#and made me go '??? please chill.'

[erstwhilesparrow]

yknow. shoutout to kane and feels for going "we are doing a podcast about, among other things, the cycle of a year -- solstices, equinoxes, and so forth. therefore, we will release one (1) episode of our newest season every three months to correspond to these events"

#sparrowsong #like. really genuinely: hell yeah!! #this is a little bit about a post i saw floating out in the wild where someone was stressing about not having posted anything in 2 or 3 day #and made me go '??? please chill.' #more importantly though this is me telling you to listen to kane and feels

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[rosymorns]

my new Saturday game had our session zero and one of the people in it is coming across as super high strung and argumentative and while the dm was laying out the homebrew rules we're using she argued against using it and he basically said "I want to try it for a few sessions and if it sucks we won't use it" and she just KEPT ARGUING so i kind of sharply shut her down and she muted herself for the rest of session 0 and then when everyone was doing 1x1 character stuff with the dm she complained about me to him and threatened to quit and when he brought it up to me I was like. yeah look I'm not good at hiding how I feel about things and if she's going to be like that for the rest of the campaign we will not get along and since im the "aggressor" here. like. if one of us has to leave im okay if it's me. and the dm didn't want to make a decision right there.

but I was chatting with the rest of the group later and they all agreed that she was annoying, I wasn't out of line, and im more fun and cool so even if i do get asked to leave, I still won.

#ok queen go pout about it 🫶 #same person who made a huge fuss over picking her class last so she could fill and critiquing other peoples builds #and who got shitty with me for telling her that it wasnt a combat heavy campaign so she probably didnt need to stress that much #honestly im glad shes that sensitive and cried to the dm about it bc i wouldnt have wanted to grin and bear her #its a make believe magic fantasy game PLEASE chill out #carly.txt

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[andthebeanstalk]

Posting this here for receipts in case someone decides to steal this killer line of poetry I wrote for a spotify playlist description of all things (and which, together with the title, sounds like the heading of an essay that I would immediately want to read very badly):

#original #will wood #suburbia overture #playlist #I had to get real creative with the word limit because the third line got cut off on mobile every time #if anyone likes this enough to want to write an image description please do #i need to go to bed. #white culture #christianity cw #actively resisting the urge not to add all the catholic tags bc i KNOW that's a self-harming activity for real #if living in America hasn't made white Christians recognize that they have built their churches on the bones of thskr #*on the bones of their own botched divinity then this post sure won't #and then I'd have a bunch of people in the notes who want to argue but the argument always goes #- 'hey bud what about this huge logical fallacy in your own moral code?' - 'God said so.' - 'cool cool good debate everyone.' #anyway jesus is just a cop who puts all the bad people in the bad person hole - just like real cops. #there's a reason white christianity and white supremacy go hand-in-hand. #nobody's got a shorter memory for atrocities than the white catholic. #do you think we learned about residential schools at catholic school in my 99% white suburban township? #of course not! we didn't even learn about the crusades!! i learned about residential schools on tumblr at like age 27!!!! #fucking. chilling. that it took that long for me to find that out #i really really hate the culture i was raised in #our churches were filled with everything except divinity. - and also ANY people of color #in my 18 years of being forced to attend mass i NEVER saw a Black person in ANY of those buildings. #which is Fucking Weird. #I don't think I ever saw any people of color actually. i absolutely never spoke to anyone non-white before i was 11. #and i didn't have a full conversation with a Black person until i was like 16. we weren't okay. #there is a special kind of sickness to white culture that chokes out the soul of our own kindness. it's rank. it's rancid. #fuck your culture. i will exist in radical queer spaces til i die. #my parents are democrats btw. it wasn't a fundamentalist household. it didn't have to be. #we were told racism is bad but taught it was basically over. which is a great way to produce a shitload of racist white kids.

[im-still-watching-anime]

whyyy do some people flirt by treating you like a child

#what do you MEAN you were flirting when you said that to me #it was condescending babe!!! #hello naruto blog im here to complain about Dating™️ #i hate it and no one should do it #i KNOW a lot of flirting is being really nice to each other or sweet etc #but i just REALLY hate when people go too hard and verge into the babying territory #like i KNOW what you’re going for and i’m TRYING to be understanding and patient #but girl please CHILL #and treat me like an actual human adult for two seconds because good lord #i thought i already made it clear i wasn’t interested too but!! she keeps going!! #like why!! #pls leave me alone!!! #ughhhhhh #sorry #i am just Very Tired of this #and people being condescending or babying me just really gets on my nerves even when it’s not with bad intentions #flirting BAD sometimes #life junk #venting

[good-beanswrites]

Heyo!! :D uhh I was just thinking about prompts!! I have two that I've just been thinking of! You can do one or the other, I don't mind ^^ Yuno with Blanket (if you havent done that yet :o) and Muu and Yuno with Honesty :D

Thank you so much :D!! Your writing is so funky I love reading it, it's like my daily newspaper abejfncjcn

Hi Mug :D thank you so much aah!! I really loved these combos, that's so sweet for both of them ;-; Here's Yuno and Blanket -- something lighthearted from the beginning of t1, with a bit of her unfortunate people-pleasing habits.

“Requests are in!” Mikoto’s voice sang from down the corridor. The prisoners perked up from where they’d been lazing about. One would have thought he'd announced a jailbreak with the amount of energy that rippled through the room. Yuno leapt to her feet.

"You seem excited," Kazui chuckled as he stood. "What are you getting?"

She suddenly felt a twinge of shame for her reaction. Things weren’t bad in Milgram by any means, but the atmosphere was beginning to creep under her skin now and then. There was an old comfort she’d been dreaming of the past few weeks. It felt embarrassing to say to someone as concerned with his maturity as Kazui. 

"Oh, nothing much,” she said. “Just something that reminds me of home, like the cigarettes you ordered." She didn’t know him well enough to say so, but she was secretly grateful for his request. The smell of smoke was familiar to her as well. "But mostly it's something new around here -- isn't the whole thing exciting?" 

It was the first time they’d received a delivery, and everyone was eager to see if they got what they ordered. Though Yuno found the system surprising, it made sense. Milgram allowed more unique freedoms than a normal prison, given it also inflicted more unique restraints. 

She joined the group heading down the hall, all chattering in anticipation. 

"Yuno!" Mahiru waved her over. The woman had talked about the products and creams she'd requested, in the hope of keeping up her skincare routine. Yuno would be following suit soon, though she wanted those things to keep herself feeling refreshed rather than looking a certain way. There was no one here to impress. With her looks, that was.

Mahiru’s eyes gleamed. "What did you order?"

Yuno knew she wouldn't satisfy her appetite for gossip as much as Shidou testing his luck with medical supplies or Amane’s taste in high-level study materials had. 

"Something real cute~" was all she needed to say to get her giggling. 

Es instructed them to line up in front of their room to distribute everything. Yuno found her place behind Haruka. 

"Hey, hey! What are you getting?" She wasn't immune from that same gossipy curiosity…

His cheeks immediately reddened. "Uh, well, I h-hope I can get some c-candy. It -- I mean, it's kiddish, I know."

"Don't worry, some might think my request is childish, haha! Plus, I think Muu ordered sweets, too."

This seemed to calm him a bit as he walked ahead. Fuuta nudged her from behind.

"Oi, what did you ask for?"

She'd overheard him and Kotoko discussing what would likely be caught as a tool to escape, and knew her answer would disappoint him.

The bright smile she’d given Haruka angled into a more jaded smirk. "Eh, just something to get me through the night, you know? A practical comfort."

Fuuta grunted, respecting the choice. 

Her attention returned to the front of the line, where Haruka was returning with loose treats spilling from his hands. She took his place in Es' doorway.

"Prisoner 002," Es scanned a piece of paper. "For you… ah,” They read it again. “Just a blanket? Was that all?" 

She beamed. "Yup! Just a blanket." 

“You strike me as the kind to ask for a lot…”

“Mmm, you’ve read me well, Warden! Not this time, though. Gotta start small, then see what I can weasel out of you!” She winked. As usual, Es pretended to be unimpressed. Yuno knew she was wearing them down, bit by bit.

She offered a bouncy bow as Es handed it over. She hadn’t given many specifications, but it certainly looked as big and fluffy as she had hoped. Milgram had gone with pink -- the same shade as some of her uniform accents. 

"Thanks!" 

The prisoners' excitement died down fairly quickly afterwards. Amane began reading in silence. Kazui retreated to the smoking room alone, though Shidou and Mikoto promised to join him after the next round of requests. Haruka had nearly finished eating all of his candy by nightfall. Kotoko sat by herself to jot things down in her new notebook. Yuno’s good mood lasted much later. 

Once the bell had rung and silence fell onto the prison, she could feel the usual chill start to creep into her cell. It had gripped her with fear the first few nights -- that unshakable coldness that reminded her why she was here in the first place. Sometimes, when her body jolted her awake with the feeling of falling, she'd blame it on the temperature rather than a universal human experience. It brought up too many painful memories to be something so ordinary, after all.

But not tonight. 

Tonight there would be no falling, and no chill. No stepping into bed with enough skin showing to make her shiver. No more crafted conversations or flashing certain expressions.

A goofy grin spread across her cheeks. Yuno unfolded the blanket with a flourish. She swept it around her body, then flopped down on her bedding. With nothing more to worry about, she sank into the cushy blob.

‘Just a blanket’ her ass. This was the warmest she’d felt in a very long time.

#milgram #yuno kashiki #and others but shes the focus #thanks pal!! this made me so happy :))) it was so fun! #sorry if the tone is all over the place -- ive stared at it too long this weekend and i cant tell RIP #i wanted it to be cute and have some chill t1 vibes #and when youre homesick or just really going through it even the smallest physical comforts can be a huge deal #but also shes So Deep in the habit of changing herself to please others while also goin through it ;--; #i wanted to include my hc that when she gets that body-falling feeling its even more stressful because... well... #i hope you enjoy!! #ill be posting the honesty one soon -- i wanted to today but work completely fried my brain into scrampled egg -_- #i know i can do one or the other but i always get so imspired by both asdfsdfs #i have an idea and definitely want to keep running with it! #a liar and someone whos a bit too honest... #oh and i forgot to mention that the smell of smoke thing was mentioned in one of the timeline conversations! #she likes it but she never elaborates on why #im projecting because i really like the smell of cigarette smoke because it reminds me of my grandfather so i think itd make her think of #home/family :') #i couldn't remember if it was an interrogation question or timeline but im almost positive it was the latter #drabbles

[thegreatestheaver]

planning courses for the next semester is not for the weak

#WHY IS EVERY SINGLE CLASS GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME. #WHY DO WE ALL START AT 9AM AND NOT GO PAST 11AM. PLEASE #please just strart at 1pmplease plase palseasee #i dont wanna take only 3 classes next semester but like erm. #mostly because im a little picky abt my professors. less so for electives but classes im worried about (SPEECH) #ive been pushing speech off for the longest time because i have crippling social anxiety 99% of the time. so i made sure i got a good prof #uhgghg #theres this one prof who does a lot of erm i think sociology classes yeah #she is so chill and nice and uses my prefurred name and pronouns (i really need to get my name chaged in the system uhghgh) but she did uh #the reverse grading and i hated it. everyone did. she was so nice and understanding.. #one time i went 2 talk to her about my missing work (chronic pain and fatigue had me bed bound for days on end) and she literally just said #erm u have an A so u dont have to do it. #>@>>@>/1/1/?!?!? #live saver. i had a breakdwon in her office i was literally sobbing telling her about my health issues. it was really hard because i never- #-really talk about it. i didnt realize how hard it would be when i finally did #anywasy what was i saying. yeah i love her so much but not her grading and teaching system. but idk maybe ill try it again she has a gender #-and sexuality class i kinda wanna take because im a professional faggot

[youreaclownnow]

He's like ulube but cooler and less pathetic. I love this bitch and well if I ever get my hands on him he's getting the glizzy gulper 9000 sloppy style

#listen i love ulube ishikawa. but that love made me lose it when sakyo showed up cuz like. LOOK AT HIMMMMMM #OUGHHHHHHHHGGGGAHHAHAHA #yyh #between hiei and sakyo i might not survive this show like its gonna kill me #i am going to die and its gonna be the fault of sexy anime guys #okay okay okau okay #im normal im sooooooo normal im average im calm im chill im #G gundam when it ruined my psyche for months i beg and plead with my mind PLEASE GIVE ME RELIEF I NEED A BRAINROT BREAK #the finger on the monkeys paw fucking curled aparently the moment i started watcjing yyh #sure its stopped me from repeatedly rewatching the shinjuku arc multiple times a week BUT AT WHAT FUCKING COST

[fandomsoda]

Realizing something about a situation that definitely is the most reasonable explanation and was clarified to me a while beforehand. Sure there are what-ifs and it could actually be worse than I think now but tbh it’s probably not and I’ve probably been overreacting god kill me

#can my emotions please chill tf out for like a split second #like I don’t think my panic was fully irrational #but still #I feel guilty and stupid #Humans are built to be burdens #but I still hate myself for worrying too much #And jumping to conclusions #fuck me with a rusty razor I probably only made the situation worse #how do y’all put up with me #“I go no-contact sometimes” yeah that probably includes blocking everyone doesn’t it and would explain the situation perfectly #But of course I’ve gotta freak out like I didn’t know this shit already #To who this situation is about (you know who you are and you might see this eventually) I am so fucking sorry my dude #you’ve done nothing wrong I’m just an idiot

[marnz]

all complicated feelings about marion zimmer bradley and the role of the mists of avalon in 2nd wave 80s feminism, colonial apologism, etc., aside, i can't look at the absolute mess of druid lore in teen wolf without being like "mm okay. that's nice. here's what i think." and doing an about face while thinking about the weird neo druidism the mists of avalon was steeped in

#FOR EXAMPLE. i know bronze age britain and greece were trading so presumably the greeks did meet druids. #even if the romans wrote about them first. idk. i don't do classics. i don't know anything. #but even if you fully drink the teen wolf koolaid why would lycaeon (sp?) go to CELTIC DRUIDS to reverse a curse from ZEUS #why is ZEUS INVOLVED!!!!!!!! #anyway. it pains me deeply. it does. #i am the biggest fool for going up to this show and being like 'please make sense?' #anyway. #teen wolf #currently #even....even if the druids were chilling in ancient greece (???) and even if the lore made sense. #uh. it actually makes more sense for them to be gaulish druids.... #doesn't it....didn't greece have stronger connections to ancient gaul... #why am i like this? anyway. off to go write my fic. canon is a mess 👍🏻

[goldensunset]

ooh girl i am really tired of sharing a tight space with my parents!

#and by my parents i mean my dad #and by a tight space i mean any space really #i made it through the whole summer at home #moved myself into school and it was lit for those like five days #and then this vacation was right back to that but even worse #small and unfamiliar spaces with very limited privacy and a lack of familiar comforts and norms #even just out and about in the world being dragged behind others is so annoying especially if you already don’t get along with that person #i am trying not to snap in uncalled for situations i know i need to pick my battles and chill out #but something about both blistering heat and not being in one’s own element makes me into the human equivalent of a small white dog #like he’s not even being particularly bad he’s just being himself but it’s kind of a ‘straw that breaks the camel’s back’ thing w him #he’s just being his usual impossible-to-work-with oblivious self #the lil things over time gradually make me go brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #lord please grant me patience #peach rambles

[honeysucklethornsandalligtrhorns]

TW: depressive episodes, mentions of self harm and suicide

yall are LUCKY i was not on this app during 2021. im having a little bit of a depressive episode rn and its only a TASTE of the shit i went through back then. now very very proud of myself for never committing self harm or suicide because wow. i know i've felt worse than this but this is BAD

#tw depression #tw depressive episode #tw su1cide #tw sh #IM SO GLAD I MADE IT OUT IN ONE PIECE #and thats why im chill with dsmp fans #cause without those silly little minecrafters i seriously would've done it #like i cannot envision a world in which i didnt see that community every day and still somehow made it out alright #im much better now #PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF #DRINK WATER #HAVE A SNACK #GO TO SLEEP #GET OFF TUMBLR AND READ A BOOK #idk #i cant imagine calling my dsmp phase unlikable... like i'll admit it was a little cringy but those dudes actually helped me through SO MUCH #i'll always be grateful towards that community

[starpros-sunshine]

Don't talk to me I just found out about the SOS signals in the soundtracks of the divine beasts I am NOT okay

#that just made the entire thing so much more horrifiying #Revalis especially like wow that is unsettling #it comes late and it's rushed and panicked and he certainly knew he was going to die while making that call and no I am not okay #botw I love you you're my favourite zelda game ever you're a masterpiece in my eyes but please give me a break it's been five years #I will never be able to ignore this I will NEVER be able to ignore this ever again and I will have to feel that horrible disgusting feeling #i want to replay all of them now with that knowledge in mind but I haven't even played the final bossfight once #yes ik it's been five years but I'm scared of what I'll do when I'm through with this game #haha good joke I'll never be over zelda it's fundamentally shaped me so much as a person I'll carry that mark with me for life #I feel like nobody knows that I'm a massive LoZ fanboy #well know you might suspect it ig #botw and oot my beloveds #but oh god I will be seeing vah medoh and all I know will be pain #I will be seeing all of the divine beast and all I will know will be pain #just god those faint and frantic SOSs during Vah Medohs theme #CHILLS LITERAL CHILLS #and those themes are already so fear inducing and now the added context of the last calls for help that weren't answered for 100 years #and even if every help would've come too late anyways because Mipha died pretty much instantly Urbosas and Daruks aren't so prominent #and Revalis SOS is the frantic panicked last resort of someone who knew he was going to die in a matter of minutes #I am not okay I will never be okay again

[bluupxels]

being neutral on infants is so fun because i get to watch everyone froth at the mouth on both sides of the spectrum like

#if they didnt just look like slightly sized down toddlers id be more excited #like they look the exact same... ea couldnt have made them look even a little more baby-like? #i get there's only so much they can do but also i dont care they make billions of dollars figure it out #once the cc starts coming in we'll probably be able to make them look more different but still #the premise is cute and i wish we got these (just more babylike) instead of the object babies in the first place #i didnt watch the stream so i didnt see them in action but i know im gonna be googoo gaga-ing at the animations #babies irl are chill ig just not for me but babies in sims?? suddenly im a single mom who works 2 jobs loves her kids and never stops #what i really need to know about is the ep #that family better be going to visit meemaw and peepaw or im gonna be in ea's floorboards plotting #give my elders something to do PLEASE!!!!! #i dont know what they would do im just a teenage girl in her twenties but they're bored!!!! #court rambles

[kaluawoo]

Being on Tumblr is just like. Going into a fandom tag. Reading like 3 posts. Vowing to not go into that tag again.

Going back into it the next day.

#at least today was uhhhhh. less bad. #honestly kinda funny bc there were so many #''It's so obvious Ship A is canon and not Ship B because of these things.'' - ''Ship B is clearly canon Ship A is not'' #One after another #As someone with low to no stakes in either it's just kinda like. lmao. chill. #Like yeah ship whatever and it's always nice to see things that imply your ship #(I still smile over ''Dig in there Mr Spock'' and ''Captain please. Not in front of the Klingons.'' :) ) #But you don't need to like. argue against other ships. #Fandom is a playground and y'all are not gonna run out of sand lmao #But god yesterday or the day before was. Oof. #Though also a bit funny bc there were two posts right after another like #''Character A is NOT badly written y'all just suck'' - ''Gosh I wish Character A wasn't so badly written 😭'' #from different people obviously but still skfjwkfj #But uhhh yeah I think I should stay out of the tag. #The fandom can be 1 mutual; 1 close friend I spam on Discord; and a few online pals in a Discord thread #... i plan on writing fanfic for it tho and i'm already. curious. whether that'll finally get me hit by fandom drama #I'm usually good at avoiding it but I do not trust this fandom in particular #Also a lotta people in this tag that go ''Their relationship can't be X because clearly no one in X relationship would act like that'' #which just made very clear they have probably never experienced said type of relationship lmao #Had to add some tags but I'm done now. maybe this time I'll manage to stay out of the tag skfnskfns #I should before the Shipping Arguments make me dislike the ships I enjoyed or was at least neutral about lmao