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bewitchedme-body-and-soul · 1 year

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logan relationship alphabet

warnings: not edited, canon typical violence, cursing, mentions of nsfw subjects, mentions of breeding, mentions of scent kink, if there’s more feel free to let me know

due to 18+ themes minors please do not interact

a/n: ty to @humanalien01 for dealing with my rambles about him and helping me make decisions

A = Arguments(How often do you two argue? Who apologizes first? How do they make up? etc)

not very often do the two of you fight, but when you do, it’s definitely bad. He can be very stubborn and headstrong and a royal pain in the ass.

he apologizes first usually he can’t handle knowing you’re mad at him

he’d probably bring you a gift, something you love but not very expensive to make it up to you

B = Bedtime Routine(Do they prefer to be the big spoon or little spoon? Favourite sleeping position? etc)

he feels like he’s either a big spoon or you’re laying on top of him (pretty boy has anxiety so you’re like a weighted blanket for him), but definitely skin on skin contact in some way

C = Cook(Do they cook? Can they cook? What type of food do they like to cook for their partner?)

he’s not a great cook but he’s not the worst, don’t expect really fancy dishes, but he will make you breakfast often, typically eggs and bacon or sausage

D = DIY(Do they like to make gifts for their partner? Are they good at general DIY around the house? Do they enjoy doing it? )

he absolutely does, definitely the type to carve you little wooden figures & nicknacks. he’ll ask kitty or rouge for help if he thinks it needs painting but he tries his best to do it all by himself. he’s big on “it’s the thought that counts”

E = Effort(How much effort do they put into their relationship?)

he puts as much effort as he can muster, he’s so thankful for you and doesn’t want to do anything to make you hate him

F = First Date(Where do you go on your first date? How does it go etc?)

i see him as being someone who wants to spend the first date getting to know you, he probably also asks one of the female xmen (most likely rouge) on ideas especially more modern ideas, most likely sets up a picnic & sets up pillows and blankets in the back of his pick-up

G = Gifts(What kind of gifts do they gift their partner? What kind of gifts do they receive? etc)

probably gifts you simple but meaningful things, eventually he gifts you his dog tags

he’d love anything and everything you’d gift him, he’s so in love with you, you could gift him a rock that you thought was pretty and he be grateful

H = Honeymoon(Where do they go on Honeymoon? Details on the honeymoon etc.)

if you don’t have a dream do it, he’d most likely suggest a cabin in the canadian mountains with no-one around to bother the two of you, he just wants to spend time with you and bask in your presence

I = Intimacy(What do like they like? Where do they like to be intimate? Are they experienced etc?)

he’s over 200 years old, he definitely has experience. but intimacy is still hard for him, it takes time but he loves the slow and quiet moments with you, where it’s just the two of you cuddled up

J = Jealously(How jealous are they? How often do they get jealous? How they react? etc)

usually no, but sometimes he will, but it will take a lot to get him there but once he does he’ll pull you close and stare the other person down until they leave. it’s worse if they were making you uncomfortable, then he’d throw hands

K = Kink(Do they have any particular kinks?)

he definitely has a breeding kink, but he’s scared to actually get you pregnant because he doesn’t believe he’d be a good father

it’s canon and widely known that he has a strong sense of smell, there for he probably has at least a small scent kink, he loves the way you smell and especially when you smell like him so he makes a point for you to always smell like him

L = Long Distance(How do they cope with Long Distance? How they prefer to keep in contact? etc)

he’d hate it but if it was necessary he’d suffer through it. he’d be sure to text, call, and face-time as often as possible and ask about your day, he’d want to hear every detail

M = Marriage(Do they want to get married? Their wedding etc.)

he didn’t want to get married for a long time, until he met you and then shortly there after he changed his mind, and couldn’t wait to marry you

his wedding would be at the manor, charles would be officiant, if you’re alright with it i can see him asking other x-men to be in the wedding as well. like hank as his best man, rouge as the flower girl, & kurt as ring barer. he’d probably also want to invite his students, after-all the x-men and the rest of those at the institute are his family

N = Night’s Out(Where do they take their partner on nights out? How often do nights out happen?)

probably takes you to bars or restaurants, and occasionally accompanied by a movie

as often as he can swing, he believes you should treat your partner to dates as often as possible, because you shouldn’t stop wooing them just because you are in a relationship

O = Often(How often do you see each other? How many times a week? etc)

he makes a point to see you as often as he can, multiple times a week, if you’re an x men or teach at the school he’d ask for you both to share a room (if you were okay with it as well obviously)

if you weren’t an x-men or teacher, he would probably leave and see you after classes unless he had a mission, then he’d give you a call and tell you how much he loved you, just in case he couldn’t come back to you

P = Public Displays of Affection(Do they like PDA? Do they have boundaries etc.)

he’s okay with pda but he’s not one that he’ll full on make out with you in public, he’ll hold your hand, have his arm around your shoulders or waist, and give you kisses, but that’s about the extent of the pda.

Q = Quiet(Why do they get quiet? How does their partner solve it?)

he gets quiet when he gets in his head, which is usually after nightmares, or someone made a comment about how he’s undeserving of you.

some simple reassurance & snuggles solves this, tell him how much you love him, and how safe you feel around him.

R = Reunion(How they like to reunite with their partner?)

he’ll hold you tight and press a kiss to the crown of your head when he first sees you, he’ll then shove his face in your neck and inhale deeply. as i said before he loves your scent and while he was away he found himself missing it

S = Surprise(Do they like surprises? What kind of surprises do they like to get etc?)

he hates surprises..usually, he hates the waiting, now that being said he’s okay if they’re from you, because he trusts you with his entire mind, body and soul

if you text him or tell him you have a surprise for him, it’s an almost guarantee that he’ll make a dirty joke about it, he’d probably ask what color the lingerie set was that you’re gonna wear (good luck walking tomorrow if that actually was the surprise)

T = Texts(How often do they text? How do they react when they receive texts from their partner?)

he is absolutely god awful at texting. except with you. he’ll leave almost everyone on ‘read’ or ‘delivered’ never you though, he always responds as fast as he can. so when you hear everyone complain about him never answering you can’t help but giggle because you don’t have to deal with that

U = Unity(How well do they work with their partner? Do they make a good team?)

i feel like you’d work well, he’d be sure to always check in and protect you

V = Vacation(Favourite vacation spot to take their partner?)

again, canadian mountains, this man’s ideal vacation is just the two of you, away from everyone and everything unbothered

W = When(At what point do they move into together? What kind of place? etc)

if you’re a teacher at the institute or x-men & live in the mansion, i can see it being a few months in maybe like 6

if you aren’t either of those, it maybe closer to a year, it’ll probably start out with an apartment but eventually he wants to get a cabin for the two of you (and any kids you may have)

X = X-ray(What is their favourite body part on their partner?)

i definitely think he’s an ass/thighs man, but also a tummy kinda guy, he loves being able to grab you

Y = you(A random headcanon about your relationship.)

he’s so gentle with you for someone labeled as an “animal” and a “killing machine”

Z =Zoom(Zoom into the future, what does your future look like?)

the two of you, in a cabin somewhere in the woods (most likely canadian mountains), unbothered, he’s mostly retired from x-men duties (he’d still go on missions if they needed him contrary to what he says), occasionally someone from the team will visit, maybe some animals and a garden (he wants to go into town as little as possible).

maybe even a few kids if that’s what you wanted, as many as you wanted, and if they eventually showed signs of developing mutations he’ll be sure to assure them that there’s nothing wrong with them no matter what anyone may say. hell teach them to control their power, and if it’s too much for just him he’ll ask xavier for help. he’d also be sure too teach them that they should use their gifts to help people & never cause unnecessary harm

#they have bewitched me #wolverine x reader #wolverine imagine #wolverine x you #wolverine x y/n #wolverine fanfiction #xmen imagine #x men fanfiction #xmen x reader #xmen x you #logan howlett x reader #logan howlett imagine #logan howlett x you

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celestial-depths · 3 months

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Poor Things and Born Sexy Yesterday

(spoilers for Poor Things)

I stumbled on a discussion on whether Bella Baxter from the movie Poor Things (2023) is a representation of the Born Sexy Yesterday trope coined by video essayist Pop Culture Detective, who defines it as a mostly fantasy and sci-fi adjacent trope of a regular human man falling in love with a beautiful, otherworldly woman who, through some plot quirk or another, has no knowledge of social norms and no sexual or romantic past. Even though he is brutally average, he is able to win her love simply because he is the first (human) man she connects with and thus everything that's basic about him is impressive to her. Some examples of the trope given by Pop Culture Detective in his video essay are Leeloo from Fifth Element (the physically grown yet mentally child-like alien creature who falls in love with a taxi driver in a wifebeater) and Madison from Splash (a clothes-aversive mermaid who thinks that Tom Hanks is the most enchanting man in the world). I love Pop Culture Detective's work, and the Born Sexy Yesterday video essay was a cultural reset in my personal history. I saw the video when it premiered six years ago, but it has never fully left my mind, so of course I immediately thought of it when I saw Poor Things a couple of weeks ago. The movie certainly touches on the same themes that the Born Sexy Yesterday is made of. However, I think that the movie is an intentional subversion and a satire of the trope rather than a sincere execution of it.

The main character of the movie Bella Baxter starts out as a grotesquely literal version of the trope, as she is literally a newborn in the shape of a conventionally attractive woman who is being actively shielded from the influence of the outside world. She has the brain of a baby salvaged from the fresh corpse of a deceased pregnant woman, planted inside the skull of the reanimated body of the aforementioned woman as an experiment done by the unorthodox doctor Godwin Baxter. He keeps her locked inside his house and controls every aspect of her life, so when he invites the young doctor Max McCandles to join his research, McCandles is served what is essentially the perfect Born Sexy Yesterday experience: an exclusive access to a beautiful and naive young woman who is in a prime position of being groomed into whatever her keepers wish her to become.

Or so they would think.

A sincere Born Sexy Yesterday would be fully fascinated by this power dynamic and probably leave her here to be romanced by McCandles for the rest of the film. The audience would be expected to assume McCandles's perspective and indulge in the fantasy of falling in love with the untainted woman who has neither the life experience nor the critical thinking skills needed to question him.

But, fortunately, the movie doesn't remain here. After the first act, the movie switches its point of view from McCandles to Bella and starts putting her experiences to the forefront. She starts developing interests that absolutely do not align with the wants and needs of the men around her, and she begins to learn things that clash with the essence of the Born Sexy Yesterday trope. Soon, she has grown into a headstrong, independent, sexually experienced, intellectually curious woman who had zero interest in entertaining the whims of men and who intends to live fully for herself and herself alone: an absolute antithesis of the clueless and subservient blank slate the trope would require her to be. My reading of the film is that it's an intentional satire and an autopsy of the BSY trope and the gender politics that gave birth to it. It criticizes the men who entertain fantasies like it by making them look like absolute losers, urging us to ponder on what the hell is wrong with these creeps who see nothing wrong with drooling over a woman who is mentally a toddler instead of their intellectual equal.

The movie also reads as a critique of how women are socialized into a patriarchy. Godwin treats Bella just like a possession of his. Her body and her life are completely under his control from the moment she is "born" (another act in which neither Bella nor the woman she was born from had any say in), which isn't dissimilar to how a lot of fathers view their daughters. He wishes to keep her under constant supervision until the end of her life, until she protests and gets him to change his mind. When he asks McCandles to marry her, the two men treat the proposed marriage as a contract between the two of them rather than as a contract between McCandles and Bella herself. Again, this isn't too different to what marriage between men and women has meant throughout history.

McCandles is romantically interested in Bella even though he is fully aware of the fact that she is mentally a child. He seems to be looking forward to starting a sexual relationship with her after they are wed, as if the seal of marriage would make the intellectual disparity between them any less iffy. This bears resemblance to the way men in the real world prey on young girls with little to no sexual experience and whose brains are not fully developed because they're easier to control than grown women. I don't think that McCandles's hypocrisy is lost on the film. He agrees to marry Bella almost in the same breath as expressing his desire to keep her safe from other men, as if his desire to bed a person who is intellectually at the level of a five-year-old was any better than theirs.

When Bella chooses to leave Godwin's house to explore the world, the two men immediately replace her with a new experiment, showing that they were never truly interested in her as a person. They wanted the eternal baby, the thing that they can cage and control, and not the person who can think and learn and disagree with them. This exemplifies how disposable women are when they no longer serve their limited purpose in a patriarchy, and how replaceable people are when they are primarily viewed as bodies to be used. (Sidenote: I do think that Godwin and McCandles eventually learn to appreciate Bella for the person she is and that they both grow to be better people by the end of the film, but I still attest that these two are total creeps at least by this point of the movie.)

And then there's the supreme loser of the movie: the sleazy lawyer Wedderburn, who slithers into Bella's life and convinces her to run away with him. He is the darkest example of the kind of person who is drawn to inexperienced women like the ones represented in BSY movies - a predator who finds pleasure in the prospect of getting to corrupt and consume an innocent. He intends to take advantage of Bella and abandon her once he's gotten his fill only to find himself choking on his prey, who turns out not to be the malleable, naive creature he thought her to be.

This is the point where I think the movie goes from simply critiquing the BSY trope and everything it represents to successfully subverting it. The characters who embody the BSY trope don't really evolve. The movies they appear in are not really interested in their inner worlds and individual experiences beyond whatever serves the interests of the male protagonists. These characters are projections of male fantasies, so there really isn't a way for them to exist without centering men. This is not the case with Bella, who quickly grows into her own woman who is only tangentially interested in the men around her.

The bright side of Bella's condition is that she isn't just unaware of the ways of the world, but that she's also unaffected by the years of patriarchal conditioning that most normal women are burdened with. She literally has no shame, no internalized misogyny, no history of crushing blows to her sense of self-worth, and no looming knowledge of societal norms society. She has skipped the part in life where she is constantly bombarded with demands to make herself smaller and more palatable, to hate herself, to think of her body and the way it finds pleasure as something disgusting and abnormal, to treat other women as competition, and to think of herself as so much less important than men that she must pursue their validation beyond all else. Because of this blessed defect, she is free in a very rare way.

Wedderburn absolutely cannot handle that. When Bella first gets to know him, he paints a flattering picture of himself as a proud social deviant who gleefully eschews the rules of polite society. However, when faced with the actually deviant Bella, who flatly refuses to obey and center him, Wedderburn is revealed to be a phony. He is not a genuine libertine. He does not want to live in a truly free world with a free spirit like Bella, because he is a pathetic, insecure little man who only likes women in scenarios where the power balance is stacked against them. In my opinion, this is a direct shot fired at the BSY trope and its average enjoyers: if your ideal woman is someone who is many steps behind you in terms of mental capacity and experience, you are quite pitiful and would not stand a chance in an equal playing field.

It's hilarious how Wedderburn loses his mind when Bella starts exhibiting the kind of behavior he himself has proudly displayed earlier in the film: having multiple sexual partners, keeping sex and feelings separate, not falling in love with him or treating him like he's special, dropping him once she's had enough of him, and generally living life in an unconventional way. Again, the movie is pointing out the hypocrisy in men who fetishize inexperienced women while bragging about their own sexual conquests.

The part in the movie where Bella becomes a sex worker delivers the final blow to whatever is left of the BSY trope in her story, because the trope relies on sexual exclusivity and the fetishization of virginity. By having many partners and gaining lots of sexual experience out of her own free will, Bella stops fitting the ideal of the untouched woman who can be deflowered and exclusively possessed by the male protagonist. Also, through the conversations between Bella and the other sex workers, the movie finds another way to address the politics behind certain men's sexual fantasies of women - such as pointing out that some men enjoy sex with women more the less the women themselves enjoy it. It's a stray observation that the movie doesn't get deep into, but it has its place in the tapestry of the general theme of what desire reveals about people.

Finally, there's Alfie, who gives Bella (and us) an idea of the kind of life Bella's "mother" lived - as well as the kind of life Bella herself might be living had she grown up the normal way. It seems hellish. She'd be living under the tyranny of her awful husband, under a constant threat of violence, under absolute bodily control. Alfie wants to impregnate her against her will and to mutilate her genitals to deprive her of pleasure, and there's nothing that she could do about it because he is her husband and thus legally allowed to lord over her. She sees a terrifying glimpse of the role even privileged women like her have in this world: objects who exist solely for the pleasure of the men who own them. I would venture to say that the same description lies in the underbelly of the BSY trope.

I am happy that the movie doesn't take its sweet time to revel in the horror of this part of the story like so many other movies that address the oppression of women do. Instead, Bella stays with Alfie just enough time to say a hard and a well-informed no to his bullshit before getting on her merry way.

I think Poor Things is such a great example of taking a trope and exploring its implications in a way that goes beyond just pointing it out or parodying it by simply repeating it.

#poor things #yorgos lanthimos #bella baxter #emma stone #born sexy yesterday #pop culture #tropes #feminism #gender politics #movies #cinema #film #film studies

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deafeninggardenerpanda · 6 months

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Could you please tell us more about Leon and Carol's characterizations in the Light Novels that you know of? I'm super curious about their personalities since we don't get a ton to work off of in the Forgotten Land game itself! :)

OMG YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MY BELOVEDS!!!!! okay so the only one with those two in it ive read myself is the samurai novel ofc, and even then ive only read half of that one, but i do know what happens in the fl novels. tho i wont recount too much from that due to the said, i havent properly read them thing. slight spoilers for samurai novel btw so ill stick this ramble under a cut

disclaimer first of all that since the samurai novel is an au, their personalities could be a bit different from the fl novels (dedede and mk are Veryy different for example), but for the most part i think they act just about exactly how youd expect them to!

leon is exceptionally kind and cares a lot about the rest of the beast pack, to the point of being overprotective at times. when elfilin brings back kirby and bandee to their home saying theyre friends leon just gives them an intense look and acts cold to them, not seeming to trust them. when dedede comes over later and accuses elfilin of being a criminal he gets absolutely FURIOUS, but calms down and apologizes after seeing that hes scaring dedede a little by doing so. he acts how youd expect a leader to too, with an aura of dignity and firm but understanding communications with the rest of the pack, and hes able to put aside his own feelings on things for the greater good.

carol in comparison bounces off of him really well i feel. shes more headstrong and emotionally driven and will huff and puff a little over leon's decisions if she doesnt necessarily agree with them, though she relents to those decisions in the end once leon explains his reasoning. but if its not leon making those decisions she doesnt agree with, watch out. just like the game, she takes position of leader when leons not around and when dedede+meta told her she couldnt go off to forgo dreams to save him she got outright aggressive LOL. shes pretty sharp minded and usually the first to speak her mind. also she shittalked dedede i just wanted to bring that up. we love a mean girl

again im only halfway through, but the beast pack as a whole play a surprisingly big role in the samurai novel. i rlly look forward to seeing more of them >:]]]

#leongar #clawroline #asks #jojo-schmo #THANK YOU FOR THE ASK JOJOOOO #i love rambling about these two hrhgkdjfh #leon and carol my absolute beloveds #the novels have really made me appreciate them so much more

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voloslobotomyservice · 16 days

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thank you @necroticyuzu for the tag! 💫 and thank you everyone who participated in my poll! I love talking about my little Tavs and I can’t stop making them so I’m always down to be tagged in these sorta things!

no pressure tags: @beesht @grandmother-goblin @auspex-author (yk I’m always down for Shior lore)

Name: Saoirse Nic’Phaid

Gender: female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: mostly straight (but she’s working on defining it)

OTHER

Family: A complicated conversation. Older human father who’s unable to work, younger wood elf mother who abandons the family often, and an older brother Arthur who was tragically murdered five years before the events of BG3 took place.

Birthplace: Lower City of Baldur’s Gate.

Job: Criminal, I suppose? She doesn’t really have a traditional job. Instead, she’s spent most of her life stealing and then selling items to make a living. It even brought in more money than Arthur was making when he was alive and working.

Phobia: Thalassaphobia. She never learned how to swim.

Guilty Pleasure: Hooking up with problematic men. They oh-so-bad but oh-so-good in bed. Her own ex-boyfriend was a member of the Zhentarim, after all.

MORALS

Alignment: Neutral Evil - rather selfish in her actions, yet will help others who are similar her.

Sins: Theft. Lots of it. Jealousy, coveting what others may have knowing she could never have it. Will usually say whatever pops in her head without thinking it through first, which gets her in trouble. Can be very self-centered in different situations (ex. she refused to take poison from Nettie at the Grove after she didn’t help the party cure their tadpole)

Virtues: Loyal to those she loves, almost to a fault. When able to, very much a “steal from the rich to give to the poor” type. Believes honesty is the best policy (unless your life is at risk, then lying to save yourself is acceptable). Family is also very important to her, especially her father, and she tried to make sure he had well over a years worth of gold before going on the run.

THIS OR THAT

Introvert/Extrovert/Ambivert - Likes to be social but also enjoys time to herself. Tries to keep a healthy balance of both.

Organized/Disorganized - in some aspects of her life, at least. When it comes to her money, she’s very organized.

Close Minded/Open Minded - No defining reason. She just is.

Calm/Anxious/Restless - Being on the run for a crime she may (or may not) have committed, she is constantly looking over her shoulder to make sure she and her companions are safe (but mostly her).

Disagreeable/Agreeable - That is, if you see eye to eye with her.

Cautious/Reckless/In Between - After the loss of her brother, she was very reckless in her crimes and overall behavior, but she has calmed down a bit. She will still do risky things for the fun of it, though.

Patient/Impatient/In Between - Do not test her.

Outspoken/Reserved - Almost too outspoken for her own good.

Leader/Follower/Flexible - Because she’s very headstrong, she easily fell into the leader position of the party.

Empathetic/Unemphathetic - To those that are like her: who’ve struggled, who understand how hard life can be. Won’t listen to the sob story of some upper class elitist.

Optimistic/Pessimistic/Realist

Traditional/Modern/In Between

Hardworking/Lazy - But hardworking in the way that she’s taking from others… yeah I don’t like to think about the logistics of it too much.

RELATIONSHIPS

OTP: Don’t hate me. But. Saoirse is absolutely crushing on Aradin, despite how much of an ass he is. She thinks she can fix him. Maybe she can.

Other Ships: Hooks up with Rugan after rescuing him from the gnolls, which leads to an interesting throuple dynamic when they’re all in Baldur’s Gate.

BroTP: Surprisingly, she and Lae’zel get along swimmingly. Maybe it’s because they have similar personalities. She and Astarion also gossip about the drama between their camp companions, as well as tease each other over their romantic pursuits. Also apparently she and Shadowheart get along very well!

NoTP: Gale annoys her, but she also sees him as a powerful ally and a good companion. Thoroughly rejects any of his advances.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 tav #tav tag #oc: saoirse #tav: saoirse #ranger tav #does she fix Aradin?#did she m*rder her ex boyfriend?#only time will tell

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shegxox · 1 year

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all too well. | KAY/O , Sova

kay/o's memories feel as fresh as though they only happened yesterday.

cw: a little bit of angst, a little graphic? not proofread

wc: hello long wtf why did i write this??

a.n: the effect of listening to all too well 10-minute version for hours straight. amma try to mimic how memory works on this one e.e– we all know that kay/o is from another timeline right? and we know about the radiant war right? right, okay. this one's long too bc of some lore so uh, enjoy!

previous : next

YOU walked through the doors of battle with him, headstrong with a brave heart that never stopped beating even until the end. Your prowess was something to be marvelled at especially in your radiance.

The short blue scarf tied on your bicep– the symbol of your allegiance to the people, yet a sign of treachery to your fellow radiants. Gaining the title of hope and traitor at the same time.

The only radiant fighting alongside humans.

"I am programmed to kill you, don't give me a reason to comply," KAY/O warned menacingly as he towered over your form, though you stood unwavering and even flashed him a gentle smile.

"It's nice to meet you, KAY/O. I hope we get along well."

If the robot could frown, he absolutely would be right now.

A radiant fighting alongside with humanity?

Now that's something KAY/O thought would be one of the most impossible scenarios to happen, and yet, here you are.

He and Brimstone even had an argument prior to your introduction. He just couldn't understand why his partner– his best friend, would trust someone like you– a radiant, to fight alongside them.

Could you believe it? A radiant? Literally the enemy?

To his dismay, he had no choice but to trust in his friend's judgement. To KAY/O, you were a ticking time bomb that could go off any moment and betray them as well. You betrayed your own kind, who's to say you wouldn't do the same thing to them? Just the littlest wrong move from you, KAY/O will gladly wipe you off from existence.

"KAY/O, I'm not doing anything shady," The robot flinched from his hiding spot behind a wall.

"Yes, I can see you from the glass window."

He lets out a grunt, standing up from his crouched position, only noticing the window in front of you at that moment.

You turned to him with a small smile, "Come, I'll show you what it says."

"Did your little radiant friends finally contact you." He stated, not as a question. He was hoping this was finally it. "Ready to betray us next?"

He watched as your eyebrows lightly scrunched together as your hand gripped the paper you were holding tight. Purple hyacinths sprouting on your head.

You forced out a weak laugh, "Not today, I'm afraid. Just come."

KAY/O thought for a moment before finally approaching you, noting how your smile widened as he came to your direction.

You quickly showed him the letter's contents.

"This is. . ."

You grinned, "Yeah, I know."

KAY/O took the letter from your hand, reading the words over.

"From the soldiers. . ?"

"They're thank you letters." You chirp, glancing at him and then back to the papers.

Indeed they were, and this was the moment KAY/O had to replay some events at the back of his mind. The people that you had saved and healed, their gratitude was written on these papers.

He then recalled a time when you worked tirelessly overnight just to get all the troops recovered from their injuries, healing them all back to normal in just one night.

Without your help at that time, their troops would've been easily outnumbered by Reyna's force the next day.

"It's a small and sweet gesture but," KAY/O turned to look at your smiling face, though you seem happy because of your expression, even he could tell that you held something else in your eyes.

"It's nice to feel appreciated."

After that encounter, KAY/O lowered his guard around you by around 50%. He realized that he's been too fixated on you being a radiant that he didn't acknowledge how useful and important you were in the battlefield. And though it was hard to admit at first, it is fortunate to have you on their side.

"KAY/O, behind you!"

He hears your voice from a distance and as he turns whilst dealing with the enemy in front of him, the enemy radiant behind his back raised their knife in an attempt to stab him.

Before they could, a thick vine sprouted from the ground, piercing the radiant through and through to their side before dropping the body on the ground. KAY/O pushed the initial enemy's limp body away from him before turning in your direction, your eyes glowing green with your left arm outstretched in his way.

He was about to utter his thanks when he spotted a radiant creeping behind you, their abilities about ti activate . Without skipping a beat, KAY/O threw his knife in your direction,

"Get down!"

Doing as you were told, you ducked and the knife came flying through the radiant's head. Looking over your shoulder, the enemy dropped dead as your area gets suppressed along you with it. The green glow of your eyes fading.

"Thanks!"

There were a lot of times when you could've betrayed them during battle. But you never did it. Even when confronted face to face by the Empress herself, you stood your ground and never faltered.

"What a shame," Reyna feigns a sigh. "You really did side with these insects."

KAY/O took an unfortunate hit from Reyna, and is currently on the floor, body glowing red.

He needed a reset.

You tried to remain calm, KAY/O was just infront of you, you just needed to contain Reyna to reach him.

"You may be right, they are insects." You breathed heavily. "But you're destroying the Earth. You're destroying me."

Reyna lets out a cruel laugh, "To build an empire you must start from scratch! This will be a paradise when this is over."

The empress stretched out her hand, palms open.

"I will give you one last chance." She announced, her eyes shining a bright hue of purple– full of fury, full of power. "Rule with me, Gaia."

"No thanks," You answered firmly. "Your side doesn't have a talking toaster."

With that, you punched the ground– sending waves of the earth in her direction. She used her radiance to quickly move out of the way and you took this chance to raise a high wall of earth.

Throwing yourself to KAY/O's side you quickly did his manual reset. You can already hear the enemy gunning down your wall from the other side.

"Come on, come on, come on!" You chanted as the wall started to crack. Finally, KAY/O rebooted

"Oh thank– Ah!"

Before you could even breathe in relief, you found yourself hauled up over the robot's shoulder.

"What the hell!" You shrieked. "Put me down!"

"Negative. We're going to retreat." KAY/O was getting the fuck out of that place. He just knows that there's a number of radiants on the other side of that wall.

"Yeah I know but please put me down!" You pleaded as your partner continued running, your fist repeatedly banging on his back. "I'm gonna throw up!"

"Swallow it."

"YOU STUPID TOASTER–!"

KAY/O finally trusts you. He genuinely found your abilities fascinating and whenever there's a rare time of free time, he would find himself around you.

"For you to create a creature, you must know it's anatomical structure and genetic code?" KAY/O questioned and you smiled.

"That's right."

"And you could create a new genetic code as well?"

"Yup."

"Huh, interesting." KAY/O held the small plump plant-like creature in front of him. "And that's how this creature came to be."

"Yeah," You patted the creature's leafy head. "I just got this design of him from a video game called Kenshin."

KAY/O instantly went on a search.

"An RPG video game that came out more than one hundre years ago."

You chuckled, "Yeah, it's practically an ancient game at this point."

He was supposed to be deactivated for the day but he found himself coming to your tent. Today's fight took a toll on you, and he couldn't understand why he wanted to see you.

From the beginning, you already knew you would be killing your own kind, so what's the problem now?

"Gaia." His tone was soft as he parted the tent to the side, taking a look inside your quarters. He found you sitting on the edge of your bed, turning to him with a tear-stained face and red eyes.

He felt something inside him. Seeing you like that, there was a feeling deep within his system and he couldn't figure out why or what it was.

"KAY/O. . ." Your voice was weak. "What are you doing here?"

". . . I came to check on you."

You sniffed, wiping your cheeks. "You didn't have to."

Standing up from your bed, you approached him, "I'm sorry, I don't want to see anyone right no–"

You suddenly felt a cool metal hand on your left cheek, making you pause your words.

"This is the first time you didn't greet me with a smile."

You gave him a puzzled look, "What–"

"It's alright." He cuts off again. "You don't have to smile all the time. You can cry, I'll be here for you."

KAY/O felt as though he was possessed by something, it was out of his character to say something like that and yet, those words naturally sounded out from him.

He stayed by your side as you cried, holding onto his arm. He doesn't know any other way to comfort you but he thought that this would suffice. When you eventually cried yourself to sleep, he positioned you gently back to bed before taking a sit on a nearby chair by your bedside.

KAY/O stayed with you all night.

"What happened, how is she??" KAY/O bursted through the tent of the medical ward, hurriedly searching for you.

Brimstone and Sova were the first he saw before finding you laying unconscious on the white bed.

He turned to his two colleagues, "Report."

"We don't know what happened." Brimstone sighed. "We were with her at that time and she covered me from above. But the next thing I know she came falling down and writhing in pain."

Sova stepped in and spoke as well, "We retreated eventually and took her here, but she's suddenly going through some changes."

KAY/O gave Sova a look, "What changes?"

Sova went silent, he and Brim sharing a look before stepping aside and motioning his hand towards your unconscious body. He took a closer look.

Your hands turned completely black up until your wrist. The dark color traced the veins on your arms as well, crawling up to your elbow.

"Mercy please," you huffed. "I can't take it any longer."

"Get up." KAY/O demanded strictly.

"No."

"I will not repeat myself."

"Then don't." You deadpanned, faceplanted on the ground.

The robot sighed. "It's only been 30 minutes. Get up now, Gaia."

You shot him a teasing look, "I thought you said you wouldn't repeat yoursel–"

The killer robot had enough of your delays, he simply picked you up from the ground like you were just a sack of potatoes and hauled you over his shoulder.

"Ah shit, not again." You whined. "Please put me down, I swear I won't run away."

"Ha, good joke." KAY/O continued his way to the training area.

"Please, my arm feels like jelly. Why can't I just use my radiance." You complained. "My aim sucks!"

"Exactly." Finally putting you down, you slowly turned around to see your new friends that you wanted nothing more than to blow them all up.

Aimbots.

"You gotta stop relying too much on your power." KAY/O scolded.

"I hate you so much." You murmured, frowning like an upset child.

KAY/O handed you a Vandal, "Then pretend the bots are me."

For once, KAY/O wanted to be what he really was. A robot. Devoid of emotions, no special connections nor attachments to anyone. Only focusing on duty, and duty alone.

His body felt heavy, with each step he took it felt as though he was walking in quicksand. He wanted to sink into the earth right then and there.

There was a stinging ache in his core, Brimstone's dog tag hung together with his own around his neck. His dear friend lying motionless on his arms.

KAY/O could hear the soft winds whirling as he trudged through the wasteland of a battlefield. And as if the universe hadn't had enough of his misery, just across his path was Sova, and he wasn't alone.

His grip on Brimstone went tight, nearly stumbling on his track before stopping.

'Please.' He thought. 'For once, let me be wrong.'

As Sova neared him, the man's eyes were dull and jaw clenched tight, his lips quivering ever so slightly as he tried to keep a straight face.

His colleague held his head down, shifting his arms slightly.

KAY/O looked at you in Sova's arms. You looked like you were just sleeping peacefully with a small smile on your face.

"I'm sorry. . ." Sova's voice cracked, forcing out his words. Droplets of tears hit your pale face as Sova's knees finally gave out. Kneeling on the cold hard ground, he still held your lifeless frame close.

KAY/O's pain turned into agony as he kneeled as well, setting his best friend's body carefully on the ground. He gazed at Sova mournfully.

He was one of the strongest soldiers he knows, and not once did he ever falter with emotion, but seeing him now– holding you desperately close to his build as he let his heart out for once. Tears ran down his cheeks whilst softly murmuring your name along the words,

"I'm sorry."

- - -

KAY/O finally snapped back to reality, his head flinching slightly as you reached out your hand.

"It's nice to meet you, KAY/O. I hope we get along well."

And there you were again with that same radiant smile that you always wore, the blue scarf around your neck, and the wind gently blowing your hair.

He remembers it all too well.

You glanced at Brimstone as the robot in front of you just stared dead straight at you, not knowing what to do. You were beginning to feel awkward with your hand stuck out in the open.

You thought of retracting your hand slowly. Figuring he might not be a handshake type of person, but before you could, you felt a heavy hand on your head.

"It's nice to see you again, Gaia."

Your eyes widened slightly.

'Again?' You thought as Forget me nots' strangely started to bloom on your head.

'What does that mean?'

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my-my-my · 1 year

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What about Majima's dream girl?

Looks wise and personality wise?

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Ohh Majima... a man wrapped up in such complexity!

There are light spoilers for Yakuza 4-5.

Looks wise, it's hard to say. Both Makoto and Mirei are short-haired women, but you could say Makoto was styled after Mirei (since Y0 came after Y5), but who's to say!

I also think he doesn't care about how you dress. This guy used to coordinate Hostess' outfits as a living back in the day!

He has a great eye for what looks good, but that's because it was his job to know what looked good (remember in y0, where he would judge a hostess' outfit and determine what kind of crowd the club associated with?). I honestly don't think he would give a rat's ass about how you dressed unless it was his job to care lol.

Personality-wise... that's another story.

I think he likes headstrong women, women who don't necessarily need him to "save the day". He does like being a protector, but the nature of being one of the top positions in the Yakuza mean his partner would also need to be street smart and savvy to protect themselves when he's not there (like his "disappearance" in Y5-7).

Patience, absolute patience with him. Majima does not talk about his feelings EVER. It would be like pulling teeth. I'd like to say he improves the longer you're with him, but this is where his dream partner would need to be patient with him. He went through a lot of trauma, lost many people close to him - he would not be forthright with his own emotions.

Understanding: Majima experienced so many traumatic events in his life, and understandably - he doesn't navigate or handle them in the most healthiest of ways. Not to say you need to excuse his behaviour when he's absolutely shitty, but the sorts of things he experienced, can be isolating. Having partner that understands, and gives him space, would be important to him, I think.

Honesty: Majima hates liars, passive aggressive people and bullshitters. He essentially grew up with all sorts of assholes, and at the end of the day, he can't stand it. The last thing he needs is a partner who lies to him.

Sense of humour: Majima likes his pranks, quips and snarky remarks, but I noticed that when he's with Saejima, Majima is the one laughing. I think he relaxes the most when people can make him laugh, rather than the other way around. Maybe his partner is a bit silly/goofy, and he finds it endearing. He doesn't have to "entertain" them, like he does with the Tojo Clan.

They would absolutely need to get along with Saejima/Kiryu/Nishida. I think those 3 are some of the most important people in his life (sorry Daigo lol). If you have a problem with the Yakuza life, especially in relation to when Saejima/Daigo and Majima were sent to prison, or in hiding during Y7, then it's a doomed relationship.

But that being said, Majima wouldn't hold it against you - he knows the Yakuza life is a lonely one. His dream partner would accept these sides of him and work with him as he grows into old age and out of the complexities, and often times hideous life, of the Yakuza.

Thanks for your ask anon! Hope this suffices.

#majima goro #yakuza #goro majima #majima x reader #rgg writing

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For the very first time - Chapter 6

[or 5 times the Cap Quartet slept with each other and 1 time they slept all together]

AN: Here we are folks, the smutty finale. A lot of the focus is on Bucky with Sam as they haven't featured together previously, but don't worry, Nat and Steve are still part of the action. Thank you all for coming on this horny journey with me. This chapter is set in an alternate time line where Bucky was de-programmed, got together with Steve and hung out with the other two all the time. Catch up on Chapter 5 here.

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Chapter Summary: A teasing conversation about who’s had sex with who sends Steve into horny mode, and Bucky wouldn’t be the boyfriend he is if he didn’t indulge him. Obviously the fact that Bucky has the hots for both Nat and Sam as well has nothing to do with it.

Chapter Relationships: Steve x Bucky (established) Steve x Nat, Bucky x Sam, Bucky x Sam x Nat, Bucky x Sam x Nat x Steve

Chapter Word count: 3.4k

CW: Teasing, flirting, mild angst, Bucky Barnes recovering, Steve Rogers is a horndog, Group Sex, Vaginal Sex, Oral Sex (M receiving), Cream Pie, Anal fingering, Anal Sex, Masturbation (M and F), Top Bucky, Bottom Sam, Implied Vers Steve, Implied Vers Bucky, Implied face sitting, Mild D/S between Bucky and Steve.

Steve, Sam, Nat and Bucky - 2017

“So,” Sam drawled out and Bucky rolled his eyes, knowing that his new friend was going to give him some shit. “You were the first one out of us to sleep with Steve and the first one to sleep with Nat. I’m feeling a little left out.” Sam grinned around his bottle of beer, tipping it up to take a long drag and Bucky absolutely did not notice the errant drop that evaded Sam’s lips, rolled down his chin, down his throat to disappear under the open collar of his shirt.

It had taken two years for Steve and his friends to track Bucky down. It didn’t go terribly smoothly, and Bucky had ended up in Wakanda for six months having his brain poked and prodded by the princess of the technologically advanced African Nation, but was so far, so good in the ‘being stable’ department. Now Bucky was back state-side, still working through his trauma, but starting to enjoy life again, now he was free from HYDRA’s programming. Lots of days were still hard - nights as well - but he had his Stevie by his side and two new close friends in the form of Nat and Sam.

He’d remembered Nat, of course. Shuri’s treatment had brought back all of his memories, for better and worse, so he’d easily recalled the young woman he’d had a connection with all those years ago. As the memories had resurfaced he’d felt like an absolute creep, but when he’d tried to apologise to Nat, she’d just shrugged it off.

“You didn’t make me do anything, James. I’d have fought you if I’d wanted to, even if it would have led to my death. I chose to go with you and do what we did. I didn’t have a lot of control over many aspects of my life, but I could at least choose that.” He was glad that Nat didn’t hold anything against him. Out of the three of them, she understood what he’d gone through the most.

Sam had been different. Bucky was not ashamed to admit that he’d bristled against the other man when they’d first met. He’d been jealous of Sam’s position in Steve’s life. Why would Steve need Bucky for friendship, or indeed romance when he could have someone so put-together instead? It hadn’t taken him long though to find out that Sam was not as unaffected by life as Bucky had first thought. They had a friendship based on snark and sarcasm, but there was an underlying affection there, finding common ground in having to deal with the headstrong idiot that was Steven Grant Rogers. It also didn’t hurt, in Bucky’s opinion, that Sam Wilson was unfairly attractive. He had an ease about him, a way of flirting, that actually reminded him of how he’d been when he was younger, before the war. Before everything.

Steve had told him - confessed - that he’d slept with both Nat and Sam and more than once. Steve had pulled his lower lip between his teeth and looked down at his feet as the words had come out, and Bucky had thought it was sweet the way that Steve was worried that this information would upset him. He’d cupped Steve’s face and released that poor lower lip with his thumb.

“Stevie, baby, I’m not upset. Could never be upset with you. I wasn’t here for you and it’s not like I was as pure as the driven snow. What matters is that we’re together again now. Also, I think I slept with Nat.”

They’d had a frank conversation then about everything that had happened and Bucky even admitted that he might be a little jealous of Steve.

He also wondered if by coming back and picking up his relationship with Steve he was denying his partner of other experiences. There was obviously a connection between Steve, Sam and Nat - the banter, flirting and occasional weighted looks were as plain as the arm on his left side, especially so, given how much time they all spent in each other’s company.

Which is what led them to where they were now. They were celebrating another successful mission, winding down in Bucky and Steve’s bedroom with a few beers. He was perched on the edge of the bed, with Steve in the easy chair on one side of the room and Nat in the one on the other. Sam was currently standing. The mood was mellow and somehow the conversation had turned to when and how Bucky and Steve had realised their feelings for each other. That in turn had led to Nat talking about her encounter with Bucky and Sam’s jesting comment about being left out.

Bucky couldn’t help but snark back with his own grin. “You wanna ride, Sammy? Just say the word. I’ll rock your world.”

“Yeah?” Sam answered. “Sounds like big talk to me.”

“That’s not all that’s big,” Bucky retorted with a wink, before turning to Steve. “Hey Stevie, can you control…” He stopped dead as he took in Steve’s expression. His ocean blue eyes were blown wide, his cheeks were pink and his mouth was stuck slightly open. Bucky smirked, realising exactly what had happened.

“Sam. You broke my boyfriend. That there is an A-grade horny Rogers look if ever there was one.” Steve flushed even more and tried to shake himself out of whatever daydream he’d just been in, as Sam took a step closer, bent down and peered into Steve’s face.

“Oh yeah - that mental image got him good, didn’t it?”

“Guys,” Steve whined. “Gimme a break,” but Sam and Bucky just ignored him, continuing to talk to each other as though Steve couldn’t even hear them.

“Well, I don’t blame him, Sam, given how we both look and how we’ve both fucked him into the stratosphere before.”

“Can you imagine what he’d look like if we did fuck and he could see it?”

Bucky turned back to Steve leant forward and gripped his chin. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you Steve? Watching me and Sam go at it?”

Steve nodded eagerly. “‘N’ Nat too. Would be so hot.”

Nat got up from her chair, where she’d been watching the boys interact, with a knowing smirk on her face. She sashayed over and straddled Steve’s lap. Steve looked like a deer caught in headlights.

“Has America’s Golden Boy got some nasty fantasies in his head?”

Steve nodded dumbly again and Nat turned to look up at Bucky and Sam. “Well, I could go for some light relief if you two are game?”

“You know I’m always hot for you, Red,” Sam grinned. “Whaddya say, Barnes? Gonna put your money where your mouth is and rock my world?”

Bucky could feel his own body starting to respond. His mouth was dry and his cock twitched in his pants. This wasn’t ever anything he’d considered, but the more he thought about it, the more it seemed like a good idea.

“Yeah,” he replied as he stood up. “You’re not gonna know what hit you.” He pulled Sam into a rough embrace, his left arm snaking around Sam’s waist and the other cupping his jaw, and kissed him. Sam was only caught by surprise for a second, before he was groaning into the kiss and fisting his hands into Bucky’s shirt.

Nat scootched further onto Steve’s lap, right over the growing bulge in his pants, and brought her mouth to his ear. “You like how they look together, Rogers?”

Steve nodded dumbly. “Uh-huh.” Nat chuckled and ran her fingers through his hair.

“How are you calling it, James? Seems like this is your show.”

Bucky ripped his lips from Sam’s, the pair of them grinning, before he gave Sam a shove that made him fall down onto his and Steve’s bed with a bounce.

“How about you entertain yourself with Stevie while I get Samuel ready?”

Nat gave him a mock salute before pulling her shirt over her head. Bucky and Sam both chuckled as Steve’s attention was drawn from them to Nat’s lace covered breasts that were now only inches from his face. His fingers scrabbled around Nat’s back, working to undo her bra as he kissed her feverishly.

Bucky turned back to Sam, who’d discarded his own shirt and was shucking his pants. For a moment, Bucky was hypnotised by Sam’s firm pecs, licking his lips before drawing his own shirt over his head and falling down onto the bed between Sam’s spread thighs. He could see the outline of Sam’s cock through his briefs and licked his lips.

“Wanna put my mouth on you,” he said, almost without thinking.

Sam’s lips quirked up at one side and he raised an eyebrow. “I’m all yours, Barnes. Do your worst.”

Bucky dropped down, first of all pressing his mouth to Sam’s chest. He felt one of Sam’s hands come tentatively to his hair, before jerking away, so he lifted his head with a reassuring smile. “You can touch back, Sam. It’s okay.” Sam exhaled beneath him and then threaded his fingers into Bucky’s shaggy chestnut locks.

Bucky made his way down Sam’s body, fully exploring the strength of him in a way Bucky had never thought he’d do. His tongue circled each dark nipple before his teeth scraped over the firm muscle. He smiled inside as he felt Sam’s body shiver at the sensation before making his way lower. He traced the outline of Sam’s abdominal muscles and dipped his tongue into his navel. Sam gripped him harder.

His mismatched fingers curled around the top of Sam’s briefs, and Bucky raised his head, looking for Sam’s consent once more before crossing the line between friends and lovers. Sam grinned back and lifted his hips.

A gasp from across the room had them both turning their heads. Nat had turned on Steve’s lap, so she was facing outwards and had an unimpeded view of the bed. Steve’s pants were around his ankles and Nat was now naked, slowly sinking down onto Steve’s cock. Steve’s eyes were closed, no doubt feeling overwhelmed as Nat’s cunt engulfed him, and his hands cupped her breasts, thumbs brushing over her pebbled nipples.

“Don’t stop on my account, boys,” she teased as she settled herself down and circled her hips. “Just getting more c-comfortable.” Behind her, Steve groaned.

Feeling like he was about to combust, Bucky pulled down on Sam’s briefs and took his first look at Sam’s cock. He couldn’t hold back his own moan. Sam’s cock was thick and cut, and Bucky didn’t hold back the urge to lick over the weeping tip of it. The noise Sam let out was delicious, and Bucky relaxed his jaw, took Sam’s cock into his mouth and made use of the fact that he had an almost non-existent gag reflex.

“Christ!” Sam shouted and his hips stuttered. Bucky pressed them down into the mattress with a firm grip, but it didn’t stop Sam’s legs from shaking and squirming. “No wonder Rogers has always got a smile on his face. Fuck!” Bucky just hummed and swallowed before releasing Sam’s hips to spread his legs wide. He cupped Sam’s balls and pressed his fingers into the patch of skin behind them, drinking in the sounds that Sam let out. However, when Sam began to tremble more, Bucky reluctantly pulled away. Sam probably didn’t have the same short refractory period as him and Steve, and Bucky wanted to draw this out for as long as possible.

As Sam drew in ragged breaths, fighting back his orgasm and also cursing Bucky to hell for leaving him so close, Bucky pushed up from the mattress and got rid of the rest of his clothes. He walked around the bed to get to the drawers, retrieving the lube and pulling out a condom.

“Want me to use this?” he asked Sam.

“Only if you wanna, man. I’m clean.”

Bucky threw the condom back in the drawer with a grin.

As he walked back around the bed, he stopped in front of Nat and Steve. Nat was levering herself up and down on Steve’s cock, using him like her own personal toy as Steve panted into her neck. Bucky dipped his head down and Nat met him part way, kissing him ferociously. This kiss was so different from the ones they’d previously shared, Nat now having the confidence of age and experience that had been missing before. She wasn’t submissive to him, giving back as good as she got, nipping at his lower lip. His cock twitched and he hoped he’d get the chance to fully re-write their previous encounter.

He returned to the bed and placed his hand on Sam’s hip, encouraging him to flip onto his stomach. Sam chuckled and came up onto his knees with a teasing shake of his hips, and Bucky was filled with so much lightness at this whole encounter that he couldn’t help but give Sam’s ass a light spank, which brought out another fit of mirth.

“You ready, Sam?” Bucky asked as he flipped the cap of the lube bottle, squirting some onto the fingers of his right hand.

“Born ready, Cyberman. Come on, fuck me.”

Bucky drizzled some of the lube between Sam’s ass cheeks, letting out a laugh himself when Sam exclaimed at the coldness. He curled over Sam’s back, his lubed fingers pressing against Sam’s hole and placed his mouth close to Sam’s ear. “I promise I’ll get there. You don’t want me to rush this, Doll.”

He circled his fingers around Sam’s tight ring of muscle, feeling it start to relax under his touch, before pushing one finger inside. Sam let out a pleasured sigh and Bucky started to pump his finger, gliding it back and forth until it was moving freely in as far as his last knuckle and back again.

“More,” said Sam. “I need more, Bucky.”

“Yeah,” Bucky breathed into his ear. “You need more of me, Sam?” He added a second, taking his own pleasure from the sight of Sam trembling under his touch. It wasn’t long until he was adding a third and Sam was pushing back on his hand, his chest brushing against the coverlet, his back bowed, like an animal in heat.

Bucky was just about to take the next step, when Nat let out a cry. She trembled on top of Steve, her arms holding onto his neck behind her as he planted his feet and fucked up into her as she came. “Fuck, Steve. Just like that. So good.” Steve grunted against Nat’s shoulder and Bucky could see the white of his cum trickling out from where they were joined, and an idea came to him.

“Natashenka, come here, get under Sam.”

Nat smiled as she regained her breath and Sam blew out a huff. “The fuck, Barnes? If I have a heart attack…”

“Shh, you’re gonna love it, Wilson.”

Nat moved across on shaky legs, climbed onto the mattress, slid under Sam and pulled him into a kiss.

“Stevie!” Bucky’s barked command snapped his boyfriend out of his fuck-drunk stupour. “Come over here and help Sam and Nat.” Bucky kept slowly moving his trio of digits in and out of Sam, but avoided his sweet spot. He wanted to keep Sam near the edge, but not too close. Steve tottered over and wrapped his hand around Sam’s cock, gently guiding him to sink into the depths of Nat’s warm and messy cunt.

“Don’t move, Sam,” Bucky cautioned.

“Not planning on it,” came the muffled response, as Sam pressed his face to Nat’s chest and started to suckle on her tits.

The edge of the mattress dipped as Steve knelt on the floor at the side and leant his arm upon it.

“You gonna watch us close up, Stevie?” There was an affectionate, mocking note to Bucky’s voice and Steve gave him a spaced out look.

“Yeah. Fuck, you’re all so sexy.”

Bucky took hold of his own cock, quickly slicking it up with the lube, before slowly pressing into Sam, which in turn pressed Sam into Nat. The three of them let out their own moans and Steve sighed as he started to fist his own cock at the sight.

Bucky started off slow, rocking into Sam and getting him used to the stretch, before Sam’s body language let him know he could start going a bit harder and faster. He pulled nearly all the way out of the sinful clutch of Sam’s body then slid back in with a firm, measured thrust.

“God, Sam,” he muttered. “You thought you were missing out? I was missing out.” Sam rhythmically tensed his body around Bucky and Bucky decided that he’d had enough of being Mr Nice-Guy. If Sam was going to be a little shit - which showed he’d obviously spent too much time in Steve’s company - then he was going to find out that Bucky could dish it back, just as well.

Bucky sped up, his thrusts making Sam fuck into Nat. When he glanced down he could see that Steve was lavishing attention to Nat’s breasts as well and possibly kissing Sam at the same time. Nat had her hands on each man’s head and was letting out little pants as she rolled her hips in time with Bucky’s, making the most of the way Sam’s cock moved in and out of her.

This was the most erotic encounter Bucky had ever had, and he had no idea how he hadn’t bust a nut yet. His eyes didn’t know where to look - there were too many delectable sights to choose from and he was starting to get dizzy from looking around. Sam’s body tensed around him, the sensations probably building up within his body, so Bucky changed tack again. He re-angled his hips and knew he’d achieved his goal when Sam broke from Nat’s chest and a deep, lascivious groan broke from his throat.

“There we go,” crooned Bucky as he rubbed over Sam’s prostate. “Just enjoy it, Sammy.”

“I am,” Sam let out with a cracked voice. “Fuck. Trust me I am. Ah shit!”

His legs were trembling and Bucky knew that Sam wasn’t going to last much longer so he upped his pace, now concentrating on chasing his own pleasure. Nat had obviously picked up on it as well, because Bucky could see her arm wedged between her and Sam and from the look on her face she was touching herself. Steve and Sam were just kissing each other now as Steve jerked off.

Nat came first - unsurprising since she’d already come once - which then set Sam off. He pulled his mouth from Steve’s and started to curse under his breath as his body spasmed around Bucky. It felt as though he was trying to strangle Bucky’s cock and Bucky didn’t even try to hold back. He cried out, his cock pulsing and filling Sam up. Steve was the last to come, his knees almost giving out and he collapsed face first onto the mattress.

Bucky pulled himself from Sam and rolled to the side, so Sam could get off of Nat. The bed - although made for two super-soldiers - wasn’t made for three adults, so Sam was still squished against him, but Bucky was in no way mad about it.

For a moment no-one said anything, the only sounds those of their collective heavy breathing, until Nat spoke up.

“So,” she asked. “When are we gonna do that again?”

“Well, I don’t know about you,” Bucky said with a smirk as he raised himself up on an elbow to look over Sam’s body at her, “but I was thinking of giving you a special place to sit and then maybe let Steve fuck me once we’ve all caught our breath.”

Steve lifted his hand and gave Bucky a thumbs up and Nat laughed.

“Horn-dogs - the lot of you,” Sam groused, but with no real bite to it.

Nat rolled toward him and booped him on his nose. “You love it, Samuel.”

“Yeah,” he begrudgingly agreed. “I do. And I hate to say it, but Tinman here did rock my world. Maybe next time I can rock his?”

Bucky lightly bit down on Sam’s shoulder. “You’re on, Wilson.”

Tag list: @km-ffluv, @wheezy-stucky, @kmc1989, @kombatfather1796, @christywrites, @alexakeyloveloki, @doasyoudesireandlive, @apenny4thots, @endlesstwanted

#Cap quartet #steve rogers #bucky barnes #natasha romanoff #sam wilson #Steve x Bucky x Nat x Sam #barbershop quartet #Cap Quartet smut

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look-how-they-massacred-them · 10 months

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Preliminary Poll

Asuna Yuuki

Submission reason:

Asuna started out as a genuinely interesting character !! She had a leadership position in one of the strongest guilds in the series and she was known for her good swordsmanship. She was clever, beyond capable, and headstrong, very much well written and someone i looked forward to seeing more of !! And then she became watered down into nothing but a love interest for kirito . I dont think theres anything inherently wrong with characters who are more stereotypically feminine and caring (like specifically in the sexist "women belong in the kitchen way" so long as theres more to the character than just that), but that was never asuna until all of a sudden it was. She started out being someone who wasnt afraid to speak up and give her opinion on a topic, even if it meant directly causing some sort of conflict. She would stand up for herself and i remember one scene where she kinda directly tells kirito to just go away ????? Granted its been like . 7 or 8 years since i watched the anime so i might be misremembering but when she gets into a relationship w him all of that is gone :( It feels like they turned her into someone people could project their stereotypical ideals of a perfect girlfriend onto and threw away her previously established personality exclusively for that goal. They had her max out her cooking stat before her swordsmanship stat (which wouldnt even be as big of an issue if they didnt have her be the *only* one actively shown cooking ?????? But its hardly ever brought up outside of her) Also part 2 of season 1 There are So Many issues with that entire arc that i can't even really begin to start taking about, but i think the way they treated asuna was by far and easily one of the worst. Even beyond characterization, the way she was treated by the narrative is Horrific and while from what i can remember none of her treatment is shown in a positive light, the author still chose to put her in a situation where she faced consistent harassment and abuse to levels i havent seen repeated in any mainstream anime series. I have a lot of issues with sao that go beyond just asunas treatment (and i really wish i could say i still liked the series as much as i did when i found it back when it was really popular and i was just too young to recognize its problems), but i think the one that hits hardest for me is asuna. Shes a character that coulve been *so interesting* and so cool and someone my youngest self wouldve absolutely adored, and a part of me still really likes what she couldve been. What she was up until a certain point in the anime. But her character was thrown away to make her a "ideal" love interest and its still kinda devastating to me :( Keeping her consistent all the way through wouldnt have made sao good by my standards today, but it would at least make it a little better 😔

Propaganda:

Not propaganda or anything but sorry for bringing up sao in the year 2023 If you havent seen this series i do not recommend it (i do recommend sao abridged though)

#look how they massacred them poll #look how they massacred my girl #sword art online #asuna yuuki #sao asuna #sao

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I love the train of thought au! I hate Tumblr though, especially mobile Tumblr. Had to scroll for 30~20 minutes to reach the bottom of the tag. (Mobile Tumblr reloaded at least a few times and I almost threw my phone. I think I cried twice in frustration.)

I am absolutely foaming at the mouth because I've always liked the way Ingo and Emmet get presented, the characterizations are just so... Mwah 🤭.

For some reason the only thing I could think about after spending an entire night reading that wall of posts was the concept of big brother Ingo.

Sorry if I'm ranting here, it really has nothing pertaining to the au at all but I hate this concept, especially the societal concept that the older brother takes care of the younger one. Twins especially since they are usually born minutes from each other and that really doesn't mean anything different in experience.

Yes, Emmet is younger but I've always pictured him as the headstrong one that stands up for Ingo more often than not. (Honestly that's the vibe they give off collectively). I like to think of them as not in a big brother, little brother dynamic but a "we been through so much shit together we support each other fully" dynamic. I do understand why people like using it though.

Wait, what was this post about again? I swear I'm not trying to negatively rant right after bringing up stuff that plagued my mind while reading. I guess all I want to say is thank you for hosting this wonderful community au on your blog.

Expect Tumblr crabs in your blog later on. This is a warning.

Hey there OP! Glad you like it, I do too!!! (Still working on that masterpost ^^;) and apologies with tumblr mobile, I know it’s not the best with optimization!

I’m putting a readmore below because I got a lot more detailed than I intended to, regarding Ingo and Emmet’s sibling dynamic.

I like your views because it really isn’t as black and white (ha) as all that. I am a twin myself, the younger between us (and also by a few minutes) and throughout our lives it certainly has gone back and forth with us, but there’s really no definite position of looking after the other, just like with any other sibling relationship.

Given how Ingo and Emmet are, I imagine their dynamic very similar to what you’re talking about, being each others’ full supporters. Multiple lines in Masters EX show this, like these few from Emmet:

"Ingo and I are twins. We're both Subway Bosses, and we're each other's closest rival! We always challenge each other to get better. That's the kind of relationship we have! It's always a lot of fun when we're together!"

However, I feel like Ingo might feel… I don’t want to say obligated, because it’s certainly not work, and he knows very well Emmet can fend for himself, but perhaps inclined (pressured? By himself??) to carry through with what’s normally expected of an older brother. He might feel like he should look out for Emmet when he can:

“My younger brother, Emmet, would always entertain passengers on the Battle Subway... Now he is enjoying being a host here on Pasio. However, he's still new to this style of hospitality. Would you mind keeping an eye on him?"

And this might be somewhat spurred by the fact that Emmet looks up to Ingo, which I am sure Emmet has made Ingo aware of - he just might not want to let Emmet down:

"Do you have any siblings? I have an older brother, Ingo. He's verrrry strong. He hardly ever loses in Pokémon battles. Even though I also hold the title of Subway Boss, I really look up to him."

I do feel Emmet is very ready to support Ingo as well, seeing as how in their story event in Masters EX, Emmet was trying very hard to help Ingo with a project of theirs:

"I want to make Ingo’s idea a reality! Please, let me do this!"

And regarding your thoughts that of the two, Emmet is more headstrong, I feel similarly, and think he would always very clearly stand up for Ingo when needed.

I do headcanon that growing up, Emmet was more outgoing than Ingo (and that this led him to meeting Elesa, the new exchange student at their school, and taking her over to Ingo to introduce her to him, since he was more reserved and shy - not terribly so, but more so than Emmet)

ALL IN ALL - both Ingo and Emmet fully support and help each other out whenever they need it. And while Ingo might feel pressured by himself to look out for Emmet as the older brother, Emmet naturally does it for Ingo just as much, if not a little more, simply due to his outgoing nature

To try and tie this back to Train of Thought AU, I’m sure Akari and Irida would see a lot of moments expressing this dynamic of theirs in the many memory traincars throughout the mind station.

AND MG Emmet himself is pretty much a monument to this. MG Emmet is doing everything he can to keep Ingo safe from the Remnant and to protect him, even at his own expense to some degree. MG Emmet might only be a mental projection of how Ingo sees his brother, but the fact that MG Emmet is doing that means Ingo knows Emmet would do things like that for him, and he would.

Thanks for your ask OP!!! Very glad you like the AU, and happy you gave me a chance to go into all of this - I did not expect to dissect things like I did haha.

(And tumblr crabs? oh boy!!! Those would be my first!!)

#train of thought au #<-loosely #all lines are from Pokémon Masters EX #and I know that game isn’t canon to the Pokémon lore it is its own thing #but I really do appreciate the characterizations #and stick to it a lot #Emmet looking up to Ingo is reciprocated by the way #Ingo really admires Emmet both as a battler and as a person

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Character Bingo: Ukraine and Canada

Thanks for the ask!!! CanUkr my absolute beloveds

I think it's a common opinion that Ukraine was done a bit dirty by canon. I think when I write Kat, I do like to make her a little emotional, but I also think she's very headstrong and has a good head on her shoulders. I think she should be allowed to experience being a bit in her feelings and being a little intimidating. She got the typical one-dimensional-side-character treatment and I think exploring these opposite traits in her is worthwhile. I admire her a lot and hold her in high regards. I also project onto her hard because of all of the characters, she's the one I've seen drawn most with a body type similar to mine. I've started writing a Kat centered oneshot about how clothes shopping sucks as a fat person (CanUkr oneshot is also still... in the works. DON'T LOOK AT ME!!!). I think one of my favorite moments from the anime was the scene we got with Ukraine, Hungary, and Liechtenstein going through historical fashion. I love Kateryna and Erzsé's friendship and I'm hungry for more. All in all, I genuinely do think I rank her as my #4 favorite Hetalia character, and the only reason she's not higher is because China and Norway have pretty privilege and pretty privilege only on their side. Some of my favorite pieces of Ukraine artwork include: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

(I know the first art is more centered on Nat, but I literally think about that illustration at least once a week)

This man is my blorbo in law. The amount of friends/people I interact with who love Matthew on main is concerning. Not because of their love for him but like... If I had a nickel for every person I know who would lay down their life for Matthew Williams, I would have at least four or five nickels, which in theory it isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happened several times. Admittedly I know Mattie less intricately than I do Alfred, but BOY am I a slut for FACE fam content, NA bros, and exploring the positive and negative dynamics between them all. I think Canada was done dirty by old fandom, which is something I could also say for Miss Ukraine. Speaking of, CanUkr has been an absolutely beloved ship of mine since ~2015 and I still think about the old Nanihoo art of them, most of which I don't think exists on their deviantart anymore. Anywho, Matthew is simply Just A Guy and I love him for it. Good for him.

Bingo Game

#floralcrematorium ask box #hws ukraine #hws canada

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semper-legens · 1 year

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3. Queen of the Sea, by Dylan Meconis

Owned?: Yes Page count: 394 My summary: Margaret has always lived on the Island. She knows it inside and out - the nuns, the livestock, the storms that wash over the ocean. But when the supply ships bring new arrivals, her world is about to be upturned. First is her new friend WIlliam; then Eleanor, the banished former queen. And Margaret will soon find herself hopelessly entangled in the queen’s plans… My rating: 5/5 My commentary:

This is honestly one of my favourite books that I own, I am so glad that I picked it up randomly at a comic shop at that one time. This is a reread, I have previously talked about it a couple of years ago, but as I’ve recently played through the entirety of Pentiment (an excellent video game that you should play) recently, I thought I’d pick it up again. It’s such a sweet, surprisingly complex story, with a well-grounded and realistic cast of characters who are all very grounded to the world that they live in and the reality they inhabit. I absolutely adore it.

Margaret, our protagonist, is such a strong character, and a part of that to my eyes is the fact that Meconis doesn’t fall into the Not Like Other Girls character archetype. Margaret is raised with the expectation that she will become a nun when she is older, and doesn’t really seem to consider any other future for herself than that initially. We see her learning embroidery, and she seems to like doing it! She does her chores around the convent, and while she’s a headstrong and outspoken girl, she never really contrasts herself with other girls while being that, it’s just a character trait that she has, which is really nice. I love to see historical women who aren’t given anachronistic or heavy-handed ideas to highlight how they’re Strong Independent Women, and are allowed to be independent within a realistic image of how a woman in their era might achieve that. And in addition to that, Margaret is just really sweet, really positive and optimistic, and an interesting character in and of herself! I love her.

The art is gorgeous. It’s #bright, colourful but with more moody tones when needed, with a lot of soft curves and clean lines. Every character’s face is unique and distinctive, and easy to distinguish from each other, which is very much welcome given that all of the nuns have their hair and most of their bodies covered. I absolutely love this style, it’s very welcoming.

This graphic novel is very much made to be accessible to kids, what with the child protagonist and colourful art style and casual tone. However, it’s in no way dumbed down for that audience. It touches on serious themes and political machinations in a very accessible way that can be understood and enjoyed both by children and adults. Part of this is the coming-of-age aspect of Margaret’s life - she’s being introduced to a lot of the harsh truths about the world beyond her island, and has to grow up fast and come into the political sphere when she never assumed that would be part of her life. It’s very much welcome, though, and makes for an interesting, historically grounded narrative. Final note, though - while I’ve talked about the historical influences on this story, the world of it is not Tudor England, it’s a non-real world inspired heavily by Tudor England, so some artistic license and fabrication is absolutely fine because this is not depicting real history, which makes the places where it is historically attested and draws from reality all the more impressive to me. You didn’t have to put this degree of work in, but you did, and I appreciate it!

Next up, some tales from the depths, and the creatures that lurk there.

#Queen of the Sea #Dylan Meconis #bookblr #book blog #book blogging #5

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. ✧ . * . ˚ ━━ ｢ MIA GOTH, CIS FEMALE, SHE/HER. ｣ welcome FILOMENA DELAVAL, the EMISSARY TO MIDGARD of THE DUSK COURT, to velaris! it is well known that the 29 / 808 year old HIGH FAE is DAUNTLESS and QUICK-WITTED it is a lesser known fact that they are also BRAZEN and HEADSTRONG. however, it is A BULLET CAUGHT BETWEEN TEETH, A SLIGHT CHILL IN A SUMMER NIGHT'S BREEZE, THE UNNERVING SENSATION OF BEING WATCHED, A FIRE IGNITING AGAINST THE COBALT SKY. that truly define who they are. in the shadows, their alliance with THEMSELVES makes them a force to be reckoned with. truly, who knows what to expect of them. cauldron save them, mother hold them. ｢ MILA, 25, GMT CENTRAL, SHE/HER ｣

// will definitely be adding more to this!! still fleshing this wonderful mess of a baby out<3 // WCs to come as well, but please attack me with yours in the meantime!!

TW: mention of torture, death, PTSD... (I think that's all?!)

Character Information

∘₊✧── 𝙂𝙀𝙉𝙀𝙍𝘼𝙇 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙏𝙎

Name: Filomena Delaval Nicknames: Fia, Fi, FiFi (usually only used by those close to her, ESPECIALLY the last one) Age: 808 / 29 Occupation: Emissary to Midgard Sex: cis female (she/her) Species: High Fae Court: The Dusk Court

∘₊✧── 𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙀𝘼𝙍𝘼𝙉𝘾𝙀

Hair Color: naturally a brassy brown, but usually dyed blonde

Eye Color: honey brown

Skin: light olive skin tone, a smattering of freckles across her face

Height: 5ft 7in

Notable Features: (coming soon!!)

About

at heart, filomena’s true loyalty lies with her birthplace: midgard. She had avoided settling in prythian herself for as long as possible, instead keeping mobile and continuing to help other midgardians through the wall. only when she was invited to take up her current position as emissary did filomena reluctantly begin to accept the harsh reality that had been staring her down for some time: the planet she’d lived and loved on would never be the same. with the few possessions and even fewer loved ones she’d kept around for the past decade, she didn’t have much left to lose. . . but she was finally forced to release a part of herself, her past, that she’d been clutching on to for far too long.

bouncing from place to place is something she’s always done, sometimes out of necessity, and sometimes out of personal preference. In her younger years, she was a firecracker and a wild spirit. she keeps that edge; however, years of war and hardship have sharpened and honed her carefree joy into guarded sarcasm. bever made a habit of harboring malicious intent, but would do absolutely anything to protect & defend the dusk court, what’s left of midgard, and all the innocents in between.

years back, filomena met a man that she was near certain was her mate, and vice versa— she still believes that the connection would have snapped into place, had they had just a bit more time. he was a member of the 18th legion, a strong and passionate malakh, and they had been together for many years before the rebellion broke out. she still mourns him deeply. the memory of him fuels her desire for midgard’s preservation, but her desire for self preservation is increasingly little. she’s always been adventurous ( fearless, she would proclaim ), always willing to take risks, but lately it seems she’s almost purposely seeking out dangerous and toxic situations. partying, schmoozing, fighting, traveling, working—- whatever the vice, she’s indulging in increasingly unhealthy amounts.

one fateful night she was identified by an enemy, recognized as the “mate” of one of the legion. she was captured, and ended up spending several years as a prisoner in various war camps. they shuffled her around blindly, subjecting her to varying levels of labor, torture, or interrogation at each one. her wit, grit, and charisma kept her alive, and despite the wretched nightmares she occasionally suffers from, fi now believes she was meant to be kidnapped. she was able to see places in midgard that she’d never visited before, met species of all kinds, and gathered as much information as she possibly could.

personality wise, fia is very much a wild card!! she can be very manipulative/charismatic, but also sometimes just…. straight up unsettling? or strange?? she’s a lot!

stans dusk court over EVERYTHING now… she loves and appreciates the court so much for all they’ve done for midgard, and the IC is the closest thing to family she’s ever had. will fight anyone on sight who whispers a WORD against the dusk court. views them as just as much of home as midgard ( but tea.. is concerned about their ability to hold their ground against the other courts!! )

∘₊✧── 𝘾𝙊𝙉𝙉𝙀𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙎

(COMING SOON!!)

∘₊✧── 𝙒𝘼𝙉𝙏𝙀𝘿 𝘾𝙊𝙉𝙉𝙀𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙎

(ALSO COMING SOON IM TRASH)

#this is ABYSMALLY late... and a mess.. but its here!!#filomena: intro #fae.intro

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Star Wars Jedi: Battle Scars spoiler review

Let me start off by saying I love the game and finished it only recently, with the characters still fresh in my mind. I was excited about the book. I ate it up.

Do I love the book? No. But I don’t hate it either and I don’t think it is terrible.

The characterization in this book is good, great, even. It lets you live in the character’s heads and see the world through their eyes. Their internal dialogue is fitting, especially Cal’s in my opinion. He is headstrong, stubborn even, devoted to a point of recklesness. His world has a bit of humour in it, too, and I though it wasn’t misplaced. He’s had this little spunky side of him in the game, too. Love it.

There are some great points of conflict in this book. The fact that the Mantis crew is not as united in spirit as some of its member may think, something I suppose will tie into the second game where we don’t see the group together. There are wonderful moments of debate and fears and how each character deals with it. I liked it. Greez has an important moment and is not overshadowed, he’s given a proper voice as he should. Not just being shelved at the pilot seat all the time. Cere is being pivoted towards her position in the next game (trailer) and her behaviour is belieavable. I liked that Cal is still unfinished in a sense, he sees himself as a weapon, as a brute force that he wants to have a purpose, and he’s decided it’s to defeat the empire. He goes far enough that sometimes you wonder if he is still a Jedi or just a vigilante with a lightsaber. I like that. And I think the book gave him enough foundation to build into this idea - this unfinished, unpolished Jedi who’s left to his own devices to decide what being a Jedi even is or means.

Saying that, I am not a fan of making Cere his new Master - his new mentor. She even calls him a Padawan in one scene. Have we forgotten that Cere herself knighted Cal a Jedi knight? He’s grown past this trauma and became a man, that was the entire point of the first game I thought? And his behaviour seemed to reflect this, he was confident and took on this “leader” role in a lot of instances, clear signs of growth. I wanted to see a lot more about his knighthood, maybe see it brought up in moments when he doubted himself. Also, why does his ass have to be saved all the time? He’s very capable. He’s much stronger than at the beginning of his story. I wish he had more agency in his own book.

And this brings me to a point I wanted to make: this really isn��t much of a Cal’s story. He is in it, but the main focus is on Merrin. This isn’t wrong on its own, she is a very interesting character and I desperately wanted to know more about her. Do I feel like her characterization is good? Yes. I do. I don’t mind her being this easy-to-crush passionate person. I don’t mind her loving easily and I understand her trauma tied to Dathomir. But... she can’t talk about it with Cal? Really? Saying she felt connection to Fret because she let her be angry felt a bit too convoluted and just... stupid. Cal who is known and even described as this amicable, sweet, compassionate guy was not someone Merrin could confide in? I understand the point that the Jedi want to feel peace, and him and Cere have moved on, and I’m glad that this is not retconned by the novel, but Cal absolutely felt fear and fury and was angry. He would understand. He would help, not just worry for Merrin in the background. Am I a bit mad that he was not the one Merrin felt connected to so strongly? Yes. They even mention that they have a connection but just don’t ever expand on it.

I am getting a bit side tracked. New characters: Fret. Her girlfriend. I don’t mind them and I think they served the story just fine. There were not very interesting to me personally, I couldn’t really connect with them. But I think that is my fault, because my headcannon of Merrin and Cal being together kept knocking on my skull whenever Fret was there. I won’t like a character just because Merrin sleeps with her and Cal can’t help but “like her”. Why? Why should I like her? You gave me nothing but a conflicted romantic interest that you tried to hide behind cheesy descriptions of her body. Calling her “beautiful” and “hot” won’t change my mind: I wanted to throw her out of the airlock.

The romance: it felt rushed. It felt too much like a fanfiction. It made me blush and I audibly said “Noooo, they didn’t.” a few times. Was it fun? For sure. Was it fitting to the story? No. I am not one to shy away from smut, I love a good romance story. But this is a Star Wars story. About family, about being lost and about finding your connection to the outside world and someone in it. The game set a standard, a higher standard than we are unfortunately used to by Disney, and it was this beautiful, deep story that you could relate to. These raunchy parts in the book made it feel... childish, cheapened. I can understand the connection between Fret and Merrin, even if I don’t agree with it, without hearing about their plush lips and reading description of Fret’s tight and ripped bod. Cal being a dumbass and mistaking Merrin’s hickey for a bruise from a fight? What? There is a place for these stories, and it’s on ao4, not in the official novelization. It is not wrong - it is just so, so out of place that it is jarring. I would much rather hear Merrin’s internal monologue and know more about her history - her world of Dathomir and her Magick. I liked that she was losing her “fire”. I liked that she found a way how to gain it back. But it could have been done more gracefully.

This is my main point with this book. It reads like a fanfiction. It is nice to read and easy, you rush through it like a lightning. But is that it? So many phrases and descriptions in this pulled me right out because I recognize them from smut oneshots.

+ I do have to say that I liked the battle scenes - the combat felt fluid and nice to follow.

I also kind of like the story, even when you know from the start that it has to be something without real consequence or payoff, because it is hard to fit something in between “official” stories without overshadowing what they’ve already got going on. It was good for what it was, I liked how the story tied together. There were some rough spots - Is nobody worried about the fact that someone can track the Mantis for weeks? An Imperial? The weird bird dude? Are we gonna talk about that?

Cal feeling these tinges of jealousy without giving them a name was nice. I like the idea of him being so fiercely protective, so lost in his idealogy that he hasn’t even thought about romantic love, but is slowly coming around to it. He’s getting curious. His and Merrin’s relationship is so sweet and supportive, and I do enjoy that this Merrin’s story still does not rule him out like a potential love interest, because I really do wish to see that happen. This clash of cultures and idealogies is such a rich field and I want desperately for something to grow there, tall and strong.

Maybe in the game. Maybe in the game. But not in a “make out in the fresher” kind of way, please. No more.

The book leaves us at a set up for the game while not really answering much about Merrin or anybody else. It is fun, it is definitely not terrible. But it just leaves me with higher hopes for the game.

Number rating seems very limited but if I had to, I’d give it 6/10.

#star wars jedi battle scars #cal kestis #nightsister merrin #greez dritus #cere junda #star wars jedi fallen order #star wars jedi survivor #jedi survivor #jedi fallen order #book review

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