#Promise Place

[amg3xik]

平和と健康と愛

1/1、京セラドーム公演行きました

♡セットリスト♡

シュレーディンガー／Secret Code／99% LIBERTY／X-Day／Before Dawn／Through the night／BANANA／アン/ペア／もう君以外愛せない／Solitude〜真実のサヨナラ〜／銀色 暗号／硝子の少年／Kissからはじまるミステリー／Happy Happy Greeting（お誕生日お祝い&あけおめ）／SNOW TEARS／パズル（日替わりうろ覚え曲成仏コーナー）／世界中をI LOVE YOU／愛のかたまり／スワンソング／やめないで、PURE／愛されるより愛したい／全部だきしめて／フラワー／シュレーディンガー／無重力みたいな愛／Amazing Love

平和と健康（と、愛）

新大阪駅構内のお手洗にいたときに、石川県能登半島を震源とする地震災害に関する放送が流れて、そのときになって初めて自分と地面とが揺れていることに気が付いた。早く行かなければと思い急ぎ階段を降りて地下鉄に乗って、運行は既に緊急ダイヤに切り替わっていて進みは遅かったし、最終出勤日以来の満員電車だったけれど、開演には間に合ってくれた。

開演冒頭、光一さんが「ちょっと不安な状況ですけれども…」と言っていて、ああこういう時の光一さんの姿だなあと思った。その後の挨拶でも二人共心配と配慮の言葉をかけていて、「平和と健康（と、愛）！」を繰り返し言っていた。終演後も、今もそれがじわじわとずっと心に沁み渡ってる。二人がくれるやさしさの類って形は違えど同じ、みたいな……

完全な初日の出

アリーナ前方、しかも通路最前という完璧な席で45になったばかりの光一さんの御尊顔を間近で拝んでしまった瞬間に、明けないと思っていた2024年が明けました。おめでとうございます。

これは自慢ですが、ぼくはEndless SHOCKを2階の最前列で観たことがあります、今までそれが光一さんを最も近くで観る機会で、そのときも全く生きているようには思えなかったのですが、この日はああ、このひとこんな嘘みたいな美しさのままで生きているんだと思ってしまった。

♡つよしくん、目合わせて手振ってくれてありがと……♡

古典的なジャニーズらしい演出を間近で浴びることができてほんとうに、人生の中でもかなりうれしい出来事でした。

音楽

最初に健さんがセンターに出てきてベース弾き始めたのヤバかった。これ東京公演にはなかったと思う……開幕即ブチ上がってしまった

音響、文句なしで非常に聴きやすく……いや二人はアリーナ降りてきて中心辺りにいるときは必ずと言っていいほどズレていたのだけれどそれは仕方ないのかも、歌い辛そうだった あとマイクが飛んだのか歌詞を飛ばしたのかももう分かりませんでした

solitude〜真実のサヨナラ〜のつよしくんの入り最高じゃなかった？いつも最高だが、突き抜けて最高だった……J-POPの神童……と思った

Through the nightのつよしくん、……すぎる

シュレーディンガー、多分今まで披露した中で一番上手かったような気がしました

つよしくん「こういちくんにLOVEのL、突きつけてください🔫」

『世界中をI LOVE YOU』のこと、まだ「ギャグなの？マジなの？どっち？」と思ってる光一さん、わろた

個人的には映像とダンサーはない方がいいんじゃないか〜と思いました、あのメタリック斜体フォントとダンサーの格好がなんかすごい、面白いけど変な感じにしてるから

光一さんもなんか変だなあと思いつつもつよしくんの詞で、案だから強く言えないんじゃないか〜な〜と思ってました。まあ、憶測ですが……。

お誕生日🎂

つよしくんからのお誕生日プレゼント

①ケーキ🎂

②リカバリーウェア（上下）👕

③ブンブブーンで出会ったらしい（未放送）スウェット💩

④8000万のアンティークカーの売買契約書🚘

スウェットもらって早速着てこようとする光一さん、貰ったものを大事にする光一さんで俺の好きな光一さんだった

呑気に未放送のブンブブーンのネタバレなどしていて、ほんまに終わるのか？と思った

8000万の車マジで買ったのかと思ってオタクはビビっちゃった つよしくんならやりかねないかもとか思ってこわかったです

「俺が段取りとか面倒くさがりそうだからあとはサインするだけのところまでやってくれたんだ♪」←甘い

車の周りを延々うろうろしている光一さんに、契約書渡しといておきながら「本番中ですからそんなに悩まないでください、ここで8000万使われても嫌なんで……」と言うつよしくん

光一くんにお誕生日おめでと〜を伝えるリーダーをオタクに向かって募集かけておきながら、思ったよりいっぱい手が上がったので結局自分が務めるつよしくん

ハピグリいい歌すぎて泣いていた、君がそばにいると違うんですよ！！！この歌を歌っている二人を見ると泣いてしまう、余りの美しさに……。光一さんが「（この歌には）全部入ってるからね！」と言っていてそうだよねと思った

💩スウェットからのもう君以外愛せないの流れひどすぎて怒られ必至だったが、周水ごめ〜ん😂みたいな雰囲気でかなりゆるかった あと先日の東京公演に周水が来てたことを教えてくれた

つよしくんが特にこのくだりを何度も何度も光一さんに思い出させて引きずっていた 「君が一瞬でも…」の歌詞から新幹線のトイレの物真似が始まり、そこから火が付いて結局最後の挨拶まで引きずってた

光一さん「（つよし）悪い子やな〜😂！」

ツボってまともに歌えなくなった光一さんの代わりにつよしくんがもう君の入り代打したんですけど、上手すぎやべ〜〜となりました。歌い慣れてないパートだから光一さんは特にビビってたけど、つよしくんがラララで歌ったあと「そんなに難しくないから大丈夫や」て言ってたのイケメンで好きだった

うろ覚え曲成仏コーナー

この日は『パズル』でした🧩。道は手ずから〜カップリングならPure Soulがよかったな……と思ってしまいました涙。でもPure Soulちゃんと歌えない二人見るの普通に嫌かもしれない、しかしここで選抜されればYouTubeで歌ってもらえる確約あるしな……（悶悶）

始まる前に光一さんが「この前キンキの曲色々探す機会あって聴いたんやけど」って『ひとりぼっちのクリスマス』の話しててえもえもだった。光一さんこんなんぜったい好きやろと思う。

堂島さんと行ったカラオケの話をするつよしくん。「あ〜！これ昔よく歌ってたなあ〜」とか言いながら全然知らない演歌とかをてきとうに歌うカラオケ。曲名忘れましたが和田アキ子の歌がすごい名曲になったらしい

バンドの皆さん、東京公演での反省を踏まえて（直前に譜面を渡され、本番で合わせていた）しっかり練習してきたそうです

つよしくんのパートで「覚束ない」という字があり、「かくそくない」と歌ってしまっていたのだがまさかの二人とも分かっておらず共倒れでゲラゲラ笑っていて楽しそうだった

途中で光一さんがミュージカルっぽくしたことによってつよしくんと光一さんの即興ミュージカルが始まりテンション上がった（こんなとこで夢を叶えてしまい……）

おしゃべり

KinKi Kidsさん全体的に楽しそうで良かった なにより

何をかは忘れましたがMCいきなりつよしくんが噛んで顔どアップに映されて可愛かった はい

「つよしくんどこ泊まってんの？」

「どこ泊まってんの？」

「いや私は言わないですけど😅……つよしくんどこ泊まってんの？」

「言うていいんやったら言いますけど」

「いや言ったらダメですよ、大変なことになりますよ、あなたが」

「じゃあなんで聞いたん？😠」

つよしくん、光一さんが言った「幅広い」→「はーばーひろい」→ハーバード大学……🤔？になってたのが多分この日一好きなやつだった くだらないので……。

KinKi Kidsがなんで人気なのかよく分かってないKinKi Kidsさん「なんで人気なんやろな……🤔」

アンコールのシュレーディンガー曲振りでつよしくんがふざけ始め、何年か前の薔薇と太陽の曲振りで「アンと、ニオ猪木」ってつよしくんが言ったやつを光一さんが思い出していてよく覚えてるなと思った

最初の方のMCで言っていた「どこ泊まってんの？」のくだりも、「これ前やらんかった？」「あ〜覚えてたか〜」みたいなことを言い合っていた

最後の挨拶

「本当に色々考えているが、何も進まない」と。俳優業だけでなく音楽もやっていると権利やら会社やら色々あって話が進みづらいらしいですね キンキは活動歴も長いし、ソロワークも活発で、色々と大変だろうな〜と思うなどしました

それでも、「この時間を一緒に過ごした皆さんとならこの先何があっても大丈夫」というようなことを言ってくれ、愛してるという気持ちでいっぱいでした

本当にいい日だった。幸せすぎるくらいに幸せだった。人生はあのとき死ねたらと思うときに死ねないことの繰り返しかも知れないけれど、長い日常を続けることは退屈かつその有難さを感じることすら難しいのだけれど、しかし確実にあの日よりもとてもいい日で、そういう素晴らしい一日を信じて生きていたいと思った。

#平和と健康 #愛 #Promise Place #京セラドーム

[inkskinned]

will you be enough for her, though. little slip child. you hated every time you had to scream to be heard, so you stopped screaming. it feels so fucking demeaning, 16 and shivering, saying please! father! look at me! and having him say in a minute sweetie.

online they're back to making fun of self-harm scars. isn't that funny. we have dropped the silver pretense of empathy and are walking around without any shred of humanity.

are you still shouting? how can anybody love you, then, siren. error signal. your voice so quiet and desperate. nobody is going to help you, stop begging. how can anybody actually look down at you without squashing you flat. oh, darling. you once bit into the back of your hand to stop from crying out, and discovered that it felt too dramatic for repeating.

people like you aren't supposed to cry, because you are too much. you have never meant to, but you take the air out of a room just by walking in. other people can take up room like a sunbeam. you blurt out all your wickedness in oilslicks, everyone can feel it. you slosh yourself over their hands and demand their flinch. you are a bone stuck in the throat.

be more beautiful, more perfect. if you can earn it, they won't abhor you. they might even tolerate you, if you turn the right way and never stand up straight.

but love? her life is a silver fish, a cat paw. your life is a long, thin, impossible desire - angry like a blade. your life is a crack in the floortile. you cannot bring your rotted fruit heart into the church of her hands. you will ruin her. you will overtake everything good for her.

or worse - you will have to beg her look at me. and that moment of desperation will ruin you forever. completely.

deleted scene from body's a bad monster, 9.24.2024

#neg #writeblr #spilled ink #i was clearly in a bad place while writing it but i promise it ends happy

[solarmorrigan]

Saw someone mention how Steve tends to get defensive when he's anxious and it stuck with me, so here's my take on the "Steve breaks a dish and has a panic attack about it" trope

cw: descriptions of nonstandard panic attack, implied/referenced child abuse

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The distinct sound of shattering porcelain is followed by a vehemently hissed, “shit,” and then silence.

“Steve?” Eddie calls from the couch into the kitchen. “You okay?”

“Yeah,” Steve calls back, but his voice sounds tight in the way it does when something definitely isn’t okay.

Eddie pushes himself up and moves to the doorway, looking in to see what the trouble is. The kitchen of the house he and Wayne had been “gifted” by the government isn’t exactly huge, and he has a straight line of sight to where Steve is standing by the sink, eyes squeezed shut as he pinches the bridge of his nose, and to the red and white shards of porcelain on the floor by his feet.

“Hey,” Eddie says, but Steve doesn’t look up; if anything, his posture only gets tenser. “You’re not cut or anything, are you?”

“No,” Steve says, and his tone is still a little off, but he doesn’t sound like he’s lying.

“What was that, anyway?” Eddie asks.

Finally, Steve takes a deep breath in and opens his eyes, looking down at the mess on the laminate. “Mug.”

As soon as he says it, Eddie recognizes the colors for what the design must have been. “Shit, the Campbell’s one?”

Steve doesn’t say a word, just gives one sharp nod.

Eddie sucks a hiss of breath in through his teeth. “Shit,” he says again. “That was Wayne’s favorite.”

“I know,” Steve says tersely. “I’m sorry.”

His tone is definitely weird. “I mean, I’m sure it was an accident, Steve–” Eddie starts.

“I’m sorry,” Steve says again, almost snapping this time. “I’ll clean it up.”

“O-kay,” Eddie says slowly, watching as Steve jerks into motion and moves over to the corner where they stash the broom and dust pan.

“I’ll apologize to Wayne when he gets home,” Steve says as he starts sweeping up, even though Eddie hasn’t said a word.

“He gets home at, like, six in the morning.”

“I’ll make sure I’m up,” Steve says shortly.

“Steve, you can just tell him what happened later, he’s not going to stand around demanding an explanation. I mean, seriously, you think Wayne is gonna be pissed if you’re not there, immediately scraping at his feet when he comes through the door?” Eddie scoffs, but Steve remains silent. Eddie watches as he finishes sweeping in short, sharp motions, brows pulling together as Steve apparently fails to pick up on the joke. “…he won’t be, y’know.”

Steve shrugs. His expression has gone eerily blank, and he takes the dustpan over to the garbage can to dump it.

“Hey, don’t–” Eddie reaches out, and Steve jerks to a stop just in time. “You don’t have to toss it, man, we might be able to glue it back together.”

Steve sends Eddie a sharp look. “I’m not gonna be able to hide that it was broken, Eddie,” he says slowly, as though this should be painfully obvious.

“I’m not suggesting we hide it, I’m just saying we might still be able to use it,” Eddie answers in the same slow manner. “It’s not junk until you’re sure you can’t fix it.”

“Right,” Steve snaps, dropping the dustpan on the counter so sharply that the shards of porcelain clink against each other. “Can’t even clean up right.”

Eddie frowns, stirrings of defensiveness rising up in his gut at Steve’s continued sour mood. “I didn’t say that. I just said we might be able to fix it.”

“Fine. We’ll try to fix it,” Steve bites out, turning away from Eddie so he can put the broom back in the corner.

Eddie shakes his head, unwilling to engage with whatever snit Steve’s got himself worked into. “What happened, anyway?” he asks instead.

Apparently, this is the wrong tactic.

“What happened is, I’m too stupid to even do the dishes right,” Steve declares as he whirls back around. “Is that what you want to hear?”

“What?” Eddie is baffled, suddenly caught in the middle of an argument he hadn’t even realized was happening. “No! Why would I want to hear that?”

Steve throws his arms up, a demonstration of giving in. “Well I already said I’m sorry, and I am, and I don’t know what else you want from me!”

The heat of Eddie’s own temper is beginning to flare, but he does his best to shake it away because he still doesn’t know what the hell is going on and he doesn’t think getting angry will help. “I don’t want anything else from you! Why are you acting like I’m yelling at you? I’m not, I’m not even upset about the stupid mug, so what the hell is your deal?”

He takes a couple of steps into the kitchen, reaching out for Steve, hoping just to touch some part of him. Physical contact has always been grounding, has always been a comfort for them both; it almost seems like they can communicate better if they can just be in contact somehow. Instead of reaching back, though, Steve tenses up; it’s not exactly a flinch, but it’s as if he’s bracing himself, as if he’s waiting for Eddie to–

Eddie takes in the painfully blank expression on Steve’s pale face, the way his chest is rising and falling in quick, shallow breaths that he can’t quite seem to control, the way he’s angled himself just slightly away from Eddie, and suddenly Eddie feels cold.

It’s as if he’s waiting for Eddie to hit him.

Eddie wonders how the hell he hadn’t realized he was walking through a minefield until he was already standing in the middle of it.

(It still takes him by surprise, sometimes, that Steve’s anxiety, his panic, tends to look more like anger. That he tends to lash out like a wounded animal when he feels backed into a corner, hurt too many times in moments of vulnerability to do otherwise.)

(It takes him by surprise, but he’s learning.)

“Steve,” Eddie says softly, dropping his hand slowly back to his side, “I’m not angry.”

Steve stares at him, almost confused, like Eddie’s not doing it right, like this isn’t what’s supposed to come next. Eddie sort of wants to break something (he thinks, briefly, that he’d like to start with the fingers on Mr. Harrington’s right hand, and then move on to his left).

“It’s just a mug, Steve, it’s okay. No one’s upset about it,” Eddie says. “I’m preemptively speaking for Wayne, because I know he’s not gonna be mad at you. Seriously, getting upset over a broken cup? Does that sound like something Wayne would do?”

Slowly, once he seems to realize that Eddie is waiting for an answer, Steve shakes his head.

“Does that sound like something I would do?” Eddie asks.

Steve shakes his head again, though he’s still watching Eddie with something approaching trepidation.

“I promise it’s fine. I’m not angry,” Eddie repeats, and chances a couple of steps closer to Steve.

Steve doesn’t react this time, no tensing, no flinching, no verbally lashing out, and so Eddie lifts a hand again, reaching slowly for Steve’s. Steve lets him.

When he gets his fingers wrapped around Steve’s own, Eddie can feel how cold they’ve gone, can feel the fine tremble of adrenaline working through them, and can’t quite choke down the noise of sympathy in his throat. He tugs on Steve’s hand.

“C’mere,” Eddie says, invites him by lifting his other arm, but leaves it up to Steve.

It only takes a moment for Steve to step in close, and when Eddie lets go of his hand to wrap his arms around Steve’s shoulders, Steve reciprocates by cinching his own arms tight around Eddie’s waist. He takes one sharp breath, and then another, and Eddie can hear the way they shake going in and out.

“There you go,” Eddie says quietly, rubbing Steve’s back.

“I just dropped it,” Steve says, his voice a little hoarse. “It was an accident.”

“I know it was,” Eddie assures him. “It’s okay.”

“It was an accident,” Steve says again, and Eddie wonders how often someone has believed him – how often he’d ever even been given a chance to explain.

“It was an accident,” Eddie agrees. “You’re okay, Steve.”

Steve lets out a little noise, like maybe he’s trying to laugh, but then he pulls in another shuddery breath and rests his chin on Eddie’s shoulder. “Okay.”

In a little bit, Eddie might lead Steve to sit down on the couch, or maybe just take them both up to bed, because fuck doing the dishes after this anyway; he’ll make sure to leave a note for Wayne about the mug (ask him not to bring it up until Steve does, to not even jokingly make a thing about it), but for now, he concentrates on holding Steve close.

He’ll stand with him as long as it takes for the shaking to stop, for his breathing to even out, for him to relax even just a little against Eddie, and he'll promise, as many times as Steve needs to hear it, that it’s okay. Things will be okay.

[Prompt: Embracing your partner]

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #eddiesteve #solar wrote #cw child abuse #referenced but does not take place in the fic #cw panic attack #even if it doesn't look like one at first #soft ending though as always I promise

[im-totally-not-an-alien-2]

As it turns out, Danny makes a pretty good leader. His little gang of homeless children has grown immensely, both from picking up strays and from assimilating other gangs into his group.

Danny might only be 10 and still figuring out his powers but dang, intangibility and flight are over powered even before you add invisibility and laser blasts. At first he regretted sneaking into the lab alone to check out the portal his parents made in this basement. Waking up in a cold alley in a city you've never heard of is a terrifying experience even without the corrupt cops trying to sell you into human trafficking, but finding out he had powers and could do whatever he wanted? That was great. It no longer mattered that adults didn't listen to him or chased him around. He could do anything now. Be anything. Take anything.

He and the people under his protection often robbed places, never banks or anything but high class restaurants and stores that usually wouldn't even let them in through the front doors. Yeah, Danny can admit most of thier robberies were because of grudges the other kids had because of how they were treated but Danny being ten thought this was fine.

The real issue was Gothams Paw Patrol (who absolutely hate being called that :3 ) they were always on thier case, Dannys especially. They kept insisting that the system could help them -Danny called bull. No one helped him or Jazz back in Amity and it was waaaay nicer that Gotham- and kept getting him and his fellow kids arrested. That didn't really matter. Anti-meta stuff never worked on him so getting himself the other kids out was no big deal.

After overhearing a conversation between Nightwing and one of the other bats a kid came into thier current secret base announcing that Nightwing was poor and the other bats weren't. This caught everyone attention. Appearently Nightwing was trying to establish himself outside of the colony cause he didn't get along great with whoever the bats super daddy was, which was fair. A lot of them were runaways for one reason or another and knew a bunch of reasons why you wouldn't want to except "free" money.

This led to them fetching Nightwings "wingdings" and batarangs instead of keeping them/selling them like they do with the others, sharing some of thier spoils with him like the groceries, jewelry, fancy clothes, ect that they stole.

Dick even catches one of the kids in his apartment in Bludhaven filling up his fridge which has him panicking about his secret id being compromised. Luckly the kids had only followed him there and didn't think to check who was on the lease or anything cause they assumed it would be a fake name or something.

Just Dick getting forcibly adopted by a child gang.

#dpxdc #fanfiction prompts #prompts #danny fenton #danny phantom #batman #nightwing #dick grayson #hes getting so many heart attacks huh #danny is a farel ten year old in this #robin at some point gets sucked into the child gang and the kids demand they teach them stuff #they promise to lead him to some place stray cats like to go to give birth if he does #bribery at its finest #jason is not on the bats side with this #red hood is an ally to the children

[quess-art]

I need D'Urge to be a companion 😭 Especially since he's canonical even when you create a custom Tav

(Some headcanons, some based on little snippets of dialogue from the game)

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #the dark urge #durge #orin the red #the feel when you were promised to be father's fav but this old lizard comes in and takes your grandpa's place as head of the murder house😔 #i love entitled murder baby orin vs what is with this sassy lost child durge #bhaalists gave durge that porcupine drip #when i showed this to my friend they called me a scaly... #girl i just drew a dragonborn wdym sexy??

[konigsblog]

overprotective older-boyfriend könig.

tw/cw; age difference/gap, possessiveness, slight dub-con, intoxication, blowjobs. MDNI 18+

older-boyfriend könig doesn't like the way younger men look at his girlfriend. he views them as competition, believes they'll snatch you away and take you for themselves.

könig can be pretty clingy, perhaps even needy depending on how you look at it. he craves your attention and love, will follow you around at parties to make sure you're protected, and will drag you into the bathroom for a quick blowy. he'll record you while you suck him off, your fingers barely meeting when they're wrapped around his girthy length, coating könig's dick in your sticky split and saliva.

“good job, little one. show me how in love you are with my cock, mäusi, please— there we go...” könig growls out drunkenly, perversely watching as you greedily swallow more than half of his meaty cock, his breathing heavy and laboured as he records.

older-boyfriend könig will shame and lecture you for coming home drunk, stumbling over your words and barely able to string a proper, coherent sentence together. you apologise profusely through tears and giggles, hiccuping and sniffling as könig orders you to lay down on the couch.

it's nearly a daily occurrence for könig to check your holes. he has to make sure you're not getting up to anything while he's gone, or that someone hasn't taken advantage of you while you're drunk.

“present yourself to me, liebling. c’mon, don’t be shy.” he encourages you with a greedy, perverted grin plastered on his face. you're so sensitive while you're drunk, he knows you'll obey him and will listen to whatever he says.

he'll push your damp panties to the side, wet with your sweet arousal, your folds slick and your sensitive clit sticky. he'll bury his face between your soft thighs, cleaning up the sticky, sloppy mess with his tongue, gazing up at you with heavy eyelids and lustful eyes, drunk off of the taste of your pleasure.

#orla speaks #könig #konig #konig x reader smut #konig x reader #könig x reader #könig x you #könig call of duty #konig mw2 #tw: age gap #tw: age difference #tw: dubcon #tw: intoxication #UGHH :(( i need this man to put me in my place #he'd be so cruel and condescending but he promises that he means well.

[fudgecake-charlie]

"rebelle painter has an in depth brush engine to simulate traditional painting techniques" is all well and good until you only use your digital painting method. at least the impasto is really pretty

#hi IRL if you see this i PROMISE i am going to start the commission i am just so procrastinationpilled #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft s10 #at least it's trying to be?? i kinda saw the leather get-up again and gave him leather chaps as i blacked out (/d) #if the quality is weird in some places blame the fact that i'm new to rebelle and the fact that i shrank the canvas down a lot to stop lag #this program is slightly a nightmare but i will get used to it... i will brave it for such nice textures #art out the oven #[scheduled]

[winters-rose-daughterofcain]

It's actually so important to me how flawed Penelope is you don't get it. She's complex and she's kind and sweet and caring and loving and bitter and manipulative and insecure and she's young and hurt and fucking up and making mistakes and hurting people and loving people and handling things in the worst way possible with the resources she has on hand and she's allowed to.

So often for a fat (and I say that within the context of the show, Pen is a fat/pus sized character within the narrative even if Nicola isn't) character to have any storyline outside of mother or joke they have to be the perfect victim. To be fat is to be victimised by society to some degree, it is to be told you are unloved and unwanted and unworthy without anyone saying those exact words, we all know this even if we don't want to except it. It's why almost every fat character is bullied in some way even if it's passed off as a joke, and they are just expected to take it because to actually acknowledge the pain and hurt and damage that causes is to acknowledge their humanity.

There is no space for complexity when you do not recognise the humanity of a character, there is no room for mistakes or grace or forgiveness in a narrative when the character is presented as lucky to simply be there. This goes doubly so for romance, as rare as it is to even see plus sized girls as a romantic lead, when they are there is no room for mistakes, the standards they are held to are so vastly different because they can't fuck it all up, they have no room to make mistakes when people question why they're even there in the first place.

But not Penelope. She fucks up so many times over, she creates half her own problems trying to fix things or make herself feel better. It dose not shy away from the damage and underlining issues and insecurities the life she has lead has left her with, and it's sympathetic to be sure, but what she dose with it isn't. Because fat people do not have to be the perfect victim and honestly most of the time are not. Because when you tell someone how little they are worth and how out of place and undesirable they are at every turn and expect them to internalise that, especially a young girl with very little power at her immediate despoil, it doesn't always come out in a very nice palatable way. It doesn't always create nice sweet uncomplicated people who cry a little when insulted but otherwise brush it off. It creates people like Penelope, it creates anger and resentment and bitterness and a need for control.

Whistledown is so many things, not all of them negative, but it is the cause of so many problems in her life after she made it as an attempt at a solution. It has caused her to hurt people and betray people and lose some of the very few genuine connections she actually has. She manipulates people and misleads them to keep her secret, because keeping a secret like that will always result in that. Her motives are sympathetic, she rarely dose anything to bad without reasoning, she has all the excuses in the world and still at the end of the day she fucked up. Her and Eloise are the second love story of the season for a reason. She adores that girl so much and she is absolutely miserable without her, as Eloise is without her. They love each other so much and there is so much pain between them now, they're practically crying every time they look at each other. And even tho the situation was complicated an messy and not completely her fault, she did in a way cause it. She's hurt people and she's hurt herself. And I love that.

Because she's a main character. We know her and Eloise will make up even if it isn't the way it was before (arguably a good thing but that's a different post.) Because she's a romantic lead, because we know, even if we don't know how they get there yet, that she will get her happy ending with the man she absolutely adores and who loves her just as much. It will not be easy I don't want it to be easy, Colin has every right to be angry and hurt and betrayed and he deserves to have the space to say whatever it is he's feeling and to have a negative reaction, but he will forgive her. Part of that is just because of who he is and the relationship he has to her (mandatory Colin appreciation moment) but it's also because the narrative has given her room and grace to be flawed.

There is so much to love about Penelope. She's so intelligent, and she's funny, she's a good listener, she makes people feel heard and important, she's kind, she's attentive, she's romantic, she's creative, she's beautiful. She is a victim and people and society do hurt her, but that's not all she is. She's given the space to be more and still be forgiven and loved just like anyone else. Because her actions is what she's apologising for not her existence. She dose not need to earn her place in a love story just because she's fat, it's her actually flaws and mistakes that exist in abundance no matter how sympathetic some of them might be, that she has to make up for. And I adore that and her.

You take away so much of her character and her agency and her complexity when you say she did nothing wrong or that she's the absolute devil. Let her be flawed, let her be someone trying their best and failing at it, let her make mistakes. But give her some grace, for once the narrative is. Her happy ending will come Bridgerton is a romance show, but she'll have to work for it. Colin and her will work for and earn their happy ending together, because they love each other and because of who they are and what they mean to each other they will find a way to make it work, but also because the writers let them and her find it.

#penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #polin #bridgerton #eloise bridgerton #bridgerton s3 #colin x penelope #lady whistledown #eloise x penelope #character analysis #meta #I love her so dearly but please let her be complicated #she's fuck up so so much guys it's okay to say lol #I know nuance is dead but please I beg you #to love her is to want to bash your head against a wall and take away her quill sometimes (affectionate) #this is not a safe place for Pen haters tho is that wasn't clear #if you hate this girl just block me for your own sake you won't like it here lol #not safe for Colin or Eloise haters either #let them be young and stupid and a little damaged and imperfect damn it #I'll stop posting about Bridgerton at some point I promise

[captain-flint]

Tommy skipped one (1) date with Buck, made him sad, then said I'm never doing that again

#bucktommy #bucktommyedit #911 #911edit #911 abc #tommy kinard #evan buckley #oliver stark #lou ferrigno jr #not me making the exact same gifset i made two weeks ago bc i wanted to include the harbor scene #bc buck's disappointed little face ruined my life #tommy actually went to his place to make amends and to kiss him silly #and promised to himself to always be there for buck no matter what #my stuff

[edorazzi]

Page 15 of my Miraculous Mentor AU comic A Matter of Trust! With a fleeting glance at some previous Miraculous holders... 👀

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Weekly updates each Sunday! You can also read ahead early on Patreon (which is getting THREE brand new pages tonight!), and/or buy me a Ko-fi if you'd like to support my work! 💖

#miraculous ladybug #mentor au #A Matter of Trust #felix sphinx #bridgette cheng #richard sphinx #herakles #ladybug of ancient egypt #josie's art #implying there are various miraculous in use around the world; NOT that egypt and greece are opposite sides of the globe lmao #just in case it reads that way; i promise i'm not dumb :'D #i imagine traditionally the miraculous should be kept at LEAST one country apart to avoid their magic clashing and upsetting everything :V #also i snuck the specific year in! felix and bri's story takes place in 1999 and the present day is 2014; so 15 years apart #only 30 and felix is already a grumpy old dad with a bad back :/

[spaceships-and-salty-air]

Doctor Who + Reductress Headlines (10/?)

I am not ready for the 60th! Have some reductress headlines I made to cope.

#this is so mean to ten but I promise it comes from a place of love #I just couldn't resist #also is it just me or is thirteen incredibly hot in the fourth photo? #doctor who #reductress #reductress headlines #tenth doctor #eleventh doctor #thirteenth doctor #amelia pond #twelfth doctor #rory williams #donna noble #clara oswald #thirteen x yasmin #yasmin khan #dhawan!master #the master #dw #guys I had a whole plan for this #60th anniversary countdown #there was going to be a theme #but life hit me like a fucking bus #so have a random assortment of shit that made me laugh this week

[amg3xik]

金閣は燃えているか

KinKi Kids Concert 2023-2024 Promise Placeへ。色々ありすぎた2023年の締め、そして年明けへ……

12/17、東京ドーム公演です

♡セットリスト♡

シュレーディンガー／Secret Code／99% LIBERTY／X-Day／Before Dawn／Through the night／BANANA／アン/ペア／もう君以外愛せない／Solitude～真実のサヨナラ～／銀色 暗号／硝子の少年／Kissからはじまるミステリー／シンデレラ・クリスマス／SNOW TEARS／さよならのエトランゼ（日替わりうろ覚え曲成仏コーナー）／世界中をI LOVE YOU／愛のかたまり／スワンソング／やめないで、PURE／愛されるより愛したい／全部だきしめて／フラワー／シュレーディンガー／無重力みたいな愛／Amazing Love

演出

開演前の洋楽、中心に見慣れたダサフォント、King & Princeみたいなタイトルロゴ、サイドに金色に輝く噴水と絵画フレームのようなものがあった。セットと同様にペンライトもシュレーディンガー仕様です。

オープニングでアメ車が登場したとき、うわ〜これめっちゃ往年で定番のジャニーズっぽいやつだ……と思った。OPだけで総額3億超えの演出だそうです。今年はカウコンがないことを寂しく思っていたけれどそれを払拭するかのような、我々の不安を取り除いてくれるかのような景気のいい演出でした。

剛、泣いてた

最後の挨拶でつよしくんが涙ぐみ後ろを向いていた

言えることは、美味しいもの食べて、睡眠とって、好きな仕事して、その先で俺が二人と逢えたらいいなと思ってるよということである。某恩師、某事務所とは全く関係がないことだが私も最近は毎日のように泣いていたので勝手にリンクしてしんみりしてしまった（心が"終わって"いること、お分かりいただけただろうか……）。あと終始髪を触ったりヘッドフォンを外したり付けたり落ち着かなかったので不安なのかなと思って観てました。

つよしくんがダンスもギターもやってくれる方が私としては嬉しいので、しんどかったら全編ダンスしなくてもええよという気持ちも内心ありました。勿論嬉しいことではあり、しんどそうに見えたということでもないし、どちらでも素晴らしいことだと思いますが……。つよしくんのことを気遣っているように見えてこれはただ個人的につよしくんがギターを弾くところが観たいという我儘です

あと、今年の堂本兄弟、久しぶりに光一さんがギター弾くところ観たなあという感じだったんですがそれがめちゃくちゃよかったので光一さんにもギター弾いてほしいです よろしくお願いします

おしゃべり

つよしくんが、自分に言われたはずの「ゆっくり休んでくださいね」をマネージャーに取られた気がして翌日検証までする話、面白かった。面倒くさすぎてかわいい。

「あっ！それで楽屋前でキャッキャしてたの？🤔」と勘づく光一さんだったが違ったらしく、「それはまた別で話します」と言いつつ結局分からずじまいだった

その後も堂島さんが曲を作っている最中の妄想とか、色々していて本当に面白かったです。俺はつよしくんが妄想を繰り広げている時間が結構好きなので……。それをボーっとした顔で聞いててつよしくんに怒られる光一さんもおもろかった。自分を美術館で展示されている彫像やゴッホの絵画に喩えるつよしくん「ゴッホ展来れてよかったね♡ちゃうねん😠とーくしょーをやっとんねん😠なんやいまの時間😠」

その後も光一さんが自分の持ちネタ（またごむ／検尿）の話を持ち出して本当にひどいですね〜アハハっつって次に移ろうとしたら「ちょっと待って？おれの話無いやん……😐」になるつよしくん。

つよしくんの楽屋の前にだけ警備員が立っていない話（2人まとめての警備員が光一さんの楽屋寄りに立っているということだと理解した）

こ「何があってもまず俺が襲われてから剛くんが襲われるから大丈夫」←全然大丈夫じゃない

つ「反対側から入ってきたらどうすんの」こ「ああ、あの螺旋階段の方から……そしたら強盗さんがどっちに入ろうか迷うから大丈夫」←これも全然大丈夫じゃなかったんだけど、そんなことより（強盗"さん"……？）に引っかかってしまっていつの間にかその話は終わっていた

音楽

光一さんが出とちったり歌を飛ばす度に落胆の気持ちでいっぱいだったが、マイクの調子が悪かったのかも知れない。音響もあまりふるわず、結構なストレスだったが、それでもうろ覚え曲成仏コーナーのために直前に渡されたさよならのエトランゼ譜面を格好よく演奏してくれるバンドの皆さまは健在でとてもかっこよかったです。いつもありがとうございます……。

うろ覚え曲成仏コーナー

YouTubeでちゃんとした歌唱上げてくれる約束をしてくれるのがせめてもの救いの、公式による大失礼コーナーである。しかし他のアーティストもわざわざ言わないだけで、全然忘れてる曲とかあるんだろうな。わざわざ言わないだけで。でもさよならのエトランゼを聴けたのは本当よかったです、めちゃくちゃよかった

歌詞カードを怒りながら雑に渡すという演出をスタッフにつける光一さん「めっちゃおもろいやん🤣」とご機嫌だった

「SNOW TEARS」という報われない曲も輝きを取り戻していたので、今後も報われないうろ覚え曲たちを積極的に披露して欲しい……と星に願った

世界中をI LOVE YOU

タイトル見たときもハロ研の曲かな？と思ったし公演中に説明を聞いたときもマジでハロ研の曲なのかな……と思ったけど全然そんなことはなかった、めちゃくちゃつよしくんが書いた詞だ……と思った。そしてその詞とダンサー演出含め「マジでやってんの？」と思ってた光一さんウケる

バックに流れる映像が完全にパチンコ大当たり確定演出みたいな感じだった、最近の曲で一番謎だったかも知れない。今これ書いてても全然記憶に残ってない。次の公演では目と耳かっぽじって脳裏に焼き付けます。色彩と書いていろと読ませていた歌詞だけ覚えてます

合作曲振り返りムービーがまたこれもパチンコの確定演出みたいだった。今から考えれば、ここのBGMで流れてた曲、Pアル×シュレーディンガー購入特典の合作曲メドレー配信で歌った曲だった気がする。

そこから愛のかたまり以降のセトリが非常に最高でブチ上がりました。薔薇と太陽でなく（いや勿論やって欲しい曲の内の一つではあるが）やめPUREで火の演出を持ってくるのかなりイカしてたな〜

アンコールの声が全然揃っていないという話から、「もう一回最初からやり直すぞ！！！」って光一さんが言った後に本当にシュレーディンガーで始��るの、ループ世界に迷い込んだ感があって楽しかった。

薔薇と太陽が落選した一方で、Amazing Loveは早くもセトリ常連みたいな顔をしてトリで披露されていた。達郎曲のキンキコンセトリの食いっぷり、いやうれしいんですよ、うれしいんだけども、その分うろ覚え曲がまた増えていくということでもある。

明日のピース、99%みたいに特別扱いでNHKで歌ってくれないかな……

KinKi Kidsさんへ いつも精神の隣にいてくれて、ありがとう……

#美 #Promise Place #東京ドーム

[melly-artes]

Everytime i see someone post a Kieran with a big candy apple I’m reminded of propeller hat kid with big swirly lollipop so I made him real

#pokemon #trainer kieran #pokemon sv #i exend a hand to you and place this gently in your palm #I will not return for another 2 weeks i promise

[tangledinink]

Is there a usagi in Gemini Au?

If there is, is leo and usagi together?

the gemini.

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#as per my campaign promises~ #since you guys were such rockstars and we tied HERE #new mini comic series abt gemini usagi :3c #this comic takes place prior to the main comic #gemini au #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #tmnt 2018 #rottmnt separated au #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rottmnt usagi #rise usagi #leosagi #yuichi usagi #rottmnt fanart

[buggachat]

Hmm, sorry guys, I might skip posting beau today. Had an arm cramp last night and it’s not too bad, but I think I’d like a day to recover a little

#bakery enemies au #I have more parts done! but uh I may have rearranged them a little bit so there’s an incomplete part wedged in between the complete parts #it’s mostly done but is coming up soon and I figured a break now would be better since the last part is an ok stopping place #again there are a lot of finished parts so I promise this won’t turn into an extended hiatus 😭 #ALSO YALL EVER HAD A CHARLIE HORSE BUT IN YOUR ARM??? IT SUCKS LMAO I NEED TO DRINK MORE WATER

[mrtequilasunset]

Whenever I talk about Kim and Harry getting married I inevitably get people in my notes saying things like "they wouldn't get married because no one is married in Revachol anymore" which like sure but also that is definitely a doomer hyperbole. Judit is married, plaisance is married, and Billie and Tommy. Lilienne was married too, and so was Trant. Plenty of people get married in Revachol, and besides that, we know that Harry *wants* to be married. He wanted Dora to be his wife. He still refers to her as his ex-wife and is so incredibly disappointed when he finds out she wasn't. Jean said "no one is married anymore" and that's become like some irrefutable Canon people have adopted but you have to remember Jean is one of the most miserable cunts in the game, of course he's gonna be pessimistic about this *especially* since it was said to Harry, the guy he spends most of the game antagonizing.

I guess my point is that I refuse to believe Harry wouldn't want Kim to wife him up first chance they get just because of a grumpy ass comment made by a dude with the world record for largest stick up ass.

#I promise you its okay to let your faves be sappy I promise you marriage is not actually a crazy concept #just bc the fictional city is a hard fuckin place to live #disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #kimharry #jean vicquemare #and I'll give a little grace just bc maybe yeah they couldnt get married because of homophobia #but not because no one gets married period #thats a goofy take