#Why does it hit so fucking hard

[sealpup9]

Ok Inertia came in swinging with a beat that slaps so hard I forgot to duck and was knocked on my ass by the force that is the last two verses.

#AJR #the maybe man #holy shit i just started sobbing you don't understand #Why does it hit so fucking hard #the gradual tension that just picks up as the verses continue??? #those 3rd and 4th ones just suddenly pick you up and you're getting just as full of emotion and angry and sad and everything slaps you holy #sorry i don't usually blog about music im just #the maybe man was really good I enjoyed it thoroughly #turning out part iii also hit me but in the kind of way where i want to just go hug my fiancee and tell them i love them and im thankful #that they're here ;w; #holy hell i probably won't shut up about this to friends for the next few days #my post

[astranauticus]

stultifera navis rerun AKA thinking about Iberia hours again because a lot of the Iberians have such fascinating relationships with the concept of home but specifically Thorns and Lumen are eating at my brain. like where do you call home when the place that is your home Just Fucking Hates You? Elysium's rewinding breeze specifically makes a point to hammers home how differently Iberia treats its Liberi and its Aegir

(which is especially interesting since this comes right after a conversation where Purestream commented on how despite Leizi being a high ranking government official, there are still some experiences that are universal for all Yanese people - because the experience of what Iberia itself is like isnt universal for all Iberians)

But all that being said, Thorns also straight up states that Aegir is not his home, and yeah, how could it be? How could a place you've never been to, never truly known, ever be your home? How could it ever feel like a home?

so where do you go when the place that you are from hates your people and the place your people are from is completely unfamiliar and alien to you? Thorns' answer at the end of the conversation with Aya is: my home is where i chose it to be. my home is where there are people I care about and people who care about me

in the complete opposite direction, Lumen's oprec asks: why do you still stay in a place that wants you gone? because the people of Gran Faro like Jordi well enough but when push comes to shove, they will want the only Aegir in town gone

and yet, when Rald the messenger offers him a chance to leave Jordi turns him down and when he's forced to escape Gran Faro after the people there literally try to send him to his death (or worse) at the hands of the Inquisitors he keeps trying to go back because like everyone in stultifera navis, Jordi is clinging to his own dreams of a golden age

but the shape of that dream is unique to every character and for Jordi, his dreams are deeply, inseparably bound to the Eye of Iberia, the legacy his parents left behind

and it's this dream of becoming someone great, of bringing about that golden age that his parents devoted their lives to help create that ties Jordi to this nothing town because despite everything, despite the mistrust of the townsfolk and the hostility of the Inquisition and the danger from the ocean, he simply cannot leave it behind

(or, because i personally dislike the official translation,)

"I just see this place as my home"

so yeah. not sure what overall point i was trying to make here i'm just. deeply in love with these stories about chosing what is and isn't your home, of saying you will not call a place your home because it has given you no reason to or saying you consider a place your home even though it has given you every reason not to. deeply unwell about them <3

#arknights #asto speaks #not much of an essay writer i just keep thinking about them and i need to force other people to think about them too #thorns story fucks me up bc like. this whole almost found family adjacent idea of like #maybe home isnt something decided by your birth but something you can chose based on what truly matters to you #it just gets to me. i guess. #jordi gets to me in a completely different direction there's nothing personal about it i just find his story *fascinating* #just a guy. a completely normal guy. an absolute nobody caught up in these dreams of greatness while also fully aware of his own normalcy #but never letting either of those overshadow the other. never losing that self awareness or that fuckin obsessive determination #god. what a Character #i love jordi so much like genuinely #i joke a lot about him being just a Guy but thats also kinda like the best thing about him #the fact that he is the way that he is and does all the things he does despite being just a Guy #gently holds #for context i was so hyped about new iberia lore when sn was announced i read the whole thing as soon as it dropped on cn server #cuz someone uploaded all the story sections to bilibili right after it came out #and '我只是把这里当作自己的故乡啊' fucking hit me SO HARD #in like the greater context of elysium demanding to know why hes risking his life in like 5 different ways to return to gran faro #because yeah jordi just doesnt want to leave his home but like we the audience knows the full *weight* of what that home means to him #and the weight of the dreams that made him chose to see Gran Faro as his home and to refuse to let go of that #thats why i like the original a lot more than the translation i think like it really emphasises that active *choice*. #this is the place jordi has *decided* to see as his home and he knows what that means and what it means to him #side note the part on thorns might not actually age well depending on whether hg decides to ever release more aulus lore #i mean i'll gladly take the L if it means more aulus and/or thorns lore like #i just wanna know what (if anything) is tying him to iberia yknow #ak #iberiaposting

[designernishiki]

i keep asking my friend why majima no majirock Exists and he always just says “well kurohyo needed karaoke songs” and when I follow that up with “that literally explains nothing, how and why does majima have a popular rock hit that’s technically canon because kurohyo exists in the same universe as the mainline games” he just casually says “i don’t know. it’s just there.” needless to say I have no answers and the enigma of majima no majirock just sits in my brain eating at me indefinitely

#what IS it. why is it THERE. why does it SLAP #why do you occasionally hear it on the radio in stores or in the taxi in various yakuza games #and no one ever addresses it. it’s just. there #ITS KILLING ME. WHAT IS THE LORE. DID HE HAVE A VERY BRIEF CAREER AS AN IDOL. IS MAJIMA A ONE HIT WONDER #rambling #majima #everyone’s idol goro is real but his outfit is extremely different than whatever he both started and ended his career in #probably more leather involved #and yes I see how this could tie in with mirei which makes it even more fucking wild #this man’s done every job on the face of the earth #ohhhhhhhhhh actually imagine a visual kei sorta look….. #that’d fuck so hard man

[illithiddies]

please enjoy this clip of gale falling on his ass

#why does he hit the ground so fucking hard AJKSFJHK #and its so out of nowhere its so funny #he has low iron #gale dekarios #my videos

[fandomfaeofveryfewf4cks]

Our Flag Means Death season 2 spoilers.

Holy shit. I finally know what I want to be when I grow up. (Ignore the fact that I'm supposedly a legitimate adult.)

I wanna be someone's unicorn.

No, but seriously (not really very seriously). I vote we give the writers on ofmd the power to completely redo earth and humanity and life and turn it into what they think would be cool. I'll do it myself if I have to. Just hand over some of that good Izzy Hands level character development to me, pretty please.

No, but actually seriously, it meant everything to me to see Izzy's breakdown and the sawed off unicorn legs from said breakdown getting used to make a new leg for Izzy by the people he was in denial about seeing as a real sort of family that he could maybe depend on, care about, and let care about him.

#ofmd #our flag means death season 2 #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #izzy hands #the new unicorn #I'm sobbing #all i've ever wanted was to have friends and be part of a group of people who found value in my presence somehow #I relate to Izzy so fucking much nowadays #and I'm starting to gain both despair and hope over what my future could look like in terms of loneliness #and self worth #why does this show hit so hard? #i mean #i'm not complaining #i love this show so fucking much #i just can't deal with my emotions very well here

[creaturefeaster]

Is there a reason why Taylor is reserved or somewhat introverted? Any broken hearts? (sorry, I can't live without that red-eyed man🙇)

Actually, Taylor comes from a seriously private family. His parents are basically no-fun-allowed police, strict about 'proper' displays of emotion, and are extreme sticklers for following rules to a key.

He grew up with a very muted sense of emotion as a result, has a very difficult time expressing himself properly, and is instinctively very adverse to displays of genuine emotion or affection, especially towards himself.

Keeping his thoughts to himself, staying quiet and watchful, also a result of being raised the way he was. And his sunglasses, too. His eyes are much more expressive than he can help, often getting him in trouble with his parents in his youth, so he eventually adopted habits to conceal his eyes. First it was long bangs, but eventually he moved onto sunglasses.

So that's why hes so reserved and conceals so much about himself. Half of it was taught into him by his parents, the other half is a learned defense against his parents.

And like... he's had a couple of brief dates in like, highschool, but never any heart breaks. He's so hard to get to know and understand, that his old partners quickly grew frustrated with him, and he's never actually held a proper partner for more than a month.

#taylor has had extreme lawfulness honed into him from such a young age that he doesnt know what to do with- #-himself once the fault hits. no more structure in the world and he has a hard time like. breaking himself from laws that no longer exist #but little does he know he is so fucking pent up from years of staying in line. that doing anything even remotely rambunctious- #-is like craaaaaack to him. he gets so amped up #doesnt want to admit it. but it gets to him. hes a lil devil waiting to be unleashed >:3! #its why zack of all people is able to get to him as well as he does #feeds that subconscious desire for being a naughty little deviant #sorry that doesnt have much to do with the original question #im just in bed and rambly tonight >_< #brambleramble

[running-in-the-dark]

ah, crap.

I gave up and started watching Almost Paradise. I don't want to like it! but I'm not even a minute in and there's his stupid face and his arms and he's adorable and I hate it (I love it 😭)

and then this: "just boom. heart failure. and trust me, that's worse than penis failure" cool 👍

and now he's been hit in the face by a beach ball 😌 awesome

#and his name is Alex in this??? what the fuck that's illegal #I'm not gonna try to find another name again you stupid fucker so you better be nice 😫 #sorry #having my usual internal conflict about liking his face and hating him as a person etc etc x #but he is. so. pretty. #I don't even mind the hair. I still think it should be illegal to cut his hair short but if it has to be. this haircut is acceptable. #also he's old and this show is reminding me of that and. why does that make it. better. fuck off #god I hate him (lying) #I laughed so hard when he got hit by that beach ball #I need to see that man get hurt. but really hurt. sooo badly hurt. please I'm begging. someone better punch him soon #almost paradise #christian kane

[travisdermotts]

listen i don't really go here, but who on the rangers is gonna step up and tell rempe that shit has to stop

#saw the hit from tonight and jesus #like he's turning into a danger to himself and others at this point #he's 21 years old he doesn't need to shorten his or anyone else's career #it's not hot to fuck up your own head and take down other people with you #and i wish people would stop hyping him up #there's a line between playing hard and being reckless and i fear he's on the wrong side of it #ALSO older enforcers need to stop egging him on #BUT i can see why so many want to have a go at him when all he does is take out smaller players #matt rempe

[quietwingsinthesky]

if there was a torchwood/spn crossover, jack would get shot in the head so much. i know he already dies a lot, but he’s going to die so many times during this crossover. keeps getting bullets unloaded into him. they stab him with silver and steel and copper and none of it keeps him down. he’s gonna get squirted with borax and that one’s not gonna kill him but it is going to ruin his coat, which is materially worse for him.

#also gwen cooper would wrestle dean to the ground and beat him half to death #ianto is going to get himself possessed. im not saying he doesn’t take every precaution he knows how to against it. im saying he does and it #doesnt work <3 #i think sam and tosh could be friends :) (<- actually means they’re just both stuck in ‘make this conversation go as smoothly as i can by #masking so fucking hard. so that i can leave sooner’ mode.) #and i think owen would kiss dean on the mouth because it would make him so uncomfortable and owen can and will use his ability to be an #asshole without regret for the good of the team. especially if this moment is directly a result of like. Dean hitting on Tosh while she’s #clearly not into it. Owen is going to kiss that man at the risk of getting shot just like jack has 17 times in a row just so that he’ll #fuck off and leave tosh alone. and this will work because dean winchester will immediately malfunction upon being kissed by a man because #now he doesn’t know whether to direct his homophobic impulses at owen (<- unaffected by anything he could say.) or himself (<- guy who #believes being gay works like cooties.) #and in the background you can see jack sort of gently put his hand over toshiko’s and she releases a pen she was holding onto very tightly #and this is the part where you realize Oh She Was Going To Stab Dean In The Knee With That If He Didn’t Stop. #i also think Jack should get to kiss Crowley. i think they’d both be into it and it’d be funny. i think they should reference that they’ve #been off-and-on lovers for years actually. (gwen: you’ve been sleeping??? with the king of hell???? || Jack: see i don’t know why this is #surprising to you.) (ianto has been standing there with his mouth slightly open for a full minute. long enough for crowley to comment on it #and for owen to jokingly try to shut it for him. (cue short impromptu slap fight as ianto bats his hands away and then owen gets too into #defending the honor of his poor slapped away hands.) but anyway. <3 ianto you’re into guys you really need to come to terms with this at #some point sir. jack is *not* your exception this is an all day job.)

[diluc33rpm]

the romance/relationship system in bg3 is genuinely some of the worst designed shit i've ever seen in any game with that feature but at least the memes we get out of it are funny. once saw someone comment something along the lines of 'patch note: waving at gale will no longer cause him to buy a house for the two of you to retire in' and i've never recovered since

#i love gale he doesn't deserve (most of) the incel slander #but it's painfully such a good riff because it really really does feel like that #the player choices being a b/w alternation between 'hey there' and 'YOU SHOULD KILL YOURSELF... NOW!' normally is already comical as is #the fact that it carries over into interactions with the party members who you're presumably trying to be close with is... something else #and what makes it worse is it ISN'T jokey hyperbole. anyone remember 'send a mental image of you kissing him or HIS HEAD ON A PIKE.' c'mon #trying to chat and vibe at the refugee camp celebration and the sum of conversation i get is one (1) line asking how they're doing #because going any further than that elicits marking you down for the path of boning take it or leave it #it's genuinely so hard to get to feel like you can deepen a relationship with the characters in ways that aren't trying to pursue them #yes! halsin! i really want to know you better! i just don't want the ass!! why is trying to hit the only option other than up and leaving!! #99% of the time i expect nothing from media creators in terms of writing interactive relationships #larian are beyond parody in that they've somehow managed to do worse than the already suboptimal majority #we're just going to impose the roadblock of do you want to fuck y/n right off the bat. good luck finding a way to talk around that if not #the obscuration surrounding where exactly the checks are really does not help at all either #when the shit's got even the allos complaining about it you know it's BAD #shame because i was excited for character scenes given that's a lot of what's hyped up about the game #but no it's all just the romances. 'what if i'd like to breathe in someone's general direction-' well now have you heard of our romances? #fish fear them party members fear them and tav is going to have to walk alone on this sinful earth #conservative bigoted relative at the family reunion withers era was a fucking time before they tweaked that line speaking of #just so crazy they can get away with this shit #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 liveblog

[elftism]

whenever lyon feels a little mad at ephraim he tries to exaggerate how hurt he got during sparring to eirika so she gets mad

#lyon: “eirika ephraim got me right on my ribs :( i swear it felt like they were going to crack :(( why does he hit so hard :(((” #eirika: “ephraim get your ass over here right fucking now” #fe8 #sacred stones #lyon #elftisms

[boxwinebaddie]

okay, i am quite literally Jennifer Slopez when i'm answering my ask responses and even Slower when i'm doing paras, so everyones just gonna have to put up with me spoon-feeding yall little hcs abt the divorce hurt/comfort para while i attempt to finish writing it.

but an-knee-wayz, there's a part in it where ravenstan finally gets kyle on the couch and is trying to dress and assess his wounds so naturally, he's like Okay Take Your Shirt Off...and jersey has the Audacity!!! to LAUGH at him!!! like hello?? so stans all annoyed like literally What?! and kyles like idk ur just Not Usually The One Making Demands ;) do you also want me to take my pants off while i'm at it? & ravenstan rolls his eyes like Ur So AnNoYinG Will You Please Just Do The Thing I Asked? & jerseykyle says sir yes sir ( LOOOL ) i will say stan do be oogling him but he's also stressed bc kyle is Fucked Up :(

siiiiiiigh, but you know, ravenstan is Patchin Him Up and jersey is just watching him bc for an adhd boy he is Very Focused, like studying kyle very intently, biting the inside of his cheek, pursing his lips, tilting his head to the right so he can get a closer look, trying to blow his bangs out of his eyes, swearing lightly under his breath bc he's distressed when hes not humming quietly while working.

and kyle is like omg he's so Cute :') <3 also jersey is extremely annoying in this para bc he misses stan to Death/hasn't seen him in Forever :( which is a very long time not to fluster your super best boyfriend, so kyle smirks up at him like Did Your Eyes Get Bluer, Red?

( he does call raven red to make fun of him for publicly roasting him at the cd show ) and stan looks up a bats his freaking eyelashes at him, leans in and kyle is like ohhhh my god did that actually fucking work?! is he gonna Kiss me and closes his eyes...it did NOT work btw! bc stan just jABS this cut on his cheek w/ a rubbing-alcohol soaked cotton ball and kyle is like OOOOWWW OH MY GOD!!! and stan is like Stop FUCKING Hitting On Me!!! LKHDSHDLS amazing...i'm crying.

like...you know when your super best boyfriend who you're basically married to breaks up with you because you can't tell him you love him, then you show up half dead on the doorstep of the apartment you used to happily share together & will not stop fucking Flirting! With! HIM! while hes trying to SAVE UR LIFE???

because jersey knows all about that!!!!

ANYWAYS UR WELCOME! Xx <3 :*

#laughin and cryin boys please undivorce challenge #uncle nina please finish writing anything challenge #failed #LIKE JERSEY TRYING TO HIT ON RAVEN #LIKE BEST FRIEND YOU ARE BEING SO DISTRACTIN #ravenstan would fight him BUT KYLE HAS DEFINETELY FOUGHT ENOUGH FOR EVERYONE #he is also my gentle pacifist king and while he would never hurt kyle ( except w the cotton swab smh ) he does not know how to fight #i love u reluctant angsty punk rock healer angel boy ravenstan w the red hair doing battlefield medicine on ur exsbf #WHO HE HAS LITERALLY HAD ENOUGH OF SMH #LIKE KYLE PLS QUIT IT!! HES NOT THAT STRONG HES GONNA CAVE SMH hes tryin v hard not to make eye contact #why is injured covered in blood and bruises kyles rizz like 8 million like chill out like that mans confidence is thru the roof #anyways stop hitting on raven jersey ( keep going do more ) #kyle being like oh my god hes gonna kiss me and closing his eyes n getting hardcore rejected is so fucking funny to me smh #like my man got absolutely Roasted and Toasted by raven #truly iconique...boys...i miss u...stop the violence

[coffeebuoy]

i have this real wild and wacky idea: stop hating sakura so much

#he speaks! #why don’t we consider what she would be like when given proper character development #outside of pursuing a boy who clearly doesn’t love her #she was kinda cucked yknow #she deserved better in canon #like #she worked hard under tsunade’s teachings to become stronger #so she could pull her own weight in the team #and she DOES #she took down a fucking akatsuki member #she had help from chiyo baa-sama but she still did it #she didn’t need help from a MAN yknow #she also came up with the cure to save kankurou’s life like hello #also what would they have done in the war without her helping to heal ppl #she also admires and becomes friends with naruto. she doesn’t continue bullying and hating him #that’s just a part 1 thing #and her hitting him and stuff? that’s a fucking anime trope #that shit happens in so many anime and manga series you idiots #it’s fiction #i say as i rant about a fictional character. sigh #thanks for tuning into my ted talk

[fairy-grotto]

hey so why the fuck did no one tell me that you hit a certain age and then cyclically want children? Like monthly?

#fairy is rambling #i was crying over a dad crying over how much he loved his baby today and I'm like what the fuck why am I crying #and i think about it really hard #and then im look oh shit im about to have my period #being broody wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't single #living at home with my parents #and 22 years old #as much as i would love to be a mother #NOW IS NOT THE TIME #who the fuck came up with this shit #anyway im skipping my period cause im not doing that mess this week #also does the brooding hit everyone or is it like heightened in certain people #cause i feel like im always like this but again that could be cause I want kids and am friends with many people who don't #like is it just exacerbated because i feel like an outlier #eh who knows #tbh i don't care my kids are gonna have so many aunties and uncles #maybe its worse for me because i am constantly mothering everyone I know #eldest daughter curse

[hella1975]

yes im trying not to be so mean yes im working on my temper but under no section of my Healing Contract does it mention that these things must apply to my sister. in fact if you read the fine print it says im actively allowed to make her miserable. for my mental health

#she's so mean all the time like constantly telling me im stupid and shit #which probably didn't hit as hard before this econ degree but now every time she does it im just kinda like :/ #and i laugh it off obvs bc am i fuck about to look put out by it #so she genuinely doesnt have any reason to stop bc ive not set any boundaries or communicated or yk. done anything correctly #i instead just let it frustrate the fuck out of me until one day im in a bad enough mood that i'll give as bad as she does #which i HATE bc as tough shit as she thinks she is i always think being mean - specifically the primary school way she does it - #is SO embarassing as a conflict method like girl 'you're stupid' is really the best you can come up with? bffr 😭 #like when i say IM mean and SHE'S mean im talking about very different things #im mean less often than her but when i do it it's effective bc i literally catalogue people's insecurities and use them against them #like some fucking anime villian like it's actually uncomfortable to watch and i hate myself every time #whereas her way is effective bc it's all dumb comments ANYONE could make but she says them repeatedly until she wears you down #and of the two methods they're both shit but at least my way isn't cringe LMAO #so if i ever get so frustrated i revert to her method i just get v annoyed with myself like IM better than this she might not be but i am #and we've just been moving things in the garden with mum which is a flashpoint anyway #and me and my sister were just GOING at each other and it was all jokes until i said something she didn't like #and she was like 'what's your problem? it's fine when we're joking but you always take it too far' girl. #like i cannot accurately explain on here how ridiculous that statement is coming from HER #and if id said something actually horrible id get it but the convo was literally just #her: mum can i wear your watch for the chem ball coming up? #me: why do you need a watch for that? #her: ive got a dumb tan line on my wrist that i want to cover #me: i really dont think anyone is going to be looking at your wrists #THAT WAS IT LMFAO??? YOU HYPOCRITICAL LITTLE BITCH #ironically i had a field day with it like her saying that was the worst thing she could have done #latched onto it like a bloodhound fr my eyes must have lit up #i was like 'dont be such a baby' which is basically a fucking trigger word in our house #thought she was gonna hit me with a spade <3 peace and love on planet earth #godddddd i cant wait for her to go back to uni i HATE sharing a room i cannot escape her she's literally here as i type #i hope she knows im slagging her off to my niche online micro-community #hella goes home

[youredreamingofroo]

getting so frustrated with the world that i might just go reinstall far cry 5 and disappear for a month...

#“why far cry 5 specifically” honestly after the first playthru of it. it somehow snaked its way into becoming my comfort game #which is crazy in and of itself. but idk i just love it and the osts are so fucking peak in that game #“what about bg3” listen. i love bg3 as much as the next guy. but the combat is so stress inducing 😭 #fc5 does have frustrating moments (john's bunker......) but ive played thru it and know what i need to do #with bg3 i just kinda pussy out and quicksave/quickload with most of the combat (like missing a shot that i rlly need to hit) #bg3 is nice and all- but nothing beats js getting onto fc5 and beating the dick outta some peggies stealth style #also its so much easier to play stealth (at least for me </3) in fc5- turn based combat is already hard enough for me- #-but trying to do stealth turn based combat is a whole other cup of tea that just burns my tongue everytime i sip it #srry for the wall of tags LMFAO #yapping