#OK IM GONNA FUCKING SLEEP NOW

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

saw @chez-cinnamon's absolutely BANGER butterfly!Howdy design and couldn't resist! two fluffy flutterbyes <3 solidarity

#still unsure of Why this was the only pose that came to mind but! who am i to deny the brain what it wants #i also have no idea what it is about butterflies and mullets + extra fluff #it just feels Right. #oh also if you haven't checked out chez-cinnamon's Real World au uhhhh Go Do That!!! #its fun! its funky! its fresh! its got a lot of great art! its got a Comic! #emphasis on a Lot Of Great Art! #i will admit im emotionally invested in the plot. its reeled me in. im Fascinated by it #also(x2) i Cannot get over how swagtastic that butterfly howdy design is #like!!! look at it!!! the colors the patterns the WINGS agh the wings <3<3<3 #truly a unique and creative design that im totally not jealous of ahaha what- #kidding im Kidding. or am i... i am i am #scribble garnish #yassified howdy <3 #welcome home #alrighty its officially 2 am i needed to be asleep uhhhhh three hours ago #gonna queue this up and conk out. while lovingly thinking of chez-cinnamon's butterfly howdy my fucking GOD #cant get over how Gorgeous he is #the facial patterns.... the colors.... immaculate #top tier design i am Taking Notes #ok ok sleeping now. Sleeping. snz snork mimi and all that. etc

[gatzbright]

[october] one year of togetherness.

@/dreamsecretclub: dteam Christmas won’t be happening unfortunately, thought I’d say before that way Christmas can still be great :) totally out of our control unfortunately, can’t wait for the future still :)) 2022 incoming ♥️♥️

Dream: I'm gonna expose George's feelings on his behalf ... He was just saying, he was like, 'I think I'm depressed', and we were like 'What do you mean?' and he was like, 'I don't know. I don't do anything, and no one's here, and I just wanna come to the US'. And Sapnap was like, 'Well, what if I came to the UK?' and George was like, 'You should'. And then Sapnap went and filed for his passport the next day.

Dream: Because George hasn't got his visa yet, Sapnap's going to the UK. Sapnap: Fine. I'll go. [Dream Team laughs] Dream: So, unfortunately, Sapnap's getting the first George hug. [George Laughs] Sapnap: I'm getting the first George hug.

Dream: I feel like if George isn't here by, like—I wanna be like, 'Well, next month'. I feel like if George isn't here by September, my like, mental health will take a dive. Massively. And that sounds like, fucked, but it's one-hundred percent true.

Dream: You will see the fact that George, um—George's reaction to seeing me ... We said when he got his visa he could FaceTime me, so, stuck to the plan. Not saying anymore because you have to wait for the meetup video.

Dream: You sure you don't want to wait to see me in person? George: I'm ready. I've got my camera set up—I'm all ready to go! Dream: I guess I just, I wasn't expecting this. I'm gonna go look in a mirror and make sure I don't look like trash. I'll be right back! George: [laughs] Okay ... Oh my god.

George: After years of waiting, I was finally going to America.

Sapnap: Dream? Dream: Yeah? Sapnap: Clay? Dream: Oh god. Sapnap: I brought him. He's here. You excited? Dream: I am ... very nervous. Sapnap: Nervous but excited. Dream: I'm nervous, but I'm excited! I'm doing excited hops. Sapnap: It's a big day—an exciting day! ... Take your time. This is big stuff. He's going to be living here forever.

@/GeorgeNotFound: Just met Dream!! :)

“This doesn’t even feel real,” George says in the video — a sentiment he reiterates to Variety when asked about how he felt in the moment. “The sun was directly behind him, and it was blinding me, and he had an aura about him.” 

George: It's so bright, I can't even see you. You're like a—you're like a god with the sun behind you!

George: I guess I gotta go get my bags in, and time to live in the Dream House. Dream: The Dream Team House!

@/GeorgeNotFound: why didnt you post the one where you actually kissed me?

dream @/dreamwastaken: just felt better leaving things up for larger interpretation

George: Look it's Dream, and Sapnap. It's all of us!

Dream: [softly to George] Rise and shine. We're home.

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#WAAAAAAAH HAPPY ANNIVERSARY OF MEET UP AND FACE REVEAL GEORGE IN FLORIDA DREAM TURNS ONE YEAR OLD DAY !!!!!!!!! #ijust spent four hours on this holyfuckdbdhf my brain rn #I WANNA FINSIH A FIC FOR TOMROROW/TODAY TOO. it is 3:30am i thinki should Sleep thoand sdothat tomorrow #mygod #this iss o satisfying to look at now #the references are always so god damn long but i LOVE DOING THEM no matter how much of a pain they are bc its like hey. h ey look dnf real #dnf is R eal bc LOOK. LOOK LOOOOOK. (also we're gonna ignore the formatting of the referencing bc it fucked up Many times IM NOT FIXINGAGA #ok thanksfor ur attention enjoy goonight mwah <3333333 #dnf #dreamnotfound #web weaving #compilations #my webs

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

absence of color

#my art lol #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #vocaloid art #vocaart #oliver vocaloid #vocaloid oliver #flower vocaloid #vocaloid flower #v4 flower #v flower #utatane piko #piko utatane #piko vocaloid #muted colors #you know what fuck it lets post this now uuuuuagh. oag #ehehe :) #I HAVE GOTTEN NOTHING DONEEEE THIS WEEKEND well ig this but NOTHING PRODUCTIVEE I MEAN im gonna be so fucked this week auGHHH #given the literal mental break i had a few days ago tho i mean i think i deserve to relax a little. let me draw the depressed scrunglies ok #im not gonna say anything else rn cause otherwise ill overanalyze and pick out the flaws in here and also I SHOULD SLEEP NOWWW ok bye

[razzafrazzle]

[image description: a drawing of two human versions of mountain dew flavors. the first is sweet lightning, who is a chubby light-skinned woman with freckles, a noticable overbite, and curly blonde hair pulled into a ponytail. she is wearing a white button-up shirt, a matching yellow and light red checked jacket and skirt, a light red ribbon tied around her neck, white over the knee socks, and black slip-ons. blurbs around her mention that she has a southern accent, calls everyone sugar, and was childhood best friends with a different character, baja blast. the other character in the drawing is flamin' hot. she is a lanky, pale-skinned women with ratty bright red hair, facial piercings, and a gold tooth. she is wearing an ill-fitting white tanktop and open flame-print button up shirt that are tucked into a pair of baggy, slightly ripped jeans. she has noticeable body hair and a bandage wrapped around her hand, and is also smoking a cigarette. around her are blurbs that mention that she coughs a lot and has a tattoo on her shoulder that consists of a red heart with the word "milfs" in the center. theres also a blurb that mentions that both aforementioned characters are the same age. end id]

MORE OF THEM!!!!

#lord forgive me but More Mtn Dykes #ohugh these two fucked up my hand and made me tired. very rude of them i think #ok im gonna sleep now i need to #look at them. ya #doc talks #my art #my characters #mtn dykes

[atlasshrugd]

CALLING ALL FANFIC WRITERS.

tits up bitches. now that the show is over us midgelenny truthers are going to need COMPENSATION. a will to live, if you will. those who have seen the finale will know which scenes need to be expanded upon. i am going to need fix-it’s, multi-chapter canon divergence, a whole spinoff as long as the torah. we need reinforcements. gather all your friends and double down. ALL BETS ARE OFF.

#PLEASE #PLEASE I NEED FICS WRITTEN BY Y'ALL TALENTED PPL WHO HAVE MASTERED THE SHOW LINGO SO WELL #YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE #I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP AT NIGHT #THIS IS NOT A LUXURY BUT A NECESSITY #QUIT YOUR JOBS #THIS IS YOUR PURPOSE NOW #I NEED FLUFF ANGST SMUT BANTER HAPPY ENDINGS PLEASE #OH GOD IM GONNA LOSE IT #im not ok after that finale as u can see #tmmm #WHAT AM I GOING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY FRIDAY HUH #FUCK #the marvelous mrs. maisel #tmmm finale #tmmm s5 #tmmm s5 finale #midgelenny #mine

[girlwiththegreenhat]

the fallout tv series is THE best screen adaptation of a Video Game... ever.

#liz blogs #fallout #fallout tv series #look out there will be spoilers in the tags. im gonna put spoilers in the tags i am buffering it so you ahve the opportunity to leave #fallout tv spoilers #leave now. go away. shoo #ok. I AM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS MAKES THE FNAF MOVIE LOOK LIKE SHIT #AND THE FNAF MOVIE WAS *EXTREMELY GOOD.* HOLY GOOD VIDEOGAME ADAPTATIONS BATMAN I AM GOING INSANE #I CANNOT BELIEVE THEY CONFIRMED WHO DROPPED THE BOMBS. ALL I DID PACKING ORDERS FOR BLACK FRIDAY WAS #BINGE FALLOUT LORE VIDEOS ASKING WHO DROPPED THE FIRST BOMBS AND I FUCKING KNEW IT WAS--. YKNOW #AND FALLOUT NEW VEGAS IS FINALLY GETTING SOME FUCKING RECOGNITION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HANK YOU BITCH STAY AWAY FROM MY CITY #WE'RE GOIGN BACK TO VEGAS WE'RE PROBABLY GETTING A CANON ENDING. IT HAD BETTER BE WILDCARD I SWEAR TO GOD #SHOW ME YES MAN !!!!!!!!! SHOW ME THE SECURITRONS #OGHHHH GOD I FUCKING HATE THE BROTHERHOOD #4 AM I CANT SLEEP IM FUCKING VIBRATING #I HAD HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR ONCE AND I AM *STILL* IMPRESSED. HELLO !!!!!!!!!!! HELLO. OH MY GOD. #IM INSANNEEEEE im insane im insane im insane. i am so insane. i am crazy. #(robert house comes on screen) '' i am going to beat that man to death with a golf club '' #ohhh my god i want to play fallout new vegas again so badly. holy shit #i wonder if i have time to make some fallout art prints before anime central #holy shit. holy shit oh my god i haven't been this excited about a show since like... steven universe. oh my god im insane

[whiterunguard]

If hes not a girl why does he wear a skirt..... Checkmate. imperial libberals .... HA!

#talking #skyrim #shitpost #general tullius #what if i peeled all of my skin off and turned it into a handbag. what then #i really hate this fucking guy #i wish he would drop dead #genuinely i want nothing more than to see him burn in fucking hell for all of eternity #im going to put him in a blender and turn it on #im going to dangle him over a pit of sharks and cut the rope #im going to drop a comically large anvil on his head #im going to put on knife shoes and stomp him to death #i hate you general tullius i wish you nothing but misery and pain and sand #sadness not sand #whatever i hope you get sand too dipshit. all in your fucking shoes you pathetic worm #i bet he cries himself to sleep at night #everybody beat general tullius with hammers #NOW NOW NOW #KILL THIS DISGUSTING CRETIN WITH BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA TO THE BODY AND HEAD #hey btw im the most normalest guy in the world #you can trust me #ive never said anything strange or perhaps peculiar in my entire lifetime #and this is a fact #so i think you should um. believe im the regular person on this planet Earth #and nothing is more true ok #maybe i do hold a little disdain for this weird thing. hmm. sooo what. #so what if i put out a little bit of peanut butter with rat poison in it to kill him huh. so what #what are YOU gonna do about it. hmm. yeah nothing #that's what i fucking thought.

[rexscanonwife]

Uorrgghh....good afternoon everypony 😂 I've been conditioned to feel really guilty about sleeping in too late, but today seriously felt like

#jane journals #not self ship #silly #urgghh gotta get up...gotta. do stuff #dont wanna. bed comfy 😂😂😂 #to be fair i drank quite a bit last night and went to bed around oh...5am o_o #its my weekend leave me alone!!! #ive been called lazy and scolded for sleeping in by family but im trying rly hard to unlearn it #ive made progress!! #and i get up on time when it's important like work or appointments and junk #actually now that i think about it ive been told 'dont think youre gonna just sleep all day' when i was SICK with STREP THROAT #theyre the ones who are fucked #ok enough of that im getting up now

[bunnihearted]

🦭

#ok lol my social worker called me nd talked a little but so now i know they've approved it lmao. #ok i can relax abt that for now.. i still need a job tho 🥶 #im not even against having a job like PLEASE i want one #i want to be financially independent #im good at saving nd stuff like plz plz #but yeah im 25 w no experience plus i have avpd so idek how to practically find a job #i just dont know. i realize that sounds stupid but my disorder is ssly limiting me 😭 #fuck. still dont know if i can sleep bc im so stressed abt everything #also got me thinking abt how i dont wanna get old. like genuinely i dont want it #i want to be 50 max nd thrn im done. wnna blow my brains out lol #after my mom passes away (when shes old it's gonna be at least 40 more years!!!!!) im finished #so i want to live for the moment i rlly do. i want to fit as much good as i can now #plus global warming.. i rlly dont think life as we know it now will last that long #so anyway.. too much anxiety wtfffff idk what to do lol

[chososluv]

and when i write a part two where work husband!nanami turns into your actual man who fucks you slow and passionate missionary style after long days of work thats a stress reliever for both of you…

#and hes def slutting you out with champagne and treating u like a queen. #which actually starts you fucking him cow girl and he eventually takes you missionarg #missionary*…. oh im drafting as we speak #i need to go to bed omg gmfmdd but this is gonna be so fun to write #ok sleeping fr now #༄𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 #‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.k.nanami #nanami smut

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the picnic table scene

#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that #but FUCK was i writing this morning #man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit #this fic might get done after all... #i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS; #THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE #YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT #THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH #ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed #absolutely unprompted #throwing myself to the ground and howling #who do i need to BITE #oh 7 am me we're really in it now #literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up #if that was something i could do lmao #fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing #anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane #which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3 #slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown

[ghostbonetv]

That generation really did loose huh?

#ranboo #ranboolive #generation loss #genloss #genloss spoilers #art #my art #its 1 am help im so tired fuck i need water and like sleep #i am very proud of this and happy with how it turned out #ok im gonna pass out now

[dont-be-late-to-the-dance]

Tried to get back into my Serrennedy childhood friend AU. And if I am allowed to be very personal on main for a moment, I think my being unable to work on a fic where Leon has a shit load of trauma because of my trauma is Something

And I'm realizing there's probably a lot more to unpack than I thought. I thought the reason trying to reread any of it and working on the draft for the next chapter was simply because I wrote it while in the traumatic situation, so it reminded me of it.

I didn't ever intentionally channel what I was going through into the fic… but it slipped in. Leon's hair not being washed often enough. One of the many, MANY traumatic things that happened this year was our landlord illegally having our water shut off, which we pretty much just lived with because we didn't think it was worth fighting. So I did go an extended period of time without bathing. (We had a gym membership where we could shower, but I have sensory issues with showers so :/)

Leon having no one except Luis. That's not a more specific trauma, but I've struggled with feeling lonely for a long ass time now, and the more recent big trauma fest definitely worsened the problem, because literally no one knows the full extent of it. I can't really talk about it because some of it is stuff that's been slowly building for years and the trauma dumps would have their own trauma dumps. Even with a couple close friends, that already know the background and wouldn't need all the context, I haven't felt like I could talk about it because a lot of the most traumatic elements are almost entirely self inflicted, which makes it embarrassing to admit to. (Things would have been traumatic no matter what, but it could have been significantly less traumatic.)

The dirty hair and loneliness are currently the only connections to my personal trauma that I'm aware of, but I'm certain more of it slipped in that I'd notice if I reread all of it. After having the realization about those, I just had to close everything I had open related to it because I'm just. Not ready to unpack all of that.

I think unpacking it will be necessary and therapeutic, but it'll be messy and probably get worse before it gets better, and the one very amazing event that served as my lifeline to keep going and not just give up on life when I was in the thick of the bad situation is in less than a week, and there's absolutely no way I'm going to risk jeopardizing my enjoyment of it by falling apart before it.

#i feel bad putting this in the main ship tags but i really need to get this off my chest #it's been festering for a long while #serennedy #serrennedy #rlly wish i was a fictional character so someone would make a post psycho analyzing me #bc the childhood friend AU is def a unique convergence of a Lot of trauma bc it's the only one that hits me so fucking hard #seriously it hits me HARD. ugly sobbing every time ive tried to revisit it. even tho other things w pieces of trauma don't do that to me #the piece of the rockstar AU that has luis sleeping in his car because he was evicted? absolutely 100% certified Heather's Trauma™ moment #and yet the rockstar au just makes me HAPPY. no tears #ok im done w this topic now. gonna get off here and have a geddy lee therapy session #(letting myself ugly cry while listening to a specific rush song) tonight but tomorrow will be happy #god i hope i don't wake up embarrassed i posted this tho

[dizzybizz]

we have these baubles with a bunch of our family's names written with these glitter glue pens or whatever they are

and this time around my mom changed mine to my new name

and i kinda wanna cry about it

cause i walked down the stairs to the living room and i saw them all resting on towels and drying

i sat down on the couch to just look them over

i was searching for my bauble but i tried to act like i wasn't, don't think i was actually too subtle about it but i pretended

there were baubles with the names of our pets, half siblings, nephews and i found mine

and my mom had changed it

i had a hunch she might've, it's just like her to do something like that

but idk i guess it just kinda really drove home the point that i am accepted and this is all real? it's not some elaborate daydream or something i came up with after fantasizing about coming out and all

im just feeling some trans joy

sorry it's 4am i can't sleep but i am thinking and feeling and my family accepts me and im just overwhelmed with it all and ahshdjfjfjshhdnffmmgvm..... y'know

#i kinda wanna draw about it but again. its 4am. go the fuck to sleep why dont you #also i am so fkn hungry help #shit now i got fkn period cramps too this sucks ass and not in the fun way auhhgg #im gonna get smth to drink n eat i think. i think i should #<- why is this the kinda shit i ramble abt in the tags on a post like this wth???? 😭💀💀💀 #ok no imigght fall asleep actually

[cognitosclowns]

IM SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW

#inside job spoilers #screencaps #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MY FUCK!! #IM GATHERING GIGI ONES RN #SHES GOT WAY MORE TIME IN THE EP SO ITS TAKING LONGER SDNSMDNS #BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAA #OH.... MY GOD... OH MY GOD. OH /MY/ GOD #IM SO UNHINGED RN #earlier I was like 'mhm im gonna sleep at a reasonable time wake at 6 and then watch ij' #I witnessed my husband and now my brain is just 'ok 2 hrs until ij might as well stay up' #MSNDSM who know i may pass out before then idk #ANYWAYS HAVE SOME SCREENCAPS IVE MISSED HIM SO MUCH #hearing his voice was like surfacing for air while swimming AAAAA <333 BABIE IVE MISSED U SO MUCH!!! #ALSO HIS LITTLE EXPRESSION OF 'oh shit' WHEN THE NANOBOTS COME UP??? SO FUCKING GOOD #OK ON TO GIGI LOVE YALL MWA MWA

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated