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madschiavelique · 7 months
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was a bit hesitant to ask this but thoughts on how Miguel would feel if reader was vv self conscious abt their body/said anything negative abt their appearance..? (talking abt this as someone who's also self conscious abt their body cuz i need to know how he would react/what he would say to the reader tbh 😭)
AAAAAAA BESTIE I FEEL YOU !! I'm part of the self conscious about their body gang - i just had to write more than just a thought on this<3
when it comes to self consciousness about my body, there's always one line from the song Paradis by Orelsan (french rapper), that says "Je comprends pas pourquoi tu t'inquiètes quand tu prends du poids. Pour moi, c'est ça de pris, ça fait toujours plus de toi." which i used in this text (clue : it'll be in italic)
summary : miguel reassures a self conscious reader on their body content warnings : comfort, fluff, miguel being a worshipper of you, genderneutral!reader, no use of Y/N word count : 739 tag list : @fandom-ash
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Miguel is a man who notices details, all the more so when those details are related to you. He noticed how you looked at yourself in the mirror from time to time, how you sometimes stood on your tiptoes when you were sitting to make your thighs look less large, how some days, even when it was hot, you wore a sweater covering you completely.
You were used to wearing baggy clothes, oversized sweaters and t-shirts, baggy pants, nothing that showed too much of your curves.
He'd noticed how you'd changed your diet lately, and how the portions you allowed yourself were... far too small for a normal meal.
You were depriving yourself of your favorite snacks, and even when Miguel offered you some, you begrudgingly refused. He could see the pain in your eyes, and he couldn't understand.
Then one day, standing in front of the mirror in your underwear, you started to cry. Miguel came running straight to you, taking you in his arms as you wept silently, little jolts shaking your body.
He stroked your back and hair gently, letting the sobs take their place as you sniffled against his shoulder.
"Hey hey hey," his voice was low, as if he felt that a word or a gesture a little too strong could break you into a thousand pieces, "nena, what's wrong?" he asked, stepping back.
He wiped your tear-streaked cheeks, your eyes were reddened and your lips bulged with heartache.
"I hate my body."
His heart cracked, and he came to take you in his arms again. So that was the reason for all this, for your restrictions, for all these choices that were doing you more harm than good. He couldn't understand how you could think such a thing, because he worshipped you like the goddess or god or deity you truly were.
"I wish I just looked different," you murmured against him.
"Why?" he asked, pulling away from you again to cup your face.
"Because, I look ugly, I feel ugly..." you sighed, your brow furrowing as hot tears rolled down your cheeks.
His lips were parted, he couldn't understand how it was possible for you to feel this way, to think this way about yourself. He found you so beautiful that the very thought of you thinking that way seemed almost impossible.
"I'm not pretty enough to be with you. There are so many prettier girls and boys than me-" you began, but he cut you off, not even letting you finish your sentence.
"Don't ever say that again," he said, his tone serious and almost warning.
He looked at you, sorry and almost angry. Because he was wondering who he was going to have to correct (annihilate) for having succeeded in making you think you weren't beautiful.
"Come here," he said, lifting you with ease to rest you on the sink while you were still wiping your cheeks. "Listen to me: Your body is not the reason I love you. I've fallen in love with your soul, your qualities and your flaws... even if I'm still trying to find the flaws."
You blew out a quick laugh from your nose, a tear running down your cheek as he brushed it away.
"It doesn't make you a failure, or undesirable, or ugly not to have the body of a celebrity on the cover of a magazine." he said softly as he kissed your cheek, his hand gently caressing your thigh. "Why should you worry about gaining weight?"
"Because it makes me ugly." you murmured, but he gripped your chin between his fingers so your eyes observed the truth in his.
"No, it doesn't make you ugly," he assured. "Even if you do gain weight, for me it's a given, because it always gives me more of you."
Your chin trembled slightly, and you bit the inside of your cheek.
"No matter how long it takes, I'll make you love yourself," he confirmed. "I don't care what you look like, I'll still love you."
You smiled, tears still gently flowing, Miguel coming to place both his hands on your cheeks to clear them. You let out a little laugh:
"Even if I was a worm?" you joked.
He smiled, sighing softly.
"Yes, even if you were a worm." he laughed, kissing your forehead before hugging you again.
"Lucky worm." you whispered, wrapping your arms around his back.
"Lucky me." he whispered against your hair, stroking it gently.
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azumasoroshi · 11 months
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suzume no tojimari spoilers ! hi guys im Insane
literature analysis brain is going haywire so here’s a bunch of incoherent ramblings some themes motifs and symbolism i love in this movie because AAAAAAA
Love and Sacrifice.
Obviously, but like the different kinds of love and devotion and how they’re never perfect and sometimes self-destructive but they’re so powerful and just waughhh. It was so important to me how after exploding at her Tamaki (suzume’s aunt, ik im not the only one who forgets names) was like “you know I don’t feel that way all the time, right?” like not denying that yes, she has felt exhausted of taking care of Suzume and sometimes wished she didn’t have to take care of her, trying to be the parental figure she needs while also trying to not encroach on her sister’s memory. It means so much to me that she didn’t deny those feelings but instead told Suzume that it’s not how she always feels, because loving someone means sacrifice and ewughghgghfgfh im not putting this into words well but htrggfhgf.
and ALSO the reciprocation of kindness with daijin - as thanks for the taste of freedom at last, and wanting to be with someone whom you love but not really comprehending that what they want (that “suzume doesn’t love me” killed me) and how by the end daijin helped her pull souta out and sacrificed himself for suzume because he really loved her ggrgfggfhfnfnch
And just. everyday love. This is kind of a mix of themes and motifs but every time we flashed back to the memories of whatever abandoned place they were in - the simple “good morning”s and “be back soon” and “it’s so hot”s made me choke up. the mundane love of Chika and Suzume in their newly found friendship, Rumi’s kindness in picking Suzume up off the street and her love for her children, Serizawa’s platonic love for Souta letting him drive these two crazy women with crazy beef for 7 hours across Japan, there’s just so much expression of love and the hardships people go through because of it and rhgrjgrjhgdhgjhb
Mourning and Closure.
Makoto Shinkai himseld said that he wanted to write a story about “mourning deserted places” (at least according to Wikipedia) so this one is all but textual but like yeah. the motif of opening/closing/locking doors and locking the bike and things like that? AaAAaAaa
To close the gates, you need to imagine the emotions of people who once lived there - i can only imagine what Souta was thinking in the abandoned bathhouse area, but hrhggejghw the school and the amusement park and the shots we got of normal life in tokyo before the worm revealed itself in the climax, it just. really speaks to the beauty of everyday life. im a sucker for that kind of stuff as both a psychology major and just a weird person who thinks “man i wonder what happened to this person for the past 22 years of their life that led them to be here with me in this moment” whenever i pass someone in the grocery store. Hodaka could let japan be flooded in weathering with you because of his love for hina, but suzume’s whole arc was learning about the common people and living their lives and embracing all the kindness they had to offer to herself and others and it really hits that like. of course she can’t just let tokyo get destroyed to save Souta, every person in all of tokyo is just like Rumi and Chika and Serizawa and they’re all people who love and are loved. She finds herself in Souta’s place as one who stretches himself thin between being a gate closer and studying to be a teacher because he loves life as well, and-
oops i forgot i was talking about mourning and closure
anyway the doors keep getting reopened because the grief never fully goes away and the worm of “calamity” is letting yourself be consumed by the grief and destroying the people around you and not being able to move on, and it comes from the Ever-after becomes ever-after is a place where time doesn’t exist and you wish you could be there forever because it’s where you can relive the events of your past, it’s where you can live in denial that time moves forward and you have to move with it, it’s where Suzume goes after her mother dies because she wants people to stop giving her condolences and just give her her mom back. “Ever-after” in itself is a “happily ever after” - a place where mortals aren’t meant to go, no matter how beautiful it looks. Souta goes there too because he is the catalyst Suzume needs to go back and face Ever-after - and it’s no longer beautiful, but it’s torn apart by grief and everything is in flames. The idea of a keystone as well, locking the memories and hurt away, is one that Suzume removes to relive her memories and puts back in place when she’s ready to move on. htrhgfhgfghfghf. she won’t let souta be the keystone because she refuses to move on without him.
Also both Souta and his grandfather tell Suzume to just forget everything she’s seen, but it’s too late for that because connections aren’t so easily forgotten. Even when Tamaki couldn’t remember telling Suzume she’d be her new mother, that doesn’t change that she cared for her for the next 12 years anyway. Suzume visits Chika and Rumi by the end, and obviously she’s never forgotten her mother, both because her chair was still in her room by the start of the movie and because she looks like her by the end. Even though relationships change, they’re never forgotten in the movie, and I think that’s beautiful, really.
(also cool detail: 12 years ago is when the tsunami that killed suzume’s mother struck. the movie came out in 2023, and the touhoku earthquake/tsunami that inspired this film was in 2011. nice)
Reality vs Fantasy
The scenes where Suzume goes out into public again following stopping the worm from destroying Tokyo were especially poignant to me. This girl’s been going on a fantastical adventure with her talking chair and talking cat, meeting nice people and making friends, excited at the idea that she’s doing something important, but after Souta’s gone she shuts down. Her feet are bloodied, her clothes are destroyed, and people keep giving her strange looks and calling her homeless because she may have stopped the worm but even without being consumed by grief, it still isn’t pretty or picturesque. Standing out in Japanese society is discouraged, as most of us are well aware, but she’s been doing nothing but that with all the running around and talking to chairs and flying through the sky she’s been doing. Without a concrete goal in mind, without Souta as company, she’s alone in the world of adulthood and has no one to tell her what she should do, no Souta to guide her through Tokyo. And without that confidence or charm, people don’t come to her aid like they did before. It’s only once she finds her resolve to save Souta, quite literally walking in his shoes/footsteps, that the next helpful stranger (Serizawa) comes in.
She could imagine those abandoned places as alive, but the truth is that they were abandoned and will stay that way - none of them miraculously revived by the end, unless something happened in the credits that I couldn’t see through all my tears. Reality will not bring those places back, but what really matters is how we carry the memories of those places with us? I think. man maybe it’d be easier to write this post if i had actually seen the end credits
this post is really fucking long so im calling it here 😭 makoto shinkai has done it again. goddammit
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absoluteabsolem · 1 year
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okay guys i'm having a brainrot on my way to work about goncharov bc of all your sexy meta posts but i haven't seen a single one talking about the flowers in this film so indulge me
so i'm a florist right ? my n°1 passion when i watch a movie or a show is to trashtalk the flowers bc 99,9% of the time they look like shit. like. i made better arrangements during my first year of training. it makes me sad. yes goncharov is a brilliant film in itself but it gets a whole star just for the fucking flowers (i can't find the florist in the end credits if anyone knows pls tell me ??)
like we're talking thierry boutemy in marie-antoinette (2006) levels of artistry. all the arrangements are so BEAUTIFUL and i'm gonna talk about them. it will ofc mostly be about katya lmao bc men yet have to express themselves through delicate floral jewellery (i wish they did though. i am waiting). katya doesn't have that many lines for a main character but her presence and the colours speak for themselves. sorry i'm on mobile i don't have any pictures
alright so of course you have the wedding. everything is so fucking opulent it's a cascade of wealth you have almost no foliage at all except eucalyptus and that shit is expensive. there are more peonies than you could ever count and the roses are soooo beautiful (i think most of them are juliet peach roses but i can't be 100% sure) like. i could smell it from my couch it was as if i was there aaaa the fucking wax flowers and scabiosas i love scabiosas so much !! and the perfect balance between flowers of different sizes !!! it was wonderful i mean you've seen them
but what i love about these arrangements is that they're all in white and yellow. it's an unusual combo for a wedding even if white is a classic wedding colour in western cultures and yellow isn't so weird at the heart of summer. yellow is however also the colour of jealousy and betrayal and idk if you ever noticed but andrey's boutonniere is the ONLY ONE that is just yellow. you don't have the white carnation (associated with love. screaming) on it like everybody else. also note that katya's bouquet is only white which is all about purity elegance etc. i do think however that the colours of andrey and katya's flowers on that day are more about the way goncharov feels about them at that point in the story, rather than their own feelings.
we also see katya wear several decorated combs in her hair throughout the film (idk enough about hair stylism to comment of the haircuts themselves so i'll stick to the flowers). the first we see are pretty simple and not rly noticeable, white and pastel pink, typical discreet but feminine stuff. p much like the rest of her wardrobe up until the boat scene where things get interesting.
this is where katya meets sofia who is wearing that rly fucking gorgeous burgundy (ambition, power and wealth) dress and look i know monica bellucci can wear anything and be beautiful but fucking hell. i mean i'm gay but i briefly questioned myself for a second there. anyway. the boat shenanigans happen and once katya goes back home and pretends she didn't almost get fucking killed, the flowers in her hair are burgundy. i mean i know we have the fruit market a bit later but the comb is what sold me on that ship. i see you katya
when she almost shoots goncharov (if we were rly in love you wouldn't have missed AAAAAAA i'm normal) she has a super pretty mix of blue hydrangea/eucalyptus in her hair. blue is the colour of control and tranquility and i thought it was very sexy of her. she still has them when sofia leaves her and i love how you can see the tears about to fall down her cheeks but she doesn't allow it. things got out of hand but she's not willing to lose control of herself in front of sofia and i think ultimately it's what fucked things up between them but i try not to think about it too hard
what DOES however keep me awake at night is that martin scorsese rly thought it was okay to have red bouquets everywhere made in the exact style of goncharov and katya's wedding in goncharov's home when andrey shows up to kill him. i mean the subtext isn't even subtext at this point it's like saying point break isn't gay but the flowers are the fucking cherry on top. andrey shoots him and he doesn't miss because he loves him and in case you're too dense to understand that here is a decadent display of red and burgundy. it is the colour of love it is the colour of violence and in their case one simply does not go without the other and i am so fucking normal about this
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Heeellloooo darling! Welcome back!
Can you do modern Agni x reader, where the reader is having a massive anxiety attack because of home and work stress and Agni is helping them through it? Sorry I'm projecting...🙃
aaaaaaa I hope you're doing better now sweetie!!! <3
wishing you all the best! I hope this is a comfort for you =)
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AGNI finds you curled up on the sofa when he comes home.
You’re pressed into the corner, appearing to have basically compressed yourself into a ball ball. You have both arms around yourself, knees to your chest, and he can hear that you’re not breathing quite normally. It doesn’t sound like you’re in danger of your breathing stopping, though, so he thinks it must be something else.
He sits down quickly, taking care not to make any big movements. “Jaan? Are you alright?”
When you shake your head, it’s a jerky motion, almost robotic. Sort of like you’re forcing yourself to do something to answer him. “N… no… I feel… I don’t feel right.”
“No?” God, he hates seeing you like this. Then again, surely no one likes seeing anybody they love suffering. Sometimes there isn’t much he can do, but he doesn’t have enough information yet to know whether or not he can do anything this time. “What doesn’t feel right, my love? Can you talk to me?”
There’s an audible swallow from you. “I… I don’t know. My heart’s racing… I-I’m… my breathing is… I feel shaky. It just hit me… everything… everything feels like so much… I-I can’t… I feel like I’m drowning in everything.”
Ah. He has an idea of what’s going on. Of course, that doesn’t mean he thinks he can help. He can certainly try, however. “Mh… everything? Work?”
You nod. “Work, and… and everything else going on. Not ― like, not you or ― I just…” You shake your head, hugging yourself tighter. “Everything else. It just… I feel like I can’t calm down, like I just… I can’t…”
Sensing your frustration to express your feelings, Agni pushes himself a bit closer to you on the sofa. “Is it alright if I touch you, jaan? Can I hold you, or do you think that will make you feel worse?”
“No,” you murmur, “you could never make things worse. I… I don’t know, try it and I’ll see?”
He scoots himself over, and gently wraps his arms around you. Even if he didn’t know you by now, to you it seems like he could never be anything but careful with anyone. Almost immediately, you melt into him, doing your absolute best to relax. It’s not easy. Everything still feels like an inescapable mountain trying to crush you.
The pressure of Agni’s arms around you doesn’t feel like pressure. It doesn’t feel like an added stress; it feels like he’s trying to take some of the weight off you. As much as you both know he can’t fix everything, you feel comforted that you don’t have to go through this alone.
“I’ve got you, jaan.” He keeps his voice soft, warm around you. “You can worry about things if you want, but the second that worry starts to hurt you, I want you to try to give some of that worry to me. You know I’m always here to make things easier for you if there’s any way I can, right?”
You nod, mostly because you can’t find your words. Anything you want to say is fluttering around in your stomach, barely a thought aside from the simple, I’m grateful for him, repeating on an endless loop. Tears are starting to form in your eyes now, but you think you’ll feel better after you’ve cried in his arms for a while.
“Good. All you need to do is tell me what you need, or talk to me about your feelings. If there’s anything I can do, I’ll do it. If not, I’ll just listen.” Agni rests his chin atop your head, giving you a reassuring squeeze. “For now, you’re overwhelmed. Breathe with me, sweetheart. Follow how I’m breathing. It might not help all your problems, and it might be hard at first, but it will help you in this moment once you do it a few times. Okay?”
You nod again. True to his word, it does take a couple of tries to mirror the pattern of his breathing ― finally, you manage to do it. And he’s right, that it doesn’t fix anything that you’re anxious about. Money problems, trouble at work, your friends and family and whatever else is going on.
Every breath seems to tell your mind to loosen your grip, though. Let go just a little. The more you match this pattern, the more your brain’s fingers slip off the thoughts.
Agni gives a small rub to your shoulder. “That’s it, jaan. You’ve got it. I want you to try to remember something, okay? When you feel overwhelmed by things like you are now. You can’t control the fact that you feel things, can you? But you do have some control. Those feelings exist inside of you. They are your feelings. You get to have the final say on how you respond to your feelings. You own them, they don’t own you.”
His hands move down, to gingerly set atop yours. “I’ll always be here for you. But if you feel things that overwhelm you when we’re apart, I want you to remember your own power. Think of your feelings as a monster that is small enough to hold in your hands. You hold that tiny monster, and you look at it, and you say, ‘You have no power over me. I have power over you, and I choose to use it.’ You tell that tiny monster, ‘You don’t get to control me.’”
In between all this, you keep breathing, and the thought of your feelings being a palm-sized monster makes you laugh a little. As bizarre as it is, maybe it will work next time. For now, this is enough.
All your problems and all your stress still exist. There’s no debating that.
Suddenly, though, Agni has reminded you how strong you really are. Even if you’re incredibly overwhelmed right now, you aren’t powerless.
You sink in against him, and you’ve started to cry, and that’s fine. It’s what you need in this moment.
“There, jaan, there. Try to rest.” He presses a kiss to your forehead. “Next time, you’ll be more prepared to fight the tiny monster on your own. But right now, let me chase it off. You’re going to be okay, my love.”
And, somehow, you think you will be.
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pinkprimrose05 · 6 months
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character asks bc other anon was a coward: blade
HAJFTOVNWHYFAGDYSDNTJ
General opinion/How much I care about them: Ren Blade Yingxing my beloved beloathed depressed miserable angsty bastard aaaaaaa-
This man, oh my god. This edgy mess is somehow the second fastest blorbo to be coined as such in my blorbo-having history, and I think that alone says a lot. But even if not, he has his special little spot for being: 1) my first HSR fave, 2) my current main (the gameplay is ridiculously fun holy shit), and 3) the reason I downloaded the game at all (shoutout to Bronya, of course, but it was mainly Ren).
Also I really like the fact that he's genuinely batshit insane. An unapologetic menace to the galaxies. He can be so unhinged and evil sometimes, and that's a new flavor of fave in my collection. Did I mention the story doesn't try to redeem him at all? Because it's true! Extremely uncommon win on the hyv writers' part there; doubly so because they manage to balance this aspect with the subtle gap moe they love to give to all their stoic characters.
Yes. Ren is simultaneously edginess incarnate and a tired grandpa that sucks with words and doesn't know shit about technology. Oh and he keeps getting roped into Situations by his colleagues- and goes along with them all the time! The dude was literally asked to pose for a movie cover and he just. did that. No questions asked. Nothing.
I care about him a very normal amount. He's so neat and- oh my god I forgot to mention the aesthetic. Black/blue/red/gold is such a banger color scheme. He also has a spider lily motif and that looks very cool! And the pretty ribbon on the back of his coat is a 10/10 design choice. His only problem is that the game keeps forgetting to edit his silly beta design sneakers out of splash art, and that the washed out jeans clash hard with the coat. But otherwise? Perfection. I could (and did) stare at him for hours on end.
A ship I love: Kafblade is one of those pairs that you can read as romantic or platonic with equal efficacy and I love that for it. They're partners in crime! There's a great sense of trust and faith between them! They're each other's guardian and tether and the one who understands them best and they're such an awesome dynamic, good lord.
Honorable mention goes to jingren for the old man yaoi potential to take the relationship in a very (bitter)sweet or very sad way. There's something to be explored here and I wish canon could give it consideration someday.
A non-romantic relationship that I love: Stellaron Hunter agenda!!! They're so awesome individually and as a group, and the comedy is just lovely. You have Ren wrangling two terribly reckless women because in some way, by some miracle, he happens to be the braincell holder among the three. You have him trailing after Kafka on one of her shopping sprees with a whole bunch of bags and coats, you have him going to an arcade with Silver Wolf because she wanted to show him this brand new game she's been talking about nonstop for four days, and you have him in an impromptu shooting session with them both because they wanted to make silly movie covers and needed an extra actor.
They're one small hilarious family and I adore them so so much, you have no idea. Can't wait until Sam and Elio make an appearance in the story so I get more fuel for shenanigans.
The NOTP: None here sir, as long as the ship is normal it's fine by me.
My biggest headcanon about them: Ren is autistic and you will pry this hc from my cold, dead hands. He's stuck in his own head 80% of the time. He doesn't do conversation at all. Back when he was still Yingxing, he used to spend so much time at the forge when inspiration struck him, to the point of tuning out everything until his friends physically dragged him out to touch grass. He's an autistic nerd through and through, and even several thousand deaths can't take that from him.
An idea for a fanfiction I would like to write/read about them: One idea I've been curious about lately is what would happen in a roleswap scenario, where the Astral Express crew find Ren before the Stellaron Hunters do. He may not make for a great archivist, his state of mind may be less-than-stellar, but it's interesting to imagine the dynamics between him and the crew- and hey, who doesn't love taking sad guys out of situations for a change?
I'm filing this concept for later, just in case. Who knows? The writing ghost visits when I least expect it.
Something that makes me think of them: Everything these days The flute, the sound of wind blowing, red spider lilies, and -to the immense detriment of my composure in public- mentions of the word blade in any context ever. Why gee, thanks for permanently altering my brain chemistry.
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knife-dad · 5 months
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Anyone else up at 1am crying about pirates? It can't possibly be just me. I wish I could say something articulate but all I can manage is unintelligible wails. Like this:
AAAAAA A A a BIRD?!? FOR REALS!?! AGSJFKFHSKS they did arts and crafts for Izzy is that not a love language that should be a love language and also AAAAAAA people can change and that's a GOOD THING!!!! BUT ALSO A BIRD THOUGH LIKE FOR REALS? ... are... are we sure about that
AGSHDKFGLUEBF people are talking to each other very honestly which is surprisingly kinda new for a tv show, that beloved medium in which talking is like. One of the main things that happens. Anyways AAAAAA proposal this is the sweetest thing ive ever seen??? Oh and we're just following that with another of the sweetest things ive ever seen. Cool. I'm done being normal I'm so unwell now
KEVIN
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kandidandi · 9 months
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I'm sorry I keep bothering you but I just IOHTGEODLKHLKIDHORTHS It feels just incredible being able to talk to someone you idolize. I swear it makes my day when you reply (probably more than it should) you're just so amazing and a huge inspiration and I just- AAAAAAA ❤❤❤❤ I genuinely can't explain how indescribably happy you seriously make me. Please, continue to be an amazing person you really are special and a ray of light in my life. I genuinely wish I could form the words to tell you how much I appreciate and idolize you. You bring me more happiness than my literal antidepressants. You're a fantastic person and I mean it wholeheartedly. I really do. I know this is sappy and stuff, but I can't put into words how incredibly special you are. Stay awesome and make sure you take care of yourself, because you deserve the world. You claim you're just a normal person, but in my eyes, you really are a precious gem. Thank you for being in my life. Truly.
(Sorry to be a nuisance by repeatedly sending asks.)
omg thats really sweet thank you so much!!! im so glad you get happiness from my blog :D
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clay-cuttlefish · 6 months
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Forging ahead with 52. #19 to #38. It's so much.
#19
The Evil Skeets plot is great. According to the omnibus it was a very late change away from a generic broken-time story, and I can kinda see that with how some of the earlier evil Skeets behavior doesn't seem super purposeful, but it all works for me.
#20
Mostly spaceguy plot that I don't care much about. The fight's cool at least.
I have no idea what fan speculation was like at the time but the idea of Supernova Jason Todd conspiracy theories is extremely funny so I support the intentional red herrings here.
#21
I keep changing my mind on which storylines I like more as I go. How could I not love Natasha?
#22
Dr. Magnus is back! I wish him being bipolar was handled more sensitively, the whole "oh the medicine keeps me from going ~crazy~" thing is :/, but I'm willing to read it charitably as his own perspective because I like him. He's a psychotic DC character who's heroic and not spooky or magical, just a guy who really doesn't want to have another depersonalization episode and has some internalized sanism about it, it could be so much worse.
#23
I like that Vic's more jaded to the horrors he can't stop than Renee is. He's had a lot of time to get used to the idea he can't save everyone - back in his own book he would've thrown himself in harm's way just like she wants to, but he's gotten better at not starting fights he can't win.
Hate to give Geoff Johns credit for anything but "What the hell are you doing?" "Seeing if it's contagious." is really good.
#24
"We were both guilty of ignoring Ted" Pretty sure Booster nearly died because he dropped everything to help but okay.
Osiris is just a kid...
Introducing a First Nations hero just to kill him off and give his stuff to a white dude sucks.
#25
Alan's out of the spaceguy zone and doing his own thing.
Almost halfway and the threads are still only starting to link up.
#26
I cannot get enough of Vic and Renee being friends with the Black Marvels. It's very sweet!
Tot my friend Tot :)
This is just a nice moment for them.
#27
I'm very into how Evil Skeets is drawn. He manages to be expressive despite having no moving features, it's a good trick.
Ohhh no it's now. I thought I had another issue, but no, this is the turning point.
#28
THE QUESTIONS!!! Love how they're heckling Kate together.
Kate is so cool.
Oh right, the spaceguys are still here.
#29
The way the mad science island handles mental illness generally sucks, but it's almost hitting at something interesting with Will being forced off his medication for the sake of "creativity".
#30
Get out of here Bruce.
I am going to cry!
#31
I don't even dislike the spaceguys really, but cmon, more of Ralph or Nat would've been better.
Ralph's still a detective even at his lowest! Strong foreshadowing.
#32
Uh oh, Ralph.
#33
Ohhh Charlie.
Him hallucinating Myra? Only able to admit he loved her at the very end?? It takes me out!
Almost all of his dialogue is straight from the O'Neil run. Rucka describes rereading the entire run just to write this issue because he had to get this right, and it shows.
There's a reason I consider O'Neil and Rucka the essential Question writers, and all the other takes to be interesting sidenotes.
#34
The kids aren't doing so well.
aaaaaaaa
#35
Hands you a picture of Nat. Hands you a picture of Nat. Hands you a picture of Nat.
Lex is the best villain in 52 and it isn't even close to a competition.
#36
AAAAAAA
Fuck dude! Nothing coherent to say here! Look at them!
#37
Wild emotional roller coaster for me as I go from Renee agony to cheering about Booster. My first read of this was a Time.
It's such a fun mystery. I can confirm it works if you know nothing about comics and are just along for the ride, and it comes together so well on the reread.
Mayor Ollie!
#38
AAAAAAA
"I'm afraid of who I'll become without you..." How am I meant to be normal about this!
I had to read this in two pieces because it made me need to get up and pace. It has done this every time I have read it. I am physically incapable of being normal about this.
Head in my hands. Comics are good and worth reading actually.
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whoslaurapalmer · 3 months
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okay many many giggle thoughts many spoilers omg
-WE'VE ENTERED THE ERA OF DOCTOR ON DOCTOR LOVE -i do love doctor on doctor hate but they've grown up so much!!!!!!! the doctor has changed so much!!!!!! the joy!!!!!! the love!!!!!!!! THE HUGGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖 -'i love you. get out. <3' :)))))))))) god what a delight oh my god :))))))) -fifteen comes out of such......acceptance and peace. grace! fourteen's lack of ego, all his understanding. and fifteen has such immediate bright joy and delight and thrill and!!!! oh my god!!!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!! -AND ZERO PANTS!!!!! -NO PANTS TO SPEAK OF!!!!
-MEANWHILE. i swear to GOD rtd is dying to bring back the master in the worst way holy fucking shit -the archangel network reference. the master being brought up at all and in the toymaker's tooth. a little dancey number. FOURTEEN SAYING ALMOST THE EXACT SAME THING TEN SAID TO SIMM!MASTER BACK IN THE SOUND OF DRUMS!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOUTED -THE HAND PICKING UP THE TOOTH LIKE THE HAND PICKED UP THE RING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -he's got plans. he's. got. plans -i thought 100% the master was just gonna. come out of the tooth somehow. not really enough time left in the ep for that though. but oh my goddddddddddddddddddddddd (-could the master hear the doctor offer someone else everything the master ever wanted but also continually turned down.) (okay i will stop now. but i am eyeing the future.)
-what a series of bizarre events. what a time!!!! oh my god. like.......... -it's a lot. it's a lot of things -it's rtd calling back to what he did with the metacrisis doctor. it's the doctor being allowed to stop and have a life. sort of becoming the metacrisis doctor, but also, being the doctor???? being allowed to STAY.........making the CHOICE to do it -ROSE IS HIS FAVORITE NIECE.................HIS NIECE <3 -MOTHER OF GODDDDDDD -it's closure for ten, yeah? ten who was so unable to have a family, to have what humans are capable of and how that hounded him, who had to watch the metacrisis doctor get rose, who couldn't slow down -and bringing up how a normal human life would drive him crazy!! hilarious bc i did just watch the power of three last week -but the doctor is capable of it now!!!! god look at fourteen............ -'that's the adventure.' aaaaaaa!!!!!!!! -godddd just! having just got back into my eleven watch and how eleven had the most heartbreaking struggle between the exciting and the mundane and what a life is made of, what eleven's was, what amy's was!!!!!!!!! oh it felt. healing in a way -and splitting the tardis like the piece of coral the metacrisis and rose got!!!!!!!!!! -even with all the little references throughout the ep i still wish fourteen had gotten to sit down and talk though. but still!!! -staggering along.......wearing himself out........... -and he gets to be with his best friend in the whole entire universe :) -and her family! and mel! think of all the other companions he could chill with!!!! THAT COMPANION SUPPORT GROUP FROM THE POWER OF THE DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!!! -BRINGING UP ADRIC!!!!!!!!!! -ADMITTING HE LOVED SARAH JANE!!!!!!!! YEAH YOU DID!!!!!!! -AND FIFTEEN SAYING IT TOO!!!!
-is it, perhaps, though, also a disservice to the doctor, to not quite.........move on through the next incarnation completely? yknow? idk. not sure. maybe not, in the end. -i see why the upcoming season will be back to being called 'series one' though. i see!!!!! -he's a new era!!!!! for real!!!!!!!! the doctor can say, 'okay!' about themself, to their past!!!!!!! god!!!!!!!! he's so bright and shiny and excited..........and he's got a JUKEBOX!!!!!!!!! -i love the jukebox -god.................time moves on........doctor grows up...... :) characterization, as it always does, marches onwards.... :) and it feels good here. -although i'm sure fifteen will have his own events to go through too. as ever!
(-i do think everyone should sit down and talk though. and show the talking. but! that's just me.)
-many other thoughts!!! -it was scary! it was terrifying!!!!! it was so fun!!!! it was so many things!!!!!! -mel!!!!!! MEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh mel was here!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -donna going 'oh, so i'm not the first redhead?'
-seeing shirley again!!! oh i hope we see more of shirley, always -tardis has a ramp now :)
-KATE OFFERING DONNA A JOB AT UNIT????? -'125 a year and 5 weeks holiday.' 'done.' '??????? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
-bringing back someone from one was so tasty! i mean! it really did feel grand and 60th anniversary!
-very little comments about nph. i'm neutral to dislike about nph in general, so. he was sure in this episode, huh
-THAT PUPPET SHOW???????? -'OH WELL THAT'S ALRIGHT THEN!!!' aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! exactly!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -terrible things happened BUT. but is there really a but? could there be? -could've even hit harder though. no rory!!!! no river!!! no master!!!
-'my name's donna. and i warn you now if this is a trick i'll kill you.' and she does :) i love her :)
-the one who waits..........i wonder who that is.....
-'to get my reward.' vs 'you won the game!!!! you get a prize, honey!!!!!' -!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ✨✨✨✨✨🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹💞💞💞💞💞
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”aeron gave erebus his eyes and made him a demon is all.”
AAAAAAA you can’t just say that and nothing more! I should have known these things though. It’s right there.
He mentions his eyes a lot, explicitly when asking MC if they’ve worked out they’re not somewhere normal. He’s basically saying yo these are demon eyes.
It’s interesting that Erebus ended MC by hitting them in the head and knew the temple vulnerability that made that possible… I saw that someone had hit him in the head and eyes causing his blindness and remembering that part of the game I was like… yep… that’s how he knew. Maybe someone tried to kill him like that, missed and just accidentally messed his eyes up. And then he was blind for some time before death.
And then in a picture with Aeron’s hands over his bloody eye sockets, he laments saying he would rather have died when he bet his life?? This is why he extended MC that mercy kill. He would rather have died than end up like he is.
Was becoming a demon the price of the eyes? Of immortality mostly preserving his original body? He risked death for the transformation and in hindsight wished he’d just died? The eyes were a cursed gift. Those jars and eyes on the afflicted are looking very sus.
Perhaps Eri even got a sliver of Aeron’s gift via them (we see it happen in an uncontrolled way to the lady in the gallery) and now he miserably sees more than he ever wanted to. Was demonhood the price of wisdom/knowledge symbolised by eyes? (The whole Odin sacrificing his eye thing.) Did Eri pay the price for his literary talents and powers of delirium?
Also the song he was played when walking the earth blind… did Genesis play it for him and then abandon him to wander/make a bad bargain/be experimented on by Aeron? (They paint with blood and gave him working eyes. I’m sure they’re not above ‘sculpting’ people’s flesh. Ereboi has snake scales.)
I could have thought Genesis messed him up with sound waves before abandoning him as a leftover to Aeron but that doesn’t fit. It more likely would have been his brain or eardrums that blew - maybe. And when Eri heard the song he was already wandering and blind. He liked the song.
Maybe Genesis was friendly and tried to comfort him but is fickle and got bored. And then just up and left him to cope alone and pursue a bad course of action so Aeron got him.
I’m going to have to go through the spoiler tag
i will leave this ask unanswered to not go into spoiler territory. but i will leave it here for people to read ❤️
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clumsyclifford · 1 year
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first off after rereading a good portion of your fics, I have a question to ask. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF TEA. because that is a consistently reoccurring theme in your fics and hell I am NOT complaining just very curious now because you are very clearly invested in tea ajcjjsnxnxncnl
SECOND!!!!!!!!! DID YOU HEAR THAT ALL TIME LOW IS RELEASING A NEW SINGLE ON OCTOBER SEVENTH?!?! IM SO FUCKING EXCITED BELLA OMFG. THE LAST NEW ORIGINAL SONG WE GOT WAS IN 2021!!!!! (I’m not counting Blinding Lights. They could have chosen ANY song and they did blinding lights. I’m.) (AND PALAYE ROYALE IS RELEASING THEIR ALBUM ON MY BIRTHDAY AAAAAAA)
ANYWAY I seem to have a habit of commenting on your fics a ton and then not touching them for a while and then you go and reply to them and immediately my brain goes SHES ALIVE ITS TIME TO LET HER KNOW I STILL EXIST MUAHAHHAGAHA and I go and leave like +200 more comments and I kNOW you said it’s not annoying but ankxksjxnnx
ANYWAY ANYWAY I HOPE YOURE HAVING A REALLY GOOD DAY BELLA <33333
HFDLKJG i will happily tell you !!! i only ever drink one kind of tea: english breakfast with milk and sugar. i probably put more sugar than a normal human being is supposed to put, but i stand by my decisions. as a matter of fact i am drinking this exact kind of tea right now at this moment
yes!!! i saw !!!! and ghsfhgdslgdkmgj i agree so hard with the blinding lights comment they could have literally covered any song in the world and. they. and they went with blinding lights. they went with blinding lights. i haven't even listened to it under protest. exciting about palaye royale though ! i don't listen to them but mazel tov to you. maisie also just announced that she's releasing a song on october 7th so it's gonna be a good day for music
dsfgdklj well your commenting habit is great i enjoy it so carry on as you were fldkghgdh and thank you for the well wishes sol, my day started pretty bad but has slowly gotten better
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bipbopdepmop · 22 hours
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hey, yeah yeah internet stalking on your other blog but i just wanted to say that aaaaaaa i dont know how to say anything i want to say but your not aaaaa the world fucking sucks and im sorry and i wish i could give you a hug right now and i know its not really my place anymore or anuthing but i hope your ok and im sorry it sucks and i wish i could make it better. all i can give you is the hope that i will get better beacues life has so be more than this, it has to get better. ( im sorry to just aprear in your asks randomly and not talk to you like a normal person but idk i just worry about you and yeah you got this and this is me sending you a hug and i dont even know if this means anything to you and im sorry if it jsut upsets you more aaaaaaaaaa im overthinking this yeah you probably dont want to answer this but i hope your ok)
hi yeah thanks man like really. it does mean something to me. honestly i wish i could give you a hug too i hope youre ok as well. and i hope it gets better too.
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Thursday, January 18th, 2024!
7:28am saw a pic of him on his brother's sc, looks the same as before. It was his brother's birthday yesterday and it looks like he had a lot of fun and I'm seriously proud of him. He deserves that shit.
As for any stirred feelings of him... Ofc he's gonna look completely normal in public, that's what they do. If he couldn't hold it together in public, he wouldn't have what little things he does have right now. I can totally see it now, like the bachelor party all over again where he blows his whole bank account OR lil ms bitch just paid for everything OR they really had the audacity to let the birthday kid pay for everything himself bc tbh he probably could and he's nice enough to not even mind genuinely. Who knew lil bro would be the most normal of the bunch, but again that actually makes me happy that he's normal lmao. But yeah, that karma will come little by little, slowly, death by a thousand cuts like he did to me. Enjoy your fun, we all know you're truly miserable on the inside you sociopath mf. When you go home and get in bed at night with just your thoughts, I know everything eats you up, completely drains you having to be so fake all the time. So, enjoy your parties before you become old and can no longer put up your facade. I'll be here, thriving bc I have always shown people my true self and *I don't lie* Lying will age you quickly my friend.
2:31pm I want to text him so much shitty stuff. I want him to know how much he fucked me up. He put so much anger and frustration and resentment in my life I hate him. I lost all respect and trust for him and can't believe he just ran away from it all. Fucking coward. Idk why I'm so angry today. Too much on my plate just too much I don't care about too much I don't want to do. I hate everything and everyone and literally just fuck everything. I deserve so much fucking better and I know now and I'm so angry at my former self. I can't go back, I can just go forward. Karma karma karma stupid fucking bitch. Fuck you fuck you fuck you I wish I could fucking choke you and inflict physical pain onto you so you could be shaking like I am right now. Shaking with anger and frustration I hate you I hate you I hate you.
8:29pm had a phone call with my school friend, even though we were talking about our project it felt good to just have an actual conversation with someone.... A normal person with no strange motive for talking to me. Loneliness does not look good on me. It literally makes me go crazy a bit. Just look at that stuff from earlier I've literally been mad all day long and it's just been building up inside of me. Insane I'm literally driving myself insane!! I just want normal give me normal boring please!!
11:32pm fuck leaving things until the last minute wtf is my homegirl doing like.... Girl I just did all the slides and you are literally AWOL I have no idea what the hell is going on 😂 my booty is literally sore from sitting here, I have no damn clue how in depth they want us to go with this, it's literally a fucking powerpoint, I feel completely clueless lmao. There's only like 2-3 big drugs used for this disease and just like ok..... And two much rarer medications for rare etiologies. I just want to crack open my bottle of wine, get dicked down and sleep in my own bed tbh 😂 I low-key hope that guy is on the same page or just kinda *forgets* about our conversation. I just can't with men rn. Tryna come over here for what?? Lmao I'm not about to have me a stalker no sir ik this pussy is good you wanna make me breakfast n shit aaaaaaa booty call on a Wednesday aaaaaa
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Could you please do joanne and o!ciel with a male reader, where the relationship is being kept a secret (due to same sex relationships being forbidden at that time)
Preferably each individually
aaaaaaa this made me sad :c
I tend to write in a universe that is, mh, a little lighter on the LGBT+phobia so that it isn't yet another thing for our poor babies to face, so, GAH MY HEART
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This is, unfortunately, the way things must be right now. It’s not as if he wants to hide this big, important part of his life, but what’s the alternative? If this were public knowledge, not only would it have an impact on Ciel’s business, your reputation would also be tarnished. He doesn’t want either of those things to happen, because he cares about you deeply. You get flowers from him often, though, in the language that he can use to express his feelings without worry. (Red roses are a favorite, of course. Yellow acacia, white clover, and honey flower make appearances as well.) In addition, he’s without a doubt quite free to do as he likes with you in his own home — he’s given Sebastian the order to make sure this doesn’t get out, and his servants would never breathe a word. All that said… better safe than sorry. His eventual marriage to Lizzie is his cover for your relationship, and he suggests you seek out a similar arrangement. Until the rest of the world learns to mind their own business, he’s willing to set everything up just so in order to have a fraction of the life with you that other people have with their lovers. Even though it isn’t the full one that he wishes for, it’s what’s available. With that in mind, he’s a man who will take what he can get, and he will be working to pave the way for more tolerant mindsets where he’s able.
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Ugh, this… this just isn’t fair! Why do people have to be so cruel, that they can’t just let others live their lives? It’s not as if you and he are hurting anyone or doing anything immoral! This poor man is just heartbroken that he can’t have what amounts to a normal life with you. It’s out of the question to go on outings while acting romantically, which wounds him in a way he can’t fully put words to. Despite the fact that he’s very much a shy, homebody type of person, he still wants to be able to go on afternoon strolls with you or sit under a tree reading. And the two of you can’t really do that without inviting negativity into your lives. He doesn’t want that; he can’t take it. So he just… stays home with you, trying to life as typical a life as is possible. His family, his parents and his older sister, are incredibly open-minded for their time, so he can at least do things like kiss you around them, as long as you two don’t go overboard. It’s intimate and sweet, but he’ll never be able to start a family with you like he desperately wants. All he can do is cuddle with you in front of the fire, reading every book the two of you can get your hands on… and pray that someday soon, attitudes will change. He… doesn’t know what he’ll do if he has to live his entire life with you so isolated and feeling as if he’s doing something wrong for simply being in love.
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silvermuffins · 1 year
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Pokmon Scarlt Livblog! Part...6?
My laptop's E key has did mostly so I'm gonna copypast th ltter in as neeeeded but pardon if i miss any
IM IN WATeR CITY
i think i explored everything? so it's gym test "hike through the desert" time, yeah?
oh this copypaste thing may not work im neveer gonna rmmbr plase ky just work
anyway off into sand i go
Silicobra! You'll be Marvin Rufflet is Coby.
oh thank god i found a way to hit my e key where it works consistently
Stonjourner! You're Amazon bc you're all boxes. Feerv the Cacnea.
TUMBLWEEED? Bramblin??? Pooki.
ARVEN'S CALLING. I forgot there's a Titan here....but I have gyms to tackle first.... Oooh I think I found a scarab? Rellor? You're Rab.
I'm on a cliff up high above a plain and I love that they put in an animation to look like wind's blowing through the grass like a ghibli moviOOH LARVESTA you're Bemi.
Oooh, grass tera Sandygast! I'll take it. If I can ever whittle down the damn thing. Its name will be Divit.
also can i just take have a second to scree. the person who inspired me to start liveblogging stuff bc they liveblogged a game i love and it was really funny and i go reread it when im sad. is back on tumblr. and also following now. aaaa??? holy shit. im never gonna be that entertaining but i hope i bring someone joy.
Oh neveermind on Divit it used curse. after i broke its tera.
man i wish the big smile expressions on characters didn't open their mouths so wide. it's not THAT common an expression and just looks weird as a static facee people make
Girafarig! You'r Racecar. Meowth doesn't get a regional form this gen, aww. I'll name you Kunker.
hck it let's try a tera raid....oh this is neat and simple and fun and this flying Pinco will be Divit. Hy, Fidget is evolving! Okay tim to swap Lokix out forrrr....Koris. Get a fire type in here. OH, Now Daya is evolving! AAAAAAA time to see! Quaquaval! Holy shit. Holy shit I love him. Look at him, he's fabulous.
Shellder! Gryt. Arrokuda! Shwing. Pincurchin! Yoach.
i am once again shit at putting a sammich together, though i have yet to have a total flop...man evry pokmon on this beach is so aggro.
I hav arrivd in Porto Marinada! doodedoo explorin'
vaultin' veluza! Who are you? Hugo? You're gonna REGRET EVERYTHING
the fuck are thy auctioning that i had to run all th way out here...seaweed? huh. wait you're making ME bid? SIR. SIR I AM TWELVE. oh no did i accideentally skip a tutorial.....aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAA
okay i did it and without spending all of the money. oooh rotom catalog? what's that? ohhh it lets m change rotom's form. time, now, to fly back to cascarrafa, and beat kofu!
i wonder what the normal gym test for kofu is? doodedoo battle time. wham zap [leaf sound effects]....kids he's playing with ME right now. oh he's popular.
sir i could eat a gyarados
I find myself contending with the weather more than th pokemon. Crabominable will tera to water, but is naturally ice/fighting...oh my god stop KOing my pokmon so fast I want the XP
there we go. and tyse is evolving! Dolliv oh my god that's so cute. OH MY GOD THE BADGE PHOTO.
nemona pls....interesting how few battles i'm having against you.
okay! my next goal is the normal gym, then I'll double back to the desert titan....mmmrgh i'd intended to put two gyms between the bases and titans (so like, gym gym titan base gym gym titan base) but now am unsure if I should stick to that. they're not rally laid out in a way that makes that convenient...
you knwo what. w'ree gonna take a break whil we mull this over.
i have slept! w will stick with the plan for now which mans the desert titan gonna have to wait, we're tackling the normal gym next. After that we will return to Levincia and head north to deal with atticus and a titan.
tackles a grass tera drifloon raid, you're Shoon. Oh, Jupe can take most of the local wildlife but needs guidance for girafarig. Ooh, ghost tera naclstack! ...oh damn it, it used Curse and is now low HP, but didn't break its tera. idt i'm getting this one. actually...i just might. Crit captur, you'r gonna b Doony!
Colonnade Hollow is my second of the ten sights! Ooh, there's Noivern here, you're Storm. And Salandit....I might hold out for a lady, though. Found one! You'll be Linny. Oooh, Gible, you will be Soozoo....except that Jupe got a crit and killed you. Wll, here's a Larvitar. Wee go straight to great balls here. You'll be Soozoo instead. nother gible, you're gonna be Gorp. oh goddammit another ill timed crit. there's Sableye heree, Yurma. GIBLE. Managed to weaken it without killing it now it just needs to stay in th ball. Finally.
man th lake is gorgeous...found a Croagunk! You're Hoplit. Nuzzl is gotta be one of the most usful skills for catching pokemon. This Basculin will be Odri. Oh! Sotero is evolving! Garganacl...
Man I hav so many Pokmon to evolve but i havee no idea how many of theem hav weirdass methods like "three crits in one battle" or "usee x item under the full moon"
you know. stuff i basically need to look up to have any hope.
anyway iiiithought this was a foongus but it's a zorua! I hereby dub thee Chaunet. Thre's Tropius here! Nanneer! Oh and there ARe Foongus here! Joy. That's th nam. No it's not you're far too annoying to be Joy. You're Spiv.
Ugliest sandwich yet holy shit. whatever it unfaintd two of my pokemon. Singa th Shroomish. OH i found spookdog! You're Bashal.
...i bet ditto hide on the overworld the way zorua do. fuck. im never gonna find one....
aaaaaaa why do work want me at 3:15.. i am still at war with the letter e. it works sometimes, now. kind of proves that it just needs good cleaning.
one workday later, we are back!
man the music in this game is nice....why do my pokemon all take naps all the time. Jupe is out for some autobattling and just konked out. picnic? mass naptime.
jupe is passed out on the ground and there's a wild deerling making confused deer noises at me
doodedoo wandering about beating up cats trees monkeys snake mice pigs...banana dinos....i know some of these pokemon are ditto but i do not feeel like searching for one
!!!! Jupe is evolving! awww Pawmot got anime hair! WAIT PEBBLES IS EVOLVING TOO? Oh my gosh Tinkaton is even more of a terror.
Gonna give it a little longer to see if Sotero makes the final roster....still have two slots for evolving pokemon!
I arrive in Medali! ...why's that not a theatr anymore?
quick break to do a raid....lectric finizen! I want this thing. Tricky fight tho. GOTCHA, name o' Klight. !!! TOEDSCOOL. Oh goddammit I accidentally killed it.
back to xploring town. including the treasure eatery. ...thre is no battle court in this town. w're gonna fight in or on top of the eatery aren't we.
theeere's nemona. You gonna fight me this time? oh okay, gym first. man nemona what is up with you.
larry the everyman...he's gonna b one of those cases of "most normal man in the world is actually a total freak" isn't he, like try guys kith or something. Seems absolutely normal and average and basic in every way but the more you look the more you're like oh that is a wholeass kind of guy.
oh this is an intresting gym test! ooh okay my hint is lemon. There's a talking squawkabilly saying medium. Time to beat some other folks up for clues. Oh the student just tells me to listen to squawkabilly. Found another student!
Oh hey Tyse is evolving! Arboliva...well time to swap out for Beep & Boop. Okay new clue is the amphitheatre. Fire Blast? AHA another student! Odd on out at an ic cream stand...grilled rice balls! I think that's all the clus...
Grilled rice balls, medium serving, cooked extra crispy, with a dash of lemon!
ohhhh yeah the food court is the gym stage. okay let's fight! ....oh he's the depressed businessman who told me lemon. he looks like he badly needs a nap. what's this about his boss docking his pay??
is there some kind of bullshit in the league this time? oh what's a dudunsparce?
that whole scene, with the customers...llife isn't all just being true to yourself.... Larry are you okay? Larry. Larry, blink twice if you need help.
oh shit he oneshotted Jupe. that's fine I have a Sotero.
oh he eats a lot huh...i noticed Facade was his favorite move. Larry is upsetting? Pokemon why are you doing this to me.
Geeta is here! Geeta are you the one working Larry to the bone. Nemona interrupts us. What was that 'and' gonna be? I already figured Geeta was the champ of champs. Well, you know. Until I get to her.
once again. nemona acts as though i am cheating on her. nemona are YOU okay?
Geeta why do you have to phrase it as a rebirth. Geeta why does this all seem sus?
oh thank god geeta is healing me before nemona drags me into a fight. Skeledirge? The fuck's that? Sounds ghostly... OH. OH IT'S CROC.
SINGING. CROCODILE. oh i have GOT to see a gnoggin video on this thing.
there's new classes so time to go hang out at school for a bit...but first. the Great Crater may be off limits, but the road up to it should be just fine! ...this is less interesting than I thought. Okay back to school.
Oh! Primeape has an evolution now?! involving a move... ...??? When did I get a Maushold? Holy shit! Beep & Boop have kids, you guys! Beeplet and Booplet!!! Holy fuck! It didn't evolve on screen it just. Happened? Is that normal?!
either way i suppose I am swapping them out for something else now....maybe Koris too idk how to evolve him but idt it's normal?
time to just shove random pokemon in my team until they evolve, rn we got Vani and Ankles
man it's pretty cool that the trainer school ACTUALLY teaches you things this time. and from across the spectrum! trivia, lore, mechanics....
??? Fairy tale....king, treasure (always treasure), other regions...vessel, sword, tablets, beads. Sword and tablets, huh. Wouldn't....wouldn't happen to be ruinous, would they..../gulps and glances back toward those stakes and lids....
overnight disaster. you. you don't say.
i foresee this going dramatically eventually but yes please tell me the end please
oh shit they were pokemon? oh shit i'm gonna have to catch them. which means unsealing them.
hey teach you won't be mad at me if i unleash ancient disasters in pursuit of science right
....Heath? The dude from Shadows of Almia?
i sure hope i won't miss out on hangouts by binging classes first
thre are. people getting lp by. hacking. looks at cassiopeia hacing my phone and giving me lp.....
Brassius!!!! in classius!!! ....oh snap was Brassius once ready to give up entirely.....help they're cute
oh yeah brassius was absolutely once ready to self-destruct. this is wholesome, honstly. gtting advice and ncouragement from those who have been low is always more real and inspiring than from the best of the best.
oh my god turn hassel into an octopus already (today in jokes a limited number of people will get: this). ....oh shit i haven't ben to glaseado yet. thats fine i can google,,,,,
knew it, arven's after advice on food.
classes are done! time for hangouts. then i will rest.
oh.... ....i wonder if Hassel is related to Lance and Clair...
i WILL find sweets for cactus sensei
oh are miriam and dendra girlfriends? i want them to be, now. YES. DATING.
i hav flown to Lvincia and climbd th blu lighthous and am stopping hr for now! Nxt time: a titan and a base and hopefully a gym please arceus let me accomplish three objectives in on session
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lindwurmkai · 2 years
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in theory i love having a computer again but in practice it is frustrating to use rn because my vision is suddenly fucked
like idk what's wrong, it's something much stranger than normal vision loss. feels like when your eyes go blurry from tears or something, except i can focus just fine on things that are either far away or really close to my face. but of course i can't put the laptop farther away than my hands can reach, nor can i put it as close to my face as a phone. i can focus better if i look at things sideways. just now i realised that covering one of my eyes helps (doesn't matter which one), but that gets uncomfortable after a while due to the lack of depth perception. i wish i could go see a doctor lol
sometimes i suddenly Achieve Focus for one second but then it stops again aaaaaaa
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