#and it is so sad to watch it happen in real time

[himezoro]

Hello!! Could you please do what it would be like to date Luffy?? He's my favorite character and I loved your Zoro headcanons!!

— tysm for requesting !! i've recently came back from my trip and still recovering from my mental breakdown lol, so writing for luffy aka my son is all i need <3 i hope it brings you joy and light ⋆˙⟡♡ i have other requests in my box and i promise to do them all, i won't let you down !!

ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴ : monkey d luffy's guide to relationship (check out roronoa zoro's guide here and here if you're interested)

dating monkey d luffy would include :

endless, countless and heartfelt laughters. luffy is an outgoing and fun person to be around. he's always having fun on the way of making his dream come true, making each day bright and sunny. he won't be trying that hard to make their s/o laugh, his authenticity, fearlessness and lack of danger estimation would do the trick. but expect him to yell his s/o's name everytime he pulls a prank or tests his flexibility by making funny faces. if his s/o happens to be sad, he would also try his best to cheer them up by first, making them laugh to forget about their worry. when in bed with his s/o, he would let soft and intimate laughs escape his throat when talking to them or listening to their stories. laughing is an intimate and loving act according to luffy's guide.

physical touch. luffy's a sucker for hugs, tender gestures and pdas!! he has no shame hugging his friends like a koala, but with his s/o?? they would barely be able to breath lmao. luffy would sleep with his arms fully wrapped around his s/o's back, with his chin on the top of their head, sometimes, he would sleep on top of them with his whole weight just to show "how much he loves them", or with his head on their lap. anyway, luffy’s s/o is always at arms length thanks to his ability, much to his delight. the boy's clingy, but so adorable and natural about it. however, if their s/o needs some space, luffy would understand, although a bit saddened, so expect him to ask for a hug when they're ready. if their s/o really hates physical touch, it would be difficult for luffy to adjust (he's just a big soft plushie please take care of my baby)

receiving random compliments at random times. luffy's very honest and genuine, and even though he lacks real communication skills, he never lies. therefore, if he sees their s/o with a new outfit and he finds it nice, he will vocalize it in his words. "your coat is brown like a juicy steak, it looks tasty! you should wear it more often", "your hair looks like a cloud this morning", "your eyes sparkle like lasers!!".

him being involved in his s/o's hobbies/occupations. luffy is naturally curious. people often feel like he is pestering and "in the way", which can hurt his feelings, but he is genuinely interested in his friends' activities. he has so much admiration for them. but with his s/o? luffy would not only pester and ask what they're doing, he would also be trying to learn alongside them, with stars in his eyes. if their s/o's a fighter and fighting with a particular weapon or style, luffy would sit quietly and watch for some time, clapping his hands and feet at any random movements from their body, before joining and mimicking. if their s/o was reading or doing anything more intellectual or academic, luffy would sit by them, his arms crossed on the table and his head on top and listen to them talk and tell about what they're learning. if his s/o is patient and pedagogical, he would be so happy and confident enough to ask questions. he will then brag to usopp and chopper about his recent learnings with confidence and pride, saying how "(your name) taught me!!" (he will also turn around to his s/o to check if what he's saying is correct). it is very important for luffy to know what his s/o is doing and what they like, and for them to share their activities together. because on luffy's part, he would include his s/o in every single thing, even on shenanigans with usopp and chopper if they'd like.

hungry kisses and messy makeout sessions. the first kiss with luffy was soft, quick and intimate: a simple peck on the lips. also, at the beginning of the relationship, they were few, as the captain is more of a hugger. however, when his s/o would explain luffy that kisses could involve tongue, dear lord. luffy got insatiable. with his first french kiss, the move of his tongue got so messy he let some drool escape from his lips, trailing out from his s/o's lips. he also accidently bit his s/o's bottom lip so hard it stayed swollen for a couple of days. luffy would take note on his s/o's preferences and always surprise them with that one kiss that would leave them out of breathe and shaky. during make out sessions, not only his tongue would be insatiable, but his hands as well. this boy cannot stand still, he would trail his hands all over his s/o's body, especially the inside of their thighs or their ass. oftenly, after pulling away from his lips, he would look at his s/o's eyes and say "more" before diving in again.

aside from the messy kisses from heated and hungry make outs, luffy's kisses are always spontaneous and playful. he's hanging from the chandelier with his legs around it? he'll grow his head down just he can peck his s/o's lips. his kisses are never calculated or protocolar, they're just like his sweet personality. he would try to kiss you when you eat to "taste your food", claiming that it tasted better.

learning to communicate. luffy is not a complete moron, but his communication skills and social awareness may not be the best. their s/o will have to use patience in order to have a meaningful conversation about their intimate feelings or their relationship in general. luffy is a good listener to his s/o, however, his responses are not always fitting to the matter at hand, sometimes even immature. nevertheless, luffy is a willing person, especially with his s/o. he would try his best providing more fitting responses to his s/o's matters and expressing his needs as well, especially if he feels he has been saddened by their behaviour.

entrusting him and reassuring him. of course, luffy is a confident person, not only in his skills, but also in his dream of being the King of the Pirates. however, if their s/o does not vocalize their trust in his dream, skills or character, luffy would be saddened and pouty. it could trigger his jealousy. he is the captain of a fantastic crew with fantastic people and he feels entrusted with that role, but the one trust and validation he needs is from his s/o. if their s/o compliments him or refer to him as "future King of the Pirates", he would be beaming so hard and brag about it a little.

having a number one fan and devoted partner. luffy loves all of his crewmates and would do anything for them. but his s/o is special. he would always cheer them up, be their cheerleader, talk about them at any given times (a little like tom holland with zendaya lol), protect them from the smallest ant, raise them high. he will always stand for them. if his s/o's in danger, the smallest hint of common sense hidden in his brain gets completely lost and he goes feral. he won't let anything happen to his s/o, before letting anything happen to his dream. his dream is with their s/o: there's no Pirate King with his s/o, no matter what. losing his brother already broke his heart, and he knows losing his s/o will hurt the same, so he does not let anything happen to them. <3

he's the definition of a golden retriever boyfriend, but i feel like he would rather eat from your plate than giving you his lmao. he won't mind sharing with you, but he would enjoy stealing food from your plate.

#one piece x reader #op x reader #one piece imagine #one piece headcanon #headcanons #one piece headcanons #luffy x reader #opla x reader #monkey d. luffy #monkey d luffy x reader

[phantom-curve]

so I woke up to this fucking comment in the middle of the night

and I just wanna say, not only did I absolutely NOT use a fucking AI or bot to write my fic, but also if this is something that is going to happen now and I’m gonna have to be anxious/worried that someone is gonna accuse me of doing something like this OR that someone is gonna upload my work to a machine to teach it how to steal the work of a real human: I just won’t post anymore. like it’s literally as simple as that.

and that kills me because I already have enough reasons not to post the things I write and I was legit so excited to put something new up and now I’m like a sad leftover birthday balloon and I honestly don’t know if I will continue posting this fic or not. I feel super gross about this and frankly, really violated too. we’ll see if that changes by wednesday, but no promises on updates anymore at this point. most of the joy I had about posting this fic is gone now because of this.

so whoever is out there feeding fics into bots, here’s my PSA: fucking do better. be better. and stop ruining creative outlets for actual real people. you suck.

#never in my life have I gone from so happy/excited about an email to just flat out pissed the fuck off #like this has actually legitimately ruined my night #half a mind to just delete the entire fic now because I hate hate HATE THIS SO MUCH #literally artificial intelligence is going to be the actual death of true creative work #and it is so sad to watch it happen in real time #mads speaks #mads writes #ao3 #prayer line juke #PSA #novelai #chatgpt #FUCK ALL OF YOUR BULLSHIT AIS #writing #fic writing #ao3 etiquette

[itspileofgoodthings]

all the lyrics across Taylor’s past 5 albums about how she hopes she doesn’t lose him (hopes he doesn’t leave, hopes it never ends) only to arrive at her saying “you’re losing me.”

#the moment where it shifts in any relationship #where it goes from this fear of losing something to realizing that the loss is inevitable beCAUSE a person doesn’t want you #like. in a way her fears didn’t come true. because she didn’t do the losing. #it’s not like she had perfect happiness and it was just suddenly ripped away. it can’t be that no matter what people say #which was the fear #the absolute strangled fear in Cornelia street #because the coldness was there first and the distance and the apathy. and then it’s not about being left and feeling rejected #it’s about seeing the truth and saying oh. you’re losing ME. Because you don’t WANT this #idk if this makes sense but it is such a real life distinction to me #the difference between fears and reality #and of course that doesn’t mean it isn’t also a loss and a blow (a huge one) for her too #but it’s still not I wake up screaming from dreaming one day I’ll watch as you’re leaving #cause you got tired of my scheming #where the burden rests on her for the loss. as in the failure was innately in her #because you’re losing me still has ‘don’t read the last page cause I stay’ written on all over it #but then it’s seeing clearly too—you don’t want this enough to stay #this Probably makes no sense #it’s just exactly how heartbreak happens in real times which is. Yeah exactly what’s happening #the whole thing makes me so sad

[joelletwo]

[The Final sugi dying kitten betrayal -> utsuro-gin fight -> sakura boat imagination -> completely tonally consistent with these ginpachi-sensei closer]

now listen. u know i would rather die than post five nearly-uninterrupted minutes of a fight scene. so take that into consideration.

#slight-- #flashing #--in the first scene but i tried to cut the worst of it #sopping wet gintoki posting #videos #my computer is screaming at me. can i recall my thoughts. #i think theyre INSANE for that utsuro falling -> takasugi bound on the ground watching shouyou's execution transition. #rereading the manga fight scene. there IS some. how do i want to phrase this. unreliable perspective fuckery. retconning of memories. #nonliterality Mind Tricks. but like. things still happened. this movie here takes it so far that im like. IS GINTOKI EVEN REAL? #is this just the gintoki that lives in takasugi's dying brain and utsuro's dying brain that utsuro got from shouyou's humanity brain fungus #being his shinigami/psychopomp to walk him thru his first ever death. guhhhhhhh. littlest baby on the planet who is afraid of dying. #<- i love utsuro with all my heart. sorry for being mean to him at first turns out he's the char of all time meant for me. #anyways i think the movie is. SO BALLSY to stretch reality so far for their climax fight. and in such a. way. #taking place in complete silence. almost no actual fighting in the 200 Chapters Of Fighting arc fight scene conclusion. #reanimating so many key moments just to canonize the identity blurring triangle between three dead guys (tho gintoki gets kicked out of #the world of the dead on that sakura boat. sad.) #just a really ambitious thing to put in this aesthetically ugly and boringly standard as hell movie. AND TO SERVE WHAT END. #more standard as hell jump Power Of Friendship in the end. just with some extra weird cannibal ouroboros endless mirrors gay ass flavor. #<- gintama has always been abt making and surviving connections im not mad abt that but u know. got so generic lol. #thoooooo rereading the manga scene and understanding the plot more this time i do like the feeling that utsuro wasnt defeated so much as #just ran out his time. being kept busy from causing more problems in his final hours w a pointless fight hed never be able to turn down. #[about to digress 20 more times] anyways what else. theres an utsuro soft expression when he regrows sugi's arm that i like. interesting-- #choice. i also cut it but i love gintoki wandering gaze avoiding sugis eyes dying in his arms. and his fighting back tears so badly. #the way the dynamic and emotionally destroying shot transitions dont stop even while sugi's dying. someone on staff was working their ass #off for him and i appreciate that.

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm pretty sure at this point the person that has appeared the most in my dreams/nightmares (apart from people I actually know/used to know in real life) is Jarvis Johnson. it happens a lot, he'll just randomly show up all the time. like last night he was in a (particularly gruesome and unpleasant) nightmare that I had. didn't make any sense but it was nice to get a break for a second :)

#I like when my brain does this #just. oh yeah this is pretty awful. here have A Guy You Like #it does help a little #and it does kinda make sense that he would show up a lot. I find him very calming #there's also been lots of dreams where I was friends with him. and many where I hug him. it's very weird because besides him this really #doesn't happen a lot with anyone else lol #like I've had maybe three dreams that (characters played by) John Larroquette showed up in. and I spend a stupid amount of time thinking #about him lol #anyway I like Jarvis he's great and I'm glad my brain seems to like him too haha #also. that nightmare last night was one of the more brutal ones (like. dozens of young people/teenagers getting killed by a teacher that I #haven't seen in 15 years and who wasn't even that bad. it was just really rough. so yeah getting like a tiny moment of aww hey what's he #doing here that makes no sense! is always nice :') and it's good because then I tend you remember that part a bit more than the rest.) #*to #unfortunately this makes watching his videos (especially sad boyz) a little weird sometimes. like. hey that's my friend. wait no he's not. #I've just dreamed that over a dozen times it's not actually real (unfortunately) #personal

[proteuus]

yesterday I was going ape shit but then my girlfriend showed me dark souks 2 gameplay and I'm regular now. dark souls is such a powerful franchise

[laylanatorseventeen]

God, its insane how autistic people are supposed to be the ones unable to pick up on social cues.

I, autistic, when someone is not displaying active interest in what I'm saying: oh my fucking God they don't care. They hate me. I am a burden to society. Luckily I never talk about something I am truly invested about to people outside my family.

And yet at every job I've ever had at LEAST one coworker, usually female, has decided that I am the perfect sounding board for every problem they have, both at work and at home. They will bitch and bitch and bitch at me and the entire time I'm standing there in silence like

And it apparently NEVER occurs to them that my silence and expression of total indifference means that I don't care and don't want to hear. Like!!! Bruh!!!! If I TOLD you I don't care then you'd go around telling everyone what a mean bitch I am, but all these precious Social Cues I'm supposed to be unable to recognize are FAILING TO PENETRATE YOUR SKULL. and the worst is when they seem irritated that I'm not UPSET ALONG WITH THEM. like girl I do not know how to tell you that I don't care that you dropped your apple watch and it broke. Its not my watch. Sorry that it's just not that deep to me. Ok, like five years ago they took away your key to the gate and told you that you were lucky you still had a job. Ok. Sorry, but I'm just like not that fucking invested idk what the hell you want me to do.

That's another thing that sucks about being back in the garden center is that I'm back to being The Bitching Post. Like girl I DO NOT CARE. We are not friends. We are coworkers.

#laylavents #ITS SO FRUSTRATING. #and sometimes this shit would even happen to me IN SCHOOL. a couple times i randomly had someone come up and just start telling me about #their fuckin problems and it's like bro leave me alone???? idk what the FUCK you expect me to do with this shit #and like the apple watch scenario....i did the Appropriate thing which was to go Oh Man That Sucks #but this chick just kept staring angrily at me like I BROKE HER WATCH OR SOMETHING and kept repeating that it was broken #like bitch what you want me to do?? cry??? rush off to buy you a replacement? not gonna happen what do you WANT #but that woman was weird and over aggressive anyway. noone was real sad when she got fired (finally)

[fdrsamericanflagduckfloaty]

Ça va, mon ami?

... Oui?

#🐝 #'?' as in 'maybe???? sorta??? idk' type '?' #okay sorry rant in the tags #does that make sense? #i would say okay but. . rn im just chilling #but my emotions flip flop as easy as flipping a coin #one moment ill be hella sad and upset and then the next it'll be like it never happened #like oh. i was sad?? yeah alr cool ANYWAYS time to watch my favorite actor #happy?? good times??? one wrong word or sentence boom im sad #but then that goes and its like okay well thats over time to be laughing and happy #so yknow i can never say yes because right now i cant recall the last 10 minutes #does that mean im just on autopilot??? maybe. #does that mean my brain is on power-saving low-usage mode??? yes. #yknow i just. i just. my emotions change so smoothly its kinda concerning? #i can go from being in the dumps to just 'eh im good' so quickly its as if it never happened #i just dont process anything longer than 20 minutes. 21 minutes? yeah watch me simping for one of the main 3 i like acting like i wasnt sad #yeah so im just. im just on low energy no-real-attention-needed mode rn mon ami #rewatching a tv show ive watched 30 times. music. dark room. my irl/online bestie/platonic marriage partner isnt on #i mean its just low vibration buzzing brain hours rn

[starboard70]

Actually ill elaborate on my last reblog this brainrot was the strongest I've ever experienced. Like I checked the rouxls kaard tag daily for fanart, started doodling him nonstop, made a ton of headcanons for him, and kept a tab open on my chromebook that was just his wiki page. I was in incredibly deep. I still have one tab open on my phone thats just a fanfic of him that I really enjoy (I should reread that actually, its been a while... called a kaard about towne if you wanna check it out) eventually it faded though! Now I am normal about him until the nest chapters drop

#i really enjoy rouxls kaard #honestly im torn between subscribing to the 'hes super powerful since hes the rules card and makes all the rules' theory or- #keeping him horrendously incompetent and weak for the funnies #would love to see him as a secret boss and watch the shadowfication happen in real time too... although id be a bit sad that my boy- #would disappear #ALSO HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH LANCER IS SO CUTE TOO I LOVE IT SO MUCH I ADORE THEM #although ive never really decided on my favorite ship... i think i love the Big Three the most (swatchkaard queenkaard and businesskaard) #tie between queenkaard and swatchkaard businesskaard is just there because it isnt as silly as the other two for me #ohhhh and i really hope he interacts with papyrus too... puzzle enthusiast meets horrifically incompetent puzzle engineer GO itd be awesome #one last thing i like him goopy rather than being solid i think its funny especially if he melts into a goo puddle if he gets flustered or- #embarrassed #okay thats all i need to do my english homework

[hnrye]

ok well. i can never be normal again btw ❤️

#watched the episode... its sooo <3 #agh. now i want to change pfp to willow but i just changsd to this tome one so i'll leave it a little longer. #ohhh theyre all so :-) theyre so theyre so #god. i dont think i can have. super coherent thoughts yet. im going to go to sleep and tomorrow i'll watch it again and form real opinions. #but god :-) i liked it. #rewatched ftf as well since i forgot what happened in it. wasnt a big fan the first watch but it was a bit better second time around. #gosh :-( all their future redesigns made me so. i love them. #ESPECIALLY HUNTERS Um um um. erm i am looking respectfully. #gosh. ok actual spoilers in the tags ahead beware. #obsessed. w the titan guy. gave me asgore vibes a bit but like if asgore was sillies. #ummm. ok sorryg realizing that yea i for sure dont have a ton of coherent thoughts yet. #collector was so good in this episode. bit where luz realized that he genuinely doesnt understand death fucked me up a little. #ALSO UM. WELL SPEAKING OF. LUZ. DID THAT!!!!! #it didnt affect me a ton when it actually happened since i didnt think itd be permanent at all. but obsessed. w eda and king in that part. #eda is soo good in this ep methinks also btw. her and king r so sillies i love them :-) #what else. did i mention already how much i loved collector... hes such a little guy your honor hes just a little guy :-( #god. i felt so sad 4 him. #ok. thats. all the thoughts. for right now. goodnight ^-^ #shut up henry #toh spoilers

[nomaishuttle]

im alsp seepy but i cant sleep bc my HAIRS WET!! luckily it dries quicker now Due to rhe haircut but still looking at a 2 hour situation... but also i dont feel like gaming. i might cook I guess. or i could watch el movie 😏 but id have 2 get my laptop and likee. yk.. i could watch downstaurs but id have to be sure my roommates r Fully fully asleep bc i dont have headphones for my laptop (i have my phone headphones but i hate the abominable fucking thinks) so id have to just have that shit open to the elements. rawdogging the sound. caint do that if my roommates are up!

#but at the same tkme what if i want 2 cook bc my laptops so damn quiet i caint cook and watch somethin at the same time #bc i cannot fuckjng hear. #its a harsh world for a beautiful girl (me) #AND MY GF IS GONNA BE AT WORK ALL DAY TMRW ITS AAAACTUALLY EVIL. LIKE NOT HIS FAULT #but its like a 7:30-4 at his first job and then like a 4-11 or somethiny at his second #BUT. on the plys side its his last day at starbucks yayyy yayyyyy #whym i silly mode sry guys something has come over me. something fiercely. i fr feel so silly.. #maybe ill go check the mail :] #oughh also if i go downstairs at all i have t find clothes this is evil #none of my clothes are comfortable anymore i think somebody wicked has done something to them #even my like safe clorhes havent been good. might have t throw on my srupid stupid evil dress with the ripped neckline #bc its so damn comfy And always there for me #but also everytime i see the neckline i get so sad #one day when im not depressed anymore <- this will never happen but when it does. i willl sew something with that thang... or at least just #refinish the neck. since i tore it up so bsd #and it was on purpose. bc there was a hole jn the neckline and it annoyed me and i THOUGHT i could just tear the hem off real easy. as it #turns out No i couldn't. andnits baddddd. bad bsd bad. horrific #i shoulda just left it but ohhh well. too late naow

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭 #this is dumb. like i have a lotta steps to go bc i can even consider this a possibility but i met with one of the ppl #im talking to for a phd. hes from a big impressive uni and his research is so fucking cool #and he thinks my cv is competitive for scholarship and he wants to support me as a student #so 🥺 #i did not sleep much. i was having stress dreams plus i was a lil dehydrated lol #and i was watching a talk he did over and over until i got why he was so excited about it. bc it was real fucking cool once i got it #and we talked for like 80min abt our interests and potential projects. and now i have to take some time and start a proposal #bc im gonna do at least 2 scholarships and the deadlines are happening pretty fast. so rip my free time #but like it could potentially include genetic engineering and adaptive evolution so like so so cool #i mean its a lil risky bc he is only just establishing his lab. so its not like hes had a bunch of students but i think at this point #even if hes not so hands on i can probably drive myself forward #we'll see what happens. it would be super fucking cool to do some genetic engineering nonsense. and fucking adaptive evolution #ugh and get to live in the uk again 😭 i miss the gray english skies #so yea thats 2 potential projects im really invested in now #so like. it depends on if i can get the scholarship. which will be intensely competitive #so idk. we'll see. and ive got a meeting with another guy monday #but its the dude from Arizona and i dont wanna live there so im hopefully the project isnt as cool... but i think it kinda is so rip #ugh. its been a wild day. im so tired. #but happy. but also sad i wont have as much free time for drawing #but again happy bc im gonna learn and up my writing skills and chase my weird wild dreams :-) #unrelated

[loverboybrightsideghost]

oh fuck good omens s2 comes out in two days

#FUCK #good omens #bluebird.txt #yay??? #idek how i feel about this anymore. i think i'm excited. i'm kind of not fully convinced it's real still #when it drops and i watch it i'll be like OH this is actually happening #atp i consider the show a related but separate entity from the book so i'm looking forward to seeing where it goes #i think i'll keep the tag blocked and stick to the blogs i follow though #i don't want to experience fandom stupidity for the quadrillionth time because that's stupid and it will make me sad

[bamboozled-distress]

I HATE IT WHEN I HAVE HYPERFIXATIONS ON SHOWS OR BOOKS AND THINGS AND THEN WHILE THIS IS HAPPENING I HEAR THAT THR SERIES OR WHATEVER IS ENDING AND I GET SO SAD YOU DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND

I BARELY GOT TO LOVE IT AND ITS ENDING WHAT DO YOU FUCKING MEAN ITD ENDING I LOVE IT YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME PLEASE

#PLEASE #no bc this is SO real #I got into one direction AFTER THEY BROKE UP #YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I GET SO SAD #I GOT INTO STRANGER THINGD AFTER I HEAR THAT NEXT SEASON IS THE LAST #I GOT INTO SUPERNATURAL AND A YEAR LATER THEY ANNOUNCE ITS ENDING #IT WRNT ON FOR 15 YEARS BUT THR SECOND I START LIKING IT #IT ENDS #IT WAS A SHOW KNOWN FOR IT NEVER ENDING #AND I GOT REALLY IN THR ARROWVERSE AND OLIVARRY THR YEAR ARROW ENDED #AND THEY KILLED BY SHIP BY BARRY CALLING OLIVER HIS BROTHER BEFORE HE DIED #AND THEN WHEN I REALLY GOT IN THR MARVEL FANDOM #TONY STARK FUCKING DIED #AND NOW SNL I LOVE SNL ITS EVERYTHING TONME AND IM WATCHING EVERY EPISODE WHICH IS ALOT AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT #AND THE SEASON THAT JUST STARTED RIGHT BEFORE EIGHT FUCKING CAST MEMBERS LEFT #AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAS HAPPENED SINCE THE 80’s #AMD ALL MY FAV ONES ARE GONE NOW AND IM SO SAD #SNF APPARENTLY KENAN SAID THAT SNL IS PROBABLY GONNA END IT OFF WITH ITS 50TH SEASON #THATS ONLY 2 MORE YEARS DAMMIT PETE I MISS YOU AND AIDY AND KATE #snl #pete davidson #aidy bryant #weekend update #one direction #stranger things #arrowverse #supernatural #marvel cinematic universe #tony stark #kate mckinnon

[milo-is-rambling]

Out smoked my cousins,,, truly feeling like the hippy failure cousin that all the kids like but all the adults judge and like it’s great vibes I feel my cousins actually enjoy being around me (not even just that we’re smoking like they seem to legit enjoy talking to me)

#getting along with my family and then going to bed and immediately getting really sad about my dad bc one of my cousins is super musical and #him and my dad talked about music a lot and they were always talking about gutair models and speaker types and so much cool shit and he was #such a big supporter of him and I just wish my dad was still alive bc now that same cousin is just barely starting to smoke weed (not around #his parents so we waited for them to leave and then we all smoked a joint and he watched rick and morty and then fell asleep on the couch #with a bag of Cheetos in his lap honestly so so real I hope tonight was awesome for him caus he doesn’t smoke often at all he’s still at the #remembering every time part of smoking #yeah I just wish that dad was around but at the same time I think the dynamics would be different if dad was around like things would just.. #ugh. things would be better and things would be worse but I am happy and healthy and surrounded by love and I can’t dwell on shit that isn’t #going to happen and can’t ever happen again. I just have to move past it bc he is dead and I am alive and that is what outliving your #parents is and it sucks but there is nothing I can do about it and it happens to everyone it just happened earlier for me

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

wanting to text your ex when you're sad is so real

#like i used to watch it in movies and shows and i was like nah no way that's real #but. but. BUT. #so real #it's like brain is thinking of all the happy times u spent with them all the comfort and safety they gave you #and hope that you'll just call them up send a hey can we talk text and it'll be the same #and they'll make all the sad go away and they'll make u feel happy and loved #but it won't happen #cause like we are diff ppl now and most importantly #they don't love u anymore #mes