#and it would explain the Covid

[pononoin]

Kyle never leaving his TikTok phase as a child to adult would be Stan walking into the house and seeing a totally expensive and unnecessarily large pantry on the table because Kyle wanted to do one of those TikToks where people re-organize and re-stock their pantries

#and then Kenny would be -that’s explain a lot!- and pats Stan’s belly and Stan would bonk him on the head #south park #south park post covid #stan marsh #kyle broflovski #sp style

[sweetdreamspootypie]

It is January 2024

I'm still a Covid ward nurse

In the last couple months I've seen 3 people die specifically and directly because they chose to go on a cruise or bus tour as their way to enjoy retirement / enjoy their time before they need a rest home

Covid ages older people a decade in a week

People who were still managing to live independently at home with maybe a cleaner once a week - again and again I see them spend 3 weeks in hospital and be forced to discharge straight to an aged care facility, if they come out of it at all.

Don't let older people go on things like bus tours and cruises.

A memorable holiday with your partner, very easily ends with one of you losing your life, and the other never being the same again, and never being able to go home again.

Wear a mask.

Get vaccinated.

Quit smoking.

Encourage community or social events to continue to provide some degree of Covid safety.

#Plagueblogging #Covid nurse #Actually this week has been tuberculosis themed #Posting bc I saw someone venting about losing friends bc nobody would provide masked Covid safe socializing options #The moment I relaxed I got Covid again at hannukah - the first events I've been to unmasked #I still think maybe I've just got a weak immune system #But Covid causes a weak immune system so that also explains why this year has been the worst for illness for me #Besides socialising more now (w tongue)

[rawliverandgoronspice]

still a hardcore believer in the "totk was absolute development hell" theory btw, even if I know it will never be confirmed or denied, but all the signs are there honestly

#thoughts #totk #totk critical #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war... #the fact that it does not take 6 years to make a game like this #that they used the covid excuse (the game industry took like a month to adapt tops) #that the game was postponed eight billion times #that there are very clear signs that there was a pretty brutal rewrite at some point #that no writers/quest designers are credited??? as far I can tell???? #and also and that's... kind of impossible to prove or to pinpoint or rationally explain #but this game feels like burnout to me #it tastes like hollowed gamedev soul who switched off their enthusiasm and went “content mode” just to push through the finish line #OH YES also the lack of dlc #I have a hard time believing they have nothing they could potentially add if they wanted to --and maybe they just don't want to #it just... feels like exhaustion packaged around a genuinely brilliant feature #hoping its brightness would camouflage the thinness of everything else #again perhaps I'm projecting but the game *feels* deeply familiar to me in that way

[lime1991]

more!

#south park #butters stotch #vic chaos #professor chaos #marjorine stotch #vampire butters #my art #sketches #i felt the need to include the drawing explaining vic #he is not the ''evil alter'' he is a protector who wants revenge on their abusers #also while im here: as i see it ''vic'' and ''professor chaos'' become two different alters at some point in the future #so vic chaos in post covid is not professor victor chaos. you know? #vic chaos in post covid splits from butters being grounded for 16 years. and so the prof victor chaos we have here becomes prof chaos #two different alters IN THE FUTURE as of now they are one. #and also vic will always be older than butters. the only ones who dont age are marjorine and butters after a point #i like to imagine as an adult. even in return to covid. vic is still the host of the system. so butters basically becomes a little who is #like at oldest maybe 14 #i imagine vampire will grow with butters until hes a teenager and then stop aging around 14-16. #also i reference inside mari in the first sketch but really i think of this more like jane from doom patrol. how the entire system works to #protect kay. how jane becomes the host for years and has the pressure put on her not to do anything that would hurt kay. #like that feels like vic chaos to me. hes got pressure on him to not hurt butters. and theyve all got a job to protect butters. #sorry for the ramble ill definitely draw smth in reference to the scene from doom patrol s4 when jane gets high and apologizes to kay #and shes like ''im sorry. this is your body.'' and kay goes ''its our body.''

[samuraisharkie]

ah. 😬 it might be COVID. fuck

#I just took a test and there’s a VERY faint line in the Test region #I’m going to take another one tomorrow to be sure #it would explain why I feel so shitty #I hope it doesn’t get any worse… #I have huge anxiety abt getting covid now bc of how badly it’s affected me before #and how quickly it can turn dangerous and life threatening for even ‘healthy’ people

[rabbivole]

i need a time machine so i can go back and make myself less of a fuckup in school for a lot of reasons but 'smart enough to play and enjoy actually good games' is a big one. steam is no longer accepting my credit card so it's stopping me from making ethically incorrect purchasing decisions which is probably for the best

#is there a way to find out if i got covid without realizing #sudden brain damage would explain some of the downturn here

[burntlikethesun]

going back in time a decade and telling people in dw fandom making colourful edits of billie and her then husband laurence fox that he would become a bigoted homophobic, transphobic racist who has been booted off the british version of fox news for being too misogynist, but not for burning pride flags in his garden or putting his young sons in blackface. and has just had his house raided by the police.

#hindsight is 20/20 #would say about him being a covid denier and lockdown conspiracy theorist but that would be a whole can of worms explaining

[mindsmade]

me: doctor, this is probably just a cold but my parents forced me to see you

dr: actually, this is pneumonia

#ooc. #this is what we wanted on top of long covid obviously #does explain the dizziness + the fact that i still have an entire tub of untouched ben & jerry's in the freezer days after purchase #healthy me would NEVER #anyway i may be a bit slower w long replies now that i know it's not me being a baby abt feeling sick SDJFSJ #illness //

[alexythimya]

In a new experience for me I just had a student physically move away from me and be upset I was touching his notebook because to him me wearing a mask meant that I must actively have covid

#i had to repeat multiple times that i wouldnt come in sick #he was like i just had covid i dont want it again #shit is so fucking sad #would it even be possible to explain to him that masking would be protective for him

[rabbithaver]

i need to figure out how to:

delete the body of a 3D model from sonic runners

save the disembodied head as an .obj file

upload the mesh to DesignDoll

i know how to do approximately none of these things at all. i really need to learn though because the things that i could do with this would elevate my ability to create 3D pose references to an entirely new level

#rabbit.txt #if any of you are experts in 3D modeling and have no problem explaining how to do it to me like im five i would be unbelievably thankful #and i might draw you something when i am better as payment because i am disabled and have no income myself. and also i have covid currently

[mommalosthermind]

What is it about the kids’ winter break that always. Always. Makes the weirdest shit go wrong.

#the pipes under the sink just #decided to separate. just popped right apart. so much water everywhere oh my god. #kid2 has an ingrown nail they somehow claim not to have noticed? it is. very not good. #we? found FLEAS? WE DO NOT HAVE RUGS OR A PET WHERE AND HOW DID FLEA APPEAR #doc for toes has Covid and no one else takes welfare insurance so we have to wait with antibiotics #bug guys were like it’s holidays good luck trywell come out in like a month #so #bombed the house and hung out in a book store for several hours and now I have #so much laundry #there is more #im so tired lmao #me trying to explain decision fatigue to my spouse: I would like to be in a coma actually #my spouse who’s anxiety manifests as a near manic need to Accomplish Things: no. #momma talks #momma complains #adulthood is a scam

[kaiyonohime]

When my husband had the plague he felt like he had a head cold for a few days, got diagnosed, slept for a day, and then was mostly fine.

When the tiny tot had the plague he had a runny nose and sounded like Darth Vader, but was mostly fine.

I, on the other hand, have a fever, a cough that sounds like death, and feel like I've been hit by six buses.

My husband is confused.

And the fact that the only meds I was given were cough meds that don't really work doesn't help.

On Monday I'm going back to the doctor if I'm still this sick. And the tiny tot, sad as he is about it, has started getting fully weaned. Which means better meds for me, woo!

Now, if you'll excuse me, there's hot tea and a blanket. And a hot water bottle.

#COVID sucks #I knew it would hit me hard #Lung illnesses always do #My husband is freaking out though #He wanted to call an ambulance this afternoon #I had to explain that sitting down to wait for the kettle is not an ambulance situation #It's an I have a fever and my body aches situation

[creepykuroneko]

Whenever I see asian, brown, and/or black Americans reinforcing, supporting, and upholding racism, colonization, imperialism, colorism, and any other belief system that not only harms them directly but other non-white communities as well and they still want to claim that they themselves are POC and face discrimination I feel bitter disgust towards them.

#yeah I know the oppression Olympics aren't real #everyone has their own problems #but the way so many Asian Americans contribute to colonization of the USA #refuse to admit they are guilty of anti-black racism and won't even acknowledge the Native American genocide really upsets me #then of course there's the colorism that every single Community is guilty of #don't even need to explain that one #the fact that my fellow brown people are also guilty of anti-black racism is upsetting as I feel we should be allies #and let's be honest there are black Republicans out there #whether it be through self-hatred or combination of multiple factors a lot of black people don't want to see other black people succeed #plus I've seen my share of black people on the Internet Posting pictures of themselves in red face for Halloween or #talking about how if Pocahontas was real she would be a black woman #fucken really? #plus many middle class and higher Asian Americans and African Americans don't want to acknowledge who's stolen land theyre living on #i 100% agree African-American should receive reparations from the US government #but I see people talking about how they deserve to have a plot of land and that makes me uneasy #of course there was that whole Asian American vs African American violence during the covid shutdowns #white supremacist love to see anyone who is not white tear each other down because it makes their job easier #I know we have our history between all of us that has left scars that never healed #I just find it so sad that we as a whole are still tearing each other down instead of trying to do better #I don't know how to properly explain this without going into a long ass historic rant #plus I don't want to #no energy #just wanted to get some thoughts out of my head

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I keep listening to different pieces of music that I love and then my brain comes in all helpful with 'this sounds like great music to die with doesn't it'

#tw suicide #im just. so tired #and i know that right now part of it is im sick (not covid tho) but still. #and it's like im grieving the lost friendship all over again and what might have been #i am the best version of myself when im with the boy. but now no wonder he is avoiding me. and i don't blame him! but for some reason it's #hitting rlly hard again atm and it's just. Im Sad. #i really don't know why that's so prevalent in my mind right now #and it's rlly not safe for me to drive long distances alone i think. i find driving v stressful #and any guesses what *that* leads to #tw sh #the answer was: a frightening amount. #and then there are things i don't understand #my brother begged me to destroy the suicide note i wrote yesterday #and i don't know why. because it's very unlikely to be something that i would stop to do tbh. so what there is would at least explain #*something* perhaps. i don't know #i have spent more than half of my waking hours in the last week seriously thinking of suicide. i don't know how to stop this #and given that i've read two books in full and gone to a play i enjoyed that says something about what hte rest of the time has been filled #with. i don't know how to get out of this. in some ways i feel like it's worse now than it was bc i expected it to get better when mum and #dad got back. if anything it's worse - more constant. #the lows are not quite as low but the baseline is definitely lower #i am just feeling very hopeless rn #yesterday i was driving and reciting psalm 23 and i was so overcome with emotion and i repeated it multiple times and that helped somewhat #but only in the moment ig. i don't know. i don't know how to fix this or even improve it #if im still feeling like this on monday i am so going to walk over the road and straight-up ask to borrow a kitten overnight. #and hope the kitten doesn't decide to go near all the cuts :( #a part of me is genuinely wondering if i should check myself into a psych ward. the other parts of me say either that this isn't bad enough #for that or thta i am simply too scared to. which is true. nasty stuff in psych wards for obvious reasons #anyway i need prayers thankyou

[nagitoedit]

you don't have to read this is for screaming in the void

#trying to explain that i'm struggling without saying the big most important part of why i am struggling is . #like oh i'm struggling because uh . the issues. what are the issues? well . they are issues that i refuse to elaborate on #so it doesn't help anybody. but like how am i supposed to explain to my mom that the reason i've become so severely depressed is because #i'm suicidal. like oh btw ^-^ i hate the life you gave me and brought me into so bad that i want to die. but it's no big deal so don't worr #about it. #which like that wouldn't be how i meant it at all but of course that's also implied or something #which just makes me think of other things like that if things weren't so bad id be able to get help but help is inaccessible. #ughhhh i just hate this it's so agonizing. like cant things be a little less bad. i'm not having fun being like this and people are #reasonably irritated with me because only based on what i'm willing to tell just. isn't the full story at all and would obviously just. #not make sense because i'm leaving out major parts of what's happening and why. #and tbh i'm constantly going back and forth between like. coming out as suicidal. mainly because like. well. it kinda worrying me. #because for like months now i've almost daily been fighting off suicidal thoughts and often even having suicidal meltdowns #yesterday i was standing near a ceiling fan and was like hmm wouldnt it be nice if one of the blades came off and stabbed me through #the back of my skull and killed me. but then i thought no that would be too traumatizing for my family #as if me dying at all wouldn't be. which i also thought of. idk just thinking about the idea of #i want to live but not like this. because yeah. my mom said that she thinks reading bad news is why and it's like well . of course it is #but should i just stay completely unaware of what's happening in the world. but also bad news is just unavoidable #but yeah it is why i'm depressed. climate change racism homophobia transphobia covid wars economy etc like #these are things that i can't just. ignore? and am i seriously the crazy person for being upset about these things? #well she does think i'm crazy for still being scared of the dangerous virus that is currently the third leading cause of death in the us #like last night she was like ' it's good to be cautious but you're going over board' i'm friends with people who could die from covid. #'over board' i care about them and other people and i don't want them to die. i don't want to be permanently disabled by a virus with #a 20% chance every time i catch it to permanently damage my immune system and give me long covid. <- according to cdc #but whatever. i do genuinely want mental help. i think i need s different medication or a diagnosis bc uhmmm . i am unwell #but that's expensive. #i have an appointment with a doctor today for a med check because i don't think my ssri is working . obviously #as i am as you can tell absolutely overcome with severe and debilitating anxiety and depression. lolzors #whatever. except not because ouuuughhhgh <-unimaginable suffering #mypost

[pa-pa-plasma]

i'm going to fucking kill someone. i got screamed at & called selfish & stupid for telling my mom to wear a mask. she gave me covid

#& you wanna know the kicker? she's going on a vacation. yeah. she's going on a plane right now while badly sick with covid #how do i communicate with people who are literally missing their brain? #it was my sister who screamed at me btw. she feels the need to play devil's advocate whenever i open my mouth #my mom did what she always does & coughed 17 times without covering her mouth & then sat down in the livingroom to doomscroll for 7 hours #what the actual fuck is it with parents & not covering their mouths when they cough or sneeze? they straight up just spray people with covi #& then laugh about it when you point it out as if spreading the fucking plague is funny #best part is that we're pretty sure her getting covid 5 times a year because she refuses to wear masks killed her husband #not joking about that btw. all she had to say oh ''ooh yeah that would explain it'' #like ?????????????????????? #i didn't get the chance to go grocery shopping either so now i dont have any fresh food #if i have to eat one more frozen or processed meal i'm gonna fucking kill someone. & now i cant do that because i have basic empathy #i don't even feel right ordering food cuz like. i have to interact with someone to do that (can't pay online) #i avoid covid for this long & then get it because ''people look at you weird if you wear masks. you wouldn't get it'' #bitch i'm queer. i wear queer pins. i wear a queer jacket. you're telling ME i wouldn't get receiving weird looks??? #god my sister wants to be oppressed so fucking bad. i'm sorry but bitch isn't a slur & you're a fucking coward for not wearing masks #i hope you cant fucking work for weeks because of this bullshit. bitch