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WAIT WAIT if wars is exiled from his own home ,,,, the amount of dread. he would feel when LU is over and the found family is unfounded my god . like yes, he still wouldn't regret it bc it happened over him standing up for ledge, but that opens up the problem of homelessness and not to mention the spiral he'd probably go down from losing the family he's grown so used to having by his side. from how you've said it, im guessing he really has nobody to lean back on in his own time. i can see him digging his own way out and still finding a way to live happily but the way you've set it up makes at least the first few months for wars post-LU hurt and i am here for it <33

WIGGLES WIGGLES RUNS AROUND IN CIRCLES i actually have . an lu ending established in my head. i wont ramble abt it here cuz i don't wanna stray from ur ask but could y'all possibly indulge me sometime and let me ramble abt the Literal Best Case Scenario that will indeed give wars a very happy ending . it's my beloved ranch au and i cherish it deeply looks at u all like a pathetic little wet dog that's begging for scraps

BUT IF UR HERE FOR HURT,,,, i think i have some. in my head this is sort of a What If scenario—horrible-no-good-terrible-worst-case scenario—cuz i'm a little bitch boy who can't handle unfounded family and ill sob for three days straight if it ever happens for real but i can destroy him in hypothetical scenarios . for the funsies

(warning for unfounding the found family . and also additional stuff in the tags)

he Would be homeless and honestly he'd be damn hard-pressed to find any inn or business who would allow him service. imagine: he's just said goodbye to the chain and he's an absolute wreck—emotionally exhausted and Yeah rly fuckin hopeless, and he trudges to the nearest town he can find and discovers that 1) everybody he sees looks at him w malice, and 2) all of the business owners in town Refuse service to him

he discovers that somehow, at some point, false word had gotten out that their hero "abandoned" them. the stories r all different, and wars has no idea how they originated—some of them claim he simply quit and left, some say he Attacked The Queen and went rogue, some call him a traitor and accuse him of working with and fleeing to other countries, and some think he's Dead

and that . is a fucking slap to the face. he's been training 24/7 since he was 9 years old, put up w the abuse and neglect from his shitty father all the while, risked his life every day when promoted to captain to defend this kingdom from enemies and traitors alike, and when his people abandon him, they accuse him of treason and say he left his home to rot.

he walks through the streets of this town and most families are ushering their children into houses bc they heard the one-man army hero has gone mad. some of the more hostile, up-front people take him head on, spout death threats at him, swipe at him w blades and torches. he can't escape into a building bc no owner will let him in. he Has to flee

and u can imagine how the rest of his days go. search for a town, get chased out, camp in the woods and survive on scraps and dirty river water until he can find another town that prolly Won't sell him anything. he's fucked. he's truly and royally Fucked.

occasionally, he's saved by a town or two that leans toward the other side of things and some people don't believe the stories. some people think he was wronged, some believe he was Murdered, some think he simply fuckin retired, it varies. they're usually nicer to him, sometimes indifferent. the kinder people take him in, give him clean clothes and a warm meal and let him stay at the inn at a discount and sometimes even for free, if he looks particularly ragged or starved (he . is indeed lookin a little thin). he makes sure to thank them plenty

one time, he's invited into a nice family's house and they cook a hearty meal for him, offer a guest bed to rest in. and then they try to kill him in his sleep.

he doesn't take any handouts after that.

it takes a while—and i mean a while—to find somebody who's willing to let him rent a property or stay at an inn for an extended period of time. most people r wary of him, and since they've all heard the stories of how unstoppable he is, to regular old people he now seems like a monster. eventually though, he does find a place and folk who don't think he's all bad that'll let him stay if he pays well. he has plenty of money—he just hasn't been Allowed to spend any of it

that whole other ask ? the whole Point of the scarf deal, and what it symbolizes ? it's . kinda shredded into pieces in this scenario. yes, he did get better from his time in the war and Yes, the scarf still represents him finally finding a family to love and happiness to be had, but . now that's gone. his family is Gone. literally all that he has left is his mother's scarf, and even what it represents feels,,,,,,,,, soiled

he can't even visit his mother's grave. the cemetery is in castle town. he's been robbed of Literally Everything

.,, yeah ok that's all im so sorry GVIEAGYV hate to cut it short but this is too sad for me and like I said I'm a goddamn little bitch boy and if he doesn't get happiness RIGHT NOW !!!!!!!!!! I'LL DIE!!!!

i like to think he'd get better. but honestly ? that's . so much on him. all that on Such a sensitive and sweet person is a lot. i feel like he'd be miserably unhappy and hopeless for . a long time

#BUT GOOD THING THAT'S JUST A WHAT IF SCENARIO :DDDDD [my face is covered in tears]#when u think about it artemis and impa in this case Ruined His Life . [lets out the most stressed sigh you've ever heard]#once again have no idea how to tag this #tw homelessness #homelessness #tw starvation #starvation #<- he learned a Little from the others about hunting and foraging for food #it's enough to survive . but he's not getting a whole lot out of it #he's a city boy . he did not grow up having to hunt and he'd never even seen a goddamn deer before he became captain #even though the opportunity for angst is So goddamn high this is not a canon thing for like . my version of lu i guess #i need wars to be happy .#picture an image of maslow's hierarchy of needs next to me and the entire basic needs section is simply warriors being happy #torturing him is fun tho . he gets to suffer a little sometimes. as a treat #qktalks #soul-of-rei

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cold-arrow · 1 year

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Doctor’s Notes, Book 5 part 19

| Forging Ahead | Summary, Things of note since last entry: Freeing the first group, The Vonindod, ore carts, invis, the giant and the orcs, the key, lym’s rattiness, The elevator, the giants mess hall, crossroads, the crying doorway. Lucky guess, the bedroom, fortune, the chest, misfortune. Do we escape, Megaera and Angelo

| 1 / 6 | we… discussed on how to proceed for quite a while. Even with our voices kept down, im surprised we weren’t spotted or found out. We didn’t really know what to do. What we should do next. If we free the slaves now, the odds of the giants noticing that something’s amiss, or that their fortress has been infiltrated, only increases. The more slaves stop working or halt their process of keeping the mines, and the forge running, the sooner they’ll realize that we’re here. We might be able to extract a few right now, and they probably wont immediately notice, I don’t think. But once we do extract the first group, or the more slaves we free… It just starts a timer, that gets shorter and shorter with each person we break out. the fact the me and Baras cant see anything in this darkness doesn’t really help either. Like where do we even go from here? We don’t know the layout, and finding a pathway to continue on from here is proving to be quite difficult. We only have Lym and Omrick to go on for directions, to scout for us, if we don’t want to get caught because we need our stupid lights to see. There is a drop the west. Down towards a forge, where to Duke’s Son is. And to the east there is a cart system, suspended above a ravine, that the slaves were using to transport the ores. Maybe we can use that traverse the mines? To gods know where though. … We… eventually settled upon freeing and extracting the first few slaves that we’d saved. Well be sending them to Mirrorbar, along with some provisions, and a generous amount of gold Lym donated to them. They were reluctant to accept at first, but she really wouldn’t budge on the matter. She had already Send a message ahead as well, to the owner of the Stable, Zazspar Bronzefire. And Baras is currently drawing the circle, as we gather up the other slaves that we freed before. I hope they’ll be alright. Even if we don’t make it out, at least we did something good.

| 2 / 6 | We teleported as many aw we could. And we’re now going to look for a way to ahead. Omrick found some sort of passage down towards the forge or smelter below. By the Duke’s son. But It seems a bit dangerous, or treacherous. Especially since it’s quite a drop. The other option would be to either head back the way we came and take the elevator, but we weren’t particularly excited about that on either. So instead we will be taking the ore carts, and are going to go for a bit of a ride. I... hope they are safe. The minecarts. Atleast they should be able to support are weight? From what little light there was, and from what I heard from the others later. as we rode past, the carts took us straight over and above the Vonindod construct. It… It’s a lot bigger then I would have ever imagined. I only caught glimpses of it’s head, But… We have to take Maegera back. if not, find a way to destroy or halt the construction of the damned thing. So we made it safely… to the other side. “Safe” being relative though. For not far down the cave, on the other side. was a group of armed orcs led, by a fire giant. They… spotted Omrick rather quickly as he scouted a bit ahead. Thinking he was one of the escaped workers at first. And… things kind of went south from there with, a combination of both chaos and panic. He tripped almost immediately after he was spotted which caused the minecarts bump into him and make even more noise. Which wasn’t a great start. -- And to be honest, I… was the one who panicked for the most part. Tripping over the tracks as I tried to hide on the other side. I didn’t know if we were going to negotiate, or hide or fight them at first. And that was even before we realized that there was a firegiant present as well. So my first “best” attempt at hiding, was just me tripping over myself and falling onto floor. Baras kind of led the charge after that. Being to first to go invisible. Angelo followed soon after, and took one of the doses from the invisibility potions that I had prepped. Lym instead decided to polymorph herself into a rat. Which, was pretty good quick thinking. And I quickly followed their example soon afterwards and drank my invis as well. Before Lym polymorphed though, she whispered at me, to pick her up and put her back into one the minecarts, but I didn’t have enough time to do so, before the first of the orcs arrived. Omrick, he Killed the poor sod After he landed a decent blow on him. His head didn’t stand much of a chance against his hammer, once he got back up on his feet. And his fight or flight response at that moment, seemed to lean towards the former, than the latter. Ending his career as a guard. by that time I’d managed to stumble back towards the other side of the tracks, this time without tripping for the most part. And tried to find Lym within the stiffling darkness of the cave the best I could. Fortunately she found me instead. Which was followed by a surprised yelp on my part, which Thank Illmater they didn’t hear. But atleast she was hopefully out of harms way as well, now that I was carrying her. I wasn’t sure about putting her in the minecarts though, or if she’d even be able to get out once I did. But when I asked, her biting of my fingers was enough of an indication that she had changed her mind as well.

| 3 / 6 | Honestly I don’t know how me managed to escape them without getting caught. Pure luck and have the invisibility to thank for I suppose. Omrick managed to get away in time after I doused him with one of the invisibility potions, and evaded the other orcs as they went to investigate the noise. Though… I couldn’t actually see it, or see them, one of orcs… seemed pretty devastated by the death of their friend. Which was rough. Its not like they were apparently well armoured either. Or that heavily armed. Mostly jus, a bunch of orcs forced or accepting to be guards, under the rule of the fire giant. To hopefully be treated a bit better, than the other slaves. I pray for his soul, I suppose. Hopefully the lot of them can find peace and proper place one the fire giants are dealt with. I had to squeeze myself against the wall the best I could, hoping the orcs would pass me without noticing or bumping into me. Which thank Illmater they didn’t. After that though, Lym the rat had to help “guide” my blind ass, as I couldn’t see anything as to where I was going. It took me… A While, to figure out how to interpret her directions, or the biting of my fingers to be specific. But eventually she guided me towards the elevator. Where once I arrived, she headed out to find the others. Even though I was only left alone for a few seconds, or perhaps it was just the stress of the situation. And having been split up from the others, with no idea where they went, or if ill be left behind to be torn apart by giants. I… I swear I could see Her face creeping up out of the darkness whichever way I looked. Had to squeeze my eyes closed and focus on my breathing, for otherwise the panic attack I felt coming might have alerted the giants of my location. And sealed my fate. -- Baras had apparently snuck past the giant without issue. Even stole a key right from the giants belt without them barely noticing. I’m surprised and ever more so impressed that he managed to do that. Hopefully that key will come in handy somewhere down the road. – Barely managed to notice him taking it as well. Once the giant realized it was gone, he started looking for it though. So I quickly made an illusion of the key the best I could, and threw to the other side of the room. He didn’t notice it first, so I threw another one with the sound of key dropping. Which got his attention and hopefully prevented him from accidently finding the others / my other invisible friends. Eventually, thanks to Baras’ blind sight, and Lym’s murine? senses, The both of them managed to locate the others, as well as bring them back to the lift where I was. Angelo was a bit harder to find, and had drifted away farther down the corridor. But eventually after some incessant squeaking from Lym, managed to guide him back to us as well. -- With Baras now to guide us, and Lym’s enhanced senses, we managed to head down further into the forge and fortress of the firegiants from there on. * I completely forgot to look and admire the elevator, both due the the stress and lack of sight. Which is… unfortunate. Ah well.

| 4 / 6 | we had been starting to doubt whether the forge, and Fire-Duke’s chambers were even on this level. So instead of heading down the same corridor Angelo had been going into, we opted instead just take the elevator. Which seemed a lot safer now that we were all invisible. Took a while for it to finally get to our level. But we managed to ride it pretty much all the way to the bottom, without issue. -- from there, our options where either: Go east, Or go north into the mess hall. Which was where a group of goblins were just casually hanging out and cleaning. They actually seemed to be pretty content with their situation as well, to my surprise. -- The mess hall kind of piqued our curiosity. So opted to get that way first. Baras and some of the others decided to scout ahead. But eventually all of us followed, and waited by the gigantic brazier on the far side of the mess hall. (devoid of any Remorhaz’s, much to my relief.) There were another two hallways the split of from there as far as I could tell. One, once again going east, and one west. They turned out to be pretty similar in the end, from what I gathered. Omrick scouted on ahead to the west side. Which revealed two more doors or passages going north and south. And, eventually I got impatient of waiting for Baras returning from his scouting of the rest of the mess hall, so I decided go ahead and scouted the eastern passage myself. Which, revealed a fairly similar setup, or layout. A door to the north, and a door to the south. Hoping to get a clue as to its purpose or contents. I pressed my ear against the northern door first, and listened. But didn’t get any inclination as to what or who might be there on the other side. No-one would be ideal… But there are lot of other outcomes, with varying amount of fortune or misfortune as well, I imagine. When I listened at the door to the south, I did her something… which was quite concerning. Crying. Not too dissimilar to that of Moog, when we first met her. That is what it reminded me of. Once I realized that it might be a giant weeping on the other side, I was a bit less sympathetic for them, to be honest. Still though, I’m curious as to what something as powerful as a fire giant, I assume, would be crying about.

| 5 / 6 | not wanting to risk running into any giants just yet. Even If we could maybe ( and I admit this is a naïve thought ) reason or talk with the inconsolable giant on the other side of that door. We instead opted to try the door north first. I informed the others of my findings, and it didn’t really matter which way we tried first as long as we have no idea of the layout of this place. So no-one was opposed to trying to quieter of the two doors on the east first. I… uhm I guess made quite the lucky guess. After a bit of teamwork, ( or stupidity on Omricks part…. Giving me a boost or a lift up, Does not equal or mean grabbing me by the ankles, and throwing me at the door. So I could “catch” the door handle. The bastard is lucky I didn’t hit the wood hard enough for it sound like someone knocked are banged their fist against it. And alerted anyone of our presence) But, we managed to in fact open the door. And on the other side. Was a bedchamber. A very fancy bedchamber. decorated and furbished by a giant woman most likely, considering some of the items and decor within. And there was a bed, large enough for two giants to sleep in. Which I suppose could only mean that this was indeed the Duke and Duchess’ bedroom. I uhm… wont make any comments on the large iron chains hanging by the bed. ( though I am morbidly curious as to who wo) if the items within the room were anything the go by, the firegiants sure have an expensive sense of taste as well. But the craftmanship is… remarkable. And on scale for beyond that of us smaller mortals. A chainmail dress made of golden Individual rings. A giant gem encrusted mirror. A circlet more regal, and royal then any ive ever seen, at least in size. A beautifully decorated tinderbox. And many more items were stashed away. Or just nonchalantly discarded upon the giant table. besides the questionable bed, the table, or the wardrobe and a few other bits of furniture. The one thing that stood out of was the giant chest located beneath said table. Not just made of carved wood, but of wrought iron. And secured with a heavy and sturdy looking padlock. A numbered lock, upon closer inspection. -- The faint hope that the code to the lock, might be hidden or carelessly strewn about the room somewhere, was quickly shattered. The room itself seemed impeccable, and very orderly. And clean. I think the duchess takes… well care of her bed chambers. So unless we get a key, or code from her somehow. I doubt there’s another way to open it. besides just lock picking. wasn’t sure how to even go about such a feat at first. With the chest being multiple times large than me and all that. But thankfully, I’d prepared a growth potion. Which made it a lot easier, since my tools and equipment would grow with me. But… I have never seen a lock as intricate and difficult as that one before, until now. The onliest reason I managed to get the chest open, was Pure Luck. And focus. The tools made it a lot easier as well. But… even though I made sure the damned thing wasn’t trapped beforehand, it still nevertheless Very hard to tell from the outside. A… very cleverly locked chest indeed. For that fact that it was trapped, wasn’t actually visible until you opened it. Which I did. The following burst of gas, would have killed most people I think. Thankfully we had enough healing among all uf us, to undo the damage that it did. But Lym in particular got hit pretty badly. Even some of the others got caught in the blast zone of the incendiary gas. Which… I feel quite guilty about. I should have token more time to inspect the chest, more carefully. Will have to apologize again later. Most of the contents within got incinerated. With the exception of some more valuable items, made of precious metals and gems, as well as a shell. The Shell, That we were looking for. The Conch.

| 6 / 6 | We had found it, the third key that we needed. Along with a fortune of giant jewellery, accessories and other items forged with giant craftmanship. We gathered all the belongings in the centre of the room, discussing what the best way to extract was. -- Baras still had a use of teleportation left, and could teleport everything, including us. Back to the mansion. But that still left the matter of the Fire giants. And The Vonindod. And the Slaves, still captured here. And… Maegera. Once Angelo heard us talking about teleporting out, and leaving. He… he said or mentioned that he understood. That if we wanted to leave, we could. He'd be alright. But he wouldn’t be coming with us. He still needed to retrieve Maegera, The blazing primordial, And take it back to his home his people. Back to Gauntylgrimm. He’d be willing to challenge the rest of the Fire giant stronghold, by himself if he had to. And fight his way to the forge, where she was kept in order to fulfil his promise to his people. Once we realized that… That he wouldn’t leave without her. We really started questioning our plan of approach at that point. Of what to do next. -- How do we proceed from here?

We cant just leave him to face the fire giants by himself. Are there are still so many people trapped here. We barely even made a dent in the threat that his fortress poses. And, I don’t think I can abandon him. Or leave the people trapped here in good conscience, without at least doing a bit more to help them. … the current options I, or we are considering are

1. Leave now, and try to convince Angelo to come back later??

2. Try and sneak to the forge and steal Maegera

3. Try and get a night’s rest, recover a bit. And then explore the rest of the stronghold fully recharged

4. Assassinate the Duke and Duchess?

( 5. one person takes the flask, and tries to steal Maegera. I made have an idea for that, but it is very risky ) … who do we do. what do we choose? | End of part 2 |

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ac3id · 4 years

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bully anon 🚶. are u reading my mind? 👁️👄👁️ im literally writing a yandere!bully! bakugo x reader thing where he shares his darling w his crazy classmates 💅 also bakumomo 🤤

bnha: katsuki bakugou x fem!reader x momo yaoyorozu

warnings: humiliation, degradation, noncon touching, bj. bakugo n momo be meanies :'), fem reader

momo has a kick for seeing u suffer, she just loves when ur eyes get glossy & a sacred, hopeless expression masks ur face. she gets such a power trip from it that even the slightest bit of guiltiness she feels from bullying u disappears.

but she knows she cant make u cry the way she wants u too. u r not that scared of her. too u, she is just another rich girl picking on u because it boosts their ego. u honestly couldnt care less about those types anymore. so she knows u wont submit to her so easily and thats when she goes to bakugo for help.

the both of them have great respect for eachother, he knows how extraordinary she is and vice versa but when momo asks him, “what do u think of her,” signalling to u, hes a little confused. hes always thought of u as the pathetic type, u did not hold much respect in his heart or mind. hed often forget about ur existence even but one thing he had wouldnt admit, ever was that he also found u hot. very attractive. sometimes, late at night he wud pump his cock to the thought of u. the way u stretched during warm ups, ur beautiful curves. the way ur perfect, little ass bent and jiggled during exercises. he dreamed of going up to u & grabbing a handful. the way ur tits bounced when u ran, everything clouded his mind during late nights when he tried to release pent up stress.

so when momo asked him the question he gave the most honest answer, “just another extra, too me,” momo seemed satisfied w his answer, “so, u dont care about her?” she asks & bakugo agrees. “well she pisses me off.”

the spite momo held in her tone made it hard to believe it was actually her speaking. she asks bakugo for his help. she promises him that he can do whatever he wants with u, whatever. he had said he didnt care about u, it should be easy for him to bully u. he agrees besides, who could say no to momo.

it starts of with usual teasing, hes calling u names, deeming u worthless & laughing when he sees u tear up from his harsh words. he feels amazing, like he is on top of the world. he bullies u pathetically, calling u out on ur insecurities & turning it into a laughing stock for others. while everyone is laughing at ur weak state, fortunately for u someone comes to ur rescue– momo stands up against bakugo acting as she is actually disgusted by his actions, acting as if she wasnt snickering along w the others.

she defends u but what she says just makes u cry even louder. she never outright denies his insults. he calls u a worthless, piece of shit with no real importance to the world. from momo, its never ‘dont listen to him, u are an amazing person y/n!’ but its always ‘bakugo–san, dont pick on others for things they cant change about themselves.” she also thinks u are worthless? guess so? everyone just laughs louder, they know what she is doing & so do u. u know u cant take this anymore, the humiliation brings tears to ur eyes and u can feel the dam break slowly.

u run to the bathroom not sparing a glance behind. u lock urself up in one of the stalls, crying ur pain away. not after long, a loud thud bangs against the door w a crude voice following the tune, “oi, i know ure in there!” bakugo screams, his repeated banging on the door never stopping, “open up!” he continues but u dont listen to him instead putting ur hands over ur ears, trying to block out the sound of his loud cries.

u keep at it for as long as bakugo stands outside the door until u hear an explosion go off & the next thing is he looking down at u ferociously. his glowing, red eyes gleam a powerful hatred making u tremble over the toilet seat. he pulls ur face up by ur hair before slapping u across the face. ur face stings when his hand connect to ur cheek, ur head falling to the opposite direction, ur breath uneven as tears pools down ur eyes.

“oi,” he tugs on ur hair again, ur scalp burning as he tugs on ur weak roots, “u think u can just run away?” u strain ur eyes, trying to look up at him through ur watery vision. “useless bitch,” his stare is intense. his vermilion eyes scan ur tear stained face and he feels himself get excited. the way u are seated would make u face his crotch if it werent for him holding u up by ur hair, “u are pathetic, u know?” he says it like its a question but u very well know hes serious. u only sob harder at his words, fat, salty tears rolling down ur cheeks, u pray to urself that he leaves u alone.

unfortunately for u, the whole scene just excites bakugo even further. he feels his jeans tighten as he starts to imagine u sucking him off. it was just like one of his fantasies only difference; u were here in real flesh & blood withering under him. he drops ur head & u quickly turn ur gaze to the floor, peering down at ur shoes. ur face drops as u hear bakugo unbuckle his belt and pull down the zipper, u keep ur gaze focused to the floor not daring to look up.

what was he going to do? pee on u?

only when he calls out ur name u by mistakenly peep up. the sight u see is scandalous, he pumps his semi-hard cock in his fist slowly as he watches ur every move. ur eyes widen in terror when u hear him talk, “put it in ur mouth, bitch.” his order is absolute yet u dont listen to him. there was no way u were actually going to suck his dick, ur eyes fall back down on the floor as u drop ur head down, “no.” u whisper, ur voice timid. bakugo frowns, what makes u think u have a say in this.

“what do u mean no?” he asks voice on edge, “i-its rape.” ur answer comes out in a weak, broken cry which makes bakugo scoff, “how? im not even touching u.” u try to reason but bakugo is having none of it. growing impatient, he grabs ur head and pushes his cock into ur mouth, completely ignoring ur cries. “bite me and i will blow ur face off” its not an empty threat so u obey. it wasnt like u would be able to win against him anyway.

“suck on it, whore. im litreally asking u to do one single thing but u cant even do that?” bakugo is crude with his words, never missing any opportunity to talk u down. u start sucking on his cock, ur head bobbing & tongue swirling around his tip. he hisses in pleasure, this was so much better than his imagination.

“look at u go, guess the rumours are true afterall.” he laughs. u can feel him coming closer. his cock twitches in ur mouth as he bites his lips roughly, eyes screwed shut in pleasure. his cock hits the back of ur throat before he cums in ir mouth. hot, salty liquid shooting down ur throat making u feel nauseous. “guess sucking dick is the only thing u are good at,” he remarks letting go of ur face. and pulling his pants on. embarrassed, u turn ur face away from him sobbing softly as u wait for him to leave but he never does. instead he watches u cry.

“what are u doing?” another voice breaks in. momo stands outside the bathroom stall knocking on the wooden door. ur head turns to face bakugo in a flash as he goes unlock the door. u grab on his arm, pleading him to not open the door. u didnt want momo to see u in this state. bakugo stares at u before throwing a chasire grin as he opens the door.

more tears fall from ur eyes as u see momo waiting out, concern written all over her face. her fear only increases when she looks over ur broken form. “what happened in here?” she turns to bakugo but recieves no answer, “he raped me!” u scream & momo’s eyes widen. she turns to bakugo, giving him a genuine glare. she approaches u slowly, her hands rest on ur shoulder as she pushes ur face into her boobs while she rubs ur back with soothing circles. “what did he do?” u find it strange how bakugo hadnt left yet, he was technically exposed. what good could it do him? watching the girl whos mouth he just violated get pampered. u tell her about he shoved his dick down ur throat forcefully. u were not sure why she was being all nice to all of a sudden but it was comforting. u keep hugging momo as u cry about bakugo. he just clicks his tongue before getting to leave but momos suggestion holds him back, “why just her mouth?” momo pulls away from ur embrace, her hands now falling behind ur back as she captures ur wrists and bounds the away with ropes she had created. ur wrists adjust uncomfortably behind u. next, her hands reach out between ur legs, forcing them open.

“momo, what are u doing?” the false sense of security is gone as she flips over ur skirt displaying ur light pink panties to bakugo. u squirm around trying to get free of the ropes but its impossible. “didnt i tell u that u can do whatever u want w her?” ur face pales as she starts talking. “shes a virgin, u will have fun. im planning on recording it.” her nimble fingers play with ur clit over the fabric making u wet. “besides, look at her. dont tell me she doesnt want this.” her fingers vanish behind ur panties as she plays with ur holes, ur arousal sticking to her fingers deliciously.

bakugo looks at scene displayed before him and feels himself raging a hard–on again. he takes a good look at ur crying face wrecking u and filling u with his cum till the brim while momo records everything.

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hanhughsegbarzmarn · 4 years

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Nolan Patrick - Christmas

A/N: HI! So idk what made me write this and I kind of just couldn’t not write it the more it thought about it. It’s my first imagine though so please be nice - also if you have any comments about it - Let me know cause I think I’ll write more of these (: thanks! - h (*also sorry about the cheesy ending - it’s Christmas and im feeling super cheesy)

Summary: Who ever decided that Christmas is “The Most Wonderful Time of the Year” was obviously is out to spite you. Wonderful, my ass. Between the constant pressure of finding everyone the right gifts on a tight budget and not knowing which family member you’re going to see next it is safe to say that the only thing you’re looking forward to on Christmas is crawling into your bed after wining and dining with family you haven’t seen all year and probably wont see for another 364 days. I guess it’s a good thing you have Nolan by your side.

Christmas is supposed to be about spending time with family and friends - but when your family gets you so wound up you can barely think straight, all you can be thankful for is the rest of the year when you don’t have to put up a happy facade and tell everyone about your plans for the future or why there isn’t a special someone in your life. So when your friend Nolan, who you’d recently met as the newest tennant in your housing complex tells you he’s going to be alone over Christmas Break you decided that it would be a great idea to invite him to your families Christmas Party.

A buffer would be great, you thought. Nolan would be exceptionally helpful at keeping your father and uncles away from you as they could talk sports until they were blue in the face. Now it was just your mom and aunts that you needed to be wary of.

“You know Nols, you don’t have to come if you don’t want to. If you want you can just drop me off I can always Uber back to the house.” As you were riding to your parents home, you couldn’t help but feel overly anxious - maybe it was better if you didn’t subject Nolan to the craziness that is your family. After all, once he has to deal with them, you probably won’t be seeing him anymore.

“It’ll be fine, Y/N. Besides regardless of how this goes, it’ll be a lot better than staying home alone watching the 24 hour marathon of A Christmas Story.” He chuckled at your nervousness and grabbed your hand from your lap before rubbing small circles on the back of it.

“I’m just saying my family can be a little . . . Much at times. I just want to apologize in advance - I’ve never really brought anyone around them before, so I really don’t know how this is going to go. I mean its not that your my boyfriend or anything and need to be worried I just really don’t know how this is gonna look. I mean my mom -“ You started to ramble but were cut off when Nolan gave your hand a tight squeeze.

“Y/N, It‘ll be fine - Now we’re on the right street. . . But what house is it?”

“1220 - it’s a few houses down on the left.” You could feel your leg shaking - dealing with your family alone was stressful, and while you thought that having Nolan would make it less of an issue, you’re starting to wonder whether or not this was a good idea.

As soon as Nolan pulled into the driveway you hurried to get out of the car and met him at the trunk to grab the box of gifts you have for your family. Nolan carries the bottle of whiskey and the flowers he grabbed for your mom at the supermarket close to your place, before placing his hand on the small of your back to lead you to the door.

After a quick knock you opened the door only to be met with the shocked faces of your family. Your dad was the first to speak up “Y/N, we knew you were on your way but who is this? We didn’t know you had anyone else coming”

“Hi Everyone, this is my friend Nolan. He wasn’t able to spend Christmas with his family this year so I brought him with me, I hope that’s okay”

“Of course it is hun, I mean a little warning would be nice but I can add another setting to the table quickly. Thanks for coming Nolan.” Your mother quickly hurried to the dining room to make a space for your plus one. You couldn’t help but feel confused as you put your presents in everyone’s designated piles - your parents were being awfully nice . . . which was so unlike them.

“So Nolan, is your team going to continue to shit the bed this season? Or should I pick a more reliable team for my fantasy hockey league?” You’re chest clenched - this wouldn’t end well - you knew your dad liked sports but didn’t think he paid that much attention to hockey

“With all due respect sir, we definitley are trying our hardest. We haven’t had the best start to the season but that’s not for lack of trying. “ You could tell that Nolan was trying to be nice, but was still getting frustrated.

You could hear your dad huff from behind you, “ but the capitals . . . “ if this conversation were to continue, you had a feeling you would be leaving with one angry Flyer.

You went to ask about the food, hoping that by stuffing their mouths, it would prevent Nolan and your Dad from getting into it over hockey “Mom, is dinner ready?”

“Is that all you think about food? Y/N its not like you need much more” You began to shake your head knowing your mothers had issues with your weight since you were a child. “Go get everyone while I grab the food out of the oven, then we can say grace at the table.”

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After a long and trying to avoid as many questions as you could from your parents about any potential relationship between you and Nolan, you all sat around the tree getting ready to exchange some presents and enjoy a nice hallmark Christmas movie together. Your mother brought out a tray of cookies and hot chocolate for everyone to share. Reaching for one of the larger sugar cookies you couldn’t help but stop yourself when you felt your mother’s hand on your wrist.

After giving her an odd look you felt her lean over the side of the loveseat you and Nolan were sharing before she whispered in your ear. “Y/N, you already had so much at dinner maybe a cookie isn’t the best idea right now. Wouldn’t want to have to exchange the clothing I got you for a bigger size. I got a gift receipt for a reason, but that wasn’t it”

You shook your head and leaned back against the couch. Now there was the family you knew and loved. You could tell that Nolan knew something was up when he offered you a portion of his chocolate chip cookie and you politely declined. It was time for presents and your family has a tradition of pulling names out of a hat to see who gets to open up their gifts one at a time, and you couldn’t wait for the exchange to be over so you and Nolan could head home before you each went your separate ways.

Of course, this year your luck really had run out and you ended up being the last one to open your gifts. While you all usually only exchanged one or two things you never knew what your family would find and think of you, so mix the anticipation with your large want to leave and you couldn’t help yourself from bouncing your knee and tapping your fingers.

Your pile was small, not that you expected or needed much. So when you pulled out a few new workout outfits only to find a gym membership at the bottom, you couldn’t help but sigh. After muttering a quick and silent thanks to your parents, you began to get up from where you sat, frustrated that the only thing your parents could find for you was workout clothes. Your apartment complex had a gym included that you didn’t even need to pay for, but obviously your parents thought you needed to do more. Before you could leave the room, your mom was quick to grab one final gift from under the tree and handed it to you with a laugh.

“Here Y/N, we thought that this was an appropriate gift for you. Something you’ll never be able to find for yourself.” Scrunching your nose in confusion, you once again sat beside Nolan and started to unwrap the small box. Everyone started laughing at your reaction, and it was clear that your mom had made it known that she was proud of the Grow a Boyfriend toy she had found.

Pushing the toy back into the box you grabbed onto Nolan’s wrist. “Well thank you for the presents but I think it’s time Nolan and I headed back to our complex, we wouldn’t want to travel in this weather after all.” Everyone seemed confused as you looked outside where the lightest dusting of snow remained - Nonetheless, your family bid you goodnight and you and Nolan both started your drive home silently.

“I’m really sorry you had to sit through that. . . I was kind of hoping for a miracle to happen and for my family to not be dicks this time.”

Nolan grabbed your hand again and sighed. “It wasn’t that bad, I can tell that they stress you out though. You don’t deserve the way they treat you. While it isn’t necessarily as bad as physical abuse, I can still tell they find ways to put you down and that isn’t okay.”

You could feel tears in your eyes. No one else had been around long enough to notice the snide remarks your family made about you or how what they thought was funny would actually hurt your feelings.

“I really don’t want to end Christmas on a bad note, so instead of going straight back to our respecitve places . . . how about we go do something fun instead?” You looked at Nolan with a look of confusion - you hadn’t expected him to want to spend anymore time with you after having to deal with your family.

After giving him a positive answer, you started to get worried once you drove past your apartment complex. It wasn’t until you reached the next red light that he hurriedly pulled a beanie out of the arm rest between you. “Hold this over your eyes, I want this to be a surprise.

It wasn’t much longer until you felt the car stop. “Nolan where are we?”

He chuckled under his breath, “You’ll find out in a minute. Now I’m just going to sit you here,” you felt yourself being lowered into a seat. “And I’ll be right back - don’t move and don’t peek, okay?”

You nodded your head yes and waited for him to come back to you. You heard a big click almost as if it was a set of overhead lights being turned on, and almost jumped out of your seat when you felt an arm on your shoulder.

“Yo, chill out, it’s just me, Y/N. Go ahead and take the hat off so you can see again”

You couldn’t help but laugh when you realized that his version of a surprise was taking you to an ice rink.

“I should’ve known Nolan - what are we doing here?”

“We’re gonna skate, duh. And before you say anything about not having skates, I already grabbed you one of the extra pairs they have here. First though, I got you a Christmas Present and after seeing what your family got you, I figured it was best to wait.”

Out of his pocket Nolan pulled out a small ring box. “Nols you didn’t have to get me anything. I mean I don’t have anything for you.” You started to get antsy but he was quick to shush you.

In the box was the cutest silver ring with your initials on it. You were in shock at the sight of it. “Now I know its not anything fancy but TK got one for his mom and I couldn’t help but think it would be nice for you . . .”

“Nolan, I love it. Thank you” You couldn’t help but tear up at the thought of him getting you something so dainty and personalized.

“Those better not be tears, Y/N. After all we haven’t even made it onto the ice yet.”

As you both put your skates on, you couldn’t help but feel like the luckiest girl in the world. For the longest time, Nolan was just a neighbor - the cute guy at the end of the hall. But now it felt like there was so much more which made you think that maybe Christmas isn’t so bad afterall.

#nhl imagines #nhl #nhl fanfiction #nolan patrick #philadelphia flyers #flyers #this probably sucks so im sorry in advance #cheesy af #christmasy

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blookmallow · 4 years

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and now we return to outlast 2, where-

THINGS KEEP GETTING SO, SO MUCH WORSE

(i have... a LOT im trying to process about this whole section sorry for upcoming text walls. really nasty #blood / #gore in here as well though) (i didnt realize i was This far behind on liveblogs lmao i drafted this. a while ago and didnt get back to it until now)

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so i fell off the bridge (shock. horror. who could have predicted this) and right into the scalled village

what.............happened to you

fuCKING GO D

so it turns out “the scalled” are... some kind of leper colony banned from the town and left to fester and rot out here alone

most of them are just lying around suffering and dying, i dont know what the fuck happened to them, there’s some mention of like. wildly untreated syphilis/potentially other stds they’re being told is their curse for the sins they’ve committed but does.... syphilis do that to you. it might actually be leprosy i dont know i dont want to research this. all i can think about is when i watched jesus christ superstar in high school and the leper colony song where they’re all crowding around jesus all trying to touch him REALLY freaked me out for a while

i mean its like. probably a combination of disease left horrifically untreated and massively infected given the absolutely appalling conditions these people are living in (everything’s run down and full of blood and shit and who knows what else), starvation, who knows what they’re even finding to eat out here so that’s probably causing even more disease but still jesus christ

at first it just made me really sad, sure these people came from temple gate too so they were. fucked up cultists to begin with but a lot of this is like... result of longterm emotional and mental abuse and manipulation, some of these people might not have started out as depraved evil murderers, and like. nobody deserves to live like this. except knoth lmao throw him down here, but

so i thought maybe it would turn out that you realize they’re human too, they’re just in a fucking LOT of pain and maybe you can’t do anything to help them (i dont think there’s any hope for anyone down here at this point) but maybe they’d turn out to be on my side and do something to help me fight back against the leader who abandoned them, “the most absolutely fucked up looking people are actually the most human” kind of thing but uh. that is not how things went. at all,

ill get into How Fucking Bad this got in a second lmao but like

most of them dont really do anything to you other than bleed on you and beg you for help, some people lash out but thats like, understandable given the horrifying state they’re in, but

as it turns out, being the “scalled messiah” is a VERY bad thing, they went from occasionally lashing out at me to outright tracking me down to murder me to death which, like, honestly kind of disappointing

bc one of the things i liked the most about the first outlast was how many of the prisoners were clearly just victims too, some of them (lookin at you, naked twin guys,) were just evil and murderous but some of them were just very very mentally unwell (exacerbated by horrible living conditions and the fact that the people who were supposed to be protecting them and helping them recover were actively, intentionally working to make their symptoms worse) and couldn’t really be blamed for acting violently toward you, but

then sometimes there’s people who warn you about dangers ahead, people sitting in corners hiding and scared and wont hurt you unless you give them a reason to think you might be a threat, people just trying to stay alive, people who need help

but that’s. not the case here, and there’s definitely a particular kind of horror in “absolutely no one in this hell town can be trusted, nobody will help me, everyone here wants to hurt me and every time i think ive made any kind of progress it gets so much worse” (except that ONe guy who tried to protect me. im still sad about him) but. i dont know i feel like there’s a missed opportunity here. im not sure if im supposed to feel like the scalled deserve to be like this because of the kind of people they were before, but i dont. i feel like the “what the fucking shit HAPPENED to these people” horror is heightened by the realization that they’re people, and just kinda using them as attack zombies is. missing something, somehow. i dont know, i cant figure out how to word what i want to say here

i mean its absolutely fucking horrifying, i was scared out of my mind going through all this, and i still gotta give props to a video game experience that left me legitimately feeling like i needed to go take a shower and crawl under a blanket for a while

i guess ultimately with outlast im coming here to be scared shitless more than anything else and boy did they ever fucking deliver

ok im gonna stop bc i will keep talking in circles about this forever if i dont, moving on

WHAT EVEN ARE THESE GUYS, APART FROM COMPLETELY TERRIBLE

im guessing theres some kind of... inbreeding birth defect situation going on here but i cant even process what im looking at

that and its hard to look at them at all considering the only times i see them im getting murdered to death. my panicked screenshots hoping to get a better look later did not help

PRETTY SURE THEY JUST MADE HIM DRINK THEIR BLOOD,

how the fuck has my dude not thrown up like 90 times already. im glad he hasnt bc im bad emetophobia but outlast 1 did it so im honestly surprised that hasnt happened unless ive just forgotten it in the blur of nightmares im going through here

THAT’S... NOT GOOD

THAT IS REALLY, REALLY NOT GOOD

FUCK SHIT MOTHERFUCKING FUCK

i gotta say im impressed with how FAR they GO with this one, i have no idea how much game i have left but considering this isnt even the ending i am HORRIFIED to see what the fuck is gonna happen next

i mean outlast 1 has you getting your fucking fingers sliced off and whistleblower has. That Scene (even though like. it stops before waylon actually gets cut its REALLY CLOSE)

this whole time i kept thinking something would happen and they’d get interrupted, I’d escape somehow, they aren’t really going to have the player character get literally fucking crucified from your own perspective,

but then the nails go in

and you’ve got one hand literally nailed to a cross

and then they start the other one

and i was like, WOW FUCK, THEY ACTUALLY DID IT, BUT NOW HE’LL ESCAPE... SOMEHOW.... RIGHT ???

but they lift it up

and you’re hanging there

and for a second i legitimately thought it was gonna end there for him, i thought he was actually just going to die there and the game would continue with lynn or something (which, to be fair, would be a pretty cool twist, but i dont WANT blake to just die here like this)

ANYWAY!! FUCKING GOD, THAT SURE HAPPENED

but against all odds HE SOMEHOW DIDNT FUCKING DIE, and managed to find the strength to rIP HIS HANDS OUT OF THE NAILS AND FALL DOWN

i cannot fucking IMAGINE what that would feel like. i dont want to imagine it but i sure the fuck am now

i dont know if its possible to like. die from bleeding out in this scene if you dont find the bandages fast enough but it sure felt like i was going to

fucking hell i can practically feel it in my real hands i HATE THIS i HATe it

god. fuck. im gonna be thinking about this scene for the rest of my life i didnt think anything would ever be worse than the finger slicing scene in outlast 1 but this. i think this wins

wHAT THE FUCK IS THAT!?!??? THERES SOMETHING CHASING ME IN THE SCHOOL FLASHBACKS NOW IM NOT EVEN SAFE HERE ANYMORE

WHAT *IS* THAT??!??

w OA h

i still have no IDEA whats going on with these flashbacks either, clearly his classmate hung herself and he feels subconsciously responsible for it because he didn’t do anything to stop her (though it doesn’t sound like he Could have done anything, and. they were kids), there’s definitely some buried trauma he never dealt with thats resurfacing now but

i still dont think its just a manifestation of trauma, because like. the recordings are still coming out as fucked up static, if he was just having really intense hallucinations there wouldn’t be any record on the camera, it would just be him filming nothing and talking to himself through a panic attack, it wouldn’t be getting consistently corrupted ONLY during the flashbacks so what the fuck is happening

COLA

DRINK IT

i m losing it its the cola machines from the first game i diD NOT EXPECT THESE TO BE HERE

what the fuck is christian salad

you didn’t think i would see this, outlast devs, you thought you could hide this on the menu board and i wouldnt notice. i did notice and i demand answers

NO!!!! THAT IS THE OPPOSITE OF OKAY THIS IS THE LEAST OKAY I HAVE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE

WELL!!!!! OKAY!!!! ALRIGHT!!!! NOW THAT I’VE BEEN LITERALLY FUCKING CRUCIFIED, FELL DOWN A HILL AND STRAIGHT INTO A FENCE OF BARBED WIRE, GOT DRAGGED OUT HERE AND BURIED ALIVE, CRAWLED MY WAY OUT OF MY OWN GRAVE AND NOW HAVE HOARDS OF DISEASED ZOMBIE NIGHTMARE CULTISTS SEARCHING FOR ME SO THEY CAN DEVOUR MY FLESH, LET’S GET GOING, SHALL WE

THIS IS FINE!!! EVERYTHING IS FINE I CANT SEE SHIT AND THERES NOTHING BUT TREES AND BARBED WIRE EVERYWHERE AND NO INDICATIONS WHATSOEVER OF WHERE I NEED TO GO BUT IT’S F IN E IM DOING GREAT

#lucy plays outlast 2 #was further behind than i thought lmao but heres some more

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vaguely-concerned · 5 years

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I’m back! Temeraire Let’s Read:Tongues of Serpents

- Tharkay literally shows up at the beginning of the second sentence; STRONG start, I highly approve, great improvement on every level

fsdafhsadkjlfh cooly tossing tables and throwing people’s drinks in their faces in the bar brawl fkjsdhfksdalfhasdj this ain’t his first rodeo huh

- these dumbasses having to clean up from the bar brawl before going home so their dragons don’t go out there and demand to have a word with the dudes who bullied their lil boys... oh my g o d

- “it was true, if one wished to be very particular about such things, that laurence was a convicted felon” t e m e r a i r e... ~*technicality schmechnicality*~ it was barely treason at all really

also temeraire being in super protective mother hen/older brother mode over the eggs is perfect

- Jane Rolands bluff, jovial letter writing is Everything

- “Have Temeraire throw him overboard,” Tharkay had suggested laconically, when Laurence had escaped to his quarters for a little relief and some piquet . . . “He can fish him out again later,” he added, as an afterthought.

A VISIONARY. An unmitigated joy. “Have Temeraire throw him overboard”. He says what we’re all thinking.

- AAAAAAAAH MUTUAL FIRST NAME BASIS!!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL WTF HAVE THEY BEEN DOING ON THIS TRIP TELL ME IN DETAIL WHEN THE SWITCH HAPPENED PLEASE (also I really like that the first instance we see is “But Tenzing, I cannot trust myself” b/c that was literally the whole point of that scene in VoE. laurence... yes you can. tfw your crush is the goodiest of twoshoes and can barely move for it and doesn’t even knoooow)

- y’know if Laurence could get over this thought that asking a direct question to a friend is just ~*intolerably rude*~ he could get so much shit done

(I guess tharkay, clearly a follower of the rosa diaz school of ‘no one is ever going to know shit about me’, is like fuck yeah I’ve struck gold with this one)

- “So spake the pot” oh I do love Actually Pretty Chill Dad William Laurence finally letting the snark out more frequently, it suits him very much (I guess his main claims to fame in a lot of circles is a) treason and b) spoiling his dragon rotten)

- rankin’s name is mentioned and everyone’s like HIIISSSSSSSS and RIGHTLY SO FUCK THAT GUY JUSTICE FOR LEVITAS

- temeraire is talking to the egg about consent and saying he’ll make sure it won’t have to do anything it doesn’t want to fjklsadhfkaslhfsd my heart

- lol lol lol weeeell in hindsight who could’ve guessed captain and second in command of the dragon pirates would have a materialistic superficial kid huh

- . . . Granby said, with a look half affection and half exasperation oh granby baby still carrying that torch huh

- lol lol lol just the implication of sara maden and laurence silently tops up his drink and he’s like ‘cheers’ and they’re both quiet for a moment flskdfs

if you think about it that must’ve been such a wild day in his life tho -- like first Laurence furiously fires him for being gone at a crucial moment and then immediately unfires him when it turns out he’s been chasing a lead and being the only goddamn person really working on solving all their problems (as is his wont), then he finds out his ex is getting married and steadfastly pretends it doesn’t even bother him, lol what are feelings I heard only losers have them (extremely relatable -- I guess he must have known it was in the cards though, because he specifically tells Laurence at the beginning he didn’t intend to go back to Istanbul, so it’s been over for a while?) then they go on a life and death chase through the sewers, and THEN, before he knows it, after half a book of being kind of a mistrustful dick to him, Laurence does a 180° and is there offering eternal friendship with big soulful eyes after seeing him get upset one time and y’know I guess I see why that got to him lol

- aw man I know it’s never going to happen but I am getting sort of wistful and teary-eyed over this pirate (cough cough I mean legally sanctioned privateer of course) AU that’s going entirely to waste

here are some tags I left on this superb piece of fanart: #I just got to the part where tharkay makes the suggestion and like... I know it's not happening #but what a shimmering tender mother of pearl dream to carry in one's heart lol #just a lil pirate family out there wrecking shit #temeraire would get wind of what the east india company actually does and they'd inevitably turn against them and fuck 'em up... *sigh* #fix it fic: the boys kiss and the east india company is stopped from committing further atrocities! all is well

so that’s basically my position on that

- “I’m sure there’s nothing too dangerous out there, in the fucking untamed Australian wilderness,” Temeraire said, tempting fate to a frankly anxiety-inducing extent

- hell yeah demane is the only one with presence of mind to actually find some food; you go buddy <3

- my boy tharkay slinking off in the middle of the night without telling anyone and solving everyone’s problems... *dabs at eyes* just like old times

- oh wow rankin really is just a piece of shit in every way huh

- fhasdklhfsadfsad temeraire being like ‘I know tharkay is a strong independent human who is perfectly capable of making his own decisions and don’t need no dragon... but also he’s clearly one of my humans tho why is he riding on another dragon :(’ THE CUTEST SHIT

- temeraire silently dissing his dad over refusing to believe in ghosts ~*except*~ for the holy spirit adslfhaskjdlhfs

- demane taking in the strange little hatchling... im crey... he truly hits me straight in the heart every time

also laurence steadfastly Doing The Right Thing and following his convictions is so deeply healing after all that bullshit he went through in the last book... makes me feel all safe and calm inside haha

- actually when you think about it it’s so fucked up that they apparently just straight up murder dragons with birth defects in england as a matter of course b/c like. dragons come out of the egg fully sentient and capable of understanding what’s being said around them. kulingile literally understood every word they were saying as they discussed whether or not they should be KILLING HIM. j e s u s thank god for demane and laurence’s stubborn insistence on being good

- temeraire going straight from mother hen to extremely impatient and jealous older brother the moment an egg hatches never gets old. all these dumb little babies just complaining and stealing his crew ugh (HOW FUCKING CUTE is him deciding kulingile could be a scholar or something tho #dragon rights)

- “I wish,” Temeraire said to Laurence, “I do wish that other dragons were not always thinking me peculiar . . . it makes one doubtful.” BABY BOY NOOOO he’s just so sweet and he’s so secretly scared that laurence might resent him a little after the whole treason business and OW right in the parental heart that fucks me up

- Temeraire’s indignant “Oh!”s always soothe my soul it’s so adorable

- little emily roland yelling “damn you all for cowards!” after a bunch of grown men fleeing while she reloads her gun and takes aim again is incredible poetic cinema (and also demane joining her... I love the bond they’ve got going on in the background here)

- aw poor sipho :( at least he still has temeraire to nerd out with and stuff but that’s some difficult shit to process for a kid

kulingile bobbing around tethered to temeraire like a small balloon at a fair is such an image, what a blessing, temeraire’s exasperated brand of babysitting is so funny

- laurence being a Dad to the kids in his crew... mana from heaven

- YESSS they crossed the endless miles of DEADLY AUSTRALIAN WILDERNESS so laurence could be MORTIFIED as the emperor’s adopted son at a party this is the content I am here for

- hell yeah let’s play a round of pimp my captain!!!!!!!!!!

“And,” Laurence said. “And you are certain that this should be appropriate for the occasion; not, perhaps, excessive?” I can’t b r e a t h e he can’t even say shit because his dragon boi is so happy fsaldfjsldhfasjlh and then granby making fond fun of him what a beautiful cherry on top of this sweet sweet laurence being embarrassed sundae

- william ‘I’m here to kick ass and describe menswear in fastidious detail and I’ve already kicked my own ass twice today’ laurence strikes again

- this description of the dragons sitting around squabbling as they watch shiny sparkly things is the most endearing few pages in modern literature do not @ me

- it’s kind of fucked up that the emperor of china is giving laurence more of the sort of warmth and validation a father should than his actual dad ever did lol. u did good curing the dragon plague, weird european adopted son I am proud of you

- every time temeraire is really upset about something my soul suffers a small wound

thank god he doesn’t actually know what opium is really used for most of the time yet (also I am obligated to divulge that I am entirely charmed by tharkay’s sardonic yet clear eyed cynicism on the issue, I cannot be anything but what I am and he hasn’t had enough proper page time in this half of the book so I will take what I can get)

- ...I kind of just realized that I imagine the sea serpents basically as long-ass gyaradoses... OH NO

I will say I respect the ‘give no fucks’ vibe they give off -- it’s a real ‘we’re here to eat fish & party and if you try to get in our way we’re gonna have you as a snack’ mood and I cannot fault them for it

- iskierka is such a fuckboi it’s glorious

- nOOOOOO tharkay is leaving again fuck ;_______; is his life just an endless procession of semi-unwillingly having to go back to istanbul again these days

Temeraire did not see why Tharkay should have to go so far, only to deliver news; and particularly when he did not seem as though he wished to go, very much. DDDDDDDD: THIS SUCKS you know that when a) he’s letting it show and b) temeraire notices it that he is dragging his heels big time over this lol

‘there can be very little to call you back to this part of the world any time soon’ LAURENCE YOU 24 KARAT IDIOT YOU ARE HERE HE CAME TO AUSTRALIA FOR YOU ALREADY WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS

all that said whenever I see a ‘Tenzing’ on the page my heart does a happy little dance. ah well now let’s settle in and wait for what horrible catastrophe will happen now that tharkay is gone... come back soon buddy

- ooooooooooooh that is so good, using the last chapter + epilogue to show how the... idk moral wound I guess laurence received victory of eagles has finally healed, that’s so reassuring. he just wants to do good things for good causes and can’t be badgered, cajoled, threatened or convinced to do anything less anymore and it’s all so sweet and well earned. that’s some good development through this book too, from ‘tenzing I cannot trust myself’ to this. excellent stuff

- while I did quite enjoy this book for the character moments it is incredibly weirdly structured? like the beginning drags a bit with the quite uninteresting colony politics and stuff but then they’re finally travelling and then... nothing really happens plot wise before the sea serpents freak the fuck out at the end there lol. I’m mostly a character-oriented reader tho so I’m pretty fine with it.

ETA: actually now that I think about it I’d say that my biggest gripe with this book is that it doesn’t engage at all with the perspective of the native australian people? even though one of the dragons settles down with one group? god knows it’s not like there was no time to dive into it, considering all that time spent in the fucking wilderness lol

we’re going to the inca empire next tho apparently fuck YEAH!!! that’s such an underexplored and extremely interesting part of history, my body is Ready

#temeraire #tongues of serpents #his majesty's dragon #meta #back again after a brief pause! still crying a lot about tharkay! the more things change huh

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goddamnmuses-a · 4 years

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Dan Watches: Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope

Alright so I did this for Episode I which you can find here and then Episode II which you can find here and then Episode III which you can find here. So here’s my weird live reaction/note taking/whatever this is.. to Episode lV.

I remember this being my favourite of the original trilogy because it sets everything up and basically kick started everything but lets see if that changes when i’ve finally got through all of these.

Also I’m just watching whatever version i can find online because I can’t be bothered to go and find my dvd of it so yeah.. whether we get weird updated version or original effects or whatever, who knows.

All the old effects like how C3p0 looks and r2d2 are impressive.

There wasn’t really anything in the opening crawl i felt like commenting on, no big THEY DID THAT IN THE OPENING? but i guess it’s the first one that came out so that makes sense.

WTF did the stormtroopers use to get that door open, that was so explosive wtf.

Also the blasters are like set to 10000 and smoke is everywhere.

How did nobody shoot the dorids?

Yooo little Ani nice suit my dude.

Hold on, she sent a msg with r2 to go to Obiwan which for 1 howd she know he’s alive? I’m gonna presume her dad said or something and 2.. ..why not just.. go yourself?

So when they’re set to stun a Stormtrooper can shoot someone no problem

Also we dont get enough stun weird circle blaster shots

Ohhhh she didnt go because the scan for lifeforms thing alright ill allow it

but my dude.. even so.. maybe just shoot it just in case? like.. droids exist and people know about them?

DARTH VADERS LITTLE HANDS ON HIPS! Omfg he’s like “God damn, this bitch again.”

This Vader is a sassy boy.

I love this guy who works with Vader and doesnt mind chatting back to him.

Loving the droids in the desert.

R2 does not look like it would work in a desert.

C3 like “He tricked me into going this way” stop being a lil bich.

WOOTINI!

The crawler thingy is badass.

I thought that was a magnet it was just a big sucky pipe.

GONK

Oh yep theres the new effects.

Droids sleep? I guess power saver mode.

Wtf is that dome droid

Luke! Luuuuuke! Iconic 2 words there. Well reused for that episode of Rebels where Obiwan watches from a distance.

Bocce.. what a classic language.

OMG OWEN JUST LET HIM GO INTO TOSHE STATION TO PICK UP SOME POWER CONVERTERS JEEEEZ

How is that “wasting time with friends” and not chores, going into town to get something sounds like a chore to me.

Why did they get an atromech anyway? Like.. what’d they need the other droid for?

C3 is a real bro lbh, if it wasn’t for him, R2 would be with the jawa still.

Oooh oil bath. sexy.

I wonder if people ship R2 and C3 because tbh it makes sense to me.

Luke got an erection at the mention of the rebellion.

Now it’s getting harder at that random blurry image of his sister.

R2 is a cheeky lil shit.

This is just some good home life shit.

Dat soundtrack.

You know what.. it’s a really nice home.

Is it just me or is Owen dressed kinda Jedi-y.

So is “Sand People” like the racist way to say “Tusken Raider”?

Obiwan, thats a ridiculous fucking noise.

“Hello There” iconic.

You know what the Prequels do add a lot to this.

A young Jedi named Darth Vader.. im sorry.. thats just not a name.

For someone who wants to get off the planet, Lukes like “Naa but i gotta get home”

Obiwan also just being like “You know what, fuck it here.. lets go.”

You know what as much of a bitch as that guy who gets force choked is, he’s a good actor.

Also Tarkin yay.

NOOOOO OWEN AND BERU! YOU BASTARDS!

I feel like he should have dropped to his knees or something there.

That is a scary droid.

Cool door close.

Thats a weird ass CG droid with a hole in.

None of the other storm troopers gonna wonder why Dave’s being weird?

Wahey! Figrin Dan and the Model Nodes! Love that Jizz music.

Who just ugs on the back of a bartenders shirt? Wtf Luke

Yo he didnt even pay for his drink, free drinks?

Who gets the death sentance in 12 systems and goes around bragging?

The first arm cut off and theres all sortsw of blood which there shouldnt be because lightsabers cauterize the wound, tut tut.

Gooood scene with Han and Obi, honestly i keep forgetting to comment because im just watching xD

Wahey! Greedo

If we’re doing a han shot first thing.. Greedo shot first in this version and missed and then Han shot him but tbh i prefer the Han shot first.. makes him more interesting.

Jabba looks smaller.

Casual Boba Fett appearance.

Yooo Poncho. My boy Cal approves.

Fuck those weird long nose aliens.

The Falcon looks so good.

Get those poor guys by the Death Star laser a damn rail.

We just cool with igniting the lightsaber in front of Han and Chewie? Chewie at least knows wtf it is.

Chewie is a badass.

Let the Wookie win.

WTF that isnt the lightspeed effect.. it’s like a weird blanket tunnel

The fact they get onto the Death Star with no issue is kind of ridiculous.

The motion of Darth Vader is kinda just.. not fitting right.

Han just pat Chewie like hes a dog. Rude.

Han just gets caught up in this without a choice rly.

He just wants those sweet credits.

Also Set Design on Star Wars is amazing.

Leia just lounging all sexy like

Also does she have a stain on her tit? .. Not that im looking >.>

The Jedi being called a religion is kinda weird but i guess accurate.

This has to be the worst star to a friendship for all three of them. Chewie seems cool though.

I also thought the trash compactor scene was earlier on in this movie than it is.

Who the fucks voice was it that said “Thats your imagination” ?

How the fuck are they standing if the water is that deep?

I liek the touch of the monster whos name im sure i learnt but forgot let go as if it knew the trash compactor was about to turn on, that implies it has a safe spot down there that it stays.

Some of the voices sound off on this but ah well

Hans already a little Handsy with Leia but i think Harrison Ford was sleeping with Carie at the time so like.. i get it.

Obiwan just strolling about, as you do.

I love just these giant pits with walkways with no rails. If I worked on the Death Star it’d be a nightmare for me to get around.

“NO WAIT THEY’LL HEAR!” ...and they’re not gonna hear you shouting?

Stormtroopers just shooting the shit is the best.

You know what with everyone being like “Wow that ships a shitheap.” I can understand why the prequels made their ships look nicer and newer.

I love that shooting a door panel in star wars just makes it so the doors wont open at all, thats some good shit.

Lukes as bad of a shot as a Stormtrooper.

First little kissy incesty moment but hey it was on the cheek, universally thats fine but im sure at the time this was him setting up that Luke and Leia were gonna end up together, before he decided they were siblings.

Vader just standing there, lightsaber already out like “Ahhh Mr.Kenobi I’ve been expecting you”

As lack luster as the chroeography is in this fight im kinda thinking of it as like, they’re reading each other, like Obiwan and Maul’s final fight.

I don’t really know why Obiwan just chooses to die like that but heyo.

Vader stomping on Obiwans clothes? Why? I guess because he gave himself to the force and thats the first time he’s seen that?

I love the gunner seats moving around, idk why i just love it.

Whats the point of the ear peices if they’re just gonna shout at each other.

Not mentioned it until now but everyone says Leia wrong.

They’re really harsh to Han tbf

This is like if you got an Uber to a place and then the Uber driver got pulled into a police station because you’re a terrorist and then you have a go at the Uber driver for wanting to leave after he’s got you out of there.

Another kiss for Luke.. .. okay

I like how Biggs earlier scenes are deleted so when he shows up it’s just this random dude who somehow knows Luke

That air traffic control guy has no idea what hes doing, nobody is even in the air yet or moving, wait.

Man X wings are cool, makes me think of Battlefronts VR mission thing where you get to pilot one and it’s the coolest VR thing ive done.

For a space station the size of a moon you’d think they’d have enough fighters to just wipe out the rebels no biggy.

ALSO if they know the rebel base is on that planet, why not just blow that planet up?

YAY WEDGE

The targetting computer seems very invasive.

Those turrets are useless.

I would have rated it if they let that random dude blow up the Death Star.

Tarkins thinking face is beautiful. What a man,

If Luke missed this shot, everyone knows he’s turned his targetting computer off, so they would be PISSED

RIP R2.

HWHAT!?

Woooo Mr.Solo.

Well.. Well done Luke you killed a lot of people, some just trying to do a job and live their lives.

Han, Leia and Luke all went off together all holding each other.. like.. Threesome?

I’m sorry but after that, someones doing some fucking.

Leia just giving her lovers, dont @ me, a medal. Thats why Chewie doesnt get one, he wasnt there for the orgy.

R2 looking fresh.

You know what, that is a good complete story that actually works on its own, i appreaciate that. 10/10. :P

#ooc #dan watches #dan reacts

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daddyhendo · 6 years

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Mr Omega - Kenny Omega x Reader

This was requested by @devittslegos

Warnings: Smut, student x teacher, curse words.

I tried to make it so that Kenny wasn’t exactly old and the student wasn’t well, let’s say really young. It’s only a fic so don’t take offence to it, it’s not real.

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“Y/N Mr Omega wants to see you up at his office, like right now” the voice of a student spoke to you.

You were distracted in your own day dream, thinking about Mr Omega coincidentally. He’d been the reason for your thoughts ever since he started working at your college. He was younger than the rest of the teachers but still he was and acted like a mature man. It’s one of things that turned you on about him, he was built of muscle and tight curly hair. Oh how would love for him to forcefully take you.

“Hello? y/n?” They said again, clicking their fingers in front of your eyes.

“Right sorry just In a day dream” you said sheepishly.

You hadn’t been given much time to process the fact that Mr Omega called you to his office. What did he want? Did you do something wrong? Or did he want to praise you?

A few steps away from the door and you were already shaking, your palms all clammy from how tight your grip was.

Three strikes to the door and he answered within seconds, “come in” he called.

“I’ve been waiting for you miss y/n” he said deeply.

“Take a seat”. He pointed to the chair.

“Am I trouble?” You asked.

“Well, it depends” he said.

“Depends on?”

“Have you ever been with a teacher before?” His expression serious as anything.

“Uh What?”

“You heard me miss y/l/n. Answer the question please”

You stuttered your words, mumbling out a whole load of jumble.

“I take that as a no” he responded.

You only manage a shake of your head, and a harsh gulp trying to take away the lump in your throat.

He stood up and walked round to your side, only centimetres away from your arm, you felt his body warmth, it gave you goosebumps.

“Judging by your reaction” he said getting a little more into your personal space, “I think you want to be fucked by a teacher, specifically me.”

You froze but your heart hasn’t skipped a beat. In your mind you wanted to say no but your heated core thought otherwise.

“Come on it’ll be our little secret” he purred licking his top lip. “if you’re thinking about our age gap it’s only 10 years, you’re 18 and I’m 28” he continued on.

“No I wasn’t thinking that” you said shyly, fiddling with the band on your wrist.

“What were you thinking then?”

“I just...had a thought of whether or not you’re...”

“I’m what?”

“If you’re a Dom...”

“Ohh interesting, let’s find out shall we?”

Without giving you time to answer Mr Omega was already on your case and kissing your lips. You pulled him even closer wrapping one arm around his neck and the other around his waist. His mouth forcefully locking your lips as he attempts to push his tongue in your mouth exploring you.

He breaks the kiss pushing back, but then redirects his attention to your clothes. Smoothly each piece of clothing hit the floor leaving you in your bra and matching underwear.

“Hm purple? How did you know it was my favourite?” He asked.

“It was a guess, Mr Omega” you said blushing red.

“Please call me kenny y/n”

“Or daddy?” You smiled in return.

He let out hungry moan, slipping his hand behind you and undoing your bra in one snap. The cold air hitting your nipples as they began to poke out, he gave them a good hard squeeze and hummed in approval.

You pushed his hand away and reached for his shirt, lifting it over his head. Knocking him back a few steps he hit the desk, he turned to see the clock on the wall giving you the advantage to take off his trousers. His head clocked back round as you slid to the floor.

You groped his thick dick through his pants, he let out a nervous moan. You looked up at him, batting your eyelashes then swiftly sprung his cock free. With no hesitation you found your hand wrap around it immediately, you wanted to impress Kenny as much as you could so you went all out.

Seconds later your tongue latched itself onto the tip, licking in circles and tasting the pre cum. One of his hands pulled on your hair as the other clenched the wooden desk. You placed your hands on his thighs thrusting his member deeper down your throat, swerving your tongue in all directions.

“Wow” he let out, “I cant count how many times I’ve imagined you doing this to me y/n.”

You hummed in satisfaction sending the bolts of vibrations through him.

“Okay enough of that or I’ll cum too quick babe” he said lifting you, triggering you to pout.

Without a word he pulled you to the desk and bent you over dragging down your panties. He quickly caressed each cheek before giving it a playful smack.

Kenny then spread your cheeks admiring the dripping mess he had Infront of him. Next he guided his cock pushing them through your folds teasingly before pushing in, urging on your moans.

His first few strokes were slow to get a feel for you, but then he picked up the pace wasting no time. Your hands finding a comfortable position to sit whilst your body was being used. Kennys hands were tightly wrapped on your lower waist just above the hips. The sound of both your moaning combining filled the room, the thought of if anyone could hear you slipped across your mind, only once.

A few curse words left his mouth as he soaked into the pleasure. You on the other hand was shaking as you felt the orgasm arrive.

“Oh my god faster kenny” you screamed holding on tighter.

He did as he was told, digging his nails into you as he went wildly fast. The man was an animal and everything else you had imagined.

“You like that baby? You gonna explode on my dick?”

His dirty talk instantly taking effect on you as your walls clenched tighter.

“Yes daddy I will!”

“Good girl, cum for me, now!”

A literal scream left your lips as you rode out the orgasm, doing exactly what kenny said and erupting on his cock. You fell on the table running low on adrenaline as kenny finished himself inside you.

“Im gonna cum baby!” he jolted forward, emptying his liquid in you.

“I can’t believe we just didn’t that” he laughed surprisingly, you couldn’t help but smile back with embarrassing red checks.

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@irish-newzealand-idian-dutch @iwannadiehere @theholyfallenangel @superkicksandchill @randomfandompenguin @ghostofviper @205wives @little--alphabet--boy @brittany012364 @devittslegos @i-ship-it-okay @sonjashuterbugjohnson @theyoungfucks @spotofimagines @badame124 @karleedaneils27 @darkraeraecosplay @lunatic-svillain @thephenomenalomega @perfectstudentcatsworld @inamoxambrose24 @thevixeniris @princesstoni @castielscamander @hmmmgorgeous @kmwhiteside99 @dahlia-blossom

(It wont let me tag some of you, I’m sorry!)

#kenny omega smut #kenny omega x reader #kenny omega #kenny omega imagine

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littleaipom · 5 years

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how come u wont reblog the blaze art? ur art should be on ur blog rite?

yes my art goes on myown art art blog, so that’d make sense. This is my choice/fault/doing because Ivalue something more than ensuring that my fanart gets on my own blog(bear inmind that it’s still online being shared and making people happy even if itaint on my own blog, so that’s cool) :

I do not want the “donot interact banners” on my own blog. Now, from what I’ve gathered, that maynot be as self-explanatory as I’d like it to be so I’ll dig into an elaborationunder the cut.

They aren’t mywords and I could never imagine myself saying such a thing. Therefore, I don’twant such words right below my own artwork on my own blog as if it isrepresentative of me. I’ve kind of spent my whole life working and working on tryingto love my enemies and not put forth an exclusive “holier-than-thou” attitude,and that kind of banner flies in the face of my personal values so much. Icould unpack every single people-group listed on that specific banner, but I’lljust pick one to kind of make a point. Lets say someone who is racist is fondof my art and wants to follow my blog and interact with it. Well, the fact thatthey are racist is not being encouraged by me. They aren’t causing trouble onmy fanart blog because they are racist(as it is entirely unrelated to what I postabout lol). And it’s their PERSONAL problem that they need to work through. Metelling them to go away isn’t going to help. For goodness sake, let all theracists in the world come here and enjoy art! They are only human, you know? I’drather be friends with racists than tell them tell them to go away because oftheir personal problems :/ If anything, I’m offering them interaction with anon-racist which widens their circle of perspective/experiences instead oftelling them to go back to their echo chamber. I know how to interact withpeople without condoning their actions.

To me it feels likea sign saying “go away sinners!!!! Sinners do not interact!!” Jesus wasn’tabout that and I’m not about that. I could honestly talk about this even more,but that’s why I’ve decided I don’t want it on my blog at least.

Now to jump backover to the other side, I’ve at least learned some things arguing FOR thebanners. Supposedly they actually decrease the amount of gross asks/anons appearingin peoples inboxes or creeping around on the blog. And honestly, for the sakeof a group with people other than myself involved I’ve come to acceptance withit being there.

Is this a weirdbattle to pick? Do other people even care about this issue? I honestly don’tknow, but the banner somehow strikes a personal chord in my heart and I can’tignore it;;;

Edit: also i tried to find a way around the banners but i’m not allowed to delete them off the caption anymore. and i guess. im respecting my friends by following the rules they set up

#text not art #reply #discourse #personal #Anonymous #gomen for the discourse on my own art blog #ive been walking on eggshells but i'm so stubborn yall #i always do what i want and what i think is right even if its trivial dsafghjghnmgngbfv

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swampgallows · 6 years

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the thing is my ‘states’ fluctuate a lot. i dont even know if i can call them moods.and it’s not even like i become a different person, it’s like as if my location changes even if im still int he same place. something happens and then i shift. it’s like a shift, i guess. i enter a different state. when im in one place it’s hard to imagine how i could ever be in that other place again. when im out raving or w/e i wonder how it is that i spend so much time on the computer, and then when im back on the computer it’s a mystery how i ever manage to leave the house. when i was at work my mind was voided completely because i couldnt really coalesce in that environment. i was playing an act the entire time and would come home feeling exhausted, too exhausted to hang up the mask in the evening and too exhausted to put it back on in the morning so id just leave it there, adhered to my face, suffocating in it. i really truly almost jumped off the mountain. i know nobody believes me. i know nobody can tell that ive been battling that and recovering from it cause i DIDNT jump. if i did, my parts would be in pieces,a nd people would see i was taking a long time stitching my body back together. but since i never did it, people cant see that im still doing that anyway, with my psyche and all that, putting all the pieces back togehter, because in my mind i shattered on the pavement a hundred times. i visualized it, wondered about it, prayed for it, hoped i’d still be in a frame of mind to take the plunge, but i didnt

i dont know where i belong. ive never been enough for anywhere. im too fucked up for any circle im in. im too old and too ugly to be a candy kid, too nervous and a perfectionist to be a dj, too academic to be a wanderer, too clumsy to be a performer, too sterile to be poly, like i cant let go, i dont find my entertainment in other people the way some do. i dont know if ill go to burning man again because i can ascribe ot that free love. it burns me too much. it makes me too afraid. i dont like sex and i cant trust people. i wrote years ago that i dont want to have to learn to like sex, and i still dont. i should be allowed to be asexual. i dont want to live in fear but i dont know where i can find safety. i dont know how to conquer a fear. i fail to visualize what can even exist anymore beyond the veil of fear, and so i dont know what i want because i dont know what there is to have.

im not nerdy enough for wow, or something, or im too restless, or too loud, or too... i dont know what. i feel like i dont mesh with annyone. im too old or too liberal or too gay or not gay enough or too this orthat

ive had a daydream lately where i close my eyes and it’s sunny, but theres a cool breeze, and there’s a mountain vista covered in hundreds of yellow and pink flowers. it’s early morning, maybe. the sun is out but not too abrasive, not yet a summer sunshine. and i see him come up over a knoll, like a grassy hill, he surfaces, and he holds out his hand to me, and he says something about how theyre going to ride off somewhere. i take his hand it’s warm and rough and we just ride, and i dont have to say anything.

we’re not going anywhere but there’s nowhere to go.

ive been thinking about bluntcrusher and how she says she needs a new dog and to hop trains again and i think if i werent such a coward that would be me. that’s been my inkling since i was very little, to just run away, to just keep going to nowhere in particular. just walk around and stop in at places, just observe things, a living ghost, just get anywhere that isnt where im at. i crave safety a lot but i feel like i would let go of things more if i just had my essentials. i dont know what i’d do or where id end up. id probably draw more if i didnt care about the fucking internet so much. i wish i didnt. it’s a waste of time and it’s bad for me and it doesnt nourish me at all. video games dont do much for me. i dont feel very accomplished. theyre just like... daydream fodder. i dont know. im always just daydreaming in my head, hoping i can go to somewhere else, wondering when im gonna one day crawl into some kind of overgrown enclave and pop out as a teenage scamp again and run off with some fae, and do weird frivolous shit like gardening and picking acorns and dragging my hands through the river so the currents turn the right way. i feel like i’m older than humans sometimes, or like im not human at all. it’s a narcissistic way to think, but it’s just something deep down, i guess. i just feel like whatever i am is not what im supposed to be, that the thing im supposed to be is so outside of whatever all of this is. i feel like my feet straddle between worlds where i dont fit in either one. i feel like im supposed to be backstage, creating the things for humans to have happen, or im far beyond, long dead, only observing the lives of others.

most of the time i feel like a ghost. im either not supposed to be here anymore, or im not supposed to be here yet.

ive been getting more courage lately, sort of. i feel like there are 4 days out of a month where i can imagine myself being a stable human being and holding down a place in society, and then the other percentage of the time fluctuates from being entirely hopeless and self-destructive to feeling like “i have to plant all my own vegetables and live off the grid right now. i need to just grab all of my cash and pick a direction and start walking”

if i leave it wont be to find anything. it will just be to move, to be liminal and transient like i feel my life is already. i feel all the time like i’m grasping for smoke, for wet tissues dissolving faster than i can pick them up.

im not “supposed” to be or do anything, really. that’s why i’m so lost.

my soul and mind travel so much, but my body stays still. it’s exhausting.

#blathering

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infinitd · 3 years

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Guilty

This is the last one. I’m already hovering the delete button but I have to type this one out first. It’s been sitting stewing and now festering in the back of my mind for way too long now. I’m guilty of way too much all at the same time and all of them with the singular cause that is me. Maybe this blog is public in that secret shared way some thigns get and the whole squad has BEEN reading it and trying to give healing and support in their own way without really knowing. lol. NOT. Well.... Where to even begin? Weed? Lix? Lovers? Parents? Brain? Siblings? Art? Pretty cool how they present themselves like that once you open the double bolted, extra secured walled off and guarded door. So lets do the order they’re already in. Weed Is great and now it gives me anxiety and mild panic attacks. I get so paranoid I feel like the whole world is watching me and even now the primary craving is for fucking nicotine of all things and the association built between the 2 are too strong to break. Not that it would even be useful to. Weeds usefullness has run its course in my life and a dependancy I have spent the better part of a decade now has to go unsatisfied with a complete reversion to sobriety because alcohol was gotten over LONG ago. I’m still tending towards bingeing behaviour with that but its almsot always a reaction rather than an actual desire to get fuucked up. No more high nights floating just under my ceiling . Hours and hours of dota and that most NEET night time routines. No more weed first thing at parties or braais and hanging with friends too stoned to converse or just talking about weed like its the only thing in my life. Prepare for a million comments on how different I am and a tacit understanding that I probably wanna get high until everyone gets used to the idea of me just being and then aggresively EXISTING again. Along with all the negative attention that comes with that I have completely lost understanding and connection with. Well that’s weed I guess (Shit i got distracted and Imma have to read all this shit again )

Lix

The bestie thing is all fucked up and my (probably correct) suspicion is that he’s just good old tired of me. I nthat friend way. There is literally no value to my friendship. Not even material and he’s unemployed at the moment so you know it’s bad. That last cash send felt like paying rent on a friendship and I figure he must have also felt pretty gross taking it even though he needed it. Lol I wont be doing that again.I’m just intellectually and emotionally inferior at the moment, Fuck the complex. It’s just faxx now. The other one is at least figureing out (bizarre and mildly fucked up) shit for himself but Stormu no Kyodai really is just about over now. The bands broken up and all those successful bands breakups make sense now. You’ve just drawn every but of moisture and goodness out of a thing and it gets husky and weird to keep tending to it. I haven’t been a decent human being never mind friend for so long that I completely udnerstand and agree with how I’m being handled. It doesn’t even hurt that bad. It’s just weird and awkward for everyone involved and it does me no good to be catching shots. especialyl when i’m not really doing anything about it then and there. It’s only ever fun if I have a reply and this time I don’t. not even a little one. Just weak allusions to “progress” when it’s just good old fashioned laziness now. So this I deserve and I’m trying to cultivate my own friendships but my source material to work with now isn’t great and invariably I will probably find myself in a similar position to him before long. That weed addition is pretty rough on anything truly meaningful. All in all it is pretty sad that things can go this way especialyl with the newest addition of having productive and contributary friends in your life. Of course it’sa good thing but it did kinda eliminate me from the running and that makes me lame. Now it’s just navigating this kinda weird and uncomfortable space where he wont say shit to cause damage. I wotn say shit cos I have hope and in the meanwhile the relationship will circle the proverbial drain until distance, time or some other factor snaps the last frayed string. But it is what it is. Lovers

Is actualyl kinda good. The one thing i’ve reconciled at the seeming expense of everything else is love and relationships and my ways of dealing and itneracting with em. I don’t miss exes and I don’t pine over lost lovers other that the typical momentary lapses which is cool. My current love is great. She’s good to me and I’m trying to be to her and its just good, Good all round. All good. Goodness. I sometimes feel like im trying to convince my self of something when it coems to this but actions and results sort of show themselves and it’s just been a constant relief since I’ve surrendered to it really. I’m not even holding my breath for it to last or building foundation. I’m just doing and that seems to work out best when it comes to just about everything.( This does not Feel Good Inc). PRetty wild to me that the lvoers part of this is by far the shortest and best handled but its revelaton did come at the cost of everyting else so yeah...

Parents Is god fucking awful. I mean in truth it’s kind of incredible. I’ve got the best pair imaginable on my team but it’s the resignation that kills my heart of hearts. There is no more expectation of hope or action. No drive or threats. Just plain shoulder shrugs and even that i deserve but when I finally figred it out it floored me. I have no idea baout their intentions or plans anymore. I’m completely out of the loop for the whole family it seems and I’m jsut waiting for the announcement of the intervention or the move out order or the random cash giveaway to get rid of me, I don’t even know but if not for mom I’d have been kicked out long ago. That’s pretty much a certainty and that “mothering” thing is startign to show both it’s calue and its problems. It’s far too comfortable a place to give up easily especially when you don’t bother to be really self aware. But here we are typing the things out. That’s ...a thing.... That they’ll never read or know about and that’s ok.

Brain

Is poop cos I smoked too much but its Ok too. The regeneration process is gonna be a trip of its own. Really uncomfortable and loopy with unexplainable feelings and intuitions but that’s also OK. Better than Ok it’s recovery. The body will will be right there trhrough the process. I’m even interested in things again. Siblings is also a bit fucky. The disappointment is tangible but they’re not allowed to give up yet. We all inherited that one and it does help when i see the glimmers of hope. I don’t feel garbage but it normally starts with e being normal and not being in my head while interacting. Doing that assuming the best thing I used to be so good at. E is over me and kinda frustrated. Very Kev of him. Neez is trying but she has another baby to babysit and care about and I’m a tangential concern at best. The Suicide scare kind of reminded them of my existence in a weird but valuable way but it’s not an angle Im really trying to take. Especially now that I jsut realised what that anrrative ust look like to everyone it was shared withg hand it certainly was with khan which means by extension by the rest of the family. Probably explains strange interations now while i’ve been willfully poblivious and now I have to work to be cool again but it also wont ever be the same again unless someone else fucks up. But that’s a life long journey and doesn’t feel like it has the same urgency as the others. I’m alot more understood than I thought I was and that’s not a bad thing .

Art I’m going to go and make art and eat my girlfriends pussy and that’ll make me feel better and I’m excited for that.

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I miss you so much, I think of how it felt to feel with you, I think my life will be searching for that feeling and accepting it will never be like that. Why is it so hard to accept? Why do I have to always miss you and the things we did, even the worst. I just miss everything. I miss the energy. I finally took my left over mushrooms yesterday. I want to keep it going. Its a weird place for me, I get lost in trying to understand how it felt being you, to understand what you’d been through, what you’d put yourself through, all the time we spent apart and you’d loose yourself to the void too, I tried to think of that place and how that place, the trippy one that makes you feel so small, so lost and confused, and lonely, but passing it off through your body in little pleasurable electric currents that bring you and your void at some kind oneness, and its really confusing.

I didn’t do much yesterday, I spent some time on the swings looking into the woods hoping to get lost with them. I didn’t but while my mind struggled to find you, my body in a clammy euphoric state.

There is an art to tripping, I get obsessive about things and I make it my challenge to let them go so that I can proceed or feel like I’m moving deeper, sometimes I struggle with the mundaneness of everything, typical existential crises.

I kept struggling with what it means to be alone. I had just come to terms with my acceptance in choosing not to be. Consciously thinking that a life with you, shared with you, was what I wanted, that being alone felt sort of meaningless, and it gets confusing because then another jumps in and you hear all about what being healthy means, like no you must be happy with yourself, or being alone, and blah blah but what if its not that, and its just that being alone is shrinking the goodness I can feel I’m doing, like if I’m not in anyone's life, or sharing, than I don’t know what I’m doing at all, and I’m not sure if thats sad, accurate, or misguided, I hear too many ideas of what I’m supposed to be and it becomes nothing, and if I’m not supposed to be anything, then I don’t know why I would be being at all.

The last time we tripped and you cried and I had never been on Mushrooms so I was laughing and you were facing the death that was about to happen, I didn’t know, I was fucked up, really fucked up, and to think... its like this is an opportunity for someone to feel euphoric, to feel confused, but also high and open, but when you feel your world ending, when no matter how many chemicals or reactions you force out of your brain and they’re all empty how do you fill it up again? When there is no more enthusiasm, no more discovery, How do you come out of that? How come we couldn’t ?

I know there was a cure. I know our future was possible, it was going to be hard, but as mentioned..

Its just confusing to want to accept that life alone isn’t what I want, but when I spend time with people I just want to be alone, and I feel more lonely, it feels like I wont get anywhere with these feelings except more lonely and more dissatisfied because who I really want to be with is gone. I’ve been struggling with this alone thing this whole year, its been a lot to get used to. Its shameful for me, it makes me feel kind of pathetic. I think of people who go their whole life without dating, or most of it, I think of people who fuck I don’t even know what anyone doing but maybe watching tv or working out or whatever hobby or boasting about their life to some work friends, like I don’t know what this is so I keep doing it and going and searching for a place where I feel good about myself, and when I do feel good about myself, I miss gus, and I think about how we failed each other, and I didn’t do what I needed to do when it was time to do it. I didn’t know.

Its hard to say all the change thats happened, how this is altering who I am, my interests, the way I want to be, or feel... not the trip lol Gus’s death. Im irritable, not as patient, get frustrated by most conversation, but I don’t know what I want so its impossible to be pleased, and I can’t help but to compare everything to gus, and nothing will ever be good that way. I have to let go of Gus, I have to let go of being annoyed by everything thats not him because nothing is as good, nothing/no one will understand me this way, even with the miscommunications we had there was this raw real feeling that isn’t obtainable, I’ve never met anyone remotely close to gus, and this is what I get for being attracted to, being drawn to, people who are different or I find different, I guess everyone is in some ways, I’m not sure what/ how to word that, I do tend to get along better with people who have disabilities, I feel weird saying that.

I misss smoking pot all the time, it calms a lot of things down, but also is too numbing, If gus were smoking he’d have never done what he did, and yet he’d never have felt really good either. It’s not right.

When you have to accept this is everything. Everything is endless, and yet it is all there is, how can I just keep wanting? There is nothing.

I want to go back to mushroom land. I felt so good, even if I was lonely and overly contemplative, I got further then last time, I need to let go and that seems to be hard for me, everything becomes too real and I shhhhhhhhhhhh you’ll go in circles like this for hours, so move on, but to where?

I’m sure none of that makes sense how I want it to but its okay.

I stared at your picture and tried to imagine laying on you.

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EPISODE 1: “This house offers no cute people, and I hate it” - DREW

CODY

I am playing up a character so I’m acting kinda cold to a lot of people saying short simple answers to DM’s mostly.

MANDI

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. i think im actually really going to love this cast.

DREW

Alright ladies and gentlemen. I'm gonna make the first text confessional and I think its gonna be very simple.

This house offers no cute people, and I hate it. I usually flirt with one man and woman in this house, and there is NO ONE cute in this cast. But I guess, this being the inaugural season of this ORG- I can't fault them because... it was probably hard for the production to find a solid group of people! That being said, the person coming closest to /cute/ is Andrew... but we'll see how it goes it from there.

DESIREE

Here are my first impressions based on the videos!

I want to be Katrina's friend. She seems like a super cool chick.

Austin seems like a good guy but it's hard to judge without a video and without chatting.

Mandi seems really distracted in her video and I worry that she will not have enough time for this game if she has so many other responsibilities.

Drew seems like a pretty chill guy, but for some reason I suspect that there will be some drama with him later on...

Pennino's a cutie. Voting him most likely to self evict. But he seems like a good kid.

Lukas is funny, I feel like he's going to be popular from the start... Not sure which way I should go with that but I should keep an eye on him.

Sooo I guess Frosby knows a bunch of people in this ORG which is certainly concerning. But he seems like a good guy.

Brooke seems like a lost sheep which may make her a good person to keep around for the numbers.

Kayla seems cool! Seems like she is knowledgeable about BBORGS but also seems pretty levelheaded. Also, she's pregnant! How sweet! As I mentioned in my video, I want to work in medicine with pregnant women so I love that.

Joe is cohosting another ORG I'm in and I feel like the other host doesn't like me so I wonder if he doesn't like me either.

Ashley seems great. She seems like someone I would hang out with.

Love Andy! I played in The Circle Online with him!

Sammy seems cool! He also mentioned time issues, but I feel like he would be active enough. He has respects for the hosts so I imagine he won't be missing too much, just might not be as active in the house chats. Probably a good person to keep around, though.

Cody hasn't provided much info except being Australian, which is pretty cool. lol

omg Chloe's video... She seems fun, seems like the kind of drunk to give a stranger a pep talk in a bar bathroom.

KAYLA

First day in the Big Brother house and I'm already part of two alliances. One I know was made by Cody the other...I'm not sure. Cody really wants this HOH which seems risky but, that's his choice, I guess. I really don't want to win HOH at all. Like...bruh lol so if somehow my guess was accurate...I'm gonna yeet myself into oblivion. Like, I want Cody to take the fall. Let him make the bloody first moves haha

FROSBY

Frosby is back in the saddle and I already have no idea what im doing... yet again. But ya know what im here to have fun god damiit and fun is what im going to have. First off im glad to see joe made this season bc BOOM instant ally gotta love the guy. 2nd Im already making some fast friends, what can I say I love talking to people. PRetty soon im going to have so many allies I wont know what to do. This season my main goal is to try and make a little more friends with more of the ladies. I realized in my last season of BB I didn't have a single girl for an ally and I feel like I sold myself short on some good quality allies. SO im going to try my best and talk to everyone and make allies with as many people as I can so I can safely make it through the early evictions. Also my plan is play it cool with challenges until post jury time and then I step up my challenge game! That is all I got for tonight ill probably come back tomorrow with a view on big players in the game. FROSBY OUT

CODY

TO sum up my first day of this game I am playing it hard and fast! I am ensuring that I have a majority alliance and it’s awesome because I was quite lucky to have a few pre game connections going into this so I’ve utilised all of them. And it helped that Brooke wanted to make an alliance with me and a few other people from it

I pitched to everyone that the game of Big Brother is a difficult one to navigate through which is the reason why I created this majority alliance. Now my goal is to win this HOH and start the game from the top. When I am at the top is when my aggressive nature will truly start to kick in. First of all when I decide who I nominate I am going to request an alliance chat with them and tell them that I’m on top they are on the bottom and they both have 0 chance of winning the game. Then proceed to put them on the block

Now hopefully me being so aggressive it will actually be a weird way of showing how loyal I am to my alliance. This could easily backfire of course but the idea is for them to perceive me as a goat. When in reality that’s what I want them to think and I will do everything I can to aggressively get things my way in this game. And if I find out that any of my allies are going against me and the alliance I’m going to be aggressive about how I call them out for it. And hopefully the perception will still be “yeah this guy might be mean but he’s also very loyal to his people let’s take someone else out over him”

PENNINO

So i'm here! I'm really happy to be here. But I see some faces like Joe, Kayla, and Brooke, which I know, and I'm kinda scared about playing with them, but I really need to start talking to people.

MANDI

So, the first day Cody made a nine person alliance. which is fine and all because i am in it but he is literally running the alliance and im not sure i really trust him at all yet.. so we will see how fast this will blow up.

KATRINA

Oh boy. I’m in over my head. There’s so many new people and I have no clue how to play this game. It’s so hard keeping track of people and who they are. I think a lot of these people know each other and have played with each other before which scares me. That means I have a disadvantage. I am an outsider and they won’t see me the same as those people that they’ve already played with. I’m going to try and stay under the radar but be very friendly since that’s what worked for me in the last org that I played in. I’ve met some really nice People so far. I really like Andrew and Austin. I hope the people that I’m talking to and making friends with her trustworthy. I would really hate if I started becoming really good friends with somebody and they turned out to go behind my back. That would really suck if I was one of the first people to leave.

DESIREE

For the record, I do not want to win the first HOH. Its too early for that power and I don't want to make a splash yet. I would rather just watch from the sidelines this week.

As my theme song said - "Take one step at a time, there's no need to rush."

JOE

I feel like I’ve made some solid bonds with the people around me. Came in knowing a lot of people, and they seem like they’re all willing to work with me. I think Mandi and frosby will be my go to’s. Surprised frosby still wants to work with me after last game but I feel like I can trust him. I think I’m in a good spot for at least these first few weeks.

BROOKE

Watching Lukas blow up unde9able is great. Especially since I was the one that ratted it out to him. He came to me and said Cody has a nine person alliance and since he’s HoH, I didn’t want to lie to him. He promised me safety in return of telling him who’s in it. I’m just gonna kick back and relax and hope he doesn’t nominate Kayla.

DREW

Unde9nable got leaked already? I wonder who told the HoH... not I, but I did tell Chloe- and girl its a MESS. I gotta act like I'm in some sort of trouble with Lukas, but after speaking with him earlier, he knows that its a front. I literally am just not feeling Cody, and his ass needs to GO. Glad to see that I have some people agreeing with me that he's fake, he sounds robotic, and that he's disingenuous! LOVE THAT FOR ME!!!

ASHLEY

Hey hey it’s already day 2 feeling okay. I kinda wish that the one on ones weren’t in my private messages but it’s okay. I am getting to know people and it’s cool. Pretty good so far. I like Lukas and Sammy. And I’m glad I didn’t win HOH I don’t want to be first and have a target.

CODY

So I’m not entirely sure what’s going to happen moving forward with my game. Obviously the HOH plan and alliance failed and I made the decision to stir the pot a little and made a particular comment which got reported. And it made me realise it’s best to stop the crazy persona.

I do feel like I do have some legit relationships in this game, people such as Joe and Kayla I’ve talked to a lot. I’m not entirely sure that they will want to play with me moving forward through. Thankfully I do have an alliance with Brooke which she started and like I said I do feel like I got a good bond with Joe and Kayla. However it’s probably not gonna be enough. I just spent some time chilling in voice chat with a few people and we had a good time. We talked essentially 0 game though which was absolutely fine, the only thing we did talk about was just me apologising for my actions however I feel like I’m definitely a dead man walking but I can try to use that to my advantage and say that I am an open number. I just hope that does not make me perceived as a wildcard

DESIREE

Daily Thoughts for Day 2:

HOH Competition: I was really trying not to win the first HOH competition, but I didn't throw it necessarily, I just didn't try at all. I didn't want to obviously throw, but I figured not trying would be enough not to win. WELL turns out I tied for 2nd out of 16 houseguests. WHOOPS. That was close. Anyway, Lukas won! I feel okay with Lukas as HOH. We have talked a bit and he consults with me game decisions, so I feel pretty safe. We don't have an explicit alliance, but we have said we'll have each other's back this week at least.

9 person alliance: So, apparently there was a majority alliance created in the first 24 hours of the game. Even worse, it seems that Cody created the alliance and just added random people in without consulting them first. That seems messy af. Lukas blew up the alliance in the house after someone leaked it to him. I mean, are you surprised it got leaked if people didn't even want to be in it? I would have leaked it too! Lukas may have created a target on his back by blowing that up, but it seems like most people in the house are on his side because most people weren't committed to that alliance anyway.

House Meeting: After the alliance was exposed, Cody decided to call a house meeting. He explained that he came in here and decided to play a "drill sergeant" character. He quickly realized that he was rubbing people the wrong way after he got reported for threatening physical violence. He will play as himself from now on. He was trying to save his own ass, but I think it's too late for him.

Houseguest Connections:

The person I'm the closest with in the house so far is Frosby. We got to chatting on the first night about board games and the conversation just flowed really easily. He was a part of that 9 person "alliance" but that doesn't really concern me because I believe that he was just added willy nilly and didn't have any stake in it. Other than that, I've talked game with Lukas the most. I don't have any solid alliances formed, but I wanted to wait until week 2 to really start solidifying things. I prefer to take the time to get to know people before committing to alliances.

MANDI

well first nomination ceremony went good!! i totally forgot pennino was in the game.😳 i feel bad because he is in such a different time zone then all of us buuuuut. i was nominated so thats good. i am trying my best to just be social with everyone. i have talked to ash and desiree on vc but other than that i havent talked to them at all. i have yet to talk to pennino at all. but other than that i have mostly talked to everyone either through dm or in the house chat. i am honestly scared this game.😂 i have no idea what ANYONE is thinking. im worried about brooke and kayla because they are so close and know about me and joe. i know they are eventually going to try and break me and him up. joe will always be my number one and i will always protect my little brother.😎

PENNINO

So this is a bad situation. But I want to work with Lukas. Keep your enemies REALLY close

ANDREW

My thought on my housemates so far.

(They will be rank 1-15 purposely, it’s just a first impression rank, not everything in written in stone)

1. Lukas (we’ve had a good connection, very fluid conversation, nice dude, TOP ally rn, he wasn’t part of the 9 person alliance)

2. Frosby (he contacted me, and he was very nice, very cool, he was part of the 9 person alliance, and we were both a bit Wary about it too.)

3. Mandi (my twinsie)

4. Sammy (he’s very nice, a bit busy, but when he has a break, he talks and it’s very fluid)

5. Desiree (i know her from another org, and she maybe an ally, like be a huge threat because she knows I play a good social game)

6. Katrina (i respect her for her career choice, also she said I was funny, and well now I love her lol)

7. Chloe (party girl, fun to talk to her, that character can also be an act, but benefit of the doubt)

8. Drew (he’s Zen, cool, i like him)

9. Ashley (she’s cute, i like her for now)

10. Kayla (i got no solid opinion of Kayla rn)

11. Brooke (she’s very active, i like that, but she has already a social game going on, and obviously I’m not part of it, but that can benefit me, for now)

12. Joe (who?)

13. Austin (weed bro, doesn’t talk much)

14. Cody (catfish)

15. Pennino (he’s very young, and has a very weird time difference, I’ve played a previous org with him, and he didn’t talk at all, i bet he bites more than he can chew)

That’s is my initial ranking of my houseguests.

My strategy for this game is “smile and wave”, this is 80 days, and the dying star will be mainly based on vengeance on another houseguest or if they think it’s a threat. Keep it cute, this game is basically called the “long con”. I’m ready to play.

DESIREE

Daily Thoughts for Day 3:

Lukas nominated Cody & Pennino today, and then Sammi, Chloe, & Frosby were picked. I feel good with the nominees, Cody already blew up his game and I haven't really talked to Pennino at all. I am happy to not be picked for POV as well, because I want to lay low in the game for now. I am happy that Frosby got picked though, because he is my ally so if he wins I can at least feel involved from the sidelines.

CODY

Alright so according to a few people I might actually be safe...it’s hard to believe anything that you are told in this game. But if I’m safe then fuck yessss I’m back in it.

It seems as though people’s views and thoughts on me have changed mostly and the votes actually might not all be coming my way. However I’m still not expecting to be kept safe because they could just be trying to make me feel comfortable!

If I do survive I am going to try and lay low for a bit. I’m probably going to throw the next HOH, still undecided. I don’t wanna draw too much attention onto myself because if I’m in a position of nominating people straight away after surviving then people might change how they feel about me yet again especially if they’re on the receiving end of a nomination

I am also probably not going to set up any alliances either unless I feel I absolutely need to. I think instead I’m going to try and be looked upon as kind of a floating free agent. I might only try to win vetos if I get picked for them

DESIREE

Daily Thoughts for Day 4:

Sammy won POV and didn't use it. I think that was the right decision. Final nominees are Cody & Pennino. Lukas told me he doesn't care who goes home and that it's up the house, but it seems like Pennino is a pawn here. I think if there is someone in the group who is so obviously making waves, they should go for the first week. In the coming weeks, we can worry about bigger threats, but first week, I'm more in favor of evicting the person who is the most controversial.

ASHLEY

Trust ratings so far (1 most & 15 least)

1. Sammy

2. Joe

3. Brooke

4. Kayla

5. Drew

6. Mandi

7. Lukas

8. Chloe

9. Katrina

10. Frosby

11. Desiree

12. Austin

13. Andy

14. pennino

15. Cody

MANDI

UGH. i dont know who to vote for.😭 everyone is so back and forth. everyone wants cody out because he rubbed them the wrong way, and pennino. people want him gone because he isnt very active, but he is sooo nice. but also i love drama and cody is a good drama started. WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO.😭😭 no one is giving me answers on who is going or who is staying.

ANDREW

Trust Ranking:

1. Lukas

2. Frosby

3. Mandi

4. Sammy

5. Desiree

6. Austin

7. Brooke

8. Katrina

9. Drew

10. Chloe

11. Cody

12. Ashley

13. Kaya

14. Joe

15. Pennino

From 5-to 13. It can totally change during time.

DREW

Absolutely gaggin.

Like this is how the first week is gonna end? People are gonna claim that CODY is the least threatening player than a 14 year-old. Absolutely bonkers man. Did I sign up to play Big Brother or Hopscotch? Like my god- the way that Ashley and Brooke are going around trying to PERSUADE the other houseguests that Cody is the one to keep. AND it doesn't help matters when I'm supposed to be aligned with Joe/Mandi/Katrina, and they're all like- yeah Cody isn't a competition threat and a vote shield!?

AND WHAT OF THE DAMN 14 YEAR OLD? HUH? WHAT DOES THAT MAKE HIM?!?

Like I understand that Pennino isn't the most active, but why are we gonna be wasting a WEEK on him when he's probably gonna strike out for inactivity or something down the line?!? LIKE I DON'T UNDERSTAND. Everyone here is thinking on the short term, and I honestly hate it. I really do.

Bollocks. I'm just so over everything that has transpired in the last 24 hours. And if this is any indication on how the rest of the game will be- then I'm gonna make it my damn mission to make sure that I get Ashley, Brooke, Frosby, Joe, and Andrew out of here. Trust and believe.

MANDI

soooo. kayla and sammy came to me and said they wanted to flip the votes and evict cody. i told them if they had the votes i would go wherever the house went. well my alliance with joe, drew, and katrina said we had the votes to keep cody. we have frosby, brooke, joe, drew, katrina, ashley, desiree, and maybe chloe?? i dont know and then me. i told sammy that they didnt have the votes to flip and that cody would be a good vote shield if we were ever on the block with him. so i finally convinced sammy to keep cody. sorry kayla and austin! i am just going where the house goes. i honestly dont care who goes home but i think keeping cody is our best option going forward in the game. plus pennino hasnt talked to me at all and i think i can trust cody.

BROOKE

Kayla really wants Cody gone but I think he should stay.. I really don’t want to go against her or lie to her but if I have to, I will.

WEEK 1 CAST ASSESSMENT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKxuIySz2d8

#EPISODES

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internetdetectives · 5 years

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August 8th, 2019 - Chat with GHOSTBABEL

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:16 PM: “ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴡᴇʟʟ, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴅᴇs ᴀʀᴇ ᴛᴜʀɴɪɴɢ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴛ ɪᴛ sᴇᴇᴍs. ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴇʟsᴇ ɪs ɴᴇᴡ?”

Slinky stinks 9:17 PM: "We got nothing yet”

ARGdov 9:18 PM: "one person got banned”

ARGdov 9:18 PM: "he’s still in here with us”

ARGdov 9:18 PM: "and we have the ocarina”

ARGdov 9:18 PM: "unless this has other consequences we havent thought of yet this is only a minor setback”

Jos 9:19 PM: "Just nocta being paranoid for a long time has lead to moonman being banned”

Slinky stinks 9:19 PM: "Well, nocta can look further onto moonman and can reach to this server”

Jos 9:19 PM: "counter ban then”

Slinky stinks 9:19 PM: "But I don’t think that can happen”

ARGdov 9:19 PM: "we dont know he can do that

Jos 9:20 PM: "I could unlock the thread and say well you got deceived!, imagine his paranoia raising up”

Jos 9:20 PM: "not gonna do”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:20 PM: "ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀɴ ɪs ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟ, ᴏʀ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴍᴏʀᴇ? ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪᴛ. ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ ᴄᴀɴ ɴᴏ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ ᴘᴏsᴛ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴏʀᴜᴍs, ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ʜɪs ᴘʀᴇsᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ɴᴏ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ ʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ. ᴘʟᴜs, ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɴᴏᴄᴛᴀ ʜᴀᴅ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs ᴏᴜᴛ sᴏᴍᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴀɢᴏ?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:20 PM: "sᴏᴜɴᴅs ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ‘ᴅɪsᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀ’ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʀᴀɪsɪɴɢ ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴀʟᴀʀᴍs, ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:20 PM: "ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇ.”

Slinky stinks 9:20 PM: "Well, we made this server so we could talk too moonman without nocta being to suspicious”

Slinky stinks 9:20 PM: "So maybe if he found out”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:21 PM: "ᴄᴏɴɢʀᴀᴛᴜʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴs, ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪssᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴇɴᴛɪʀᴇʟʏ.”

ARGdov 9:21 PM: "shiiiiit”

ARGdov 9:21 PM: "so he may be dead”

Slinky stinks 9:21 PM: "Yeah nvm”

ARGdov 9:21 PM: "fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck”

otherLiam 9:21 PM: "Guys, I think he’s saying him getting banned off the server is bigger than just getting banned.”

ARGdov 9:21 PM: "this is bad”

ARGdov 9:21 PM: "like really bad”

Slinky stinks 9:22 PM: "We can’t let moonman die tho”

ADULT_LINK 9:22 PM: "oh jeez”

Jos 9:22 PM: "You can’t let not die someone who might died.”

ADULT_LINK 9:22 PM: "he might already be dead”

Slinky stinks 9:22 PM: "Daaaamn”

Slinky stinks 9:22 PM: "Liam did you got any reply?”

otherLiam 9:23 PM: "Not yet, no.”

Jos 9:23 PM: "Tbh”

Jos 9:23 PM: "Moonman is not banned”

Jos 9:23 PM: "his user can be banned, which means he is not?”

Jos 9:23 PM: "So nocta is just using that as a excuse”

Slinky stinks 9:24 PM: "Also Babel said we missed his point tho”

Jos 9:24 PM: "nevermind”

Jos 9:24 PM: "but he might be dead tho”

Slinky stinks 9:25 PM: "Damn”

otherLiam 9:25 PM: "He said you did, slink.”

Slinky stinks 9:25 PM: "Oh”

otherLiam 9:25 PM: "While losing Moonman is a blow, it also shows Nocta’s scared as hell.”

ADULT_LINK 9:25 PM: "oh hey this might sound completely unrelated, but. would IA recognise my handle on the observatory? it dawned on me that if their version of me played dnd with them i might have used the same/similar handle in there”

Jos 9:26 PM: "This could be a good point to overthrow nocta”

Slinky stinks 9:26 PM: "I can’t talk to characters without misunderstanding them ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”

Jos 9:26 PM: "he first said the bot were us”

Jos 9:26 PM: "now he says it was moonman”

Jos 9:26 PM: "how many lies the members will feed?”

ADULT_LINK 9:26 PM: "and it would probably freak him out to have one of his dead freinds around, which could make it hard to successfully get into things there”

Jos 9:26 PM: ”(except moonman who really did the bots lol)”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:27 PM: “ǫᴜᴇsᴛɪᴏɴ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʟʟ: ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴇsᴘᴇʀᴀᴛᴇ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇᴛʀɪᴇᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪs ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?”

ADULT_LINK 9:28 PM: "i dont really know tbh”

ADULT_LINK 9:28 PM: "wait, "this” moonman”

Slinky stinks 9:28 PM: “Enough to do stuff but not to get in danger”

ADULT_LINK 9:28 PM: "oh wait isnt moonman greth”

ADULT_LINK 9:28 PM: "i am very behind on some things”

Slinky stinks 9:28 PM: "He is”

otherLiam 9:28 PM: "He’s a useful source of information, and besides that, he’s a friend. So if he’s retrievable we’d like to retrieve him.”

otherLiam 9:28 PM: "Yes, Moonman is the alternate reality Greth.”

Slinky stinks 9:29 PM: "But he hasn’t been patremized yet”

ADULT_LINK 9:29 PM: "in that case yes, greth is a freind. even if he’s a bit different from ours, he’s still the same person”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:29 PM: "ʜᴏᴡ ᴄᴀɴ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇ sᴏ sᴜʀᴇ?”

ADULT_LINK 9:30 PM: "optimistic guess”

Slinky stinks 9:30 PM: "Guys I still have a 1% thoughts that he is the one who betrayed us”

Jos 9:30 PM: "I guess no one should die regardless their faction affiliation”

Slinky stinks 9:30 PM: "In any way”

Slinky stinks 9:30 PM: "Greth is a. Friemd”

ADULT_LINK 9:30 PM: "even if he is the one who betrayed us, death is pretty harsh”

Slinky stinks 9:31 PM: ”^”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:31 PM: “ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ ᴍᴀʏ ʙᴇ ᴀ 'ꜰʀɪᴇᴍᴅ’ ʙᴜᴛ ʜᴇ ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʜɪs sᴇᴄʀᴇᴛs.”

ADULT_LINK 9:31 PM: "so? you undoubtebly have been keeping secrets from us as well

doesent mean we’d be ok with just letting you die”

otherLiam 9:32 PM: "We’re all keeping secrets.”

Jos 9:33 PM: "I think is not about if he should die, but is that whoever is the betrayer doesnt care about ethics, and killed a lot of people for whatever reason”

otherLiam 9:33 PM: "Doesn’t mean our lives aren’t worth saving.”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "maybe”

otherLiam 9:33 PM: "Although I suppose there’s an important question to ask here.”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "wait”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "you said "is"”

otherLiam 9:33 PM: "What’s the price of saving him?”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "he may not be dead yet”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:33 PM: "ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛɪɴɢ. ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴇᴛ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴘʀᴏᴘᴏsɪᴛɪᴏɴ. ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅɢᴀᴍᴇ ᴘʟᴀɴ- ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴅɪsᴄᴜssᴇᴅ. ʜᴏᴡᴇᴠᴇʀ, ɪꜰ ɪ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʟᴘ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰɪɴᴅ ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ, ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴅᴇʟᴀʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:33 PM: "ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴀʟsᴏ ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀ, sɪɴᴄᴇ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴏᴜᴛsɪᴅᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴜʀᴠɪᴇᴡ ᴏꜰ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴀɢʀᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ.”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "also @ADULT_LINK Moonman is greth from the AO timeline

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "shit”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "ok thats tricky”

ARGdov 9:33 PM: "what are the risks of delaying the endgame plan?”

Jos 9:34 PM: "What do you need”

ARGdov 9:34 PM: "and also yeah, what would the favor be”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:34 PM: "ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ.”

ARGdov 9:34 PM: "the hat?”

ARGdov 9:34 PM: "helpers hat?”

Jos 9:34 PM: "Helpers”

otherLiam 9:34 PM: "Helper’s hat? We don’t have it.”

ARGdov 9:34 PM: "we dont, its true”

ARGdov 9:34 PM: "to my knowledge anyways”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:34 PM: "ɴᴏᴛ ʏᴇᴛ.”

Jos 9:34 PM: "So find it to save moonman”

Jos 9:34 PM: "fair enought”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "you didnt answer though”

Slinky stinks 9:35 PM: "Another side quest of finding the hat huh?”

Slinky stinks 9:35 PM: "Nice”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "two questions now”

ADULT_LINK 9:35 PM: "is this a thing of "as soon as we get it we give it to you” or a “i’d like it at some point once you have it”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: “A: Why do you want it”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "B: What are the risks of delaying the endgame?”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "gah, fuck it”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "I suppose I agree either way.”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "though I’d like to know why you want it”

otherLiam 9:35 PM: "Hang on, let’s discuss this.”

ARGdov 9:35 PM: "assuming this wont lead to the multiverse exploding anyways”

Slinky stinks 9:35 PM: "Okay, who has the hat then, circle said he didn’t had it”

ADULT_LINK 9:36 PM: "i think we should talk about it as well”

Jos 9:36 PM: "I do understand there might be questions but we do want to step on sure ground or at least the safest ground we can”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "we’ll have to retrieve it”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "ok, well”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "if we’re gonna dicuss it”

ADULT_LINK 9:36 PM: "i’m not opposed to the idea, but i’d like to hear more before i go in blindly “

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "we need to know what the risks are”

otherLiam 9:36 PM: "Is Moonman really worth delaying stopping Nocta AND losing Helper’s Hat forever?”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "and why ghostbabel here wants the hat”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:36 PM: "sʟᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜʀ 'ʀᴏʟʟ’, ɪ ᴀᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪsᴄᴜss ᴛʜɪs ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ꜰᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ.”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "alright,”

ARGdov 9:36 PM: "well, an answer to both of my questons would be a good start”

otherLiam 9:37 PM: "Agreed.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:37 PM: "ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ ɪs ɴᴏᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ, ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴏᴛʜ ʙᴇɴᴇꜰɪᴛ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ɪᴛs’ ʀᴇᴛʀɪᴇᴠᴀʟ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ɪɴsᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ, ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴇʀʜᴀᴘs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴏᴜʀ ꜰɪʀsᴛ sᴛᴇᴘ. “

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:37 PM: "ɪᴛ’s sɪᴍᴘʟᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ, ɪ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ, ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ, ɢɪᴠᴇ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ, ɪ ʜᴇʟᴘ ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:37 PM: "ᴛʜᴇ ʀɪsᴋ ɪs ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴇᴍʏ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇs ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ.”

ARGdov 9:38 PM: "right”

Slinky stinks 9:38 PM: "And he moves faster”

Slinky stinks 9:38 PM: "Remember”

ARGdov 9:38 PM: "but it wont be impossible to stop them, right?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:38 PM: "ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪs ɪᴍᴘᴏssɪʙʟᴇ.”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: ”…not really the answer I was looking for but ok”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: “Im willing to agree to this”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: "especially since it sounds like having the hat may be of use”

ADULT_LINK 9:39 PM: "so this is a thing of, as soon as we get the hat we give it to you”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: "it sounds like he’ll retrieve it for us”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: "and then give it to us”

otherLiam 9:39 PM: "Actually, this might be less bad than I thought. GB, given that you’re in an alternate timeline, isn’t there a Helper’s Hat in your timeline as well?”

ARGdov 9:39 PM: "and then we give it back to him”

Slinky stinks 9:39 PM: "Oh…”

ADULT_LINK 9:40 PM: "ooh there could be 2 hats maybe”

Slinky stinks 9:40 PM: "But wasn’t the other timeline helper GB? I think I’m lost”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:40 PM: "ɪ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏᴛ sɪᴍᴘʟʏ ʀᴇᴛʀɪᴇᴠᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴘʟᴀɴᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴇxɪsᴛᴇɴᴄᴇ; ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ, sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ʜᴀs ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ.”

ADULT_LINK 9:40 PM: "then we could get GB a hat, but still have one avaliable to us (possibly) in the future, right?”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:40 PM: "ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sɪᴍᴘʟᴇ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ TAKEN ɪᴛ.”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "wait”

ADULT_LINK 9:41 PM: "do you know who has the hat in your world?”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "so GB cant take it from his”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "so no”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "we’d be giving it to him”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "permanently”

ADULT_LINK 9:41 PM: "yeah, but this wouldnt neccicarrily be the last time we’re able to get a hat”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:41 PM: ”@ADULT_LINK ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴsᴡᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪs sᴏ ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜs ɪ'ᴍ ᴀʙsᴏʟᴜᴛᴇʟʏ ɢɪᴅᴅʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴇᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ’s ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɪɴ ꜰʀᴏɴᴛ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ.”

Slinky stinks 9:41 PM: “Ok, but who exactly has it”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "but also I want to point out that were discussing wether a random trinket we havent used in YEARS is worth more than this persons life”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: "thats another good question, whos got it”

ARGdov 9:41 PM: ”(IA, is my guess)”

ADULT_LINK 9:42 PM: “i have poor eyesight, not being able to see things infront of me is not uncommon”

ADULT_LINK 9:42 PM: "yeah, ia likely has it”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:42 PM: ”@ARGdov ᴄᴏɴɢʀᴀᴛᴜʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴs, ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀʟʟ sᴛᴜᴍʙʟᴇᴅ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍʏsᴛᴇʀʏ ꜰᴏʀ ꜰᴀʀ ᴛᴏᴏ ʟᴏɴɢ.”

Slinky stinks 9:42 PM: “Wait”

ADULT_LINK 9:42 PM: "ooh, going back to my earlier question”

ARGdov 9:42 PM: "mazel tov, random guesing is useful”

Slinky stinks 9:42 PM: "So IA has it?”

ARGdov 9:42 PM: "especially since it can only be like”

ARGdov 9:42 PM: "5 people”

ARGdov 9:42 PM: "since we dont know that many peopel from your timelien”

ADULT_LINK 9:42 PM: "do you think IA would recognise my name on AO as being his dead freind?”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: "it seems that he does”

ADULT_LINK 9:43 PM: "if not maybe we could try to befreind him and get the hat”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: "look, Im gonna be blunt here”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:43 PM: "ʜᴇ ɪs ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴀᴡᴀʀᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀs ɪᴛ ɪs.”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: "giving GB the hat probably wont be much of a loss to us”

Slinky stinks 9:43 PM: "Hmmm”

ADULT_LINK 9:43 PM: "thats fair”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: "someone as dangerous as him having it makes me wary but”

Slinky stinks 9:43 PM: "Yeah the we can give away the hat”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: "its that vs someone we know dying”

ADULT_LINK 9:43 PM: "man i wish i’d been able to stay hidden in who i was a bit longer :/”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: “and dying because we may have put him in danger by talking to him”

ARGdov 9:43 PM: “I say we go for it.”

ADULT_LINK 9:45 PM: "i’m game i suppose”

ARGdov 9:45 PM: "so that makes three of us”

ADULT_LINK 9:45 PM: "i hope we’ll be able to get a different version of the hat in the future but”

ARGdov 9:45 PM: ”@otherLiam @Wolfcat what do you think?”

Wolfcat 9:46 PM: “go for it”

otherLiam 9:47 PM: "I’m concerned about the baddies having more time to prepare and act. It’s likely we’ll lose someone else in trying to save Moonman. That being said, I think it’s worth.”

ADULT_LINK 9:47 PM: "should we discuss this in ID a bit, get people who arent in here’s votes?”

ARGdov 9:47 PM: "sounds good yeah”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:48 PM: "ᴀ ʙɪɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴀɢʀᴇᴇᴍᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ.”

ARGdov 9:49 PM: "we’re still discussing it”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:50 PM: "ɪ sᴇᴇ. ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ɪ sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇ…”

otherLiam 9:51 PM: "How pressing is Moonman’s situation?”

otherLiam 9:51 PM: "If we waited until after you enact your endgame, would we still be able to help him?”

ARGdov 9:51 PM: "doubtfully”

Jos 9:52 PM: "I might look as a bad person but i wont save moonman”

Slinky stinks 9:52 PM: "I think moonmans situation atm is pretty bad”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:53 PM: "ʟɪᴀᴍ, ɪᴛ ɪs ᴜɴʟɪᴋᴇʟʏ.”

otherLiam 9:54 PM: "I figured, but thought it worth asking.”

Jos 9:54 PM: “If he is not the traitor, he wanted nocta cult to end, going agaisnt his objective delaying and bringing him to life again, will mean the work he has done would go to waste”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:54 PM: "ᴛʀᴜᴛʜꜰᴜʟʟʏ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇɴᴛᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɪɴ sɪᴛᴇ, ʀᴇꜰᴇʀʀᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀs ᴛʜᴇ 'sᴜʙsᴘᴀᴄᴇ’, ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴡɪʟʟ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴅʀᴀᴍᴀᴛɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ.”

Slinky stinks 9:54 PM: "And to enter the subspace”

Slinky stinks 9:54 PM: "You need to do your endgame plan”

Slinky stinks 9:54 PM: "Right?”

otherLiam 9:55 PM: "And we’d be delaying that by helping Moonman.”

otherLiam 9:55 PM: "That’s our situation, yes.”

Slinky stinks 9:55 PM: "Hmm”

otherLiam 9:55 PM: "That’s why I’m still somewhat on the fence.”

ADULT_LINK 9:55 PM: "hey, speaking of masks”

otherLiam 9:55 PM: "But it seems like the majority want to save him.”

Slinky stinks 9:55 PM: "Well, if we let moon die, he Might get Patremized”

ADULT_LINK 9:55 PM: "which ones do we have avaliable to us?”

otherLiam 9:56 PM: "I mean… all of them, save the Postman’s Hat, I’d assume.”

Slinky stinks 9:56 PM: "But if we don’t, nocta can do its thing faster”

otherLiam 9:56 PM: "Why do you ask?“

ADULT_LINK 9:56 PM: "just trying to think ahead”

Jos 9:56 PM: "i think nocta wouldn’t go faster if we do things without he noticing”

ADULT_LINK 9:56 PM: "figure if theres any masks we don’t have, might be a good idea to try to get them”

Jos 9:57 PM: "but at the same time, faster means more mistakes”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:57 PM: "ɴᴏᴄᴛᴀ ʜᴀs ʏᴇᴛ ᴛᴏ ɴᴏᴛɪᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜʙᴛʟᴇ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇs ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜɪs sᴄʀɪᴘᴛs ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴀʀʀɪᴇʀs ᴘʀᴏᴛᴇᴄᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜʙsᴘᴀᴄᴇ. ɪɴ ꜰᴀᴄᴛ, ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇɢɪɴɴɪɴɢ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜɪs ᴊᴏᴜʀɴᴇʏ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴜɴᴇᴀʀᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀ sᴍᴀʟʟ ᴘᴏʀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴘᴀᴄᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴏᴜʀ ɴᴇᴇᴅs. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴏᴜʀsᴇ ɢɪᴠᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀʀᴛ ᴘᴀɴɪᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ꜰᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ.”

Slinky stinks 9:58 PM: "Nocta is pretty paranoid and stressed at he seems”

Slinky stinks 9:58 PM: "So a little bit more of that would make him more dangerous”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 9:59 PM: "ɪᴛ ɪs ɴᴏᴛ ᴜɴʟɪᴋᴇʟʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴏᴡᴇʀ ᴜsᴀɢᴇ ɪs ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴀᴜsᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴛᴏ 'ʙᴀɴ’ ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰɪʀsᴛ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ. ʙᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴀʟʟɪᴇs— ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ ᴀɴᴅ 'ʏᴜᴜᴋɪ'”

Jos 9:59 PM: "step by step, then hope panic can make him do errors, for much he wants to control his site like a perfect machine, he is still human and humans hates nerves”

Slinky stinks 10:00 PM: "What’s up with Yugi tho”

Slinky stinks 10:00 PM: "I just remembered”

ADULT_LINK 10:00 PM: "yknow i think it’d be really helpful if we could see our inventory lmao”

Slinky stinks 10:01 PM: "I think we have everything but the helpers hat tbh”

ADULT_LINK 10:01 PM: "keyword is think there”

Slinky stinks 10:02 PM: "Yeah…”

Slinky stinks 10:02 PM: "We should ask someone”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 10:03 PM: "ɪᴛ sᴇᴇᴍs ᴍʏ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʜᴀs ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴄᴜᴛ sʜᴏʀᴛ, ɪ ᴍᴜsᴛ ᴀᴅɪᴇᴜ. ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ʀᴇᴛᴜʀɴ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀɴ ᴀɴsᴡᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ɪ sɪɴᴄᴇʀᴇʟʏ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ᴄʜᴏɪᴄᴇ.”

otherLiam 10:04 PM: "Take care.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 10:04 PM: "ɪ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴅᴏ.”

Jos 10:04 PM: “Do it twice”

Jos 10:04 PM: "or trice”

otherLiam 10:08 PM: "There’s no need to wait for his return to decide. He could come back to us already having the hat, if we want.”

Mr t series good 10:08 PM: "Ok”

Slinky stinks 10:09 PM: "So we need to help him to retrieve the hat”

ADULT_LINK 10:09 PM: “"ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ ɪs ɴᴏᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ, ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴏᴛʜ ʙᴇɴᴇꜰɪᴛ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ɪᴛs’ ʀᴇᴛʀɪᴇᴠᴀʟ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ɪɴsᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ, ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴇʀʜᴀᴘs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴏᴜʀ ꜰɪʀsᴛ sᴛᴇᴘ.””

ADULT_LINK 10:09 PM: "”ɪᴛ’s sɪᴍᴘʟᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ, ɪ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ, ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛ, ɢɪᴠᴇ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ, ɪ ʜᴇʟᴘ ᴍᴏᴏɴᴍᴀɴ. ᴛʜᴇ ʀɪsᴋ ɪs ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴇᴍʏ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇs ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ."”

Slinky stinks 10:09 PM: "Or to retrieve the hat for him”

ADULT_LINK 10:09 PM: "he said that IA had a hat”

ADULT_LINK 10:09 PM: "but i dont think that was the hat he wanted us to get”

ARGdov 10:09 PM: "its not”

ARGdov 10:09 PM: "I gtg but”

ARGdov 10:09 PM: "I think we should go for it”

ADULT_LINK 10:10 PM: "so we still need him to tell who has the hat/where it is”

ARGdov 10:10 PM: "also uh”

ARGdov 10:10 PM: "moonman may end up reading all this”

ARGdov 10:10 PM: "if we save him”

ARGdov 10:10 PM: "which I hope we do”

ADULT_LINK 10:10 PM: "also: vote to call our timeline Beta and theirs Alpha, so we can easily distinguish whats from what”

Slinky stinks 10:10 PM: "Ah yes”

Slinky stinks 10:10 PM: "I saw what you did there”

ADULT_LINK 10:11 PM: "or we could go futurama route and go 1 and A”

Slinky stinks 10:11 PM: "I like the beta and alpha better”

Slinky stinks 10:11 PM: "So, fast recap in JID”

otherLiam 10:13 PM: "Vote Now! [yeah boiii] [naw dawg]”

otherLiam 10:13 PM: "Democracy.”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:56 PM: "ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀɴ ᴀɴsᴡᴇʀ?”

ADULT_LINK 11:56 PM: "yea, looks like more people support it than don't”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:57 PM: "ɢᴏᴏᴅ.”

Mr t series good 11:58 PM: "nice pfp ghost”

ɢʜᴏsᴛʙᴀʙᴇʟ 11:59 PM: "ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴇxᴘʟᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇss: ᴀs sᴏᴏɴ ᴀs ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴀʙʟᴇ, ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴛʀᴏʟ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɪɴ sɪᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴀsᴛʀᴀʟ ᴏʙsᴇʀᴠᴀᴛᴏʀʏ. ᴅᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴜᴘ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴍᴇ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ǫᴜᴇᴜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ. ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇsᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ.”

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Xue Yang’s 420 Punishing Reincarnations AU

REINCARNATION AU

but who is he if he doesnt ruin it all tho

ssyifpfff🌙 OH YES

35m 34 minutes ago yeeting patriarch he ruins some stuff but not on the Did Everything Wrong & Ruined Everything level like he did

he could reincarnate n still find song lan bc hes..... basically immortal now

ssyifpfff🌙 n he helps heal xxcs n a-qins soul

34m 33 minutes ago yeeting patriarch like? mass murder of a sect over his pinky? Ok. using the goodness of xiao xingchen and breaking his soul beyond repair?? Too Much

ssyifpfff🌙 yea tht sect was full of dicks tbh but xxc was Angel

33m 33 minutes ago YES

what about xue yang paying off with some reincarnations

with each of them, he learns something

yeeting patriarch and pays for what he did and starts to Realize

ssyifpfff🌙 SLOW BURN CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT ASDFGHJK

32m 31 minutes ago yeeting patriarch in all those reincarnations, he meets painful ends

ssyifpfff🌙 in one of them he goes blind

32m 31 minutes ago but each makes him Learn And Pay

HOLD UP

and then, in the one where he manages to help song lan with the souls of xxc and a-qing

his next one, where the three meet again song lan

HES BLIND

hes still pretty much a petty grudge holding chaotic bastard little shit but with no murder or scheming

but his pay offs didnt end

yeeting patriarch with xxc and a-qing back, he still gotta pay off for what he did

ssyifpfff🌙 once he helps rebuild their souls they should b able to reincarnate too, n they can find each other u___u

29m 28 minutes ago xue yang: *reincarnates again* ayyy wassup song lan song lan: song lan: There We Go Again

wait i think people shouldn't have their past life memories right

yeeting patriarch BUT XUE YANG GETS THEM AS A PART OF HIS PUNISHMENT !?

xue yang in every reincarnation: ah shit here we go again

YES HE NEEDS TO AS PUNISHMENT

WHO PUNISHES HIM??? WE DO

ssyifpfff🌙 GET FUCKED XUE YANG LMAO

26m 25 minutes ago IFENSKSITNESOZFWJKSHS

yeeting patriarch xue yang we love u but u DESERVE

BITCHES GET STITCHES

in one of his reincarnations he trusts some1 n they betray him by killing him

in another one he is born into a loving family but they all get murdered

ssyifpfff🌙 dam thts a lot of years of damage if hes gonna rmmbr them all lmao

23m 22 minutes ago ssyifpfff🌙

22m 21 minutes ago IGEBEKIDTVEKSOZGBSLSUGWKS

It's What He Deserves

it's all for him to Learn

yeeting patriarch learn to accept his punishment, learn about the wrongdoings he did...

ssyifpfff🌙 learn to love back u_u and to accept kindness

20m 19 minutes ago learn to forgive n move on

"i have nvr in my life yelled at a girl like this. whn my mama yell at me its bc she love me. i was rooting for u we were all rooting for u hOW D

ssyifpfff🌙 LEARN FROM THIS"

19m 18 minutes ago the reincarnation he finally meets xiao xingchen again and a-qing he holds grudges like a normal person. and it's just ur average tsundere

yeeting patriarch we cannot wipe out completely the chaotic bastard essence he has

ssyifpfff🌙 DO THEY RECOGNIZE HIM???

18m 17 minutes ago OH MY GOD

yeeting patriarch DO THEY

mayb its like those AUs where they DONT exactly but

they Know theres some1 in there they met once

theres a familiarity

ssyifpfff🌙 he Knows its them tho

17m 16 minutes ago yeeting patriarch it would be Too Cruel for xiao xingchen to remember him...

TRUUUU

GASP Maybe to help xxc n a-qins soul he has to give up his own

ssyifpfff🌙 i mean, give his life

16m 15 minutes ago so they only get that Familiarity Vibe

maybe some fragmented dreams

yeeting patriarch FUKC

ssyifpfff🌙 YESSSS DREAMS

15m 15 minutes ago then, after he gives his own life to help xxc and a-qings souls

the next reincarnation

where the three are all born again

yeeting patriarch he Finally doesnt remember all his past lives

THEY JUST FEEL FAMILIAR TO EACH OTHER

ssyifpfff🌙 Y A S

14m 7 minutes ago there is still stuff for him to go through

he finally paid off most of his punishment

yeeting patriarch THE STRINGS OF FATE BRING THEM TOGETHER

ssyifpfff🌙 oooOOOOOOOH

13m 6 minutes ago yeeting patriarch im so sorry for song lan tho boi deserves his Rest & Fresh New Reincarnation too :(

maybe this time he has to Work to be loved. whn he met xxc he was just accepted w/o question. this time he needs to earn love

yea............. idk how it would work w a fierce corpse

guess he would have to Perish first

oH MAYBE

bc theres 2 souls to heal (xxc and a-qin) there needs to be 2 sacrifices

ssyifpfff🌙 thus song lan needs to Perish n then he can re enter the reincarnation circle

11m 4 minutes ago yeeting patriarch I NEED TO COPY, PASTE & EDIT THIS WHOLE CONVO. WE CANNOT LET THIS AU BE LOST IN OUR DMS

DO IT NYARI SAFE GUARD IT

ssyifpfff🌙 N USE IT TO CONVERT PPL INTO XUE YANG CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AU

9m 2 minutes ago WE ARE AT IT AGAIN BEING DOGS

GODS******

yeeting patriarch quite literally being gods and doing what we want with the characters fates

DOGS

the only dog here is xue yang lmao

ssyifpfff🌙 if we dont, whos gonna do it????

4m 6 seconds ago OH ALSO

in all those punishing reincarnations, xue yang has quite a short lifespan

yeeting patriarch he never lives up his 30s

he has to die at more or less the same age as in his first go

so yea not to his 30s

ssyifpfff🌙 "he has to die" lmao sorry boi.............

3m 4 seconds ago how old was xue yang again

hes quite young right

yeeting patriarch on his 20s

ssyifpfff🌙 :/ im not sure

2m yeeting patriarch let's make it up he wont reach the 30s and it's ok

YEA LMAO

tbh idk the ages of any of the characters

only jin ling

ssyifpfff🌙 n sizhui

57s yeeting patriarch going thru the 20s only so many times is some punishment ksjdhgfshdj

LMAO TBH

WE RLY MAKING HIM GO THRU HIS TEENAGE YEARS N THN HIS 20S N THTS IT

ssyifpfff🌙 thts the cruelest thing we ever done

yknow The Final Reincarnation

xxc, song lan and a-qing have this sense xue yang is Familiar

xue yang does as well

but hes the only one who gets the most fragmented dreams

the others get fragmented blurred light memories in dreams

this makes them Question xue yang

and thus this time he has to Work to have their affection

mostly xxc's, ofc

with song lan and a-qing it'll be a bit of a cat and dog frenemies thingy

yeeting patriarch (xue yang as the cat, ofc)

frenemies is all he has lmao + xxc

song lan.......................................... he wont rmmbr righgt¿

asdfghjfhg the fragments he gets are gonna be abt him n xxc too

ssyifpfff🌙 thts gonna Hurt

1m 10 seconds ago YESSSSSSSSSSS

all of them are Clean of Full Past Memories

yeeting patriarch but FATE will bring them all together (modern setting au)

song lan we will find u love this time around

10m 50 seconds ago xxc, song lan and a-qing will all get all the good stuff

only xue yang will still go thru some Missions

well.

if we will have poly xxc with song lan and xue yang

song lan will get some Punishment by default GSDHJFOISU9DYFGHJDS

it's okay, xue yang will be 69x times better this life around, so

he will only have to up with xue yangs dramatic ass in the name of love for xxc

yeeting patriarch i mean back then he did leave xxc and only came back yeeeaaars later in Regret

ssyifpfff🌙 ACTUALLY UR RIGHT HE MESSED UP TOO

6m yeeting patriarch enduring an updated and polished xue yang is OK

ssyifpfff🌙 bsides ..... whn they work together to bring xxc n a-qins soul back they're gonna start getting along a bit more

5m yeeting patriarch YES

ssyifpfff🌙 xue yang will have gone thru development by tht point

5m yeeting patriarch he will witness the path of xue yangs reincarnations

OMG IMAGINE THEM HAVING TO GO ON ADVENTURES TOGETHER FOR XXC

OMG SONG LAN THE SILENT WATCHER OF XUE YANGS STRUGGLES

ssyifpfff🌙 MAYHAPS HE MIGHT EVEN COME TO FEEL FOR HIM

4m by the time they all reincarnate, his sense of familiarity will be Different from xxc + a-qings

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

HOLY FUKC YESSSS NYAURORA YES

we did it, we made this amazing poly fucking work

WHAT ABOUT

THIS FINAL REINCARNATION

they kinda get those Family Vibes

a-qing comes a bit later on

yeeting patriarch 2 and a half dads and their daughter

ssyifpfff🌙 2 AND A HALF DADS ASDFGHGHKLJFA

2m yeeting patriarch (and a half because even so much reincarnations, xue yang isnt a proper dad)

hes like a k00l uncle

ssyifpfff🌙 a bit of a bad incluence uncle

2m yeeting patriarch actually this does song like a father to me

ssyifpfff🌙 but tbh if not for his bastardy, xue yang n a-qing would get along so well

1m the fuck up

SOUND*

since he will have to earn for a-qings affection

the start will be rough

but later on, theyll be the Chaotic Duo

yeeting patriarch since this time around our xue yang is updated and polished to be the bastard on the right level

IMAGINE

one day into a distant future

all four together

yeeting patriarch with peace, happiness and warmth

ssyifpfff🌙 listenin to mcr?

3m and then

all of sudden

tears start falling from xue yangs eyes

yeeting patriarch hes all ???? about it

ssyifpfff🌙 NYARI

2m yeeting patriarch and the other three are just as shocked

ASDFGHJHG DONT

HES SO HAPPY

THIS TIME AROUND HES HAPPY FINALLY

ssyifpfff🌙 CENTURIES OF HURT

1m yeeting patriarch he doesnt understand why he got so overwhelmed

ssyifpfff🌙 OF HARD WORK TO BE BETTER

1m he cant make the tears stop

xxc gets super worried asking where it hurts

but... nothing hurts

yeeting patriarch THEN HE CRIES HARDER

ssyifpfff🌙 n thts whats making him cry!!! nothing hurts finally n hes glad!!

26s 3 seconds ago yeeting patriarch NOTHING FUCKINF HURTS NYASSHOLE. THIS IS HAPPINESS

ssyifpfff🌙 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

19s 3 seconds ago yeeting patriarch HOLY SHIT WE DID DONE THAT

the first few reincarnations and how hard it was for xue yang

the stages of grief but thru his many reincarnations

with the last one, before the Modern Setting

him breaking down in front of song lan

finally it all hit him and he gets it

when they manage to sacrifice their souls for xiao xingchen and a-qing's, he even wishes to not be reincarnated again so they can be At Peace without him

yeeting patriarch their lives*

OMG XUE YANG WISHING HE JUST REMAINS DEAD. NOW THT HE HAS FINALLY GOTTEN XXCS SOUL THE LAST TEST IS AN ACT OF REAL SELFLESSNESS.

ssyifpfff🌙 its would b so good?? bc whn he first get introduced to xy his motivation as a character is to get xxcs soul so he can use it for his own good

42m 41 minutes ago n at the end he would GIVE his soul for xxc, for THEIR own good

ssyifpfff🌙 did we just invent character development?

42m 41 minutes ago yeeting patriarch WE MF DID DONE IT AGAIN

ssyifpfff🌙 also purple420 lmao

41m 40 minutes ago yeeting patriarch he Finally embraces all the grief he felt when xxc died

ssyifpfff🌙 HE RECOGNIZES IT AS GRIEF!! BC BFORE HE JUST FELT ANGER AT XXC OF ALL THINGS

41m 40 minutes ago back then, the emotional constipation got in the way and he fucked up

but after so many punishing reincarnations, he finally came to take it all in and Understand

imagine him breaking down so many nights begging to xxc to forgive him in a desperate prayer

and song lan then one day witness it

yeeting patriarch fukc the road with song lan was also such a hard one

song lan seein xy chara development from afar is the best idea weve had in a long time nyari

ssyifpfff🌙 we did that

38m 37 minutes ago in the first few... idk, 10 reincarnations, song lan was so angry. 'why does he keep coming back? why does he have his memories?'

yeeting patriarch fates would always put song lan in xue yangs path

ssyifpfff🌙 Fate (us)

36m 35 minutes ago yeeting patriarch how Dolce it is to imagine xue yang finally taking in grief and regret and it all and breaking down... *kisses fingers like a chief*

by that last time, song lan and xue yang sacrificed their lives, even song lan was already suffering seeing the punishments of all xue yang's reincarnations

he witnessed all of them

yeeting patriarch and saw with his own eyes, ops! with xiao xingchen's eyes, nyeheh. how much xue yang learned and changed

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