#and my chest. numb

[elb4ckfl1po]

hey tumblr do we got any recovery tips for top surgery

#dawg i am so itchy #and my chest. numb #uncomfort forever #:( #eggposts #top surgery #masectomy #recovery

[probablyreal]

#it is actually halfway decent just #so incredibly mind numbing #flight rising #mine #higgins #did my bonding... odds are about #1 chest every 13 fams

[doll-elvis]

oh.

#suddenly my brain is numb and my mouth is watering #big daddy you don’t know what you to do me #oh to be pinned underneath him with no way to escape #he could suffocate me with that chest and I’d thank him for it #overpower my senses please #god bless bill belew for designing that scoop line #elvis thirst post #big daddy elvis #elvis presley #elvisaaronpresley #elvis #elvis photos #70s #70s elvis #elvis fans #elvis fandom

[marclef]

surgery update time fellas, i finally got my drains taken out and my binders/gauze stuff and

holy fucking shit

MY CHEST MAY BE SCARRED TO HELL AND SORE AND HEALING BUT OH MY GOD IT'S SO DIFFERENT SEEING IT THIS FLAT

I SPENT HALF THE DAMN CHECKUP JUST STARING AT MYSELF THINKING HOW WEIRD IT FELT

i still have to wear at least one binder for a bit for healing but, getting the bigger one off was such a damn relief though, legitimately felt so nice not being squeezed like that any more

thanks to everyone who's had such nice things to say too, i love y'all very much and it means so much to me 🥺❤❤❤❤❤

#hello another long rambling post but AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH I'M FREE I CAN TAKE A GODDAMN SHOWER AFTER A WEEK #I CAN SLEEP IN MY BED TONIGHT!!!! MY BED!!!!!!!! I DON'T HAVE TO SLEEP IN THE GODDAMN RECLINER ANY MORE #I'M SO MUCH MORE FREE NOW AND IT FEELS SO FUCKING GOOD EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THERE'S A LOT MORE STILL COMING #my chest is also like. weird and numb. i mean it's probably gonna be like that 'til the scars heal more but. oouuuooghhhhgh it's different #my gay trans ass staring at my scarred marker-covered bruised chest though like 👁👁

[meatexe]

i dont even know how to feel anymore help

#sometimes im so angry my chest is hot n sometimes i wanna cry outta no where n sometimes im so numb i cant stand it but nothing i do #helps any of it n so im just at the mercy of my emotions constantly #i feel so disconnected n like i exist in a world apart from everyone else n its so lonely sometimes #i hate my body n i hate my job n i hate my peers n i dont feel at home anywhere how do ppl live like this !!!!!!

[batdevil19]

I really don't know why I keep on hoping that i can be loved.

That my love will be corresponded, but something i've learned is that I'm not worth it.

Never considered, never cared for, never an option.

Fox D.

#dead eyes #dead inside #unloveable #lone wanderer #so much pain #always alone #abandoned #i wish i was dead #i cant do this #i give up #i feel numb #never an option #hole in my chest #i'm dyin here #alone in the dark

[pansyfemme]

this is one of those transition milestones that seems insane to cis people but im finally getting some chest/nipple sensation back after nearly two years and im thrilled

#its been numb about a inch around each graft for a while #but thats been shrinking and its mostly on my right side but theres a little bit coming back #in particular this may be tmi but my right nipple hardened under cold water which was huge bc i didnt think id ever get that back #i wasnt very sensative pre op and had a large chest and eds so my results are slightly wonky #so i didnt expect any to come back but apperantly it did

[dresdendean]

my cunty surgeon left enough nip meat for me to get them pierced #considering

#theyre mostly numb but my chest itself does sometimes still feel sore/tender #but idk i think theyre cute……

[amygdalae]

god my brain was trying to kill me this morning but I'm a bit better now ^u^ yippee!

#straight up got so sad it felt like a vice closing around my chest like i couldnt breathe as my brain got flooded with. Bad #but im more ok now. kinda numb but thats preferable #anyways. hi i hope every1 is having a good wednesday

[flamestar126]

Set me free so I can ignore my human body for 7 hours to draw until i ache again

#i have been in a repeating cycle and i will die in the middle of it #i get really down during summer time so much to even draw and it stuck this time around #not sure why but late june and all july is just really eh time. especially last summer and it lingered on my chest #but drawing with purpose really helps #especially traditional art where i can really go at my own quick pace and use both hands. i love it #i say this as my fingers are going numb and losinf feeling in my wrists #flame rambles

[the-yearning-astronaut]

Got turned down today by one of the schools I applied to -- didn't even make the wait-list. 122 applications to the program, 26 made the interview shortlist. 13 offers were made with the other 13 students going on the wait-list.

It wasn't even the school I was really hoping for but it still hit like a gut punch. I'm trying so hard to not let my hopes crash for the offer i really want but FUCK it's hard.

#and I'm really not looking forward to the the emotional fallout if i dont get an offer #I've been numb since this afternoon. (I'm sure the antianxiety med I took has something to do about that tho lol.) and this school was like #my third choice lmao #god my chest hurts still #☉ #fox thoughts #grad school

[awarmshrine]

E says that their words yesterday were only about how they felt and weren't meant to criticise or shame me. But my inner voice doesn't understand that. It has grasped hold of every hurtful word it can ("angry" "frustrated" "selfish" "privileged") and it won't stop repeating them in my head. I know I'm taking everything E said out of its context but it's so hard to think clearly. I feel empty inside and dead and heartbroken. I want to go back to [redacted city].

#my chest hurts #I feel small and numb #I am not a good person and I wish ppl would stop thinking I am #and then being disappointed and angry when I turn out not to be #my words matter

[kinglypup]

taking my first shower tomorrow :) might take some photos if i dont faint !

#i did almost faint today when my doctor took my compression vest off lol #twas scary but i did not faint #the fact that my chest is completely numb is so wild #like i cant feel anything but pressure so my chest feels hollow #if that makes sense #shits crazy yall i dont know why i wasnt expecting to be completely numb #mine

[unnonexistence]

just realized it's been a long time since i listened to my sad trans playlist :)

#personal #adjusting to top surgery over the past year and change has been weird #there were some immediate negatives with anxiety and recovering from surgery #having numb patches on my chest was really distressing #and despite being glad i did it idk if i had that YAY IM SO RELIEVED feeling a lot of people describe #but like. i think some of the positives snuck up on me? #it was like taking a boat up a canal with locks maybe #low water level and then AUGH WHATS THIS THE WATERS MOVING!! very strange time for a while #and then oh ok things seem normal again. time to sail out of the canal #but the new baseline is actually much higher

[hummingbirdswords]

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#most days I feel like my emotions are broken and missing #and I wish I felt things with enough intensity for me to notice the differences between my different emotions #but then those days (like today) where I get hit with The Sads I am glad for the days when I'm mostly numb bc this is TOO MUCH #every minor thing is making me feel awful #my chest feels tight and I can't stop crying -- and I'm not used to crying bc of my feelings #like i need to watch sad things and listen to sad music for eye maintenance basically 😂 just to make sure they don't dry out #but today I've cried so many times that my eyes must be so confused

[batdevil19]

I wish I'd never fell in love

Fox D.

#dead eyes #dead inside #unloveable #lone wanderer #unloved #abandoned #unperfect #i'm so tired #i'm dyin here #suffering #numb #crying inside #yelling into the void #i am aching #hole in my chest #not trying anymore #trust nobody #i hate it #it hurts so much #fuuccckkkk #i feel like shit