#and I KNEW she was fucking crazy

[waluigisgaybf]

GOD it fucking sucks I cant even cuddle my doggies or my mom rn :( I want hugs and cuddle piles so bad rn.

#My household had me growing up super physically affectionate and just affectionate in general #we say I love you to eachother thousands of fucking times a day #but my step mom abused and scared me out of being able to be physically affectionate with my dad as often #like hugs and lil leaning against him on the couch cuddles #cause when I was around 15 she started telling me I wanted to fuck my dad #because I thought other people with beards were attractive #and she straight uo fucking said those words to me #and I KNEW she was fucking crazy #but it made me feel weird and fucked up about wanting to hug and chill with my dad as often #and we have Manny the doggie here #but hes not anywhere near the same kind of cuddle buddy as the dogs with my mom #and he sleeps in my dad and step moms room #and my mom and other dogs are still stuck in Texas to keep an eye on my great grandmas brain health #My step mom also used to FREAK the fuck out when me and my little brother would cuddle #she told us it was gross and disturbing and would yell at us #when literally he’d be sitting on top of my lap like in a criss cross shape on a chair #like hed try to make me phsycally uncomfortable by sitting on my legs weird to hurt them #and I would refuse to budge so then wed just both zone out on our phones or tv while he was on my legs #and shed LOOSE IT #so in combo with her #and my ex from 8th grade #Im really reallt fucked up when it comes to being able to be physically affectionate and I am so deeply touch starved from kt #it*

[zeb-z]

can we talk about Phil and Jaiden today and their interactions after Jaiden finally shows her wings because I’m going crazy.

Jaiden showing off her wings for the first time to Phil, and Phil both happy for her and also insanely jealous, because why did she get to keep her wings, while his got clipped so badly he needs his backpack to counterbalance the weight he lost - or at least the weight he looses having to keep them close to his back.

and the whole time they’re talking in a group, hanging around spawn, Jaiden is perched somewhere above the group. up in a tree, moving from branch to branch, or against the wall, or right on the top of that lamppost. Phil, on the other hand, stays sat on the bench the entire time. grounded.

and every time Jaiden hops from perch to perch, he looks specifically at her. zooms in whiles she’s sat on the lamppost even as he continues conversation. its such a small detail but really helps punch in just how much Philza can’t let it go, can’t stop wishing that he could do the same.

#the bird lore goes fucking crazy on the qsmp man #the fact that they’re both og island residents….I need more phil backstory now more than ever. was jaiden allowed to keep her wings as is #because they knew she wouldn’t fly away? while phil was known to be wild? were they both previous experiments and jaiden was better behaved? #also #im still not clear on if he’s said they’re gone or just clipped but man. if they’re just clipped that backpack on them cannot be comfortable #I have questions and I honestly dread the answers #phil ‘allergic to lore’ za using casual gameplay movement to rp and then blatantly dropping character info #mcyt #qsmp #q!philza #philza #q!jaiden #jaiden #z speaks

[beeduoo]

wonderful

#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭 #ctubbo #michael beloved #ctubbo fanart #Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this #so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her #stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w #hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY #BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS #So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi #ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i #RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!! #I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening #IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever #I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it #lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss.... #I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt #too dead to do al that... #Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye

[waterghostype]

i have so much to say about them not in a good way not in a bad way but a secret third thing way.

#ninjago #lloyd garmadon #ninjago harumi #harumi jade #lloyd ninjago #shonsh #if you want my clear opinion on them #i enjoy them as a fucked up crazy insane tragic doomed angst thing #but as a ship in the actual relationship sense? nope #at least not in the way canon tries to push it #crystalized my behated #though i thought the harumi reveal was really crazy i liked that #i really do have so many thoughts on them and harumi in general #spoiler alert my harumi opinions are biased bc im insane over her #<— lloyd garmadon speaking #jokes aside i love sog/hunted harumi i think the way lloyd is still not over her is really intriguing #and i wish everything after that was executed better #she shouldve stayed dead but im not as mad as i shouldve been at the prospect of her coming back to life #mostly bc i knew beforehand since i spoiled myself so much oops #but like… you had a fire reintroduction and way of reviving her that parallels lloyd in moto #but then they couldnt decide if they wanted harumi to be a villain again or if they wanted to do shippy ship bait #so they tried doing both and failing at both #GOD ugh it makes me so mad #sorry #harumi is my roman empire i cant take it anymore i was so entranced by her immediately #bc once again. i knew she was gonna be evil #but i thought she was gonna be converted not like evil the whole time #so theres that #ignore how the suit in the 2nd drawing is totally inaccurate sorry #ergh

[deuynndoodles]

[id: two hannukah themed sketches featuring the main trio from danny phantom.

in the first, the camera is outside a window, looking into a cozy living room with the fireplace roaring. several menorahs lay on the windowsill. closer to the viewer, tucker holds a shamash and waves his hand erratically; sam laughs at him. an arrow declares that he's "on fire". further down the windowsill, danny floats in phantom form, lighting his menorah with ectoplasmic fire.

in the second, sam and danny sit on the floor, playing dreidel. tucker sits in a chair, watching them, eating a sufganiyah. there's a large pile of gelt in the pot, while sam and danny only have a couple pieces. a plate of sufganiyot and latkes sits next to danny. sam grins, ג (gimel) announcing her as the winner. danny looks at her, deadpan. end id]

happy hannukah!

#doodles #dp #danny phantom #sam manson #danny fenton #tucker foley #eight ecto nights #eight ecto nights 2023 #i tried to combine as many prompts as possible bc i knew i wouldnt finish it all! #w 1 theres: fire laughter community and light #w 2 theres fried foods and games #dw sam will put him out once shes done laughing at him #casual warning that im a gentile and if i fucked up anything it was an honest mistake #dates are 12/13/23 and 12/12/23 respectively #feel iffy bout these but i dont wanna drive myself crazy so here u go #note: i did get directions confused and they are lighting the menorahs incorrectly! do not use this as an example

[yuwuta]

If megumi asked uzhsjdhshd omg I totally see it tbh him wanting you, but I don't think megumi would ever ask yuuji to share you, in any type of way at all. (not trying to push my own hc here!!) I feel like yuuji himself would be the one asking megumi. Yuuji knows that he's yours just as much as he knows you're his. And he loves you too much, a lot, it's purest type of love he has ever felt for anyone. And megumi is his best friend, he loves him just as much, right? Yes, not the same love between you and him ofc but yes. And I have no idea what they were doing but yuuji's just says, kind of out of the blue, that he'd let megumi fuck you. The reason being exactly cause he knows you're his, and you're just so so good that he needs to have someone to talk to (about you and always so respectfully) and who better that his best friend?

you’re opening the pandora’s box that is itfs + reader…. god….. 

okok i agree. if you’re dating yuuji, megumi would never ask, yuuji would be the one to bring all three of you together. definitely because he loves you and you’re his, and he loves megumi too, so it just makes sense that his two favorite people also get to have each other—but also, yuuji can tell megumi likes you, and he can tell you think megumi is attractive and since yuuji’s so nice, what kinder thing to do than to set you two up so he can watch (: he definitely enjoys being the mediator, also enjoys the somewhat awkward air between you and megumi, how yeah, maybe it’s a little taboo that the two of you are about to make out while you’re boyfriend watches, but yuuji likes that too… also he likes knowing that you both like him. like how lucky is he that his best friend and his girlfriend adore him so much :(( you two together makes so much sense in his head, because he talks to megumi about you, and he talks to you about megumi, and now, he can just pour all his love for both of you out at the same time

but also…. i’d like to think that yuuji’s maybe not so nice when it’s the other way around—when he and megumi get together first, and you’re megumi’s best friend. he’s not mean, but he does like to tease... how naughty of megumi to ask out yuuji knowing he’s still got a crush on you, and god does yuuji like to tease him about it :/ jerks him off and taunts about how he knows megumi’s dirty little secret—that he’s in love with his best friend and fantasizes not just about having you, but about watching his own boyfriend fuck you too… 

yuuji knows megumi would take his feelings for you to the grave if he could (he’d have done the same with his feelings for yuuji if yuuji wasn’t the one to ask him out), but where’s the fun in that! you and megumi are sooo cute together after all, so yuuji doesn’t mind trying to get you two to confess to each other too. uses his proximity to megumi to get closer to you, takes advantage of his bubbly disposition to be physically affectionate with you, uses megumi’s feelings to his advantage to tease, to wink, to smirk whenever you and yuuji hug a little longer, when he texts megumi that he’s meeting up with you for lunch, when he gives you his jacket and doesn’t ask for it back… there’s so much fun in watching megumi blush and whine and get off at the thought of his best friend and his boyfriend together. and the thing is, yuuji genuinely does like you, too, he sees what megumi sees in you, and he thinks megumi is crazy to have not asked you out before, but he supposes everything happens for a reason, because now, this way, yuuji gets to be there and watch it all happen under his guidance. there’s something about the power, about being the bridge between you two even though you and megumi have known each other for much longer, about being in control of a dynamic that could have, but wouldn’t exist without him…

#anonymous #can u tell... ive thought about this before.... GODD #the locked folder in my notes app dedicated to itfs + reader..... maybe she will see the light of day after all LOL #my itfs heart.... anon u dont know what you've done.............. #also the divide between the way the 3 of u come together is like.... #if ur with yuuji its just like.... hes got too much love for either one of u #and even when he gets to share u with megumi its not enough he loves u both and there's no real proper way to ever fully share or express i #but watching u two fuck is about as close as it gets to feeling like all his love is coming full circle #but the other way... when hes with megumi and can see that megumi still wants u and then yuuji gets to know u and wants u himself.... #now h'es got too much power and its power that neither u nor megumi truly see or understand until ur all in bed together #which is crazy bc in theory u and megumi should be stronger should know each other better should be the two friends sharing him #but it's not. it's yuuji who brought u three together and it's yuuji that knew about ur feelings for each other before u and megumi did #and in some weird twisted way u owe it to him and he definitely likes to reap his rewards #and even when u three are together he doesn't stop teasing... #sometimes he makes megumi be meaner to u... coaxes him into thinking he should teach u a lesson for never being able to see his feelings #u owe it to ur best friend to show him how much u love him dont u.... #but then other days he'll turn it around... make u the baby and soothe ur tears... #because its only fair u take the both of them bc they love u sooooo much they just wanna be good to u #but also how fun is it for yuuji to remind you that megumi knew he liked u and still asked him out... maybe u should want revenge for that #maybe u take it out on megumi maybe u take it out on yuuji idkidkidk #anyway... #itafushi x reader #yuuji x reader #megumi x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #yuuji.ask

[shitpostingfromthebarricade]

Why do you hate Alexander Hamilton so much? The guy lived and died before you were even born dude. He isn’t going to come alive and bite you XD

No, his actions just persist in the policies that my home nation was founded upon.

#guy was a warmongerer and also wanted Washington to basically play king #his politics were conservative and he offered to buy enslaved persons for his wife if she wanted #so he's not the abolitionist hero some like to paint him as #and Burr only challenged Alexander to a duel after MANY YEARS of Alex undermining his political ambitions #and trying to undermine voting results (intentionally party-splitting to get the other to win) so obviously once that George III knew #this is without getting into the adultery #look the musical fucked I can't deny that even after LMM's personal issues and the fandom that was born of it #and bi rights or whatever #(I am bi) #but as a person he objectively sucked #and I am allowed to have opinions on people fictional and dead even if they are no longer capable of actively directly influencing Now #PARTICULARLY when it's someone whose actions Have Indeed influenced modern history #his face is on the $10 ffs THAT'S how influential he was #not just with the formation of the modern banks but in general #tbh replace Alexander Hamilton instead of Andrew Jackson with Harriet Tubman #bc Jackson HATED the banks and Hamilton would HATE having his legacy diminished #if we're replacing Jackson we should replace him with Crazy Horse or another historically significant indigenous person #answers and shitposts #personal

[da-proti-toku-grem]

how do you know the difference between a huge anxiety attack and a panic attack?

#i think i had a panic attack yesterday but idk...... #god it felt so awful and it went on for like 3 hours #but i also had like a hundred things going on so idk if it was like the accumulation of everything or if it was really a panic attack yk #i was at the fair with my family waiting for my best friend to arrive bc i was going to hang out with her #and yk it's a place full of people and we were standing right next to a huge speaker hearing a man talk #and also each place in the fair has different music playing super loud and you can hear all of them at the same time (+ the flashing lights #all that causes me anxiety every since i was little (even if i didn't know it was anxiety back then) #so i *knew* i was going to have the greatest time and i didn't really want to go there in the first place #but even with that i wasn't really haven't a bad time (yet) #we were just stading there and i was waiting for my friend to call me so we could go somewhere else #she called me to tell me she was coming and right when i hung up the phone i felt a really strong pang on my belly #and idk at first i thought it was period cramps but it was weird bc my period had actually stopped that same morning #also i had taken a painkiller right before going there bc all that i mentioned earlier also gives me migraines so there's that too #so yeah the pangs kept getting stronger and it hurt so fucking bad to the point my legs started trembeling #my vision blured and every sound around me seemed to almost fade away #there wasn't any place i could sit down so i gad to cling to my dad and he had to hold me so i didn't fall to the ground #i think i almost (?) fainted in his arms too #after a while the dizzines went away and my dad went to get me smth to drink and i mostly got my hearing and vision back to normal #all that was like 10 minutes max but then the pangs kept hitting every minute or so for the next 3 hours #we found a place to sit and find smth to eat but i couldn't eat anything without wanting to throw up #my legs wouldn't stop shaking like fucking crazy and i kept going from feeling like i was freezing to sweating from how hot i felt #idk i've had smth like this (w/o the pangs) happen to me before a bunch of times but never That strong and it usually lasted 5-10min max #we ended up having to go home and i had to take some more painkillers and my sleeping pills to be able to calm down a little #i'm pretty sure i fell asleep from exhaustion after everything and i'm still feeling a bit weird after almost 24 hours since it happened #anyways. the thing is idk if all that was caused bc of my anxiety #or if it was smth completely unrelated and i just had such a bad tummy ache that it made me feel bad enough to cause All That yknow #i think it felt pretty much like how i've heard people describe a panic attack but again i'm not sure #yeah......... #maca speaks

[imperial-agent]

mr house never being able to replicate his courier six because they never let him scan them, so all he has are a few shoddy recordings he took to recreate the courier from. his replicas of courier six are flawed: none are as perceptive, resourceful and proactive. they aren't good at out-of-the-box thinking or improvising. their problemsolving, diplomacy skills and technological innovation ideas fall short of the original and are just another disappointment every time. they end up hollow shells like jane, marilyn and victor. letting new vegas go, ruin itself in pursuit of recreating his perfect right hand again, hope for another fruitful partnership and bright future of the mojave like they did before is so delicious it makes me sick actually send tweet ✌

#ulysses warned my courier house would sooner or later put her face on a robot servant and he was right!! and she knew he was!!! #but the way house went about it in my headcanon is making me sick in the stomach!!!!!!!!!!!!! #the devnotes?? that allied courier was his first true prodigy/son/daughter IN 200 HUNDRED YEARS??? sickening. i love it #add a fucked up romantic-not-really-only-pining storyline into that already crazy cocktail and im eating it up!!!!!!!!!!! YUM!!!! #my courier is a technophile but she's got a shred of self-respect and wont let (out of pride mostly) house scan her brain #she dies ensuring the continuation of new vegas setting it up to prosper only for house to let it go to shit.... the drama......... #because he cannot imagine a world without his partner who has changed the world around them so much in such a short life.... #so he sets out to recreate even a shred of her glory so they may continoue to reign over the mojave but he fails miserably over and over #and his pursuit blins him to the shit stirring on the streets and the area that even his army of securitrons isnt able to stop #either the nv clans successfuly rebel/make the city go to shit while he's too busy working on the courier copies #or some outside party infiltrates and gets his ass while he's not looking. rip #either way my courier is always the death of mr house whether they are allied or not bc i love doomed narratives #personal #delete later #fallout #? technically #till we get season 2 of the tv show im able to brainstorm ideas as to what happened to nv after fnv ended!!!! SOMEBODY STOP ME (dont) #im cutting this extremely short my thought on this are pretty long i couldnt fall asleep on monday bc ulysses' words were haunting me

[hauntingblue]

Gear 5 luffy's laugh is so contagious I just hear the drums and go insane how does this work. What did he do to me

#i still cant believe how much this new opening theme goes off.... DREAM SAVE ALL OF US 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH 💥💥💥💥💥💥 #wait a second. the robot attacked 200 years ago. the void century was 800 years ago no????? what #oh see it was made 900 years ago.... but why did it attack 200 years ago then.... what happened #it is still so funny how they made evegapunk einstein but with some cunty long legs #200 years ago they gave rights to the gyojin!!! i see i see ✍️✍️also i still wonder why law and kuma have similar hat and pants designs #like there is NO WAY that much similarity isnt done on purpose. NO FUCKING WAY!!! I NEED ANSWERS!!! #are they annihliating cp ships akdhakskd yeah vegapunk letsgo #also the opening song is about dreams and the end one is about luffy reaching shanks...... havent got a clue why but there it is #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1098 #also is lucci named lucci bc it kinda sounds like luffy. SERAPHIM KUMA HAS HIS DEVIL FRUIT???? vegapunk could only make zoan fruits???? #also wdym when cp0 acts it means its some historic event. lucci is like 25. where are the experienced people here #sentomaru works for vegapunk??? maybe i forgor about this tbh also do theu have a doffy seraphim??? the fact they have animal names.... #stussy letting kaku get hurt akdhsjsn oh atlas has lamb ears..... and lucci said she is is prey... no..... the foresahdowing :( #lucci you fucked up she just gave luffy food... that a death sentence look what happened to kaido #episode 1099 #<- oh my god btw. god. jesus. #why is akainu telling the cp0 what to do or thinks he can do that... thats the world gov... also thinkng about how garp should fight him #and not luffy.... because of ace you know... i still wonder how did sengoku know who ace's father was... there is only one man who knew.... #everyone trying to stop them from fighting ajdhsksjks two rabid dogs fr #LUFFY TAKING OFF HIS JACKET WHEN LUCCI ASKS FOR HIS WANTED SIGN!!!! GO OFF KING!!!! SLAY!!! THE CREW SAW HIM!!! FINALLY!!! #i have been smiling since he started the transformation this is so sick...... i have got a case of the luffy brain #zoan fruits steal the personality of the user when they awaken ✍️✍️ luffy???? nami being the only one who saw gear 5 <3 twins manifesto #robin being so shook about luffy being a god ajdbjansk wdym devil fruits exist because people wish for them. fairy magic real???? #WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE FROM ALTERNATE REALITIES WHERE SOMEONE DREAMT ABOUT THEM??? DOES HE TRAVEL THRU REALITIES FOR THEM??? #jinbe has been making this face 😧 every episode three times it is amazing ajdhaksnsk poor man... now he sees a kid angel version of himself #after seeing hia captain turn into a god... he is gonna get a stroke OMG SENTOMARU WE JUST GOT YOU BACK #episode 1100 #<- CRAZY. INSANE. OH GOD. ONLY 12 LEFT. THATS A WEEKEND!!! I CANT DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[theshippirate22]

every now and then i get hit with the idea of what might happen if Joyce found out about the sins of s1&2 jonathan

#she would lose her shit #WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU TOOK PICTURES OF THEM HAVING SEX???? #WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU KNEW THEY WERE TOGETHER AND SLEPT WITH HER ANYWAY??? #things would go down in the byers house that night #nancy wouldn’t be excluded from the yelling either because she was the cheater and HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU DO THIS #meanwhile steve is like please it’s fine it’s just me i deserved it #and she about gives herself whiplash to turn around and tell him that’s bullshit and he absolutely didn’t deserve it and #WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE SAY THAT #and then nancy would get all like sheepish and just leave and steve would end up with like an edible arrangement and shit a few days later #meanwhile jonathan is getting SCREAMED AT #she pulls out the i Am sO dIsApPoInTeD iN yOu #Will!!1!1! #i swear to good if you EVER do this to a someone you’re gonna regret it! #THEY GAVE STEVE A FUCKING COMPLEX #steve is like i can hear you i’m right here #sorry sweetie you know i’m right though #then she turns to argyle and eddie who have been sitting there the whole time #YOU TWO #argyle screams a little bit and eddie chokes out yes ma’am #(never forget this is the woman that punched a politician and took an ax to her own walls okay she’s CRAZY) #YOU TWO TAKE STEVE HOME. WAIT NO TAKE HIM TO BASKIN ROBBINS THEN TAKE HIM HOME #*angrily pulls cash from her wallet and hands it to them* #STEVE I LOVE YOU YOURE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME PLEASE COME TO DINNER ON THURSDAY #argyle mumbled good luck to jonathan on the way out and jonathan is like please don’t leave me here alone 😭😭😭😭

[extravalgant]

Well done, my champion, my hero, my... dare i say it? My Scion. 

started thinkin about lemuria again and before i knew it i was 4+ hours deep into this painting of calamity . crazy stuff

IM NOT THERE YET ON MY STORM (camera pan to me dead in karamelle) but that wont stop me from getting the story ELSEWHERE... the monitoring stations with the old one always interested me . love how he called us his scion i think thats very fucked up possessive of him

anyways heres one more lil doodle

#wizard101 #w101 #lemuria spoilers #HOW DO I... EXPLAIN THIS #this is a lie i would love to explain all my fucked up and projected thinking #I LOVE THAT LITTLE PIECE OF DIALOGUE.... #and its so funny to imagine this as calamity in this situation #because as far as she knows the arcanum and ravenwood let her kill anyone she pleased #either that or she realized early on that she had 'permission to kill' that anyone else didnt have #so later on down the line she starts toeing the line of a 'good' and 'bad' person so when dasein comes along shes like ur telling me #i gotta deal with and sort out my own moral compass ??? AND TEACH IT TO THIS GUY??? #guy (gender neutral) #but like... MY SCION . what did u mean by that. AND ITS CAPITALIZED SO ITS IMPORTANT #whether or not he knew it was us (but i think he did know it was us) when we saw each other on the summit its like . things would have been #so different if he didnt get swallowed and thats the crazy part #MY CHAMPION.. MY HERO... like objectively speaking those are very much positive/good aligned but coming from that tv #i was like u are trying to mold us (the wizard) into EVIL!!! MAYBE . maybe #also its sooo juicy how we will never know if the old one actually had a change of heart bc hes dead . like LOST CONNECTIONS... #some will say yes and canon supports that i guess w the guilt line but at the same time im like . he was way too flippant with the lives of #these inhibitants for me to believe that he felt guilt at the last moment like what CHANGED... #anyways . i like to think that he was still putting up a front and had an ego to assume nothing bad would happen to him #bc yknow he 'knew everything' #and then he ends up getting absorbed and its like . a #I TALK SO MUCH IN THESE TAGS... kissie for whoever reads this mwah #my art #also this was like my first time doing both perspective AND lighting and i was working with 4 different light sources #please . have mercy on me #edit: ok apparently he didnt know who the scion would b in lemuria but ig he knew it might have been us in karamelle . idk! idk

[kendallroygf]

One thing that goes crazy is those distant screaming calls for help you can hear in the background of off to the races. Like the whole basic premise is this lolita inspired dynamic between this young lonely girl and this much older man where she swears that nobody else in the world would even have her except for him and this in itself is a feat because she’s ‘crass’ and has a ‘broke down life’ etc and the whole thing is entrenched in denial. He loves her in spite of all these things wrong with her, all he asks is that she does what he wants, he’s like an omnipresent figure for her - watches her in the bathroom, getting dressed etc. and the almost hyperbolic way she describes herself smitten with him and how she believes she needs him, she’s nothing without him, the dependency borders on the paternal. It’s not that she’s unable to leave it’s that she believes she has nowhere else to go, he’s made it so she’s so enmeshed that she simply thinks she could not survive without him. he’s ‘saving’ her from herself and she’s in even more debt to him for it (sorry that im misbehaving!!!) and imo she’s almost a parody of herself bc she doubles down on this narrative that’s she’s a seductress and insane and crazy and she needs looking after by this mature older man when in reality she’s so troubled, under constant observation but she twists it so it’s like she’s running away to be caught by him rather than to escape. And in the end her calls for help can barely be heard under the passionate repetition that he’s her one true love

#plus lana’s voice going higher during the chorus as if she’s making her self sound more youthful and childish compared to ‘says it sounds #like heaven to him’ which is so sardonic and cry. almost as if she’s making fun of him. and the gimme those gold coins line. like it’s equa #*dry #in some way if she’s getting something out of it too. waving golden jewelry in her face buying her things etc #like the fire of my loins line is not misplaced at all bc this song is so obviously abt lolita. but it’s like. humbert humbert’s perspectiv #almost completely overshadowing dolores’ i.e the calls for help in the background . like soo much of it is based on lines and passages from #the book . she literally cried every night !!! . ‘you see she has absolutely nowhere else to go’ + i love you i’ll never leave you they #would rue the day i was alone without you. like it’s so obviously humberts perspective on himself and how dolores feels abt him. but #modernised in a way. like i fully believe lana knew what she doing with this one. her philosophy degree coming thru … #sorry for analysing and going crazy over a lana song do u stil think I’m sexy …. #but also! that’s why this song pertains so well to fucked up paternal dynamics this is why you see every sicko on this website use this son #like there’s so many layers to it. like sorry but if i think abt succession and breaking bad to this song no i don’t. there was a while #where i was like this is sooo pre s1 tomshiv also. but yeah lol #just.. SONG OF ALL TIME #.

[thentherewasfury]

I am a person who is smart only sometimes and I am very tired even though it is only Monday, but I ate two-thirds of a box of Girl Scout cookies tonight in a fit of delicious hedonism and I woke up next to my boyfriend this morning and get to see him again on Wednesday and my life is weird and I’m still doing dumb things and I am happier than was ever imaginable to me 15 years ago

#the line used to be ‘wow middle/high school me would be so relieved if she knew we turned out this way’ #I don’t think relief is even the right word anymore #I am genuinely bone deep happy with my life and crazy in love #with a person who is crazy in love with me back #and we’re doing life weird and corkscrews because that’s how it goes but I’m so fucking happy #anyway that’s enough nightblogging I have work in the morning

[rckhudson]

if i told you guys that i lived my life in the guetto, eating sausage everyday, in a house with 6 uncles and aunts where they, as children, didnt even have butter to spread MEANWHILE my grandpa's family been keeping alway a whole ass farm in rio de janeiro (which is ours) and soooo much fucking land (which is also ours) away from us, isolating our family from the rest and pretending we dont exist. trying to force my grandma (who was illiterate) to sign papers so she would "give" them the land (she didnt), and now decades later we found all this out via a rich cousin trying to make us sign some blank papers saying we have "the right to a little land in rio" which made my aunt smell something fishy and 1 yr from now ill be rich owning my own house and my mom will own 12 little lands, would you guys believe me or would u think im re-telling the plot from a mexican telenovela?

#we been knew for 2 yrs now but honestly i wasnt putting too much faith into it bc the idea of all of this meaning actual money that will #allow me to live comfortably was already crazy enough but now ive meet cousins and lawyers and seen the fucking farm and the family that #lives there already and own basically half of parati and have so many boats and its.....a lot and insanity and i dont like them but also its #mine and its my mom and she will finally will be able to live a dignified life at her old age and im a little euphoric tbh sorryyyy #i didnt want to tell anybody bc it felt so fake but now im sizzling like a bottle of pepsi

[starsandthorn]

read through alien space for star rail context and every frame himeko's in you can faintly hear me in the bg trying hard not to think about how much she looks like diluc

#personal stuff #delete later #remembering the reason i got into honkai in the first place was to see what similarities genshin might have inherited #and going oh yeah!! this is fun actually #anyway yeah. woe same hair color bangs and art style be upon ye. the little hair loopy is driving me crazy #don't get me started on the red eye that pepper mint has contrasted to the delusion. good night #the manga itself was really interesting though! i haven't read a whole lot of the honkai manga bc i don't know where to start really #like i've read azure waters bc i love my girl. and second key for gay people lore #but i haven't read any of the others i don't think #also REALLY funny to me who didn't finish apho 2. originally i thought welt's star rail experience was an isekai. #i honest to god thought void archives hit him with a train and he woke up on a different train #while funny. the actual reality has me head in hands. the image of star rail himeko that welt sees and recognizes her.....auuuugh. #and the very person who rescues him is the person he feels like he did wrong by lying to her. agh. #but yeah! i only knew a little bit abt himeko's dad based on what we're told early in game #so i originally speculated that genshin murata's father was the og pyro archon who died and she took his place #but now i'm not entirely sure. #chances are. since we've seen archons inherit the same Ideal along with their element. murata probably fought her predecessor #and took their place #ACTUALLY FUCK ME. WAIT. #LIBEN'S LINE ABOUT NATLAN . WAS HIM TALKING ABOUT OTHER WORLDS. #at first i thought it was just a cheap way for the developers to talk about their other new game and maybe it was BUT ALSO. #AND AT LEAST ONE MURATA WAS OBSESSED WITH GOING TO SPACE. #HMMMM #listen i am not all that excited for natlan purely on the basis that i know mhy is going to fuck up every character design #but plotwise maybe i am allowed a little bit of hope. lol #anyway void archives pretty. i get it now.