#amen isnt some sweet little word

[soldier-poet-king]

Amen aka "let it be so" but not as a prayer or a plea or an expression of peace, but as a horrific, pyrrhic surrender. As anger and desperation. As a, I give up. Fine. You win. Just make it stop.

#anyway #franposting #been thinking a lot abt horror and faith lately #and the nature of the divine as smthn terrifying as well as smthn good #like. see the face of god and die yknow? #amen isnt some sweet little word #its horrifying? that doesnt make it bad. it just is. it just is #and its a horrible surrdender. choking on your blood and giving up #yes i AM making a playlist for this #only 2 songs on it but yknow maybe thats how it is #its a highly specific emotion and thought #and maybe i am just literally getting a little bit crazy again #due for a paranoid spiral probably #also little gay bitches. like. we're the only ones who get it maybe