this moment will never fail to make me feral bc he gave up!!! till, the boy who rebels even when all it does is get him hurt, the one who burns as brightly as the stars in the sky, the flame that lasted for almost two decades finally gave up!!! he snuffed out!! he closed him eyes and stopped fighting!! do you understand how devastating that is??
especially to ivan who idolizes and adores him for it?? who has only ever known till for his never-ending love and will that never falters? to see the man he loves broken down like this—a hurt that extends far beyond that of the physical body but to his soul— must’ve been terrible
and you can see it
ivan’s crumpling too. his mental state is on the verge of snapping too. his shoulders are dropped and his eyes are bloodshot.
till’s given up and ivan can see it and as his hands tighten around the other’s neck, a voice whispers what if you don’t let go?
because that’s what till wants right? he isn’t going to win against luka like this. he wants to die and no matter what ivan does, it’s not going to change that. so why not kill him?
that way they can die together.
wouldn’t that be wonderful?
ivan has always had a great potential for darkness and he holds it back most of the time, rarely ever letting it come to the surface. it wouldn’t be far off to assume this was one of those moments, where emotions are high and last minute regrets and wishes are surging forth—it isn’t far off to think there was a small part of him that was seriously contemplating throwing away his decision to sacrifice himself alone.
but then he gets shot in the chest, through the lungs, and the pain snaps him out of it. because this is it. this is the end. and he remembers why he’s doing this.
he remembers his desire to save till despite how foolish as it may be, how hypocritical it may be. the light reappears in his eyes and it’s ivan in love again. it’s ivan swelling with pure love, looking at till for last time.
it’s ivan doing the one thing he’s never been able to do:
it’s ivan letting go
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do u ever think about how at any moment you can make a difference in the world
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i let my husband do what he want because im scared of him - jb or somethin
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hello im alive again !! a lot of. crazy things happened recently but i stayed strong and produced more fenhawke ‼️ fenhawke as pirates to be specific !!! i can not believe I haven't connected my two biggest interests (dragon age and pirates) before but. better late than never ig so! hope you guys like it
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Hi hi hi divorce speedrun or sillyguy hours? 👀👀👀
HIIII HI MWAH i already posted divorce speedrun here, so sillyguy hours is the artistic rendition of one of the Top 10 Zhu Silly Goofy Moments who had me hooting and hollering
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Gale “Danger Kink” Dekarios, the great Wizard of Waterdeep, seeing Astarion, the deadly yet seductive vampire, only to realize that they’ve both become who they are to survive their situations and they actually love each other for who they are underneath the shells they’ve made for themselves.
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