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spoipage · 3 years
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#lol i fucking hate working and all i work is short shifts on weekends#it leaves me so fucking drained and every little fuckup is a massive fucking gut punch that makes me wanna break down and quit#and now that im looking for a new job closer to home so i can pick up more hours i have to go through the hell that is job applications#and waiting for a reply and the subsequent hell of overthinking and my dad laughing at every thing i do wrong#like sorry!! i dont have 40 years of experience like you dude!! and everything stacking up makes me want to work less and less#and thinking that im gonna spend a majority of my life in this hellish loop makes me want to fuckin die#im. not cut out for work. im too socially awkward and anxious to do anything involving people and too weak and unwise to do anything#behind the scenes. i cant cooperate with others more than following orders and i cant communicate with them in the first place to get to a#point where i can. im a shitty teenager trying my best but my brain shuts everything down before i can actually build the skills i need for#basic customer service. nd thats all i can get at this point. and likely all that i'll be stuck with until i wind up dead somewhere bc of it#i dont want to spend the next 60 years of my life working and fucking up and wanting to die. let me be a trophy wife or some shit#the only way i can see myself not being depressed out of my fucking mind all summer is if i get lucky and the library accepts my application#because at least there its quiet and i wont need to deal with a lot of the bullshit most customer service jobs deal with. even if im just#shelving and finding books. itd be much better than anything else. but i had almost nothing i could put on the application and likely wont#get hired unless by some miracle or act of god or just fucking something. at least it doesnt seem that they get many applicants.#but that doesnt matter when you dont fit the minimum qualifications because youre a dumb teenager stuck working over the summer#i dont have any excuses for why i cant or shouldnt work so its not like i can enjoy a normal summer and stay a kid for one more year#my parents (esp my dad) wouldnt get it if i said im mortified of the idea of spending the rest of my life stuck like that and want one more#year of being young. theyd probably shrug it off and use the 'i was working when i was much younger than you' card#just. sigh. im tired of this shit. i want to spend my days purposefully doing nothing. not working and getting closer to a mental breakdown#hm. that went on much longer than i thought or meant. ignore all of that lol#the only reason im venting here is because using server vent channels makes me feel like shit. so here i am yelling into the void
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my-last-anywhere · 6 years
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Humble Beginnings - TW
Author: @my-last-anywhere
Characters: Stiles Stilinski, Scott McCall, Sheriff Stilinski, Lydia Martin, Melissa McCall (mentioned), Supernatural!OC, OC’s Mother
Word Count: 2709
Dedication/Author’s Note: This is dedicated to @writingsbychlo because she gave me the courage to write this fic a long time ago. A/N: I wrote a TW fic in 2016 with an old friend that I eventually posted. However, that person and I aren’t friends anymore and so I rebooted the fic starting from Season One of TW in my own image which Chloe gave me the courage to do also! I’m thinking of posting it in it’s entirety soon to like fanfiction.net or something. Please give me feedback and let me know what you think! 
Jada’s P.O.V.
It’s Sunday night. First day of sophomore year is tomorrow and I am..excited. Yeah I mean I’m going to try out for dance, Scott and Stiles will hopefully make first line, and we’ll be slightly less unknown to the general population of Beacon High.  Or at least known enough to get invited to a party, I’ve never been to a party. My phone dinged and pulled me out of my thoughts. Ah, speak of the devils - well one of them.
Troublemaker🙄: JADA! Are you awake?
Yes Stiles
Troublemaker🙄: GOOD. Cause I’m downstairs
Dude it’s like 10 at night we have school tomorrow my guy
Troublemaker🙄: there’s a dead body in the wooooods
Im putting on my shoes.
“So exactly how good is it?” I said once I got in the jeep.
“Let’s just say it’s the best thing to hit Beacon Hills in awhile.” He smiled.
“I thought I was the best thing to hit Beacon Hills in awhile.”
“A close second at best.”
“Woooow,” I said and he laughed. “Just drive the car, Stiles.”
“Hey text Scott for me would you?” Stiles said as he put the car in drive. “Let him know we’re rescuing him from boredom.”
As we drove I texted Scott but he didn’t answer of course because he’s either asleep or overthinking about lacrosse. Or both, which is entirely possible. We pulled up to Scott’s house and the light was on in his room but he still wasn’t answering either of our texts.
“I know he’s up there.” I said.
“Maybe he’s sleep?” Stiles offered.
“Nah,” I replied. “And even if he is, he’s gotta wake his ass up. I have an idea.”
While Stiles climbed up on the house I found tiny pebbles and threw them at Scott’s window. I also rustled a few leaves for good measure. I saw the light to his room go off and then I hid behind a bush with my phone. The front door opened and I had a to cover my mouth so I didn’t laugh out loud at the sight before me. Scott McCall scared, with a baseball bat.
I signaled to Stiles and then he dropped down causing both him and Scott to scream. I couldn’t take it anymore and fell down from behind the bush laughing. Scott looked from me to Stiles and then started yelling.
“Stiles what the hell are you doing!”
“You weren’t answering your phone!” Stiles yelled back defensively. “Why do you have a bat!”
“That’s a good question,” I dusted the leaves off my jeans. “Why do you have a bat?”
“I thought you were a predator or something!”
“A predator? You know what that’s not important. Listen, I saw my dad leave like twenty minutes ago. Dispatch called and they’re bringing in every officer from Beacon department and even state police.” Stiles said.
“For what?”
“There’s a body in the woods!” I jumped up and down. “Two joggers found it!”
“A dead body?” Scott’s ears perked up.
“No,” Stiles said as he jumped down from the roof. “A body of water. Yes dumbass, it’s a dead body!”
“So like murder?” Scott said.
“No one knows yet. All they know is that it was a girl and she was probably in her twenties.” Stiles explained.
“Tell him the best part.” I smiled.
“Is there a best part? If they already have the body then what are they looking for?” Scott looked at me.
“They only found half.” Stiles and I said in unison.
“Holy shit are you serious?”
“Yes!” I said. “And we’re going to everyone in the Jeep.”
On the way there we argued over which of us could find the body first, this of course went on for several minutes before I had to remind them that we’re the three musketeers for a reason and we’ll find the body together. They rolled their eyes at me but agreed nonetheless.
As well pulled up to the Preserve I could see Scott getting uneasy. “Are we really doing this?” He asked as we all got out of the car.
“Yes!” I grabbed his shoulders. “It’s gonna be awesome.”
“Besides,” Stiles said as he clicked on his flashlight. “You’re the one always bitching that nothing ever happens around here.”
“Yeah but I was trying to get a good night sleep in before practice tomorrow.” Scott said as we started to walk through the woods.
“Right,” Stiles laughed. “Cause sitting on the benches is such a grueling effort.”
“Don’t be so pessimistic,” I hit him. “You guys could get off the bench this year!”
“You’re cute,” he smiled at me.
“I’m serious!”
“She has a point you know,” Scott said. “We’re playing this year. In fact, I’m gonna make first line.”
“You know what, I admire the optimism.” Stiles said.
“Really?”
“Yes! Everyone should have a dream, even a pathetically unrealistic one.” He smiled at us.
“You’re such an asshole,” I laughed.
“Moving on,” Scott said. “Out of curiosity, do you know what half of the body we’re actually looking for?”
“You know what, I didn't even think about that.” Stiles replied. “But hey, that’s the fun part!”
“Okay, well what if whoever killed the body is still out here?”
“Also something I didn’t think about.” Stiles said.
“You didn’t really think this through did you?”
“Not really.”
“Both of you are just, tragic.” I shook my head at them.
We walked in silence for awhile until we came up to a steep incline. Scott and Stiles went up first and then they helped me up. We were all winded by the time we were all standing and the cool end-of-summer air wasn’t helping the sharp intakes of breath we were all having.
“Maybe the severe asthmatic should be the one holding the flashlight huh?” Scott exasperated as he took a hit from his inhaler.
Stiles ignored him and continued walking. I shrugged at Scott and then the two of us followed closely behind. I looked up at the moon and saw that it was full, full and absolutely beautiful. Especially on a clear night like this one. Bumping into something hard pulls me from my fixation. When I looked up I saw that I had bumped into Scott’s back. Before I could ask what the hold up was, Stiles yanked us both down. I was just about to yell at him before I saw the twinkle of other flashlights followed by police and police dogs.
Before I could acknowledge that this was probably not our best idea, Stiles bolted up and took off around the array of flashlights. Scott and I whisper yelled his name but he either didn’t hear us or ignored us because he kept going. I rolled my eyes and then we both got up and chased after him. I, a little faster than Scott who kept taking hits from his inhaler. I caught up to Stiles and was about to grab his arm when the sound of a dog barking and a light being flashed in our face caught us off guard. We fell to the ground screaming and holding onto each other.
“Oh my god please don’t kill us!” I screamed. “We’re sorry, we’ll leave! I’m only fifteen! Oh my god, Stiles this is all your fault!”
“We’re about to die and those are your last words to me, really!” He screamed back.
Only after hearing a distinctive voice did we realize we were not going to murdered. At least, not in the literal sense. “Hang on!” Sheriff Stilinski yelled. “These little delinquents belong to me.”  
The officer rolled his eyes and pulled the dog away from us and then looked at us with a very, very disappointed face. “Hi, Sheriff Stilinski.” I looked down at my shoes.
“Dad,” Stiles said sheepishly.
“So,” he started. “Do you listen in on all of my phone calls?”
“No,” Stiles answered. “Not the boring ones.” I hit him in the arm and he looked at me. “What, Jada?”
Sheriff Stilinski sighed and then laughed. “Where’s the other part of the three musketeers?”
“Who Scott? Oh he’s at home. We tried to get him to come but he stayed like the good kid he is.” Stiles said.
“Yep,” I nodded. “That’s exactly where he is. He said he wanted to get a good night of sleep before the first day of school tomorrow. It’s just me and Stiles. We should really follow in his example, huh?”
“Mhm,” Stilinski smiled at me before he started pointing his flashlight. “Scott are you out there!”
I silently prayed Scott would just stay wherever he was hiding. Stilinski called his name again but he thankfully didn’t answer. He sighed and then turned his attention toward me, “Jada does your Mom know you’re out here?”
“Technically, no.” I smiled. “She’s working a double with Melissa and it would be super awesome if you didn’t call her.”  
“Alright how about this,” He smiled as he put his arms around the two of us. “I’m gonna walk the two of you back to the Jeep. Stiles, you are gonna take Jada and Scott home because I know he’s around her somewhere, and then you and I are gonna have a little talk about invasion of privacy, okay?”
“Okay.” Stiles and I grumbled.
After Stiles dropped me off I texted Scott and told him to tell me when he got home and then subsequently passed out. When I woke up the next morning I was full of energy and excitement, I mean it was the first day of sophomore year! I jumped out of bed and got dressed. I did my makeup, made sure my hair looked good, took several selfies and then headed downstairs.
I walked into the kitchen to find my Mom leaning against the counter eating cereal. A matching bowl was waiting for me. “Good morning!” I said before I got a giant spoon full.
“Morning,” She smiled. “Are you excited for the first day?” When I nodded she kept talking. “You know, Sheriff Stilinski called me this morning.”
“Okay before you get mad, it was a last minute thing! And it was a dead body! Plus you know how hard it is for me to say no to my best friends.” I said.
“Your best friends as in plural or just Stiles? Cause you say no to Scott all the time.”
“Really, Mama?”
“I’m just saying you should tell him you have a crush on him.”
“No!” I said a little too loudly and a tiny gust of wind went through kitchen. “Oops, sorry. But no, you and Scott need to let it go. I’ll tell him when I’m ready, which will be never as to not upset the delicate balance of our trifecta.”
“The wind you just sent through the house says otherwise, Jada.”
I ignored her and scarfed down whatever was left of my cereal. “It’s fine, Mama. Everything is under control.”
“Uh huh,” She said as she put both of our bowls in the sink. “Let’s keep it that way,” She handed me my backpack and grabbed her keys.
We were halfway to school when she brought up the wind, or rather the cause of the wind today. “I know you already said you wouldn’t but do not use magic to help Scott or Stiles at lacrosse practice today.”
“I won’t,” I grumbled. “But when can I tell them I’m a witch? It’s literally one of the only secrets I’ve ever kept from them.”
“Soon.” She squeezed my hand. “You have good control but you still have a few slip ups like this morning, your powers are in a direct line with your emotions.”
“I know.”
“You just have to make sure you’re the one controlling the magic not the other way around, okay?”
“Okay,” I smiled as we pulled up to the school. “Thanks, Mama.”
“Of course,” she said. “Oh I see the knuckleheads.” I climbed out of the car and shut the door. She rolled down the window and blew me a kiss, “Have a good day! Remember what I said and remember I want a full report at the end of the day!”
I caught up to Stiles and Scott just as Scott was lifting his shirt to reveal a giant piece of gauze on his side. “What the hell happened!” I screamed.
“My thoughts exactly,” Stile said.
“It was too dark to see anything but I’m pretty sure it was a wolf.” Scott explained.
“A wolf?” I said. “Is that why you didn’t answer my text about when you got home?”
“Yeah,” Scott said as he put his shirt back down. “I was slightly preoccupied.”
“Nope, sorry, there’s no chance a wolf bit you.” Stiles said as we started walking into school.
“And how would you know?” Scott looked at him. “I heard the wolf howl.”
“No you didn’t,” Stiles responded.
“I know what I heard.”
“Well then you heard wrong because California doesn’t have wolves, okay? Not for like at least sixty years.”
“Ah, well then if you don’t believe me about the wolves then you’re definitely not gonna believe me when I tell you I found the other half of the body last night.” Scott smiled.
Stiles and I stopped walking and whipped around. “Holy shit, you didn’t!” I said.
“Dude I wish,” Scott said. “I’m gonna have nightmares for at least a month.”
“Nightmares! You should’ve taken a picture, I would have loved to see that!”
“Exactly!” Stiles said. “I mean this is the best thing that’s happened to this town since the birth of Lydia Martin.” I felt a pang of sadness when he said that, I mean I know he has a crush on Lydia but I was hoping maybe he would have one on me too.
Lydia was walking in our direction and Stiles smiled. “Hey Lydia,” he started but she kept walking. “You look like you’re gonna ignore me.”
Scott and I laughed, although mine was forced and Stiles rolled his eyes at us. “This is your fault, you know.”
“How is this our fault?” Scott said.
“Well it’s not Jada’s fault she’s awesome but you Scott, completely bringing us down with the nerdiness. We are nerds by association. You have scarlet nerded us.”
“We’re nerds anyway,” I rolled my eyes as we walked inside the school. “In case you forgot Stiles you and I literally spent roughly two and half days watching all the Harry Potter and Star Wars movies not even a month ago.”
“That is completely beside the point,” Stiles smiled at me.
“Is it, though?”
After that we went our separate ways before class. Stiles’ locker is on the other end of the hallway from Scott and mine which subsequently are right next to each other this year. I was taking all my books out of my locker for the week, leaving only the one I needed for our first class, when Scott slammed his locker shut.
“What!” I yelled. “Geez why are you slamming your locker like that?”
“Because you need to tell Stiles how you feel about him!”
“Keep your voice down!” I shut my locker and swung my backpack back on my shoulder. “You want the whole school to find out!”
“The whole school does know! The only people who don’t know how you feel about Stiles are you and Stiles.”
“Excuse me?”
“You like him more then you let on! Your eyes do this weird sparkle thing plus you looked like someone punched you in the stomach when he mentioned Lydia.”
“I’ll tell him when I’m good and ready okay?” Scott sighed and rolled his eyes at my comment which in turn made me skeptical. “You’re not gonna tell him are you?”
“No, God!” Scott looked at me. “I would have to sedate you if I did. I’m just saying, we’ve been the three musketeers since third grade and nothings gonna change that. Not even the two of you being together. When you get over that fear I’ll be right here.”
“Worst best friend ever,” I rolled my eyes as we walked into class.
“Love you too,” He laughed as we sat in our seats waiting for Stiles and then the teacher to arrive.
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