#and I didn’t take shit from anyone

[seraphicalsuccubus]

oh no I smoked too much weed and gave myself zoomies both from the excitement from my new peak pro and the excitement from the new weed itself and def smoked way more than I should have and probs will continue to smoke more than I should because of this double dose of excitement until I finally just pass out after days of hardly sleeping recently lmao

but ANYWAYS before that happens !!! I currently have the strongest urge to go wreck people in fucking battlegrounds to level one of my assorted disc priests and because like …. ever since I got 100k honorable kills achieve, I’ve wanted that goddamn fucking ‘the Bloodthirsty’ title from the 250k honorable kills achieve and I was farming that before I stopped having the drive to game a few months back.

so let’s see how queues go at 2am on a fucking Wednesday morning, I wonder if I’ll give up before I find a bracket with fast pvp queues tonight tbh. it’s more likely I’ll end up pugging a raid on my mistweaver main if it takes too long to get into a battleground just to preoccupy myself for a bit and try to get a chance at trinkets and shit lmao

#this is huge tho I haven’t WANTED to game enough to drag my laptop out and play in MONTHS #I logged in for the first time in ages the other day and I had so much fun in my battlegrounds I didn’t even realize we were winning #I was just having a fucking blast being a healer and a menace because I’m playing a disc priest rn of course lmao #and now I want to game again so bad but like mindlessly and bgs are mindless to me I guess??? #like they’re so easy and all muscle memory and hardly take any thought so I think I could function enough to fuck some people up for a bit #or raiding Amirdrassil on LFR or normal. also pretty mindless even when pugging groups and all that. #everything’s usually one shot one kill or like 2 shots per kill max because people learn from their mistakes !!! #but like as a healer I know my shit so it’s just mindless (except for Larodar ((MY BELOVED)) because I LOVE that fight and get super into it #his dialogue is just too fuckin good and the voice??? truly chefs kiss like perfect voice casting #almost as fantastic as Sire Denathrius tbh and that’s like the big vocally satisfying one for me LMAO #this tag rant went on a wild roller coaster what the fuck I am so sorry for anyone who read these #I’m trying to read them back and I can’t even understand my fucking thought process LMFAO

[stizzysupremacy]

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#like okay I refuse to shit on anyone’s queer rep parade #and apparently so does everyone else who agrees with me #because I see so many posts about the alleged healthiness of Stede and Ed’s relarionship #and I know I am not crazy. nor am I alone in thinking ‘what healthy relationship???’ #in the finale they are At Best taking their first solid steps towards a healthy relationship #but they haven’t achieved that shit yet. they are actually still the men who didn’t talk to each other. who ran away from each other. #you want to hope for the best. but it throws me off when ppl act like what we got was the best #posts like ‘oh even when he is furious enough to smash a chair into a wall he still wouldn’t hurt stede’ #the scene that reveals that Atede didn’t explain anything and Ed didn’t allow himself the closure of hearing explanations really should be #NOT considered evidence of healthy relationship #okay I’m done I just get sick of seeing that gifset with its reblogs saying that and #’oh they did so well balancing the inherent violence of pirates against healthy relationships’ #girl WHAT healthy relationship?? there’s not a single damn person at that dinner table that knows what a healthy relationship is! #(wait. forgot about Buttons) #(I want to ship these two losers but I want to ship it for the cringefail ongoing train wreck it is #not the perfect queer happily-ever-after-SOMEHOW fairy tale that I don’t think canon supports)

[wantbytaemin]

the fucking shitshow i experienced today…

#i won’t even get into the details of it but my work is being undermined and i didn’t say anything about it bc i was so taken aback and in #absolute shock. i have literally never Ever experienced something of this sort im not being dramatic i went into my office and told my #coworker girls what happened and everyone was staring blankly like ‘they said that to YOU??????’ bc it’s genuinely fucking unbelievable #got told some out of pocket shit that i willllll notttttt let slide but i need to get my shit together and think up the best way to respond #bc this wasn’t just undermining my work it was borderline humiliating. all from this woman who is supposedly my PhD mentor who NEVER #fucking helped me with anything and now she’s trying to tell me something that is SO insanely unfounded and just insane truly #as if i didn’t take over the entire goddamned (multi million) project and played the role of *drumroll* two phd students three #collaborators and TWO mentors one of whom was supposed to be the project lead. all that did so well that our ceo STILL praises me in #meetings and he never fucking praises anyone. as if i wasn’t offered two job positions in two separate labs while in one of london’s top #universities. as if i haven’t published 8 papers and a scientific book chapter which I’m the first author of #all without her help and now she wants to play mentor by trying to talk shit. oh my god im so miserable right now you have no idea #i can’t fucking stand her and no one in the company likes her anyway lmao but like #when i get out of this fucking state of SHOCK she just put me in im about to tell her to fuck off forever so politely and so wonderfully #that she will not know what happened to her. doubting MY capabilities ohhhh as if. as IF.

[sailorsally]

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#since I talked in the tags a lil before #i also need to say that the political situation in Georgia has been a big pile of shit lately #that’s mostly why I don’t have the energy to engage with anything atm #everything is so hopeless #I just try to play video games these days to take my mind off stuff #but to explain it a bit #there is this one law the parliament already tried to pass last year but then didn’t because thousands came out to rally against it #the law is about ‘foreign agents’ and it’s directly copied from kremlin’s law in Russia #where the govt basically uses it to just cleanse the country from anyone they don’t like #So now this law is back and they have voted a yes two times #and will vote a yes third time #which is absolutely devastated news for anyone here #because if this law is instituted #basically say bye to foreign scholarships #to ngos financed from foreign countries that work to protect queer and trans peeps #rehabilitate refugees domestic violence victims etc #there will be no new roads in removed highland villages that rely mostly on international financial aid #no education opportunities for poor kids etc #this law literally equals death #and it will be heavily used to just cleanse Georgia of people who don’t think like Kremlin #and I am so fucking scared rn #There have been protests for 3 days #tens of thousands of people on the streets #but parliaments just keeps ignoring people #Or using police brutality against them #they are beating people up #jailing them for peaceful protests etc #it’s absolute nightmare #I’m just so tired of Russia #why won’t they die with everyone who supports them I wanna cry

[drusic]

i love how spreen does not give a single fuck about what people who don’t watch him think. like i know it kinda sounded like he was backtracking a little when he clarified he didn’t mean the entire community but i think he was just being honest. like i know everything related to that server is v shady but this situation was different cause bbh and baghera did actually retract what they said and praised the community on the next day. while spreen straight up said he does not care what people who only watch stuff ooc say about him. and i respect him so much for that

#he reminds me of dream in a way #he knows what the truth is and he’s at peace with that #honestly spr.een is very fucking epic to me because he takes no shit from ANYONE not even his friend #like even if q did dm him about it he didn’t backtrack or anything #i love a man w a spine #discourse #*

[dawnstarranger]

Listen everyone has their own metric for what good writing is and isn’t but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t get me down a little to see one of my faves dragged through the mud by both haters and fans alike on a pretty much weekly basis

#yes this is about Salvatore #I don’t mean this to say you can’t dislike or hate his work because that’s valid too #I just mean that he’s become one of those writers where it’s okay and trendy to shit on him and he’s popular enough that it’s excused #I feel like there’s a lot of irl fans who crap on him because they inherently don’t like the over-the-top rule-of-cool style that is FR #and it’s okay to not be into that side of fantasy #but you aren’t the superior reader because you love GRRM-esque super serious grim dark content #also I haven’t personally met a long running series where I loved every single book or plot point #it’s pretty normal when you look at a 40 book series to find that some arcs/books are a bit better than others #and I feel like people jump on certain books and take it as ‘see? any talent he ever had has gone down the drain’ #like my dude it’s okay if you didn’t love a few of the books just skip and move on #add to that he’s a prolific writer in general and I’m sure some books got more time and effort from him than others #it’s fine and normal and not a sign that he’s the worse ever ffs #also there’s a part of me that doesn’t like comparing authors working in shared worlds to authors writing totally independently #because some plot points are set by the publisher before pen ever hits the paper #and again you don’t have to think Salvatore or anyone is a good writer #but I always factor it in when I see plots that seem to come out of nowhere and the like #anyways that’s my rant lmao #constructive criticism of any writer is fine and I’m not knocking that before anyone gets their knickers twisted

[gatheryepens]

A LEVEL RESULTS DAY AND I DIDN’T FAIL AAAH

#I was shitting bricks for my results #buttttt #I’m super pleased with myself since #I can reapply to the course I want to do :) #I hope anyone doing a level gets the results they need #and just remember that your self worth is dependent on 3-4 letters #and that you are amazing :) #I’m taking a gap year #because 1 I didn’t get any offers lol #and 2 I really need a break from studying since during my a levels my mental health really went 📉 #plus I’m hoping this year I can rediscover myself #and do the things I enjoy most like crocheting and reading #basically this year is going to be me relaxing #and working #so I will not be posting any study content for about a year or so #so I will predominantly be posting bookish stuff #I’ll still be reblogging study posts #but I won’t be posting any #I might have some random photos that I’ll post #or some timelapses #but from the looks of it I’m mainly dancing in them 😭😭 #for anyone receiving their A level results I’m so incredibly proud you are amazing 💙💙💙 #gathertalks #gatherrambles #a level results day

[gregmarriage]

truly my last relationship taught me so much. it also instilled in me some things i’m still unlearning. like, how most people won’t get mad if you accidentally fall asleep without saying goodnight (and not replying to messages, because i’m literally asleep), or freak out if you stop replying for like five minutes. like, i couldn’t do anything i enjoyed bc she’d be like ‘um, what fuck are you doing? why aren’t you answering me?!!!’ like relax, i’m literally just showering. it was truly a case of sitting still unless i wanted to upset her. and then i STILL somehow upset her and i never really knew why. but, hey, that relationship ended a long time ago, i should be fine now, right? 😐

#it’s literally been like five years and i still wake up sometimes like ‘oh god i didn’t say goodnight! oh god i didn’t reply back to that #person’s message!’ when said person doesn’t care one bit #it’s just cause that relationship was so crazy that it made ME crazy and i’m beginning to realise that yeah i still carry some shit from it #literally that relationship is the entire reason i’ve been single all this time and why i’m trying to be emotionally mature etc #bc that relationship ending gave me a smack around the head that said something needs to change’ #bc the way i was before is the reason i was in that relationship and in that situation in the first place #and that relationship ending and trauma and shit separate from that made me get really romance repulsed for a while #still am sometimes tbh #pretty much permanently in a state of ‘yeah i need look after myself’ for the last five years #and idk when that would open up to me being in a new relationship #idk i really just need to not rush anything with anyone and just take things slow and see where they go #have fun in the meantime #bc my past few relationships have been really intense #especially the last one as i said #and i fully don’t have the time or energy for anything hardcore currently #so if there’s anyone at some point they must be prepared to wait for em and court me like we’re victorian lovers #you must wait three years untill we kiss for the first time bc i truly don’t know the timeframe for when i’d wanna do anything i’ll be #honest imaooooo #but yeah romance is a complicated subject for me #i’m literally a hopeless romantic but the thought of romance lately truly just makes me feel gross #like in theory yeah i wanna kiss someone but in actual practice i’m like get away from me! #idk i’m on the road to bulilding healthy relationships #romantic especially bc i really can’t go back to how i used to be #sorry to disappoint anyone imaoooo #but nah anyways people who want to get close to me and be my friend has to be cool with my boundaries i set up #and sometimes forget about even tho they’re my own boundaries bc i’m silly like that #could do casual stuff but i really don’t think i’m the type for that imao #and even that sets off the same alarms in my head so idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[pepprs]

not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

[tyrianlynch]

When ur disabled and ur bosses start being shitty to u and it’s very clearly bc theyre annoyed ur disabled and everyone in ur life is like “oh we’ve all dealt with bosses being shitty” but they don’t get the huuuuge different between bosses being shitty and bosses being shitty purely bc ur disabled

#it’s such a big difference #and they’re telling me to do nothing and just let it happen! #‘let them cut ur hours and thank them for letting u be there at all!’ #WHY SHOULD I #it’s literally not my fault that my abilities are different from those of my coworkers #and when they hired me they were well aware of my disabilities and the problems it could cause #and they said it wouldn’t cause any problems! #but now they’re cutting my fucking hours bc I couldn’t show up to a meeting bc I was in so much pain I couldn’t fucking move #and bc I can’t work long days WHICH I TOLD THEM I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO IN OUR INTERVIEW #but now they’re saying they have to prioritize the people who are able to work longer hours??? #tell me that shit when ur hiring me! #also everyone keeps saying ‘oh they have the right to cut ur hours they’re the bosses’ they literally don’t! #they literally are breaking laws if they are cutting my hours bc I’m disabled! that’s literally illegal! #I’m just so angry and can’t stop crying but there’s not a single person in my life I can talk to about this #bc they all think I’m being over dramatic and that I should say whatever it takes to keep my job #but if keeping my job means letting them treat me like a second class citizen then I don’t even want the fucking job! #it’s just not worth it to me #anyways sorry I haven’t been active lately and literally just came on here to complain #I just didn’t know where else to put this anger since talking to anyone else abt this has just made me angrier

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

wallowing in self pity as an after work activity.

#I also watched tv and almost fell asleep #I woke up with a bad stomachache last night which kept me awake for a little over an hour before it got better #so I didn’t sleep enough and went to work #and then received a text that my boyfriend wouldn’t be home tonight cause he’s meeting from friends #and of course I’m not invited because one of his friends is my ex I keep shit taking about (rightfully I might add) #saw him for like one minute after his work before he left again #I’m really fucking sad rn still because as I told some friends #one of my Guinea pigs died just yesterday #and I’m tired and #I’m hungry #and yes my boyfriend offered to bring me food but I don’t even know when he will be back and he’s probably going to bring cake which isn’t #real dinner food anyway #my stuff #give it half an hour and I’ll be better I hope #maybe she least good enough to make myself something to eat #at least my cat his here he always comes when I’m crying #edit: I think the part about tonight that hurts the most is being invited but not being invited #one of the boys sent a message to the group chat if anyone wanted to join #and idk if all of them know #but my bf knows I won’t go anywhere near my ex #even though I haven’t seen one of the other friends there in a awhile and wouldn’t loved to see him #so it’s like #being invited #but not really #cause I can’t go there #I’d feel sick #I already do feel sick knowing he talks to this despicable piece of shit

[pinkhysteria]

i don’t even like b@mon or klarol!ne, but when people center elena in their detractions and expect anyone to give a damn... lmfao. whether you are some long-suffering fool who lets people walk all over you is besides the point - most people work off a ‘treat people how you want to be treated’ framework, and obviously are not going to care about female characters they enjoy having love interests in men who had conflict with the girl who defends and supports a man who brutalized/raped them. elena set the rules everyone else got to play by in that regard i’m afraid, sorry 🤷🏽 

#anti elena gilbert #noooot really but. is what it is #anti damon salvatore #anti delena #more by mention but still. #/ / #when somebody slaps u in the face unjustifiably and u slap them back - no ur not just as bad lmfao. #not even ten episodes after damon rapes caroline elena is roadtripping with him and saving his life... #at least it took a full season before caroline was accepting dresses from klaus djskjdsk #and i don’t have much patience for people who suddenly remember damon is a rapist/misogynistic when it’s time to criticize elena - #but have none of that energy when it comes to discussing damon in the context of BD or just on his own. #nor kc stans who are intent on convincing anyone who will listen that klaus's only crimes were towards elena for this exact reason. #but that has nothing to do ‘UHHH X HURT ELENA TOO SO THESE THINGS ARE THE EXACT SAME!!’ #like... lol. that’s not how things work besties <3 #and it’s always elena isn’t selfish elena didn’t want elena this elena that which yeah is often times true. #but YOU guys definitely have the selfish mindset that elena rarely has to walk the walk but everyone else’s narratives need to coddle her #in general there’s an annoying amount of E stans with takes that start off reasonable... and then veer into what is essentially shit like #‘idk why u guys act like that black girl got treated THAT much differently from the white one’ #and ‘stans of a chr subjected to violent rape are NOT allowed to dislike that rapist’s girlfriend’ #and it’s difficult for me to believe y’all don’t hate elena yourselves and are trying to set her up! 😭

[bpfandomcollective]

On a whim today I bought a ps5 just so I don’t have to wait a second longer to play Horizon: Burning Shores.

#do I have money for this? #no #did I take money from my savings for this? #yes #are there other more practical things I could have spent my money on? #absolutely #do I give a shit? #nope #here we goooo #and by here we go I mean here we go in about 15 hours since everything needs to download to my ps5 #it’s so pretty y’all #and so dumb but I didn’t realize I would be able to transfer all my ps4 games to it seamlessly (again by this I mean in the 100+ hours #it’ll take to download all my ps4 data) #so you know I’ll be back on my tlou bullshit once i finish bs #downloaded red dead redemption 2 and having a bit of trouble grasping the game play #so that is def on the back burner but I still want to go back and finish it one day! #if anyone is reading this and has hame recs for the ps5 let me know! #open to pretty much anything #tlou #horizon forbidden west #horizon burning shores #ps5

[ickypuppi3]

no but how hard would it have been to just have characters interact like normal people

they literally just shoved characters in and then acted like none of them would’ve ever interacted or known about each other?

#that’s one reason it’s so shit #why didn’t anyone mention knowing billy #they all went to school together #no one interacts like human beings i swear #like only the main cast are allowed to have meaningful interactions #even then the only reason they come off is down to the cast improvising everything #there’s something so off about it all #and i think this is what it is for me #like #why doesn’t anyone know anyone else #robin would’ve known about billy #steve KNEW billy #heather too #they would’ve all at least known of each other yk #it’s as if you’ve erased everyone’s memories and then shoved them in a room together yk #it’s so off #god i hate this show so much #takes the characters out like i’m rescuing them from the kill shelter

[gentlesounds]

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#…i literally finally broke this weird feud me n my brother have like I truly don’t understand him but I love him so much even though #he’s done terrible ass things n like. I’m not gonna sit there and think I’m above anyone telling them what they’ve done wrong like the guilt #you have to live w for ur actions is already enough like that doesn’t mean accountability but I literally physically can’t go to bed #with this on my conscience any longer like i will just pray every single day in ramadan for him and ask Allah to forgive him and forgive me #for being so petty but it’s like those that can’t hear must feel and I know I broke his heart bc he didn’t expect me to take it there #and for MONTHS at that but he knows now don’t ever try that shit w me ever again bc when I love you you never have to worry #but when I’m not you will feel misery n I really don’t ever resort to that but I had no choice and like all that anger was poisoning me #like you are fighting demons bigger than me my pride and ego isn’t above anyone or above God and I learned so much from this #idk if this will change anything I sorta felt like if I do this am I betraying myself for what he’s done but forgiving him frees me not him #so in a way I’m also responsible so I’m rlly proud of myself for standing up for myself with dignity n conviction I’ve dealt w enough pain #one by one I’m gonna let go of everything and free myself and live my life I’m not a victim