#alter: blurred

[system-of-a-feather]

God our brain is M U S H

Our systems never been one for being heavily blurred often and even when we do its usually between a few parts we can gesture at and god we have never been so blurred in a while

Like I am MOSTLY Riku right now but only in the sense of looking at a burger and seeing the piece of bacon that is sticking out closer to you and that bacon being Riku and the front.

We've been more generally dissociated while system shit changes and Ray went to therapy and I think burnt our brain cells discussing system structure to our therapist PLUS its hot and we have no heat tolerance and now we are a big blur and ugh how do yall deal with this its so annoying 😂

It makes executive dysfunction go BRRRR

#alter: riku #alter: blurred

[softpine]

take your time, let the rivers guide you in you know where you can find me again

[transcript]

#I MET GOD. SHE'S A LESBIAN <- asa's t-shirt when he returns home #the blurred out parts are for asa's ears only fjksdjs #anyway i'm gonna go watch supernatural season 4 episode 18 'the monster at the end of this book' #which totally did not alter the way i view fictional writing for ever and ever. not at all. because i am normal #frozen pines #camellia #asa mayfield #AND ME. #alcohol tw #religion tw #suicide mention

[rafamonzo]

From the series : “MANIPULATED MEMORIES ”   R.Tanaka

http://rafamonzo.tumblr.com   / http://tanaka-clan.tumblr

#photography #black&white #experimental photography #altered photography #altered portrait #manipulated memories #experimental portrait #blurred #framed

[binah-beloved]

Can we think about binah's meltdown form for a bit?

yes we can absolutely think about Binah's meltdown form for a bit. i promise i will be entirely normal and sane about it. really.

#project moon #lobotomy corp #library of ruina #binah #binah lobcorp #binah library of ruina #that's a lie i'm not normal about it at all #i like to believe that it has a vaguely robotic sense to it #as she goes around unleashing abnormalities #she slows when she sees you though #tilting her head slowly and letting out these mechanical static sounds #if you don't run away she'll kneel and put her head on your shoulder #pull you closer and closer until you're surrounded by her arms and cape #she doesn't quite know what she's doing. everything feels fuzzy and blurred #yes i know canon says that she's the only lucid one during her meltdown #but canon is my playground to alter as i please #can we also talk about her meltdown theme #how it starts so mournful #almost longing #resigned to this endless cycle #yes i am completely normal about binah's meltdown form

[sukugo]

character who is so powerful that their presence itself overgoes all consent, where the other characters exist below their desires and are made to please them, regardless of whether they want to or not.

esp when the character isn't even relatively domineering or authoritative during it. instead they're completely passive. whimpering and twitching and overall being so lost in pleasure that leaves no space for action, much less coercion. they're a passive receiver of pleasure.

except they, as an existence, cannot be passive. they're mingling with godhood, they're bigger than themselves, than their body, their pleasure holy and divine and all-encompassing. their touch a religious experience.

to have them, a compulsion, more than an action born of actual personal desire

#f.txt #this is pretty much what's at the core of how i see gojo and anakin #i see them both very similarly #chosen one and honored one #presences that altered the trajectory of the world #the similarities between the force and infinity #also they're both bottoms <3 #like. just. they're too powerful. a vergence in the force. someone who was so powerful he started spawning stronger curses. #being in the vicinity of either of them could kill a normal person #HOW can u ever even THINK of denying them #it's just wrong. u can't #ur own will is nothing under theirs. their whims and desires. u're going to give them what they want whether u like it or not #i just love them a lot. i love my powerful godlike boys so much #gojo #anakin #BUT ALSO. at a certain point. #it all blurs together doesn't it? #bc the other character DOES want the god-like character. but how much of it is actually desire born from themselves? #is their desire not born of the other's stifling desire? #if a god wants to be loved. do u have any say in loving them? #i do not ever shut up about this im sorry it is my SHIT

[ask-zane-ze-medic]

(We’re once again adding to the ref pile-)

(1st one is a final design for one we’ve doodled before. Stan the great or we’ve been calling him Stan Marshwalker. And yes he has a sledgehammer because he doesn’t have all of his gear-)

(As for the second one- Mosquito! Civilian ver anyway er sort of. If anyone has seen the other Clyde ref we made that is the same jacket. Mosquito also has 2 other vers of his ref for plot reasons but that delves into spoilers so ye he needs therapy)

#south park #sp stan marsh #sp stan #stan marsh #stick of truth #sp stick of truth #sp clyde donovan #clyde donovan #sp clyde #sp mosquito #south park au #sp au #south park dimensions #procreate #digital art #(That moment when 2 alters work on something) #(We’ve been blurring save me) #(/lh akdjdkdn) #-Slushi #-Kyle

[blurred-pride]

Nebulattractional

[ID: A rectangle flag with seven stripes in the color order of dark yellow, yellow, lighter yellow, white, purple, dark purple, purple that's almost black.End ID.]

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Nebulattractional: It is when one is unable to or has a hard time distinguishing the attraction one is feeling due to being neurodivergent

Pronunciation: Neb-you-lah-uh-tract-chin-al

Flag design: made to resemble the nebulasexual and nebularomantic flags, but also to be unique to itself.

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Alt Flag:

[ID: A rectangular, five striped flag with the colors in the order of dark yellow, light yellow, white, purple, and almost black purple. End ID.]

#blurred coining #blurred pride coining #mogai #lgbt #aspec #liom #queer #mogai coining #liom coining #queer coining #lgbt coining #aspec coining #alterous coining #nebulattractional #attraction

[princessnijireiki]

they photoshopped the SHIT out his nose

#between that & putting that damn beauty blur on his skin he looks like a whole different dude lol #this photo looks like a facemorph of him & young richard gere... #I had to google to make sure I wasn't tripping #bc I actually don't watch bernthal's stuff like that to be confident I wasn't just misremembering his face or something #but the broken nose is v distinct even @ 3/4 view + side profile so why wld they alter a major recognizable feature on their lead actor yk?

[ostensiblyfunctional]

Does anyone ever wonder how anime hair color would subtly mess with a character's skintone?

Hear me out, here. Everyone has body hair, no matter how little or much, and it's everywhere except the palms and soles. If a character has, say, naturally blue hair, that would apply to their body hair too. Including the very fine, nearly translucent hairs on their face (or not invisible, if they're rocking facial hair). (Yes, even women have hair on their face. Like I said, usually it's very fine and invisible. My grandmother didn't wax her philtrum for this kind of erasure.) And that would make them look a bit out of the ordinary, wouldn't it? At the very least, it would lend them a very slight, blue tinge to their face—but due to the world they live in and the colors they're naturally born with, this wouldn't be strange at all for them!

The colors skin is surrounded with and subtly dusted with is enough to expand the tones people would think normal, even just a little bit. The standard of human skintones in a fictional world gets skewed to the left the instant you introduce even atypical hair colors, not just straight-up different skin colors or colors of blood, and I think that's fascinating.

#yes i am thinking about the realism of fictional worlds and i don't care #if a person has naturally purple hair then of course they're gonna have purple body hair! common sense! #i just want to think about how that alters people's perceptions in-universe #bc like. okay i have dark hair so i have dark body hair yeah? #even three feet away looking in a mirror the color difference between my body hair and skintone blurs together #my legs don't just look tan because my skintone is tan it's because the hair on them subtly makes them look a tiny bit darker #so this would also apply to fictional worlds right? am i making sense? #writing reference #oc stuff #visual reference #writing

[valiant-portabella-pirkko]

“Never underestimate an eye in the sky.”

“Nothing’s deadlier than the sniper that sees you first.”

#GW2 #Guild Wars 2 #sylvari #Flourish AU #Ceara the Defiant #so guess who figured out how to install reshade... :3c #it's still not quite perfected BUT #honestly. the quality increase is so nice #even just the built-in screenshot feature is exporting them so much better #i don't know how to alter the adof field thing so it doesn't blur her weapon effects tho #if anyone knows how that works or has a tutorial please yell at me wheeze #i'm. very new to using iT #i've taken some other shots too but they're for things... #i want to have some cool Scarlet shots to pair with my writing basically #but for now. Flourish AU Ceara because i still love her design #and now you can see her in high definition! yes. so much better. #anyway. //scurries away to triple trouble

[system-of-a-feather]

not american but a (s)e. asian system here!!

HELL YEAH LOVE YOU ASIANS SUPPORTING ASIANS

#alter: riku #alter: xiv #alter: blurred #ask #asks

[zoanzon]

First alter I've done in over two years and it's my attempt at Magnificus, from Inscryption!

#is it GOOD? no its not and i'm aware lol #but its my first time painting in over 2 years and i had like...a few MONTHS of experience before ending #and like a dozen total cards painted EVER #so on the scale of 'very little ACTUAL art experience and after two years with no other work' #the fact i'm at it again is good enough #(the eye is not smudged i just now noticed there's some weird blur in the picture itself lol) #inscryption #magnificus #inscryption magnificus #a monkey's artistic endeavors (in paint and polish) #magic: the gathering #mtg #mtg alter

[rafamonzo]

R.Tanaka - From the series " No trace of Mr. Braeckman"

http://rafamonzo.tumblr.com   / http://tanaka-clan.tumblr

#photography #black&white #experimental photography #altered photography #altered portrait #experimental portrait #blurred portrait #no trace of mr. braeckman #double exposure

[puppyboygf]

I can't find your videos:((

which one r u looking for?

#i might be able to help but i've altered or deleted the original post for a lot of them to avoid getting in trouble #(didnt work obviously in trouble with a blurred icon 😔)

[oscill4te]

I know journaling is helpful esp if you have memory problems, i always avoid looking back at my journals honestly. but damn.. Reading my 2022 shits been so painful.

2023 genuinely was a much better year even if did spend much of it cooped inside my room, looking at a screen. Hoping for an even better 2024. I know its only October but hey. Im always jumping ahead a few months mentally. It may as well be winter already as far as Im concerned. I want to get this winter over with. I feel very hopeful for 2024 for some reason

#2023 is good its just a very hazy blur. i was thinking not using weed would help but nah. ive always been like this #weed didnt make my memory worse its always been shit it seems #reading these entries like “when did that even happen..?” #there are a lot of things in my life I want to change #im just glad i stopped using weed. looking at my 2022 experiences is kind of... making me feel compassion :( #weed dependency + risky sx was my escapism go-to in 2022 and now in 2023 it is cartoons and loud music #i think its safe to say i am gettint better. im learning to appreciate life again without being high. i got out of an abusive relationship #im focusing on me. maybe to a very unhealthy degree. but im doing things that make me happy when i can. im cooking amazing food #im drawing a lot. increasing communication w alters. working on how to handle my cptsd. im getting better even if it #doesnt look like it #self indulgent but i think i will be happy looking back on this one day. to future E; you got this #and hopefully u won't be doomscrolling in 2024 but even if you are. its so very understandable. lol #only today am i realizing after rereading old diary entries... im genuinely more stable even if it does not look like it #the amount of dissociation it takes for me to stay stable is sad though. id it even genuine stability at that point? im not sure #but im keeping afloat financially. homewise. at work. even if i feel like life is ripping me at the seams sometimes #but who doesn't feel like that #i think its safe to say i am reaching some type of stability. even if it easily crumbles apart. at least it is there.. #txt

[trash-iest]

Another year closer to 25 🤡

#this is so depressing 😭 #because i dont wanna graduate and i dont wanna move out for mba and shadi AND ADULTING JUST FEELS SO REAL WITH EACH PASSING YEAR #I JUST WANT TO STOP AGEING OR AN APOCALYPSE THAT ENDS EVERYTHING BECAUSE GROWING UP IS SO OVERWHELMING #just the fact that im in my twenties and not a teenager anymore is SO HARD TO DIGEST LIKE HOW DID THAT HAPPEN WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN #IM SORRY I WAS TOO BUSY BEING NUMB AND DEPRESSED TO REALISE I WAS GROWING UP AND I DONT EVEN REMEMBER MY 20TH FROM LAST YEAR WHICH IS SOON #GONNA BE 2 YEARS AGO AND THEN ILL BE 30 IN A FEW YEARS AND ALL OF THIS—MY LIFE— WILL FEEL LIKE A BLUR LIKE HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN #im deleting my tumblr on my 25th birthday. thats it #also a very serious question (istg im not being cocky) how do people in their early 20's decide they wanna get married or have kids #because oh boy its like everyone's getting married young and having babies like how do you feel youre ready because that is some MAJOR LIFE #ALTERING SHIT #HOW DO U WRAP YOUR HEAD AROUND IT #HOW DO U FALL IN LOVE AND KNOW THIS IS THE RIGHT PERSON GOOD GOD LIFE IS NOT THAT EASY BUT PLEASE SHARE LIFE HACKS AS TO HOW YOU FIGURED IT #ALL OUT #like anytime i think about shadi its like no im too selfish to share my personal space with another person and then having to interact with #their family is all SO FKING DRAINING ESP WHEN YOURE NATURALLY NOT A PEOPLE'S PERSON #like how do people not get the urge to runaway before their wedding because holyshit my 19 year old self couldnt deal with all that #responsiblity and neither can this 21 year old #like its being stuck between feeling old AND young simultaneously like as a baby why would i want to have my own baby 😭 #and oh god the pain that comes with it makes me envy men SO BAD #like its so easy for u to say oh yeah lets have a baby and its gonna be shared responsibility BUT YOUR BODY DOESNT GO THROUGH HELL FOR THE #NEXT 9MTHS AND EVEN AFTER THAT I KNOW MY BODY WONT BE THE SAME AND SUE ME BUT IM NOT LOSING THIS FIGURE AND THEN FEEL SHIT ABOUT MYSELF WHEN #I DRESS UP WHILE YOURE OUT THERE CHEATING ON ME WITH OTHER WOMEN #i know not all men do that but knowing my luck i know i wont be ending up with the exception so fuck marriage and kids and having a family #and then he gets to excel at his career while i raise this kid and then few years down the lane when I consider getting a job again ill be #way behind in my field and i cant be financially independent. how do housewives not feel miserable? how do u make peace with catering to a #family #ZINDAGI KYUN AKELE NAHI GUZAR SAKTE BHAI LIKE IM ALREADY SO USED TO BEING ON MY OWN I DONT FEEL THE NEED FOR A HUSBAND OR BABY #WHY IS THAT THE ULTIMATE SETTLEMENT WHY CANT IT BE A GOOD JOB AFTER MBA #at this point the only way out of all that is death before 25 and im manifesting that for the next 4 years #i missed ranting on tumblr so much omg this feels heavenly