#and actually seemed to care abt me

[ralvezfanatic]

getting reminded of my ex bsf is so nice like wow im gonna go kms now ! /nsrs

#vent in tags #and rant idk #I MISS HIM #HE WAS SO NICE #I LOVED HIM #WHY AM I SO STUPID #i dont think an apology is gonna fix me cursing him out #but in my defense #i had good reasons to drop him #like many good reasons #but also #he was like #the only one who got me #and actually seemed to care abt me

[ladystoneboobs]

such a shame that edmure hasn't yet gotten to meet the only member of his family truly proud of his great victory of the stone mill. so proud she even believed he could destroy tywin on an open battlefield too! ofc if she knew robb/catelyn/brynden blackfish's opinion on all that, she'd no doubt be influenced by her mother's and big brother's thoughts of the uncle she hadn't met before, but it's not like either is in any position to tell her now. maybe that's the one silver lining of the rw, if/when edmure and arya there's nothing to stop her congratulating him on his defeat of tywin lannister.

#valyrianscrolls #asoiaf #arya stark #edmure tully #happy tully tuesday! #it annoys me when people say arya feels no connection to the tully side of her family #she spent an entire book trying to get to riverrun! and cared abt what she heard of both robb and edmure in harrenhal #ofc after the rw she only wants to find family she actually knows instead of maternal family she'd never met #who'd have no reason to recognize and claim her w/o robb/cat's say-so #ofc she's concerned with not having stark kin to find when it seems that whole side of the family-the side she knew best-had been destroyed #when she thinks of there being no other starks shes not even counting jonny snow and we know how much she loves him #(c)lsb

[beatcroc]

there's no way the bathroom at peppino's pizza is actually that big but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . hey ummm anyway.... i care them...... anyway there's a lil ramble on my take on fake pep's like psyche or whatever in tags on the og post if ur into that kinda thing :y

hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino]<- u are here [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]

#ramble after realtags yeag. shoutout to serrangelic btw suggesting the silhouettes thing bc i would have Died otherwise #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #gustavo and brick #arting #pizzaposting #so anyway i think fake peppino has like. a general awareness that he is supposed to Be Peppino and that he was Made to do that #and likewise he does generally try to...do that. the thing he does NOT realize is hes like really goddamn bad at it #not to be mean but like...c'mon. they are pretty distinctly different kinds of guys even beyond the physiology yknow. #he's neither on-brand nor fooling anyone dsjdsjjkgfsd. BUT! #since the rest of the cast generally likes him [at least as I play it] he thinks hes doing just fine #he's like 'oh they r happy with me so i must be getting a good grade in being peppino :)' #so getting told that 'yeah you actually really suck at that but that was never the reason people liked you' #and told that by og model peppino no less--yknow THE guy he's supposed to be living up to #who's already a bit intimidating for that and who ALSO totally wrecked him TWICE in the tower #making him acutely familiar with just how formidable the guy is and how much there IS to live up to.... #it's a Moment for sure. not really a sad or hurt one though. just... contemplative. #thinking abt people liking him for being the guy he's already naturally been being even though that guy is Not Peppino #i don't think he's gonna be super broken up about realizing he has a bad grade in peppino given everything else hes got now #nor do i really think he cares enough to go like reinvent himself or whatever after the fact #he seems to b pretty clearly having fun with it already so i think he just keeps doing that #and in some cases he still has the pre-installed peppino traits/instincts like to cooka da pizza. and that's fine #is this projection. yes. but if youve been following me awhile you know most of my character writing is ghdhfdgf #gonna kinda expand on all this in the gerome one which is...one after next. itll be a bit but man. #anyway peppino will never admit to anyone and especially not himself that he's gotten a little attached to the guy. hee hoo #pep tends to be kinda surly but he certainly has his ways of showing he cares. all of which are on display here #''that thing is not my son'' says man currently watching thing's antics with the 'bemused dad' arms crossed pose. yeah ok buddy. #gus is totally onto him already but hes not gonna say anything. #if u read all this ur prize is not having to go decode fp's rot13. his lines are ''meant to be you...?'' and ''wrong question.''

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[eff-plays]

Really kinda bullshit that you need to play a specific origin in order to see an entirely different yet deeply vital part of Astarion's character and romance.

Like I don't wanna play the edgelord edition of BG3 just to see that Astarion is able to be selfless and caring toward his partner.

Uuuuugh.

#never playing durge cuz it just puts me off #and i like being in control over all of my OC's backstory #so it sucks that regular tav just ends up as astarion's keeper and caretaker instead of his equal #like he barely cares abt them in comparison to durge it seems? #bleh #bg3 #unfortunately hiraeth's backstory is like way cooler and interesting than durge so like ... i can't let it go :( #also i remember someone tagging one of my text posts as durge x astarion cuz i had something abt them mirroring each other #and like ... no i did that on my own actually. they're not a durge i just made up the mirroring in my head cuz i'm cool and imaginative #also if you play durge i'm not calling YOU an edgelord #but that the durge story is deeply edgy in a sort of uninteresting way to me

[nyxi-pixie]

on a more srs note asagiri making fyodors pitfall not understanding emotional motivation properly is very dear to me in this era of loser men idolising being a super genius who equates optimal logic to the total disregard of emotion

like at evry point dazai one upped him its just cos he can work with people and understands emotional connection better (knowing tachihara had more loyalty to the pm than to the hunting dogs [or at least to their ideals] for example and being able to put every inch of his trust in chuuya saving his ass for the 58284892nd time while fyodor is busy assuming they have a shallow bond😭).

#LONG LIVE THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP #and homosexuality #although not for fyolai. rip to them ig #anyway smt smt men running around pretending emotion is illogical and thus ironically making illogical arguments and fyodors mistakes all #being examples of that is just so RAAAAH #also dazai 'im so emotionless and apathetic' osamu actually being the most emotionally motivated loser and thus understanding it better #anyway idk if any of this makes sense but ive been thinking abr it for a while #how dazais only way of beating him is that he cares abt people and fyodor just doesnt #also that he can always trust his op bf to come save him while fyodors op bf is busy deciding whether or not he actually wants him dead #😭😭😭😭 #putting half of my post in the tags for the 4829999294925th time dont mind me #soukoku #bsd episode 61 #anyway asagiri seems v much to be a character first plot second kinda guy. and i love that sm. #like sometimes the plot is just like ??? but the CHARACTERS. the characters always make sense #i love then all dearly even when theyre unkillable cockroaches #bsd

[jrueships]

the monthly apathy is back, rlly sorry if i said smthing to u and then u say smthing back and i don't respond for like a thousand years only to spam u after it passes and then u respond bcs ure awesome and i go on an unspoken vow of silence for yet another thousand years and the cycle just continues

#hard to will myself to just brush my teeth #it's so fucking annoying having these highs and lows and never a middleground bcs it's like #which one is actually me?? #i feel like none of them are really #when im feeling high energy i act extra confident and funny showman #but as soon as i stop i just feel huge regret and embarrassment over it #but im also so lifeless and feel like i can only say a lot if it's abt smthing negative bcs i can feel more deeply when im low #but it's only abt dark intense stuff #and when im in my highs i just dont have the attention span to care abt deep anything #it's like im either soaring in the sky or drowning in the sea #im never just On Land #like i cant just enjoy Earth #it's so fucking aggravating #' i would love to have high energy highs tho bcs i would be able to get sooo much done' #yea. it seems like a lot. until u realize it's literally just flighty-ass attempts at catching up on being a half human #trying to do all the stupid shit u somehow found aggravating difficult to even think abt doing during 1 of ur lows #like . why am i having to try and make a mental note to myself on... responding to. compliments. #when im in a higher energy mood #like. why cant i just #ARGGHEHHHHHHHRHRHHRHRRRR #anyways yea srry abt all the asks piling up and then me asking for more anyways and all the texts on read

[spinninglightning]

whenever i read fics i always end up thinkin of a song for the fic or like, th chapter and then i canr stop associating the fic w/ those songs

#i listen to sm fckn music tht all the songs end up bein wildly diff too #ong i cld make playlists for multi ch fics #*stares at electric rebels* #actually u know what #i will #here r some songs: #our song by matchbox twenty is (early ch) electric rebels treemina coded #butterfly by bts (song is abt the fear of losing a person and in electric rebels this is very much true #everyone has the fear of not only losing their lives but losing their family(+found) as well #time is very much sacred n stuff like that) #humming by turnover (thr lyrics “with you ill make it out alive” sold me on this one) #viva la vida by coldplay specifically for the capital students because of how disillusioned theyve become due to the games #and forming relationships w/ their tribute #really good examples are vipsania and hilarius #rhythm of love by plain white t's makes me think of all the good moments treech n lamina have had despite their circumstances #(its also just a them song in general) #young volcanoes by fall out boy for the tributes!!! it seems light a more lighthearted victory song almost? #a “we will persevere” thing but more full of complete happiness #think abt the scene of teslee mizzen n treech running down the hill in jubilation (obvs before shit went down) #would that i by hozier just makes me think of when treech first met lamina up in the tree #which witch by florence + the machine is definitely for vipsania just before & after the bombing (aspen too but to a lesser degree almost) #“whos a heretic now” “im miles away hes on my mind” yeahhhh #love grows (where my rosemary goes) by edison lighthouse is jst a rlly good treemina song #rousseau by nerina pallot is a good fpr one of the main questions in the fic “are we really born free?” #(no. theyre not they have to work for that freedom. rousseaus main theory specifically the idea of it works really well for this fic #and the hunger games in general) #the promise by when in rome seems to work especially for treech and how he interacts with the others #he always seems to make promises - that theyll live - that he wont leave - that hell take care of the living for the deceased #this ended up sm longer than intended i reached the TAG LIMIT #basil.txt

[welcometoteyvat]

arlecchino's official title is "father" when house of hearth members refer to her ......... please just one chance please please

#GOD. me when slightly more masc women #idk i really hope they keep that just bc it would be so nice to have some more canonical gender fuckery as little as it is #i hope they write her well because MAN she's been so interesting so far #. kind to kids; who also end up becoming essentially child soldiers; 'has her own agenda' according to childe.. #thinking back to my own post abt her and house of hearth: seems like she really does care abt the kids in her org (or acts like it well eno #enough . but ahskdjksfjl she could ofc be another person who knows how bargaining and equivalent exchange works. like. save your life for #a debt. win loyalty via small favors that are actually nice things and things she doesn't mind doing etc #think how bai.zhu operates but a lot more ethically questionable #please please let her be a well rounded evil. her design is already so cool (minus the long rat tail ponytail thing :\) #chewing on her and her motivations and backstory for enrichment #genshin spoilers #4.0 spoilers #fontaine spoilers #arlecchino #i hope! they make her self aware enough to know she's doing evil. or not evil but not morally great things . and i sure hope they don't #write it off as 'this for that. food/shelter for doing 'jobs' for me' when the job is literally . murder and spying and all sorts of other #stuff. or ig she can justify it like that but IDK all im asking is that she doesn't get the shogun treatment #teyvat thoughts #ramblings!

[qualityrain]

dude theres something abt firefly wedding. marry ur hired killer so u dont die and the love interest is a crazy yandere but also theyre trying to make it work???? before sakoto confesses that shes been playing along and cannot marry shinpei he was like lets talk because youve been off lately is it because of me i dont want to do something that makes you sad because im bad at reading peoples and my own feelings. like even before this its like sakoto going excessive violence is bad! and the whole would shinpei treat anybody that accepts him the same way he says hes in love with sakoto. that perhaps his love for her is not different from loving a child or an animal. what is love anyway (baby dont hurt me- )

#the way its shinpei who wants to talk and communicate when all he knows is like killing??? ok👍 im fine and normal #the way its like the marriage is less abt actual marriage and more abt i want you to relyand care about me i want you to love me #which is what sakoto wants too #from the staft chap 1 its like oh sakoto wants to be married to somebody she loves and loves her in return #like like. Im normal. #twitter wasnt kidding they invented love in 2023 #yeah shinpeis a crazy yandere and its unhealthy or whatever but they’re trying!!!! #and its taking me out #my favourite part abt firedlt weddinf is fr just them talking #i think they have such good chemistry #that shinpei is very intense and sakoto balances him out #but she also has the capacity to be intense too #like it seems that when shinpei is doing crazy yandere things or being rlly intense sakoto is the calm one? or much less intense #and when like chap 12 when sakoto is crying and shes feeling intense feelings shinpei is the calm one #i say calm as in “calm” yk because he fr was just trying to look as indifferent as possible the harder she started crying #idk. idk. firefly wedding fr is somethinf. #firefly wedding #claude txt

[cashmere-caveman]

Christian Wiman, Darkness Starts | S1E6, Bad Moon Rising | S2E8, All God‘s Children | Ian Strange, Suburban Intervention | S1E6, Bad Moon Rising | S1E3, Ghost Town | Christina Marie Brown, Ghost I

#being human #annie sawyer #would u believe me if i said i actually meant to finish my 'monsters embody the possibility of failing' mitchell post and instead made this #if it seems incomplete thats bc i only used sceenshots i already had instead of rewatching and taking new ones where fitting bc im lazy #but god i love when being human leans into the whole gothic ~u are the house and the house is u~ storyelling angle #one day i'll make my annie post (this is the annie house post) and then it'll be even more appropriate but !!! #the house as horror !!!! the home as the place of violence instead of the shelter from it !!! #also annie not letting go of the house bc it was the last place she was a real person !!! #the house not letting go of her bc it stores and remembers everything she herself is incapable of remembering !!! #she is the house but also her own person but also that place is so intrinsically hers that to the others it IS her #(to some extend at least) #also owen not taking care of the house as he didnt take care of annie. #but also any and all parallels between mitchells later sometimes v agressive behaviour and owens abuse #the bristol house tainted by annies death and the welsh house tainted by the bt20.... #wheres that one poem thats like if u were raised in a house w an angry man there will alwas be an angry man inside your house #and even if there isnt u invite him in #sickening. anyway these tags have deviated so extremely fucking far from the post sorry lads insomnia makes me ramble #once again i present u: me thinking abt a show that went on air fifteen years ago as if it had finished yesterday. enjoy #being human uk #cavetext #triothesis #caveweb

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

i wish there was a space for actual adults within this fandom. i guess i will have to create it, even if it's just me and other five people and a shoelace. i wonder how this whole thing is gonna develop!

#personal #the entire internet but also this fandom specifically is infested with ppl whose reading comprehension is lower than a 6th grader's #can't a gal enjoy a middle-aged actress without being pestered by toddlers with pitchforks #and i know i'm the pettiest bitch but i am ANNOYED esp when i see how old these ppl are. if you're over 25 you have no excuse daskjfhg #like i have cut my audience in half at least! if not more with this fic #but i'm happy bc i'm producing content i wanna produce #i wonder how my new fics are gonna be received #after i finish “particular” i have another thing coming up that ppl probs won't like lol #but i think it's important i post it #and then we have murder mysteries and gothic horror and wooooo you know #it's gonna be fun! and a bit disturbing! #wonder if imma be dragged on twitter again lol #but i sincerely hope no one will care lol #honestly i never expected ppl to care THAT much but i guess they did #it also annoys me that a concerningly small amount seems to care abt the actual quality of writing #and i'm over here agonising about Stylistic Choices(TM) lol #i feel like it flies over ppl's heads and they just wanna read abt larissa weems fucking them with a shapeshifted dick #which okay i guess but also what abt Literature #you could do smth creative with a shapeshifting character just saying. and include your magic cocks or whatever tf you're into #ah i am fuming in vain i will just write my lil fics and hope i don't get a new influx of kys messages lol

[m-kyunie]

elegance.

#dgm #D.Gray-Man #Alma Karma #cw blood #my head is filled w thoughts of Alma as a bride in a huge kitsch 80s dress #okay maybe not 80s more 60s/70s. thinking of my moms dress actually so #lots of lace long gloves puffy sleeves swooping neckline muah smtg guady #UGH or Princess Diana's oh exactly like that #just think about how past!Alma wldve thought abt potentially getting married and starting a family 'after the war' #Her covering Her face as an Akuma saying 'don't look at me' lives in my head forever. her excorcist uni #is quite tradtional and seems unpractical for battle but its def feminine to the MAX #so just. idk how to explain it but the body dysphoria i guess #Alma wanting tofit that echo of pretty but being all wrong for it. hair too dark to unruly adams apple sharp angular broad all wrong #wanting to be soft and slim and pretty pretty pretty.hiding it under layers of clothes and lace and accessories... #or being basicly the same height as Kanda and lamenting over it like nonono this is all wrong #tearing at their hair and picking the skin and scratching and ripping the dress and breathing awful #'not pretty not a woman will never be Her for //Him// never be enough' mentality #evevn tho Kanda literally does not fucking care about any of that like it doesnt even cross his mind hello hes trans duh they all r #idk i interpret them both as slightly diff like Alma seems much more in-tune w Her on an unconscious level its very emotional = turmulious/ #VS Kanda who is very mentally inflicted its very physical and obsessive/conious thought near impossible to ignore ie the lotus n Her vision #so they act diff bc the influence of their Other is different. idk what im trying to say anymore actually. lmk if that makes sense T-T #ALL THAT JUST TO SAY I WANTED TO DRAW ALMA IN A WEDDING DRESS LMFAO IM SORRY IM CRAZY

[girlwithfish]

i changed my discord username to ikickedaboy and idk why aries guy took it so seriously sometimes he confused me. lolol cuz we were on call once nd he noticed my username and he was like did u kick a boy. like obviously its a reference to smth ???? IDK LOL

#just remembered this bc im listening to i kicked a boy rn #big ick fr #and yeah ive kicked my abusive ex b4 that he didnt gaf about 😭 #and hed joke abt my abuse too ngl sometimes like.... not in a rly bad way but now when i think how it felt he literally was not on my side #at all and hadn o empathy for me and didnt seem to understand that abuse is Bad its like y r u joking saying my ex beat me xyz etc like #LOL #but u dont actually care. idk its weird

[biillys]

'max finally gets the older brother she deserves' 'max is finally free from that asshole' 'max finally gets the family she needs' u are missing the point okay they never got a chance to fully address and work through their shared trauma and fucked up childhoods they never got a chance to properly improve things and understand where each other were coming from they never got a chance to exist without neil hargrove standing over them and controlling them there was never a fucking chance for them oh my god shut up shut up shut uppppp

#steve this eddie that ughhhhhhh i am!!!!!! literally!!!! ughhhghhghghhhh #also u could say that they started to heal #like after that night at the byers - things seemed to be improving on maxs end #max in s3 seemed to genuinely care about what was happening to billy #billys side of things is a little more unclear due to the fact that his s3 non-possessed arc was. not max related. #which. do not get me started. but! #think his perspective in s2 was pretty clear cos like - he cared! #'whyre you so upset? he causing you trouble?' #okay that could be selfish reasons of not wanting to deal with max drama if shit was actually happening #but like. idk. always got the impression he cared in the only way he rly could being an teenage older step brother in that Situation #whatever! the point of this post is that if i see another post abt how eddie or steve can finally be the family she deserves i might scream #m #text

[lethiepie]

huh

just realized something I wish I didnt 💀💀🫠🫠

#part of me #for sOME reason. #wishes rwby has ended already #*heavy sigh* #idk. #its just. it cANT end NOW. but i think im just so tired when the topic comes to rwby #and this genuinely makes me upset cause rwby used to mean the world to me. and now its just “meh” #and I thought that this might just be me idk not getting my hopes up for a v10 cause.. ya know rt closing etc. but. #everytime there's news.. i just. cant seem to hype or care. not even now that the news supposedly means that v10 IS actually coming #idk all i do is feel sad and confused and apathetic towards it #ramble/vent ? ugh. i just dont want to talk abt it with anyone directly so ye here we are