also i sent an email i kind of regretted. but also feeling that a large part of that was formed by the very intense emotional state i was in where i was experiencing crazy anxiety and doubts and shame about the way i acted and i felt like everything i wrote in that email was so terrible and also i felt so emotional and so ashamed of it and so sure everyone who knew it woild judge me and know how irrational i am and i could tell logically it probably wouldnt be a big deal but couldnt feel it and like. i feel a bit awkward now but ive fully calmed down and honestly? it was kind of fine actually. its just been a while since ive been UP THERE in that kind of state and i guess it kind of does give you perspective on how your emotional state really affects you so deeply and your perception of things. and like yeah i might retract a few things or be like "eh not mt best move" on some things but realising overall it doesnt matter and i can FEEL that. it is really crazy how many problems exist in your head and you can understand logically its not rational but you just have to bear it for a bit
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your blog always reminds ne of how good cobra kai used to be... still haven't watched season 5 but it's nice to know what's going on through you and the other ck blogs i still follow. keep up the good work! as a question: what is your biggest hope and biggest fear for next season?
Ahhh ty!! I really miss when ck was still good. I rewatched it a few months ago expecting to not find s1 as good anymore….but it literally was that good! And that’s the most disappointing part of it all. As far as hopes and fears for s6, i feel like im so beyond caring about anything that is actually happening in this show anymore that i don’t have any hopes or fears lmao. I guess my only wish is that the og cobras come back, but realistically i know that if they do itll just be like. a quick pan over them smiling at the back of johnny and carmens wedding meanwhile daniel is standing up front as best man which. Okay lol
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unironically the western tumblr mutuals i have are the reason i dont wish for a meteor to kill the west for everything they've done. If only i can see that region of the world as the same people in the history textbooks...
But also racism is generally genuinely bad. you can't really pinpoint a certain group of people to be satan's reincarnation because they'll never be that and they'll forever be human. with the flaws and vitues of one.
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I did feel a bit sad at the pride event today bc seeing so many happy queer couples.... I don't really get to experience that part of life due to childhood trauma and it make me sad
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