#and a lot to do without my mom

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

[delta-piscium]

Eddie does become quite famous for his music and that means he sometimes has to go to these mind numbing events where people will sneer at him until they recognize who he is, then they’ll suddenly pretend they’re old friends, they’ll ask for concert tickets and backstage passes

he mostly hates them but whenever Steve is able to come he’s so god damn excited. Steve’s parents used to drag him along to their business events and even though it’s different industries it’s all the same. Steve knows these crowds, he grew up with them and they bring out the bitchiest upper middle class version of him, a Steve who has passive aggression and faux politeness down to an art

Eddie will watch on in delighted awe as his husband, all while smiling mildly and sipping wine, destroys people. just cuts into them and also making everything sound nice, innocuous. Most of them don’t even realize it’s happening they just suddenly find themselves gaping, searching for words, as they’re backed into a corner

and Steve will look at them, tilt his head and wait them out, but before they get the chance to backtrack he’ll hum, shrug and walk away, Eddie on his heel asking if he wants to get out of there, like right now? or maybe find a bathroom?

#bitchy Steve using all that upper middle class bullshit to tear assholes down is so close to my heart #his mom didn’t teach him a lot but by god did she teach him how to be passive aggressive and absolutely ruin someone without them clocking #it until it’s too late #Eddie who had several awakenings in high school about mean girl Steve loves #it so so much #and Steve will be embarrassed and apologize like ‘sorry idk what happened’ and Eddie is like ‘all my wet dreams babe’ #and Steve will roll his eyes but he loves that Eddie likes this part of him bc he gets insecure about being too king Steve-y #but this is like only yo people who deserves it #he doesn’t just run rampant bitching at people oh no he’ll hear or so something #he’ll even hold back and give them a chance to prove him wrong but they rarely do #that’s when he starts all honey voiced to ruin them and Eddie through it all is full on heart eyes #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #my post #dels steddie thoughts

[maddymoreau]

Why is everyone in Fallout 3 extremely hot

#I’m not going to live-blog Fallout 3 since I’ve had a LARGE amount of the game spoiled for me. #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ So I feel like that defeats the purpose of a live-blogging. #BUT GOOD LORD IF THERE’S ONE THING THE FALLOUT SERIES KNOWS HOW TO DO IT’S MAKE HOT MEN!!!!!!! #Mister Burke becoming a stuttering mess because I called him lover was so attractive. #THE WAY HE DID A 180 ON HIS EVIL PLANS LMAO!!!! #ALSO BUG IF YOU’RE READING THIS I MET YOUR BOYFRIEND GOB!!!!! #Gob’s design is *chef kiss* WOOF WOOF BARK BARK!!! #Great taste as usual!!! ALSO I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM!!!!!! #Once I figure out how to do it without getting caught I’m going to kill Moriarty 🫡!!!!! #I’ve heard there’s a lot of ghouls in Fallout 3 so I’m VERY excited to meet them. Especially fan favorite Charon. #I LOVE BEAUTIFUL MEN!!!!!!!!! #Butch was a bully but hearing how happy he was I saved his mom was very cute. #ALSO HE GAVE ME HIS JACKET AS A THANK YOU!!!! AND LIED WHEN THE GUARDS ASKED IF THEY HAD SEEN ME!!!!!! #⭐️ Not as big of a jerk as you could’ve been ⭐️ #MaddyPlaysFallout3 #Fallout 3 #If I had to rank them (off my own personal taste) it’d be 1. Mister Burke 2. Gob 3. Butch.

[sagurus]

I'm excited we're getting more magic kaito but I also have this suspicion things are going to be introduced that I'm just going to. ignore. But also maybe not! Who knows!

#I'm super excited for more Aoko #I'm actually kind of disappointed that her mom was introduced? #like this is in part because I like my headcanon that her mom passed away when she was little #but it's also because it feels like her mom is an au version of Eri #kind of like how despite different personality aoko appears to be a copy of Ran too #they used to look a lot different from each other #but now there's loads of points where I see a pic of aoko and without context I'd think it's Ran #including some of the ones I'm seeing from teasers about the new chapter #basically it feels like gosho is doing a lot of recycling of detective conan stuff to pad out magic kaito #but maybe i'm jumping the gun here #nefrit talk #anyway the double edged sword of me enjoying this series is that #it's how I dislike so many of gosho's choices that motivates me to do so much of my fanwork and speculation that i do #and therefore each update i'm braced because I'm excited for the content but also I know theres going to be things where i'm like #anyway let's just forget he even did that. (or twist it out of context to suit my preference for the story) #such is the joy of fanwork

[tea-time-terrier]

I need to know does the fish ever get identified as a different breed or mix and what's the weirdest or funniest one you've gotten

Oh man all the time! Even if people know what a rat terrier is, they have a little piebald miniature in mind and pigroast is...neither of those.

She is most commonly mis-identified as a miniature pinscher (I get it), a basenji (until they see the nub), and a doberman puppy (???).

My favourite was kelpie mix though <3

Funniest dog pike has mis-identified? A German pinscher. She was 100% convinced it was a rat terrier.

#my absolute fav was walking maverick and someone shouting 'nice beagle!' #I've had a lot of younger people apologize profusely about wrong guesses and it's like??? my dude??? you are making the best guess #and you're not that far off?? #I am gearing up for our handful of trials this year by mentally bracing myself for Interactions #I am easily overwhelmed and unfortunately that has made me abrupt and I have been too dismissive in the past #there are so many not nice dog people I don't want to be one of them 😭 #I need to solidify a party trick so pencilcase can interact without necessarily having to be pet #I am having flashbacks to the little kid and her mom who so clearly wanted some more dog info and I bailed bc I hadn't had pig with kids yet #idk where any of this is going but thanks for the ask! #pig in her heart is a little lap dog #this is just hard to convey in brief stranger interactions where pickeral wants to do her own thing (valid) #ask #turnpike

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[saint-ambrosef]

my hot tea opinion that will make a lot of people mad is that i don't think toddlers should have snacks in Mass

#there are some exceptions but the majority of the time it shouldnt happen imo #my mom raised five kids without ever giving us snacks during Mass and neither does my brother/his wife who have five as well #so i dont wanna hear it about how this is somehow impossible to do or an unreasonable opinion #i have a Lot of Opinions about how some people choose to parent during Mass in general tho

[oh-meow-swirls]

i feel like there must be a gold mine of yo-kai watch stuff that my moms bought and then never actually gave to me.

i have this now-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #it's just a novelization of the first anime episode meant for. level 2 readers i guess. whatever that means- #my yo-kai watch collection is growing without me even doing anything i haven't bought anything but the games #okay that's a lie i did buy my jibanyan and rudy plushies. but other than that- #i have the jibanyan baddinyan n robonyan medal moments figures courtesy of my moms buying them years ago #when dollar tree sold yo-kai watch stuff (i miss those days) #that one jibanyan feature you can pose and change the expression of with stickers also courtesy of dollar tree #a bunch of medals courtesy of blind bags i got for my birthday and also a yo-kai watch that i got at the same time #i have a komasan figure that's like the jibanyan one somewhere. and a jibanyan figure you can switch to baddinyan. also from dollar tree #oh i have a komajiro medal moments figure from one of my elementary school friends who liked yo-kai watch. okay we weren't really friends #we were kinda friends. we mostly just bonded over liking yo-kai watch and never talked beyond that- #god i miss those days 😔 #oh right i also bought the manga volumes i have myself. still need the others. should probably put them on my wishlist #anyways. yea i didn't buy 90% of my yo-kai watch merchandise- #also those medal blind bags basically just got me a bunch of snotsolong. i got like five. i got a lot of other stuff too #but i have so many snotsolongs. five different snotsolong wanted to be my friend i guess- #i have no use for the yo-kai watch tbh. it's way too loud 😔 #cool to have tho

[itspileofgoodthings]

like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.

#you cannot engage with Taylor completely casually it doesn’t work #you won’t get to know her #you have to let her in. go on a sunset walk with your headphones in and open your heart to her and just HEAR her #and then once you know who she is you can go from there #but there absolutely is this level of refusing to get to know her #and I am truly (once again) not addressing people who have that door simply closed (my mom! my older sister!) #people whose opinions matter so much to me #but I am talking to the people who wrestle and want to love her but actually hate her and idk. I feel that it is something where—- #well it’s like people isn’t it. you have to get to know her without judgment #and without bias #you have to know her FROM her #(which does not involve Easter eggs OR celebrity headlines if you hate both of those things #and then if you don’t like her you do in fact have to leave without making that other people’s problem #especially Taylor’s! #I am thinking of this girlboss journalist who wrote a piece on Taylor the other day #that was LIVID with Taylor for sharing only positive reviews on her insta story #(as is not only Taylor’s right but literally normal behavior??????????) #and was practically foaming at the mouth about how Taylor’s level of power was getting scary #and it’s like. I’m so sorry for swearing but BITCH #a lot of the numbers are out of Taylor’s control and also NOT REAL. Taylor also DESERVES her success and is simply doing her job very well #and riding the waves of virality she knows how to create in ADDITION to that #also stop worshipping power and money!!!! the way you clearly do!!!!!!! #Taylor is not doing anything with it except her job!!!!!!!!!!!!! #she is also CLEARLY a human being who suffers #SEE HER AS SUCH #and end it THERE #INSANE #turning off reblogs for this one #because I have gotten carried away but wow

[n7punk]

i am getting. actually kind of close to completing the (reasonable) parts of my collection

#like there are 3 things i expect to take me 5 years. if ever. to get my hands on (unless i somehow get a job that pays x4 my current one) #but aside from that im at like 4-5 things left. just got another thing today! damaged but it kinda works for it. cant wait for it to arrive #and i'm not gonna find a better price then 30% off og retail when it usually sells for 30% More nowadays #btw by collection i mean. everything i am collecting. not just spop. but mostly spop lol #i get Itchy when i go 1-2+ months without finding anything #so whenever something pops up at a good price it feels good to relieve that even when the itch was focusing on a different thing atm #i love deleting a saved search i've had for ages lol #mylife #i told my mom 'i dont want to collect just to collect :(' <- feels guilty about consumerism #and my mom was like. but you are a collector. you like to collect things. a lot of people do lol #and then i was like oh okay. somehow that fixed my guilt

[puppyeared]

38 and 39 for the ask game!

(Love your art by the way)

38: fav song at the moment?

pawprint panic | party at club bug | love birds

39: youtuber you've been obsessed with and why?

link to scruffy's youtube channel

#i dont really have a set music taste cuz i just listen to whatever i like but i think i lean towards bedroom pop??? #these songs come to mind bc theyre relatively new so i havent gotten tired of listening to them yet lol #i do love snailshouse's love songs and ordinary songs 5 albums.. as well as cavetown and sidney gish #but i dont have any real way of discovering music outside of oc amvs and listening to the rest of an artists discography #i also dont watch a lot of youtubers to begin with but i really like scruffy and solo solo travel.. hes a japanese travel vlogger that #my mom likes and he usually rides trains and documents the whole trip. doesnt speak but writes his thoughts in subtitles #hes pretty funny and his videos are relaxing to watch so i can see why my mom likes him lol #i highly recommend scruffys fnaf sound effects videos.. its interesting to see how sound design is incorporated as a part of #game atmosphere without even realizing it!! and his video for totks instruments is interesting too!!! #ask #ask game #answered #yapping #doodles

[bangcakes]

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#personal #ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM #god help me #i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD #like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone #but man oh man is it... A Lot #and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much..... #and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im #just... like ... o #bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just #the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much...... #and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue. #i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........ #im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND #but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good #like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle #bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary #i dint think itd be scary with him #but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just.. #idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭 #like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk. #getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[love-at-first-bite]

Laios wouldn't judge me or make me feel bad for being excited about things I enjoy.

#victor beeps #sometimes i feel guilty for being happy #i hate feeling like too much all the time #i always feel too weird for my best friend. i could tell i was annoying her tonight but switching topics so much #and when i got in i was infodumpping to my mom about resident evil and she just waved me off #we were watching that ''welcome to raccoon city'' movie and it made very grumpy #NOT the topic for today but i do NOT like that movie #just. i wouldn't get rid of my autism for anything it's a part of me and makes me *Me* #but it is still a disability and makes a lot of things hard for me and makes me feel Not So Great sometimes #i love my best friend and gc friends so much but i still feel like i can't be 100% myself around them #but laios would finally be that person! #he'd *get* me. we'd just get each other so well #he wouldn't get annoyed when i spoke really fast and bounced around on topics #he wouldn't wave me off or just want me to shut up #i think i'd finally feel truly loved and accepted and wanted #i didn't expect laios to remind me so much of myself! #to everyone else he's weird and off-putting and annoying #and i am too #but to each other we're so wonderful and perfect #we could be in love with each other in peace without ever worrying that we're too much for the other

[dullahandyke]

Like I cant imagine parents in other countries are like this. Came down the stairs this morning n mam said 'good morning! Four teenagers died in a car crash yesterday evening. Yeah it was terrible God bless them.' like ok thanks mom I'll go make my toast now

#something like this happens roughly once a week #and like not that many ppl die that often in ireland! #back in first year i did the maths and as far as i could tell it was abt 3 ppl every hour which is Not a lot #yet somehow without fail my mother will sniff out the deaths #shell say 'do you know old padjoe. his wife is the sister of denny mccormick you know her. do you know what happened to him' #well mom im going to guess that old padjoe died. and that im to look up when the funeral is on rip.ie. and im correct

[divorcetual]

Meow !

#Hey future me ! This is queued on December 21st !! Im a day late lol #DID YOU GET THE ESSAY DONE IS IT OKAY ARE YOU PROUD OF IT. MY GOD ITS KILLING ME #ive got like four paragraphs but I csnt for the LIFE of me figure out how to end it #How was christmas !!!!!! I assume good unless someone. like. died #What was ur secret santa gift? I dont remember what I asked for as the prompt lol #im rlly happy rn bcs a lot of ppl are putting nice comments on my art ^.^ #What are you drawing rn? Im making the no6 secret samta piece of them all in a diner #Also. How is ur spanish grade. my god. #idk if they wouldve let you know yet but if they did- did you get into the college? hope so !!!!!!! #I havent been feeling great. Moms been on my ass about my spanish grade #but James is here rn which is rlly nice !!! #oh !! I mentioned the hiragana I knew last report. You should know them all rn yeah? I know up to the y line #so 38 without the tantan or maru #mmm. dont have much else to say #hope ur doing well !!! stay safe ^.^ #weather report