#also feeling like ash rn

[moominpopzz]

how long do y’all think Ashe had to sleep in Mark’s bed with him after what happened to her mom. How often do you think Mark would try to put Ashe to bed and she’d run to him minutes after he leaves her room and begged him not to leave her. How often do you think Mark would hold her while she slept, staying awake for nights on end so that when she woke up screaming and sobbing from nightmares he could be awake to comfort her.

Do you think she moved back to her own room on her own or that she got to an age where Mark slowly started making her go back to her room instead. Do you think he’d sit in there and wait until she fell asleep or with his work one day he just stopped letting her crawl into bed with him. Do you think there were nights where when she could only fall asleep in his bed he’d carry her back to her room and she’d wake up, alone, in the room that damn book was in, do you think she’d just scream until Mark ran in to check on her?

#Ashe headcanons should probably be ripped away from me and I should be sent to go sit in timeout until I learn to not think about her #I can’t help it #her stories so fucking tragic i have to talk about my hcs on it as often as I can #also this hurts my mutuals as well and it’s pretty funny to see reblogs threatening my life #I feel like she’d also sleep in his bed the nights he had to stay out for work #like just being where she knew he could easily find her would help calm her down #even if realistically he could and probably would even easier find her in her own room #sighs and stares out a window #I’m supposed yo be doing schoolwork rn btw #jrwi #jrwi pd #prime defenders #ashe winters #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi ashe winters #jrwi hc #jrwi mark #mark winters #jrwi mark winters #moomins yapping<3

[mothocean]

Didyou guys know that. Raphaella la cognizi

#im not even going to talk abt the kind of thoughts i have abt her im fucking embarrassing #you've seen my category 5 lesbian moments. that's like the tip of the iceberg #rachel l hughes if you ever see anything i say abt your character im so sorry i promise i can be normal abt her <- lying #btw im this abnormal abt nastya and odin too. also ivy but slightly less #and dr carmilla... i need to get into the dr carmilla stuff more i feel like I'll really like her #but i just don't know enough abt her rn #also not a woman but. ashes <3333333 #anyway where were we oh yeah. raph jhnrjbrhvrgjvmgjhgjffjffgf #raph vivisect me please. raph let me help you vivisect someone else. raph let me vivisect you. raphhhhhhh #lets be lab partners. in more ways than one #I'll learn engineering just to fix your wings when they get broken. im sorry what did i say again #not main tagging this y'all are NOT seeing my gayass bullshit. everyone pretend you haven't seen this post #ok not really but i really gotta stop myself here or I'll get even more embarrassing #i will Say More if prompted tho #roseflower.txt

[silverselfshippingchaos]

welp... he's on the f/o list now!

#ash rambles 💚 #i thought i'd make him official for new years but i just cant wait any longer #i love him so much and he's all i ever think about and he makes me smile so much #we have a lot in common aksjaks musicians and pun lovers and we have similar music taste and personalities #it sounds cheesy to say but i think we really do get each other. i feel so comfortable and happy with him. he really does feel like a #character that was Made For Me you know? #i'm almost done with his game. i knew i was in love but there's a scene where you see him reflect on himself when he's at his lowest and he #realizes that he's loved and cared for and that his disability doesn't define him and he can be whoever he wants to me #i cant deny that i cried. i knew i was in love but that scene really set everything in stone for me #so... yeah! here he is. my rockstar boyfriend! #my s/i makes music too! he's her muse! #also. (insert joke about indian girl falling for the dude named chai here) #heheh makes me chuckle a bit #but yeah. he's my boyfriend now! and i'm his girlfriend! gah it's so late rn but i'm still grinning like an idiot thinking about him #i'm so in love your honor #man aksjajsj i bet these past few days have been fun for everyone huh? seeing me fall this fast LMAAOO #*whoever he wants to be #damn typos... too down bad for this shit

[orcelito]

Another morning another day

I've been thinking a lot about going to the animal shelter

#speculation nation #there r many cats there and i have an aching spot available for one #passively thinking about getting a kitten. just bc id enjoy getting to raise a cat for once #and i think tally would be a good big sister given how much she groomed cassy #at the same time tho i wanna adopt a cat that might not otherwise be adopted so quickly. aka an adult cat #& also like with tally. i very purposefully picked out the loud black cat bc everyone was passing her up #but she was YELLINGGG at me from the cage. and i was like 'oh alright' and took her home #and now shes my sweet darling girl. she just needed like a year to chill out so she is no longer a chaos demon lmao #it's also hard to know what youre getting with a kitten. and it's a lot of resposibility. so like. idk. #but also. Kitten Cute... 🥺 #i'll have to see what they have when i go there. still not happening for at least a few more days. #it feels too soon rn. but im thinking about this all to cope lol. i hate having only one cat. #i keep wanting to go out to greet Cat Number 2 in the living room. but. nope. so i go back to greet tally on my bed #she's a loving cat but she does Not like to be smothered. and im kind of smothering her lmao #that's another reason to get a 2nd cat. yes i want tally to have company when im gone at work #but also i need a second cat that is very affectionate bc I Want My Hugs And Kisses Dammit #idk when im getting his ashes back. probably somewhat soon. id estimate tomorrow? they were rly quick with sammy's #idk what im gonna do if they call while im at work lol. cry probably. #tho i havent cried in almost a full day!! been like 22 hours. i have been Trying to cope. mixed results. #ah well. c'est la vie and all that shit. #animal death ment/

[paperrcrownss]

ey are my favorite wet cat <3

(no spoilers pls. i am only on s1 ep20 ... i know)

#i could not get any more doodles out of me #so take my one (1) joke #i swear i will draw em more but rn is not that time #OH OH also my ashe design Can and Should be read #as any gender and i will use the pronouns i feel like <33 #right now its ey/em but tomorrow ?? who knows !!! #n e ways #jrwi #jrwi pd #im allergic to chara tags so sorry #✦ the king draws !!

[fourteenthz]

Balthier man.... i need... I need to go to bed... please, why are u death flagging on me rn man... COME ON... HELLO??

#I DO NOT REMEMBER THE ENDING WELL GUYS IM KINDA MESSES UP RN #i remember like. explosions. maybe bahamut or some other ff summon which is like airships on this one #my memory is so incredibly shitty like I genuinely now think I mind remember something abt balthier leading man = sacrifice #and not from this cutscene i just went through. HOWEVER. my mind could also just be playing tricks on me so there is THAT #it has been 10 years and I sure knew like 1% of the english i know now so I really could me misinterpreted some scene #this happened before alright im holding onto that hope. anyway ffxii update: got my aspers. got my hunts. did a bit of main story and HEH #I'm just glad larsa is not with vane rn. man it makes me SO MAD every time they are close to each other. #I'm always staring vane like he genuinely looks like he wants to kill this kid so bad. “Its the only brother left how could he” OR SOMETHIN #LIKE THAT. IT MAKES ME SICK. i hate hate him the way he spoke to gabranth AAUAGAHAHA WHY DOES #HE LOOKS SO GOOD. MF. I want to throw him and cid out of those big ass windows they keep standing closer to #ITS RIGHT THERE... gabranth it is right there... larsa... someone hello... i love charming bad villains in ff #and square's power to make me hate pretty boys to my CORE. #but also *kicking my feet* balthier is looking sooo constipated rn *twirling my hair* .... I promise I'll be normal abt him #i just love LOVE when the story is not remotely focusing on him but he's like brooding on the side being #extra angst ITS SO INTERESTING compared to how he genuinely was always so talkative before. and he's still so confident. #talking to sky pirates making deals etc etc HE IS SO.. AAUAGHAHAH I LOVE how he didn't try to convince ashe anymore too #its so cool how they were all big family feels before going to the port and then ashe's own destiny starts to change their dynamic... #i love how his talk with her by the beach isn't even convincing her. he's just genuinely expressing how he feels and then now later they #talk abt what ashe will choose and if she'll yield to revenge path or not and hes just like “vaan. if something happens the strahl is yours #HE GREW.... LIKE... SO FONDLY OF HIM. and its just so mature how he isn't constantly trying to intervene with ash #none of them are. they are like “whatever she will choose jus lets go do this” and then there's him out there.... ready to do whatever #he needs too.... its just so fitting to his whole “all my running got me no where” its like him accepting that maybe #this is what he needs to do. they all got to the point that they won't step back anymore so the whole “why #are you doing this?“ is not even a question. is more like ”are we doing this?“ and just being ready to intervene is it goes south #this is. just. GIGGLES. I'm just so absolutely in love with the mcs relationship here. so much. i say this everytime #but larsa trusting ashe + they supporting one another + penelo worrying about fran everytime they see dense mist #+ balthier trusting the strahl to this kid + vaan truly understanding ashe ETC ETC ITS JUST SO SWEET.... #MAN.... I LOVE THEM. ashe baby girl don't fuck this up PLEASE ilu and i trust u COME ON!!! ur husband is dead YOU GOT THIS !¡! IGNORE HIM : #kelly plays xii #kelly says

[cathedraldecay]

i believe the stars aligned for me today bc my first binder came in the mail AND we got sappy frank content AND another mcr date AND i ate some really fucking good pasta

#GUYS I HAVE A FR BINDER NOW i cant stop looking in the mirror in awe #i cant believe im capable of looking like that???? #i put on an outfit and i was like iiii look like mikey way rn and started crying a bit #immense amounts of joy today #and i worked from 9 to 5 who knew i could feel joy on a day like this #AND MCR IN TEN DAYS EGJJDJGNENFJFHJD IM GONNA FUCKING CRUMBLE TO ASH #but also it figures that my period would start on this day as well lmao

[orionis13]

I love it when mutuals have another bout of obsession over a Character and my entire dash becomes fanart reruns and I mean this genuinely

#i open tumblr and its the blorbo channel #i feel like this sounds sarcastic but i do mean it makes me smile fr #yes this is about ashe winters rn #also jay ferin this morning a little

[daydadahlias]

omg u have a mattshton folder on your computer? pls share some pictures cuz another mattshton lover right here😫😂 also i'm so excited that ure talking about matt i love him!! (like just look at the content he posts and his insta stories - always some deep stuff where i'm like i am so proud to be following u)

mattshton 💙

#I ALSO LOVE MATT #don’t I have some post from ages ago that says I’m a Matt stan lmfao I feel like I totally made that #pigeon #anon #I’ve got a lot of love for Matt and how he and ash nurture each other’s art #I’ve got a LOT of love for it #also Matt is just super talented on his own #honestly adore that one song he did with Roy #the name escapes me rn but #yeah love that guy

[razzle-zazzle]

Any more fanfics you really like?

I know you probably mean Psychonauts fics but you didn't specify, so allow me to tell you all about my Favorite Fic, Ever: Ashes of the Past by Saphroneth. It's such a good and fun peggy sue fic with incredible interpretations of pokemon lore and I just. It's a good fic to go back and reread because it'll occupy me for a while. It's a little choppy in the beginning but trust me when I say it gets good. As of answering this ask the story has reached the event that caused the peggy sue situation in the first place (Cyrus' time-space fuckery) so even though it continues onward for a bit it can largely be called a completed story. And oh my god it's so good—

#ask zaz #also i'm not linking it bc i don't feel like braving ff dot net rn #they've started crossposting their most recent stuff on ao3 but ashes of the past isn't on there yet #if ever #they also haven't updated it in a while which is completely fair since there's already more than 300 chapters #you should also check out legendarily popular by saphroneth!!! it's very funny

[darabeatha]

@devkanya​ replied ; ( ari, greedy: yeah uh can i get like three of these little mahabharata bitches- )

        ❝ Thanks for inviting me into your team. We’ll definitely beat their asses. ❞

#devkanya #a.sh: -thinks he's teaming up for a competition of sports- #/IM REPLYING WITH A.SH BUT IM POLITELYPUTTING ALL OF THEM NEXT TO A.RI IN THEIR RESPECTIVE UNIVERSES #/ALSO THE WAY I LAUGHED SOHARD WHEN I SAW THIS COMMENT STOOPTOTPPOT #/THE ICE CREAM MEME NOOOOO #he hopes its for basketball or something involving kicking a ball; volley would be nice to him too #he would lit smash the ball against the ground and leave a dent #IN ANY CASE!! #im not talking rn about k.arna and a.rju but feel free to ask at any given time but with ASH- #a.sh is a great bf bc he is ash #its as simple as that #OKOK BUT #i feel like he's the type of person that might be a lil thick headed at the start but once u make things clear #he gets emotional easily; like its v easy to get a reaction from him bc of how intensely he feels things #and under his s.ervant status and how he got summoned in c.haldea; its even double bc #usually he feels this intensity in regards to one main emotion (mostly) #which is anger; rage #so if u present the matter of love into the rooster; its not that he is foreign to it; its just that he might not be used to dealing with th #*that #under his current summoned version #bc his core is focused on these other type of intense emotions #not to mention that in the m.ahab he is quite 'emotional' already #or well im not really sure if that is the proper word to describe it but #a few times he happens to get blinded by the intensity of his emotions in that moment #which later happens to bring him conflict and sometimes regret #BUT IM GETTING OFF THE RAILS- the point is that #despite the image he might give as someone difficult to approach; u can def rely on him when it comes to #the matter of the heart; he'll understand u even if he might not know well how to offer comfort #but he's listening to u okok; and i think thats very cool of him

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i truely have so much anger built up inside me about my job. ive done a very good job of making it unbearable #and after taking a 10 day vacation. plus 2 days of not working bc im sick. i really dont wanna go back #i was planning to take 3 days to not do fucking anything but my boss just emailed me with some time sensitive #logistical things. so like i guess i gotta fucking do that tomorrow. i started reading the email and it made my head hurt #and she started it off like. hopw ur feeling better and i dont wanna cause stress but... #like bro. listen. if u tell me these things u put them in my head and i csnt stop thinking abt them until theyre done. and its not her #fault bc im the one that put myself in a place where im barely keeping it together. its just frustrating #bc it feels like hope u feel better but also kill urseld 💖 but again thats just how it feels bc im so. idk how to describe it im like in a #state of post burnout. im sitting in the ash. alone in a desolate landscape and its like jesus how tf do i fix this? #and i cant even run out my anger rn bc im sick. and i mean i have the energy to run i dont feel lethargic but like i doubt that would aid #recovery lol. ugh. 2 months. thats all. then i move away. assuming i find a place to live lol. bc i currently haven't yet #but whatever. assuming i get better quickly and dont get worse and dont get covid on top of this cold bc my dad got covid #it will have been a bit of a blessing i came back sick bc i have a clear justification for not working and for telling people to fuck off #when they ask for things from me. like today a lab mate asked if i could sample Monday. which it technically #a holiday but i probably would have said yes if i wasnt sick. and i would have had to teach undergrads some bullshit friday if i wasnt sick #instead i just did nothing all day bc i almost moved bsck my flight and didnt leave home until the weekend anyway #i guess its good i didnt bc then i would have been stuck in ohio bc my dad found out he had covid yesterday #idk its all just frustrating bc im halfway in a transition and im not doing very well but i cant do anything to fix things until i leave #the southwest. like i dont even kno if i have health insurance rn. my benifits change request was processed but like does thst mean it was #approproved? fucking idk. so everytime i do anything i imagine a worstcase scenario where i end up hospitalized and damned to an empty #bank account or eternal medical debt. tho my mum said they passed a law where they arnt allowed to do thst to u anymore 🤷‍♂️ #whatever. im annoyed. i dont wanna work 😫 #unrelated

[puppygirldanhowell]

elwkhdoehroevrkvrvriegeir pretty girl at walmart lowkey flirted with me and conplimented emma jbsjdbwksndksheowvrj

#her name was mia and she was soooosososo pretty #i feel like im being one of those dude bro customers that takes everything as flirting but like. its not like she was my waitress or even #that i was the one checking iut. i was w my mom. but still. hough #anyways she was sooo pretty and i made her smile and i wanted to ask for her number so bad but like. its the south and i was w my mom and i #coulda totally been misreading the signs. hopefully she'll be working next time im there or ill run into her somewhere else #aksjakdheofhodbwlsnd #ash is mentally ill #feel like its important to mention im high fem rn cause im feeling good enough to not kill myself over it #also its easier to be misgendered when im not dressed to pass #anyways. hi

[silverselfshippingchaos]

So... It's officially been one year since I day I caught feelings for K.yohei!

#kinda crazy how fast time flies huh? feels like yesterday i was watching d.urarara for the first time and my heart would flutter every time #i saw him LMAO i fell so hard #and now he's my husband so- hehe! happy anniversary i guess! #i dont think i'll be doing anything for it just because i'm really busy and tired this week and my life is kinda falling apart #but!!! i will kiss him!!!! ill kiss him sooooo much!!!! #he's a romantic guy aksjqksn gives flowers and takes her to a fancy dinner and everything- it's freaking adorable! i love him so much #also good morning squad #oh also. i ordered a wayfinder necklace because (gestures towards wife) a while back and it'll be here in a week or a week and a halfish #i'm so excited! i need a w in my life so bad rn ajsjahsj i ordered a red one! just like the one aqua gives s/i! #also good morning by the way #shit i already said that #it's a little past 6am sorry- i'm tired #but also! good morning :D! #ash rambles 💚 #and happy anniversary

[celticwoman]

really hoping this month's ba is from one of my fave bois but i sooo doubt it

#milo got one in feb right? ash could prob get one but i doubt it. geordi? unlikely. guy? there's literally no way #i feel like it might be either a vinny or sam ba idk why #cant think of anyone else rn but im excited still #cami.txt #btw im not super into the balance so im kinda meh about the rest of the month's lineup (tho im excited for the girlies who are) #so im hoping next month brings something cool. like. lasko date #i need it #also. update on geordi/cutie #i also need that

[unheavenlycreatures]

vent in tags

#vent.txt #.txt #anyways i am terrified 4 my life rn el oh el #the anti-queer (and specifically anti trans) legislation here is just getting worse and worse #and now there is talk of like. enforcing the state borders to keep people from seeking political adylum elsewhere #which #uhhhhhh #what #also all of the anti-trans harassment post n//ash//ville has me incredibly nervous #and it feels like there isnt anyone to talk to abt it #i have therapy on monday so i guess i can talk to my therapist abt it then #i have been wanting to stay until it is safe for me to leave #but it is looking less and less likely that it will be even remotely safe for me either way #and i am wondering whether its worth it to just grab whatever i can and book it before it gets any worse #im scared at home and im scared in public #and im scared in conservative spaces (most spaces rn) and im scared in queer spaces #so it feels like nowhere is safe