#and i'm having family problems again

[greenerteacups]

Hi GT, I hope you are doing well! who is your favorite Weasley?

Thank you! Absolute treat of a question. Oh, man. It's Ron, right? It was always going to be Ron.

So here's the thing: the Weasleys are a really well-characterized family in that you can kind of see a lot of character emerge through limited sketches and contextual information. Bill is Number One Boy, the best at everything, oldest child who was always confident and at peace with his indisputable place in the family; so he's a chill, cool, incredibly competent guy who naturally takes-charge. Charlie is a patented never-grew-out-of-your-middle-school-dragons-phase Weird Kid, but like, mindfully and enthusiastically so, because his parents probably still had plenty of time to support and nurture his interests; plus he's also different to Bill and excels in different ways, so they aren't too competitive (as we see). Percy is the first one to suffer from the pressure of mounting expectations, and he's very quickly followed by the twins, who do the classic "if I can't be the best I'll be the worst" late-sibling trick of acting up for attention, so he gets lost in the shuffle. (The fight between Ron and Percy in Chapter 58 is, hence, in substantially about the relationship between the two most-ignored members of the Weasley family, and that's why Ron is so much angrier at him than the rest of them. Like I've said before, Ron always thinks he's got it the worst, but he takes pride in being able to kinda "tough it out," and nothing pisses him off like other people's self-pity.) Ginny is obviously the baby of the family, a girl with everyone wrapped around her finger, and I love her, but I feel like we didn't get enough grit in her portrait— she's just really successful in everything she does, in a way that can read as flat to some people, and certainly read as flat to me my first time through the books. In fact, Ginny reminds me a lot of Bill: first daughter/first son, described often as "cool" and clever and good at basically everything, charming and generally liked by all. Which is lovely. A delight to read, just like the twins are. But my taste in characters ranges way more fucked-up and mean.

Ron is the last boy, "sixth son of a woman who wanted a daughter" (fascinating line that complicates everything we know about Molly's relationship with her kids — and BTW, how the hell does Ron know that, and how old was he when he learned it? And this also comes into play with Molly's cry of "not my daughter" to Bellatrix which like, as a moment obviously fucking rules, but also — there's a reason she says daughter, not "child," right? Do you see what I'm digging at? Anyway). Ron meets Harry and recognizes himself in how Harry defaults to thinking people don't care about him, or won't help him if he asks, because — although they come from very different circumstances, Ron's home was completely loving, just not as nurturing as he always needed it to be — Ron usually goes in assuming people don't care about him, too. So his first instinct is to go: "Alright. Well, I'll care about you, then, weird stranger. Do you want to share my horrible sandwich, and also my life, perhaps?" Goddamn! Sixth of seven in a house with never enough to go around, and he's immediately like: "fuck it, room for one more." Because he could have been Percy — and you can see it in the way that Ron is mean, sometimes, he's not careful with his words and he struggles with empathy and he's got a vengeful streak that comes out when he's pissed — but he isn't selfish enough, he loves too much and too easily, and it takes shockingly little to earn his loyalty. You just have to pay a little attention to him.

#i'm excluding arthur and molly because i assume they're off the table #and they don't get a ton of characterization in the series #they're sort of the archetypal 'Good Parent' figures who represent goodness and nurturing #which is ironic because. again. the weasley household is not perfect #and it creates significant problems for ron and by extent the golden trio when the weasley drama #spills over and starts to create actual plot problems. e.g. percy #I think it's absolutely no accident that Percy and Ron have parallel arcs in Deathly Hallows #they both run away from their family and have a prodigal-son moment #very telling about their respective characters I believe #in short. there are two kinds of Weasleys: the “number one” and the “number two” #the tragedy of number one (bill charlie ginny) is that their problems are dismissed by no. 2 because “you're good at everything!” #the tragedy of number two (percy twins ron) is that their self-doubt is being constantly & implicitly affirmed by the existence of no. 1

[yesmissnyx]

This Valentine's day sucked 😔🤘

#Someone as hot as me should NOT be having shitty Valentines Days??? #I was fuck-deep in a house problems + health problems combo...was not very much fun at all whatsoever. #I spent it curled up on a family member's couch with my partner--in pain and feeling DEEPLY sorry for myself. #I want a do-over! Someone come cook me a nice steak dinner and rub my feet 😤😤😤 #But yeah! I'm still in recovery mode so I'll probably be scarce. Kisses. Mwah. #(And if you want to help Daddy feel more human again you're welcome send a tip 🥴) #In the meantime I'm getting zooted and attempting to hydrate away this migraine 😘

[navree]

choosing to ignore the last couple minutes of the episode and focus only on the fact that bella and arthur were both deciding to go into a lavender marriage and yet neither of them knew that because it's very funny

#personal #malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent spoilers #mlm/wlw solidarity but if they were both stupid #yes i'm immediately choosing to believe that bella was sapphic i've decided that #problems with religious dad? married a loser even tho she knew he was a loser and yet still went with him? hmmmmmmm #but man that episode went from 'hiding the fact that you're dating again to your ex's family' straight to Horror Show #i'm curious about what oscar found out but also like.....ugh that lead up the second the knock sounded i KNEW smth went wrong #at least the transcripts have returned from war

[forcedhesitation]

...just heard about the upcoming perk changes...hmm...yeah. the only good one definitely is the adrenaline nerf. I've wanted them to take away healing off hook forever.

the other perk changes are ass.

ultimate weapon is still outrageously unfair, even if you take away the screaming! to me, it feels like they just saw the uptick in people using calm spirit following the addition of ultimate weapon, and decided "hm, the way to deal with this is to remove the screaming." no! this perks needs to be reworked differently! given a longer cooldown, something! it does way too much for just one perk!

DS buff isn't going to stop tunnelling. strong killers don't care if you stun them, and weaker survivors likely won't even have DS because it's licensed...waste of a buff. just as they should do with off the record, they need to spread out these important anti-tunnel strategies to general perks. it's so unfair that something this important be gated behind a DLC. and no one perk should ever be too strong!

also, I saw otz's commentary on the changes. I could not agree more that certain killers should be nerfed directly, rather than trying to just balance perks generally. not all killers interact with different perks the same... nurse, wesker, huntress, blight, etc do not care about a stun, even if it's increased in length. you need to change them & how their powers work in relation to stuns, so survivors have a chance to get away from them, rather than buffing the perk so that old man ghostface has an even worse time in this dogshit meta lmao.

#dbd #thoughts about media #I haven't been on twitter in a while. I'm sure survivor mains are crying real hard about the adren nerf. #as if it was fair that the perk would heal you off hook like that. again: one perk should never do THAT much. #like. steve has a perk that heals you off hook. but it does ONLY that and you have to heal another survivor FIRST. #that feels fair! it does one thing and there's a trade-off! and the heal isn't immediate. #it's 16 seconds and then you heal. and you have base kit BT for 10 seconds to get away from the killer. #tbh- a slight buff to second wind would have been better than a DS buff. like. idk. reduce it to 12 seconds to heal off hook? #but second wind is a licensed perk again. so they should rather focus on making some general perk that does something like this instead. #there are sooo many survivor perks that are total dogshit and do nothing. including MANY general perks. REWORK THOSE!!! #I can't imagine this DS buff going to be a problem for hux because he's kind of a way more fair version of nurse. #he's very mobile. he just requires a lot more patience and skill to play. #I haven't seen anything about his planned changes yet. I'm hoping so badly that it will be a slight buff. #and by that I mean PLEASE MAKE SOMA FAMILY PHOTO BASE KIT!!!!!! #or even partially base kit!!! he should NOT be so dependent on one add on. #making it fully base kit wouldn't even be a problem because that would not impact kill rates at all. #this total hottie is only played by myself and a total of 5 other people worldwide. #making soma family photo isn't going to change that LOL. #like...some people might TRY him if he gets buffed. but I assure you- it would take a miracle to make more hux mains.

[billpottsismygf]

I've been stewing a little over the last few days about the news regarding the Doctor Who airing times and, although there's been a lot of discourse and probably everything has been said already, I just need to get my rant out there anyway.

For the uninitiated or the unsure, the brief rundown is that new episodes will drop online at the same time worldwide before the BBC 1 broadcast. This will be Fridays 7pm US time (EST I think) and Saturdays midnight in the UK. There will also be the usual Saturday evening broadcast on BBC 1, 18 or 19 hours later. Also, the premiere (10th/11th May) will drop the first two episodes of the series at once.

Simultaneous broadcast is pretty cool, and I believe the 60th specials dropped at the same time as the UK evening broadcast, giving an afternoon time for the US. That's great, but it's really messing with me that this new system completely shafts the UK in terms of viewing times. I'm not saying that only the UK has passionate fans, but I am saying that the UK is where Doctor Who is a cultural institution more so than anywhere else in the world, and seeing it prioritise the US is incredibly frustrating.

Moving to the specific fallout, there's the part of me that is upset on my own behalf, as my autistic self is really struggling with the notion that to watch the show ASAP I will now have to do so at midnight (on a Friday night too!). Since I was 9 in 2005, I have only twice gone to bed with a new episode unwatched. Occasionally that has been at stupid times in the early morning because I've been doing things for Saturday night, but generally I have watched the broadcast as much as possible, and often with other people as a community event. As a child it was always with my dad; as an adult it's often with friends!

Ultimately, though, I'll be fine. I'll watch by myself on iplayer at midnight because I am an adult who can make these choices, even if I'm sad that I probably won't get to have the viewing parties I had started to have with friends in recent years. (Though, who knows, we all have weird sleep schedules. Maybe midnight viewing parties are still on the cards.)

However, for all the kids out there I am so incredibly annoyed. I can't imagine if any of the iconic episodes from my childhood had aired the night before and I'd been unable to stay up for them. Blink? The Stolen Earth? Doomsday? I don't wish to overstate the matter, but I truly believe Doctor Who has remained such a cultural institution precisely because of its status as a family show. People are raised on it and then raise their kids on it and so on.

What are kids going to do now? Some might be allowed to stay up for the midnight release, though not many, especially for that double release which will end at like 1:30am. Others might watch it when they get up, but likely without the community aspect of the whole family sitting down for it. Still others might wait for the Saturday evening broadcast, having to dodge spoilers from other kids and adults as they go about whatever Saturday activities they have.

Regarding spoilers, I've seen some snarky comments saying 'just avoid social media lol', but firstly that's quite difficult in this day and age, and secondly it's not just social media. For one, there are all the tabloids that will plaster any new details across the front page, but also I can vividly remember talking about the brand new Doctor Who episodes at school, and how big an aspect that was of the community excitement. My teacher even did an impression of a weeping angel the week Blink aired, moving closer with a scary face when I looked away for a moment. Sure, there won't be school on a Saturday, but plenty of kids will be doing activities with other kids (dance classes, football, drama clubs etc.). What will happen when some kids have been allowed to watch the new episode and others haven't?

It may seem trivial to some, but I don't think it is. Where's the event aspect of it? Where's the community? Sure, I'm biased as an autistic Brit who grew up with the show and doesn't like change, but this new model seems designed to dilute both the excitement and importance of a new Doctor Who episode on a cultural level.

#doctor who #whew it feels good to finally type up all my thoughts and feelings #I've got over some of the initial autism 'oh no friday night midnight on iplayer arrghhhhh that's not how you watch doctor who' #but I'm still feeling a greater frustration with this decision and how much it will alter the culture around doctor who #which is not just contained to hardcore fans #but to more casual fans and most importantly families and kids across the whole country #mine #dw #dwmine #there's also how late I'll be able to stay online having thoughts and buzzing about New Episode #but again #my sleep schedule is fucked anyway so I'm not the one with the biggest problem

[ahollowgrave]

Hiiii do you have any more writings or musings about None? I was in your writing tag the other night and they came up a couple times but I'm not sure if I should be picturing a miqo'te or some sort of service animal/familiar lol

Hello! That's so fair, my Odette writings do not offer a lot of description for them! They do have their own tag [HERE] although not much is in it, currently. Some of the screenshots I'm including here and the writings which you've already seen! I'm very sorry for how rambling this is but None is where a lot of alts and relationships spawn from! None is neither a miqo'te nor a service animal (though I think they'd give a huff at the title)! None is the saddest creature in the whole world, a widower, Odette's favorite lil guy, Gerry's estranged step-parent, and a Lalafell:

A Lalafell ranger who makes their living guiding people through the Shroud. These days they are 'mostly' retired. They're well past their middle age and when they were younger they made a deal with sylphs. To be fleet-footed and quick and the best hunter. It came with some side effects:

They wear a hat to cover the ears. It's a bit silly to have two sets and, frankly, None doesn't wanna talk about it. They are stoic, pragmatic, and a bit of a hermit when they can afford it. None is a widower, their late wife was an duskwight woman named Aloutte, who was a widow herself with a young child; Geraldine. None and Gerry were never close and in the wake of Aloutte's passing that distant only grew. None and Odette met at the Menphina temple she was raised at. The Sisters there offer grief counseling and when Aloutte first fell sick she made them go to make the transition easier. A child at the time, Odette was obsessed from the moment they met. A pale shadow trailing after them. Where None failed with Gerry, they bonded with Odette. After Aloutte's passing None returned to the temple to live long term, some grievers need more support than others, they and Odette spent a lot of time together. They very much fill a uncle/aunt role for Odette; a trusted advisor who isn't the adults who raised her. When Odette took her vows and started to travel it was None who traveled with her, taught her basic outdoors skills, bought her Beauty and taught her how to care for chocobos. When Odette has to leave her flock of karakul to travel it is None she calls to care for them. Also, while Aloutte's loss and the grief that follows is very important to None as a character I feel it is important to note they were the saddest creature in the whole world before they knew the warmth of Aloutte's embrace! Sometimes you're just born with a heavy heart, you know? Because of how important they are to Odette. Odile... fucking hates their guts. Oooh, she hates their guts so much!!! The feeling is mutual and Odile and None have come to blows a few times. Something they both keep from Odette; None because they don't want to make her worry, Odile because she'll use the information to drive a wedge at some point. None also features in Odette's WoL AU, they're an honorary scion and spend most of their time with the other off-screen members. They spend time with Krile and Tatatru discussing lalafell things and I like to imagine that F'lhaminn and None have a lot to talk about. This is... pretty long so I will stop here! But I hope this satisfies some curiosity about None and thank you SO MUCH for asking about them!

#Answered #None #whooo boy this doesn't even touch on how #Iron's alt Lia is a former lover of Aloutte's and how Lia and None remain close to this day #and that Gerry is Lia's ward and one of her students #and that Gerry and Prudence have a toxic yuri onagain/off again relationship #and that Gerry is real envious of Odette because of Odette's relationship with both Lia and None (very different relationships mind) #and that Prudence and None get along just fine which also causes problems with Gerry and Prudence (Why isn't prudence on HER side) #(There are no sides) #(just two people lost in grief) #(but also gerry was the child (adult with Aloutte died and nearly an adult when None and Aloutte met and married but still) #but none was never going to be a parent and was never going to marry #but aloutte was a force of nature and you don't resist nature for long !!! #anyway hello I had a period of time where I was having people lie to me all the time (like about having cancer) and so I made #a bunch of alts to have my own complicated family dynamics so I didn't have to keep rewriting things when I learned people were awful #and then Iron and I went “Hey. We should entangled our characters stories so much.” and it's been very fun ever since LMAO #anyway woof sorry to keep rambling in the tags #but man now I'm starting to ship None/F'lhaminn......... #Also None was sort of a Prudence Rough Draft #isn't that insane??? #that's why they have such similar coloring LMAO #but now they're very different aside from being :| and good at their jobs #okay i'm done now #sorry you stumbled into asking about one of my favorite alts that I never play :weeps:

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[sysig]

Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)

#Doodles #I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really! #Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me #Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah #Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫ #Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft #I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!! #The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪ #Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year #There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written! #These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe #I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft #Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️💕💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol #As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol #Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫ #Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors #Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general #That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :( #So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3 #And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah #Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh #Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3

[tis-the-marmot]

Stuck in a very bad place both mentally and physically

When will things get better. will i get better

#broke down in tears right in front of my family because i just can't take this anymore #tried to explain that i feel like my brain works differently than the others but they just don't get it #i told them about my longtime suspicion that i might have adhd but obviously they don't even know what that is #but i mean.it's not like i expected them to #at least we all agreed that i should really talk about this with a therapist #kudos to my little sibling for backing me up in this awful situation i don't know what i would do without them #but man i wish i didn't need to do all of this. i wish i could be a functional person. i hate bringing so many problems to the table #and now i'm crying again great. why am i like this why does everything need to be so overwhelming

[born-to-lose]

I know the working conditions were kinda shitty and my colleagues and bosses didn't appreciate me enough but damn I miss the bar already 😭

#maybe it's my anxiety and the drama queen in me acting up more than necessary and they have other problems rn but #i already vented a lot to my family in the last 3 days but at some point i might just make something up so i can go back as a guest for gig #like idk lying about them inviting me to come back because they wanna see me and miss me or smth idkkk #sure there are other venues but this is like a second home at this point 💔💔 plus cheap and close up concerts with iconic bands #even if they don't get paid well or even at all but i can make up for that by buying their merch and inviting them for drinks #arenas are lame i can't meet the musicians and make out with them as easily 🙄 #i'm posting a poem about the bar later 💔 started it before i even thought about leaving but now it stings and feels nostalgic #hell i cried writing the goodbye message and seeing the lacking replies except for two colleagues' nice texts and my bosses' dry ones #i'm never working somewhere i loved as a customer again i swear it only ruins the experience if you know the behind the scenes #mel talks

[honeysunchild]

It really hurts when it feels like a friend you considered family gives up on you and the relationship

Like, we could have talked about it, we could have found a solution together, we were each others family remember?! But instead you chose to just give up and cut me out

#and in like #about five messages too! #that were pretty accusatory #like apologizing peofusely bc youre afraid that karma wikl fuck u up for hurting le #doesnt really make up for accusing me of what you did #there are so many more compassionate ways you could have said that! #I'm so so sorry but you suck and i can't take it anymore goodbye #WTF #is this the goodbye seven years of friendship is worth?? #we went through thick and thin #and yeah i have not been too well lately and i was pretty depressed two years ago #you asked me to share my problems with you and when i do i am too much and you drop me like hot metal instead of talking about it? #and that goodbye was so rushed it felt like i was chasing her just to get a little closure #you said you would always be there #even with our lives being so different I still believed it was possible #and you kept ignoring me! #i shared good stuff too and you didn't even respond! you said you were too busy and didn't make time for me #so when I stop sharing that good things happen to me too bc I'm frustrated with being ignored all the time you say I'm toxic for only #and drop me? instead of having a talk about it or taking a break? #like #i thought we were each others family but it seems like I was the more loyal one who cared the most and got burned yet again #is it so hard to talk and try to adjust? #i thought we were the real ones for each other yanno but clearly thing were different for you with all your toxic ass family and all your #jobs and friends #she's always had more than me #doesn't mean I'm alone tho #i have friend who can talk to me and try to adjust and fix the relationship and is a true loyal friend #it's not the end of my world that you're gone #even if you were a big part of it #how can I loose when I was so loyal and true and honest

[non-un-topo]

Went to a support group specifically for FTMs last night and had a good time. Surprised myself by tearing up. That's not a very cis sign, is it

#denial is an oppressive power #i know what i am lol. and still. #i've got a lot of internalized transphobia that i wasn't completely aware i had. not brave enough to air it out in the group #for fear of saying something 'bad'. everyone else seems to have it figured out already. most are on T. #i just don't want the group to sort of influence me in one direction. #< a ha. internalized transphobia. also i don't think i need their help in that department. i'm already mentally there. just blocking myself #a research project i'm doing atm is really bringing these feelings to the front. #how am i 26 and living far away from my parents and i'm STILL like 'i can't disappoint my mommy' #i know the answer. family baggage and high expectations etc. snore. #someone in the group kept telling me 'you don't have to go on T just because everyone else is doing it' and like........................... #idk if i found most of their thoughts to be very helpful. they just kind of liked to talk and were clearly struggling with insecurities. #but i had to fight that urge to be defensive. that is not how i feel and that is not what's even happening. #this person had a problem with putting words into people's mouths. don't do that in a support group lol #but other than that they were fine and everyone was super nice. it helped to talk to an older trans guy. #i'll say it again. if i wasn't fucking 5 foot 2 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bitacrytic]

Watching stay with me and we're in ep 19.

The boys are friends again.

They're talking to their parents again. The rich ones, I mean.

The secrets are out.

They're celebrating their eighteenth birthdays.

The Yu-Li snack bar is open.

Everything is fucking dandy.

SO WHY ON THIS GREEN FUCKING EARTH DO WE STILL HAVE FIVE MORE EPISODES LEFT!!!!!

What is all this rubbish? because the spoilers I have seen online have already happened. They've fought. They've gotten sick. They've been to the hospital. They've been beaten. So what? What is this show planning now? Should I stop here? Should I just close my eyes and claim that the show ended on a happy note? Because why is there more trouble? Why do we have so many episodes left? What is this?????

#stay with me bl #This was supposed to be my comfort show but I don't think so anymore #I'd assumed all this would have dragged till the last couple of episodes #but if it's been solved by now and the family is back together #then that means problems are coming from outside!!!!!!!!!! #I can't take this #the whole of last year I didn't complete a lot of shows because I wanted my happy endings #should I continue with that tradition now? #i'm enjoying the show too much to stop but I'm tempted to just plug my ears and close my eyes to everything that will happen from 20-24 #but then again #i could be missing out proper family fluff #and I know I haven't seen that classroom kiss #GOD HELP ME #what do I do? #do I risk it for the fluff or keep my sanity and walk away right now?

[murobrown]

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#hello i just found out my dad might be getting another divorce and he's not telling me :)))) #he might be already separated from his wife living back in my hometown with who knows who :)))))))) #so he left a woman who he has cheated with on my mom and basically destroyed whole family :)))))))))))))) #i don't have any reliable sources for this ans I can't ask him but it is eating me inside #and I had my suspicions since Christmas but I just thought they are having some tough period #so whenever I called him I tried to check of everything is okay and everything seemed okay #and I just hope they're still maybe just going through something but they will end up back together again #and i won't know because we don't talk about our problems in my family you need to be always happy #and god forbid you bother someone with your problems #i am sorry of this is too personal but it's making me freak out a little bit #i just can't stop thinking about it #and is it bad that I actually feel sad that I won't ever see his cats again if his wife keeps them? #ugh how the fuck can you divorce twice in your life????? #and does this mean that I also have some fucked up genes in me???? #i was kinda hoping he would come to visit me for my birthday because I don't want to be alone but I doubt it will happen now #i just miss him and i want that he's hapy #okay that's enough i just needed to get this out of me #have a wonderful day everyone I'm going to take a shower because I ran 5km today so at least that's something positive

[llycaons]

truly do find 'perfect' sweet little kids who exist to be cute and protected extremely boring to the point of aggravation but alluka DOESN'T fit that description because she's been neglected and isolated her whole life, she is soul-bonded with a horrifying (to many) and nearly omniscient being, she is endlessly sweet and loving to really only one person, and she STANDS UP TO that person when he hurts someone else she cares about!! she may not have a lot going on but her character and personality contrasts her situation so much to make it really striking. and I'm a sucker for close brother/sister relationships!! so sue me!!!

#not to harp on this again but I would argue despite having similar roles as children supporting the protags and acting as #characters whose very existence means important plot or character things regardless of their personalities #alluka IS better-written than a-yuan. there is genuine conflict there. she has her own loyalties and motivations #on a plot level she may exist to 1. solve a problem 2. separate killua from gon and 3. introduce DC magic #but it doesn't feel like she exists to simply fill a shallow shipping-adjacent role quite so blatantly #or maybe I'm biased against using kids as shipping fodder. #or reducing an entire murdered family to one kid who's only referred to as the son of two unrelated characters. and whose survival #is only of value bc it helps gets them together idk! #I also really dislike how 'good' kids are treated by the narrative. #etc. etc. anyway authority figures and her own parents and siblings hate and fear and disrespect and misunderstand alluka. #and they are wrong! fuck them! it's always felt like togashi's had the backs of the kids he writes #it's um. anti-authoritarian not rly in its themes but in its general approach I think? #hm. can't rly elaborate rn as im sleepy #but alluka's sweetness isn't grating or irritating it's a breath of fresh air in the nightmare that is her home life #and it's a precious and wonderful thing to see her so affectionate with a character we the audience love so much but who has struggled #for so long to leave his past behind and do be a normal kid #her love and her kindness isn't empty or meaningless it's the lifeblood that killua needs to #have a healthy relationship w his best friend #bc it lets him step back and have more than one important person in his life #and he sends that love right back to her!!!! killua isn't just someone starved for love he's starved TO love! #the unconditional love the rest of his familiy has long denied him....he and alluka and nanika all find it with each other #and it's the most beautiful and special thing in the entire series I think. or one of them #cor.txt

[futuretrain]

having kara zor-el thoughts today about her getting out of her ship, and she does not yet know what she is doing so years after she was supposed to. she is trying to focus not on what she's lost, but what she still has, and her first thought is "kal can't sleep without a lullaby, i need to find him and sing him to sleep, he must be so scared and alone" because she is scared, she is alone, she wants nothing more than for someone to sing her to sleep, but it will never happen again, and if she amounts to anything now that the future she was supposed to have is gone, she will do it for her little cousin, who will never even know krypton if not for her

but her cousin is not the little baby she used to babysit, he is a grown adult, older than kara is, and she wonders how the people who took care of him got him to sleep without knowing the kryptonian lullabies he was used to (how will she sleep now?), how quickly kal adapted to the lullabies of earth instead (did he forget the sound of his home entirely?), or who she would have to sing to sleep now that kal-el doesn't need her (who can she ever share with? will she forget, too?)

#yes i'm reposting this off my twt so what #anyway you can assume i am always internally screaming about kara zor-el. i have SO many thoughts about her #the fact that she was created as a joke and her creators (also as a joke) had clark put her in an orphanage- #is of course a moment of 'hehe haha look how ridiculous silver age comics were' #but it also unintentionally sets the mood for her entire character because the one person she knew leaving kryptop she could still have #is now forever lost to her and the version of him she meets is someone else. they are isolated from each other #there's of course a lot of exploration of clark's guilt and hope and disappointment and everything else about krypton #but i'm so much more interested in kara's. she left believing she had to keep her home alive on another planet and share it with others #and she arrives to a world completely different. she meets clark and loses her family all over again because he is her family but he isn't #and there have been attempts to explore this isolation but imo they always feel just so quick and kinda cheap #this is something that will always be a problem for them. this will always stand between them because they are essentially two foreigners #to e/o. but they are also family. and it's a sliding scale which side of the equation they fall to on any given day but it will persist #running circles around my room thinking about kara idk #superman #supergirl #supers #kara zor-el #ń txt