#it is actually halfway decent just

[probablyreal]

#it is actually halfway decent just #so incredibly mind numbing #flight rising #mine #higgins #did my bonding... odds are about #1 chest every 13 fams

[yourheartinyourmouth]

a fucking MITZVAH out of nowhere!!!!!!!

a dear friend’s parents are offering to give us 3K to get the car repaired. fucking. a big pile of money fell into our laps. oh my gods. because they have more than they need and they are happy to share it, because to do is a mitzvah, a good deed, and they’re the kind of people who like to help.

i’m fucking crying i was telling husbeast earlier that unless a big pile of money fell into our laps we were SOL, and then….a big pile of money fell into our laps.

Khaire Hermes, Friend of Man!!!!!!

#it’s not perfect but it will more than do!!!!! #now hopefully the car you know…can be repaired #it’s over 20 years old and in VERY bad shape #it’s a pt cruiser and we have sunk enough fucking money into this thing to buy an actually halfway decent car #if it takes the whole 3K to repair it that will be like 9k sunk into this stupid thing #but we’ve never had that 9k all at ONCE to be able to buy a better car #a lot of it has had to be borrowed and paid back over time #yes yes a car loan but hey guess what!! poor people don’t usually have credit scores good enough for that #or if we do we get predatory loans that are literally impossible to pay off #so #nah #i am honestly hoping the mechanic says the thing is dead and we need a new car and they give us 3K to just buy a different car #hopefully one that isn’t made entirely of rust and garbage #seriously do not ever buy a pt cruiser they are the WORST

[punchratt]

God I am such a slut for a good fishing mini-game

#your game could be complete ass and I’d still play it if the fishing was halfway decent #been replaying stardew valley and hot-take but the fishing is actually really good and a lot of fun #you just gotta have some patience #it’s genuinely one of the most rewarding aspects of the game to me #rattrambles #stardew valley #stardew #fishing

[fictionadventurer]

It's the time of year to get really upset that Jane Austen never finished The Watsons.

It would have put the Jane Fairfax/Fanny Price Changeling Child plotline front-and-center, with a heroine who'd been adopted into high society only to be sent back to live with a lower-class family she no longer knows.

But she'd have had an Anne Elliot sister whose good-natured practicality keeps the family together even while she deals with the heartbreak of being separated from the man she once loved.

And a harpy of a sister whose machinations make everyone's lives miserable.

And a brother who's a surgeon (!) who has his own hopeless unrequited love story happening in the background.

And when their father died, the girls would have had to live with a higher-class brother and his disagreeable wife who would have found them a burden.

Meanwhile, our heroine is being pursued by a socially-awkward, proud lord who doesn't know how to discuss anything but hunting.

But she's really in love with a humble, kind curate who is devoted to caring for his widowed sister and her children.

But the curate is being romantically pursued by the lord's predatory mother.

And mixed up in all this is a charming, lively young man who uses his skills to grovel for position with his betters.

In short, we could have had Jane Fairfax and Anne Elliot as devoted sisters forced to live with John and Fanny Dashwood while their sister Lucy Steele causes problems, a Charles Musgrove version of Mr. Darcy pursues Jane, Anne gets a chance to be reunited with her Wentworth, and Jane falls in love with a Henry Tilney version of Edward Ferrars who's being pursued by Lady Susan, while Wickham is doing his best to be Mr. Collins. Plus a romance plot for a brother! We could have had a book with the family complexities and darker issues of Sense and Sensibility and Mansfield Park and the light, bright and sparkling humor of Pride and Prejudice.

But we don't, because she never finished it, and I'm so upset.

#the watsons #jane austen #it's a very october story so it comes to mind a lot #i've read one version that did decent things with it #(i was shocked to remember that penelope doesn't show up in austen's fragment because she's so vivid in the continuation) #but it still feels very different and much less layered than austen would have made it #i don't think it used all of her planned plot #and it skipped over almost everything but the central romance #and there's another one that i stopped reading halfway through because the author wrenched it off the austen rails #to have the curate give a long speech about how the lord's mother is actually a victim and we should pity her #and it felt so unlike what austen would have done that i've never brought myself to read further #this is prob the one austen story i'd be tempted to try my hand at if i had any skill whatsoever in that area #i would really want to try to imaginary book rec this thing into something that follows austen's style of storytelling #but i'm aware my view of austen is warped by my own preferences and i doubt i'd get any closer to the real thing than any other authors #so i just have to yearn for the imaginary version that never was

[judicent]

Yeah, I did fill 4 sketchbooks in 4 months so far this year. Huh? Am I gonna post even an ounce of it? Well, you see, I am allergic to my phone, so you will have to come CATCH ME

#da #nooo but I am so saddd it's so much easier to show stuff off irl 😭 #if it could look even halfway decent I've considered doing flip throughs of sketchbooks on video #except I draw in pencil and cameras hate that and want me to explode #idk it is truly just better to somehow gain access to my terrible trove of sketchbooks #no but man that sounds like such an ideal hang out. get all my oc lore by sitting on my floor with me as we go through the archives #gosh I should count how many I've filled up at this point #I love that the number increases exponentially as the years go on #like I think 2018 began the precedent of 4 a year minimum which was kinda wild #another ridiculous difficult project I have given a lot of thought to: combing through every sketchbook and either redrawing #or printing off important story related bits and compiling them all into a convenient binder. maybe binding them into a book. #anyway it's pretty much all a drag no matter how you slice it #come to my HOUSE and look at my CREATURES #u don't know this bc I've learned to be silly sneaky but I have stayed up wayyyy too late AGAIN #but I've scheduled this to post at a normal time so you'll never know. unless you read the tags. but that's its own punishment isn't it #hey bonus enticement to look at my boo stuff that doesn't get on the blog. there's smut. and you KNOW I'm a coward who shan't ever post that #actually we'll be lucky if I'm not the same coward in real life too #it's only Dick and Vinny. they get rights. i don't care if anyone else has sex. I don't care if I have sex. #the one song I hope I don't have sex. I hope we both don't have sex. that's actually Vinny though. #I'm more sex favorable and sex positive than he could ever be #y'know this is a very 4am convo to have and actually how prepared am I for this to live in a pm afternoon time #welp. maybe I should stop being addicted to tags and letting loose all my secrets #I shan't grow I shan't do better and I shan't ever change. this is the da promise <3

[cinnabuntastic]

I feel like, much in the same way that a lot of people on Tumblr feel like everyone should work food service/retail for a period of time, the same should really apply for charity work.

I've worked in charity for over two years now, and you don't realize how hard it is, even on the back end. People are scared, they're angry, they're hurting over things they can't control, and you're a shoulder to cry on and an easy captive target for misplaced anger all in one breath. It weighs on you, and you can never really put it down.

#just cinnabun things #I'm not even just talking volunteering I mean like... actually working for a halfway decent charity #it's one thing to do it when you can it's another to do it CONSTANTLY with no way to take a breath

[fabulouslygaybean]

turns out that eating breakfast after taking the meds you should eat with food is a good idea

#i feel a lot better than i did yesterday #the weird jittery bit of the meds eased up quite a lot #im still not used to it but i think it's gonna help me a lot #i wasn't aware that this kind of. like... clarity? was normal?? #i can actually focus on things now. i can sit totally still if i want to. my brain isn't impossibly loud. #idk!! i never thought id be able to get help for this and it's unreal that a tiny fucking pill just... makes my brain function better #we'll see how the next few weeks play out bc it might not be great for me over time and i might need to try out other meds #but idk. ritalin seems to be working decently well and im happy #wait holy fuck i just realized i might be able to actually clean my room now #i haven't been able to fully clean my room in YEARS #ive been able to clean sections of it or like. halfway tidy up most of it #but a full deep clean has been out of the picture for so long bc i can never focus hard enough or get enough motivation to continue #i might actually be able to now. fuck. this changes so much. #i know that probably doesn't seem like much but my room has gotten so out of hand and it causes me stress #i can't even let people INTO my room because its embarrassing and makes me feel horrible #maybe i can actually invite people over now

[cryptidcalling]

My most recent Vesper drawings compared to the very OG adopt I bought from Lazette-Menhir on Deviant art almost two years ago now! It took me a while to really focus on and develop him but I love him very dearly <3

#Honestly I'd love to commission the OG artist to draw him with the new design because I have never ever meen able to capture the perfect- #-Energy of the OG. This silly little Very Serious Millitary Guy in his big cape and his Mega Fluffy Tail #But this artist has kinda fallen off the face of the internet. DA Twitter Toyhouse all radio silent #He's perfect <3 Most of his design changes have purely been to make him look halfway decent in my own art style #Fun fact he was actually titled “Weird bunny” in the og post so his antennae were meant to be bunny ears #I should make an AU that gives him those head wings back. I do love head wings they just didn't fit the direction his story was going #The ESR's ally kingdom is very angel/sky themed so that could be something!

[te-pu-si-ti]

This one goes out to anyone who's listened to this song and thought... no... the fidelity is too high. I want it to sound like it starts on a dinky little record player in the corner of the room, slowly builds, then leaves the room and bounces off the walls of a large cavernous indoor town square.

#the burnt city #punchdrunk #ibrahim maalouf #this is just me fucking around in audacity #actual audio producers? DO NOT come for me #better yet edit your own version that sounds halfway decent #anyway i made it because i was driven to #the song just isn't the same without the vinyl crackle and distortions #tbc oc

[aberooski]

It's astounding how one thing can ruin your entire day and destroy your entire emotional state.

#every single fucking time i try to apply for something i get ghosted or rejected #like i fucking get it i have no value or place in society you can stop throwing it in my face already #and every single time my whole family is just all ''you just have to keep looking you'll find something it'll be fine'' #fuck right off with that shit #it's gotten to the point that I'm sobbing in my bedroom because I got rejected by the fucking aldis down the street from my house #and for a fucking part time position at that. I get it. i didn't work until college then only worked on campus. and went to school for music #but i have too much anxiety to be a teacher and am just not that kind of person. i have no skills or experience so fuck even trying for #anything even remotely halfway decent #I haven't worked in over a year since I graduated and the longer it gets the harder it is to get back into working yknow? #your value just decreases every fucking second so no one will give me the time of fucking day #i kinda had a job for like a fucking week last month that I didn't even want I was pushed into it and I hated it and cried so much #every day I actually almkst made myself sick from the crying and intense anxiety and then a week in they were like hey we like you and all #you're a good person and a very nice girl you're just no right for here so we're firing you essentially. so now I'm even more fucked #I've never felt more lost and more like the universe had no place for me anymore #and being in singing in the rain at my community theater was the only good thing I had in my life where I felt I had a place again #but the show's over now so I'm back to having nothing and nowhere and just don’t know what to do anymore #no wonder I can't fucking write anymore I'm just too sad all the time #abby's self deprication hour #abby's serious corner #I did make some progress in the mario crossover the other day when I felt pretty good actually though so that's something right? #I'm trying I really am

[deancaskiss]

me @ everyone else’s creations made for the event: 1000/10, most amazing thing ive ever seen, *chefs kiss*, magical, beautiful, spectacular, mind-blowing

me looking at the things ive made for my own event: horrible, awful, embarrassing, god i hate them, tempted to delete, literally can’t believe how untalented i am

#literally just listened to the audio edit i posted and god its fucking terrible #god i suck man #i really need to stick to writing because its the only thing im halfway decent at #looking at the actual talent in this fandom and i am just in awe of everyone else and the magic yall have #you are all so beautiful and wonderful and you all created the most stunning creations <3 #i just want to give all yall all my love and excitement and give you all the kudos and love you all deserve *mwah*

[jupscare]

why has nobody invented speed electroswing yet. maybe i'll have to do it myself

#gotta find a halfway decent remix tutorial for FL studio 20 #but i always get so excited learning literally just the first Quarter of any techniquee #that i end up just doing that part for Ages and never actually learning the techniqur #i want electroswing that is so so fast and drums and sounds

[maraschinotopped]

i just spent ~3 hours making one batch of pancakes from an 'estimated 20 minutes to make' recipe 🔥🔥🔥 DONT FUCK WITH ME 🔥🔥🔥🔥

#anyways. i made pancakes this morning #woke up at 5:40 specifically for the purpose of pancake cooking when nobody could bother me <3 #surprisingly they actually turned out decent. i didnt make them with baking powder at first because i thought we didnt have any in the hous #i was like '...its prooobably not that important right' #and i was right lol they were flat as hell and a bit crunchy but were still edible. actually a little good. #later my aunt woke up and told me we actually do have baking powder so i added it to the batter halfway through cooking the pancakes #didnt do too much. just made them slightly fluffier #so i still consider it a success with or without the baking powder #incredibly proud of myself!!! <3 im learning!!!!! #was a fun experience. would do again.

[gayhillzone]

one of the only downsides to t is i cant do some of the voice impressions i used to be able to do. but an upside is that i am unlocking new ones at the same time :)

#my voice cracks at some of my old ones bc its too high #and my voice is too deep now for others #i used to tease my coworkers but doing the voice of the robot lady that tells us to change the battery in our headset #sometimes theyd actually go change it and id just be giggling to myself #or when theyd let me show off my voice and everyone would be like THATS SCARY GOOD #i can do a halfway decent 'normal' spongebob tho #andy sez

[ladymortimer]

Finished my Bojack rewatch and everything is worse now

#literally 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #the way i immediately turned off my tv and sobbed so loud by god this show.... #like it is so satisfying but its also just incredibly sad that its over.... like this is it. #i love these characters soooooooo much ngllllll #worst thing is literally i have none of my friends who watched the show so now im sitting here like 😭 #like only my bf watched the show 🤔 that's why hes my bf #my one friend asked me if it was pretentious and like i couldnt answer decent at the time but i just said no #bc its just so hoooonest and like it puts these hard emotions into words into smth tangible #like the show hits so hard when it needs to its literally one of the most depressing shows i watched #but also very hopeful #like im glad its not bleak like i rmr watching the view from halfway down for the first time and i was shocked thinking it was the actual #end but no haha they got me #i just grrrr hghhg love how every character got what they needed and became the best version of themself #and having clear defined borders and knowing how to properly take distance from someone who actively hurt u #and also i just wonder how tf they even began to write this like there's such a clear understanding and definition of these characters #yet the story progresses organically... like it just feels right when certain things are happening and hnmngh #i cant put in words how much i love this show i think its just a masterpiece #but its deffo not for everyone i have a hard time recommending this to people i think they get put off by the show #but by god... if u can take the emotional damage u oughta watch it

[orbmanson7]

Gotta love when there's IT issues and I know exactly how to solve them but I'd need admin access to do it which I obviously don't have and I'm not stupid enough to go around that because then I'd technically be violating HIPAA but like

I hate just sitting on my fucking hands while I wait for some goober to try to fix shit remotely when I literally know exactly what to do and if you'd just log in the admin shit, I could just take back controls and fix it in five seconds, please for the love of god, this is such a waste of everyone's time as you fumble about opening apps and shit unnecessarily when you just need to click like two things to reset the fucking audio device to default, jesus fucking christ, please I could fix this instantly, omfg please

#...im fine #i am one of those people that is definitely not good enough with hardware to be able to do IT but im perfectly decent enough with software #so i can hold my own just fine and know my trusty workarounds when i need them #far from an expert but holy fuck am i not a beginner you know? #this is like torture right now #orbs thought bubbles #actually now that i think about it im not awful with hardware either #i mean ive built enough computers and even robots in my time to probably argue im at least halfway decent at it #i just hate having to do all the math involved is all