#and i dont want to be a burden

[thecatspasta]

Today I was talking to someone and Palestine came up and their response to it was 'Not my country, not my problem'

So let me just spell it out for you

It is your problem when you willfully ignore people telling you about Palestinians being slaughtered

It is your problem when you buy and support companies that are actively aiding in the genocide

It is your problem when you stand by, knowing full well that people are being killed in the thousands and deciding to let it happen

Do not stay quiet and be complacent in genocide. Do not ignore this, it is happening now. From river to sea, palestine will be free

#btw bc this is Tumblr and critical thinking isnt a thing on this site #this is directed at people who think not supporting genocide is a burden they dont want to shoulder #i am not saying supporting palestine is a problem #putting that there. idk if its obvious but eh there #gaza #palestine #free gaza #free palestine #global strike #from the river to the sea #global strike for palestine #global strike week #strike for palestine #gaza strip #gaza genocide #israel #important #current events #ethnic cleansing #gaza under attack

[ruporas]

lonely

[ID: A limited palette of green and pink, Vashwood comic. The first page serves as a prologue. The first panel shows Vash speaking to someone off screen while Wolfwood is lingering behind him. A black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the second panel, Vash is buying donuts in the distance while Wolfwood is once again in view, lingering. and the black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the third panel, Vash is leaving a cubicle and turning towards his right with a slightly peeved expression. He sees Wolfwood, leaning against the cubicle, waiting for him, and with the black arrow drawn, pointing at him, implicating the consistent hovering of Wolfwood’s presence during Vash’s everyday. At the bottom of the page, they’re drawn out of panel with Vash turning to Wolfwood and saying with an irritated expression, “You’re really following me everywhere, huh?” Wolfwood responds, “What, you got a problem?” Vash responds without hesitation, “Yeah, kinda...”

The second page starts with a new day. In the first panel, Vash is seen alone, weighing apples in his hands at a mart, with crowds passing behind him. In the second panel, he turns to his right and starts to say, “Hey, Wolfwood...” In the third panel, he’s startled from seeing a stranger, whom he’d accidentally called out to when he was expecting to see Wolfwood. He says, “Oh, you’re not him. Sorry!” In the fourth panel, the stranger walks off and Vash muses, “Right, he said he had something to do today...”

The third page begins with a close up of Vash's miffed expression, the continuation of Vash's thoughts, "Now that he's not here, this is just like how I used to be, but... It feels lonely somehow. Oh well, I'll see him again tonight, like always." In the second panel, it shows Vash walking through the marketplace crowd, alone. In the third panel, the door panel is a close up of the door opening with a peek of Vash's head. He says, "Wolfwood!" In the fourth panel, Vash is holding a bag of food with a bright smile and says, "Are you hungry? I got you something to eat today!"

The fourth page begins with a shot of the room, two beds being highlighted, one of them being made properly with the blanket draped over the bed and the other with the blanket folded and pillow sitting on top of it. There's no sign of Wolfwood. The second panel shows Vash with a disappointed look as he thinks, "He's still not here?" The third panel shows Vash putting the bag of food on the table. Stapled to the paper bag is the receipt with a written note "For Wolfwood." Vash's thoughts continue "He does like to stay out so, I guess there's no reason to worry..." The fourth panel shows Vash sitting his bed somberly with his thoughts continued, "It's not any of my business anyway..."

The fifth page starts with a close up his blank expression as he looks downwards, thinking, "Even if he left completely... That'd be understandable and better for him. I'll just travel alone again... like before... Huh?" The next panel shows Vash's composure break, tears welling up in his eyes suddenly, as he didn't expect to cry. He starts to sob, putting his hands to his face to quiet himself and wipe at his tears, as he says, "Ugh... Dammit... I miss h..." The last panel shows Vash leaning over into his hands, still crying, and in the back, the door swings wide open with a bam as Wolfwood walks through with the punisher swung behind him. He shouts, "SPIKEY! You in here?!"

The sixth page starts with Wolfwood confused, looking at Vash and Vash looks back, just as confused, with tears in his eyes and snot out of his nose. Wolfwood starts saying, "Ah? You..." No longer in panels, at the bottom of the page, Wolfwood takes the Punisher off of himself and starts to walk towards Vash, continuing with slight concern, "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?" Vash, hurriedly begins to wipe at his tears, denying immediately, "No! No, I'm fine! Nothing happened!"

The seventh page, Vash points towards the table, with a hand still wiping at his tears and he smiles as he says, "I uh got you food. On the table." Wolfwood looks towards to the table and responds, "Oh. I was getting hungry, thanks." He turns his head back to Vash immediately after with an uncertain expression, knowing the other wasn't responding to his concern, and says, "But, I know you're an idiot with this stuff, so I'm reminding you again. Don't brush it off if it's an issue, alright?"

The eight page, Vash's tears have dried and he looks to Wolfwood with a soft smile and responds, "Yeah. It's okay though..." A panel at the center shows a side view of Vash approaching Wolfwood. At the bottom of the page, with no panel, is a close up shot of Vash's hand, holding onto the edge of Wolfwood's jacket sleeve, as he says, "Because you're here now. Wolfwood."

The final page is a back shot of both of them standing next to each other, Wolfwood's head tilted slightly to the left, not fully believing Vash as he says, "That doesn't answer anything, Spikey." Vash responds, "There's no need to talk about it! You should enjoy your food. Let's have a drink too?" Wolfwood responds, "Tsk, tsk. Fine, yeah. I could use one." END ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #but onto this comic... i think and talk a LOT about vash's loneliness bc trigun is just. kind of central on that for a good while! esp in #the original manga he was alone for a good portion of it and he tends to keep others away like how he ran away from meryl and milly when #they tried to tag along. and he was kind of bothered when he realized ww was following him around Too. at the core even though he loves #humans and he loves deeply the people he does know -- he isnt really much of a people person and i think thats been the case since he was #young considering his initial doubts towards humans... with the exception of kids bc kids dont give him moral conflicts. so suddenly #here comes wolfwood!!! his guide. someone TRULY affixed to him until he has to get to knives. someone who isnt budging and someone whos #really good at following him around and even seems like he goes like 5 steps ahead to make sure vash doesnt run on him #in one way its - i don't want you to follow me bc i don't want to burden you and i don't want you to kill the people i want to save. #in another way its - i like this companionship. i like waking up to you and i like ending the way with you. i like talking to someone who #knows my world. i like being in your space and sometimes i enjoy talking about our day #theyre just living together. like. roadtrip buddies or theyre also under the same roof because they're going everywhere together. #trimax they mainly spend their mornings together and if they had personal business attend the other person would usually know and itd only #be during the midday. anyway bc of this kind of companionship i figure that vash eventually grew accustom to it and he really. cant go back #to the kind of loneliness from before. it's harder to imagine and it'd be harder to withstand. esp after 2 years with lina and her grandma. #ruporas art

[limesquares]

>Persons of interest involved in a recent security breach incident.

#lime art #my ocs #character reference #graphic design is.... my burden... #idk what im doing so if these look wack. dont worry about it #new pseudo ref sheets for my guys! cant believe the old one was TWO years ago... they've come so far... #and i wanted to do something fun/different with it! stats and notes are all based off PTC's knowledge and evaluation of each of them #oc: Ophelia #oc: Ouroboros #oc: Kaden #oc: Leslie #oc: Sigrid #yeah she's also here :) for fun!

[paper-mario-wiki]

Ortho-Fusor

REFERENCE MANUAL

Modern Visual Training

Bear in mind that these polaroids are from 1941, and are presented with as much clarity as I could muster with only my phone camera.

#image #wanted to get a full gallery of this #i figure it's interesting enough for its own full post :)) #history #archive #idk how to bait studious bitches. what tags do they like #come on girls i know u find this stuff cool. i do too. #we can kiss or something. #also: would be absolutely ecstatic if someone wanted to [id:] this. i dont know how to format those AND im high #i know thats a heavy burden considering how dense the information is #so no expectations of course

[stayjustone-morenight]

The God I know, who created asexual and aromantic people, who created polyamorous people and monogamous people, who created infinite diversity, is NOT a god who requires you to tie yourself to another person in order to have a stronger connection to Them. They are NOT a god who requires you to remain sealed to an abusive, neglectful, or narcissistic spouse in order to maintain a connection to the Divine.

Yes, marriage can be beautiful and wonderful and can teach people how to be better and grow closer to the Divine. But you can also learn that through friendships. Through community connections. Through family. Marriage for the sake of gaining access to the celestial kingdom (or for permission to have The Sex) is a recipe for failure. Connection to others, platonic or romantic, is what brings us into communication with the Divine. Stop limiting it to only heterosexual temple marriages (I would add monogamous but we all know the early church had different ideas about fidelity).

#ldsconf #that talk made me livid #im glad it validated some people #especially because he did bring up abuse and infidelity #but as someone who was in a mutually destructive relationship #sometimes the best thing to do is move on and try again #but i dont want to stay sealed to a guy that treated me like a burden for 7 years #just because our sealing apparently gives us special access to God

[irafuwas]

i don't know why, but in the sparse five hours of sleep i got last night, my brain decided to plague me with dreams of lilia taking care of an elderly silver, up until the final moments of his life. i could hear silver's thoughts the whole time, and he was so absolutely inundated with shame and guilt it almost seemed like he was suffocating. he kept thinking over and over and over again that this all should've been the other way around. he should've been the one looking after his father in the twilight of his life. he should've been his aging father's rock, his safe place to land, his stalwart defender against a world so unbelievably cruel to its most vulnerable denizens. again and again his heart cried out in vain, it should've been the other way around.

as a child he had once wished - prayed, even, to the same force now threatening to reclaim his spirit back into its unconscious designs - for his father to live a long and prosperous life, and it was as though that very wish had backfired on him in a way he never could have possibly imagined

#twst silver #lilia vanrouge #twst spoilers #twst #mumbles #txt #i hate it here #i litearlly woke up crying you gusy dont unerstand #he was so ashamed of himself but not once in my dream was lilia anything less than happy to take care of him #i feel like part of the reason lilia is trying to run away is because like so many of our elderly and our disabled #he didn't want his loved ones to worry about him and “waste” their time taking care of him #so he thought the best decision for everyone would be if he just went off to go die alone #i have no idea if twst would actually touch on something like that but i do think you could interepret his departure that way #anyways if any of you have caretakers or aides or just are disabled in anyway #i want you to know you are not and have never been and never will be a burden on anyone or anything #and that i love you so so much #im getting so emotional over a dream fkjgh but i want silver to understand that good parents dont have kids expecting that #their children will someday “pay them back” for everythinng they did for them growing up!! u don't owe ur parents jack shit!! #silver you just existing as you are is enough for your father!!!

[but-how-do-you-drive]

i *need* to stop automatically and quickly saying "it's okay" when someone apologizes or "i'm fine/okay" when someone asks what's wrong all because somehow i feel like i'd be burdening them if i responded with how i actually feel???? this needs to change

#i feel as if all my life ive just trained myself to be the smallest burden possible #like somehow i can help keep the peace if i dont voice my needs/wants/hurts and just keep them to myself #lord knows my childhood was mostly just trying to keep the peace #i am such a messed up person #and im realizing i dont know the half of how messed up i really am #pipe down carlee

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[archersartcorner]

A sketch from a few days ago, thought of cleaning it up and adding color but tbh I like the sketchy look of it? Anyway, Skippey n Zortchey, of the Runaway Alien Royalty Coalition lmao

#my art #described #dimension 20 #a starstruck odyssey #skip takamori #princeps zortch #god they have so much in common I wish we’d seen em interact more hwvdjsbssj #LITERALLY aliens 🤝 royalty 🤝 huge royal burden 🤝 DONT WANT IT 🤝 naive lil dudes 🤝 just wanna do their own stuff #when I think of like. norm & Skip post-canon stuff zortch & Skip are besties. out of Norman’s body Skip is either with norm or zortch #esp with zortch being psychic and able to communicate more easily with Skip due to that. but also because That’s His Frend #lil slug skip give zortch a Smoochey #zortch will sometimes just hide skip in their hat. norm comes in like ‘hey zortch have you seen skip?’ ‘…….. nooooooo :3’ and like. #norm knows LMAO but he can see they’re both havin fun so he just. ‘well okay if you see him let me know?’ ‘okaaaay I will hehe’ #meanwhile internally ‘SKIP WE FUCKIN GOT HIM’ ‘HE HAS NO IDEA HES GONNA BE SO SHOCKED LMAO’ #ANYWAY they r friends. maybe more even porhaps 🤔

[caleblandrybones]

wondering if maybe I should see my therapist twice a week I can't go on like this

#im afraid to ask i dont want to be a burden

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #oh yosuke youre not as smooth as you think you are <3 #are you really acting like it JUST occurred to you when youve always been so excited to plan gatherings and parties #for everyone #acting a lil bashful too when caught huh like OH SURE ILL PITCH IN #i know what you are #(a hypersensitive boy that thrives on the energy of his friends but also cares so much and wants everyone to be included and happy) #also i love that he brings up the Junes foodcourt like guys i dont think this was a throwaway line. #i think yosuke was being sensitive about the burden it might put on yu/nanako/dojima if they held a party at their house #he was sensitive enough to tell teddie off about bothering yu because yu was already managing all the housework #and when nanako was originally discharged for the holidays yu told him the doctor said she was still a little weak #so a party at their house wouldn't be a good idea #and hes taken that into account here!!! #ahhhh yosuke the best boy #he's good with his queue

[pansyfemme]

i think this time of year is cursed

#last year i got horribly sick and depressed #this year i had to flee my dorm and miss classes to keep myself safe from harassment until i could work out moving times #im so fucking angry i am fuming i am furious i want to scream #i did absolutly nothing to deserve this. this wasnt a mutual argument this wasn’t a bad roomate thing this was a person using the fact that #i am a traumatized trans person to intimidate and harass me and make me feel unwelcome in my housing #i feel sick with rage. #im well liked on campus im doing fantastic in all my classes i am doing everything i can #and one person decided he hated me and fucked up my entire semester #the good thing is i am never sleeping there again. i am not returning to that dorm until i am there to move out and i am greatful #but im just so upset about the whole thing. #everyone on campus agrees i did nothing. that i didnt cause this. but i still have to carry the burden of moving #he will be talked to and i dont think he will ever feel welcome on campus after this but i am so angry he thinks so little of me he thought #he could make my life hell and face no punishment for it.

[littlemaple]

im thankful for tumblr because i cant let my family and irl friends/acquaintances know how absolutely unhinged i actually am

#personal post by maple #its about käärijä #i just like him a lot #im that meme of marge simpson with the potato #i dont want to burden my fb ppl with pics of käärijä or what have you #theres also my old employers and coworkers on there 😰

[fishyfishyfishtimes]

I drew Ahti II and his never before seen, very best friend Karleeen (three e's is intentional) for Halloween! They're dressed as Aziraphale and Crowley from Good Omens :) Someone likened Ahti II to Azi once and given that he already had a dark-haired "best friend" who is part edgy animal... it was only natural to have this costume arrangement. Please don't spoil anything about the show though, I am only in the first few episodes of season 1!!

On another note, imagine having to buy pants with eight pant legs. The cost would be insane...

#i almost forgot to post! #self indulgent art post because ahti II and karleeen are my everything <3 #oh my god oh my god they-- you dont get it they-- #they------- #theyre besties and they met when ahti II was looking to be alone in the shoals of the coast and accidentally startled karleeen via jumping- #on a rock in all his fishy glory and theyre both a little bit socially awkward for different reasons and have a hard time being in large - #groups but together theyre so open and carefree and they like hiking and swimming and drawing and they go on little adventures together - #where they have picnics and ahti II loves to dump all his fish knowledge on karleeen and karleeen loves to listen when shes working on - #something and they have each others backs and would in fact fight someone if they insulted the other and karleeen makes ahti II laugh - #so much and he often feels very burdened by his responsibility and like he has to be perfect for the whole world and hes only really - #comfortable talking to karleeen about his woes and he also absolutely listens to karleeens troubles and helps her with her abandonment - #issues and and and---- #theyre in a funny sort of relationship where neither would be opposed to getting married and theyre a little bit in love but theyre happy - #to exist as best friends and just want to see where things go #ummm yeah! yippee !! ahti II lore! i dont talk about that often. thank you for reading! i appreciate that. #ahti II #my art #halloween

[the-patrex]

#the last of us #joel and ellie #joel miller #ellie williams #literally ill thinking about the lengths they will go for each other #not saying anything specific bc dont want to give spoilers but #*screaming in a pillow* #im not a gamerTM but my bff very much is #so I know the plot of both games bc of what he showed me and we talked about (a lot he is a big fan) #but MY MAN #as someone that is more up to speed with tv/movies SEEING them HOLY FUCK #AND BEING BURDENED W KNOWLEDGE #so yknow im still in my regular bs of being intoxicated w relationships that might... not bring the best of each other. but Ill stop ramblin #thats my art tag I guess

[good-beanswrites]

Added my Double drabble to Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins! I snuck it into chapter 2 so I figured I'd make a quick post with it here :)

“Hey, stop bumping me.”

“You’re bumping me – I can’t see!”

“Just scooch over.”

“My toes!”

Mikoto looked back at the group of prisoners huddled around him, packed tightly so that they could peer over his shoulder at the monitors. His hand paused from where it had been sweeping the stylus around, rearranging his latest creation.

“It’s not that exciting guys,” he laughed. “Let me at least show you some of the finished pieces, I’m sure this is boring…” 

Not that the other pictures were that exciting, either. He pulled up the other frames he’d been busy editing. There came a chorus of oohs and ahhs, but Mikoto knew it was just out of obligation. He flicked through a few of them as quickly as he could.

It was the type of art he loved to do (with some input from Red now and then) but it didn’t really suit any of the other prisoners’ tastes. He’d heard enough questions about his field to know it wasn’t all that impressive to most people. 

Sure enough, Kazui squinted at the screen. “You made all these?” he asked. “Like, you drew them?”

“Er…in a way. I drew some of the elements, and had to do some work to make the effects look right. And the color coordination takes time too.” He scratched the back of his head. “I know it doesn’t look like much…”

When he glanced over, though, Kazui’s expression was one of awe. “No, no, you’re very talented!”

Haruka’s finger tapped the screen. “Can you go back to that one?”

Mikoto clicked back to a photo of himself sitting on one of the train benches. It was meant to depict Red, made abundantly clear by the blood spatter, colored eyes, and savior label that had been placed with much deliberation. Blue had insisted on it, though Red only agreed with the addition of quotations. Their guilty verdict had been crushing for both of them (though not wholly unexpected), so it was important to show all sides of them, now.

Although it had been one of his favorites when working on it, he suddenly wondered if his personal flair had gotten out of hand. It was hardly distinguishable as the original shot, with too many textures and additions obscuring everything.

Fuuta whistled. “Man, that looks sick. You should have done my video…”

“Mine too!” Mahiru said. “I love the bright colors you’re using in all of these. And the paper and ink just looks so crafty!”

Kotoko leaned in to get a better look. “I really like the focus on the eyes here.” 

“O-oh, thanks!” He could feel his chin lift at the commentary. “I got the idea a bit ago… it’s kind of a running thing now? I drew some of them here –” he scrolled though a few frames. “And a scribble over the face here to keep the theme going. Little ones here, a string of them like this. Heh, I drew about a thousand different eye designs to get any actually liked. Then I have these big ones, see? I’m debating on including a blue version, too, but maybe I’m going overboard. I think Jackalope might have a heart attack, seeing all this crap.” 

“He’ll get over it.” Yuno answered his joking smile with a genuine one. “I’m so glad you’re having fun with these. It’s all very… you.”

Mikoto’s gaze fell onto the last frame he’d pulled up: another messy one of Red filled with pink and blue, with the text save you repeated nearby.

“It’s both of us.”

#milgram #mikoto kayano #and technically everyones there too but they dont say much individually #using my headcanoned names of Blue and Red like in chapter 1 (in the hopes i can introduce Green in t3 🤞🤞🤞) #i tried really hard to sneak in a john reference but since this happens months before and es is the one to come up the name it didnt work #i just wanted to show mikoto finally using his art as an outlet rather than it being a career burden like double showed ;-; #and i need them to interact!!!! and look out for each other !!! #bare minimum be aware of each other!!! 😭 #im so crushed that bokukoto is still in the dark after all this #RIP deep cover delay btw -_- im so glad the animation team is taking the time they need though #fanfic #lights camera sing your sins