#and it never gets resolved. ever

[foundfamilynonsense]

Y’know. Anakin was a real asshole in Ahsoka’s hallucination.

Like. She mentions something about what she’ll be able to teach her padawan one day, since all she’s being taught is how to be a soldier, and Anakin’s like “teaching’s not all it’s cracked up to be”

And like. Asshole move. And Ahsoka rightfully calls him out on it. And he goes on the whole “uuuh I was joking. Lighten up.” Literally a complete jackass.

But beyond how he answered the question, it’s a valid complaint Ahsoka is bringing up! Anakin’s teaching her how to live or die. But Ahsoka wants to be taught how to be a jedi.

What happens after the war is over (order 66 never happens) and she now has to navigate a galaxy without a war? The Jedi take teaching very seriously there’s no greater honor than teaching a padawan. And she’s not being accurately taught, so she will not be able to pass anything on to the next generation.

But Anakin brushes it aside because he simply does not respect her or her wishes. Like. He never wanted a padawan, despite teaching being foundational to the Jedi. And he only took ahsoka in because he started to like her and became attached to her. He doesn’t care about jedi legacy, not really. So he brushes her comment off with a joke.

But in the rest of the vision… idk it didn’t feel like we were supposed view Anakin as entirely wrong here. He wasn’t in the right, he was definitely channeling Vader and being an ass, but he was basically the reason Ahsoka survived the fall, right? Bc he was making her choose life? When Ahsoka wins against him it’s sort of like she’s both learned his lesson and moved beyond him. And then for the rest of the season he’s only talked about in positive ways.

And like. That one line ahsoka said was really powerful in relation to the entire point of the show. What does she have to pass onto her own padawan (Sabine) if she wasn’t properly trained herself? That is, perhaps, the only valid plot question asked in the entire show. And it doesn’t get an answer. It’s never even brought up again.

#I have now learned Dave filoni wrote the entire series #so I am able to say now with absolute positivity that he’s a shit writer #I had been blaming the issues that the writers went on strike for #but no it’s just filoni being a terrible writer I guess? #I mean. none of the character issues are ever really resolved #we have no reason to believe ahsoka is ready to be a master now #we have no real understanding of WHY Sabine unlocked her force powers and shit (not how it works but whatever) #Sabine never learns her lesson about letting thrawn come back #Ahsoka doesn’t get anything really resolved with Anakin #she just acts like he was never Vader and that he was a great master #when we SEE in her vision he was not #idk it’s like every character plot point was dropped #nothing happened in the first half of the show #the dark side girl had a half rebellion but we got no emotion or background from her #it was just… a pointless show #nothing was accomplished #star wars #anti ahsoka #anti anakin skywalker

[creative-hanyou-girl]

You guys know on how InuYasha, the few times he talks about it, badmouths his father and says he doesn't care to avenge his death when he battles Ryukoltsei?

I wonder if InuYasha starts to regret his mindset towards his father once he himself becomes a father. Or at the very least, he starts to understand his father better. Especially if you want to go by the Movie 2 canon where part of Toga's death was from protecting InuYasha and his mom.

Just makes me wonder if InuYasha looks at Moroha or any of his other children and has the thought that it'd break his heart if any of his kids felt resentment towards him like he felt for his own father, especially when everything he ever does is to protect them. And I wonder if it makes InuYasha start to look at his father's memory differently, now that he's a parent himself and would do anything and everything to protect his kids, even if it meant dying and leaving them without a father.

Not that he'd go and try to get himself killed, as he wants to actually be alive so they don't have to grow up like he did, but you know he'd sacrifice himself if it meant his children could live, just like his father did for him (according to movie 2).

I don't know, I just wonder if InuYasha starts to ever regret the way he looked at his father's memory back when he was a teen once he becomes a father to Moroha and starts to understand his father's actions as a parent now that he himself is a parent. Ya know what I mean?

#not that Inuyasha will ever have to worry about missing his daughter's life because nothing bad ever happens to break any of them apart #and the same for any other potential children he and Kagome has #its just a hypothetical #Yashahime? i don't know her #all I know is Teenage InuYasha vs. Papayasha #and how differently the 2 must have thought on the same topics #like their father. and how InuYasha felt so bitter or angry at his dad for leaving him in the name of protecting him #while simultaneously secretly yearning and missing the opportunity to know him #versus Papayasha who looks at Moroha & any other potential kids with the overwhelming understanding that they are his whole world #and he'd do anything to protect them. including laying down his life if it came down to it #& how he realizes that his father felt the same way for him & in that way Inu starts to understand his father in ways he didn't before #but he also understands how hard it is to survive without a parent esp. as a hanyou & refuses to let himself get killed battle- #-leaving Moroha and his other kids at the mercy of struggling in the world without his protection #so he resolves himself that. while he is willing to die for his kids. he must work even harder to STAY ALIVE for them above all else #so that they never have to grow up without him and wonder if he even cared or why he wasn't with them #the way he did with his own father #inuyasha #inukag #moroha #moroha higurashi #inukag child #inukag baby #inukag family #inu no taisho #inuyasha family #inuyasha movie 2 #inuyasha headcanons #inuyasha theory #post canon

[commsroom]

eiffel returning to earth and encountering people and places and things that he's known so closely for years - that some part of him might even instinctively feel he should recognize - but without the ability to consciously remember them vs. lovelace returning to earth and seeing all those familiar things and knowing them, and knowing how they've changed in her absence, but being unable to shake the part of her that keeps telling her she's seeing them for the first time. how both of these could be used as an exploration of trauma, and returning to a place (that hasn't changed at all; that's changed too much) that you no longer fit into; that rubs up against the changed shape of your life in raw and uncomfortable places.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #isabel lovelace #not quite sure how to articulate this but. mm. #eiffel having burnt his bridges before he ever left vs. lovelace's family already having mourned her ... hm. #i'm going to keep saying if eiffel gets his memory back it should be through an Eiffel Version of change of mind #i'm never going to be able to tell that story the way i want it to be told but it makes so much sense to me. #and there's a lot i think you could tell in a post-canon story about how. being on earth is going to add new angles to personal issues #they thought they'd mostly resolved. ie. minkowski's identity as commander is something she's learning to let go of by the finale #but once they get back to earth? she's going to feel responsible for eiffel and hera #and it's going to be something she'll have to work through again. #and determine who she is to them and how she fits into their lives #and whatever happens with koudelka... it's been a long time and she's a different person. it's complicated. #and i won't even start talking about hera here because that's an infinite can of worms. they are all really going to need each other

[thehuntyhunties]

god i JUST realized. ghost hunter AU leopika would absolutely get married for health insurance purposes (they have been dating longer than their chaotic low-budget ghost hunting internet show has existed) and then COMPLETELY forget to tell anybody because they wouldn't think it's relevant

#ghost hunter au #leopika #text #like gon and killua know because they brought them to the courthouse as witnesses #and probably a couple other friends know?? i can imagine that if they're bothering to do it they'd bother with a party about it afterwards #but the vibe i'm getting is that they just. date for Years and it straight up doesn't occur to them to bother getting married #until they realize that it'll resolve some sort of insurance situation and make all that easier #and then they just. never announce it. or mention it to most people. kurapika still calls leorio his boyfriend out of habit and everything #it's EXACTLY like how their viewers didn't know they were dating until maybe 3 years into the ghost show #have you ever seen two people who love each other SO MUCH and also simply Do Not Care about it bc that's kinda this situation

[tigergendermoved]

Remembering the toxic hellscape that was 2015-2019ish SU fandom and just how much hate the show got is really insane when you rewatch the show after it's been a while. Like the show is good what the hell were any of these people talking about

#do NOT quote me on those numbers i pulled them straight out of my ass #like the ending was rushed and the diamonds didnt get to be fully developed but liek #the whole reason that was the case is there was an entire 6th season planned #and then the show got axed early because rebecca sugar and crew refused the back down on the rupphire wedding. #and even rushedness aside like the point of the show was never that you should hug fascists and forgive people no matter what #the diamond were rose's (and his) dysfunctional family whose personal suffering became the basis for the cruelty of gem society #bismuth in The Real World would have been right to want to kill the diamonds as a force of revolution #but the point of the show is that even the most complicated people are still people who can change. even if you dont forgive them #even steven quartz universe the most loving boy in the world very obviously does not like being around the diamonds. but that is how it is #it was a children's show that emphasized compassion and communication and family as themes. of course steven didnt kill the diamonds lol #i really fully believe the stevenbomb format (which was not the crew's choice or fault) cooked peoples' brains #you had months between major arcs so every wrongdoing by a character had months to be warped and misinterpreted and so no resolution could #ever satisfy fans who were festering with their own opinions for way too long #like these arcs looking back are not that long and they resolve in fairly reasonable manners but they took fuckin forever in real time to #wrap up #and ppl on the internet with no other hobbies than arguing made the fandom suck to be in and gave su a bad name #even if you dont like steven universe i think the amount of vitriol thrown at the show is/was fucking INSANE for what it is lmaooo #people were so so jolly to accuse rebecca sugar (a jewish lady) of being a fascist/fash sympathizer and paint every writing shortcoming or #morally dubious character action as a sign of pure fuckin evil #ok that was a long ass fuckin rant in the tags i am so sorry i'm just kind of opinionated on this matter as i am all matters #i've been rewatching su with my dad lately and this very normal and well paced and fun watchthrough experience has been illuminating #just how insane and uncalled for the hellish discourse sphere around su was/is #i say was/is i have no idea what su discourse is like nowadays. i'm too scareds to look in the su crit tag

[prophecyofgray]

i could fix voltron legendary defender. i could do it i swear. this show is REALLY GOOD at doing a lot of things but also REALLY BAD at doing a lot of other things. she's so close she's sooo close i could fix herrrrrr

#audie talks #vld #just finished s5 and like. the thing is that if s5 existed in a vacuum it would be rly good #like it's a very solid season in terms of story and character choices honestly. but it sets up so many cool things that never turn into #ANYTHING. nothing is ever resolved in a fun or interesting way #if it gets resolved at all #i know im biased as a lancegirl but like truly this show does lance so fucking dirty #they set up so many cool things for them and then nothing ever happens with them it's so FRUSTRATING

[designernishiki]

Fun fact: Takeuchi the guy who wrote those MineDai RGGO stories said that he thinks Mine and Daigo should be together. Like yeah bro. We got that memo loud and clear already

(if you have a link to where he said that id LOVE to see it btw)

YEAH he made that pretty fucking Obvious.

you know……with the combined power of takeuchi wanting minedai to be together and yokoyama being super into mine and wanting to bring him back…………you see where im going with this

#THERE IS HOPE. THERE IS HOPE IN THIS CHILIS TONIGHT #minedai #rambling #mine’s gonna make the wildest fucking comeback ever if the stars align and we see it happen #for real tho especially now that daigo’s a civilian it’d be great to see him get his happy ending. like that man never gets a fucking break #and hasn’t been able to make a life for himself that he Wants to live. and we know he’s a really soft guy under the chairman face he puts on #I think all he really wants (that I think he gave up on a long time ago) is to be in love and be loved and do the things a Normal person can #do that he’s never been able to. maybe travel. maybe try every hobby he can think of to find out what he actually Likes to do. start #collecting vinyls again after shoving the pink part of him away in storage for so long. and yeah. do it all with the love of his life #something just possessed me there but. anyway. you get it. point is I think after having such a strict high-pressure life for so long this #is the kind of resolve he Deserves

[boltlightning]

r.ebirth is a bad game except for when it's not trying to be a good game. when it's trying to be a good game it sucks and when it's bad it's bad. but when it's not trying to be good it's so good

#its like no one told anyone on the development team no. the side quests and exploration are so shallow #the mini games are overbearing and genuinely bad and literally everywhere #this game has the worst haptic response and controller vibration i've ever experienced #i want to throw MAI into a fucking volcano and chadley is getting there too #and then i'll emerge after four hours of completing dogshit objectives to some of the most charming party dialogue in the world #i spent almost all of junon's parade grinning ear to ear #cloud says no to a blood test and won't elaborate. cloud talks about his mom and leaving home at age 13 #red and aerith talk about what it means to hate hojo #rufus calls out the shinra executives for never saying no to leadership #barret and cloud make jokes at each other's expenses. barret reckons with corel with unusual calm and resolve #and in between it all are the worst fucking characters you've ever met in your life. some are even returning characters that always sucked #seriously who the FUCK wanted to see the shinra middle manager again. what decision led the writers to this #the pacing is terrible. the fighting fucks. every side quest feels like it was written by ai. i adore queens blood #it's fucking unhinged. it's not a good game. it's the best thing i've ever played. it's mid to a fault and so over-the-top flashy #i get sick of it so quickly and then keep playing for a few hours #god. i hate it here #i also love it here. it sucks #bolt plays ff7

[dutybcrne]

Making myself sad by wondering if Kaeya had NEVER seen Diluc mad at him before that fateful confrontation

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Kae getting mad at Luc for whatever and streasing him tf out? yes #//But what if Diluc; having been told by Crepus to help look after Kae and what he’s been through; resolved to be endlessly patient #//No matter how resistant Kae is to opening up; no matter how many times he’s frozen out #//No matter how many mistakes Kaeya made; again and again; even if they hurt Luc in the process #//What if bby Luc managed to ensure Kae would NEVER see him upset with him; EVER #//That sincere; ray of sunshine keeping that promise to his father until That Day #//Until Crepus was gone & Kaeya; likewise hurt & spiraling; finally pushed Luc past the breaking point he was already toeing the line of #//And THAT was the first time Kae ever bore the full brunt of Diluc’s fiery anger #//FINALLY knew what it was like to be the one on the other end of it; having only ever seen others get that treatment & happy he never had #//And no matter how hard Kae’d tried to harden his heart after seeing Crepus with that delusion; tried to steel his resolve #//He broke all over again. & far worse than the damage Dawn could ever do to him. All bc of that rage & weight of what he did to incur it #//He’d rather let that fiery phoenix consume him in full and agony than ever bear such hatred from Luc again #//Even if he’s come to see annoying Diluc as the only real way to get his attention nowadays. But what else can he do? Leave him be? #//He knows damn well he can’t. He’s too sentimental for that; no matter how flippant he makes himself out to be #//Love to think on the flip side; Luc after processed what he did/what happened; after his destructive; murderous time in Snezhnaya #//Just resolved to never let his anger go that far EVER again. No matter how he’s pushed or prodded #//He’s seen firsthand how dangerous and irreversible the effects of his anger can be. In Snezhnaya & the Fatui. In Kaeya #//He would swear to NEVER take that lightly and lapse his self-control in such a way ever again #//Bc sb he cares abt; like Kaeya; might not be so lucky the next time around if he’s not careful

[wildflowercryptid]

i'm offically in mourning after finding out about the unreleased eah book that seemed like it was going to pair duchess and darling together. this is a freaking travesty, it looks gay as hell!! 😭😭😭

#mattel babygirl i am on my hands & knees PLS RELEASE THIS I AM BEGGING #also extremely baffled by darling having not one but TWO potentially sapphic romances that never got resolved >>> #thanks to mattel canceling the series #lesbiphobia AND transphobia at it's finest for shame 😒 (/j) #seriously though i'm so sad that i'll never get to read this it's so cruel #sorry for all the eah posting idk why i'm suddenly on a kick of it #ever after high #eah #once upon a twist #darling charming #duchess swan #duchling #ship : darling & duchess #mj.txt

[icewindandboringhorror]

I’m always paranoid of my tumblr being deleted or malfunctioning or something like that someday, so here’s other places to find me/follow me, just in case lol

~ instagram - https://www.instagram.com/lucalicatte/

~ main youtube - https://www.youtube.com/c/LucaLiCatte

~ games/sims youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@cloudycatte

~ facebook page (I rarely use this because I hate facebook but.. it at least allows text posts better than instagram does, so idk maybe I’d use it more if tumblr went away? lol) - https://www.facebook.com/cloudycatteart/

~ Other Links (stuff I don’t use often/isn’t Main enough to list here, like twitter, neopets, other tumblr sideblogs, youtube channels, etc.) are here - http://icewindandboringhorror.tumblr.com/otherlinks )

#An updated version of this since some of the links on the old one are no longer the same lol #I might make a website website one day (not with a custom domain since I'm not paying for that/dont have the money lol #but like a 'my name.weebly.com type thing lol) but I haven't had the time recently. If I ever get around to it I'll update the post and #reblog that version. ANYWAY.. I just like to have one of these written out to reblog every once in a while. During the once ever few months #when poeple are like 'tumblr is failing again! it wont survive!' which has happened like 80 times but I'm still always like :0c what if! #also love the ms paint art done with a mouse ghhj #ANYWAY.. also if you want to see the stinky game I made that's not actually related to my own worldbuilding really (why I have never #posted anything about it publilcy because it's like.. how do I talk about it lol) I have my itch.io linked in the 'other links' page #as well as my General Projects blog. which talks about all the ongoing and upcoming projects I want to do that are #actually set in my world and can give you previews of some of the things I'm working on. Currently resuming my Game after abandoning it #basically for the entire pandemic and a little before that - as mentioned before - so that's OUgh.. in terms of A Lot Of Work #Especially since while kind of 'revamping and updating' I want to add a few features which are mostly easy but every once in a while #I don't understand something and it's like....... hGGhh...... Ironically despite Blogging I just hate talking to people in public open foru #.. I love privacy and security lol.. and I always feel that ONE day I am going to have a question that has not already been asked on a foru #somewhere and I am going to have to post myself and.. no.. I shan't even imagine it.. It's not even really social anxiety it's just like.. #efficiency.. instead of wating like days to get an accurate response and resolve the problem with the general public I would rather just ha #e a one time 30min conversation with an expert and resolve it quickly. PLUS then I also only interact with One stranger instead of Many Of #Them lol.. any 6+ yrs of experience Ren'py experts hmu so I can pay you like $50 to have a single 45min conversation #with me over an insanely simple question and then never talk to you again until a year later when I have a second question. hhjb #ANYWAY.. I still really don't like instagram or it's layout and I never understood how it works like.. if I should be tagging photos or wha #or how you really use it and I just... euGH... stimky.. but it is one of the most popular so I feel obligated to link it. I wish facebook w #sn't such a nasty poo poo because I do actually like the variety of posts you can make and how Pages on facebook operate. In the scense of #it being similar to tumblr that you can make a VARIETy of styles of post. not just Only Post Photos or Only Short Text or Only Video which #is still like.. how the funk does sutff like that even get popular lol.. the Limited nature.. hewwo.. but alas.. and NO way I'm touching #fucking Threads please do not make an account on there and don't let your friends do it and don't let that shit catch on lol. #BUT YEahg... links...... just in case.. i hope tumblr stays aroundin it's current format forever though lol.. #I'm pretty sure even facebook doesn't have audio posts. or tags the way this does. or CHRONOLOGICAL FEED. custom html for pages.. aaaaa

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

ailette's preoccupation with feeding tesilid food is really cute and funny and wholesome, especially given how tesilid doesn't really seem to place as much importance on food even if he does appreciate it.

neither ailette nor the narrative ever acknowledges this, but i think it probably has its roots in her first life. when she grew up always hungry and never really had consistent and reliable access to food that was either delicious or nutritious. i think it just becomes really important to her that someone who means the world to her always gets to eat well. even if she lives well now in this life, her traumas from her past life maybe still subconsciously impacts how she navigates life.

#a transmigrator's privilege #the perks of being an s class heroine #ailette rodeline #i think it's really sad how we never really get callbacks or references to ailette's previous life after the elthea arc #what an arc it was. grandpa acquired. mom acquired. royal heritage acquired. weapon acquired. sad backstory (x2) unlocked and #resolution (x2) acquired #truly a masterpiece and an excellent way to end season 1 #anw i do understand why her prev life is never brought up again bc. her hangups alr got resolved #and esp during the timeskip period probably when she got to grow up #but :( #the only references we get is her being sad abt being too old for the childcare genre ig #but its mostly played off for jokes #and anw its implied that she kind of alr stopped aiming for that genre long ago #sniffs. wouldve loved more exploration of that theme on family but its ok #better it be done well while it was relevant than it be botchered #anw suddenly getting sad about how even tho ailette might know so much abt tesilid's lives 1-100 #he can never really know her past life apart from her maybe sharing about it #but why would she ever talk about it? #theres nothing in that life she ever seems to miss #right at the start she acknowledges that she doesnt actually miss her old life #only that she didnt want her relatives to inherit her money lol #is there anything positive and personally meaningful from that life that she wouldve liked to tell tesilid about #given how little she talks abt it... i kind of dont think so.................

[imminent-danger-came]

listened to monster from frozen the musical today and had so many mk thoughts. literally “is the thing they see, the thing i have to be.”

^me rn. like this is me a lot of the time but also rn

I'm making my world colder How long can it survive? Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive? Was I a monster from the start? How did I end up with this frozen heart? Bringing destruction to the stage Caught in a war that I never meant to wage

#tHiS ThiNg WhAtEver We ArE EmBraCe It! EmBRAce YouR DeStinY! #AlL dOoMeD To pLAy A RolL in TEaRinG ThiS WorLD apARt #TheY WilL DesTRoY YoU HarBinGEr of ChAoS #*sigh* they really just didn't resolve anything about MK's identity in the special. because of course they didn't #Like truly he went ''I don't want to go into monkey form'' and then they forced him into monkey form and #then at the end of the special he went ''I'm fine!!!!'' and I'm like oh god. It's going so down from here #tune in with me for 5x01 where it's a parallel to 4x01 except MK accidentally kills Jin and Yin #And also at some point in s5 we get our MK VS the world choice!!! #NEVER forget Sandy's words #''I get it! I'd do anything for my friends! But at the cost of the world?'' #HAUNTING #like that's one of the worst things you could have had a character say in these circumstances tbh #I hope we get inter-team conflict #half for saving MK half for destroying MK (for this half this is the hardest decision they have ever made) #OH. OH THAT'S GOING ON THE WISHLIST ACTUALLY #ngl MK is on the half for not saving MK #asks #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk MK #gumy-shark #I am in shambles #lmk music recs

[vulpinesaint]

"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple

#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ] #is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out 🙄 #not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times. #i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions. #if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far #^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate #anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed #in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other 👍 #realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing #realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart. #need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me ‼️ #(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict) #realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve #which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning #it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after. #not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit #is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me #valentine notes #relationship posting

[oatbugs]

any postgrad tips?

i am an undergrad w no qualifiactions x ♡

#i do postgrad research so i can conjecture some tips from what ive experienced and seen: #make connections as much as you can go to conferences whenever possible #listen to ur supervisors and try ur hardest to stay on good terms w them it makes life a lot harder otherwise #befriend other postgrads ! ik its hard but it can be a lonely time and its good to share the chaos sometimes #i think most postgrads start to feel irreparably behind at some point but remember that everyone is sort of in #the same boat. while working on ur own projects/reaearch do not neglect reading around ur discipline even if not 100% related to ur research #its ok to change your mind abt what you want to. there is no paper that you will write that #ruins or resolves your career. dont forget to do things that allow you to fall in love #w your discipline of choice over and over again #get in contact w the top ppl in what ur doing never ever think they will be too busy for you #regret is worse than failure #etc etc

[chuuyasoup]

IT JUST FUCKS ME UP INSIDE OKAY like especially bc. theyre twins theyre inextricably linked theyre inseparable they love each other so much that they hate each other theyre ready to kill each other to save each other and none of it makes any logical sense aughhhhhhhh but u still Know. u still understand

#never ever ever getting over vash's hardened resolve to kill knives until the very last moment when it crumbled. #never getting over knives deciding to kill vash to free him from the pain of the world they lived in up until the final moment when #he realized he wanted vash to just kill him instead #i think it fucks me up most that he never expected his last blow to land. bc he assumed vash would shoot him first but then vash DIDNT #and just. the complete reversal and panic. the mutual decision to save each other at the last second. WHAT THE HELL