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alienneingreen · 1 year

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Rise Turtle Headcannons

Bunch of head cannons of the turtles.

Mikey:

When using his Mystic powers, he has a limit to how long or how big of a spell he can do, because when he uses a spell it basically "burns" him. those bright light along his arms are the burns, they heal better than a normal burn, but basically using it too much can cause a serious injury. so if he is practicing his powers he would need breaks to let his hand cool down.

He likes using his mystic powers to create glowing chains, and often uses them in his artworks.

he goes into his shell when scarred, and after the kraang, has been sleeping while in there, which may or may not cause sore limbs when he wakes up. luckily getting out of the habit tho

loves painting his brothers shells

Shellshocked ( i love the ship so much it is adorable) they will do artworks together and they always end up as absolute masterpieces.

He goes over to Draxums place once (or twice) every week to train his powers.

Leo:

he got into being the medic because he likes how they say how good he is at it.

He surprisingly likes to study it and even went as far as to pester Donnie to make him a sort of spy drone to sneak into medical schools to learn how to do certain procedures and how to treat different sicknesses. Sometimes he would use the drone and drive it into hospitals to see how it is done on an actual person with said injury or sickness.

He does stay up studying this which does not help with his insomnia at all.

also Leosagi. Those two are both dumbasses, and will get flustered over each others garbage attempts to flirt.

Is Casey Jr's father figure, (Jr accidentally called him dad, he was very sleepy, and Leo just went with it)

Despite Warren and Hypno being his enemies, he went over to them for sexuality advice (they were the only openly gay people he knew of at the time) and they were surprisingly nice and gave him good advice. (he once saw them at a pride parade, it was cool tho)

Ftm trans

He still will dress up in anything (he slays in dresses).

although his fashion sense is terrible and his brothers (Donnie and Mikey) and April help him choose clothes.

Donnie:

He can breathe underwater like normal softshells, but the oxygen is absorbed in the throat instead, so he has to either swallow the water or breathe it into his lungs ( it doesn't hurt the lungs in any way, though he will have to cough it up afterwards)

it is more of a last resort tho as transitioning between water and air is uncomfortable

breathing water doesn't get him enough oxygen for the body, so like softshells he has to come up for air at some point.

hates people touching his shell (even more after the invasion), but it is ok if it is his brothers shielding him.

his friendship with cassandra is like :

Don: how far do you think you can throw me Cass: want to find out!!! Don: scoff of course you dum dum Cass *throws donnie Don: AAAAA. ow Cass YEAAAA, how far this time don! Don: *checking his arm computer thing. 6.28 meters Cass: and how much was last time Don:4.48 meters Cass: which means I improved by Don: 1.8 meters!!! Cass: HELL YEAAAHHH!!!

has used his tranquiliser on Leo because Raph said that whoever gets Leo to sleep gets $20

has the most human looking body figure (because of his shell) out of his brothers.

trying to be a good dad to Shelldon, and spent more time with him. (please i need a thing with Donnie and Shelldon having a father son bonding experience without the angst plss)

Raph:

he obviously has a plushie collection. (he loves the softness)

His right eye is stuffed up from the kraang and is partially blind in it

When out on his solo mission, he calls his brothers every 15 min or so, (this poor mans separation anxiety is killing him)

Shares the "leader" role with Leo

most likely gets a tattoo when he is older, it will glow like his brothers markings.

Can crush watermelons with his bit, it was Donnie's idea and really wanted to know if Raph could do it.

he helped splinter parent his brothers (you know all the tots in general were destructive menaces, and splinter was constantly tired trying to stop them from hurting themselves on accident) and as he grew more independent he took the parenting role more (and let splinter rest) (splinter isn't a terrible parent, just really tired and depressed)

he is a growing hungry boi, he will eat anything mikey cooks (mostly because he cares about his littlest bro and want him to feel good about what he makes, secondly because he is growing, a lot. boi is tall af)

tried making his own plushies (with the help of mikey) and knows a bit of knitting or sowing (it's not the best but he is learning)

also, a headcannon of all the bros is that they are all holding eachother back from becoming villans or committing too much crime.

#tmnt headcannons #rottmnt #rise donnie #rise raph #rise leo #rise mikey #sorry if i have any spelling mistakes

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ducknotinarow · 9 months

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"Ugh." Her dad was being weird with Usagi again. Not that she didn't mind since they seemed to get along. It just made her feel weird when they were being mushy around her. So, of course she's hiding out in Raphael's room, plopping herself down on their bed. "They're at it again. Can I stay with you for awhile?" ( help :'3 )

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Raphael was in the middle of nothing much joist sitting down at his drumb set. Working to replace the the drumb heads, after finding some replacements when he took a trip near a music stores dumpster. They were in good condition just a little scuffed up. Raphael couldn't believe what humans consider to be trash sometimes. Was nice to have something to focus on what with well everything that had gone down. If he were honest he was still reeling from it all. Jei's obsession with Leo, the fact Leo could apparently actually have kids, and then of course, the fact Leo had a kid. With Jei. Yeah the simply task of upkeep on his instrument was a nice little distraction from everything. Least they had finally gotten into a nice clam from all that had happened.

Pausing only when he sees the door to his room open. His eyes narrow as he fixes his sights on it. Half expecting it to be Mikey. He was the one most guilty for just coming into his room with out knocking. Already he felt annoyed he just wanted at least two seconds alone jeez.

"Mikey I swear! How many times do I gotta- oh Akria." Tone was quick to change at the little hybrid that made herself known to Raphael. As if the flame that acted for his temper went out the second he saw his niece. Look he didn't like just anyone barging into his room, well he didn't like it when his brothers did it at least. But well someone had become an exception to that. As she easily made her self at home walking right on into to his room and making her way in. Raphael simply watched her a second she hadn't spoke a word yet but she did look a tad bothered by something. Wonder if Leo was being too Leo again with her. Eh Raph knows how that can be.

"Ugh"

He just smiles to himself as she huffs out and just plops herself on to his bed. Attention shifts back to his task as he goes back to replacing the last drum head. From they way she threw herself he knew it wasn't anything to serious. "alight kid what's eattin' at ya now?" He simply asks giving her a chance to have the floor so to speak so she could air it all out.

"They're at it again. Can I stay with you for awhile?"

"they?" Raph asks thinking for a second on that "ah guess 'hat rabbits back, aww what ya don' wanna watch 'em be gross and make eyes at each other?" he teases a little bit knowing that was exactly why she came to hide away with him instead. He shrugs his shoulders "Ya know ya don' gotta ask. Doors always open for you." He pauses a second thinking about that "well least knock if Case is around. Or ya'll see me making eyes instead, an' think wathcin' your dad is bad enough." Of course. He laughs a bit knowing that may just annoy her.

Once he was done he moved to stand up and grabbed for his drum sticks holding them out for her to look at. "Wanna give them a try? Aint't gotta worry about soundin' good or nothin' just loud." He smirks her way as he gives a twirl of the sticks between his fingers. "be a real shame if the mood for them was ruined cause of all the rucks right?" was he trying to give her an idea here? Well yeah of course he was, not like Leo would get after his kid for being obnoxiously loud. Besides it would be kind of funny.

#muse| hamato rapheal #forthehonorandtheglory #[ tags tbd]#[ 2012 verse]#muse interacction #ic reply #stayed qeued

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alaffy · 2 years

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The Umbrella Academy, Ep. 1x10 – The White Violin

Well, first season down and, so far, I find the show to be….fine. There are parts of the show that are interesting and some of the characters I really do enjoy. However, compared to other comic book-based shows like Doom Patrol or The Boys, I’m not enjoying it as much. I curious to see what happens next, but I’m not in a rush to find out.

Also, am I the only one that keeps comparing the four living brothers to the Ninja Turtles? Like the four are the messed up human versions. Luther is Leo; Diego is Raph; Klaus is Mikey; and Five is Don (although, I admit Five is more of a stretch then the other three).

Anyway, the episode starts with a younger Reginald; who is having to leave the woman he loves as the world is destroyed. At her request, he takes her beloved violin. Now, we don’t know when or where this takes place; but it’s clearly not in the past. Reginald travels to the past and sets up shop by buying a shop.

We cut to Vanya destroying the Academy. As she does so, we see flashback of her childhood and, yeah, you know what? This is entirely the whole family’s fault (although Reginald’s still the main problem). Also, there’s a lesson to be learned here kids; always be nice to your siblings because, if you don’t, the everlasting trauma just may cause them to end the world.

The siblings manage to escape (and Ben manages to save Diego); but they’re only able to escape because Pogo bought them time. And, again, why is Vanya retconning the very memories she’s just remembered? Pogo was in the room when Allison made her forget her powers. Of course, Pogo knew.

Anyway, Vanya kills Pogo and then brings down the building; which kills mom as well. Vanya manages to escape. Five comes back to the academy and tells the rest of the siblings that he was wrong. He thought that the Academy was destroyed, and his siblings killed, during the Apocalypse; but the reality is that Vanya destroyed the building and killed them all before she destroys the world. The siblings realizes that they need to stop Vanya. But, before the can do so, they need to escape the police who are coming to investigate.

Meanwhile, The Handler is dressing down Hazel and Cha-Cha. Hazel mentions that the Handler sent messages to both of them to kill the other. The Handler realizes that Five sent the messages and tells the two of them what happened. She then tells them that their next assignment is to keep Vanya alive. If they succeed, Hazel can go live in any time period with Agnes and Cha Cha will get a new partner and all her debts wiped away.

At the same time, Vanya is getting her violin for the performance. We flashback to when Vanya first starting playing the violin. We learn it’s the very same violin that Reginald received from his beloved. Now, Vanya doesn’t know the history of the violin; but it’s very clear by Reginald’s reaction (one she leaves the room) that it was his intention to give her the violin. In a weirdly fucked up way, it shows how much Reginald really did care for Vanya. He’s still an asshole Dad though.

We cut to the siblings who have met up in a bowling alley. They’re trying to figure out what to do next. Luther and Five are prepared to do whatever is necessary to prevent the end of the world; the others want to save Vanya. Oh, and Klaus tries to tell the others that it was Ben that saved Diego. None of them believe him. They see in the paper that Vanya’s concert is tonight and plan to go to the theater.

At this point, Five gets a tube from the Handler and goes to meet her. Just after, armed mercenaries storm the bowling alley; intent on killing the other siblings. They manage to get away be running down the lanes (I don’t care if there was smoke and strobe lights; there’s no way they were that open without someone getting hit by a bullet. Suddenly, Stormtroopers are no longer the worst shots in TV/Movie history).

So, there is something else that has been going on while these scenes have played out. However, I’m just going to go through it quickly here. Hazel and Cha-Cha have been following Vanya in their car. Hazel points out that The Handler’s deal isn’t real as there is no briefcase to save them. Cha-Cha doesn’t believe Hazel and, long story short, Hazel drives into a barrier. Because Cha-Cha doesn’t have her seatbelt on, she goes flying through the window. Hazel heads back towards the Inn.

Not long after, the siblings arrive at the concert hall. Luther tells Klaus to keep watch (uh-huh) and the rest go to deal with Vanya. Once again, Allison writes that she should deal with Vanya alone. Luther agrees, but only because he plans for himself and Diego to rush the stage and capture Vanya. Which, by the by, had they LISTENED TO ALLISON maybe none of this WOULD HAVE HAPPENED. See, Vanya sees Allison in the crowed and she can see how impressed Allison is by Vanya’s music. And Vanya starts to smile; almost implying that Vanya is coming back to herself. After all, all Vanya wants is to be recognized by her siblings. Of course, the two men rush the stage and, well, Vanya reaches her final form. As she plays, her clothes and violin turn white and a light is starting to appear in her body.

Meanwhile, Five and The Handler have another chat like they’ve had several times now until Five realizes that The Handler drew him there to get him away from his siblings. Five teleports away as we cut the theater and see the Mercs coming inside. They start shooting at the siblings, who are wondering where Klaus is (he’s getting food). However, Klaus and Ben hear the bullets and see Cha-Cha walking toward the theater. Klaus runs inside and is pinned down by gunfire. Five comes in and is pinned down by gunfire.

Back at the Inn, Hazel sneaks into the room and saves Agnes. Then, he kills The Handler. He and Agnes will use the briefcase to escape what happens in the next few moments.

Back to the theater. Suddenly, Klaus is able to manifest Ben and Ben is able to use his own power to stop the Mercs. (And I know that they’ve been saying Klaus has just begun to tap his powers and that we’ve seen him affect Ben’s ghost; but this still seems like this came almost out of nowhere. Or, at least, it seems like this is something they should have started before last episode in order for this to make more sense now).

Meanwhile, Diego fights Cha-Cha and almost kills her, but realizes that Patch wouldn’t want him to do it. Cha-Cha lives….until the event happens.

Vanya’s powers are getting stronger and the siblings realize they have to stop her now. The four brother rush the stage and are caught by tendrils of light coming from Vanya’s body. And it seems like the light is sucking the energy from their bodies. Then, we see Allison standing behind Vanya. She has a gun trained on the back of Vanya’s head. However, instead of shooting Vanya, Allison shoots the gun just to the side of Vanya’s ear. By disrupting her hearing, she disrupts Vanya’s powers. Vanya shoots a beam of light off into space and collapses. Problem solved, except….

The beam of light hits the moon and it breaks apart. The pieces hurtles toward Earth, which will destroy all life. However, Five has a plan. Five realizes that the Apocalypse will always happen so long as Vanya cannot control her powers. However, if he takes them all back in time and if they train Vanya….which sure. Whatever. Five uses his powers and they all disappear as the Earth burns.

#the umbrella academy #vanya hargreeves #allison hargreeves #ben hargreeves #diego hargreeves #luther hargreeves #number five #klaus hargreeves #pogo #hazel and cha cha

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m-feline · 4 years

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My first writing here at Tumblr. Fem. reader is the adoptive daughter of the tmnt family. She is the only one going to school and ends in trouble. How do turtles react when they hear about it.

Hope you like it.

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”I’m in trouble.” You sighed as you walked to the principal’s office.

Of all times why did you have to lose your cool right now? Because they were jerks and deserved it, yeah. But sensei taught you better. He said it takes bigger strength to simply let anger take over you. And that knowing martial arts comes with responsibility and yada, yada. But sure, try to remain calm when all four brothers can go out kick butt at all the bad guys out there. But not you, no. You had to finish school and try to not start any fights.

Most of the time it worked. You were silent and closed in kind of person. The one who survived a nasty burn, which was reminded at everyone by hiding half of your face with your hair. No one came close to you or tried to talk to you because they were either grossed out by the burn, took pity, or scared to even look at you. Well, now they’ll be scared alright.

You finally arrived at the office and took a seat in the hallway near the entrance. You weren’t worried about getting detention or being expelled from school. No, what worried you was what to explain to the principal that your guardian isn’t coming.

“Oh, sorry my guarding can’t come because he is a giant rat and is now busy training four giant turtles in the art of Ninjitsu.”

Talk about the excuse of the year. Worst case would be, a social worker to come a check where you live. For crying out loud, only four months and you would be out of the school. You had a bad feeling.

“(Y/n)?”

You looked up at your lap as you heard someone call your name.

“April? Why are you here?” You asked.

“I heard you are in trouble. What happened?” She answered as both of you hugged.

It had been a while since events where the tower collapsed instead of spreading poisonous gas over New York. April had been busy so you haven’t seen her a while.

“I got into a fight, promise not to tell Splinter. He might get worried and… you know the rest.” You tried to explain.

“Umm.” April just hanged as she pulled out her cellphone.

“He knows already.” You sighed after realizing that the phone was connected and on speaker.

“(Y/n), what did you do?” You heard the voice of Splinter at the end of the line.

“I know, I know. I lost my composure, violence is not the answer and I should have been the better man by walking away.” You commented as you already knew the lecture.

“You are almost out of school. A little patience goes for a long way.” He taught you through the phone.

“Not in this case, believe me. They had it coming and deserved it.” You tried to explain.

“What? Who deserve it?” Another voice you recognized asked through the phone.

That was Mikey. It didn’t need a guess that Splinter was also on speaker.

“(Y/n), did you get in a fight? Are you okay?” Another voice asked which you recognized as Leo.

“I hope you won. That way, even if you get punished, you got something out of it.” Ralph commented.

“(Y/n), just tell me the time and I can hack into the school’s security system, find the record of it and erase it. This way there'll be no evidence against you.” Donnie suggested.

“Donnie, that’s illegal.” You notify him.

“But I’m already in.” He said.

“Dad.” You said in a begging tone.

“Boys, all of you move away. I will speak with the principal soon and if you don’t want to spent rest of the day in Hashin…” Splinter warned them.

“We shall leave now.” Leo said.

“Sis, remember no matter what happens we love you.” Mikey says before his voice goes away with others.

Which happened just in time when the door to principals office opened. And not so happy looking man came out .

“(Y/n) Hamato.” He called.

“Hamato?” April asked.

“Our last name. Splinter picked it from the book of ninjutsu.” You explained as the two of you entered the principal’s office.

“Are you relative of (Y/n) Hamato?” Principal asked from April.

“She is a family friend, my guardian couldn’t make it.” You said.

“I told you that I wanted to speak with your guardian.” Principal said with a disappointment.

“I am present, I just cannot leave my place due to a situation with my body.” Heard Splinters voice through the speaker of the phone.

Principal was a bit taken that my guardian spoke through the phone instead of coming to the meeting, but understood the reason once he heard about the situation.

“Then Mr. Hamato, I must have very serious talk with you.” Principal began.

“I am listening.”

“(Y/n) fought with two boys in my school and one of them had be sent to hospital. Both boys parents are concerned and demanded some kind of punishment for her. But since she is almost out of school, I wish to discuss with you of an alternative way of punishment. And I have to remind you this isn’t a first time she causes trouble.” Principal said.

“Very serious indeed. One should show self control and avoid such situations.” Splinter was heard through the phone.

“I'm glad you think the same Mr. Hamato. Our school doesn’t stand for violence. Which is why I have now demanded a meeting. I still would prefer for you to be here personally.” Principal said.

“I'm sure you would but my situation doesn’t allow me to get out. I barely let my sons out…” Splinter said.

“OH NO, HE DIDN’T!”

I heard Mikey scream in the background loud enough to be heard through the phone. There were also sounds of Don, Leo, and Ralph saying something but they weren’t loud as Mikey was a moment ago.

“Excuse me a moment.” Splinter said on the phone.

Having boys heard more clearly meant Splinter had moved to where they were. And I could tell from their sounds that they were both mad and shocked.

“And only one of them is at the hospital? Where is that other punk?” Heard Ralph.

“I can’t watch this. As a good brother, I shouldn’t watch this.” Heard Leo.

“Then keep your eyes away from the comments. I thought that bullying on the internet is illegal.” Donnie was heard.

“Boys, what are you doing? I’m trying to have a conversation with the principal.” Splinter said.

“Donnie found out what happened at (Y/n)’s school.” Mikey told on.

“Donatello.” Splinter warned.

“I didn’t hack any system. I found this on Social media. And boy it is mean.”

“Since you found it at someone else’s posting, then do tell me what happened.” Splinter sighed.

“Sure. This is (Y/n) and those two are the bullies.” Don said.

“Yeah, and there they go and should keep going, but no. That one punk stops says something at our sister and the other jerk comes and pushes and then that one grabs her…” Ralph tells.

“Do not finish that sentence.” Splinter warned him.

“I won’t say it, but you saw it.” Ralph excuses.

“And then (Y/n) use the snake grip on the guy, spin him, made him fall to the ground. One tries to punch her and she kicks him… and there ends the video.” Leo narrated.

“Permission to go to the hospital smash what is left of this punk who sexually assaulted our sister?” Ralph asked.

“No.” Splinter said.

“But they are punishing her for defending herself. The school may not approve violence, but abuse? Not cool, man.” Mikey protested.

“Then how about I hack and crash all devices of people who bully her on internet?” Donnie asked.

“No.”

“But dad…”

“Boys, listen. There is one boy at the hospital already… Find out where the other one lives and send him to the hospital too. Hopefully, they'll be roommates.” Splinter said.

“Ooh.” All four say.

“One thing is to fight in school but if there is no Justice inside the school then a little reminder is in order. Just go find this boy who abused (Y/n), and make him see why it isn’t smart to harass your sister.” Splinter said.

“Can we all go?” Mikey asked.

“If that makes the point more clear then yes.” Splinter said.

“I’m going to make him cry for even looking at her.” Ralph said.

“Justice for our sister!” Declared Mikey.

“Hey, is that phone still on?” Leo asked.

“More importantly is it on speaker?” Donnie asked.

By now, I had pulled the hood of my (f/c) hoodie over my head and tried to hide myself as much as possible. This was beyond embarrassing. The principals face had changed many times to shock, fear and worry. I wasn’t sure what April was thinking now, but I need one more favor from her.

“April, can I come sleepover at your place?” I asked while hiding my face inside the hoodie.

“If you promise to tell me what really happened.” April said.

#tmnt #tmnt donatello #tmnt 2016 #tmnt leonardo #tmnt raphael #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt splinter #tmnt april #school

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thelostandforgottenangel · 7 years

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I'm sorry...

Warning: Depressing and full of triggers

TMNT One-Shot I might continue into a part two depending on how today goes

Talk about: suicide, cutting, self harm, gore

Raphael X Raven

Get ready for a rollercoaster of emotions and heartbreak

Donatello came rushing out of his lab the moment something broke coming face to face with the blue banded turtle who had been tending to Mikey’s wounds in the needle room

“I swear you are so worthless… Just go drop dead you stupid bitch!”

They saw the words stopped the teen in her tracks, they had been arguing for the last hour after getting back from an easy night of patrolling the city ending in a fight with the Foot which had almost cost Raven her life when she had gotten distracted for a moment falling over a guy who was on the ground right behind where she had been standing causing her to end up on her ass with a blade flying towards the girl’s throat

If it hadn’t been for Raphael jumping in to save their little sister from the soldier she might not have come home tonight

Of course they had heard her thanked him then apologized over and over when he started yelling, it wasn’t necessarily her fault that she had fallen but still the woman had agreed she had gotten a little clumsy but he wasn’t having it

He had just put the last nail in the coffin before Leo stepped in trying to calm Raph down as the words he had said resonated in the still air

The teen felt strangely numb waiting for the pain to finally hit her but it never came “Do you really mean that? Could you live your life if she wasn’t here Raph?” he turned still fuming looking at Leonardo who was trying to get him to apologize with pure hate snorting as the oldest turtle kept his body between them

the other’s knew how Raven felt about Raphael but she could never admit it to him

A low growl brought her back to reality seeing him a few feet away moving towards her even as Leo stopped him “If she had died tonight I wouldn’t have gave a shit” he shoved their oldest brother hard into the wall behind them yelling as loud as he could which caught everyone’s attention in the lair

Her heart stopped beating within her aching chest when Donatello stepped forward attempting to put a barricade between Raphael and the girl as he started towards her again not that the blue masked turtle was out of his way “That’s enough Raph!”

She looked up hearing the steel tone in Donnie’s voice that made her visibly jump - it was uncharacteristic for him to speak to anyone in such a strong voice but he calmed down when his baby sister reached out patting him on the arm stepping around him looking at Raph hoping her face didn’t give away how hurt she was at that moment

“Okay if that’s how you truly feel then I understand. I get it - fucked up tonight, I can admit that but you might want to be careful what you say. Never know if it will happen” he looked stunned seeing the emotionless look that covered the normally feisty girl’s face before looking away crossing his arms over his chest with a grunt whispering under his voice that he couldn’t get that lucky

Michelangelo nudged him hard but by then she had started up too the rooms when Donnie’s hand landed on one shoulder making her wince as pain echoed through her strained body pulling the sullen girl back around as Mikey spoke up from behind Leo “Baby girl he didn’t mean that… you just need to ignore the moron while he throws his little fit”

Raven blinked back the tears that threatened to surface fast looking back at Raph with a small yet bright smile catching him looking at her as a tear escaped one green eye falling down her flushed cheeks “No he meant every word. And that’s okay - it won’t matter in the end”

She pushed past Donnie heading upstairs to her room closing the door and locking it before going to sit on the edge of the bed as the dark wrap around her welcoming yet still not feeling anything; her heart didn’t even feel like it was beating anymore from within it’s cold prison

Finally she reached over turning on the bedside lamp illuminating the lifeless room in a dull glow before pulling up the long sleeves she was wearing unwrapping the bandages worn on her arms like the guys only she doubted they’re bandages hid anything similar to what appeared as they slid off once they were loosened up enough

The moment she willed herself to look the pink lines that covered both sides were reveled

Running a finger over the scars she hated herself even more remembering every reason for each one being there, having suffered for years she had been at war with this depression for a few horrible months and lately it seemed like she was losing the battle more and more every day.

A low knock came from the door as she wrapped both arms back up again changing her shirt before answering to find Leonardo standing in the door way “Hey are you okay little sister?”

A fake smile slid across the girl’s face being the first defense to hide her secrete from the small family and to be honest she was getting good at it with all the practice lately, a quick nod came next lying to her oldest brother “Yeah Leo I’m great-”

From somewhere down stairs she could hear Don and Mikey talking to Raph trying to convince him to apologize before the young woman decided to leave again seeing Leo look over his shoulder before looking back at the human girl “That’s good… Well, we are going out again for a short night run, I thought I’d just let you know”

She nodded grabbing her jacket starting out the door when Leonardo stopped her with a hand on the frame keeping her from advancing any further shaking his head as he searched for the right words to use “I meant me and the guys are going out, we all decided it would be better if you stayed home… Just so Raph will cool of a bit”

Everything seemed to stop as she stood there searching his face seeing he was trying to not say what he really wanted too as it hit her like a brick wall - they didn’t believe in her as part of the team, she was just a mistake in their eyes, worthless just like Raph had said; now she knew it would be better if she wasn’t in their lives then maybe they wouldn’t have to deal with their clumsy good for nothing adopted human sister

Life would be better without her

Tossing the jacket back over the bed she nodded smiling once more but knew the smile never reached her eyes as she moved away from him “That’s fine… I didn’t want to go out anyways” his face dropped as she turned away closing the door fast as a tear dripped down her face before he could say anything more locking it back leaning on the door waiting for him to leave knowing he had wanted to say more

“Raven” his voice came through the through the door behind her almost pleading as he tried to turn the knob tapping on the door fast as she let a sob go “Open the door… come on little sister open the door back up” his words were ignored as the teen sliding down before dropping to the floor not sure why she suddenly felt so empty “Raven – please open the door I didn’t mean it to sound the way it came out” it would have hurt too much to tell him to go away so she didn’t say anything to him and after a few more attempts to get the door open his footsteps finally disappeared with what almost sounded like a soft spoken apology

Raven couldn’t bear to think that she was a liability to the team; that if she fucked up once it might get them killed and she couldn’t live with that carefully pulled a small knife out from under her drawers looking at it smiling to herself knowing that if she wanted too she could just open her wrist to stop the pain - if only for a second and knew it would help for a short time

The blade pressed to her skin as she stopped second guessing herself for a moment trying to convince her mind that she didn’t need to do this but ten minutes later it was still pressed against her arm firmly before a light tap on the door brought her back jumping as she felt her arm stinging

She had been pressing down so hard she had broken the skin right through the bandages

The girl didn’t answer knowing that if she was quiet they would leave without another knock slowly moving to sit down on the bed listening for whoever it was to leave although she knew it was probably Mikey since he was the only one who knew about her current mental problem and was trying hard to help his younger sister work through it even though it didn’t seem to be helping

“Baby girl can I come in for… Hey we’ll bring dinner home… Love ya little sis”

His voice had shook as she sat perfectly still not moving until his footsteps were heading down the stairs only then did she let out a small sob feeling her heart shatter as they left the lair talking and joking around leaving the girl in the cold silence.

How long she had sat on the floor went unnoticed as she pulled out a bottle of liquor from one of the bottom drawers drinking it fast hoping to drowned the pain but couldn’t get any more than a small buzz going wishing that she had never fallen for Raphael then maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much when he said the things like he had tonight but all the wishing in the world couldn’t fool her own heart

Raven loved him and always would as long as she was breathing

She laid there for hours letting the tears fall freely until finally she couldn’t take the lonely feeling pushing her body up somehow managing to get off the floor once the bottle was empty walking down to the weight room feeling her body shaking as she tried to calm herself down, dad was gone so she couldn’t sit and talk to him about it, meditating would only make her focus on the pain she was wanting to forget so instead the girl tried to do a few katas to center whatever was left of her mind but after the third one she was still upset

It came slowly but she found her legs moving her over to Raph’s punching bag, hitting it hard taking all the pain she was feeling out on the heavy bag hitting it harder until she felt the pain radiating up both arms looking down to see blood dripping off her hands onto the floor

It only took a moment to pull some of Donnie’s bandages he left in there of the massive turtle off the shelf wrapping the bloodied hands tightly flexing them before she continued beating the punching bag

Feeling the tears running down her face focusing on just how much she was trying to convince herself to hate him it took a while to realize the blood starting to seep through the bandages not stopping until the pain became too much hitting the floor crying out cursing under several labored breaths wanting nothing more than to forget him

Hating everything in her for the way she was feeling before jumping up fast kicking at his punching bag “Why – why am I even in with love him… I’ll never be good enough for him! HE COULD NEVER LOVE ME…!” throwing one last punch she heard the guys voices entered the lair only moments later clawing at her chest just needing for her heart to stop working right then so it could finally be over

“Raven we’re home”

She was fuming trying to catch her breath clinging to the bag to keep from falling over as Raphael walked into the room growling under his breath “Hey get away from my shit before ya break it danmmit”

“Raphael she isn’t going to break it – if you haven’t broke it yet she won’t”

“WHY THE FUCK IS SHE EVEN TOUCHING MY SHIT -”

He turned looking at the girl in a way that to everyone screamed pure hatred before walking on to the kitchen just as she broke - something inside snapped right then as a ragged sob broke from her chest clawing at the fabric under her fingers, turning fast feeling the tears she was trying so desperately to blink back fall down her cheeks unable to stop the weakness she was feeling surface she exploded spinning so fast nothing could have stopped her from punching the wall hard screaming out loudly when a bone or two snap on impact

Moments later she realized she was unable to breath wiping her face on as red stained sleeve taking a deep breath forcing a smile when he came back into the weight room seeing the frown on his face turn into a confused look that over took his face as she found her voice sounding cheery for a split second “I’m going to my room before I say something I’ll regret. See you guys in the morning”

Raphael shifted over as she looked down starting past him clinching one fist sending waves of agonizing pain up her right arm wanting to run for it but he didn’t say anything as Leo came up behind him looking over the sweat covered figure as Raph’s voice came out shaken “K-Kid…”

He took a fast step towards her reaching out to touch the girl’s face seeing all the blood that was drying on the cruddy bandages and old clothes but with a strength none of them had ever witnessed before the teen shoved past both of them grabbing her chest as it started hurting no longer feeling the beating organ that should have been there

There was nothing

“Hey baby girl we brought you dinner to cheer you up”

The air shifted so fast it was a shock as the girl spun around glaring at the smallest turtle when he looked away the moment he was in her sights “I’M NOT HUNGRY MIKEY!” as soon as the words were out of her mouth she started climbing the stairs heading for her room again stopping slowly feeling bad that she had snapped at him wiping her face as she forced one last smile “Sorry Mikey... I’m not really all that hungry - I’m just feeling a little under the weather right now... Save me some and I’ll eat later okay – thanks anyways”

The crunch of her hand as she shifted it open had Donnie stopping when he passed her looked over the teen stopping on the broken and bloodied hands looking panicked when he saw how purple the right one was “Raven – oh my god what happened?”

She turned finding him behind her looking at the bandages before she pulled away hiding both in her pockets ashamed he had seen them “Nothing… I’m going to bed” he tried to stop her once more but she yanked away from him stepping through her door slamming it fast locking it even faster as he tried to follow

He stood outside that door for a while looking over when his oldest brother made it to his side seeing the regret written all over his face as they heard her fall to the floor crying out – they could have never guessed she was clutching a knife tight in her grasp

Never would they had thought she was just inside the door wishing she had the strength to just end it right then and there so the invisible pain she was in would go away as they slowly left her door to go eat hoping she would come down when she was ready – because if they had known what was happening just inside they would have never left the door

Raven rolled over letting the pain out in fragile wails as she slowly reached out picking up the small piece of paper that she must have dropped earlier reading it as the ache inside her chest grew crawling over to her dresser pulling out a bottle of different pills dumping ten into her palm looking at the multi colored tablets before swallowing them fast taking a quick sip of her water forcing her body down into her chair praying it would come quickly

Raphael hadn’t touched his food still thinking back on the way she had looked at him – the way her lifeless emerald orbs had met his showing nothing of the girl he was used to seeing… his hardheaded, stubborn, pain in his ass – his Rave wasn’t there

He only waited two more minutes before he got out of his chair bolting upstairs his mind telling him to leave the kid alone but his heart telling him to go to her tapping on the door fast not hearing any sounds from inside as he tried to turn the door knob “Rave…? Raven, open the door”

She had finally grabbed the knife again when she didn’t feel the pills kicking in planning on just cutting herself a few more times but jumped when Raph’s panicked voice boomed through the door hissing as she felt a sudden pain rip through her body looking down seeing she had sliced deep through her wrist feeling the pain draining from her body until she could move again “Just go away… I need to be alone”

“Kid, open the door now!”

Finally the teen was calm minutes later getting up laying down on the bed covering herself with a thick comforter knowing it would all be better in the morning as her body slipped into the darkness that had surrounded her.

Raphael called out to her again starting to kick the door in when he heard a soft snore from inside leaning on the metal before sitting down just outside her room listening to her slow breathing, he needed to see her but for now her calm breathing told him she was alright

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A loud knock came at her door as Leo yelled for her to open it sounding panicky but she couldn’t move feeling something sticky under her hand struggling to stay awake as she tried to call out to him – he had been beating on her door for over an hour finally starting to get worried when she was still snoring when usually the smallest sound would wake her

It really got to him when Mikey and Donnie had came to help only for her to not answer

She glanced at the clock feeling like she was falling seeing that if the clock was right it was almost two hours later and her brothers were calling out her name through the door there was a moment of complete silence before it burst open only to hear Raph’s voice enter the room as he sighed yelling down stairs where the other must have gone to get something “Guys she’s asleep”

His voice came softly moments later from the end of her bed as he brushed a hand over her foot “Rave-?” when she didn’t move he came closer kneeling down to brush a hand through her hair letting his voice lower so as not to startle her “Hey – c’mon ya have to get up… Leo said yer not going to stay in here, we were gonna watch - Raven…?”

The woman could feel him touch her pale cheek before he was brushing her hair out of the way still not able to make her body work “Kid – danm yer freezing” he wasted no time pulling the blankets back as he crawled under the covers to warm her jumping back out as he laid down in a cold wet spot saying something under his breath that even he hadn’t caught before he was looking at his sweats seeing the dark red stain on his side before his eyes fell on the arm at her side that he had uncovered seeing the dark red that was starting to dry on her arms “K – Kid what? Oh god what did ya do… D – DONNIE!!!!”

He dropped to his knees patting her face as he pulled her to him lifting her head off the bed seeing the white substance on her chin “Raven – c’mon open those pretty eyes and look at me” she didn’t respond for a while but finally let out a soft groan before her eyes fluttered making him breathe a sigh of relief that she was somehow still alive “That’s it – I gotcha just stay with me Rave” he nuzzled his face against hers pressing a small kiss to her forehead fighting to keep the tears at bay finally lifted her arm up when it dawned on him she was still bleeding out wrapping a shirt he could reach around it hating how limp she felt against him “Kid open yer eyes – I need ya to open yer eyes please”

He could see she was trying but couldn’t as Donatello’s voice came from the door making him look away seeing his brother’s thin frame was frozen in place before he took in a deep breath whispering a shaky slur of words before he seemed to finally get control back over his body “R-Raven… Oh no-” he bolted forward as Raphael uncovered her further before his brother was there grabbing the arm holding it up above her head feeling for a pulse as he squeezed her arm “Raven you need to wake up now come on… Please wake up”

The teen suddenly squeezed Raphael’s fingers who was holding tight to her other hand mumbling breathlessly as she shifted closer to him whimpering from the pain of the pressure being applied to the wound “I-I’m s…so tired Donnie” the words were almost like a lifeline that the massive turtle latching onto trying to keep her talking as she started to fade out again like hearing myself telling Donnie that “D-Donnie…I can’t – I love him too much. I can’t stop loving Raph - I wasn’t good enough for him to love back I needed him beside me – I’m sorry”

His breath left his body as she opened her eyes just as a gentle hand came over her tear stained cheek to see Raphael kneeling beside her whispering to her as if he was scared to speak any louder “Ay kid – look ‘m right here… ‘m here I gotcha ya – stay with me okay” her face contorted into a confused gaze seeing the bed stained with something before realizing the bandages on her arm was blood red

She had finally done it

His heart sank as she grinned looking relieved as she dropped back in his arms before he met his brother’s honey brown eyes, they didn’t say a word before the biggest turtle lifted her up from the bed as they raced down to the lab “LEO – MIKEY WE NEED HELP!!!”

Donatello’s voice rung out through the lair drawing his brother’s from the living area as he jumped over the railing heading into the needle room even though he knew it as too late to do anything

She fell into a black pool of emptiness still clinging to the note that she had wrote him a few days ago as Mikey screamed out and Leo begged her to hang on hearing Raphael pleading with her as tears dripped down his cheeks holding tight to her as his brother tried to save her – he found himself praying to every entity he had ever heard of that just maybe she would pull through

He looked down when he realized there was a piece of paper she was clinging to taking it from her quickly yet gently working it out of the crinkled up ball it was in before reading the blood stained note choking out a ragged cry pressing his face against her chest realizing what he should have seen sooner

It simply said:

I still love you Raphie… to death’s doorstep and with my last breathe… I always will

I’m sorry - I just hope you can forgive me!

So I went over board in the feels department, this got dark fast in my mind so depending on how good I feel today I might write a part two - so this could either go really good or horribly bad from this point on....

Let me know what you think loves!

#tmnt 2016 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #shattered #raphael #oc raven #leonardo #tmnt mikey #tmnt donatello #gore #depressing thoughts #suicide #heartbreak

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03/7 Rasey -[🌨️] our muses get caught in the first snow of the season

|SEND AN EMOJI FOR A STARTER ! ↳ winter season & holiday based

"Master Splinter" Raphael said over his phone once again sound a little exasperated by this point. As he was staring out the window of Casey's apartment. Watching how the snow was just piling up outside on the fire escapes just outside of Casey's apartment. He could feel the chill through the window from where he stood listening to Splinter speak on the other end of the call. Paying a second to look over his shell trying to make sure no one, well a cretin no one was near by to hear him.He still hunches up his shoulders and cups his hand at the end of his phone lowering his voice as he goes to speak up again. "Dad." Is all he has to say to get Splinter to relax a moment and listen to him now. His voice still held the usual gruff but had softened when calling Splinter that. It wasn't often said least not by Raph. Which was how he knew it would help. " 'm fine promise, didn' know how bad it was gonna get out there. Don' worry Case got me at his place before it got any worse." Splinter didn't always like his sons going out and about top side he knew they could care for themselves. But it did give him some extra relief to know someone was looking out for them as well.

Raphael and Splinter's conversations continued with him trying to keep Casey from hearing him. The tough, broody turtle he normally was having to constantly reassure his father that he was safe, and warm. Splinter had seen the News report about the snow piling up outside. So of course, the old rat had to switch into his parental instincts. One of his 'babies' was out there in danger. Splinter spent years making sure his sons never got trapped in the cold after all. Didn't matter they were grown now.

Raphael finally uncurled from his call to Splinter, sort gruffs 'uh-huhs' and 'yeahs' were given with nods if his head that couldn't be seen by Splinter but more on reflex for Raphael as the call finally ended. Raphael couldn't help but smile to himself. Didn't matter how old he was Splinter could still go into a sudden worried tangent at the drop of a dime. Telling Raphael to stay inside till the weather safer to travel in. Honestly it left the turtle feeling drained

As he walked over to fall back on the couch, letting his head lull back to rest as he just soaks in the warmth of the fabric under him for now. "Man Splints can ramble" He finally voices, peering over to Casey who had this look on his face. "What." Raphael's own tone sharpens as he narrows his gaze at the human, as if daring Casey to try and test their luck.

Casey always did when it came to Raphael never seeming to find the warning that Raphael was giving but taking it more as an invite if anything. "Jus' lettin' 'em know where I 'm s'all." Raphael expresses as he folds his arms over his plastron and turns his head to look away from Casey now. "I always tell 'im if 'm not gonna be home. Not 'ike Leo." Who Raph was known to blow off all the time and ghost then even if they blew up his phone demanding to know where he was. Raphael always figured long as Splinter knew where he was, then it was fine. "Eased up when tol' 'im I was at youes place." Raph states as he tries to hold back the need to shiver.

It was like the cold had already settled on to his bones despite how warm Casey's apartment was. Raphael felt his arm brush against Casey's and the warmth that seemed to just radiate off him. Only aware of the curiousness to his statement from before. Raphael offering a shrug of his shoulders. "Dunno guess he 'hink i'll be fine wit' ya. Not sure why 'm the one who bailin' ya ass out more 'han anythin' " Raphael complained a bout a little, " 'ike he forgot ya nothing but a giant ass" Raph went on to insult Casey in that manner that always sounded harsh coming from maybe anyone that wasn't him. Insulting Casey playful but his words were losing their edge as he lets himself lean over resting his forehead to the back of Casey's shoulder. "Warm"

Was all he could think letting his eyes close as he stayed like so, Pretty content in the moment as he was resting. He hadn't caught saying it. But he might not care either right now moving to bury his face against Casey's shoulder. slowly dropping his arms so he could snake one around Casey's back and bring himself in closer to himself. Slightly rest against their back. Not the most comfortable way but it was letting Raphael steal the warmth from Casey. It was pleasant. But he still felt kind of cold, moving his other arm around so he could complete the circle hold he had on Casey. They were just so warm Raphael thought as he slightly nuzzled in against their shoulder blade. Slight content sigh escapes him a moment as he slightly taps his forehead to the beat of Casey's shoulder.

Not bothering to listen to anything they may be trying to say at the moment. He has to admit it be better if Casey's arm were around him in turn. More warmth for one. But he didn't feel like moving just yet. Honestly he might fall asleep like this. He be fine with that because he's sure Casey was just two seconds from teasing him over the sudden affection he was giving to Casey. Not his fault, he was freezing and Casey was like a space heater.

"not movin' 'm good" He protests unprompted he could just feel his body growing heavy. The draw of sleep coming maybe? It when he catch the the way Casey seems to shift in his hold when he even notices he had started to 'purr' out a low churr. Fuck fuck fuck! He really doesn't want to move he felt so content like this. He just buries his burning face against Casey. "shut it" he warns it might not be very well threatening when hes holding on to Casey like this though. "I mean it Bone head zip it!"

#muse| hamato raphael #madamkezzie #aflockoffeathers #[ if you jumped off a bridge its only cause i did first -aflockoffeathers]#[03 verse]#winter season & hoilday meme #meme answers #ic reply #((Casey should be allowed to see raphie being cuddly uwu))

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