#and neither listens to me when I talk

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

Not so fun fact about me, if I’m having a conversation with one person and another joins in, the two people usually start talking together and I can leave. I don’t think anyones ever noticed

#like I’ll be having a small convo #random friend of other person who might also be my friend comes along #says hi to both of us #starts talking #original person also talks #and neither listens to me when I talk #and I can just leave and they practically never notice #I’m the wraith #invisible #I actually really hate this #just so awesome to never be anyones favorite person #maybe I’m a bit bitter #and maybe I shouldn’t leave #but I just feel awkward standing there without saying anything #and I deserve to feel a little bitter about this i think #btw this is not just like with two people practically everyone I know won’t notice if I just leave #lonely #it’s ok tho I don’t need to be their favorite person #I just need to be there when they need me #I can manage on my own I have one friend for sure who never ignores me #and I’ve never left a convo with him in it! #well kinda once I said bye and he didn’t say it back and I left but then k waved at him through a window and he saw me

[tandytoaster]

The lil 14 year old trans boy at my work said I was his favourite

#noop nooping #KIDS R SO FUNNY like u listen to them and then theyre like im gonna follow u around #IM UR MOM NOW. UR FATHER AND I ARE DIVORCED NEITHER OF US HAVE CUSTODY #HES SUCH A NICE KID #im giggling bc he and quinn had a connection when the kid first started but now in like 🤭 teehee my kid now #AND ITS EVEN FUNNIER bc quinn was like 'he reminds me so much of myself when i was his age. hes my son now' #BUT NOW IM THE PARENT. we're divorced. ITS FUNNY #i stole your kid and you stole my bestie. im influencing the queer youth of this conservative town im succeeding #when i first met him he came in on a day he didnt work and one of the reasons he was there was to meet me bc quinn told him about me 🥺 #his parents are supportive so im rlly glad he has that #IM WORRIED ABOUT COMING OFF AS CREEPY TALKING ABOUT THIS but its just a nice feeling being a positive figure in some1's life #at my work its like microdosing helping ppl bc its retail. and the kid is there on saturdays. this is why i went to college jrmqmxjwkdgwh #i think the kind of social work i would enjoy most is peer support. if i ever want to re-enter the field #oh yea i think i saw my old supervisor today 😑 YUCKY

[lisbonsteresa]

i'm going to SCREAM

#tm #you don't get how UNHINGED this makes me it's SO #like he's been out all day trying to track down this missing kid (as part of her case too; to give her another avenue against volker) #and they have their little catch up and at first he's concerned (she's been at this all day and now into the night too #and he GETS it - in a way maybe other people wouldn't - but he doesn't want her to burn herself out; he wants her to be careful #maybe he's about to tell her a version of 'get some sleep') #but then she talks about amanda and it makes me NUTS because she does NOT ask for his help #she doesn't ask him to stay; to read the files with her; to 'burn the midnight oil' with her #she's just...stating her case; explaining why this means so much to her; and he listens; he takes it in; and he makes the choice to help #to sit in this with her and to help her work through it #and i just -- neither of them will ask the other for help (yes i know she did at the end of the last episode the context is different ok) #but they're both so quietly (and sometimes not so quietly) desperate to help each other it makes me sick #it's so interesting to see how they deal with this as the show goes on....idk how to explain it but like #when jane needs help he closes himself off; he keeps secrets and he schemes and he lies ('let me help you' 'you're sweet') #because he's trying to keep the people he cares about - the people he never planned on caring about as much as he does - safe #even as he shares more with lisbon (and sometimes the rest of the team) he still doesn't share everything #because that puts them at risk #and that's what lisbon used to do to - in the earlier seasons she put up walls when she felt vulnerable; and she still does in some cases #but with this case especially she's much more accepting of help - she relies on her team (not that she doesn't usually) #and she's practically an open book to jane - in this scene most of all - she lets herself be more vulnerable #(and open to suggestions/ideas she might otherwise scoff at or reject) #idk idk it's very interesting but this scene makes me so wacky there's something so soft and tender and understanding about it #the way there's no spoken acknowledgement - no 'i'll help' or 'thank you' - just the silent understanding that they're in this together #because they're partners #(also the way he picks at the rest of her food - the 'done with this?' the only thing they say - and the framing through the window #is still somehow very domestic it's like my perfect scene) #spinning my wheels hard i'm not thinking clearly i just love everything about it

[bluejaybytes]

Anyways this is Jenna and Maggie to me. Maggie wakes up and realizes she was murdered and Jenna's like damn ! I wonder if they made a Forensic Files episode about you. and then she does not say that

#my OCs #listen i know I said Jenna was a 'regular person' in comparison to Maggie but let me be clear. She's a massive weirdo #its just that Maggie eclipses everyone with her weirdness being on previously unseen levels #Jenna finds a teenage girl passed out in a field in the middle of the day and instead of getting medical help she just kinda hangs around #She didnt believe in ghosts prior but when Maggie tells her she sees ghosts her reaction is 'okay makes sense' #She basically instantly latches onto Maggie and vows to help her based off of. basically nothing #BUT THATS PART OF THE POINT. #Jenna has a horrendously shitty homelife that she wants ANY excuse not to go home #and helping Maggie is a way to get there. Of course- it all IS real so she ends up sticking around out of more than just not wanting to go- #-home- but that doesnt mean Jenna isn't any less weird for just. attaching herself to the first person her age that lets her #the point is theyre both intensely lonely! Jenna by force and Maggie by choice! Their bond with each other is them breaking out of that!!! #NOW: ARE THEY DATING? great question! they dont know either #they're both allergic to communication so neither of them talk about it but they definitely blurring the lines there

[high-key-satan-low-key-satanic]

Yuri : That was so hot, babe.

Satan : Thanks.

Yukio : I'm a little scared to ask, but what did he do?

Satan : Nothing? I literally called some filthy human who flirted with your mother a degenterate dog and told them I planned to turn them into a blood eagle if they were persistent.

Yukio : I'm sorry a blood-what?

Satan : A blood eagle, it's not too difficult to do. You just carve the back open and cut the ribs away from their spine, pull out the lungs from the gap, and inflate.

Yukio : *Disgusted*

Satan : Blood eagle, honestly, what do they teach you in school nowadays.

Yuri : Again, I'm so in love with you.

Satan : Again, thanks.

#Yes i have been replaying Assasins Creed Valhalla and yes i think Satan you enjoy the unique torture methods of ancient Norwegians #and honestly who would threaten to mutilation some guy who flirts with your wife? i would #an no exorcist #incorrect quotes #revelations paradise acquired #blue exorcist #satan #yuri egin #yukio okumura #also the “again thanks” ugh my mind he thinks he's being cool #listen #he can't make eye contact with her when shes being affectionate at the best of times #but neither can i when hot women talk to me so maybe this is projection?

[englishlotusflower]

I don't know if anyone reads my fic 'Look To Your Kingdoms (I Am Coming For Them All)', but honestly I don't care.

I just need everyone to know that Celegorm and my OC Isiloth (who for the record is not the main character, was not in the first four drafts of the fic, and was meant to have only one line in her original form in draft no. 5 or 6) are basically married. On the 'wear co-ordinated outfits to a feast (with extra Symbolism because Celegorm is a Noldo and therefore Isiloth wearing his colours is a Thing)'; 'adopt a half-feral child together'; 'go on family trips of them and their adopted child'; 'Isiloth gets ready for feasts with Curufin's wife who is wearing Curufin's colours while Isiloth wears Celegorm's'; 'Celegorm giving Isiloth a full set of jewellry without even asking what her dress will be because he knows her so well'; 'working together to rule Himlad the same way Curufin and his wife do' level.

Oh and neither of them know. They're both idiots who haven't realised they've been married since the Sun rose.

No one needed to know this but no one has picked up on it in 46,000 words of fic so I needed to rant.

#silmarillion #celegorm #ramblings #random #original character #They met fighting orcs btw and Celegorm fell in love when he saw her shoot an orc at 100 paces in dim starlight #He did not realise of course and thought they were just very intense best friends #She became his second in command within like a month #Also Isiloth fell in love after the orcs had been defeated when she saw Celegorm cuddling Huan and calling him the bestest boi #She also did not realise she was in love #They are married with a child (who is technically Caranthir's but eh) and neither of them realise #These idiots aren't pining they just dont realise they're in love #Also I would like it noted they are both millennia old vaguely eldritch immortals with the accompanying wow factor #It just doesn't preclude them from being idiots #Thank you for listening to my ted talk that is irrelevant to everyone but me and the like 30 people that read look to your kingdoms

[isabelguerra]

i love pnat dynamics so much i cannot put it into words everyone is so wrong about each other except when they are right. nobody talks to anyone they should be talking to that would make for interesting and compelling character development. the interpersonal drama is so burdened that characters can barely look at each other without feeling horrible. its so genuinely unironically my favorite

#paranatural #edit this is NOT praising the writing. this is dunking on it. not bad dunking exactly like affectionate dunking but dunking nonetheless #its ‘wow youre terrible. i like you.’ we’re bitter exes. we’re divorced #ive been reading this comic for so long and theyve been with me for so long sometimes i forget everyone is like 12 #characters u feel u have grown up with but they have stayed the same. you are the one who has changed. #anyway in my little imaginary mega headcanon au theyre all college students right now and they will deal with college student depressi #on right there with me #‘there are already adults in pn’ well i dont care about them have you considered that. #isabel guerra is a 22yo lit major who hasnt experienced summer the same way since she was 16 and misses it #max puckett is her roommate who sits upside down on their shitty apartment couch while isabel works on her thesis and he talks to her about #camera techniques. ed calls from art school three states over sometimes but they arent as close as they were when they were 12 and that gap #has only widened. they both want things to go back to how they were before but neither know how #isaac age 23 still feels his emotions very strongly but has gotten better at confronting them #hes 23 so hes a dumbass bc 23yos are dumbasses but hes working so that by his 30s he’ll get his psychology lisence to help confused kids #johnny and isabel started hanging out in highschool and haven’t stopped since. he comes over a lot for him and isabel to bounce ideas #off each other. he helps her w her lit research bc isabel loves it but is kinda shit at it. johnnys an english major #so hes better with that stuff but still pretty stupid. hes just got good at old english bc of forge #if it gets late sometimes theyll just turn the lights out and listen to the fan run in the dark. they usually keep that part a secret though #max knows he just doesn’t say anything. isabel appreciates it. #rj goes to the same art school as ed and studies photography. theyre really good at it they’ve gotten some big gigs #but their favorite thing to photograph is their friends every time theyre home #stephens getting his media degree to start his own ghost hunting show. he has a youtube channel but hes trying too hard w it. #needs 2 loosen up and have some fun. ollie wants 2 be a veterinarian but hes taking a couple gap years while taking on and off classes #at the local community college. hes doin pretty good #i did not realize how much ive been typing. beddy bye goodnight <3

[the-acid-pear]

the more i think about kris the more my insanity increases tbh there's just so much nuance with not only them but also the player and their relationship and it's layes upon layers of them and i keep tryin to peel them off inside my brain and its going to turn me into a dc villain or something

#luly talks #like the common idea is kris doesn't like the player. that's what we all seem to believe. but the more i think of it the least true it feel #sure they arent jumping in joy over the idea of having us with them but they also constantly keep us with them #even when you look at things abouhnhjnn oh good lord #im gonna throw up hang on fuck man. i mean isnt it FUCKING HILARIOUS 🤡 how being a puppet is almost a two way thing? #perhaps not a puppet per say but. we as the player arent really free either #not at fucking all. our choices matter as little as kris #wouldnt WE want too to be free? #we literally need kris to exist. we are tied to kris like kris is tied to us. we too are a being in this world that is trapped and limited #our vessel WAS literally destroyed after all. neither kris' or OUR choices matter #now lets think for a second about the babygirl our favorite rated salesman. okay? we usually understand he's projecting he wants freedom #and we assume kris wants freedom too i mean it would make a lot of sense #but. kris is moving their blue ass down to the basement for that. we are. #of COURSE spamton says Hyperlink Blocked which is commonly believed to be LOVE as in LV which like. #WHICH LIKE IS ACTUALLY MORE TIED TO THE FUCKING PLAYER THAN KRIS IM GONNA RIP MY LEG OFF #ITS TRUE SO TRUE BESTIE DONT WE? DONT WE WANT MORE LEVEL MORE POWER? #TOBY LOVES TO BARK BACK AT HIS FANS WHEN THE FANS GET A LITTLE ANNOYING EVERYONE WAS UPSET ABOUT THE LACK OF KILLIN IN CH1 #WE LITERALLY WANTED THAT SHIT TOO #your honor i am going insane if the jury thinks this is too far im pleading insanity but listen to me #it's there. we are a character in this world as much as anyone else is. #anyway that rant about spamton and the connections with US as the player aside i wanted to talk about kris so moving on #i think that's the best thing i've said since i got into deltarune i might try put it in a decently written post if i can work out the insa #ity also if my mutuals see if and are like yeah that's good make a coherent post about it boy in which case ill say on it boss and wag my t #il and run to do it anyway KRIS. #its just interesting. i think its a bit gratuitous to assume they HATE us. do they like all we do? DEF NOT LMAO. but there's more to this #kris knows more than we fucking do and that's just a fact #they might even know more about us than we know about ourselves after all the soul has been there since before we were playing #which i dont want to ask what implies its a bit nasty to think about #nasty as in confusing btw KJFNGBJGHB #there's just a lot going on with kris and stuff like the bunker and the piano

[oatbugs]

WARNING: The penalty for trespassing on the railway is £1000.

#here is the story of two researchers and one 0 on the truth table. here is how you almost tied up my arm in a belt #because you lost your tourniquet and neither of you could find my veins. did it feel good to get it off your chest #did it feel cathartic to talk about sin? in a room full of policymakers and experts i shook hands with a theoretical #physicist creating breathing metal. we talked about annual ruination. there is a boy in gold earrings #and two strangers growing a fake hologram with their minds. you discover you like wine and that you are #perhaps only a little bit cutthroat. here is a teapot full of tequila and a glance a curling of the lips that renders you [0] #first on the index and quickly overlooked. you want to be loved? here is the difficult bit. girl teaches you how to speak mandarin. still #too drunk to find your veins but here i want to be loved anyway. in a shocking turn of events the thing that keeps me alive #projected through my lovers noise cancelling headphones causes a slow peak in the 10 millisecond span i process #falling lights and yet increases accuracy to almost 87.5%. is it magic or are you just discussing your downfall? #the truth is have no skill or qualification to my name. i want you to listen to me. he said you will be a king. he said if a bomb #fell on this room everything that matters would be over. YOU WANNA LEARN ABOUT LOVE YOU SELFISH FUCKER? YOU SHOULD HAVE CHOSEN ME #WHEN YOU WERE 15. THE LOVE IS GONE IF YOU HAVE TO ASK IT. hes the alaskan #WHEN YOU WERE 15. THE LOVE IS GONE IF YOU HAVE TO ASK IT. i am the alaskan malmute under the dinner table begging for scraps #in a place im not supposed to be. in the field it was me with the drumsticks her (the world piano champion and the researcher and the #the machine gun) with the 巴乌 him with the guitar this is outside of london this is the ex presidents ex advisor telling you to give up #this is your brain and this is the day after doom. this is her washing the EEG conductive gel out of your hair in the restaurant bathroom #this is the skill to possess guilt without carrying shame.

[baking-bisexual-bitch]

My psychiatrist is so insane dude shes like "i can't refill your stimulant prescription cause it's been too long since we've talked (even though we're talking right now so)" but by the end of the session she's trying to get me a random job as a standard patient cause she knows I'm a figure model and thinks they are similar jobs (they are not)

#going from a irish dude psychiatrist to jewish woman psychiatrist is so funny #frist one talks for 30 mins telling me the same coffee metaphor for med dosage ive been hearing for 5 years #second one talks for 5 mins and straight up will no believe me when i say 5-10mgs is enough to effect my med sensitive ass #neither one will ever listen to me

[myblacknightworld]

So not only am I rereading the acotar series, I'm also rereading a lot of shoujo mangas I haven't read in years. Why? Who the fuck knows, maybe I need some romance in my life.

#vitadacami #blacky reads things #a court of thorns and roses #acotar #feysand #sabaku no harem #faster than a kiss #love so life #kaichou wa maid sama #who made me a princess #i love feysand okay?????? #they're good they're so good #and it's soulmates of CHOICE bc like #it's been said many many times in the books how a bond doesn't mean you're suited for each other #who made me a princess got awesome art and Athy is a very fun protagonist #never got around to finish it but i will this time #kaichou wa maid sama is a classic don't even @ me #listen i stumbled upon both faster than a kiss and love so life when i was 15 and I liked them #i like how neither of the two ml ever force the fl into anything they don't want #and live with them out of a true desire to help (and be helped if we're talking about love so life) #they're RESPECTFUL and I stan #sabaku no harem.... can't evwn remember how i found it but I've been thinking about it on and off for years after i first read it #it's that good

[yoohyeontual]

I thought I would have a nice day today, but it turn into a big fight how great

#my mom is constantly saying we don’t care about her and that we won’t let her express herself #but the way she need to express herself hurts both me and my dad so we kindly tell to not do it please #but she get offended cause she take it that we don’t care about her feeling and take the side opposite of her #but once we tell her she dosen’t consider OUR feelings she repeat that we don’t care about HERS #no you’re the one only caring about your feeling #I’m exhausted I’m already so stress and confused about what to do I need money and the store won’t call back so I need to find somethin #but there’s nothing around my house that won’t end with me having having panic attack everyday like at my old job #but she won’t hear a word we say if we ever tell her she does something to hurt us she takes it as an insult #she says to take her as she is and she will never change even tho we tell her it hurts us but we should change and and absorb everything #todays conversation was one we have often and I feel the same way she does about the subject but I hate talking about it we don’t have #to keep talking about it what is done is done no matter how much we talk against it it just hurt #even when I told her it was mentally the worst time of my life she still thing that I should listen to her complain non stop and have #to think about it when it just hurt #i feel like Imm just repeating but imm so tired of everything and don’t wanna go in detail I hope it still clear #we had plans today and everything is just ruin #i would continue playing my game and stay distract but this ruined my mood so bad #tomorrow is probably gonna be bad to cause my botch my parents are stubborn especially my dad and he won’t talk to her now and probably #won’t tomorrow neither and she’s gonna be mad and say that he should get over it #i would cause I hate to fight I just want peace but he’s not like that #i love them but they are exhausting sometimes #i wish I could just leave but I have no one to meet and I’m scared if I leave they are going to fight even more today or tomorrow #or that my mom will get offended idk #i wish I wasn’t coming back to complain but I need to ‘’speak’’ somewhere or I’ll break down 😭 #I’m not here often and I don’t feel like scrolling you can tag me in things if you want it would help or use my tag for your content 💕 #I’ve been stalking a tag for a couple of days that’s why I couldn’t resist reblog that nice Eri post when I came earlier and keep reblogging #alex.txt #tw negative

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

To this day I think one of the best friendships I ever had was my color guard friend. We got super super close cause we were both in love with our best friends and refused to tell them. They were one of the only people who would listen to me go on and on and on and talk to me about what was going on without losing interest partway through cause they’d heard it a thousand times. Bestie would let me talk their ear off all the time. And we’d turn right around and I’d do the same for them

#i miss bestie so so so much #nothing happened between us we just lost touch after I graduated #neither of us are good at responding to one another over text anymore #we talked the other day #it’s like no time has ever passed between us when we do talk #I’m actively fighting texting one of my friends bc I know a life update is gonna turn into me venting and I don’t want that #but man. i miss my color guard friend. we’d send each other mile long paragraphs back and forth all day and night long #it was never too much. it was never just waiting for the other person to finish so we could talk about something else #it wasn’t multitasking and being like oh sorry what I wasn’t listening #if ever it was hey I gotta do a thing for a little I’ll reply later. and then we would in depth reply #i loved my little therapy sessions with them #they were a Lot more successful at love than me. i learned a lot with that friendship #if I could have one person teleport to college with me they would so easily be in the top two #bestie for life right there. I’ll be thinking of them a lot in color guard this fall #i wonder how much they work this summer. I’d love to see them #i wanna know every single detail of what’s up with them and what’s new #soup talks

[loverofallthingssmart]

listening to my gfs bio lecture while i do my readings is truly height of productivity

#who needs lofi when i can just listen to my gf talk abt one of my fave sciences to help her stufy for her exam while i do #my work so im free on the weekend to . well. do more work. #lich 2 and a half hours of her voice (on 1.5x bc she loves me) is sending me the energy i need to suffer thru this. #every time i hear her yawn i explode into hearts bc its so cute but thats neither here or there #anyway. i hate textbook readings unless theyre science bc science textbooks r fun and everything else is not.

[p0ison-moon]

(this is petty and unreasonable of me but also it’s real feelings so whatever) gosh I just love the cycle of antisemitic thing happens ➡️ all my goy friends put one (1) thing on their Instagram story about and don’t mention it ever again or ask me if I’m okay ➡️ the post they shared is from some Zionist org that thinks Palestinians don’t have the right to organize and advocate for themselves and call out Israel etc etc or whatever ➡️ I get angry but don’t say anything because I’m always the angry anti-Zionist and also the angry Jew and I don’t want them to feel like they’re never going to be good enough for me ➡️ repeat

#mercy.txt #it’s like I don’t know how to approach anyone about this #I’m too nice and they don’t listen or take it seriously #or I’m too mean (translation: I’m firm and honest) and it feels like they resent me for scolding them #meanwhile I see all these mediocre takes about Zionism every day and it annoys me #as Jews we do not get to absolve ourselves from our involvement with Zionism just because it’s uncomfortable #like. it’s not up to you to finish the job but neither are you free to withdraw from it. you get what I mean? #this isn’t fully our mess but that doesn’t mean we get to ignore it & never talk about it #I know so many Jews who say they agree with me but won’t actually stand up and say that Loudly. #I know that conflating Judaism with Zionism is a massive problem but it’s like this: #Judaism ≠ Zionism but as Jews we’re still obligated to call out injustice when we see it #especially when it’s happening in a place that’s meaningful to us & being done by other Jews #like לא תעמוד על דם רעיך #yes it’s inappropriate for people to bring up Israel the second we try to have a conversation about antisemitism #but the solution isn’t to say that we should never have to acknowledge Israel #(all while passively and quietly supporting Israel by not saying anything) #my main takeaway is that you can stand up against antisemitism and Zionism & it’s irresponsible not to #like it doesn’t even have to be an online thing I just want to see other Jews agreeing with me openly #I’ve had a grand total of one (1) Jew stand up with me in a meaningful way #and that was just a conversation outside of synagogue on Rosh Hashanah! it wasn’t hard! #anyways I’ll shut up now

[rohirric-hunter]

I have what I like to call a “makeup-passing” face, which means that my eyelashes are dark and my lips are red and my skin is more or less the same color across the board by default, and by and large one of the most hilarious conversations I’ve ever had was when this adult woman went off about this sixteen-year-old in our work group who never wore any makeup. Now, I didn’t like this girl, her personality was just miserable and she was horrible at teamwork, but neither of those things have anything to do with makeup. So this adult woman started going on about how she never wears any makeup, and I was like, “Uh, well, I don’t wear makeup either,” hoping that would angle the conversation back towards her actual flaws, but this woman was not letting up. She said, “I’m not asking her to wear a ton, but every woman who respects herself should have a little lipstick and some basic mascara every day,” and I got a little fed up and said, “I don’t own any mascara and I only wear lipstick with evening gowns,” and this adult woman just kind of stared at me for almost forty seconds before going. “Well. You can do that.” Like she was so obviously trying so hard to avoid saying that I was pretty enough to do that but this other girl wasn’t because even she could tell it was kind of a shitty thing to say when it was that plainly put, but she was also having a lot of trouble getting over this “wearing makeup is the way for a woman to respect herself (and the people around her)” hump and it was honestly genuinely funny.

#i was eighteen at the time and not especially confrontational #i probably shouldnt have been shit talking the girl but listen she was horrible to work with #i never intended for the conversation to go further than #'i dont like working with her' 'me neither shes annoying' #but such is the nature of such conversations they often go further than you meant #anyway tho her makeup habits had nothing to do with why she was hard to work with #i think the woman thought it was another symptom of her personality flaws? but like genuinely there are so many reasons #to not wear makeup or to wear it #you cant make assumptions across the board about why someone does it or what it says about them #but yeah #i wouldnt say im lucky to look like this because i cant go to a corner store without the cashier asking for my number #but then i also dont have to hear random makeup lectures from older women who arent my mother so #you win some you lose some i guess #its not super comforting when i know theyre mostly only refraining from the lectures because they think im wearing makeup #i did actually wear quite a bit of foundation/eyeshadow/lipstick in college #i was experimenting #also the foundation had acne medicine in it and it was fantastic #some of the best ive used #but after i ran out i couldnt find the same brand again so i stopped doing that #sometimes i get wild colored lipstick and wear it tho #esp blue