just as Yakumo had said, had his left eye been able to see, he would have easily differentiated the two phenomena.
Yakumo had been thrown off by his inability to make that distinction.
“In that case, the ghosts that are haunting this place...” said Ishii, now curious about that fact.
“As I said before, most likely the ghosts were of the children who died in the fire forty years ago,” mumbled Yakumo.
The weight of those words burdened Ishii’s shoulders.
The innocent children who had died because of the fire. Was there still a way to save them?
As Ishii turned the gears of his brain, Yakumo began walking further into the room.
“Where are you going?” asked Ishii.
“To see Nao,” said Yakumo without turning around.
What was he saying? There was no way that Nao could be here. Ishii had conducted a search. So then why?
Furthermore, Yakumo hadn’t said he was going to ‘find’, rather to ‘see’.
Almost like he was confident that Nao would be in this basement. Ishii wanted to ask more, but Yakumo continued walking.
Makoto and Haruka followed Yakumo.
Still confused, Ishii walked further as well, as if drawn by them.
Huh?
As he reached the side of the innermost wall, Ishii tilted his head.
Next to the control panel there was something covered in blue cloth. There shouldn’t have been such an object back when he had come here together with Miyagawa.
“So this really is the place—” mumbled Yakumo before he grabbed the cloth and pulled it away at once.
With a swishing sound, the cloth came off to unveil what was hidden underneath.
“What?!”
Underneath it had been a wooden chair with a little girl sitting on it.
Her head hung weakly, but based on her figure and the clothes she was wearing, there was no doubt that it was Nao.
“Nao-chan!” Haruka shouted, running towards her.
However, Yakumo quickly caught Haruka’s arm to stop her.
“Don’t get any closer to her yet!” Yakumo yelled.
“B-but...”
“Did you forget? Nao is still possessed by a ghost,” said Yakumo sharply, and everyone in the room held their breath.
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Makoto held her breath at the sight of Nao.
Yakumo was right. A ghost was possessing Nao. It would be dangerous to approach her carelessly.
While they were relieved at having found Nao, they couldn’t let their guard down yet. Rather, the finale was only getting started.
How was Yakumo planning to save Nao?
“Nao is possessed by the children who died forty years ago, right?” Makoto asked Yakumo.
“No,” denied Yakumo bluntly.
What’s the meaning of this?
Based on their investigation, the children who had died forty years ago had been haunting this apartment building, causing spiritual phenomena.
Hadn’t Nao gotten possessed by them and disappeared as a result?
“B-but, didn’t you say before that she was possessed by the children who died in the fire?” reminded Ishii.
Makoto also recalled that Yakumo had said so in the clubroom.
“I said that it was similar. More precisely, I said it was slightly different.”
Yakumo’s words made Makoto come to a realisation.
Indeed, Yakumo had answered Haruka’s question ambiguously back then.
So, the ghost of the children who died in the fire and the ghost possessing Nao were different?
“Then, whose ghost is now possessing Nao-chan?” Makoto leaned over, desperate for an answer.
“Isn’t it obvious? It’s that man—” said Yakumo, covering his right eye with one hand and looking at Nao solely with his red left eye.
“That man?”
“My father, the man with two red eyes.”
“What!?”
Makoto wasn’t the only one who exclaimed in surprise. Ishii and Haruka covered their mouths with their hands, and their eyes grew wide like they were about to pop out.
“H-how could that be...” said Makoto with a shaky voice.
Yakumo nodded slightly before saying, “Remember the incident at Togakushi?”
“Yes.”
Makoto hadn’t been involved directly with that case, but she had heard about it.
During the case in Nagano, Yakumo and the others had uncovered the past of the man with red eyes. A terrifying past that made Makoto want to close her eyes.
The boy with red eyes and his mother had been stranded in Togakushi, Nagano prefecture.
Because of his red eyes, the mother and child had been shunned by the villagers. The boy with red eyes—Unkai—had suffered from a condition called stratum corneum that had resembled a horn on his forehead, and it had made matters worse for them.
The people of the village had banished them not as humans, but as demons. Eventually, Unkai’s mother had been killed in front of his eyes and only he alone had survived.
“Since losing his mother in Togakushi, he became alone and homeless, so he had to live constantly moving from place to place,” Yakumo explained calmly, but Makoto sensed there was indescribable anger underneath that facade.
“Afterwards, he arrived in this neighbourhood and was rescued.”
Yakumo’s gaze dropped onto his feet and he fell silent for a moment.
But it wasn’t long after before he lifted his head and continued, “And then, he was taken into the Michishirube orphanage—”
“R-really?” Makoto shouted in surprise.
“Hold on. The man’s name wasn’t in the list of children registered in the orphanage,” argued Ishii.
“He had a different name. When he was rescued, he didn’t say his name. So he was named by the serving mayor of that time. His name back then was Akira,” said Yakumo.
Ishii drew his breath in astonishment. “B-but, how do you know that the person called Akira was the man with red eyes?” he asked.
“Fairly simple. The list of names also recorded how those children came into the orphanage. I was able to hazard a guess from there.”
“Don’t tell me that person also died in the fire forty years ago?” asked Haruka.
Yakumo laughed bitterly and shook his head. “No. If that were the case, I wouldn’t have been born.”
“T-that’s true...”
“Anyway, he lived in Michishirube afterwards. Until the fire incident happened—” said Yakumo with sorrow in his eyes.
“Yakumo-kun...” called Haruka out of concern, but Yakumo didn’t seem to hear her.
“The fire forty years ago wasn’t caused by children playing with fire,” Yakumo continued.
“What was the cause?” asked Ishii.
“Someone wanted to acquire this plot of land to build a shopping mall.”
“Nanase Kanji...” said Makoto in horror.
Nanase Kanji was the father of Nanase Miyuki, the murderer who was currently a fugitive.
Ishii and Haruka couldn’t hide their surprise at the mention of that name. Makoto had gotten the chills upon seeing that name in the document from Yamashina as well.
Things that had used to be ambiguous to her became crystal clear in her eyes.
“W-what does that mean? Why that name…?” asked Ishii, his voice clearly shaken.
“Nanase Kanji’s wife was the manager of the orphanage and older sister of Hirosawa Shozo, who owned this land.” said Makoto, further eliciting Ishii’s surprised face.
“That’s...”
“From here on, some details are my own assumptions,” said Yakumo, stepping forward once. “After being informed of the plans to build a shopping mall on this land, Shozo-san never intended to sell the land. The real estate company then consulted Nanase Kanji on this, and for the sake of a decent monetary reward, he repeatedly tried to convince Shozo-san. But it was to no avail. Shozo-san refused to take away the place the orphaned children had called home.”
“D-don’t tell me...” said Ishii, guessing something from Yakumo’s explanation. He had likely reached the same conclusion as Makoto.
“At first, Nanase Kanji spread a rumour of abuse taking place at the orphanage. Despite that, Shozo-san continued to insist on not selling the land. Then came the series of disturbances, such as the building being vandalised and being thrown stones at, yet Shozo-san still refused to agree. That’s why—”
Yakumo cut off his sentence and stared at the concrete ceiling.
He was hesitant to spell out the continuation. It was to be expected. What had happened next was far too devoid of humanity, it would send a chill across anyone’s spine.
“Nanase Kanji set Michishirube on fire. He thought that would make them abandon the place,” said Yakumo calmly. His voice echoed over the concrete walls.
“S-so he took the lives of ten children for such a reason?” said Ishii out loud.
“How cruel...” Haruka placed her hand on her chest as if in pain.
Makoto’s feelings were also deeply shaken as she heard it reiterated like this. The act had been truly inhumane.
“Even after all that, Shozo-san never thought about letting go of the land. He worked hard to reopen Michishirube once again. But...”
“What happened?” asked Haruka, her voice trembling.
“Nanase Kanji thought of killing Shozo-san.”
“So, his suicide was...”
“Yes. Most likely, Nanase Kanji had killed him. Afterwards, he persuaded Kazue-san, who was mentally exhausted by then, to give up the land. As a result, not only did he receive the monetary reward, he also received the money gained from selling the land.”
Not a single person responded. No, rather, they were unable to.
A long silence filled the room surrounded by cold hard concrete.
“To go as far as killing Shozo-san...” said Haruka, choking on her words with a voice on the verge of crying.
“No. There are more victims,” Yakumo shook his head.
“Eh?”
“The children from Michishirube were transferred to other orphanages. That man was no exception—”
Makoto’s chest ached upon hearing Yakumo’s words. Now, Yakumo was about to describe the cruel reality that followed, like pouring salt on a wound.
“He was transferred to Kazaoto orphanage. What happened there? Makoto-san, please tell us.” Yakumo turned to Makoto with a sorrowful gaze.
I don’t want to.
Although her heart said so, Makoto had to do it.
“The child abuse at Kazaoto orphanage was brought to light and the orphanage closed down afterwards.”
Even without hearing the details, Ishii and Haruka looked pained upon realising the heavy nature of this story.
Makoto struggled to find her words at the thought that this had been the life story of the man with red eyes.
“The orphanage staff that had led the abuse eventually died one by one. Those were most likely his doing,” said Yakumo with a sigh.
Had the man with red eyes really caused all of their deaths as Yakumo said, his actions would be unforgivable.
That didn’t mean Makoto couldn’t understand the reason why the man with red eyes hated them to that extent.
“D-don’t tell me he was also involved in the Nanase family massacre for the same reason?” said Ishii, sweat dripping across his forehead.
“I think so,” answered Yakumo.
Ishii couldn’t comment anymore and simply closed his eyes.
While difficult to believe, Makoto had the same opinion as Yakumo.
Sixteen years ago, there had been a massacre of a family of four, including Nanase Kanji.
The person who killed them directly had been Nanase Miyuki, who had been ten years old back then. However, she had been provoked by the man with red eyes.
The man with red eyes hadn’t acted without thinking, but rather with a clear goal in mind.
While his actions were unforgivable, there had been another reason behind those actions. He wasn’t just any regular serial killer. What he had done was vengeance.
Perhaps such a person had also been born out of human greed, their tendencies to vent out anger through ways that are flawed, or even their erasure of those different from oneself for the sake of self-defence—waves of emotions that could come from just about anyone.
The man with red eyes hadn’t been anyone exceptional at the start. Instead, he had been transformed into something exceptional through the actions of others.
Makoto’s feelings became unbearable at that thought.
“You heard us, right? I think it’s about time that you wake up,” said Yakumo, turning to Nao.
As if she had been waiting for those words, Nao slowly lifted her face.
Nao’s eyes, which used to be filled with gentle light, had turned glum. They gleamed with anger and hatred.
“Even though my left eyesight finally recovered, the first thing I saw ended up being you—” said Yakumo, talking to himself.
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“Yakumo-kun...” said Haruka reflexively.
His words just now...could Yakumo see through his left eye now?
Noticing her intentions, Yakumo briefly glanced at Haruka and nodded.
So his left eye really could see again. After knowing the fact, the light that had once vanished from Yakumo’s red eye appeared as if it had returned once again.
“W-what are you saying?” asked Ishii, his voice stuck on his throat.
“As I said earlier, the ghost possessing Nao is that man—” answered Yakumo.
“That man…as in the man with two red eyes?” said Ishii to confirm, and Yakumo responded with a nod.
“Eeek!” Ishii instantly jumped in horror.
His reaction was a little excessive, but Haruka could understand how he felt. All this time, Yakumo’s father—the man with two red eyes—had been the cause behind countless cases.
Although he had died and only his soul had remained, he continued to manipulate others and led them to destruction.
Such actions simply couldn’t be described solely as ‘horrifying‘.
“B-but, why is he possessing Nao-chan?” Makoto asked the burning question.
Haruka had the same thought in mind.
Why did the man with red eyes possess Nao?
“From the beginning, his target wasn’t Nao,” said Yakumo, narrowing his gaze.
His eyes looked sad.
“What do you mean?” asked Makoto.
“Don’t you understand? He’s already dead. Yet after becoming a ghost, his desire to live grew even stronger,” said Yakumo lightly.
“Why go that far…?” Haruka asked the question that popped in her mind.
“I’ve explained the story of the man’s life just now, right?”
“Yes.”
Moments earlier, Yakumo had revealed a portion of the man’s past. His mother had been killed in front of him and he had to live homeless from one place to another.
He had been in the care of Michishirube orphanage for some time, but the orphanage had burned down from the actions of some greedy people, killing ten of his friends. Furthermore, Shozo-san, the orphanage headmaster, had become a victim of murder that had been made to appear like a suicide.
The tragedy that had befallen the man with red eyes didn’t end there. He had been abused in the orphanage he had been transferred into.
Just what kind of feelings had he been living with whilst going through such a cruel reality?
Everything the man with red eyes had done was impossible to forgive. Regardless, if she were asked if it was entirely his fault, Haruka had trouble finding the answer.
It had been the injustice surrounding him that had driven the man with red eyes to insanity.
“His mother was killed before his eyes, Shozo-san whom he cared for was killed as well—”
“Don’t tell me he witnessed Shozo-san’s murder as well?”
“There’s no proof, but based on his actions after that incident, I think we can assume so.“
“...”
Yakumo was right.
Afterwards, the man with red eyes had taken his revenge at Nanase Kanji. He had done so precisely because he had known the truth.
“From his experience, he came to believe that darkness is the true nature of humans, and his desire to live extended past reasonable lengths.”
“Because he saw people die before his eyes?”
“I believe so. The deaths of one’s closest people often left a significant impression. Especially if the deaths weren’t natural. His view of life and death became horribly distorted.”
“...”
Haruka held her breath.
She understood what Yakumo was saying. Haruka herself had gotten a lasting wound in her heart after her older sister, Ayaka, died when they were children.
It had greatly affected how she viewed life and death.
“Yet somehow, the man died. The cause remains unknown, but I believe he’s been dead for several years.”
How did the man with red eyes die?
There were a couple of things left unanswered, but now wasn’t the time to think about them. Instead—
“Then, why is he possessing Nao-chan?” asked Haruka.
Yakumo narrowed his eyes and looked into the distance.
Haruka’s heart shook.
Why were Yakumo’s eyes like that? They were as if he had given up on everything.
“That man wanted life. He attempts to continue on living by taking over other people’s bodies. And the target he chose was someone who inherited his DNA, who shares the same red eye and has the ability to see ghosts—me.”
That’s right.
The man with red eyes’—Unkai’s—goal was to take over Yakumo’s body. However, in order to have complete control over his body, he had to align Yakumo’s mental state with his. He had to pull Yakumo over to his side, or else there would be a rejection reaction.
Because of this, Unkai caused countless new cases in his efforts to hurt Yakumo.
All so that he could corner Yakumo into despair so that his body would be easy to take over. Isshin’s case had been a prime example of this.
Yakumo had managed to pull through all of them thanks to the resilience of his mental state.
But what about now?
Yakumo had been acting strangely ever since he had talked to Kazue. As if he felt hopeless against the cruelty of this world.
Besides, just now his eyes looked empty, like he had given up on everything—
Suddenly, Yakumo’s words back at the Movie Research Circle clubroom resurfaced in Haruka’s mind.
At the time, Yakumo had asked Ishii and the rest to tie him up as soon as Nao was safe. What was the meaning behind that request?
“I suppose that man wanted to show me, just what kind of life he had lived—”
“That’s...”
“Yes. He wanted my mental state to come close to his by doing so. To make me easier to possess.”
So that was how it was. That was why Yakumo had gone to meet Kazue alone. Haruka understood now.
Yakumo had to have asked about Unkai’s life at the orphanage to Kazue. To confront the man with red eyes—his father—Yakumo had gone by himself to hear a piece of his past.
But you’re fine, right, Yakumo-kun? Haruka hoped within her heart.
Unfortunately, her hopes were rendered pointless as what Yakumo said next shattered her heart.
“To be honest, I don’t know anymore. Which is right, and which is wrong. Saying sugar coated words like there’s always hope and the like, those are merely delusional fantasies.”
“Yakumo-kun, what are you saying?” interrupted Haruka.
Her voice didn’t seem to reach him as Yakumo continued without skipping a beat, “No matter how much one puts up resistance, the cruel reality will eventually consume those who are weak. In the end, perhaps that is the true form of human life—”
Yakumo turned towards Nao—no, towards the man with two red eyes. His eyes trembled as if he was going to disappear in that instant.
“Yakumo-kun, please don’t think of anything strange,” said Haruka, but Yakumo didn’t give any reply.
He simply stared intently at Nao.
Nao’s expression, which had been blank the whole time, suddenly moved. It was clearly different from her typical gentle smile. She smiled cynically, as if mocking others.
“You finally understood—”
At first Haruka thought it was Nao speaking, but she was wrong. It was the voice of a man. Besides, Nao’s hearing was impaired, and it affected her ability to speak.
The voice must belong to the man with two red eyes, who was possessing Nao. As further proof, a shadow appeared to float behind Nao.
The shadow soon took the form of that man—the man with two red eyes.
“Yes,” Yakumo nodded.
“Surely now you understand the meaning behind my words back then. Humanity’s true character is darkness. Everyone cares only for themselves. They will not hesitate to endanger others for their own sake. Even love is nothing but a way to satiate one’s desire.”
“Perhaps that is so...” Yakumo replied weakly.
He appeared to be swallowed by pressure from the man with two red eyes.
“Humans are helpless in the face of darkness.”
“I don’t deny that.”
“You’re helpless yourself. There’s nothing you can do even though you want to save this child.”
The man’s laugh reverberated across the room.
It was irritating to admit, but perhaps the man with two red eyes was right. This entire time, when Yakumo had helped all those people who had gotten possessed, he’d find the cause behind the ghosts’ lingering attachment before resolving that cause.
In other words, he had pleaded for them to leave.
But the man with two red eyes wouldn’t respond to such pleas. He’d continue to inhabit that body until Nao died.
“No, there’s another way.”
“What?”
“There’s only one way to save Nao,” mumbled Yakumo.
Haruka immediately figured out what Yakumo was about to do next. Perhaps Yakumo was about to—
“I won’t allow it!” shouted Haruka.
However, Yakumo didn’t respond.
“It’s my body you wanted, right? Then be my guest,” said Yakumo as he spread out both of his arms.
“Stop it!”
There’s no way I’ll allow it!
In order to save Nao, Yakumo intended to transfer the soul of the man with two red eyes possessing Nao into his own body.
“Please! Stop this!”
“DON’T COME ANY CLOSER! THIS IS OUR ONLY WAY TO SAVE NAO!” yelled Yakumo with a voice so loud unlike anything he had ever done before.
The pressure was indescribable. But if that was enough to scare Haruka, she wouldn’t be able to stay by Yakumo’s side.
If the ghost possessing Nao had really been the man with two red eyes, he wouldn’t answer to any of their pleas to leave Nao’s body peacefully.
If they left the situation as it is, Nao would grow weaker or worse, she would pass away.
Indeed, there was no other way to drag the man with two red eyes out of Nao’s body other than this. But at this rate, Yakumo would—
“Didn’t you tell me not to worry?” yelled Haruka again.
Haruka felt her worst fears would come true if she were to cry right here. She had been keeping herself together, but now her tears fell down on their own.
“Sorry. That was a lie—” Yakumo looked at Haruka with saddened eyes.
“A lie…?”
“You’re a signpost to me. So please stay right there—” said Yakumo, forming a smile on his face.
All of a sudden, Haruka was able to see through everything. That was it. So that was how it was—
If that were the case, what she could do now was stay right here as she always had. She would always be where she was so that Yakumo could return from any kind of darkness.
Haruka held the red stone on her necklace with both hands and prayed.
Yakumo appeared satisfied at the sight of it and nodded.
That’s right. Yakumo wouldn’t lie.
“Now. If you want to do it, hurry up,” said Yakumo, challenging Nao.
“No. Once this child dies, only then I’ll slowly take over your body,” said the man with two red eyes with a smile.
“I won’t allow it. If you refuse to leave Nao’s body—” said Yakumo as he reached into his pocket, before taking out a folding knife and aiming it at his own neck.
Yakumo threatened that if the man with two red eyes wouldn’t leave Nao’s body, then he would kill himself—
The man with two red eyes wanted Yakumo’s body while he was still alive. If Yakumo were to die, then it would be pointless.
This was Yakumo’s last resort strategy.
“Stop with your games. You’ll never be able to kill yourself,” said the man, narrowing his two red eyes.
“Oh yeah? Shall we give it a try?” Yakumo responded with a sharp gaze of his own at the man with two red eyes.
His eyes weren’t fooling around. He was completely serious about this. So it was true, Yakumo had fully prepared himself to die as he arrived at this place.
No one dared to make a sound.
Unbearable silence filled the entire room.
Amidst the tension that rendered it difficult to breathe, Haruka struggled to stand in her place.
She wanted to save Yakumo. But if she weren’t careful, the knife at Yakumo’s neck could slice through his artery. 
What should I do?
Time passed before the man with red eyes asked, “Why would you go that far?”
“Don’t you understand? Because I have people I need to protect even if it means putting my life on the line.”
“You’re saying it was an act of love?”
“No. To put it in your words, this is my greed. My greed for not wanting Nao to die...”
“That greed gave birth to darkness.”
“I know that without you telling me.”
“Did you invite that darkness yourself?”
“What are you saying? You were the one who said humanity’s true character is darkness. If so, then any human would possess that darkness from the start.”
“Now you understand that fact?”
“Cut the small talk. What will you do? Are you going to stand back and watch? Or will you leave Nao’s body for mine?” said Yakumo as he applied pressure using the hand that held the knife.
Droplets of red blood spilled from his pale neck.
“Your body is mine—” said the man with two red eyes, exiting Nao’s body in an instant before leaping  towards Yakumo.
Nao lost consciousness soon after and her head hung listlessly.
“Aagh!” Yakumo screamed and held his head, one knee dropping against the floor.
“Yakumo-shi!” yelled Ishii, running to approach him before stopping on his tracks.
Yakumo’s body trembled as he growled in agony.
Cold sweat formed on his forehead.
“Yakumo-kun, hang in there,” called Haruka, but Yakumo didn’t answer and fell towards the ground in pain.
His body began to spasm as if throwing a fit.
“Yakumo-kun...”
Yakumo screamed, drowning the sound of Haruka’s voice.
A scream akin to that of a howling beast.
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He’s being devoured.
That was what Ishii thought upon hearing the sound of Yakumo’s beast-like howl.
Yakumo’s soul must have had been overtaken completely by the man with two red eyes. Otherwise he wouldn’t let out such a horrifying scream.
Ishii could only stand in place.
For the sake of saving Nao, Yakumo had been willing to give up his body to the man with two red eyes. He must have had predicted this situation from the start.
Hence the reason why back when they had gathered in Yakumo’s room, he had requested for them to tie him up.
He had wanted to save Nao whilst entrapping the soul of the man with red eyes within him at the same time.
The man with red eyes might be a ghost, but he had manipulated the feelings of many through his words, encouraging them to commit crimes.
As a police officer, forget prosecuting him for his actions, Ishii couldn’t even apprehend him or prevent his movements.
Even so, if Yakumo were to seal that man within his body, then at least they would be able to catch him.
Obviously, Yakumo had never committed any crimes so they couldn’t send him into prison, but perhaps they could isolate him in a facility and keep him confined there.
For him to had made such a request, Yakumo must have thought that far ahead.
However, that would be the same as shouldering all the crimes committed by the man with red eyes all by himself. Like Jesus Christ shouldering all of humankind’s sins—
Haruka might find such an ending unacceptable, but they had no other choice.
As if Ishii could accept it either.
It was simply that if they were to let the man with red eyes go, then Yakumo’s efforts would be in vain. He had to make sure that wouldn’t happen.
He felt that was the only thing he could do to repay Yakumo’s fearless act.
Ishii reached for his handcuffs, firmed his resolve, and walked towards Yakumo.
Strange. Each time he stepped closer to Yakumo, his vision kept getting distorted.
What is this?
Ishii touched his eyes and his tears overflowed.
It wasn’t as if Ishii liked everything about Yakumo. He never trusted Yakumo the way Haruka did and he didn’t depend on him like he depended on Gotou.
Despite that—Yakumo was still a friend.
No, perhaps family was the better word. They might have only crossed paths whenever a case turned up, but Yakumo was an irreplaceable existence to Ishii.
Ishii was once again reminded of that fact.
Right as Ishii was about to handcuff Yakumo, Yakumo suddenly stood up. His cold gaze pierced through Ishii. The pressure was so intense, Ishii froze in place as he held his breath. Almost like a frog being glared at by a snake.
“Did you really think you could catch me that easily? I’m going to kill all of you—”
Yakumo’s voice echoed throughout the room.
No, the words might have come out of Yakumo’s mouth, but the man with red eyes must have been the one who had made him say those things.
“E-Eeek!” Ishii shrieked, jumping backwards instinctively.
He tripped on something and fell sitting down. He immediately tried to get up, but Yakumo was already in front of his eyes.
This is bad. I’m going to get killed.
Ishii shut his eyes tightly as he held his head.
He knew that such an act wouldn’t save him, yet he still acted so in reflex.
“Just kidding—” said Yakumo.
His voice was clearly different from before. The intonation sounded like he was fooling around.
“Eh?”
Ishii hesitantly opened his eyes and saw Yakumo standing there with a thin smile.
“Sorry. I was just messing with you guys a little. I’m fine,” said Yakumo nonchalantly.
Finally, Ishii grasped the situation.
“Idiot!” Haruka shouted as she approached Yakumo, landing a punch onto his shoulder.
Ishii normally would’ve tried to intervene, but right now he had no intention of doing so. Rather, he thought it would’ve been better if that punch was directed at Yakumo’s face instead.
Yakumo wasn’t the type to joke about these kinds of things. So Ishii had bought it entirely. And yet—
“Yakumo-shi, you’re not possessed?” asked Ishii.
“I have a signpost, so I’ll always return from the darkness no matter what,” said Yakumo, turning to Haruka with a smile.
A signpost. So that was how it was.
Ishii understood now.
The words Yakumo had said to Haruka back then. The meaning behind his words must have been ‘no need to worry’. Haruka had been able to read it and trusted Yakumo.
That was why earlier, Haruka hadn’t tried to stop Yakumo and continued to pray.
The strength of their feelings toward each other impressed Ishii, but he suddenly felt something was off.
Why would Yakumo decide to do something like this?
“Wasn’t your joke taking it too far?” said Makoto, clearly displeased by Yakumo’s actions.
“Sorry. I thought that I had to do a little bit of acting in order to trick that man,” Yakumo laughed bitterly.
“Acting…?” Ishii tilted his head.
“If I didn’t show that my mental state was weakening, that man would’ve refused to leave Nao’s body. Besides, I doubt that he would’ve accepted my offer if I didn’t take it that far.”
“Oh...” blurted Ishii, accepting Yakumo’s explanation.
The man with two red eyes wanted to take over Yakumo’s body. He didn’t know the details, but for him to take over his body completely, apparently their mental states had to align.
In other words, Yakumo had baited the man with red eyes to possess him by pretending that his mental state had weakened. Furthermore, he had used the suicide act as a tactic to push the man into taking action.
Even so, Yakumo’s eyes back then didn’t look like he had been acting. Perhaps at that time, he had really been prepared to die.
“If that were the case, why didn’t you inform us earlier? You were acting strangely, so we got worried...” interrupted Makoto.
She was right. A plan like this could’ve been shared with them in advance.
It must’ve been difficult for Haruka as well, although she trusted Yakumo in the end.
“Ishii-san, Makoto-san, could both of you check your right shoes?” said Yakumo.
Why did they have to check their shoes in this situation? His words didn’t answer Makoto’s question, either.
Ishii grew dumbfounded and exchanged glances with Makoto.
Yakumo urged them, “Don’t think about it, just check it out first. You’ll understand afterwards.”
With no other choice, Ishii took off his right shoe. But for what exactly? Ishii tilted his head in confusion.
Yakumo then said, “The heel part.”
As he examined the heel as pointed out by Yakumo, Ishii’s eyes went wide.
Embedded there was a small pin-like object. The same object that was also embedded onto the heel of Makoto’s shoe.
Ishii had seen this object before.
“D-don’t tell me this is a listening bug?” asked Ishii.
Yakumo snapped his fingers. “Correct.”
“W-why would there be a bug…?”
“To check just how much I had weakened by listening to my voice through the bug.”
Yakumo must have known about it earlier, so he had continued acting weak in front of Ishii and Makoto.
But in that case—
“Who could’ve done it? And since when...”
Ishii had no idea when that bug could’ve been planted on his shoe. Makoto seemed to feel the same. She was left aghast.
“That question relates to the question of why Nao could get here...” said Yakumo, ruffling his already dishevelled hair.
“So why? Even though Miyagawa-san and I had checked through this place earlier...”
“Simple. Nao wasn’t just here the entire time. Someone had been relocating her.”
“R-relocating?”
“Yes. The culprit estimated the right timing to relocate Nao to this place.”
No wonder why they hadn’t been able to find her despite searching everywhere.
Ishii realised that now, but one question still remained.
“But who did it?”
“You still don’t understand, Ishii-san? The same person who planted the listening bug on you and Makoto-san’s shoes.”
After listening to Yakumo’s explanation this far, one face flashed into Ishii’s mind. His back shivered in an instant.
“D-don’t tell me…Nanase Miyuki?”
“That’s right.”
The person who had answered Ishii’s question hadn’t been Yakumo.
The voice had originated from right behind him. However, due to the cold touch of the knife on his neck, he couldn’t turn around to confirm.
“Nice meeting you again, Ishii-san.”
There was no mistaking the person whispering into Ishii’s ear. It was Nanase Miyuki herself—
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“Ishii-san!” yelled Makoto, but she couldn’t step in to help as a long-haired woman pointed a knife at Ishii’s neck from behind.
“So it’s really you—Nanase Miyuki-san,” said Yakumo calmly, unlike Makoto who had begun to panic.
“Eh?” Haruka exclaimed.
Makoto felt the same way. Was the woman in front of her eyes really Nanase Miyuki?
Her stature might be similar and she was indeed missing her left hand. Yet her face was clearly different from what they had seen during previous cases.
Her eyes, nose, mouth, and overall face had a more rounded look; she appeared younger than the Nanase Miyuki that Makoto had known. Beside that, half of her face should have been covered by keloid burn scars, but it was nowhere to be seen.
“Is she really Nanase Miyuki-san?” asked Makoto.
Yakumo nodded. “We can tell from her voice.”
As Yakumo said, her voice was unmistakably Nanase Miyuki’s. Having thought that far, Makoto then understood.
“Plastic surgery?”
“Yes.”
So it was true.
Nanase Miyuki had done plastic surgery countless times up until now. As it had turned out, this time around she too had managed to evade police investigation by altering her face.
“You speak as if you’ve known that I was going to come,” said Nanase Miyuki, glaring at Yakumo with a gaze full of hatred.
“Yes, I know.”
“Why’d you think so?” Miyuki asked challengingly.
“Simple enough. This case began so that man could take over my body. With this knowledge, it’s not hard to conclude that you had to be moving behind the scenes as well.”
There was no anger nor contempt within Yakumo’s eyes as he returned Miyuki’s gaze.
Yakumo’s eyes looked as if he pitied the woman.
“Acting tough.”
“Wrong. Here is the proof.” Yakumo took out a piece of photo from his pocket and brought it up.
Makoto had seen that photo before. It was the photo that had been displayed in a frame in Sayama’s  apartment. The photo of a woman standing at the edge of a lake.
When Makoto had asked him whether that woman was his lover, Sayama had laughed shyly.
“This was you, right?” said Yakumo calmly.
The photo of the woman had been captured from afar, but when pointed out, the woman before her eyes—Nanase Miyuki—did appear similar to the woman in the photo.
In other words, unknowingly, Sayama had gotten into a relationship with Nanase Miyuki and had lived together with her.
“Oh? I got found out?” Nanase Miyuki jokingly replied.
Yakumo spontaneously laughed in disbelief. “Are you kidding? You’re a meticulous person, it was impossible for you to leave something like this in the apartment unintentionally.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I’m saying that you left this photo behind in the apartment on purpose so that I would see it.”
“And why would I do such a thing?”
Makoto questioned the same thing as Nanase Miyuki. There was no explanation for her having gone as far as getting plastic surgery after escaping, only to purposely leave evidence of her presence behind.
“Your plan was to make me look into that man’s life. Both of you intended for it to affect me mentally in order to create a situation that makes it easier for him to take over my body,” said Yakumo, glancing towards a corner.
While faint, Makoto could also see the figure of the man with red eyes standing there.
“So what if so?”
“To put it simply, you had to somehow make me realise that the two of you were behind this case—isn’t that right?”
So that was how it was.
Makoto finally understood as well. For Yakumo to begin investigating the life of the man with red eyes, they first had to reveal their involvement.
“More or less so. Well done…should I say?”
“Yet such a cowardly move only backfired to put you at a disadvantage.”
“What do you mean?”
“I realised more things than you intended after seeing this photo,”
“What are you saying?”
“About the listening bug planted onto Ishii-san and Makoto-san—” said Yakumo, to Makoto’s surprise.
“When exactly did the bug get planted?” asked Makoto.
Yakumo grinned. “Ishii-san and Makoto-san have visited Sayama-san’s apartment before, right? Both of you must have taken off your shoes at the entrance.”
“Ah!”
So that was when—Makoto then understood.
When they had entered the apartment before, it was only natural that they had to take off their shoes. The bug must have been planted as Makoto and Ishii had been talking to Sayama in the apartment.
Having mentioned that, Yakumo had told them before to rub off their shoe soles [1]. Perhaps he had realised the bug’s existence by then.
An amazing display of analytical skill.
Amidst the investigation, Yakumo had requested Makoto to find out the identity of Sayama’s lover.
At the time, he had asked Makoto to show a photo of Nanase Miyuki to the person who knew the face of Sayama’s lover. As the outcome, Shigemori had said that they hadn’t been the same person. However, Yakumo’s intentions had never been to confirm that fact.
He had known that Nanase Miyuki had had plastic surgery done and had a different appearance, so using the bug implanted on Makoto, he had intended to indirectly notify her that he had been investigating the man with red eyes’ past, before pretending to have a weakened mental state in order to bait them into coming here.
As Makoto was impressed by how fast Yakumo’s line of thinking worked, she felt a horrifying feeling. A thought appeared in her mind.
“D-don’t tell me, the person who killed Sayama-san was…”
“Yes. It was her,” said Yakumo as he stared at Nanase Miyuki.
“W-why would she do that…?”
“Recall Sayama-san’s final words once again. You’ll find the answer from there,” said Yakumo, as Makoto began to think.
That’s right.
Sayama had said, why did he not realise after all this time. Perhaps he had realised by then that his lover had been the fugitive murderer, Nanase Miyuki.
Afterwards, he had mentioned that it hadn’t been a spiritual phenomenon or anything of the sort. Those words hadn’t been because he had doubted the occurrence of the spiritual phenomena, but rather because he had become distrustful of all the phenomena that had happened thus far upon realising Nanase Miyuki’s presence.
Yakumo nodded as if he had known that Makoto had understood everything now.
“Thanks to that, I was able to make use of your own cowardly methods,” said Yakumo.
Nanase Miyuki grimaced. “So, you think you’ve won?” she said challengingly.
“As a matter of fact, that man failed to take over my body.”
“You really are full of yourself. Why do you think I am here?”
“Because you are foolish.”
“Wrong. Because there are still other ways to push you to the edge of despair.”
“What are you trying to say?”
“Do you still not understand? You’re unexpectedly oblivious. Why do you think he’s still here even though the plan didn’t work out?”
As if responding to Nanase Miyuki’s words, the man with red eyes stepped closer.
“Would you still be fine once I’ve killed every single person that mattered to you right here?”
Nanase Miyuki’s words made Makoto shiver.
Her plan was clear as day. If she were to kill everyone in this room, Yakumo would surely lose his sanity.
And Ishi was about to be the first to fall victim.
Calmly and gradually, Nanase Miyuki applied pressure to the knife at Ishii’s neck.
“Please! Stop this!” yelled Makoto.
“Makoto-san! Don’t come closer!” Ishii stopped Makoto who was about to run towards him.
Usually, Ishii would’ve screamed and cried by now, but right now Ishii’s eyes emanated a powerful light that Makoto had never seen before.
“I-Ishii-san...”
“Now it’s my turn to save you,” said Ishii, a faint smile forming on his face.
Judging from his expression alone, Makoto could tell what he was about to do. Ishii intended to stall Nanase Miyuki by sacrificing himself.
“No! If you were gone, I...” said Makoto as she began tearing up. She felt it was better for her to be the one sacrificing herself rather than Ishii having to die. Without realising, her feelings towards Ishii had grown to such an extent.
“Farewell, Makoto-san—”
Ishii’s voice reverberated hollowly within Makoto’s chest.
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Ishii firmed his resolve—
Frankly, he was scared. Yet if he didn’t act, Nanase Miyuki would surely kill everyone in this room as she had declared.
His feelings of not wanting Makoto and Haruka to get killed overpowered his own fears.
Strange. All this time whenever his life had been put on the line, he had only been able to cower and prepare to run away. Yet right now, he was mustering all his courage to act.
He even thought that it was fine if he were to die here. And the one who had changed him was Makoto.
Ishii had thought that he could only have gotten this far by chasing after Gotou’s back. But he had been mistaken.
Ishii could reach this point because Makoto had always been watching him. Thanks to Makoto, little by little Ishii began to like himself, whom he had used to hate.
That was why—
As Ishii made up his mind to confront Nanase Miyuki, a blunt thud was heard.
The knife on his neck went away as he felt Nanase Miyuki, who had been standing behind him, collapse and fall.
What just happened?
Ishii turned and his eyes were greeted by an unbelievable sight.
“D-Detective Gotou!”
Gotou stood before him.
He looked pitiful with the bandages all over his body and the crutch he was using. But he was unmistakably Gotou.
Miyagawa was there as well, supporting Gotou who was on the verge of collapsing.
“What are you doing just standing there? Handcuff this woman immediately!” scolded Gotou.
“Y-yes!” answered Ishii, who hurriedly handcuffed Nanase Miyuki against the nearest pipe.
At last, they managed to catch Nanase Miyuki.
As Ishii felt relieved over the fact, Gotou walked towards Nao with staggering steps.
“Nao...” Gotou called for Nao, who remained sitting on the chair.
But there was no response from Nao.
“Don’t worry. She was slightly weakened, but she should recover soon,” said Yakumo.
Gotou then hugged Nao in a loving embrace.
The corners of Ishii’s eye began welling up at the scene.
However—
“How did Detective Gotou get here?” asked Ishii.
“Gotou-san was furious, saying that he wouldn’t be satisfied if he didn’t get to beat up the person behind all of this. So I requested Miyagawa-san to bring him here,” answered Yakumo.
Certainly, Gotou couldn’t forgive the person who had done all of this. True to his word, he really had beaten Nanase Miyuki until she passed out.
Even so, the real reason Gotou had forced his badly injured body to come over must have been that he had wanted to hug Nao with his own hands.
Having known that intention, Miyagawa had agreed to bring Gotou here.
“Goodness. To think all of you could force me to do something like this...” Miyagawa grumbled, scratching his head.
As opposed to his manner of speaking, tears also welled up slightly around Miyagawa’s eyes. Miyagawa had also worked hard for Gotou and Nao’s sake. The scene must have moved him as well.
Lost in his train of thought, something suddenly bumped onto Ishii’s body.
Ishii nearly fell due to the abruptness.
It was Makoto—
She had jumped towards Ishii and hugged him.
“M-Makoto-san...”
“Seriously. Please stop it. I won’t forgive you the next time you value yourself so little once again,” said Makoto, burying her face onto Ishii’s chest.
Her voice was trembling and weak; a voice that was unheard of coming from a woman who was normally cold headed.
Ishii couldn’t see her face, but Makoto seemed to be crying. His chest felt slightly damp.
Makoto’s quivering body looked adorable.
Following his instincts, Ishii was about to hug Makoto—but a punch landed on top of his head at the next instant.
“What are you two doing, getting all lovey-dovey! I can’t stand looking at it!” yelled Miyagawa, returning Ishi to his senses.
He had nearly done something inappropriate, hugging a woman in front of so many people.
Furthermore, Makoto wouldn’t like it if he did it. Makoto was only crying like this out of relief after getting out of such an intense situation.
Otherwise, there was no way Makoto would have hugged Ishii.
“S-sorry,” apologised Ishii to Miyagawa, but he couldn’t force Makoto to let go and ended up standing still in place.
Either way, everything was all over at last—
Ishii’s chest filled with satisfaction.
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“So, it’s all over?” asked Haruka as she slowly walked to approach Yakumo.
For a moment, she had thought that everything was going to end badly. Her mind was still all over the place even now. Despite that, the most important thing was that everyone was safe and sound.
Yakumo had safely returned as well.
“No, not yet—” replied Yakumo with a serious expression. His eyes turned towards the man with red eyes, standing amidst darkness. Haruka’s body froze from anxiety.
As Nanase Miyuki had been captured, they had let their guard down, but the man with red eyes remained still with them in that space.
Everyone’s gaze soon focused on the man with red eyes, as if influenced by the atmosphere emanated by Yakumo.
“I’d like for you to meet with someone. Please—you can come in now,” said Yakumo.
The entrance door opened, and entering the room was Eishin, pushing a wheelchair.
A woman was sitting on the wheelchair. She must have been at least eighty years old. Her face might be wrinkled and her hair completely white, but the woman’s eyes radiated her strong willpower.
As soon as the woman entered the room, the air began to shake.
“You recognize her, don’t you? She’s Hirosawa Kazue,” said Yakumo to the man with red eyes.
So this woman is her.
Although Haruka had followed along to the Institute of Elderly Welfare, Yakumo had entered the building by himself, so this was the first time she had seen Kazue’s face.
The woman who had managed the Michishirube orphanage with her husband, Shozo. Because of Nanase Kanji’s rotten plan, she had lost ten children in the fire. To make matters worse, she had to lose her husband as well.
Just that kind of life had Kazue lived afterwards, all alone by herself? Haruka’s chest ached at the thought. 
Suddenly, children’s laughter could be heard.
Yakumo glanced upwards and mumbled, “That’s true...”
“What was that sound?” asked Ishii, glancing around for the source.
“Those children came to see Kazue-san.”
Yakumo’s explanation made Haruka understand. While she couldn’t see them, the ghosts of the children who had been haunting the apartment building had gathered upon Kazue’s arrival.
She had been horrified when she had heard about the spiritual phenomena in this apartment building for the first time. However, having gotten the full picture, she thought differently now.
The sound of children’s laughter echoed once more.
To Haruka, their laughter sounded overjoyed.
They must have been delighted to be able to meet Kazue.
“I’m sorry. I’ve been abandoning all of you this entire time…” mumbled Kazue.
No one knew whether she could actually see the ghosts of those children. Regardless, she must have felt their presence.
The presence of the children she had been looking after—
“All of you must have been lonely. Hurt. I’m sorry. But there’s no need to wait here anymore.”
Tears fell from Kazue’s eyes.
“Yakumo-kun...” Haruka turned towards Yakumo.
Yakumo nodded. “The children haunting this apartment building don’t realise that they’re already dead.”
“That’s awful...”
“So they waited while playing here. Waiting for someone to come fetch them—” explained Yakumo, voice trembling slightly.
The children who had been taken into Michishirube hadn’t been able to live with their biological parents. Yet to those children, Shozo and Kazue must have been like their own biological parents to them.
Shozo and Kazue had also loved those children from the bottom of their hearts. Even looking at Gotou and Nao had made Haruka realise blood relations weren’t everything.
Hence Shozo and Kazue had insisted not to let go of their land and had worked their hardest to reopen the orphanage after the fire incident.
“After Shozo-san passed, Kazue-san lost her spirit. She let go of the land and never came close to this place again,” said Yakumo, shaking his head lightly.
Haruka understood her feelings. Kazue must have struggled to approach this place as it had been where everything had reached a dead end for her.
Without knowing that, the children had stayed here and continued to wait.
“Sorry it took me so long. It’s alright now…” said Kazue, stretching out her hands.
Faintly, Haruka could see the figures of children gathering around Kazue’s wheelchair.
The scene was gone in a flash, but there was no mistaking it, Haruka was certain. The brief smile forming on Yakumo’s face was the very proof of it.
After a long silence, Yakumo turned his gaze to the ceiling as if following something, before inhaling a deep breath.
“They’ve left—” he whispered.
“Is that so...”
Haruka couldn’t just simply feel relieved about the fact.
The fact that the lives of those children had been lost out of personal greed would never change. No amount of prayer would ever return the future that they could never have—
“Now then—it’s your turn,” said Yakumo as he slowly approached the man with two red eyes.
For some reason, the man with red eyes’ figure appeared weaker than earlier. Even though moments ago his mere presence had made Haruka’s body froze—
“You’re still trying to resist?” The man with red eyes threw a cold gaze towards Yakumo.
“Yes. Didn’t this incident make you realise? From here on, no matter what you do, I’ll never share the same opinion as you,” declared Yakumo assertively.
The man with red eyes returned his gaze with one just as sharp. “Why would you resist that far?”
“I used to hate myself—” said Yakumo, dropping his gaze onto his feet as he smiled mockingly at himself.
Haruka’s chest felt crushed.
A life lived whilst hating oneself had to be one full of suffering.
“I thought I was cursed from having the blood of someone such as you run through my veins,” Yakumo continued.
“That’s right. You’re cursed. That red left eye of yours brings forth all kinds of hatred. People will run into misfortunes if they cross paths with you,” the man with red eyes provoked with a smile.
“Perhaps you are right.”
“If you understood that, why resist? If you continue to live, you’ll only be spreading that curse.”
The man with red eyes lifted his palm in front of Yakumo’s eyes and curled his hand into a fist.
As if he was crushing Yakumo’s heart into pieces.
“Even so, there are people who say despite who I am…no, rather, because I am myself, they need me.”
“Those were merely illusions. In reality, they hate you. They were mocking you. They merely said nice things out of their own hypocrisy.”
“That’s not true!” Yakumo exclaimed.
“What?”
“It wasn’t an illusion. Neither me, nor you...”
“Then, what is it?”
“It was all the truth. No matter how much you try to deny it, the truth cannot be changed.”
“What are you trying to say?”
“I can finally accept it. That it was all thanks to this cursed blood that the me right now was able to exist.”
“What on earth are you talking about?” said the man with red eyes, his expression hesitant.
Confusion must have risen within himself.
“Don’t you understand? I said that I was able to meet people important to me thanks to you.”
“What!?”
The man’s eyes went wide.
Even to the man with red eyes before him, who had manipulated the feelings of countless others, Yakumo’s statement had been unexpected.
“Certainly, your actions are unforgivable. But I have now stopped denying your existence.”
“You...”
“There’s no use for me to deny your existence. You exist, and as a result, I am here as well. Humans can only stand above the past. No amount of denial can ever change what has happened.”
“That’s just an excuse...” said the man with red eyes, tilting his mouth.
Haruka could feel that Yakumo’s unexpected words had left him confused and faltered.
“I wasn’t making excuses. It was the truth. Someone told me that they liked this cursed self of mine. For that person’s sake, I can’t allow myself to deny my past, and your existence.”
Yakumo’s words made Haruka’s chest heat up.
Yakumo was ready to accept everything that had happened thus far—every misery, every suffering, every sadness—as part of himself.
It might have sounded easy, yet difficult to do in reality.
For people who had been burdened by a cruel past just like Yakumo, all of those were painful memories. Despite that, Yakumo had accepted them all.
“Those feelings were precisely the illusion. Humans only think of themselves in the end. Even as they do something for others’ sake, those actions are merely for their own satisfaction.”
“What a pitiful mindset.”
“It’s simply the truth. Are you certain the people around you truly accepted you as a human being? Aren’t they just fulfilling their own satisfaction by pitying you and protecting you?”
“If that were true, they wouldn’t have scolded me to the point of hurting themselves.”
Perhaps Yakumo had been referring to Haruka, who had dumped her emotions onto Yakumo.
“What have you been seeing all this time? Have you become so short-sighted that it made you draw such a naive conclusion?”
“You’re the short-sighted one here.”
“Don’t make me laugh,” said the man with two red eyes. In his voice was a hint of uneasiness.
“You’ve known all along as well, haven’t you?”
“Of what?”
“That you had hope.”
“There’s no such thing as hope. Humanity’s true character is darkness—”
“That’s a lie.”
“I’m not lying.”
“If so, then why did you seek revenge?”
“What?”
“I’ve heard about it from Kazue-san. When you first entered the orphanage, you were such an unruly child. You must’ve developed distrust towards humans as your mother had been murdered.”
“...”
“She said you were hurting others, hurting yourself, struggling to regulate your emotions, and even threw a fit of rage.”
“...”
“Shozo-san and Kazue-san struggled to handle you. But they never gave up. Their efforts to look after you weren’t for their sake, rather for your own.”
“Silence!”
“No. I will not stay silent. No matter what, they continued to provide their love for you. One step at a time, your behaviour eventually calmed down and you were able to laugh and play with the other children.”
“I was merely pretending. My heart was filled with hatred and anger.”
“You’re mistaken!”
“What do you know?”
“I know. Thanks to the life you had lived at the Michishirube orphanage, you found the hope to live. At the very least, you trusted Shozo-san and Kazue-san.”
“So what if I did? Even if there was hope, that hope was easily crushed by other people’s ill will.”
The man with red eyes’ words could pierce into one’s heart.
The one place those troubled children could call home had been effortlessly taken away from them. And with it more suffering had followed.
The man with red eyes had to experience abuse at the orphanage he had been transferred to.
He had grown into a twisted character as a result.
“What you just said merely revealed the contradiction in your statement,” said Yakumo with a flat expression.
“What?”
“So this place really gave you hope, after all?”
“The darkness of the human heart had taken it away.”
“I’m saying that was the contradiction."
“What contradiction?”
“Isn’t it strange? If darkness really was humanity’s true character, are you saying that it applied to Shozo-san and Kazue-san as well? If your true character is darkness, then why did you have hope?”
“I don’t have hope!” yelled the man with two red eyes.
It was the first time Haruka had ever seen him show such a raw display of emotion.
“Then, why did you wish to take over my body?”
“To satisfy my desires.”
“A desire may be dark, but at the same time, it is hope as well. You couldn’t throw away your hope to live. Hence even after your death you wanted to take over my body. Am I wrong?”
“A play of words. Did you think you could throw me off with such tricks?”
“No. The truth was, Michishirube had been your backbone. It was there that you had found hope. So you were angered when that place was taken away and sought revenge.”
“You’re wrong. You know nothing,” said the man with red eyes, forming a smile.
However, even Haruka could tell that it was merely a tough act.
“Why did you fail to take over my body? My resistance was a factor, but haven’t you realised for yourself that there was no point in doing this anymore?”
“All I need to do is to try and take over your body once again.”
“There’s no point. Surely you’ve noticed, right? Your existence is dwindling.”
“...”
The man with red eyes grimaced.
As Yakumo had pointed out, Haruka could sense the same thing. The man with red eyes’ existence had weakened compared to before.
Perhaps it was due to the faltering of his heart.
“Please, stop all of this. You should have understood by now. Isn’t that right, Father?”
Yakumo’s line made Haruka hold her breath.
He had just called the man with two red eyes ‘father’.
Yakumo had affirmed his existence; something he had never managed to do all this time.
He understood who he was and accepted all of it. Such preparedness must have been born within Yakumo.
A deafening laugh filled the air, as if shrouding and blocking Yakumo’s resolve.
It was Nanase Miyuki.
She had passed out from Gotou’s beating, but the woman must have woken up at some point.
“What’s so funny?” asked Yakumo.
Nanase Miyuki stopped laughing before staring at Yakumo with a cold gaze. “Did you think he would submit to you if you lectured him with that kind of sob story?”
“I do, that’s why I said it.”
“I’m curious, just how long will you be able to continue bluffing like that?”
“I wasn’t bluffing. I really do think that way.”
“Do you? Alright then, I’ll be taking away the person most important to you next. Will you still be able to say the same thing by that time?” Nanase Miyuki uttered something unpleasant whilst looking at Haruka.
Haruka’s back froze upon receiving such a gaze, filled pitch black with ill intentions.
“You’re the one who’s bluffing. Do you think you can do anything of that sort in the state you’re in?”
Yakumo narrowed his eyes and stood in front of Nanase Miyuki.
Storm filled Haruka’s chest. Nanase Miyuki was handcuffed and couldn’t move as she pleased. Even so, she felt a premonition that something terrible was about to happen.
“I can. I have another backup if my plan doesn't work out,” said Nanase Miyuki as if she had already won.
“Even at this point, you’re still...”
“Just so you know, what I said wasn’t merely a bluff. I have an ace up my sleeve,” said Nanase Miyuki exaggeratedly. She was holding something in her right hand.
Yakumo took notice of the fact and yelled. “Stop!”
Unfortunately, his voice was drowned by the blaring sound of an explosion that shook the ground.
At the same time, a few pipes bursted and large amounts of water came spraying out.
Haruka’s ears rang badly. The explosion had made her lose her balance, she couldn’t tell whether she was still standing upright.
“Get out of here quickly!” shouted Yakumo.
“Miyagawa-san! Please help assist Detective Gotou! I will carry Nao!” Ishii yelled amidst the chaos.
As they scrambled all over the place, water continued to flow and had filled the room to their knees before long.
“Eishin-san, please help Kazue-san,” said Yakumo before approaching Haruka.
“Are you alright?”
“Yes.”
“Let’s get out of here—”
Yakumo held Haruka’s hand.
Haruka reciprocated, holding his hand tightly so they wouldn’t lose grip. Yakumo then led her treading across the water.
By the time they had reached ground level, they were completely drenched.
Ishii and Makoto stood next to each other, turning their sights towards the apartment building.
Eishin sat next to Kazue who was on her wheelchair.
Meanwhile, Miyagawa peered at Gotou who was hugging Nao tightly, overwhelmed with emotion.
It appeared that all of them made it out safely.
The basement had filled completely with water. Was Nanase Miyuki there still?
No, she must have left.
She had to have done something like that because she had already devised her own escape route.
Suddenly, Nanase Miyuki’s words flashed in Haruka’s mind.
I’ll be taking away the person most important to you next.
Nanase Miyuki had clearly been looking at Haruka’s face as she said that.
In other words, she had hinted at the identity of her next target.
Translation Notes
[1] Unfortunately, I couldn’t find the specific event this scene was referring to. At first I thought I had missed translating it when working on earlier parts of this file (in which the event should happen sometime after Yakumo and Haruka had visited Sayama’s apartment and met with Ishii and Makoto again), but I reread the publication and still couldn’t find it. It’s possible that this section was missed in the JP-ID translation, or it had been omitted when the parts had been compiled and revised to be published as the Japanese volume. With my limited Japanese I can’t really crosscheck this despite having a copy of the Japanese version. I’ll be updating the post if I ever manage to confirm this detail.
[2] This note isn’t referring to one specific line, but I thought at the end of this file I’d clarify one wordplay detail that was lost in translation. In the original Japanese title of this volume, 魂の道標 (Signpost of the Spirit) and the title of this file, the Japanese word used for signpost was 道標 (michishirube), which coincides with the name of the orphanage (as well as the apartment building).
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kissing it better + bandaging/stitching up an injury for platonic yandere peter b? (itsv or atsv version.)
》 I had to redo this after writing a whole thing so another thing will come out after this and you'll see the resemblance.
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He didn’t like the first time you tried to leave and the second time you lost the privilege to walk around the apartment while he was gone. The fucking 'privilege'. Typically he wasn’t gone long but he was gone long enough for nature to call. There wasn’t a bathroom attached to the bedroom and it drove you insane.
Unlike the front door the restraint on your leg was simple, an ankle restraint that was less than fancy, just something from some sporting goods store no doubt. So you wrapped it around the bedpost and pulled until it snapped. Just like that you made it out and into the bathroom before looking for a place to leave. 
There seemed to be no way out. All the possible exits were baby proofed with Peter’s nerd shit and you already knew you couldn’t break down a door. You made a sandwich in the meantime to think for ways to leave and ways to make excuses if he got back. Then you crunched on lettuce next to the window.
Ten seconds later you threw a chair through it. The sound of the shatter broke your brain. The way out was right there.
You didn’t waste a second. You grabbed the sides with no reservations. Being careful would hurt so much more so you scrambled out, cutting your hands, cutting your feet, and cutting everywhere else. As you tumbled down there was another sound of something landing next to you. Spiderman was looking down at you for two seconds before he took you. You thought he was going to swing away or something of the like but he jumped inside and all but dumped you on the table.
It was all so fast. There was a medkit next to you in an instant and the second you tried to get up he pushed you back down and opened the box. You started to tell him he needed to help you leave but he kept shushing you until he yelled, “Shut up! Fuck!” You stopped moving completely and he took the chance to set up things on the table, tweezers, needle, thread. “We will talk about this later.”
All of it was so familiar, but the last time he told you that you were ten. “You are not talking to a child.” The thought of Peter being Spiderman left the building and stood on the side of the street.
“You are bleeding on my table, bullshit you’re an adult.” He snapped, wiping flecks of glass off you before taking out the shards.
You were so mad you weren’t wincing at his treatment, pulling out glass with pointed metal through torn flesh. “Are you serious right now?”
“Look at yourself. You really think this is going to make me think I should let you out?” He was so aware and you didn’t know if that was good or bad but you hated it.
“I had to jump out a window to leave this fucking apartment all because I wanted to go out of state and you decided to kidnap me.”
“What was wrong with Fordham, huh? Are you too good for Manhattan?”
“You’re not listening to me. Ah-” He lifted your leg without warning, clearly out of spite, and pulled the glass out there. “You’re so petty.”
“If I was, I would tell you to do all of this by yourself.” You growled back at him and dropped your head back on the table. All you could do in that moment was listen and feel the anger fuming off of him like he was the person wronged. It was obvious he took no joy in it but he didn’t feel bad about it. “Jump in the shower, we need to clean you up.”
“We? You better be speaking French because that sentence doesn’t check out in English.”
“It became ‘we’ when you jumped out a window so don’t give me any of that crap.”
“You are not getting in the shower with me.”
“You’re right, I’m not. I’m staying on the side. So shut up and go.”
It hit you then and embedded itself in your brain. You said it a lot but it didn’t truly set in until that moment; He didn’t see it as wrong because you were a ‘child’. Why would you let a kid covered in mud back in the house without wiping them down. You wouldn't. “I don’t want to get naked in front of you.”
He gave you a look that said ‘that’s stupid’. “Then keep your underwear on and start sitting before you paint my floors red.”
Peter was being petty and you both knew it, but both of you had something to prove. So he didn’t help you to the bathroom and you limped over without asking as fast as you could to say you were fine and to save you prolonged pain. You started the water and sat under the spray. If you were in a better state you would have pulled yourself in but your everything couldn’t take that. 
He came in not too long after that with some stuff and he changed into normal clothes. There wasn’t one of those sprays you could take off and aim so he had a tupperware to fill and pour. “Spread your legs.”
“What?”
He didn’t answer, just pushed your head down to drench your head and flicked through all of your hair. It was uncomfortable but you saw it; there was glass in your hair. With no warning he pulled you up and you blew water out of your face while he poured water on your hands. You were still too proud to look at anything but the wall but you could still feel it, he was pissed. Then he stopped and your curiosity got the better of you. You gave in and looked to see him looking at you but not in the eyes, above them. He squeezed your eyebrow and washed his hand while you groaned and cursed.
It changed after that, you felt his anger starting to wane, fizzle into nothing while he dumped alcohol on your arms. He froze when he got to your knees. “There’s so much left to do.” He said. He was right, your legs were cut up all over. It wasn’t what he said but how he said it. It was almost a breath that could’ve just not happened. “There’s… so much left.”
“Peter?” You thought he was tired and he was going to tell you to finish by yourself. That he was going to bed and say ‘I just can’t with you’.
But he was haunted. “You were in pajamas. You weren’t even wearing shoes. And you hit your head. And you got it on your back.” He was just staring at your legs. Very bloody legs that streamed red down the white tub. “You were just going to walk on the street like this. You were going to bleed out cold in an alley. Someone was going to jump you. I barely got here. If I wasn’t here you would be gone.” He was never an emotionally detached man by any means but he had been so large and in charge it was a shock to see him cry in that moment, when he had been so authoritarian.
“I’m not going to die if I go outside.” Your accusation had weight behind it. He had been like that five months ago and only came out of it because you busted down his door. It was too close to home and you wanted to stop it before it happened, before he could shut off of the world. There was no telling of what would happen if he did.
“Rhino could’ve been running through the streets. Prowler could’ve been on the loose. Some car could’ve hit you.”
“None of that is going to happen.”
“You don’t know that.” He held your knee and thumbed over it like it would break. It did hurt but you decided against showing that. “And I don’t want you to be another person who tells me that.”
Showering after that was quiet and quick. Wrapped, clothed, in bed. Peter had given you painkillers that put you to sleep. And Peter wasn't there, he was losing his mind in the living room walling off the window. After everything he’s done to lock up the place it was safe to say he was never getting his safety deposit back, absolutely not. He’d have to get some wood to keep it closed until he could replace the window but he’d had to settle for cardboard. The blood on the floor was dealt with, kit put away, suit in the sink. He didn’t want to think about any of it. But thought always found him.
Just a peek.
He told himself he wasn’t going to look at you until tomorrow to not see what happened up close but that didn’t happen. One peek turned to two turned to checking every ten minutes. It wasn’t like he was going to get sleep anyways after the day’s events. One of them scared him. He didn’t know why, you didn’t move from your previous position, or maybe that was the exact problem. He rushed to your side and put two fingers to your neck. The blood was running and he could feel the heart beating slow and steady. “You’re asleep.” You were.
But he sat next to the bed all the same. He cradled your hand and kissed it. He could smell the blood, practically taste it and it relieved him just as much as it disgusted him. If you were awake you would tell him you weren’t a kid and that his boo-boo kisses weren’t welcomed so he stole them, for his sake. When you woke up he was still sitting there, his face down and drooling on the sheets, hands holding something that wasn’t there anymore.
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Flowers of Thanalan
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Just a little something I wrote after doing some side quests on a new character I've made in ff14. Not sure if I'll do this again but I had some writing ideas from these quests and thought why not share.
”That poor soul, at least, had family that rushed to his side. Count him lucky for that.”
”When we finally chased them off… my love was in seven pieces”
When I arrived at Camp Drybone I knew little, save that people were going missing, and that my new acquaintances, the so-called Scions of the Seventh Dawn, believed that somehow this was linked to what they call a primal. I soon found though that the place was well acquainted with death itself. I learned that many come to the place in order to give their loved ones a final resting place, somewhere safe from the unforgiving nature of the deserts. As was usual I found myself drawn to helping the people here with whatever tasks they would have for me. I felt a want to give what little aid I could to a place full of grief and loss.
Ceaseless revenge and a last attempt at salvation were what I found myself set to first.
A woman, Caitlyn, asked of me a simple task. To slay seven of the dusty mongrels to the south, an oddly specific request I thought at the moment. The look in her eyes as she set me about the task though was almost like the embers of a fire that had been burning far longer than one would expect. Nevertheless, I set out with my trusted carbuncle companion to find the beasts. While they fought with a ferocity common to Thanalan we were able to bring them down with ease. The stratagems came to my mind with ease and carbuncle dashed across the battlefield as if reading my own mind had made it all the easier.
The second request I had gotten was from another woman, Tutusi, a similar request though for a different purpose. Her task for me was to slay a few myotragus nannies in order to feed a dying man in the hopes of bringing him from the brink. Unlike the mongrels, these were a docile target, at least until provoked. Despite how quickly I completed my task… it was too late as the man had passed shortly before I could return. Tutusi’s words to me afterward were not uncommon amongst those of U’ldah, always towards business and the tasks ahead. I wasn't sure if the grief I saw in her eyes was hers or if it was merely a reflection of my own at not making it back in time.
I think Tutusi could easily read my feelings though, as she soon set me on another task. Her words I imagine are true though, flowers would make for quite a bit of coin as mourners pass through the camp on their way to say goodbye. I am not entirely sure how I feel about looking at it with a gil framed lens but the tale of a life-filled area of the desert intrigued me. The comparison to the black shroud was hardly exaggerated I thought as I walked amongst the vegetation. Coming face to face with the goobbue said to be responsible for it brought on an odd mix of emotions.
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”Some say the goobbue came down from the mountains at the time of the Calamity, and carried with him the seeds that became all those plants.”
It was there I met Jospaire, a botanist who was fascinated by the wild vegetation that thrived against all odds here. Through his instruction, we ensured the plants around the fallen goobbue would continue to thrive. A simple series of gathering water and the removal of pests current and future were all he asked of me. Once that was finished I gathered the blooms I had been sent to collect in the first place. Jospaire was ecstatic at what we had done and his joy felt like a balm compared to what I had experienced so far during my time here.
”I am convinced that what we see before us sprouted from the goobbue’s death. There’s a certain beauty to it all, no?”
”When it comes to offerings, they say the rarer the flower, the happier the dead. And Althyk lavender is nothing if not rare.”
Perhaps there is more than just death and grief to be found here. If nothing else the small amounts of comfort I can bring to the people here should ease their minds. With luck, Thancred and I can soon put an end to the disappearances only adding to the troubles of this place. Perhaps this newfound power I wield, The Echo, as Minfilia called it, will be of use to me in our endeavors.
~ Mariam Shallaen, of the Scions of the Seventh Dawn
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lovelyaces · 2 years
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tasm!peter x reader
hello lovely people, i haven't written in ages and i forgot how nice it actually is. anyhoo, i hope you enjoy this very short cheesy piece.
love, ace 🌷
“I can’t believe you’ve pretended to like the opera ! Pete, we’ve been there at least twice in the past six months…”, you argued, while walking back to your apartment.
The night was terribly warm and Pete’s hand holding yours was like a million degrees, but it felt so natural and nice you couldn’t let go.
You sheepishly looked up to see his beautiful freckled face, “You should have said something, I would have understood.”. You were talking quietly, afraid you might come across too strong.
Peter caught your gaze and stopped in his tracks, hazel eyes full of worry and furrowing brows giving away the whirlwind of thoughts conflicting him.
“Are you upset ?” he finally asked, voice quiet to match yours. He didn’t mean to lie. Sure the opera wasn’t his favourite thing in the world, but when you told him about some random piece that was playing that week, he had to invite you. Merely to see that overjoyed look on your face again. Hell, he would have sat through a hundred of them if it meant getting to spend even more time with you.
“Am I upset ?” you repeated. Your hand came up to rest on his cheek, gently stroking it. “ Of course not Pete. Quite the opposite actually.” you said smiling, “You went on and pretended you liked the opera, just to spend time with me… That’s the nicest thing anyone has ever done to me.”
Peter was looking at you with so much tenderness you thought you could melt right on the spot.
“I’m sure people have done nicer things for you bug.” he said before leaning in to kiss your forehead.
“Well...it’s definitely up there.” you answered, so so happy that he was yours.
A comfortable silence fell between the two of you, leaving the sounds of New York take over.
“I don’t think I say this nearly enough but… thank you Pete.” You went to hug him, in hopes to convey all the love you had for him.
“What for ?” he asked, his voice muffled in your hair.
“For choosing me.”
There’s no choice to be made when it’s an evidence, he thought. He wanted to say that to you, that and also the fact that you also chose him, and it has been the best feeling on earth. He wanted to say a lot of things, but for now, he settled for a simple “I love you bug.”, whispered in your ear, just for you to hear. After all, he had a lifetime to share the rest of his thoughts with you.
“Is it a good time to admit that I do enjoy the opera now ?” he said, still keeping his voice down. You didn’t need to see his face to know that his infamous smirk was there. Slowly, you untangled yourself from his embrace and resumed walking, still holding his hand.
“How do you expect me to believe anything you say about the opera any more ?” you joked, looking at him mischievously.
“Now I don’t think that’s fair… especially coming from someone who allegedly enjoyed sitting through many basketball games.” he argued, without any real heat.
You immediately cringed, scrunching your nose and shutting your eyes, before recovering.
“I do enjoy them… for the most part.” you tried to convince him, “ I mean it’s long and incredibly noisy but hey, I learnt the rules so it must count right ?” you were talking with you hands now, trying to save yourself from embarrassment.
Peter laughed, like a real loud laugh that caught you by surprised. You cheeks were heating up and in an ultimate effort to avoid any further awkwardness, you buried your head in his neck.
“You’re adorable you know that ?” Peter said while putting his arm around your shoulders.
“I wanted to be able to share that with you.” you confessed, still hiding from the world.
“I get that bug.” he stated while taking your face between his hands, “And now you know why I did the same.” You went to kiss his palm and he took it as a silent agreement.
You were smiling so hard, and still barely matching Pete’s blinding joy. Yeah, you two were going to be fine. Pretending to like stuff just for the other and actually building a shared hobby, that had to be a good sign of love.
“Let’s go home.” you offered, extending your hand for him to take, “I have something we both enjoy in mind.”
He began to wiggle his brows suggestively “Really ?”
“Not that you idiot” you laughed, smacking his shoulder playfully, “Well maybe that - later on- but that’s beside the point, I was thinking more about Italian for diner ?”
Peter smiled, relishing in your laugh, and placed a quick kiss to your forehead, “Sounds like a plan love.”
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kim-seung-mo · 2 years
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Bang Chan x fem!Reader
“are you coming to my wedding?” “of course.”
♩one-shot, angst, ex-boyfriend chan, reader is getting married, just chan regretting and being sad
♩♩word count: 1k
♩♩♩A/N: tbh idk why anyone would anyone break up with chan... but anyways, hope you guys enjoy~ wip list here
this fic was heavily inspired by this song, please give it a listen!!!
[Unread message from: Y/N 10:03 PM]
Y/N: Chan, I'm getting married.
The fourth winter after your breakup, Chan received the first text message from you since then. It was just a short sentence, but it left him with a mixture of emotions. He wrote and deleted his reply, wrote it again and again, but nothing satisfied him. Chan hadn't been an indecisive person, even with your breakup four years ago, it was a clean break. He never involved himself with your life again during the four years. But why, four years later, did your simple words of "I'm getting married" make him so torn, so conflicted, so hesitant, so distressed?
Bang Chan: Congratulations.
Y/N: Will you come to my wedding?
In the end, after deleting and rewriting, he decided to send that one single word.
He felt a lot relieved after sending his reply, but at the same time, he felt a sense of emptiness and loneliness. It was as if something that he had been holding on to for four years had suddenly become devoid of any meaning.
Only he knew what that thing was.
It was a secret that he had buried in his heart for four years.
After a bitter chuckle, Chan replied.
Bang Chan: Yes, I will be there.
…… But why was his heart still aching? Why was his hand trembling?
Of course he'd be there, why not? You had invited him. If he refuses, wouldn't he be telling you "I still love you, I can't watch you marry someone else"? He couldn't not go, he had to prove to you that he had long forgotten you. He had to convince himself, he had to deceive himself… That he had stopped loving you a long time ago.
That's right, he stopped loving you a long time ago.
Why, for four years, did he not fall in love with anyone else?
Your partner certainly picked the right day. Your wedding was set in early spring, when life was reviving. The day was clear, the warm yet gentle sunlight shone through the stained glass, spilling over the entire church and onto you and him.
Your wedding dress, your veil, everything about you shone golden in the sunlight. Even the dust surrounding you danced in the sunlight like golden butterflies. You took the man's hand and slowly walked towards the priest, who looked at you and your partner with a smile and asked, "Groom, do you take this bride to be your lawfully wedded wife? For richer or poorer, in sickness or in health, in joy or in sorrow, to be unfailingly faithful to her for all eternity?"
Without a moment's hesitation, he looked at you with the same tender eyes Chan once did and said, "I do."
When he came back to his senses, you had finished your marriage vows as well.
Chan was sitting offstage, silently gazing at you.
He could not fool himself into thinking he was not imagining things. Seeing your beautiful features, his mind drifted back to that day four years ago. He couldn't help but start to wonder if it would have ended differently, if he had made a different choice… If he had held on for just a little longer ……
Could it be him who was to stand before you on stage and exchange marriage vows?
"I do." You gazed at the man in front of you with fondness and murmured softly.
The priest smiled and nodded, "Next, I ask the bride and groom to exchange rings."
As the crowd watched, the groom placed a dazzling diamond ring on your ring finger. And with a happy smile on your face, you gently put on the other ring for the groom.
It all went so smoothly, so naturally, as if it was meant to be.
Chan knew he should be wishing you well. Your partner seemed to love you very much. He could tell just from your expression alone how happy you were.
Compared to the night you broke up with him four years ago, the expression on your face right now was what suited you better.
He should wish you well, from the bottom of his heart.
But he couldn't.
In the moment when the priest announced that you were married, the reality came to shatter all his illusions.
How did forever become once? How did four years of waiting come to nothing? Why didn't you try to hold onto him?
Could it be that you simply never loved him in the first place?
Or did you merely move on and meet someone better than him?
You forgot about him and were able to talk to him calmly.
He has long since lost his place in your heart.
The person who was waiting in the same spot, the person who waited foolishly, the person who didn't have the courage to fight for you, the person who was still deceiving himself in the end, the person who didn't love you with all his heart, the person who made you hurt and sad again and again, the person who still loves you even now, the person who only realized at your wedding that it was too late ……
It was him.
[Unread message from: Bang Chan 5:20 PM]
There was nothing left between you.
This was your wedding, and he was just a guest.
Chan: He's so lucky to have met you
Chan: I hope he loves you more than I did
[A message was withdrawn]
Chan: Thank you, for allowing me to be your guest
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Yandere Kamisato Ayato Thoughts
I don’t know why I wrote this. He isn’t even out yet and this happened. Damn him for it. This is long BTW. I’m sorry in advance.
Warnings: DARK CONTENT, contains nsfwish themes, gender neutral reader, noncon, stalking, manipulation, toxic relationship, unhealthy relationship, captivity, implied kidnapping
18+ | Minors DNI
General Thoughts:
We don’t know a lot about Ayato as of yet, but I’m ascribing to the notion that there are at least two sides to this man. There is Ayato the person and then there is the Yaishiro Commissioner. Most of the time he exists between the two. It’s rare he gets to be just himself without strings attached. Things like Onikabuto fighting or cards or even going to get milk tea are luxuries for him. He indulges in them to an extreme as a way of coping with the crushingly stressful nature of his life/work.
I get the feeling of a mafia boss with him. On the surface, he’s everything you could ever want him to be. Think Thoma & Ayaka, but slightly less outgoing, more decisive and more sarcastic. Everything about his appearance is meant to display a sense of propriety and respectability. He isn’t showy, but he masks himself well. His quiet, mysterious nature is what draws people to him and it keeps them guessing on his motives. There’s always a dark undertone with Ayato though. There’s always something not quite right with him. If you catch him at the right moment, you can see the wheels spinning behind those violet eyes of his.
We don’t know how far Ayato’s cruelty can extend yet, but he didn’t get where he is by being nice. I would suspect if he’s pushed, he can make you hurt in ways you never even imagined were possible.
Ayato’s pursuit:
This man would be hell. He would be relentless in achieving his goal. But he would do it in a way that you would never know, unless he wanted you to.
What’s frightening about him, is you would have no idea when his obsession started or what caused it. A chance meeting on the street or at another location is one thing, but what if it wasn’t that simple. What if you had never even met when it started? What if you were climbing the ladder of success in Inazuma and your name kept coming up on his reports? What if he falls in love with your ambition and drive? What if he has to know more?
He has a combination of government records and the Shuumatsuban at his disposal. It doesn’t take him long to learn everything about you. All it takes is a few days for you to be figuratively spread out before him on his desk. At the start, the scattered papers are enough for him. He feeds his need for you by having your movements tracked from there on out. Knowing what you did and who you spoke to on a daily basis brings him a tremendous amount of joy. He can almost imagine something entirely domestic with you. He can picture taking you to dinner or strolling through the market on the way to work. The two of you walking arm in arm in contented bliss. He hasn’t the faintest idea what you look like or what you sound like, but he can feel your warmth beside him and it’s enough.
He feeds his domestic fantasy further by quietly purchasing your favorite perfume/soap/lotion. He places some on his pillow every few days so he can fall asleep and wake up with a semblance of you. He has nightly dinners with you while enjoying your favorite food as he reads the daily report on your activities. When the time is right, he gets bolder. He sends a member of the Shuumatsuban to acquire an item of clothing or a piece of bedding from your home on a frequent basis. It stays with him, helping his fantasies shift from simple domestic bliss to a more sexual nature. He gets off on imagining stripping you bare and fucking you raw all while his nose buried deep in whatever piece he’s acquired this week. He hears your moans in his mind, he can feel you clawing at him, begging him for more. In his own mind’s eye, he sees himself as your ideal lover. No one can ever hope to match him and gradually he begins to think that no one should ever even try to.
Ayato holds tremendous domestic and economic power in Inzamua. More now thanks to the Sakoku Decree being lifted. In canon at least, he is set to become or already is the second/third most powerful person in the country behind the Shogun and Yae. (I second/third because of Yae’s influence over Ei and her being Ei’s back-up/defacto heir. I think Ayato and Yae are right there together power wise, but Yae is closer to the Shogun so she edges him out.) You, your family, your friends, your enemies, and Ayato’s rivals for your affection all succeed or fail based on Ayato’s will.
Because his obsession with you is potentially limited to being just on paper at first, you reap the benefits without really knowing why. It’s nothing to you when your rivals are forced to close shop due to shady practices or cheap goods. You’re happy about it. That means more business for you. It is unfortunate that the person who was flirting with you the other day was forced to move their cart due to a code violation or your current crush was found to be price gouging during the previous crises. How absolutely shameful. You thrive as a result of your proposals and requests being approved with more regularity. You assume it’s because you put together a solid plan or perhaps the commissioner was in a good mood the day he read it. Ultimately you factor it up to luck and nothing more. You’re oblivious to the eyes that watch you or the items from your home that go missing. The only time you noticed was when you wanted to wear a specific top and it wasn’t there. You assumed it was in the laundry and left it at that. Your suspicions are proven right when you find it a day or so later in your dirty clothes. The only thing that has you confused are the odd stains on it. You don’t remember spilling anything on it.
Ayato’s Acquisition:
In terms of behavior, Ayato is on Ningguang’s level when it comes to getting his darling. He has enough power and influence that he can manipulate almost every situation to his advantage to get what he wants. The only thing that can really stand in his way would be if Yae or the Shogun stepped in on your behalf, which let’s all be honest, probably wouldn’t happen. Yae might interfere just to screw with Ayato, but ultimately she lets him have his way. She thinks it’s high time he stopped playing with beetles and cards and got his hands on a toy that’s more appropriate for his age.
The possibilities of how he does it are endless. He prefers something subtle. Something natural. A downturn in business, a shortage of materials, even a new restriction that causes a pinch on your finances. Whatever method he employs, it will be something that wouldn’t raise much suspicion. He might impact some of the businesses around you, just so there aren’t any red flags. One by one, he gets your friends and neighbors to come to him. He buys their silence with his benevolence. They tell you how helpful he is. How he’s saved them. All they had to do was ask. They begin to see their business on the rise again, while you continue to suffer. You have a choice to make.
You can ask for his help:
He’s delighted by your letter asking for a meeting. It’s one thing to have your clothes brought to him. It’s another to get a personalized note that he can keep for the rest of his days. You even included some small homemade snacks in the hope that he would fit you into his impossibly busy schedule. Thoma almost gets sent to get you that second, but Ayato thinks better of it. He’s waited a long time for this moment. His paper doll is about to be made real. He wants to savor this. He wants you to earn this. He thinks you can do better than a polite ask and a snack, so he makes you wait. He might even tighten his hold on the situation, just to see if he can get another response out of you. It works. He receives another note, this one more desperate than the last. You implore him for a meeting, but again he refuses. He still thinks you can do better. It isn’t until your business is on the verge of failure, until you’re on your knees outside of his gates begging for his time that he grants you the audience.
The first meeting is formal. You are made to endure the custom of speaking to a screen rather than his face. It’s awkward and you often wonder if he’s there. The only indication that he is, is the faint scratching of a quill and the occasional utterance. He was busy after all and you had come unannounced. You couldn’t expect his full attention, not when he was using your voice as background noise while he worked on the contract to bind you to him. Fair is fair, right? He had done so much to help you already and he would continue to help you after you signed on the dotted line. It was only right that he should get something in return for his efforts. What should be better than having his paper doll by his side?
You don’t ask for his help:
He should have planned for you to get around him at least once. You’re clever. He knew you were clever. What he hadn’t counted on was you doing it multiple times. If he wasn’t to the point that he was entirely annoyed with you, he would be impressed. Clearly economic pressures won’t work on you, so he has to go with plan B.
He brings your business under investigation. It’s nothing drastic, but it’s enough to cause your business to absolutely crumble around you. Reputation is everything in Inazuma. You’d watched your rivals suffer as a result of sloppy practices. Now you were accused of doing the same. You didn’t understand. You’d done everything you were supposed to. Filed all the forms, paid all the necessary taxes, but Government lackeys are highly unreliable, especially when they’re paid to be. How unfortunate for you that your paperwork has gone missing. They’ve checked and checked and checked, but it’s simply not there. Maybe you forgot to turn them in, maybe they’re currently being processed, or maybe they are occupying a prime spot on Ayato’s desk like a trophy. Your entire life depends on those papers and he’s seen fit to lay them next to the latest photo of his sister as if they’re something to be admired.
That’s where you find them too, once he has you. The first time you disobey him he drags you into his office, intent on punishing you. You tell yourself you’re ready for the pain, because in truth it won’t last long. Wounds heal. But this isn’t a wound you’re ready for. He forces you over the edge of his desk, holding you in place by your hair as he makes you stare at them. It’s a hard lesson in power, specifically his power. It’s the final piece that shatters any illusion that you aren’t his.
There is another option in Ayato’s playbook, but it would be a last resort kind of thing. He could have you kidnapped, but he would exhaust every other means of obtaining you before he reached that point. The only exception is if you try to run/leave Inazuma.
It’s not the wisest of choices considering Ayato knows every move you make. You don’t know that though or maybe you do. Maybe you’ve figured out his scheme. To him it’s unlikely, but not impossible.
With your business suffering you decide that maybe Inazuma isn’t the place for you anymore. Since it’s reopened, there’s a lot of competition and the restrictions (for you at least) have gotten unbearable. Maybe Liyue would be better or even Mondstadt.
You decide to at least investigate the idea. A trip abroad wouldn’t hurt. Fares to Liyue are cheap and Mondstadt isn’t a long journey to make on foot. You still had enough that you could manage it. If you don’t, you can always liquidate some of your stock. Your neighbors are happy to buy it from you.
With your affairs settled, you leave early one morning, completely unaware of what was waiting for you on the main road. The guards were rough when they took you away and there was no explanation as to why you were being arrested/kidnapped. The guards had their orders and they were to bring you to the safe house where you presently reside. You’re left to wait. You’re left to think. The hope that you’ll be recused dwindles before it’s ever lit. Everyone you know thinks you’re on a boat bound for Liyue. No one thinks anything is amiss. No one should think anything is amiss. You’ve stupidly provided your captor with the perfect trap. He didn’t even have to set it. All he had to do was spring it. Silly you.
The relationship:
Being in Ayato’s care means that everything you could need is at your fingertips. Nice clothes, good food, a dry place to sleep and marginal entertainment to fight the boredom are all provided for you. It’s not a bad life, but it has it’s trials.
The relationship itself with Ayato would be awkward. It started without you knowing and without him knowing what you looked like. You may not even see his face for the first few months because having you is enough. He likes keeping you a mystery, confining your physical appearance to his imagination. It’s only after he gets a report detailing a hidden birthmark or after the handlers have explored your more intimate areas for him that he gets curious. He comes to the bathhouse to meet you, waiting until you’re mid-wash to announce himself to you. You have to stand there naked, looking like a drowned rat as he appraises you. It’s humiliating. You don’t even know if he approves or disapproves of you either. All he does is stare at you for a few moments and leaves. It’s weeks before you see him again.
The overall experience for you is incredibly isolating. You aren’t allowed near his siblings or any of the staff in the beginning. There’s a general worry that you’ll try to win them over with the detail of your situation. They may not even want to speak to you considering you aren’t thought of as an honored guest nor are you a member of the family. You’re there because Ayato insists you be there. Instead you’re confined to a specific part of the house, with only your handler(s) for company. They keep you busy though. As Ayato’s consort/potential future wife, there’s a lot for you to learn about his way of life and about him. He expects nothing less than complete obedience from you. If you fail in your endeavor to please him, then your days will be occupied by trying again. By the end, you will be exceptionally trained.
By nature, he’s constantly busy. He can’t see you all the time. Even if you’re at the estate with him, it’s likely you won’t see him everyday. That doesn’t mean Ayato doesn’t look in late at night or watch from a slight distance during the day. Most of the time the daily reports from your handler(s) on your general health and well being get him by. He prefers the company of his papers and your dirty clothes to you.
A personal visit is prompted after either a long separation where his usual creature comforts are not possible or to test your skills. Don’t think he’ll be denied your time or attention either. When he’s there, he won’t stand for being ignored. He has little time to spare and people with that amount of power and influence generally aren’t ones to take no for an answer. If he can’t charm it out of you, he’ll try bullying it out, if that doesn’t work then he will resort to a level of force that is appropriate. If it comes to the last option then he won’t have to resort to it too many times before you get the message. He will trade your resistance for compliance by any means necessary.
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sunsetnest · 11 months
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Adrienne the Sugar Glider Shifter
Adrienne (she/her) is a 53 year old Sugar Glider shifter. She is equivalent to a human of 28 years old.
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Appearance: Adrienne has light brown medium length hair, the end of which barely comes to her shoulder blades, and she usually wears it in a french braid but will occasionally leave it loose. Her hair is naturally straight but with how often she wears it in a braid, it tends to curl when it is loose. Adrienne stands at four foot seven inches tall, and can also take the form of a sugar glider when she wishes to do so. Her sugar glider form has silver fur and three dark lines going from her forehead down along her back. Her fashion sense is impeccable, dressing in pastels and what Mod Parker would describe as business casual. Flowing fabrics, twirling skirts and colorful blouses make up the vast majority of her wardrobe, though she does own a few pieces of clothes suitable for more rugged outdoor work.
Personality: Adrienne is a joy to get to know, vivacious and full of life, she is almost always found with a smile on her face and kindness in her eyes. She is very much the older sibling or mom friend in just about any friend group she hangs out around. She is outgoing and extroverted, but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t mind a quiet night in every once in a while. She enjoys painting, especially abstract painting. Cooking, and making coffee for herself and her friends, as well as for customers. 
Daily Life: Adrienne’s days start early, with her getting up around eight a.m. eastern standard time to go to work at one of the many coffee shops in City. She clocks out at 4 p.m. est, and relaxes before spending time with friends and family. On her days off from work, she enjoys going to her favorite park in City to walk around or visit one of the many boutiques nearby to go shopping. She also enjoys sitting nearby her favorite flowers, wisterias, when she has the chance. 
The only time her schedule changes, besides when she has the rare day off from work during the week, is during birthdays. Adrienne is one of those people who puts an emphasis on having a big party and getting to catch up to friends and family she has not seen in a while, so birthdays are important to her. 
She enjoys watching the weather when it is raining or snowing, and prefers to stay inside cuddled up on the couch reading, painting, or watching Studio Ghibli or Jane Austen movies when the weather is bad. This is why her favorite season is late spring, it is not too hot or too cold, and rarely rains, so she is not caught in bad weather on her way to work or while on outings with friends and family. She also enjoys the fresh fruits and juices one can make from the spring harvest. Her favorites are apple and grape juice, though one can never discount the possibility of a strawberry and banana smoothie on a warm day. 
Past: Adrienne’s family life is rather simple, she is the only child of two loving parents, who she sees at least once a month, usually on sundays for family dinner. It was difficult on all of them when her father became ill in her teenage years, but he pulled through and her parents are still as much in love today as they were twenty years ago. She fell into a rather rough group of people during her teenage years, and has since broken ties with the vast majority of her teenage friend group. Adrienne has not previously had any companions. 
Companionship: Adrienne is looking for a friend, someone who looks at life the way she does. Creatively, artistically. She would like someone who is willing to spend time with her doing things she enjoys; Painting, cooking, etc. The ideal companionship for Adrienne would look like a relationship centered around loyalty and respect, one that has a healthy balance with long term stability at its core, someone she can be herself around, to rest and relax in between days of work.
Energy: Adrienne’s energy description is almost wispy feeling, like fog, blue-gray-light purple with hints of shimmering silver. 
Vetted Since: 11/09/2017 Posted: 7/23/2022
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thatwitchrevan · 7 months
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Revan snippet that I mentioned a while back. This is the genderfeels one so it deals with dysphoria and also dissociation, depersonalization and amnesia due to trauma aka typical Revan stuff.
The wait to meet with Dodonna was getting long. Sure, she had important things to do, but Revan felt that a galaxy level threat was probably more important than whatever day-to-day cleanup from all of Revan’s messes she was currently busy with. Revan stretched her shoulders again and Bastila looked directly at her and nodded. “It’s taking a long time,” she agreed, breaking the stale silence.
They were standing in a meeting room in the main Republic military compound on Coruscant. They had already spent an hour and a half checking in - one of the joys of being Revan, who had to submit to multiple searches to make sure she wasn’t going to pull something. The meeting room was empty except for the three of them, but there were guards posted outside just in case. Revan was weary of ‘just in case’ but she couldn’t blame them.
They were in the corner of the room - there was a table, but nobody had opted to sit down. Carth was leaning on the wall and Revan was pacing. Bastila simply stood still beside Carth and watched her. Revan could feel their stress all bouncing off each other like a growing echo. If someone didn’t come into this room soon she might just walk out there and see how close she could get to Dodonna before she was arrested. She met Bastila’s eyes and Bastila shook her head.
Carth sighed. “You know usually I don’t mind when you two talk without talking, but it kind of just makes it quieter in here right now."
Revan didn’t answer, making another lap around the table instead. Bastila turned to Carth. “They’re thinking about storming through to find Dodonna.”
Storming is a bit harsh, Revan thought. I wouldn’t actually hurt anyone. Then she kind of paused in the middle of her lap, because there was something else about what Bastila had said that she couldn’t quite put her finger on, but it stuck in her head.
“They are?” Carth asked. “I mean, first of all, please don’t do that, Mer. I do not want to try to convince the Republic to let you out of lockup on top of everything. But uh, if there’s been a pronoun update I haven’t gotten it yet.”
Revan looked at him, thankful that he’d put words to what she was trying to figure out about Bastila’s statement. Somehow she felt it might’ve taken her hours to realize what had stuck out to her and why. She looked at Bastila, head tilting. “I’m also confused, honestly.”
Bastila raised an eyebrow, as if Revan was failing to understand something very simple, which might be fair. “Revan, you’re nonbinary?”
Revan frowned. “I am?”
Bastila straightened up, suddenly looking a little embarrassed. “Oh, stars, that’s not how I meant to say it. I’m not trying to tell you, I just... I thought you knew? Sorry, it’s quite hard sometimes to tell what thoughts you’re aware of or not.”
Revan had not felt uncomfortable about their Force bond in a while, not since the truth was all out and they had become close. Bastila was her soulmate - it felt only natural at this point that they could feel each other’s mind’s like their own. But now she felt a little cold. Not because Bastila knew something about her, but because apparently Bastila had known something about her that she didn’t. Again.
“I...” she stopped - it felt stupid. Her head was all messed up. There was always going to be stuff she didn’t know or didn’t remember. It was silly to get worked up over it.
“No,” Bastila said. “Come here.”
Revan obeyed, crossing the room to Bastila and letting her take her hands.
Bastila looked her in the eyes - hers were always warm where Revan’s were cold, though warm also meant dark and deep and knowing. She fixed Revan with that gaze and gently pushed loose hair behind her ear. “I’m sorry. It’s not silly. The last thing I want to do is make you feel like that again. It’s not your fault - we all miss things about ourselves sometimes. And it’s not my place to say this for you. I didn’t realize.”
Revan felt like leaning into her, aching for comfort, wanting not to be separate, not to be herself, but she didn’t want to look away from Bastila’s eyes. “What do you see in me? What made you say that?”
Bastila sighed. She glanced at Carth, but Revan nodded, indicating that it was okay to talk in front of him. Bastila squeezed her hands. “It’s just a sense that I get. Just like I can tell when you’re upset or happy, I have a sense of what name or pronouns you might want to hear at the moment. It’s like... right now, you’re thinking of yourself as Revan, right? Carth called you Merith, but if asked, you would only say Revan. Does that sound right?”
Revan considered. It practically hurt to do that kind of introspection. Maybe it was part of why she was so comfortable to have Bastila in her head. Someone could help her understand herself. And she was right - Revan was focused in on that aspect of herself, perhaps because they were there because of her past.
“I... yeah.”
Bastila sighed and smoothed Revan’s hair some more. “Rev... as best I can tell, you’ve felt this way all your life.”
Revan felt her chest twisting a little. “I think you’re right.”
Carth drifted closer and squeezed Revan’s arm. “Rev, honey, you okay?”
Revan sniffled. She hadn’t realized she was crying. “No. I don’t think so.”
“Okay,” Carth said. He pulled Revan close, and then they were both hugging her. Carth rubbed her back and Bastila squeezed her shoulder, and Revan tried not to let the weight of everything so personal and small crush her right now. They were here to warn the Republic about a very real threat and instead they were dissociating and getting snot on Carth's jacket.
At the worst moment, just as Revan was pulling herself together and straightening up, the door finally opened and Dodonna stepped into the conference room, looking slightly grim and then slightly confused when she saw Revan. She didn't seem too surprised to see the Prodigal Knight red-eyed and sniffling - probably because she was used to Revan being a mess. The officers who entered behind her seemed more unsettled, but they kept quiet. Dodonna gestured to the table. "Shall we have a seat and talk?"
Revan hurriedly wiped her face and sat down.
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onewingedsparrow · 8 months
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mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?
edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?
chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?
taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?
Feel free to answer privately instead, if you wish :)
For this ask game
Hi, Nova! 💜 Ooh, these are very fun choices ✨ @novafire-is-thinking This took me a while to answer, but I finally got it done, lol.
mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does? This is way too broad a question 😂 I get inspired all the time from literally...anything. How do I know what inspires me the "most"? I guess I'll just answer for each? Place: Driving!!! I get truckloads of Transformers ideas as I drive. I spot vehicles and envision whose alt mode that is. I eye road signs and think of metaphors for storyboarding. I listen to the symphony of the road and imagine sound design to fit an action movie. I spy the real actual Bumblebee and shoot him a wink because I know it's him. I get so much inspiration from driving. I chose the alt modes for my Shockwave and Soundwave because of real cars I saw beside me on the road :D Thing: Honestly anything in nature. A leaf. A bug. A crack in the sidewalk where plants grow through. The shape of a cloud. Distant birdsong. Sunlight hitting the ground just right. Raindrops. A bunny. A spiderweb. Etc. Activity: Listening to music or going on a walk! (Those are mutually exclusive btw.) How I express myself when I get inspired: anything from writing to daydreaming to dancing to singing to composing to...well. Anything, really.
edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you? It's a long story. <3 Too long to fit into one ask answer 😂 I don't name things lightly. Sometimes, I stumble upon a name very quickly, but more often than not, I will ponder and puzzle and scheme and muse until I find the perfect name...especially when it is meant to be one of my own. That's what happened with my url. To keep it simple though, the short answer is: "One Winged Angel," Robin from Batman, and Owl City. It is so much deeper than what those three ideas convey, but those are the pillars for certain. If you are curious and wish to hear the long story, Nova, I would be happy to DM it. ❤️
chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts? So many things! What matters the most to me is how well the giftee knows me, because their gift will reflect that. Is it Nerdy and / or relevant to my interests? Do the colors catch my eye with their beauty? Will it be useful to my Nerd work? Is it some reference to an inside joke between us? (Shoutout to my brother for the one time he gave me the Christmas gift of a generic blue wooden cube covered with inspirational sayings...simply because it reminded him of an Energon Cube, which was a tribute to our time watching TFP, RiD and Cyberverse together, beginning to end. That Cube sits near my desk, and I deliberately position my Transformers figures beside the sayings "It's gonna BE okay" and "BElieve in yourself" because, you know, 'Bee! ✨It's a gift that no one else would ever give me, especially for that specific reason, and that's why it's one of my most precious belongings. It's also great because no one would ever make the connection between that Cube and Transformers just by looking at it. A sweet inside joke indeed.) But if I have to pick specific items, I like DVD's and CD's and video games, cookies, fantasy books, good-quality electronics (for music and gaming), fanart prints / merch / etc., posters, keychains, Transformers and horse figures...yeah I'm very easy to shop for, lol. What can I say, I like art that brings me joy every time I look at / listen to it :D I also love Nerdy T-shirts but no one can ever get my size right so that one's hit or miss. (EVERYONE thinks I'm so much smaller than I actually am. Smh. I like giant T-shirts anyway but no one remembers that, haha. Once in a blue moon, when someone gets me a Nerdy T-shirt and the color actually works with my skin tone and the size actually fits or is beautifully oversized, it's amazing.)
taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about? Hmm it would really depend on who was calling. I would shift the conversation topic depending on the person. But if it was one of my amica endurae.... If he called me, I would tell him all about where I've gone in life since we last saw each other, and how pumped I am about Transformers (that's a recent development he never knew about, which is a shame because he is literally the 'Bee to my 'Cee), and about the conventions and concerts I got to go to and the writing I got to put out there...and I'd tell him how much I miss him. <3
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andromedaexists · 1 year
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Sugar People || Oliver Ferrie
★★★★☆ ½
TW: RAPE (GRAPHIC), RELIGION, SUICIDE (GRAPHIC), DESECRATION
omg omg omg so this was one of the first books recommended to me for the Queer Book Directory and, thought it took me a while to finish due to life, I am actually really glad I started here.
This review will end up getting pretty dark and spoiler-y, so I am going to throw it under a read more. I will clearly mark the spoilers so you can skip them!
First off, this would be a 5 star review from me if I wasn't so bombarded by the religious imagery. Now, I was raised Roman Catholic and ended up leaving the religion some years ago. It was not a good split, but that's not why I am mentioning it. If I hadn't spent the last 5 years reconciling with my struggles against Catholicism and coming to terms with the fact that I don't have anything against the religion itself, but against the Church, then I would not have been able to finish this book.
Every other chapter in this book is deeply entrenched in religious imagery - to the point of walking through a religious ceremony and prayer beat for beat.
I think it was a really cool way to get us into the meat of the issue in the book, but it is a lot if you are struggling with religion or leaving the church.
And here's why I think it's cool: I think this is an incredibly important narrative on abuse in the Church. I think the story that this book tells is something that needs to be told, and I love that there is no expectation of justice or moral teaching about revenge being wrong.
In this book, Kestrel gets his revenge and he is not shamed for it. I love that.
I also think it's really cool that a DnD campaign was brought in as a major narrative component and how it was weaved into the story, though I was a little off-put by it at first. This is my own personal issue, as I am not a huge high fantasy person. I became very weary once those elements were introduced, but it for sure pays off and now I love it (I do have a bone to pick with the use of 'Perfect 20' instead of 'Nat/Natural 20', but I feel that's more a dialect thing than anything)
This book also has some banger lines, i mean:
The dirt, the salt marsh, he forces his mind down into is, imagines himself sinking, decaying, becoming nothing.
Something dark moves within me and it's about all I can do to stop it swallowing me whole.
The gives me the strangest feeling. Like I want to believe you. Like it somehow makes sense.
And this one line, which I will be making my entire personality now:
...the truth is violent and it doesn't care, it can't care, but I can at least try in it's place.
Some other things I picked up and loved:
the mention of Prosopagnosia!! Hey, I have that!
the taurine in Bram's drink <- hello Monster Energy, my beloved
the quotes from Acts of the Apostles. I recognized these because we translated them for Greek class this semester! there are some differences between our translation and the one in the book, but that's what happens with translations lol
GREEK and LATIN
hold on, I need to get more into that. The chapter names. When I tell you I literally started kicking and squealing like a schoolgirl who just got told that her crush likes her back, I mean it.
Kairos tou Poiesai to Kyrio (I am assuming καιρος του ποιεσαι το Κυριο in greek, idk where the accents are lol). My notes in book literally say "that shits greek! the right time to make..." okay so I just looked it up, it's καιρός τοῦ ποιῆσαι τῷ Κυρίῳ, or time to to do the Lord. I feel like time is too simple here, since καιρός is more along the lines of righteous time, or holy time, but yeah!
In Saecula Saeculorum -> Into Ages of Ages (yes, this is being tattooed on my body now. thank you
Epikairekakia (ἐπῐχαιρεκᾰκῐ́ᾱ) -> joy at the misfortune of another. now, this is a word I can get behind -jots it down to use in my own works-
Other than that, I am literally in awe at this book. SPOILERS AHEAD
I just... like I felt that something was wrong with Daran, but I thought that it was my own IRL distrust of Church authority.
I love how everything was pieced together from the very beginning, too. Like, I remember messaging the group chat about how I picked up that this was a time loop in the first few chapters of the novel, and while I was technically wrong I still feel like I was picking up what was being put down.
Overall, the beginning of the book was rather slow for me, but by the halfway mark I was on the edge of my seat and could not finish it quickly enough! I am really glad that I had a chance to read this book, and I hope hat more people get to read it, so long as they have no qualms with reading graphic depictions of religious rites and desecration!
EDIT: This book markets itself as a coming of age story in it's blurb, however I am tempted to say that it really isn't. There is no dealing with coming of age, and all the characters seem well set into their college lives throughout the book. This does not take away from the book, I just wanted to add it here.
I am planning on writing little things like this every time I read a book just to help me keep track of them. If I don’t write down my opinions and thoughts right away I am liable to forget them. I will do my best to make sure I appropriately tag and warn about topics. If I miss any please let me know!
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a kiss after treating a wound
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(the sorrow's mostly embers, nowadays. funny they're doing this for someone who...)
rough squint, gentle hands. they fuss over the tear in her pants and the skinned bit of knee — procuring a little thing of salve from somewhere under their cloak, cleaning and bandaging the scrape.
he doesn't even know if things like this really hurt her — doesn't know if he forgives her fully, doesn't know if she's really aware of what she's done in full. but it's the principle of the whole thing, damn it. he cant ignore someone who's so...
ugh. someone who's so warm, y'know?
so this, too, is a kind of wish, the same way she'd wished on his behalf, pressed featherlight on the skin above the bandage. even if it's not real, even if it doesn't work, the wish is set afloat either way; a wishy-washy prayer of healing. for her, maybe for more than just her knee. (maybe for himself, for where the grief used to char...)
they huff. this is ridiculous. (this is only the human thing to do.)
"there, all better.")
Idunn didn't mean to cause any trouble. She had decided to busy herself with a few tasks to help out some of her fellow students. Fetch a few supplies here, carry a few documents there--simple things, that require not any sort of talent but the hard work and commitment she tries to foster in herself. It was going well, too, until she took a sudden fall. A snag in the road got the better of her, while eyes of ruby and shining emerald were distracted by a crowd of her peers.
They move like fish whenever they're busy. She finds it hard not to be captivated by the lives humans lead.
Lucky for her, Chad was nearby. Chad who taught her wishmaking, who showed her that every one of the world's flowers has a purpose. Some give off lovely scents for her to smell on the way to class, others lend their vibrant colors to dyemakers so they can weave beauty into silk--and dandelion seeds are the hands of heaven, carrying wishes wherever they go.
She winces. She looks like she's about to cry.
Idunn's manakete form is delicate by draconic standards. Chained and alone for centuries, it had ample time for its hide to soften. With nothing to sate her hunger, nothing to replenish her spirit for so long, she had to make accommodations to conserve strength. Miracle it may be that she survived with no intake of energy, she has grown weaker as a result. Factor in the strength it took to hold up the Dragon Temple before she collapsed, and one could understand why pain is a very real sensation to her.
"...Thank you." Muttered just beneath a breath. Hackles raised and scales primed, her body tenses up to their touch, yet her mind and soul know better--that the thief means her no harm. There is an unsure look in their eyes which she isn't ignorant of, but that they press on is proof their hearts are connected. Idunn finds the will to hold firm, to not budge when the cool sensation of their salve stings her open wound. They're already a saint to her, nevermind the fact that she hasn't earned any of her blessings. To trouble them any further wouldn't be fair.
"I wasn't looking. I'll pay attention next time." Said as though reciting a passage of text in class. The dragon peers down at her now-bandaged wound, twisting her ankle to view the entire scar. The blood might've frightened her, if it wasn't a reminder that she has a heart to send it coursing through her body. That she is alive.
The kiss comes next, and her mouth opens wide in reaction. "Chad...!" she nearly wants to shout, asking how they could offer so much kindness. But experiences are proving that this is simply human nature, to walk hand-in-hand. People are like seeds. They aren't born with ugly roots or fetid stems. The darkness in humanity grows in barren soil, away from light and water and care. Need creates struggle, struggle creates anger, anger creates hate. If the world had enough beauty for everyone, then malice would be traded for smiles--sorrow for joy.
(Then the wish of His Highness would have stayed pure. He wasn't a bad person, just a desperate one--with a dagger twisted into his heart by the world.)
So she sighs, and her face shields itself with a dusted pink. She allows Chad's thoughts and actions and hope to touch more than just her skin. The hand that rose up to cover her gasp falls, along with its twin, to lift the thief by the shoulders. "You have a beautiful heart," again, spoken as fact, "...Don't let anything happen to it."
Using what delicate force this form can muster, Idunn pulls them to their feet. With her chin held high and eyes squeezed shut, she returns a kiss to their forehead--mindful not to ruffle their hair. Maybe, had she said these words to the king long ago, things could have been different.
It is now her duty to ensure history doesn't repeat itself.
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