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stedelovemail · 7 months

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just unleashed a lot of General S2 Thoughts on twitter but i'll crosspost them here too. a lot of it is me agreeing with things that have already been said. ineloquent love-fueled criticism in here

i am still on my initial first 3 episodes reaction that everything is too fast; it's unfortunate that there are only 8 episodes this time and they're trying to put so much into them at the cost of good pacing and satisfying arcs because this show deserves better than that. i/we all know it COULD be better and that's exactly what we want for it, but alas: max.

i'd probably have stronger reactions if they had more time to flesh out everything they're trying to do – if i had more time to process everything they're trying to do 😭 there still is a lot i'm enjoying, though. the main relationship of course; most of everything w/ the crew, especially when they aren't separated! bc i'm kind of sad about the swede being apart from everyone, and now buttons too.

and archie: she's definitely likeable but we still really don't know much about her, let alone enough to really feel the connection between her and jim…? meanwhile olu and zheng are indeed a "well they're cute!" situation but i don't understand why they're doing it after how big of A Thing jim and olu were in s1. they were the secondary protagonists. now they have less screentime and importance it seems. and who do we have getting more of that instead… oh boy.

i really wish they didn't embrace the fandom white guy favoritism bc izzy's arc is just. insane. mindboggling. completely different character here, plucked straight from woobie fanon to replace his canon self. they want us to fill in the gaps re: development we didn't actually see, but i can't. it was so annoying watching the fandom push oluwande and jim aside to claim that izzy was the third most important/main character, and now they might as well have just done that. it was annoying to see the fandom apply ed's traits and development to izzy in order to sympathize with him, and now they've kinda done that too.

zero acknowledgment (as of right now) of shit he did and now i have to just remember the silk dressing gown dialogue while izzy comes up to ed wearing another robe in bed with stede and congratulates them on having sex?? being in drag after he was the most femphobic motherfucker throughout s1? getting to sing (and ruin that whole scene) to an admiring crew after the whole 'give us another song eddie!" thing that was torn away from ed in s1e10? i'm so over this. i wish he had just gotten worse bc who's this man being so kind and open and giving RELATIONSHIP ADVICE out of nowhere, he's gone from tolerable to completely unbearable for me which sucks with how much screentime he has now. like, go away already.

anyway there's still the finale to hopefully fix some things. i'm not overly worried about ed and stede since it's already obvious they're gonna reunite, but i am a lil worried about how the VERY end will be. david promised something satisfying though, so….. agh…..

#mine #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy critical

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aleksa-sims · 4 months

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RL Simself Story ⛈️

We had just arrived at Damien’s Mom's house. The thunderstorm continued, so Nico and I had to spend the night there. As I wanted to call my Mom, to tell her not to worry, Ana also called me, to tell me Daniel was back home. I was confused!?... I couldn’t believe it and I was annoyed by some things Ana did. Why was she at our place to talk to D.? Why is Ana meddling in my affairs? I mean, I get it! She was worried about him, she loved Daniel, just like my whole family did. But why did she have to mention that.... Lexi- shit? And why does she always think Alex is responsible for D.'s & my probs? Anyway, it pissed me off. And Nico was sitting right next to me while I was on the phone with Ana & my Mom. So he knew it too now, that D. was back. 😞

Me (to N.): I’m so sorry.... But trust me, it doesn’t change anything. I promise.... Uhm... I'll step out for a sec. I-...I have to call Ana back.

Nico: It's raining buckets!! Where you going? It's crazy out there.

Me: I-.... I just have to get out. Don't worry N., it's-... it's all fine. ok?

Nico: I'm going with you. 😟

Me: No! Please, don't. I just need to be by myself for a while. 😞

I'm so stupid!!! No one was out in the fucking weather, expect me, fool!... I had some questions for Ana. She said Daniel seemed high to her. I wanted to know why? Why did she think that? Well, Ana meant D. smoked, when she saw him. Actually, she was right. Daniel only smoked when he was high, or when we tried to get off that damn durg. I was worried about him, but at the same time, also mad. By now I knew, that Daniel saw Irena, just before he left 4 months ago. He was in her apartment. I didn’t know why he was there, at Irenas and his former place? Irena didn't want to tell me more.

Ana: Where are you anyway? Are you out there alone?

Me: Ah... yea, I'm alone.... Agh, Ana? Um... shit. The reception here's poor. Wait, I’m going in a different direction. Maybe it's better there?.... I think I’m gonna call Daniel.

Ana: You should go back to the house, to N. Just text Daniel. Tell him you'll be back home soon. But you don't have to call him, now A.!

Me: I’m afraid to tell him, Ana... And I feel so shitty about N., too. I'm so horrible. 😞

Ana: Yea. I get you. But Nico knew what he was getting into.

Me: Still, he also has feelings. N. is not an ass, as you all think. And I love him.

Me: Ana?.... Hello?... Ana!... Ugh, shit. 😨

Perfect timing. My phone died. 🤦‍♀️I was so absorbed in talking to my sister, that I got lost! I had no reception near Damien’s house, so I went in a completely different direction, but now, I did not know where I was? I decided to go back the way I went. Couldn't be so difficult, I thought....🧐

I was wrong! I got a.... little mental breakdown?... I wandered blind through an unknown area. Because of the heavy rain I could hardly open my eyes. I started to panic. I couldn’t use my phone to call N. He’ll think I left him, to rush home to Daniel. I was so worried about that. Nico told me himslef, just a few days ago, that he doesn’t trust me anymore. He's gonna hate me! 😨 And my Baby won’t have a Dad or a family bcs of me. 😭... I tried not to think about it, but about the tips my therapist taught me, to better deal with my panic attacks. And yea, I calmed down. I looked around again. I tried to concentrate to keep my eyes open. I saw two houses in the street where I was. I made my way towards the houses, to ask someone for help. But then I changed my mind. Somehow I didn’t feel good about ringing at strangers. I was afraid a psycho could lure me into his house. 😬 Yup, that's from watching so many horror movies, Ik!

Besides, I noticed that the road I was on, was a sign pointing to a bar and some shops, that should be just around the corner. I decided to try this first, before... well, I get killed by a sicko. Believe me, I have often run into some sick guys in my life. That’s why I was so insecure.

Meanwhile the others were starting to worry about me. Nico couldn’t find me outside and my phone was off too. He asked Damien to help him look for me. Oh, and the electricity was cut. Allegedly, an important power pole was damaged by lightning. 🤷‍♀️

As you can see, I did not end up in a bar, but went to a shop that was open. I was so relieved when I saw other people there. They were surprised by the thunderstorm. Now they’ve been stuck in that small twon for two hours. They couldn’t get home. The streets were closed due to flooding and some other probs. Anyway, I was looking for the shop assistant to ask if I could use their phone. I just wanted to call N. to tell him where I was. Finally I found a young woman standing behind the counter, admiring herself in the mirror and taking selfies. I think she was about to go home? She grabbed her bag and hung it over her shoulder....

Me: Hi!... Um, excuse me?... Sorry, I don’t want to disturb you. Um, may I short use the phone here somewhere? I’m not from this area, just visiting, but I got lost. I just want to call my boyfriend so he doesn’t worry about me.

Girl: Oh, hi!... Sorry, but we are having technical probs with our phone connection atm. But, you know what? You can use my phone for a second. I hope it works. I just got off the phone with my brother and my mom. Let's try.

Me: Omg, I know you! (😡) Is your brother Damien?

Yes, I met Diana. Damien's Twin Sister. Let’s see if she remembers me? 😒... Oh, and btw, I didn’t really get lost. I just have a terrible sense of direction! Damien’s house was only 2 blocks away!!! So I went in the right direction, but.... somehow I didn’t recognize the surroundings. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

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anemoflower · 4 months

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Doing the last quest of the lantern rite now, liveblogging below (warning: I'll be annoying and there will be lots of writing in caps)

I didn't care about spoilers, do you know how long it will take me to do F.urina's story quest? FOREVER. So here we go

N.AVIA AND C.LORINDE. HELLO I don't know you yet but I'm sure we can be friends.

I also wanna shout with N.avia from the top of a mountain it seems very relieving.

Wait wait wait wait- if F.urina and N.euvi are also there- COULD WRIO ALSO-

Oh he had a bet with C.lorinde. WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE HAS TO BUY HIM TEA.

HELLO IT'S THE TEA VILLAGE HE HAS TO BE HERE TOO. Shgkhd you could have left the fortress this one time c'mon.

"It appears you have been to F.ontaine then" ... yeah well, Z.hongli about that- I mean yes kinda- *hasn't done the archon quest yet*

(I love the relationship between P.aimon and Traveler btw)

I'm sad Z.hongli and N.euvilette didn't meet- WAIT Z.HONGLI WHY DID YOU SMILE LIKE THAT WHEN HU TAO POINTED OUT THEY WOULD GET ALONG. AGH I'm not that deep into the lore but COULD THEY- ALREADY KNOW EACH OTHER? idk really

Traveler is better at making friends than me what

... N.euvi is HOW OLD?? Several thousand years- Well, he still looks good- uh-

I already love the F.ontaine characters, can't wait to meet them sometime in the archon quest!

Ok ok ok I will go now find N.euvilette (and by chance meet Wrio PLS)

[a few seconds later in F.ontaine] HI N.euvilette, pleasure to meet you Hiiiiii!

... Oh you already delivered the gifts? We won't meet Wrio?

OH FLASHBACK WRIO JUMPSCARE HELLO

... N.euvilette don't tell me you did the same thing as X.ianyun and bought ten boxes of tea PFFTTT

(Wrio and Elowyn have a loooot of tea to drink then)

I love Wrio so much. I love that he's joking around sometimes. *smooches him*

I also love that N.euvilette tried ceramic arts, that's a nice detail- OH MY GOD-

I WANT THAT! LOOK HOW CUTE

Why is N.euvilette so soft wth 🥺😭 Also please go take some time off with mutual's s/i, travel around or something- I think a break for you would be nice-

Ok that's it for now. I'm happy I saw Wrio even just in a short flashback :'3 Elowyn will visit the tea village with him another time

#;phia plays games

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kingsephir · 30 days

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I'm so sick of being in Japan- I hate it here. I hate being the other, I hate how most Japanese people treat me and stare at me. How they're always like wow your japanese is so good! And I supposed to say "no no no"? NO! FUCK YOU. I say "yeah, i've been studying for 16 years now"

Today I got laughed at (in a awe isnt that cute sort of way not making fun of) when I said "otsukaresama", like the rest of my coworkers. Like I do, to this guy, every FUCKING DAY? And today you wanna be like, "oh her japanese is so good! look you're saying otsukaresama" LIKE IVE BEEN DOING IT FOR THREE YEARS DUMBASS. We've had full ass conversations in Japanese!!!!

And another thing! My male coworkers can barely talk to me!!!! Makes me fucking annoyed and lonely. Like they can't even speak japanese to me normally they have that weird ass no eye contact, like i'm accosting them sort of look and i'm like BRO. I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT PERIOD WE HAVE CLASS IM GONNA FREAK OUT RIGHT HERE AT MY DESK IF YOU DONT SPIT IT OUT. And the aforementioned "oh look you can say otsukaresama" guy cant even speak a whole sentance to me. And it's not an english thing bc he will just drop the end of the sentance in JAPANESE TOO. HOMIE THATS WHERE THE VERB IS IDK WHAT YOURE SAYING BC YOU DONT FUCKING FINISH YOUR SENTANCES *skreech*

I'm tired of my students being scared of me/suprised. Barely being able to talk bc what? they're afraid of mistakes or something idk? But they can't hardly spit things out sometimes- even in Japanese. They just like have an error code and stare blankly. Like homie. I just want you to say my COWORKERS NAME. SHES JAPANESE AND YOUVE STUDIED WITH HER FOR 5 YEARS NOW. AGHHHHH!!!!!!!

"oh you understand kanji that's amazing!" "yeah i took chinese too" and we've had this conversation MULTIPLE TIMES BEFORE. Do you just forget everything about me the second I leave your sight?? "Wow she knows to take off her shoes!" WELL DUH.

I'm just another human being!!!! Please treat me NORMAL!!! They literally CANT!!!!!!! Like maybe a quarter of them can but like ???????????????

I want OUT OF HERE!! I wanna LEAVE THIS GODFORSAKEN ISLAND. With it's earthquakes, lack of meat at the grocery store, suprise at every single thing I do, commenting on everything I do. Like leave me ALONE.

I so hope I can go to turkey this summer bc that's the only way i feel i can survive without freaking out. I was on my LAST STRAW today. I'm going to Turkey this winter then leaving Japan next year for the US. And trying to go back to school. I'm not cut out for teaching either. I don't like it, i've never liked it. I don't want to do it anymore or ever again in this capacity. Training is ok. Teaching? Kids? NO.

I do generally like the kids but I really wish they would just spit things out rather than just like blue screening. It's not scary it's okay. 😭 Our school is so chill and nice the english teachers are so nice to the students. We make sure they know it's ok to make mistakes idk.

Dude even in Turkey- even when they know i'm foreign- even when tbey are suprised I know turkish (mostly they just take it in stride- maybe a comment at the beginning then they go with it). They treat me like one of them immediately. They're so warm and friendly. Sometimes intimidatingly so but that's better than here (for me). Their country is so full of immigrants and tourists and tbh I only go to Istanbul or a small vacation town on the Mediterranean but like. Even in Tokyo I have problems (mind you way less than here but).

AGH. Rant over- I feel a bit better now.

#preytell #praytell #sephir-spiel

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itstimetodrew · 4 months

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Can we get more NWH Goblin thoughts?

Can you?? CAN YOU???

yeah I always want to talk about him :)

I guess I will just...expand on my feelings of why I do and don't like him in the movie lol

SO!! I think there's a big difference between a choice being "out of character" versus a choice just being a different path for a character. I think his character makes sense, it's just less compelling to me personally. The conflict for him in the new movie is cool because it's about him (Normie hehe) realizing he doesn't have any say in this partnership. It's gone too far but he can't stop it. The thing he thought would help him gain control has instead taken it from him. Sad!

The downside to that though is now the movie just takes a black-and-white approach to 'Norman is good and the Goblin is bad' which is just...idk it's boring for me, sorry. Like I don't disagree with the themes that everyone deserves help, and even if you offer help that doesn't mean they will accept it or go along with what you think is right for them. But this is also where the complaints pop up from people who think this movie is too sympathetic about a power-hungry guy who makes his money off supplying weapons to the military and like...they aren't wrong lol

And while I like that whole 'out of control' aspect, him not having any personal stakes isn't as interesting. Like okay sure, he wants power, but why here? The MCU world is so much larger, he's a small fish in a big pond now instead of a big fish in the small pond that his original world is. Like I guess to try and fix it a bit you could have Norman/Goblin trying to get home because he wants to bring that tech back to his world where he'd get an even stronger foothold with it. Could further complicate the conflict of some villains wanting to go back while others want to stay...idk

And the family aspect isn't there either. A lot of OG Norman/Goblin's fixation on Peter/Spider-Man is out of misplaced paternal feelings be he has an actual son right there that he's ignoring lmao. I think one issue with the handling of multiverse stuff in these movies is they try to take a shortcut of 'well they're enemies because they're Spider-Man and the Green Goblin' but I need more! They just kinda keep the theme of Goblin trying to be an influence on New Peter without that underlying relationship to explain why it would even matter to him. I won't discount the justification of 'it doesn't have to make sense, he's being irrational' because sure, I do love a 'because I want to' self-sabotaging villain, but it's still a pretty half-assed excuse 😭

On that note, another drawback I see with the trend of franchises bringing back old characters is that they have to straddle a line of reminding viewers of The Thing Before but not being SO prominent they overshadow The Thing Now (imo this also happened with Pokemon at the end rip). It usually leaves the targeted fans coming back for nostalgia still unsatisfied anyway. Some reference is thrown out, or there's a hint of some interesting new take on an old idea, but that isn't what they're trying to market right now so it's not pursued. I'm still annoyed we got a fight scene of OG Spider-Man vs Green Goblin to the filming stage but by the final movie it's cut and they don't exchange a single word. 😒 The defense I usually see is 'that would be too much fanservice, move on from those characters' as if this isn't Fanservice: We Know You Can't Move on From These Characters - The Movie smh (and we had time for that stupid meme line AGH!)

OKAY now I'm complaining too much uhhh more good things lol I like his new little junk food habit. That's cute! :3 This would have killed in 2013...memes of this dude with little donuts and burritos everywhere...I want to see this self-important man asking high schoolers to explain what a crunchwrap supreme is and then making himself sick after downing 4 back-to-back. AND THE DILF SHIP!!! Yeah. Yeah that was an excellent development. I love their dynamic of 'SHUT UP I HATE YOU I HOPE YOU DIE AGAIN 🤬' vs 'huh??🥺..I thought we were friends...😢💔' swapping sides. It made me write like 30 years of lore in my head for them... 😔 (<- me, burdened and crazed with copious old man yaoi thoughts and lore for comic book movies)

Long story short he's gonna be the same case as my other favorite characters. Wish he was getting new material. Except I don't wish that because I don't think it would be very good. But I miss him so much. I will instead find satisfaction making stories in my mind and pouring over the bits of characterization I have from decades ago...my one true skill, my passion!! 💪

#thank you anon for giving me the chance to ramble at length about My Babygirl....such a rare delight 🥹#(it does not have to be rare but it is bc I'm so self-conscious about it sflg)#if you read all this and do not care about marvel bs then im so sorry but also I am kissing your forehead thank you #anon ask

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amporella · 1 year

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hi! this is mpreg anon from a few months back lol. i just wanted to say i finally got to reading the fic and im sooo!!!!! sobbing and crying, a puddle of love on the floor! you were right. i Know now why you talked about it often.

i really love holly's stankyle. theres something about them that feels very.. desperate? like they know they belong together and sometimes not even physical touch can satiate that need/want?? idk! but agh! i love them sm. holly is also really good at capturing the overall weirdness of south park and thats why she can come up with aus/ideas that are weird or silly and make them work. i also really appreciate that she went for kinks/tropes that not many people give style.

something else i really loved about this fic was that it felt very like.. omg a dream come true in a way? sometimes i just wanna read a fic where stan and kyle do fuck all all day, just real type of normal maybe even domestic shit and its just them. and this fic came pretty close to that? they are so wrapped up in each other and have so much love to give and g OD i thought the baby was gonna come in and ruin that or like i was gonna get annoyed w the baby but no!!! 😭 i was so neutral about elway in the beginning and was actually loving how kyle was thinking/approaching the whole thing. idek when that started changing?? before they talk about the name elway though. and when she was finally born and the days kyle spent fighting to get her?!! and then he gets her and its the three of them and its like.. yeah.. okay, she's perfect. she really is a miracle stan and kyle created and theres no way she could ever come between them bc stan and kyle's love is endless, its forever and ever, they can share that love with their child 🤧

as for creek, hmm. i think craig and tweek just arent characters i've seen holly write for and like? so even though they are/were together i just didnt rly care for them u_u. im really glad i started finally reading fic where theyre not together in style fics though. it still hurts a bit lmao but ive been enjoying some stories i had passed on before and stuff and yeah, ty for giving me that little push >w<!!!

sorry this ask is so long! i didnt want to bother you every time i finished a chapter lol. i was also going through some stuff and this fic was the only thing keeping me sane. and actually i have just the epilogue left but im so sad its gonna be over after that so i've been delaying it :(! but yeah, aahhhh herbert garrison's night school for unwed fathers enjoyer 🫡 TY! 💙💚

YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM THAT YOU READ THE FIC AND SENT ME THIS AMAZING ASK??? I saw this in my inbox and immediately went to my friends and like BRAGGED ABOUT GETTING THIS? I'm going to respond to every part so bear with me but in the meantime THANK YOU!!!

I think you are so so right about them being desperate... it is key for stanky that regardless of how close they get physically, it's like it'll never be enough? Like they are soulmates in every sense of the word, and can never actually satiate their pull... SIGH!!!! IT'S TRUE!!! And holly's ability to nail absurdity is absolutely one of her strongest suits, and something that definitely contributed to how iconic she is. South Park is an absurd show, and holly meets it with such absurdity that Stan and Kyle can stay perfectly in character, because so many of her plots are something that could legitimately BE a South Park episode involving the characters when they're older. Like, Craig and Clyde fucking in the Marsh shed and Craig telling Sheila Kyle needs a psych eval? A+, can and will happen at some point. It's so ridiculous yet somehow believable, and the mpreg fic is literally the BEST example of it. It's a concept that's frankly a huge turnoff for a lot of people (understandably), but she puts it in such a light that she makes it appealing for a ton of people. It's one of those fics that i would recommend even to the most vehement mpreg hater, because there IS something about it that differentiates it from typical fics like that.

AND DESCRIBING IT AS A DREAM COME TRUE IS SO CORRECT? Everything you said in that third paragraph specifically was so fucking real. The fic starts off as such an absolute disaster situation, and despite the multiple disasters along the way, you can absolutely tell that it was like fate in a way? Holly does an incredible job of balancing the understandable stress with the joy and all the happy moments, as well as acknowledging the fact that in the end, Elway seriously did enrich both of their lives. I LOVE THAT YOU POINTED OUT HOW YOU WERE WORRIED ABOUT THE BABY COMING BETWEEN THEM... because it's true!!! It's such a real concern, but she is so good about wrapping it up; the scenes after Kyle gets Elway feel like a dream sequence in how floaty and happy everyone is, and while reading it I was like (as someone who does not want kids), huh. Maybe I need to have a baby? LOLL but seriously you are so right. It IS endless and now they have even more love to go around because of Elway... whatever. WHATEVER!! I'm not even crying. I'm NORMAL!!!!

I totally get your feelings about creek!! I ended up feeling kind of similarly. I'm happy you started expanding your horizons!!! There's nothing wrong with sticking with exclusively creek fic, obv, but there are some real gems out there if you're able to push some of the icks to the side. And maybe you'll even figure out a new ship you like? I remember that I was afraid to read Other People's Tupperware at first because Tweek is literally dead, and Craig hooks up with Kenny? But then I decided to read it (and felt neutral about it!) and it was valuable to me. And then when I read it a few years later, I really loved it. It got me thinking that first time!!! I'M HAPPY I COULD HELP GIVE YOU THAT PUSH!!!

Talking about holly (or any other fic) to me will NEVER bother me so pls feel free to do so!!!! I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE EPILOGUE!! It is sweet and so delightful. AND PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I CAN EVER GIVE YOU ANY OTHER SUGGESTIONS!!

Thank you SOO much for this ask!! It seriously made my day.

#asks #<3

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mindrole · 1 month

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may 29th..... you're kidding, it changed to may 29th after the popup shop ended...

the original date was april 4th so i was expecting it to ship this month, so i ordered stuff so i can ship it all at once, now it's may 29th... that's clear beyond my birthday (25 days in fact), you're kidding!!!!! since i planned around it i already have stuff ready to consolidate in storage. i think it has only two weeks of free storage left so... so...!!!

this is gonna cost me an extra 50 bucks cmonnnn 😭

tbh, i think they should have shipped to the people who bought online first, i don't think it's fair, but i'm only annoyed cuz i tried to plan ahead. my mistake. seeing the popup shop made me think it'd ship on time.... agh i feel crazy!!!

well... ill be waiting 😭😭😭

#random bitching sorry i had to get it out of my system

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ram-de · 11 months

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sit and settle

As it turns out, waiting for an important meeting with my supervisor is madly anxiety-inducing. Okay, maybe not that bad. Just, nerve wracking leaning heavily on the heart-thumping madly kind of side. I'm... I don't know. I guess it's because I'm not used to it. The previous students before me took a long time. And it made me well, think about how mine doesn't take long. Mostly because it doesn't happened often but... Oh well. I figured it'd be a little bit embarrassing (and shameful, actually) to show up with so little progress. I'm not taking this seriously, am I?

See. Um. I breathed heavily. I was tapping and my body screams uneasy. Less now since I'm writing about it. Ah... I'm scared about it. But even now I'm not thinking about the consequences. What will happen? Am I going to get scolded? Maybe it's what I needed?

Gosh... I'm so... There's this stray thoughts of me to run away. To just go to a bookstore and find a book instead. I want to walk away so bad. I'm thinking of excuses such as, "Oh I had something to do," or "I suddenly felt a bit unwell," or "I had family thing to sort out." which... Except being unwell to the nerve, the others aren't that true. I'd be lying. And... Lying is addictive. I know that very well so let's not start.

So, what do I do? Just scream. Just... Run away. Just... I don't know. I'm not sure. As I type, thoughts about it what should I tell him for my progress, or stuff like that pours like water. It's so easy for me to think like this. But at the same time it's also easy for me to not care any more less. I'm confused sometime. To be fair it's been an hour from the supposed scheduled meeting... But isn't it normal that stuff happens? Maybe. Hold on. A bit.

Maybe I'll stay until 12.00

Waiting is painful.

It's 12.05 now and I'm still here. So I guess a normal, healthy, functional session of discussion is around 30minutes or more. I'm anxious now. What do I do? Suffer. I guess.... WHAT DO I DO....

And now it's 12.30. I went downstairs and then back here again. Waiting. It's torture. I think I'll wait 15 more minutes and then I'll go. But then the waiting time will be a waste... Okay. That's true. But how long? How long will I wait? At this point I'm not even... Like, mad that I'm here. I guess. I guess I am, in a bit. But the thing is, I'm more so annoyed than anxious. Annoyed that I have to wait. Um. I guess what's annoyed me is that I'm not prepared. Like mentally. My goodness I'm so whiny💀 whatever. Okay. Okay.

12.45. Bottom line.

13.00 Okay we did it🤝 I'm not going to talk about it for now.

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BROOOO I'M SO SOCIALLY DEPRAVED ITS NOT FUNNY.... THE FIRST TIME I INTERACTED WITH A FELLOW STUDENTS FROM MY YEAR, same study... I got excited😭 like innocently excited. I know we're not close or anything but havinhg a super short talk is lord.... Even though I stuttered and like nervous and maybe talk a bit too fast and seemed like I want to walk scape. I... How did I survive without interaction for how many months outside family I don't know. Like generally most people aren't judgemental or mean and internally I know it's my own like insecurity and anxiety clouding my perception of people. Agh... I'm a bit happy. It's so creepy though, isn't it? But then again I'm. I don't know. Fuck. Its not even a whole 5 minutes and I've been thinking of why didn't I just get a grip and face people and smile and greet. It's so easy on paper but it's a whole wreckful of anxiety-inducing fear in practice. I'll maybe talk about this later since I'm having free college counseling.

#ramblingrams

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nyarados · 1 year

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yeah, exactly!!! + they sometimes have cool rewards, like a guaranteed shiny ponyta.

i very nearly went with rowlet, tbh! but apparently its possible to catch the other starters out in the wild (also the dp era ones! ive got 2/3, just missing piplup) & the professor actually gives them to you upon completing the game. i do agree that samurott's hisuian form looks the most similar to the original, but i kinda like the typhlosion design. something about purple fire ig ahaha

that said, i have way too many fire types i want to add to my team 😅 I'm limiting myself to one at a time for now

shiny hunting is a lotta math based stuff but in sv it basically boils down to fight a lotta the same pokemon in an outbreak & refresh/respawn them til the shiny spawns. there's also the breeding method, which is useful for competitive & raids if you want a specific nature or ivs.

& yes, yes it is arven. i thought he was sus as hell & kind of a punk for a while 💀 im kinda indifferent about nemona - she's a little annoying, maybe but she's just a kid so she gets a pass ヽ(´ー｀)┌

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ps sorry for late late reply, i had this 90% typed out & then forgot to finish & send 😭

shiny ponyta is SO good AGH I caught a shiny togetic the other day and it was like here is togetic.... during golden hour 😐 go girl give us nothing like how did they do so well with some shinies and then not even try with others orz

oh hmm that's interesting. why only diamond pearl though 😭 what if I want mudkip 🥺

yes don't get me wrong typhlosion does look really cool!! his little laid back ears may be my favourite part so cute

NAY why limit yourself from what you want!!! I say if it's the fire types you want then it's the fire types you should get!!! 🗣🗣🗣🗣

I can't believe it.... first it was braille and now they want us doing math 😭 ah wasn't breeding like the super old school method of doing it like shiny hunting didn't exist with the old games? 🤔

you thought he was SUS? 🤔🤔🤔 trying to match that with what I know about him being some guy who likes to cook

#reply #flower anon #hiiii idk when you sent this #a poll of mine went viral so my notes have been crazy lately 😭

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Okay I forgot to mention but yeESSSSS YAASSSSSSS EVEN ATHENA KNOWS IT'S TRUE DETECTIVE REYESSSSSS!!

Anyway about the last scene: -.- seriously bro. Hi, how are you guys?? Ugh. I mean, I'm glad we wrapped up a storyline, but c'mon, guys -.- . I am kinda peeved. Anyway, live reaction (reanactment):

Oh great (at them before they noticed lol)

Oh NO

OH NO

Oh DAAANG

Wait there's no way that's a human body right. It's just blood. RIGHT??

No no there's something there- I kinda thought pig a minute ago?? Idek

I S W E A R if it's a dead human body-

PHEWW hooo okay yeah it's just a pig

I mean AHHH still and :((( poor pig but dang still :/

Ohhh I thought it was about herrrr still. Like idk they just knew they were a thing or something ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ They're not exactly subtle. Idk if I believe that though-

Ohhh okay nah nevermind yeah it's that fake police guy. Ahh nice, chillin'

Welp, I think I can survive another week without much Tarlos, since we'll have whatever the heck we'll get with 3x13 :)) I will miss them though - at least give me both of them separately 😭😭 (although then I'd probably say 'so they were both THERE but we couldn't see them together 😤😤 /lh' so eh there's no winning xd nah I'll survive though lol).

Anyway!! Time for the. . .

REVIEW

Okay! So, I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THIS EPISODE!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍

The CARLOS ANGST!!! Immaculate 🥰🥰❤️😍😍😤😤😤 (in a good way) 😭😭😍😍❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰

Now, this review will probably be short (hopefully - and also because I might have my eye on writing something 👀. . . Maybe Carlos combined with spring break has done it for me xDD), but rest assured I adored it all :))

Well, okay, maybe not ALL of it - let's get into that :))

For a little bit, lol.

Anyway!! Owen. Eh, not my favorite storyline ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I've honestly even had ones this season that I prefer. But, it wasn't horrible. I mean, c'mon, we got Catherine c a l l i n g h i m t h e f r i c k o u t, yes, icon, even if she's not my favorite, we got some Mateo, Tommy, Paul, AND TK shoved in there at some point (Judd too, obviously, but my point is we saw him at other points :)) ), so that was nice :D. Not much Marjan ://. But, I did love her being there in the first bit, even if it wasn't for much :)). I miss her and I love her <33. And poor girl to have to see that :((. Any of them, obviously, I'm just talking about her right now lol. She doesn't deserve it, and none of them do :'( 😭😭.

Anyway! PAUL :DD. Literally my reaction lol. Glad we got to see a little bit of how he's doing :)), makes sense to do a follow-up, but this episode was already jam-packed (mostly with Owen 🙄🙄 - but again I say, at least he got put into his place 😌😌 twice xDD). Still very happy to see my boy though :DDD. I love him <33. Also, as I saw someone else mention, yesss!! His concern for Owen 🥰🥰. Even when he won't take care of himself lol. Also, him and Tommy ALSO calling Owen out, for various things XDD. Beautiful.

And, as a plus to the Owen storyline, we got to see a dead pig :D. The threat mostly is the fun part :)). That's the second- well, I guess third, since I just said Tommy and Paul did xDD, time somebody out Owen in his lace- . . . place 😌😌😌. Obviously it's not GOOD, and kind of annoying it's him, but still: epic :)). And also ~ drama ~ so, lol.

Aaaanyway!

CARLOS AND GRACE!!!!

CARLOS AND GRACE CARLOS AND GRACE CARLOS AND GRACE CARLOS AND GRACE CARLOS AND GRACE-

Yes I typed all of those out (not really painstakingly lol xdd) <333.

ANYWAY! I've talked about them plenty already, but just- they deserved more 😭😭😭. Or deserved better 😭😭😭, or both, I don't know. I mean more screen time, with this plot specifically (looking at you, Owen -.-), but I also just mean they don't deserve this paainnnn 😭😭😭😭😭 :'((( :((

AGH

Anyway 😘, I love how happy Carlos looks to see her 🥰🥰🥰🥰!! And him barely knowing anything about gaming/streaming - 😭 AUGH iconic. Also them reading those stream comments is my life lol. Thank you XDD.

Lone Star writers know what we WANT. The weird stuff, at least xD. And, sometimes. LOL, anyways :'))) (kinda suffering xDD).

Anyway, I love them so much 🥰🥰🥰🥰.

And ATHENA!!!

Hey girl :DDDDDD!!

Love you 🥰🥰 you're my child too 😘😙 Welcome, you're adopted 🥳🥳 (not that you weren't already, but you know :)) )

Now, I personally DID think that conversation was a bit awkward, but I'd definitely take it over no conversation 😌😌😌 :))). I just love them all so much :p. Also, I love the idea of them knowing each other, and Buck, Eddie, and Hen knowing the others, BUT THEY DON'T KNOW THAT THEY KNOW EACH OTHER XDDD. Or, the others, I guess. It's a whole complicated situation, but I hope you get what I mean XDD.

ALSO GRACE RYDER ICON EXTRAORDINAIRE!!!! AYYYYY HER!!! I KNOW THAT DOESN'T MAKE MUCH SENSE BUT SHHH DON'T MIND IT 🥰🥰🥰

Anyway LOL that was hilarious XD. Also Athena "I like her" and Carlos "Me too", plus Carlos dying after Grace said it - iconic XDD.

Also, Athena has adopted two new children 🥰🥰🥰. Welcome guys, you're part of the family now. No questions :)), no arguments <33. Just go :'DDD. Ahhh, watching them go off like it's to college, with a tear in my eye :').

XDDD Anyway!!!

TARLOS!!!

THE NOD, THE STARING AT HIM, THE JOKING AROUND BUT MAKING SURE HE'S AWARE AND SAYING ANYTHING THAT NEEDS TO BE SAID BECAUSE BY GOLLY S O M E O N E HAS TO NOT QUITE EXPRESS BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN THIS MAN'S EMOTIONS FOR HIM!!!!

Anyway, I'm fine 😌😌😌😌😌🥰🥰🥰🥰 :))) <333.

:')))

(suffering but I love it, suffering from happiness almost 🥰🥰😍❤️❤️❤️❤️🥳😌😌😌😌😙😘😘😙😙 goodbye <33)

Anyway xDD. I love them!!! But I won't say much more on theme write now because, like I said, I may write something 👀👀👀.

ALSO JUDD BEST FATHER EVER YES THANK YOU <333

AND HUSBAND!!!

I JUST LOVE JUDD OKAY???!??!??? HIM <3333

Lol, also, I was gonna say, since I said best husband at the end of the post previous to my one about the scene in the loft, at the end of IT (the loft post), TK best boyfriend 🥰🥰🥰🥰. Or TK also best husband xDDD. Anyway, lol, love them all <333333 (all four of them). But yeah, Judd was amazing and nice and caring and all helpful as always :)).

Tbh, I know it isn't in high demand, but, waiting for a Judd storyline! He's always helping others people with their problems, having conversations with them, but when's it time for someone else to help him with his 🥰🥰👀🥰🥰? Also, I know there was Wyatt, but I kind of forgot that for a minute, and still - thst wasn't much, and it has been 5 episodes. Idk I'm just saying ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I'm okay with the way we are right now, for now, I just love him a lot :)))

Lastly

Nancy Gillian's absence is deafening <3.

SKFHSKFKSLFKSLKJDLS

LOL

Anyway! Yeah :)). That's just about it, a nice good Nancy mention because I miss h e r <333 (not like I don't miss someone else just h e r <333 and also the fact that I miss her :')) - mostly happy there not suffering just kinda sad and happy and yeah I love her ❤️❤️❤️😍🥰🥰🥰🥰😭😭🥰🥰🥰) to round it off.

Overall: I loved this episode! We got to see a little bit of everyone - except Nancy. 😒. Anyway! We got a Carlos storyline, AND a Grace storyline, and the Owen plot wasn't horrible either! Plus, it had the high points of his friends and others taking him down a peg, or trying to anyway, even through threats :)). And, uh, even if we don't like those >:(. No threats. Bad. Doo dee doo. . . But I'm just saying I think it's telling that I put >:) at first. That's all I'm saying!

Lol, anyway, I loved the episode. Not to even mention the background TK :)), and the RYDERS!! MMH, love them <33. And really, I can't deny Carlos was looking hot xDD <33. And also adorable lol <33 xD. Mostly because of his hair :') (happy). Ahh. Such a good boy :). Not like, in a weird way, just- idk like a blorbo kind of. Idk I keep thinking of Sausage from Empires 😭😭😭. XD. In general I think it might be better suited to Minecraft men lol. Anyway! Curls, adorable, him, adorable, Tarlos, adorable, Grace, adorable, Judd, adorable, Paul, adorable, Charlie, adorable, TK, adorable - yes, we love them all <333333.

And one more thing: ATHENAAAA!!! Girl I love you <333. Like I said, it was a little awkward, the conversation there, but I still loved it <333. And I love her, and her relationship (however new it is ;) - I'm sure we'll get more, which is mostly the meaning of that wink by the way, besides that just for fun lol) with them :)). And like I said - clearly (it better be that) Athena knows Carlos and Grace, and Buck, Eddie, and Hen, know TK, Marjan, Judd, Paul, and Owen <33. And maybe even Tommy, depending on if they met her there ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. Also, those hearts are not for Owen specifically lol - you need to share, Owen xdd. But not in a "Share my love" way, just a, not really for you xDD. Not exclusively anyway, and you're CERTAINLY not top for my favorites/loved most list lol. Anyway!!! I imagine they see the others and what not on social media or whatever, like Instagram, since they swapped some of those, and maybe a few (PLATONIC idk it's just kinda usually a romantic thing so I'm covering my bases, making sure xDD) phone numbers, but still, lol. Anyway, yeah, I love them all <3333.

Soo, yeah! I really loved the episode :DD. Even though it's hard to choose, definitely one of my favorites!! :DDDD! It's up there somewhere :))).

So yeah! It was absolutely great. This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 3, Episode 11, Prince Albert in A Can

I'm definitely impressed with all that's happened so far, and interested in what's coming in the future :). I'm excited for the next episode! I'll have another review then, for. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 3, Episode 12, Negative Space

See you next week!!!

#9-1-1 lone star #911 lone star #oasis's 9-1-1 chatter #9-1-1 ls #911 ls #9-1-1 lone star 3x11 #911 lone star 3x11 #9-1-1 lone star 3x12 #911 lone star 3x12 #the name/words negative space do seem to fit with the number 12 🤔#hm #interesting #:))#(just a normal smiley face lol xDD)#9-1-1 lone star season 3 episode 11 #911 lone star season 3 episode 11 #carlos reyes #grace ryder #athena grant #9-1-1 #911 #9-1-1 on fox #911 on fox #gayfirefightershow #XDDDDD ahhh lol. I thought about tagging the show by the way but then I tagged athena and went 'oh yeah lol. I kinda have to tag it now xD'#tk strand #owen strand #judd ryder #tarlos #love y'all 😘😘😙😙😌😌😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😭😭 (because I'm leaving you guys :')) - happy or happy/sad) 🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ bye :DDD <333

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OMG SAX IM DONE W MY ASSIGNMENTS

AHHH i’ve missed you sm it feels like forever since i’ve talked w you. first off, how are you? how have you been? i hope your well.

it felt so weird and annoying to be stressed on my bday but i felt so blessed from your wishes and five days later im free from school for a whole two weeks!

ugh i hate uni already. but i also kinda like it? it’s weird. maybe bcs one of my degrees (i’m doing a double degree) is creative writing?

i’ve been obsessed w creating writing since i was five yrs old so every class just feels like chilling and free time for me. loving it. my other degree however is IT and…just kill me now, please.

also… i won’t delve into the situation w your anon community that happened a few days ago? i can’t remember lost track of time. but i just wanna let you know that i love you sm sax and i appreciate how you try and make everyone that comes to your blog feel welcome.

yes, i feel insecure as well sometimes. esp bcs i know i’m a great writer but i’m too shy to do anything abt it but then i read over all out little talks and just the feeling of genuineness that i get from you, it warms my heart so thank you.

i might actually open a blog or two in the future for my own writing abt my ults (if i’m bothered and brave enough)

anyway, i was just wondering what course are you doing in uni? kinda curious.

also, i requested to add you as a friend on discord, so if you feel like talking in priv, hmu anytime

ily babes, so glad to have free time now so we can catch up

-🧚‍♀️ anon

HEYYYYY 🧚‍♀️ im so glad to hear from u 🥳 and yes it feels like years but i'm happy to hear that ur assignments r done, how did they go?

im doing alright, i've been hanging out a lot with my irls i think i was out like 5 times this week 😭 which is a lot even for the whole month so i think i'll be spending some time alone for a little while 🤞 social battery def feeling kinda dead and im for sure a little anxious but other than that i'm doing gooooood <3 i hope the same for u!

im sorry to hear that u weren't feeling too good on ur bday but im glad that my message lifted ur spirits even if temporarily ! and omg 2 whole weeks.. u r livin the D R E A M 🧚‍♀️, truly

uni is so 😵‍💫 (derogatory) but im just so glad im gonna finish relatively soon - not feeling so glad about having to write a dissertation next year tho.. i am really happy to hear that you're liking it even if just a bit bc it's so hard to stay motivated when it makes u want to take a fork to the eye ☺️

that's really cool actually and i hope to get to read some of ur writing in the future!! but agh 🧚‍♀️ i'm so jealous of you i wish i was studying writing rboarnoaj im gonna weep but i graduate next summer so i plan to do a postgrad in journalism or something of the sort so i can actually do something with my life that i'll enjoy..

i'm studying architectural technology which is essentially like domestic (mainly) architecture with some civil engineering involved #WomenInStem and it's killing me 😭😭😭 i really loved physics in school so i don't mind doing that but omds the maths is gonna put me in the grave im so bad at maths i can't deal..

tysm for saying so it makes me happy to hear that u feel that way and i hope u know that i love you also <333 i'll always be here for u, so i hope u don't forget that or ever feel alone / like u have nobody

that's so exciting and i hope that if u do, u lmk what ur url is so i can read ur stuff <33

okay yes of course and please remember the same extends to u & feel free to hit me on disc to talk about anything u need, ok??

i love u tooooo and yes me too this catch up has been really nice <3 talk soon, i hope 💌🫀

#🧚‍♀️ anon #saxophonist 💌🫀

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