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#and instead of brick theyre steel now
spearcast
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#tw vent
#vent in tags
#to delete later
#i really wish i hadnt convinced myself that the server hated me earlier this year
#i really wish i could stop convincing myself people hate me when they probably dont
#i just feel like an inconvenience and like everyone would be better off without me
#even on my good days i just dont feel worth it
#and i truly have convinced myself im not. worth the time or effort so whatever people spare for me i dont deserve
#and i dont want to talk about my feelings bc i dont want to bother anyone or burden them and i know to be close with someone they willingly-
#-accept that burdens will happen and they willingly take on even the worst parts of you but
#im still behind 800 walls that i dont know how to break down
#and the ones i had broken through went right back up when THAT happened in feb/march
#and instead of brick theyre steel now
#and i cant talk about ocs or self inserts or my creative projects or myself or my feelings or my future
#without tearing up bc i!!! i am so scared of being vulnerable
#that i isolate and push people away bc i feel like thats what i deserve; that ppl deserve better than what little i have to offer
#and that i deserve to suffer and be alone
#and i just. keep repeating the same horrible cycles and i cant break them and im
#i dont. fuck
#i dont want to see my birthday!!!!!! i dont!!!!!!!!!!! and i hate that!!!!!!!
#i cant even say that my younger self would be proud of us i think she would just be sad
#that this is what ive come to
#a dumb frightened unlovable creature stuffed behind walls sitting in the dark
#a monster in the core of a labrynth i wont even let people into
#i hate this
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