#and then she still rejected him

[kazscrows]

Can you believe that Inej imagined Kaz Brekker saying “I want you” then decided not to hope for that, because hope is dangerous, but then barely a day later it literally happened.

#and then she still rejected him #I want to SCREAM #I mean… I know he has a lot of growth and things he needs to work on #and Inej knows what she wants and deserves Kaz at his best #but daaaang #I would never have been that strong— #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #kanej #six of crows #shadow and bone #shadow and bone netflix #crooked kingdom #shadow and bone season 2 #grishaverse #kazscrows

[jaegerbroshoe]

Rewatching the finale, Jinx is actually a lot more self-aware than people make her out to be. I find it funny how people say Silco manipulated her into becoming Jinx when she herself reveals that his words over the years weren’t what shaped her into this. She even recognizes that he projects his trauma onto her. So like… I don’t think she was manipulated. She’s not oblivious.

#also if silco really manipulated her she wouldn’t have wanted to reconcile with vi #like at all #and honestly #I think even if sevika and silco hadn’t said what they said her insecurities would have tainted the reunion because of caitlin #jinx wants vi all to herself so anything she deems a threat to that would have set her off #anyhow my point is silco’s speeches don’t seem to have brainwashed her like people claim because she still holds her own opposing opinions #maybe she gets influenced by them momentarily but she still has her own free will #it’s not manipulation if you’re aware someone is trying to influence you #and ekko even says jinx chooses to stay with silco #it even sounds like she was offered the choice and rejected going with ekko #arcane #jinx #silco #my opinion #lol I’m sure this is a controversial take #but silco never forced her to stay with him

[foxx-queen]

thinking about the way shadowheart, lae'zel and minthara deal with breaking away from a god/god-like figure they've dedicated their lives to. shadowheart immediately latches onto rescuing her parents as her new 'mission'. lae'zel immediately dedicates herself to freeing orpheus with the vigor she served vlaakith. minthara fixates on obtaining the power to make sure she's never controlled again.

its like. breaking away from gods/god-like figures leaves a void to fill. they're trying to fill it, and trying to choose what they fill it with. and they know that's what they're doing, in some ways, maybe to avoid the enormity of what it means to have broken away. maybe to avoid working out what they'll do as individuals. shadowheart doesnt know her parents, and they dont know her anymore, but she has to save them. you can ask lae'zel why she won't focus on herself, and she acknowledges there's no time for that. not yet. minthara wants you to use the power of the brain, but has dialogue/approval when you speak to ravenguard and she realizes hes still in there beneath the tadpoles influence, just like she was.

'my deference to him is a habit that will die hard, i fear'. minthara still calls the elder brain the absolute, even after she knows the truth. lae'zel still calls out to vlaakith in battle. shadowheart still wears the symbol of shar in her hair after dyeing it. indoctrination/ingrained beliefs are hard to break.

they've broken away from what was controlling their lives. they're free. they've lost everything. shadowheart can save her parents and but will always have that mark. lae'zel has been declared a traitor and will be hunted until vlaakith is overthrown. minthara can never go home, and would be executed if she tried.

they've broken away. they've lost everything. they're struggling with what that means. they're free. they wouldn't have it any other way.

#baldur's gate 3 #shadowheart #lae'zel #minthara baenre #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #i just. i love them #i love characters breaking away from religion and dealing with the religious trauma #i love when its not simple and easy #i love when the time is taken to show that its not easy #that theres a void thats not always filled with something 'good' #minthara wants u to use the power of the elder brain. maybe shes ignoring that means using people in the same position she wa #maybe shes telling herself she doesnt care #but when u meet ravenguard and reach out with the tadpole and find out hes still in there #she approves when yuo tell him hes being controlled #and says that hes still in there just like she was. that we should help #i dont know if lae'zel still calling out to vlakkith in battle is a bug or a mistake or something but it /works/ #she hates her shes rejected her but thats been her entire /life/. its not discarded easily #same with the shar headpiece. i dont know if thats an oversight. but it works. shadowheart is still shadowheart. #like she says when she rescues her parents. she can't just forget shadowheart. thats not what she does anymore #i have some gripes about this game but god this is all so good

[spielzeugkaiser]

there are currently two wolves inside me, one that wants geralt to meet omega!jaskier's and his child while the kid is still young so they'll have both their parents (plus 1 mom if yennefer doesn't resent jaskier) as they grow and another who wants to stick to the show's canon of geralt and jaskier not seeing eachother for 22 years and then one day geralt finds this person with a scary ressemblance to him who says they need help rescuing their dad, a bard who doesn't know when to shut up (besides would be kinda funny to see geralt's reaction to jaskier being basically a dilf lol)

[First Part]

Oh my God in my mind it was the baby version but this also has me at the throat.

There would be a few things at play here like

1. I imagined the baby did not inherit mutant traits (besides some gold specs in his eyes, like, Jaskier had confirmation and once you know it's obvious) and you could hold Geralt at gunpoint he does NOT know how he looked as child anymore. It's absolutely not obvious to him, especially since it's impossible in his head. Only Vesemir would probably go 'oh' at the resemblance because the kid looks exactly like the little one he picked up on the side of a road, over a century ago.

2. Jaskier didn't say something for the last 13/14/15 years of his life, the kid will not go and tell Geralt when his Papa went out of his way to keep this knowledge secret.

In my mind this has the perfect road trip vibes. And timelines are messy - like Jaskier went down the mountain pregnant it's not 22 years later but who knows what happened inbetween - but Geralt definitely already had all the teenage angst experience with Ciri. He's already a dad!

#geraskier #geralt of rivia #the witcher #jaskier #geraskier lovechild #listen the poor kiddo is nervous af - and we all know how Jaskier starts to behave once he's nervous #SAME HAT #but also: kiddo knows things have been messy between them and that Geralt didn't treat Jaskier gentlemanly (so to say) but! #I firmly believe he has no idea #and Jaskier wanted him to be cautious but he never ever implied Geralt was anything but honorable at his core #Jaskier would have been sure he was 'shoveling shit again' but he would also have been sure that Geralt would treat his son amiable #even if he only does this out of duty #if he even kept Jaskier around for that long while secretly hating him- #(I think some serious miscommunication happened there because Jaskier maybe could have distanced himself more from Geralts anger if not #full hormonal himself - maybe he even thought Geralt knew #he did try to tell him the night before! when borch died and Geralt went to Yen instead #so he thinks Geralt rejected BOTH of them? ohhh. But the kindness point still stands. Jaskier is petty but not when it costs his son) #ALSO also last side fact: YEN KNOWS. She definitely knows because she Jaskier with a newborn in Oxenfurt #in this scenario she just promised to keep her mouth shut #became auntie yen instead #omegaverse

[bumblingbabooshka]

B'Elanna, Neelix, Tuvok and Chakotay needed to star in an episode where they just talked about their different beliefs and approaches to spirituality/religion. Paired off and all together. I need to gain more insight. I need characterization and I need it to be messy.

#B'Elanna's difficulty with Klingon myths and religion (especially due to her internalized racism) #Chakotay's current strong belief in his own spirituality despite his initial complete rejection of it (and how B'Elanna seems to admire #and have talked with Chakotay about it extensively in the past given how many specifics she's aware of) #Neelix's belief in an afterlife being the only thing that comforted him after his entire family was killed - the knowledge that he would be #able to reunite with them again and that knowledge being ripped away from him #Does he still believe? Are there other aspects of his previous spiritual beliefs that are thrown into question? #Just because it isn't 'real' does it make it unimportant? How do we even know whether or not it's 'real'? #He died and doesn't remember reaching that tree and seeing his family - does that mean it didn't happen? #Tuvok's line in 'Innocence' about how he's begun to have doubts about whether or not a katra exists and what happens after someone dies #and his firm ties to Vulcan spirituality and ritual #ALL SO INTERESTING!!!!!!!! #star trek voyager #I don't think it'd be a calm or healthy conversation either - they're not therapists and I don't think anyone but Chakotay #would be particularly careful with his words #and before you say Tuvok's a Vulcan so he would be let me remind you that Tuvok told B'Elanna to her face that he thought Klingons #were basically savages - he is INDELICATE to say the least #Neelix is careful with his words bc he's a people pleaser for survival but also he has a tendency to bother people and be overly pushy #and I think he'd do a lot of research and be the one leading the conversation/the reason they get on the topic and continue on it #B'Elanna wouldn't want to talk about it. She wants to talk about it the least. But she must!!!! Bc the episode demands it!! #st voy

[nashvillethotchicken]

Thinking about Lestat seeing Louis’s eating patterns as a waste of his gift/himself while Armand gives Louis food that he literally can not enjoy or digest just so he has something on his stomach

#if i had to give each of louis relationship a theme loustat would be shame and loumand would be enabling #which are both really bad ways of “helping” a partner with an ed #lestats shame and anger tactics only make louis more resentful and less likely to eat #while armand having the little drinks and exotic animals and the human food dont actually deal with louis problem head on- #cus at the end of the day louis is still not eating enough #and i think they really exemplifies both of their trauma and abandonment issues #both of them came up chronically food insecure #lestat was put into the role of provider at a very early age and stayed in that role until he died/was turned #so for him rejecting what lestat gives is like rejecting lestat cus he doesnt have anything else to make him “useful” #and lestats reaction to rejection is anger and control so he tries to shame and control louis into eating more/human #while armand has been abandoned by literally everyone he loves up till this point so for him its like #ok i can make people dtay if i give them what they want and what louis wants is to not feel bad about eating and so armand does that #but it still doesnt get to the root of the issue which is louis having poor coping mechanisms for his grief and other emotions #like either way you slice it. louis is not meeting his nutritional needs. he eats drinks from one guy eats a fox or some other small animal #when he should be having like two dudes at least #and then he has human food which according to anne rice makes vampires vomit up their whole stomach content so... #louis imma send you to my therapist shes great #interview with the vampire #iwtv #louis de pointe du lac #amc iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #ldpdl #iwtv 2022 #armand iwtv #armand #loumand #loustat #like armand gives louis food he cant eat just so he knows theres something in louis stomach even for a short while

[sysig]

They’re perfect for each other honestly (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Simon Petrikov #Golbetty #It's not exactly Petrigrof but like - it's not Not that either lol #I'm really really happy that the show acknowledges that Simon was selfish in his and Betty's relationship - it's Very Good #And at the same time in it's small way Beth does give the concession of ''I guess that wasn't exactly [his] fault'' #They're both called out! Betty's obsession with Simon caused her own self-destruction - and she takes responsibility for it #Simon is still shafted with the consequences but it's not like Betty doesn't get her own consequences #This whole journey is just more consequences of both of their actions! Of what Betty modeled she was willing to give up! #And Simon loves her. He respects her. He was selfish and self-driven but that didn't stop her from taking root and inspiring him in return #Her being self-sacrificing and then in her own selfish way not letting Simon make the same mistakes as her I just hhhhh #They're so lovely ♥ #It's a bit matronizing of her haha but she Wants with her entire essence - she always has <3 #It's her turn to be selfish Simon has had his turn - she won't let him throw away her gift as much as he wants to #They're just both so beautifully flawed ahhhhh <3 <3 #''We made our choices. We could've made better ones but...I don't have any regrets.'' #It's about breaking the cycle! Of him rejecting making the same mistakes! It's beautiful ;; #Also all the halo imagery drives me nuts ♥ Angel bf and his cosmic goddess gf

[burningvelvet]

reading jane eyre reaffirmed my long-held beliefs that 1) the institution of marriage should be abolished 2) religion is a joke 3) teachers should get paid more 4) if a sexy man ever offers to set you up in a luxurious mediterranean villa filled with jewels and give you half his net worth, accept the offer 5) if a different sexy man ever offers to take you with him to india to be his servant while he brainwashes colonized peoples until you both die from impoverished conditions, do not accept the offer

#yes i understand jane/rochester’s relationship wouldn’t work if she hadn’t rejected him & he hadn’t been humbled by the disaster #but still #jane eyre #mr. rochester #st. john rivers

[coconut530]

CLOSETS. WOMEN. WOMEN IN CLOSETS.

Also Suitor Armor Fans hOW WE FEELING?!?!??!?

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #What a fun lil ep #Fun to see Nurse Dolly again I love doing her stern voice and she’s fed up with everything all the time #Sir were you listening to the instructions #Sir you can’t like do anything come on now it hasn’t even been like two hours since you were stabbed beat hit punched slashed #Yes Prospero whip some sense into him #Ada omg you’re smitten still #I wonder if those names are random or we’ll like see them #I wonder if one of them is the girl we saw in 54 #Anyway you got her mad now #Ok Will that’s a pretty volcanic-hot take #Voicing Montresor was kinda fun bc I was kinda tired too and him nodding off came very naturally hahah #Prospero doesn’t hate women good move #AND OMG ANNABEL IN THE CLOSET #LENORE LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO YOUR GF SHE’S SO SADDDDD #Well maybe not lenore did that duke and pluto mainly. but still she kinda rejected her before #IN THE CLOSETTTTTT #If next episode is like that one scene in 71 but for a whole episode I’m gonna be so happy #That scene is kinda everything for the posh besties #Funny how this ep is kinda comforting like how Shiloh: 101 is too I freaking love Shiloh: 101 #ANYWAY NEVERMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #ALSO LUCIA AND MODEUS FOREVERRRRRRRRR THE MUSIC WAS CUTE

[sinnamonpork]

Dabihawks' daughter who dreams of being a villain, but is upset that her parents doesn't support her very questionable life goal. She didn't know that Dabi was a villain before, but still had front row seats to how fractured hero society is with her Papa being a famous hero.

Imagine her trying to stroll into one of Japan's most known villain groups, the League of Villains, hoping to join their cause but is instead face-to-face with the people that is undeniably her aunts and uncles - the people who basically changed her diapers as a baby. Uncle Compress? Why is he wearing such a weird mask, doesn't he know that is so out of fashion already. Auntie Himiko? Wasn't she married to pro hero Uravity? What is she doing here?? Uncle Shiggy? Suddenly his claims of being an accountant is now very sus. What does he do? Count the number of heroes he kills?

Basically it becomes the spiderman meme but the League and dbhwks' daughter edition lmao. Dabi has a lot of explaining to do when his daughter comes home asking why Uncle Spinner is suddenly in a Stain cosplay.

#dabi is torn between supporting her daughter and rejecting her dream #bc it would make him a hypocrite lmao #dabi is fumbling how to explain his villain origins #while hawks is being the responsible parent and asking the question of why she was even in the villain lair in the first place #dabihawks #todoroki touya #dabi #pro hero hawks #takami keigo #dabi x hawks #touya x keigo #dabihawks lovechild #league of villains #mr. compress #himiko toga #togachako #very smol but still there #shimura tenko #shigaraki tomura #spinner #bnha #mha #imagines

[green-tea-lemonade]

if you think this is based off that one powerpuff girls comic youd be absolutely right

#art #digital art #procreate #homestuck #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #karkat vantas #warriorstuck #thats right were still on some warriors au shit and this train isnt slowing down one bit #sollux REALLY isnt a fan of the stars and quite frankly would be much happier dead as dirt than a potential afterlife dealing with them #nepeta knows this and because of that she doesnt really bug him about it unless she really has to #i think if i had the energy to do so i would really like to actually write something about them because it would be very fun #this is some solnep stuff too bc these two are besties even if shes annoying the crap out of him and he just chucks her out a window #nepeta practically has to drag him to every clan meeting and gathering bc he never really wants to go #welcome the clan of rejects and mishaps karkat pop a squat and stick around a while bc its all free entertainment

[ilikebobcuts642]

This will probably be a hot take but I will actually flip my shit if Dragona gets with anyone, especially Usagi. They better stay uninterested in dating till the very end.

#jjba #jojolands #dragona joestar #aro dragona #completely biased post #I’m not even going to deny it #Dragona is aro and there’s nothing you can do to change my mind #she literally says he and Jodio aren’t interested in dating #I say especially Usagi because the amount of people who saw Dragona reject him and thought they were in love is insane #character a could be screaming at character b to leave them alone and mfs will still think they’re in love

[juodojimirtis]

Demon Lilith Appreciation Post ❤

#warrior nun #sister lilith #demon lilith #lorena andrea #warrior nun season 2 #warrior nun gifs #warrior nun gifset #warrior nun fanwork #warrior nun fandom #wn gifs #my gifs #my gifset #i like how they executed the lilith fall and rise in power arch that calls to the mythology undoubtely #lilith gets rejected but finds her power and liberates herself from all... even “satan” #That I'm not a fan of because I'm a huge lover of the Satan/Lilith trope and would NEVER see him as a mere manipulator of her #in my eyes in Satan she found a kindred spirit who appreciated her power and shared a similar fate... that's a poor way to describe it #but this is tags maybe hou get what i mean #still i understamd the message #and i appreciate the wonderful execution #i get adriel wanting lilith #I want her too #she's the moat beautiful creature i have ever seen #can i marry her?..

[maddy-ferguson]

i'm never not thinking about how people think that the duffers used will's feelings to fix mlvn and are just okay with that. and think we were crazy for ever expecting anything else

#2022! #we don't even need to get into whether or not it would be queerbaiting #it's like a whole new level of shitty #and everyone is just like well. that's just how it is sometimes :/ gay people :/ like the story wrote itself lmao #it would've been one thing to have will be rejected but they really think that...i don't even know what they think. they think that el #feels the same and are probably like why didn't she tell him that herself why did will have to get involved that's kind of bad writing #probably #and this is why people who don't feel that strongly about mlvn needing to break up yesterday are so weird to me #'i would be okay with will getting another boyfriend if it was well written :)' it will never be well written are you stupid. even if it #was i would still need mlvn gone like what #for tons of reasons obviously but also for this one alone #i'm not even talking about this from like a storytelling perspective #and like i say: brf slt

[dootznbootz]

I feel kind of bad about that post I made talking about how Odysseus would never sacrifice his family to save his own skin while I didn't give a name, I hope that person doesn't feel bad or that they get hate. As I don't want to gatekeep someone's interpretation of the Odyssey but also...while I guess you could claim that he would do that, there's so much MORE evidence as to how he would literally rather be stabbed than see his wife and son have even a splinter

Her rejecting him at first put him in a bad position. Honestly, in an alternate universe, where she didn't accept him or trick him that night, I think the poor guy would've cried himself to sleep again in that separate cot. He'd probably cry to Athena and ask if he did something wrong.

It would probably be an "awkward morning" of Odysseus and Penelope silently doing their things (not bringing up suitors' parents right now. And Odysseus would probably tell Telemachus to not say anything stupid.) and eventually, everything would bubble up out of Odysseus and honestly, I could see him straight up begging her to accept him. Not even caring about how he appeared to others.

Honestly, if she DID take a lover in that time...I think he'd either accept it and just...wander? Around Ithaca as a beggar as he doesn't want to be away from them but if they won't accept him, what else can he do? OR if she had another lover, (War flashback of the shitty retelling where Penelope has an affair) he'd probably kill the lover as let's be honest, Odysseus is basically a Yandere, to put it simply. Touch the wife, you get the knife.

And yeah, he doesn't JUST want his family.

"Oh, he wants to not be in constant danger."

"He just wants to go back to Ithaca."

"He wants to be king again."

Boy howdy, he sure does!!! But if, for example, Penelope and Telemachus for some reason moved to somewhere else? IDK, AU where they permanently moved to Sparta, hanging with Helen and Menelaus, and she didn't remarry or something. He'd be like "Shit, okay, BRB." And go to them. He'd probably have them all go back to Ithaca but still, THEY ARE HIS HOME. They make Ithaca home. Any place is home as long as he has them.

Despite having the opportunity to wed the most beautiful woman in the world, he took the Oath so then he could marry Penelope. And even then, it wasn't "for sure" as he had to race her dad. He did so much simply to have the CHANCE to marry her even though he probably wasn't planning on getting married as he brought no gifts. And he did so much so then he wouldn't have to leave the life they had built together and their young baby.

He could've had ANYONE. Went ANYWHERE. Did ANYTHING and he still wanted THEM.

Like??? Holy shit. This guy would do ANYTHING for them. I mean that's kind of why he's considered to be so "scummy" in how ride or die he is for them and basically a bitch to everyone else. That's what makes him SO different from many of his peers.

Person: Would you rather have your family- Odysseus: Family, always. Person: I didn't even say it yet- Odysseus: I don't fucking care. Always family. Person: Even if it meant you got immortality and a hot goddess for a wife? Odysseus: You act like that's a good thing? That was literally torture. Fuck you. I already have a hot Water Wife™ that I get the privilege to drown in every day. She gave me a wonderful Water Son™ who is the light of my eyes and who I am more proud to be the father of than I am of being the son of an Argonaut Person: Even if I give you a million dollars? Odysseus, acting nonchalant while Penelope picks the person's pockets: As if we can't get that on our own. Person: You'd die? Odysseus: I'll set myself on fire if I have to. Person: ...Okay, new question. Would you rather lose your family- Odysseus: The other option. Always. Person: Even torture? Odysseus: I never said I would like it, just that I would do it. Person: Even yeet a baby?! Odysseus: I'll punt the baby if I have to. It's not like I wanna but I gotta do what I gotta do.

And so on and so forth. You GET IT.

#It's technically not enough as I will not shut up about them EVER but yeah. I have cat on lap. I have a cookie. aaaaaaaaaaaa #I did mean for this to be an apology and it became a rant again. I'm so sorry. but yeah... :'D I'm so fucking sorry. I'm such a bitch #I realized that there really wasn't the best evidence for this idea of him saving himself. there's more evidence to COUNTER that. #I mean he could've killed Penelope because she rejected him at first. HE was at risk because she didn't accept him. #and while he was REALLY fucking hurt and called her cruel. he STILL let her have their bed. Their fancy bed that represented THEM #that he refused to sleep in any other bed but that one but if she's not in it with him? There's no point. #It's not a marriage bed if he can't have the marriage that it represents with it. #sad au where Odysseus isn't accepted and he just...stays and watches... can't even move on because he doesn't want anything else #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #let's be real. Odysseus is against drowning but if it's from the Water Wife???👀 He'd be fine sinking to the bottom of the “river” #“Get in the Water” sung by Penelope would be a COMPLETELY different...tune. #*coughs* #I feel so insane right now. Yahoo #sdkjfskldjf #essay

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like