#always waking up at 3-4 am

[salamispots]

I woke up at 3:45 am with shrine music in my brain so I'm gonna yell a little about totk spoilers below fhhhhh mostly about game things no real plot stuff haha

the intRO :'D that mononoke touch ahhhhh idk why but specifically the scene/shot of link's hearts going down from the wiggly worm demon smoke thing is stuck in my brain/makes me feel emotional

also the whole 'I was gone for a bit and the world looks different but sort of the same/everyone moved on' made me feel a little like the evangelion movie when shinji wakes up and he's still the same gives me feeLINGS not necessarily bad; maybe a little bittersweet? idk

I keep giggling at how GOOFY some of the weapons look when they're fused and the names (like...thick stick stick or something LMAO)

the glee of using a rocket for the first time also I'm building the most basic shit hahah I'm not particularly good/creative at stuff like this

ahhhh I loved how there's still those big stone talus in the game and the first one I come across is disguised as a base for bokoblin

the instantaneous fuck off panic of running into those red arm/hands and panicking because you run out of stamina while running away hahah

speaking of tHE MUSIC OH MY GOD I love the shrine music so much? and the first time when you go to the depths when you're falling the tone shift is so eerie

exploring too far into an area where you're too underleveled and getting one hit killed by something haha

when you leave the sky islands for the first time I was hanging out at the very top and was like...surely they're not saying just to jump off? I thought you were supposed to build something to get down but I sorta just fell off for the heck of it and I was extremely charmed by the fact that they said yes you can jump off and just dive into some random body of water from miles above in the sky and again I love the music for that/when you're first introduced to the sky islands

sky islands fun but it's nice being on the ground hahahfg/having a glider now and not constantly breaking into a sweat at hEIGHTS haha like....I went to the top of the temple and crawled all the way around to the other side of the locked doors lmao but the amount of times I slipped and fell of those tiny ledges

I still love freefalling and using the glider at the last second

running into a tree for the first time HAHA and the ominous tiptoeing after you

also yeah controls feel better now/just had to play more but I still definitely keep pressing the wrong buttons for things

I think once I got off the sky islands and to the ground that was kinda when I got fully invested? like again before actually buying the game and playing it I was kinda like ehhh I'll probably play it some point

also the game reigniting my need for link zelda ganon ot3 content :'D

the fondness of having character designs be 3/4 torso ahahha

PURAH I love her ouTFIT

the little detail of chasing fish and the fish trying to escape actually beached themselves on the shore??

LINK HUMMING WHILE COOKING I've only recognized one song so far (saw someone on reddit say they also heard song of storms and it clicked in my brain so now two haha)

oh! I love the amount of nooks and crannies to explore! like all the wells and caves >:0

ngl didn't end up finishing botw (I absolutely did look up the ending before I played totk HAHA >:'D ) because I ended up exploring the majority of the map/got bored after that and I didn't particularly like how the map felt empty/the same after a while? idk if the same thing will pop up again for me in totk but I do like how there's some new enemies and it feels more lively so far? we'll see

ALSO LMAO fighting bokoblins with a moblin and the moblin just straight picking up a bokoblin and throwing it at me??

#totk spoilers #lmao the problem of being sleepy and going to bed before/by 12 and almost without fail #always waking up at 3-4 am #if I play a game enough I'll start waking up with its music replaying in my head #hAFGHHF incoming massive wall of text warning haha

[pthalomars]

hhhhhghgg... jason grace thoughts... [my telekinetic powers make every wall in my house explode]

#jason grace #during the time after the titan war and before the events of the lost hero there was a that period of 3-4 months when leo and piper were #under the influence of the Mist and believed they were spending time with jason. right? yeah okay so #jason is still at camp jupiter but occasionally he has blackouts in which he is sort of present in the wilderness school with leo and piper #when he comes back he thinks theyre just like #weird dreams or whatever #but they feel real and he starts to remember specific moments and behaviors with the two strangers in his dreams #however #by the time jason wakes up on the bus. he obviously has no recollection of his life #or those weird blackouts that happened all the way up to his disappearance #back at camp jupiter. reyna would be there for jason when he blacked out and would bring him to somewhere safe and comfortable #for him to rest until he woke up #and sometimes jason would talk when he was unconscious #it was always indistinguishable but sometimes reyna swore she heard him say names #anyways im completely insane about jasom grace and i am forever attached to this kid

[stuckinapril]

Honestly I’m such an intrinsically morning person that I really do cringe at my teen phase when I’d stay up all the time against my circadian rhythm/natural inclination to be knocked out by 8 pm

#I’ve been waking up at 4 am the past few weeks and it just makes sense #I got so much done #I’m super energized #hs me would STAY UP to get work done and it was always miserable and it made no sense #granted ik a lot of people r night owls but im very much an early bird #growing up really was realizing being up at 3 am didn’t make me cool it just made me Deprived #p

[louisdotmp3]

every single night my cat is like oh perfect the 8 hours where you're trying to sleep. the perfect time for me to start tearing at the carpet with my teeth and swinging from the curtains and yelling at you to get up or else

#i swear to god i haven't had a decent night's sleep in like 4 months i'm going fucking crazy #i play with him for 30 minutes before i try to go to sleep and he's like. that's not enough only EYE get to sleep #he wakes me up at 5 am every day <3 i love my 5ish hours of uninterrupted sleep <3 #he's not Always like this that's why it's driving me up a wall. but this is certainly the longest period he's done this #i would prefer constant energy kitten phase back because then at least then i could Do something about it

[m0onjellies]

God my sleep schedule is so fucked

#I slept at 4 am on Sunday #and had to wake up 3 hrs later for school #and then I slept at 6 pm on Monday #and woke up at 2 am on Tuesday #it was a full 8 hrs but it felt like a nap 😭 #ares.txt #I literally woke up feeling anxious that I didn’t do my he #hw #like… I want to fucking pass out and die all of the time always

[sharky857]

Me, thinking at the farmer getting up, every single morning, at 6 AM: *whispers* How effed up even is your sleep schedule, at this point..? :°D

#stardew valley #sdv #elliott sdv #sdv elliott #stardew elliott #elliott stardew valley #sharky's stunning skills at gaming #I know he (and Abby) insta-falls asleep as soon as the clock strikes 10 PM (when it's not night festival time) #And doing the quickest laundry may take 1.5 hours or so between washing and hanging #So technically laundry should start around 4 AM #which means he might need to get up at least 30 mins before that time (he could always take care of his hair afterwards) #so all this could mean that he goes to bed at 10 PM and also wakes up at 3:30 AM. #That would make only 5.5 hours of sleep. #DUDE! This farmer appreciates the thought #but also... pls don't skip on too many precious resting hours ಥ-ಥ

[crowcryptid]

Thank you to my professor for having common sense and ending the class 30 mins early cause no one who is willingly taking a class at this time is memorizing chemical formulas past 9 pm

#my school is so. dumb. #the classes during the middle of the week are either 1-2 hours #and they can be anywhere between 1-3 times a week #but the classes past work hours are always so damn long #this class is nearly 4 hours #yet had I taken the class at like 10:30 AM it’s only 2 hours once a week #explain. #and then. all the classes start at 5:45 or 6. unless you live across the street from your job your not going to be home at that time #traffic here is terrible. and yet. the schedule doesn’t match. #they classes should all be from 6:30-8:30 at the most. #you gotta wake up at 5 am to get to work on time here. why tf do we have classes ending at 10 pm #sigh ok I’m done complaining #I’m just. constantly exhausted. #oh man tired brain + autocorrect is killing me here. oh well

[benetnvsch]

nothing like clocking outta work after an 8 hour day at 3 am askdhjd-

#DONT ASK ME WHY I DO THIS TO MYSELF I DON'T KNOW #(jk I do it's to buy silly commissions of my favorite ocs akdjhdk) #(Maybbaps.... merch too if I could find any I liked) #if I wasn't constantly posting my time I wonder what timezone ppl would assume im in #cuz im always posting at like 3-4 am and waking up at noon shit's fucked #MJHFKJHFK yea gn y'all peace freax

[chrisbangs]

zzz

#kinda weird for me... right now times... #mm... idk #i have no friends... no job... no partner... #so these days i wake up at 2 pm eat smth small and then go back to sleep (which means i'm in bed watching mark) until 10-11 pm and then go #down and drink some tea maybe eat smth if anyone asks why i haven't eaten and then go back to bed and fall asleep at around 6 am and #rinse repeat... #and it's really noticeable bc my sister talks to her friends at least 3/4 times a week and she has a whole schedule of who she's playing #games with on what day... and my mom and dad are super involved with their temple activities #my mom keeps asking why i'm in my room so much but i don't . have anything that ties me to this world does that makes sense idk #i just don't have anything... #that's why i'm giffing again lol #i thought it would make me feel better #didn't really do anything i guess #i'm tired heh... 😞 #kinda weird that i don't have anyone or anything left #it's always been like this but #anyway... once again another reason to hate the summer #also not to mention my bday will eventually come around soon enough and #i hate my bday more than i hate myself so lol #anyway... it's just been on my mind... i wanna sleep a lot these days and that's ok i guess... #im tired ah... #dl #li.txt

[vydumaj]

it’s so frustrating to constantly feel that I’m not operating at my max, or even normal, potential right now. I hear things in lecture, I read things, I kind of take them in and understand most of it but I retain next to nothing. plus I have no energy so I can’t spend as much time practicing as I need (much more time required than I would’ve needed just 2-3 years ago)… I don’t know how to get back to my normal levels of… brain efficiency, or how to make myself able to…remember things again.

#it’s because of stress and insomnia #or idk if it’s really insomnia since I usually do fall asleep it’s just that I wake up after 3-4 hours pretty often #and don’t always fall asleep again or if I do it takes so much time I only get 1 hour more maybe hhh #it’s been like this for over a year #techincally I should be getting better now because the house is sold I have way less things to stress over #but idk….how do I get out of hereee #I mean the fact that I’m kind of failing (I am failing) right now is making the stress and thus the sleeping worse #plus some other things I don’t want to talk about #I can never make myself be honest #anyway #. #vent

[acesammy]

this fucking hell that i’m living in is really making me miss that era of my depression where i would just sleep all the time

#i feel like that was objectively a worse mental state for me #bc i do not nap #it makes me feel like shit and i've literally always had a deep hatred of the fact that se need to sleep #but if i get to the state where i cannot engage with reality anymore #yeah #something is very very wrong #but now i'm in a stage where i cant fucking sleep #this is far more common but bc i have a regular sleep schedule for work #it means no matter what #i /will not sleep past 7 am/ #i had a HELL day 2 weeks ago where i stayed up for almost 24 hours #running on 3 hours of sleep the night before #and i STILL fucking woke up 4 goddamn hours after i fell asleep #at 7 am #and i always wake up with so much FUCKING anxiety #that i cant get back to sleep #i think i could count on one hand the amount of nights i've gotten more than 6 hours of sleep in the last month #and usually that would be whatever #but i'm also so fucking sad ALL of the time #bc i am not handling things very well #i feel trapped #and alone #and i feel like i will NEVER get what normal adults got at fucking 15 #and whatever whatever whatever whatever #and all of this is worse bc i cannot FUCKING SLEEP #anyways #on the bright side the only time i can convince myself that i'm not horrifically depressed #is when i'm drawing #so i have been drawing a Lot #at least theres that

[pitroig]

jetlagging hard

#god i am so tired #waking up at 4 am for 3 days #spy family #anya supremacy #spy x family #Anya is always a mood

[noxtivagus]

I'M SO SLEEPY HFLKDJA

#🌙.vent #weekends r too short i barely did anything ngl but. i did spend time w my family n some friends lately so that's nice !?! #just thinking n oh my god i hate being shy so much. i tell myself so often i need to hesitate less! but #it's just so HARD. I HATE IT BCS I REALLY WNA JUST #😭😭 i can't help but feel really bad about it bcs. i really need to.. #oh my mind is such a mess rn wait but i really need to hesitate less #ok that said it's 4 am n i have to wake up in less than 3 hours. i'm sleepy but. i want to.. write whatever. i need to #it's so hard for me to bring myself to sleep until i've. written. something #writing to my friend writing to myself writing for school i don't care i really just need to write something before i sleep #this sucks bcs i'm genuinely rlly sleepy rn but i can't bring myself to just. stop wtvr n finally go to sleep #it's so. tbf it is like 4 am rn my mind is so messy #i opened up a bit to one of my online friends of my.. anxiety of like drifting apart or being distant n all #n their words reminded me of some stuff that made me reflect a bit n #i know w like. a lot of my friends i don't have to be so nervous about anything at all n i #i'm about to cry rn i blame it on the lack of sleep n the sleepiness i have rn :< #it's just such a touchy subject for me i always get very emotional when i think or reflect on what i mean to others....? #it's a really really touchy subject for me bcs it just. reminds me that i'm. actually alive n human too yk? that. this is. real i think #i'm crying this is so dumb #it's so. i hate it so much bcs at heart i know better but it's just so hard to really just accept that. i don't know #how is it like to have /me/ in your life?? in whatever way?? it just feels so unreal to me n that. probably stems from a certain #loneliness that i've grown to be used to. n then it's the root of my hesitation i Think #it's just.. rlly so hard at times to. idk i can't help but unintentionally restrain myself w others n there's just often this barrier #i hate it i'm so afraid to be hurt in any way again that even though i rlly wish this fear wasn't there it's just engraved in me #n so i wonder at times. the person others know me as. is it rlly me or just the parts they want to see. an image of me? #i hate it bcs i know certainly w the way i perceive others i love them so much wholly but accepting that for me feels so 'selfish' #i know better but it's so hard to just break out of it n i feel like a burden so often.i hate it so much i feel like i'm rarely ever enough #& i 'have' to be just enough; not too much or too little. i have. fears of what wld happen if i really be myself if i wasn't shy n all..? #n then i rlly can be too harsh on myself at times. to do things right n properly. but life is imperfect the world is imperfect n it's ok if #if i'm not too right? if i can love others unconditionally then.. surely surely i'm not exempt from that? surely i'm human too? #yk what. i'll be fine when i wake up i think i'll go sleep n do the rest tomorrow. it's been.. a month now hasn't it? 28th huh

[daz4i]

oh i need to KILL MYSELF kill myself huh

#liveblogging my mental breakdown on tumblr dot com #i can already tell tonight is gonna be awful #i mean. it already is #i just don't know if i can fall asleep. and i need to wake up in less than 7 hours #took 2 pills i probably shouldn't mix together and if this keeps up i might add a third #but that third one is gonna make tomorrow even worse bc it always makes me wake up groggy as fuck #i think if i reach 3 am and still can't sleep i'll let my supervisors(?) know i won't come tomorrow #not like i have much to do anyway. just gonna have to show up for 4 hours of nothing. 4 times this week #(that's actually one of the reasons i'm distressed and why i came to a boiling point over smth small now. probably.) #anyway. i hope i just die tonight and that's it. it won't happen but i hope it does i really do. manifesting so hard rn #maybe this disease my tests show i might have will kick in exactly tonight. save a lot of time and effort i think #i can tell at least one of the pills already kicked in but ngl it's not helping much i think i'm just starting to dissociate tbh. #suicide // #negative // #vent #ask to tag

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

literally all i have been doing the past two weeks is Wanting. they call me the wanter the way i'm wanting things i can never have

#yearning longing whatever you wanna call it #needing as well but to a lesser extent because you can only need to a certain degree before it becomes wanting. lusting for sure #i have not stopped since the year started and i don't see an end in sight yet. i literally can't even think straight anymore #i literally cannot do anything or get anything done i mean i'm bad at that usually but like i genuinely think i've lost it #and as someone who never had it to begin with... idk!!!! #it's like i'm afraid to lose focus on it as if it isn't a constant choice i keep making when i wake up #i must remember that i can give up anything if i decide to. everything could change tomorrow #not looking at him for 2 hours will not make the feeling go away... pls be convinced brain #because i have not been sleeping well </3 #and i'm becoming hard to be around again. people can just instinctively tell when i'm being weird #it is important that i be as realistic as possible while being the most deranged person on earth #wouldn't want to hurt myself again lmao... but i always do anyways so i just gotta let it happen #anyways i'm gonna try to watch harold and maude sometime today and also watch another movie bc we are only 4 weeks into 2024 #and i already fucked up the 'watch a movie a week' thing i've been doing LMAO all because i wanted to look at a man #i'm ridiculously fucking braindead #not upset about it tho that's just who i am. brain is fully developed in 2 weeks and 1 day so it's never gonna change sadly #atp growing and changing are not impossible but if i do not see a reward of being loved at the end of the tunnel i will end up dead #and it's fine it's all so fine

[slvttyplum]

randomly waking up at 4 am to feel that “poke” in your back from satoru.

it happens every night without fail.

he’ll have his arms around you while drooling snugged against your back in a nice peaceful sleep, and every time you tried to move him he’ll go back to the same position.

“satoru wake up.” and he won’t budge, so you were stuck having to wake him up and take care of it or you’ll be up all night.

this would happen almost every night and there was no way to keep him on his side of the bed and keep his little friend down.

it was either take care of it or have it keep irritating you.

he would wake up all groggy and then “apologize” while moaning up a storm.

at certain point you told him to just sleep with his dick inside of you because you were so tired having to wake up and deal with it.

sometimes “dealing” with it will have you

pinned down with your legs over his shoulder and his dick sliding in and out of you for hours.

he wouldn’t want to stop.

and that’s the thing about satoru, once you started something sexual there was no such thing as stopping, he was going to milk you until you were on the brink of passing out.

so imagine waking up in the middle of the night to get fucked for 3 hours straight, that’s not ideal.

“i’m sorry baby. you don’t have to.” with a sly smirk on his face. although his first comment was correct, he really didn’t mean to get hard, he just had a sensitive dick, but you taking care of it made him horny.

he could always count on you to get on your knees and suck him up dry, that’s why he couldn’t resist fucking you until the birds started chirping.

“you’re going to start sleeping on the couch, get it together.” those words shattered his world, he thought you were going to keep giving up your sleep to please him and he thought wrong.

so he started having to sleep facing the other way until he could finally get his little guy under control.

“baby one more time, please please.”

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujustsu kaisen x reader #x reader #gojo satoru #jjk satoru #gojou satoru x y/n #gojou satoru x you #jujutsu satoru #gojou satoru x reader #jujutsu kaisen satoru #satoru smut #satorugojo #jujutsu gojo #gojo smut #jjk gojo #gojo x reader #gojo saturo #gojo x you #gojo x y/n