#Nd an hour away

[girlwithfish]

i need 2 buy hovvdy tickets i keep saying i want to c them live nd then when they actually r touring here im indecisive abt it >_<

#Its just blehh cuz its like during finals wwek almaot so idk #Nd an hour away #Me complaining hkw i never do anything then not wanting to do anything slay #ok no i will do it

[zer0point5ive]

thinking about adam actively seeking comfort from lawrence even after lawrence shot him. holding on to lawrence. begging him to stay. upsets me greatly ..

#sorry boss i cant make it tonight i gotta get real sad about a couple of very specific things nd then stare at a wall. yeah its an #all night thing #saw 2004 #chainshipping #lawrence gordon #adam stanheight #adam faulkner stanheight #adam had nothing. then he had something for a few hours. nd then that was ripped away from him too #lawrence had someone who saw him. who he couldnt hide from. & then he didn’t. didn’t have adam or anyone. #sick to my stomach ! #📹

[bunnihearted]

🏥🦷

#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts :// #idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt.. #i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw.... #nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭 #idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know..... #oh if only things were easy

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT. #anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure. #and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone. #i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:(( #honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug. #im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

[vulpinesaint]

it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real

#we have the same kind of depression 👍 but also. i can see so clearly that that's the way i would be if i still thought i was a girl. #and i had grown up to get married to someone and tried to be a woman and a mother like that. god... #edna pontellier hold on. i'm going out into the sea with you. we'll drown together. #laura brown from the hours on my kin list 👍 #need to reread the hours so bad. opened up my copy of it to check if laura had killed herself at the end or not for this post #and just skimming the last few chapters made me tear up. god. but there are still the hours aren't there? one and then another... #and then you get through that one and then my god there's another... #um. books that make you go 'okay so maybe i have wanted to kill myself a little bit all these years. but maybe i'm going to be okay' #the book ever honestly it is Everything to me #and kate chopin's the awakening is good as well. much to be said about the depiction of people of color in that novel #but the depiction of edna pontellier's mental state is so. ough. #glances at the ratings on goodreads nd stuff have made me so irritated. #god forbid a woman commit the ultimate selfish sin of leaving her children behind because she's so miserable by killing herself. #because far worse than the thought that she could be losing all her personhood moment by moment #and wasting her life away feeling like a shell of a person #pales. in comparison to the thought that she could POSSIBLY abandon the children she didn't really want to have. #of course it's a bad situation for the kids. sorry to raoul and etienne. but they will survive. #condemning the main character for having the audacity to go off and die... sickening. i hate people #valentine notes

[tillman]

#mea nd violet spending like multiple hours having a conversation about how gg stories are handled #adm coming away from #it with this single image. #txt

[yumethefrostypanda]

John Price in Amsterdam 🇳🇱

He looks soo good! And that in my home country ^_^ The whole mission looked beautiful and very accurate!

#captain john price #captain price #john price #jonathan price #actual #bravo 0-6 #senpai #call of duty #modern warfare 2 #cod mw2 #my ingame shots #also cool that barry and some of the cast 'nd crew went to amsterdam for mw2! #a'dam is about oneandahalf hour drive away from where i live #now the netherlands is not that big #still cool they included amsterdam in the campaign #and yeahh holland and it's export ...

[formula-red]

all f1 has taught me is that i love villainous men.

rbr seb? villainous. peak schumi? villainous. fernando alonso? villainous. nico rosberg? villainous.

me? in desperate need of a psych eval

#and fucking 12 hours of sleep #someone take f1 away from me i s2g #f1:text #f1:nd #schumi #seb #nando #nico #f1 #jdsown

[johnmeowston]

(said with unshed tears in eyes) miss me with that gay shit

#i hate telling people i miss them bc idk. makes me sound like a loser like ohhpookie bear i miss you🥺🥺🥺 #but like to be Real i do in fact miss them. iwish i could drive those gahdamn 8 hours 2 them!! just 2 say hi!! #idk. felt like evn tho they were physically here for only abt like. a year i feellike theyre a big part of!! my life!! #nd neow theyre 1000 million miles away and we can only text nd call like ohhhh. maybe i am a leetol sad #txt #SORRY lol just being a weirdo

[bonedoor]

i almost reprogrammed (not the word. but) the delivery for me to just pick it up at the distribution center but im glad i didnt bc this package is terrifying its so big its so heavy

#nd the closest center i could choose is like 2 hours away w like multiple busses i think ? #millie talks

[girlwithfish]

exhausted yayyy :3

#again! #Last two hours r worst part of the day lol. i get left alone w like 8 kids then it goes down to 5-6 and they become a nightmare idk whyyy #they hit each other sm fight over toys cry when i take a toy away from them or when i played a baby shark video for them #they cried after i wouldnt play more videos its soooo #Frustrating ig #this one girl n boy r always beefing w eacj other i s2g😭 #she was pushing hrr body against his against a door and i told her to move and like gently moved her off him and then she tripped and fell #and started crying which pbv i felt bad abt but it wasnt rly my fault like babies just fall alllcthe time nd i def didnt push her or move #her roughly at all but i still feel bad and a parent was there too and comforted her for me even tho i didnt rly ask her to so i kind of #feel like embarrassed idk cuz i cld have done it lol. (it wasnt her parent a diff parent etc lol) #Idk. #Its annoying they like turn into demons by the last hour or two bc its the end of the day. cant get them to etop hitting each other #Ugh. #Idk #whateverrr

[cocogoat]

im tired and cold and wet and covered in dirt and sore and miserable and--

#◯ ༚ 。🍓 valentine.times #we're in the car on the way home now #but i cried both nights andit thunderstormed last night and its STILL raining #im overstimulated bc of the dirt and im just . crying pathetically in the backseat of the car #i had to sleep in the car last night because i got too cold and there were rocks under my tent and #too many bad things i just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry #there were apparently moose in the area ? a mom nd a calf so . super dangerous . #also bears . nd bobcats . #but nothing showed up except chipmunks so that was ok but like . the stress of knowing abt that . #only good thing that was there was the fact there were a ton of flowers #i Tried to enjoy myself but there was . arguing . and too much talking going on i was overwhelmed the whole time #im sorry u guys didnt ask for an update thats just me complaining im rly sorry if u read all this #im just . miserable and want a shower and a nap #but we're hours away from home

[bunnihearted]

📓🖊️🧸

#i feel so lonely now bc i have no one to talk to sksksk #my sisters gets mad whenever i try to talk 2 mom and she just slammed doors nd got irritated at me #nd my mom is so stressed nd in a bad mood so she just got annoyed when i tried saying smth to her #so ig i should just vent to my bestfriend beloved diary confidant thats been here for me for 5yrs<3333 #anywayyy today was rough.. i woke up w a headache after 3hrs of sleep :(( #but still had to get up nd get ready nd eat boxed mashed potatoes for breakkyy 🤢🤮 (it's so gross after eating it everyday lol) #then w my hunchback nd achy stomach i went to school. it was frustrating bc ppl r so fkn rude #they bumped into me at the bus nd i had to sit like a weirdo caging my left stomach side from everyone. had to elbow some dumb fkn guy bc he #pressed his backpack into my side. so i had to basically push it away from me lol he thought i was so weird. but move tf away asshole?????? #got to school nd checked myself in the mirror nd i was so pale i look like absolute garbage its annoying :(( #it was next to insufferable to endure class bc my head hurt so bad (it was the worst part i think) nd i couldnt sit up straight so my back #hurt so bad too sksksks :< #but i managed to write a little but on my assignment #then i left a bit earlier bc i couldnt stand it anymore i was feeling so bad #wrnt to the library bc i had to return some books. could only carry two small ones tho so have to go back multiple times sksksk #felt soooo bad but ate some more disgusting mashed potatoes nd took a nap w an ice pack. took a migraine pill even if it upsets my stomach🤣 #now a few hours later i feel better physically #buuuuuut im so miserable im not even kidding #idc if it sound pathetic or fatty but genuinely that moment w a cup of coffee nd a small chocolate treat everyday makes me feel sm better #like im not kidding!!!!! it does a lot for my peace of mind sksksk T-T #im so miserable bc i cant eat anything still im so hungry :(( #and im weak. im pale. my skin's dry. it's itchy bc of malnutrition... i feel faint nd dizzy nd slow nd just not good at all #im so frustrated i hate this sm i wanna feel strong and healthy!! i dont wanna be constantly hungry. i wanna go to the gym nd go for walks #i wanna be able to sit up straight nd not get back pain!!! #i know i know it's only been 8 days since surgery and it takes time to heal i get it..... :( #but theres just too much going on and im so sick and tired of it all #mostly i just wanna be able to eat and feel strong bc i feel so weak nd i miss food so much sksksksk

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

freaked up self harm culture is, having harmed oneself about six times in the last two days in a visible place, intending to do it again so that it looks like it was just once and really bad, then claiming it was in fact once, so that family won't be as concerned

#tw sh #personal #puddleglum hours #only one person has noticed so far bc ive hidden it successfully so far #she gave me this Look and said 'have you been burning yourself again' #yes ma'am and i am very glad you're away for Christmas now because it's a Lot worse now than it was when you saw it #i might get actual dressing for it tho so i can hide it from my parents and claim it's not as bad as it is bc if they see how it is they'll #know it wasn't an accidenta nd i don't want them worrying about that

[nogchompa]

Btw it was me making 3 of my coworkers a blt (after 3 meads and 2 screwdrivers) in the kitchen and bringing them down 4 them 2 all laugh at how obviously plastered i was in throwing a randomly chopped tomato and like 4 leaves of lettuce on one and a single leaf on the other and a hamfist of bacon on each one just bc they all said they were drunk n hungry n i was like YES . I NEED TO HELP MY FRIENDS !!! & we all laughed at it but they still ate it and we still talked deeply abt a lot of very improtant n heartfelt shit that ill never ever forget i hope .

#999 #vino was there nd he ws tlking abt when his stepdad passed away n his mom was like . i need u 2 b strong 4 me bc i cant b strong 4 myself #and it rlly hurt . buy like in the way where i felt how muvh it hurt god i wished i cld have just held him 4 hours #i care about hi.m and i cant help it

[shaguro]

⤿ synposis: you can't ever leave the house without giving toji a kiss good-bye.

ੈ✩‧₊˚ tags: fluff fluff fluff. (toji x fem!reader, established relationship, pet names used ( girl, baby, doll) toji's just in love idk. i wrote the majority of this at like 1 am nd barely proofread!!) wc ⇀ around 0.7k!

"girl", toji drawls, cerulean orbs trained on your figure by the front door. he’s manspread on your living room sofa, sitcom on the tv screen long forgotten as he turns his body around, all his attention on you and only you. “aren’t you forgettin’ somethin’?”

“hmm? what are you talking about, baby?” you keep your head low while you fumble with your stilettos, a hand on the wall for balance as you finally slip it onto your stocking-clad foot, the last step before you head out for your shift, the sun just peeking over the horizon.

of course, you know exactly what toji’s talking about. it doesn’t matter where you’re going or whether you’ll be back in ten minutes or a few hours, whether he’s in deep sleep or in the middle of an intense workout session — toji expects a kiss good-bye before you leave the apartment you share. he’s real strict about it too, he doesn’t accept any excuses, no if’s, an’s or buts.

does knowing all this stop you from testing the dark-haired man? absolutely not.

“i packed my work-bag last night and i have the car keys right here, looks like i’ve got-“

“now you know that’s not what i’m talkin’ about,” toji deadpans, completely unamused. barely keeping up the act, you had to bite your lip to stop yourself from giggling. “don’t play dumb with me, baby.”

you do just that — tilt your head all cute and innocent as you furrow your brows, crossing your arms against your blouse. “i’m being serious though! i dont know what you’re talking about, i swear.”

“girl, please.” toji scoffs, scarred lip almost turned in a scowl. he’s always so sassy when you start to annoy him. “ya really stress me out, y’know that?” in a quick motion, he stands up, stretching out his long arms before he turns to face you. “you don’t know, huh? c’mere and let me remind you, then.”

toji’s tilts his head down. with low eyes and a coy smirk on his handsome face, he beckons you close with a single finger.

you can’t hide your smile now, it spreads ear to ear as you bounce over to him, the click clacking of your heels resounding on the hardwood floor until you reach the plush carpet where toji stood. he wastes no time, cupping his hands on the globes of your ass and tugs your body flush against his. toji’s so warm — he’s shirtless and all his sculpted muscles are on display, flexing when your cold hands glide across his pecs to snake around his neck.

toji leans down and his plump pink lips meet your glossed ones, the strawberry-flavored gloss sat sweet on his tastebuds but he prefers your taste instead, sliding his tongue through your slightly-parted lips with hopes to satisfy his glutinous craving and he’s not disappointed when your tongues mingle. “mm.” never tired of that saccharine taste, toji grunts into your mouth, taking his time kissing you — oddly soft and gentle.

toji pulls away and your lips part, only separated by a string of sticky saliva before he goes back in, giving you one, two, three quick pecks before he’s had his fill.

soft pants fill the air as toji holds you close, foreheads touching. “that jog your memory?”

toji rolls his eyes when you hum happy ‘mmhm!’ in response, hands rubbing on his broad shoulders, your fingertips ghosting the sharp line of his jaw. “you’re a pain in my ass…” he huffs, and you burst into a fit of giggles at his annoyed expression, unable to contain it anymore. it’s just so adorable — an infectious melody that toji prays he’ll continue to hear, for many years to come.

“lucky y’er so fuckin’ pretty . . next time i won’t go so easy on ya.” as if to seal the promise, he lands a heavy smack! on your ass. “toji!” you squeal out, the force of it propels you forward, temple thumping on his toned chest.

it was his turn to chuckle now, soothing the blow with a gentle rub of his palm prior to kissing the crown of your head. “now that i got my kisses . . s’time for you to head out, doll. don’t wanna be late again, hm?”

i'm finally back after disappearing for like a thousand years yayyy (don't beat me up yall pls)

#toji x reader #toji fluff #toji fushiguro fluff #jjk fluff #shanti's stories⋆˙⟡♡ #toji x you #toji x y/n #toji fushiguro x reader #jjk x you #jjk x reader #jjk x reader fluff