#Might just make a fic soon idk

[bookwormsid1015]

Guess who hopped head-first into the Poppy Playtime fandom.

#I bought all 3 chapters and they slay #I would die for Dogday he deserved so much better #Might just make a fic soon idk #Dogday #Catnap #dogday poppy playtime #catnap poppy playtime #My Art #Poppy Playtime Comic #Poppy Playtime Chapter 3 Spoilers #TW: Gore & Blood

[achillean-knight]

Im totally not writing a medieval Nimona au where I promised I'd do some doodles of the designs BC I wanted an in-between design of Blackheart and Boldheart, on AO3 nuh uh

... edit but shh here's the link to the fic I can't write well for the life of me but enjoy?? lmao???

#jokes aside im doing writing a Nimona fic on AO3 just purely to itch that medieval gremlin in me #im also doing newer designs bc IDK enough of Blackheart and unfortunately Boldheart wouldnt work in medieval europe #so expect ambrosius soon too. might just make him Comic Ambrosius but with the personality of Nimona ambrosius #bc he has sick as long hair YIPPE #anywhoo #Nimona AU #Ballister #Ballister Blackheart #Ballister Boldheart #AMBROSIUS WILL BE NEXT... after the second chapter. so some doodles inbetween :3! #my nimona au art #my art

[bi-buck-coded]

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#ik that i need to be honest with my doctor and tell him i havent been taking my meds… #but what if i lie instead and somehow fic it myself #its just what if like i tell him how long i havent been taking them and he decides that i dont deserve them?? #which isnt likely and would b a very shitty thing to do that i think legally he might not b able to do but #what if??? #i might lie a little and tell him but say its been a shorter amount of time than it actually has been #dude idk but im starting to feel like possibly i might have an episode soon like it feels like one might b coming on and im scared tbh #like idk at this point theres not much i can really do except make aure im getting sleep and continuing to go to my lifting classes #but ya idk #i need to figure out how to get back on track with my meds but im scared to talk to him abt it bc i Just started seeing him #i also start therapy with a new therapist tomorrow and thats scary #but maybe i could talk to het abt it idk

[orcelito]

i miss akechi goro so much. maybe even enough to finally finish that ladue chapter 3

#speculation nation #ladue shit #listen hes such an asshole and i NEEEEEEED to channel his voice for a bit again #if this urge persists to tomorrow i'll crack open the fic again. for a little reread. #this will satisfy only approximately 53 people (the total subscribers to that fic) #which ok that's actually a good few people when i think about them as actual people #but it's the least amount of subscriptions i have out of most of my multichapters #EVEN STILL. it's a matter of pride and self-satisfaction. #and god fucking damn i have 18k for chapter 3 already written. i literally just need to close the damn scene up #it's been over a YEAR NOWWWWWWWWWW like holy fucking shit. i need this OUT ALREADYYYYYYYYYYY #ladue chapter 3 i will free you into the abyss. i cannot promise more than chapter 3 but i can promise a chapter 3 at least. #i had a whole plan for the fic but idk if i'll ever be able to write it #considering it's taken like. ... years. between chapters. #it took me 2 years to post chapter 2 and it's been a year now since then. ugh. #see the thing is chapter 3 closes the initial arc of them starting to date. and then there's more stuff. #maybe i'll keep it open just in case the urge strikes me to continue it eventually. #and if it never does. i might make a 4th chapter that outlines the eventual plans i had for the fic. so that people know at least. #ive seen that a Few times for discontinued fics. #....but the thing is i dont want to mark any of my fics discontinued!!!! theyre all my darlings!!! i want to go back to them all eventually #i'll just have to see. if a chapter 4 ends up taking several more years. well. maybe it'll be time to call it there. who fucking knows lol #i'll try to get chapter 3 finished sometime soon though. i really want to have it out already.

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

Sometimes I think I'm a normal person then the 11 pm thought kicks in and suddenly I'm insane

#Going to mildly and vaugly vent in the tags to buckle up ^_^ #Will not clarify on any of this because it's more fun not to. Hope that helps #Anyway I'm kind of just. Weirded out by myself rn. Like I'm fine but I'm side-eyeing myself a little bit #And recently I've been believing thay I think really I was more immature a year ago #and while I do think back at her (year ago me) and kinda laugh at her for being overdramatic I feel kinda bad about it because yknow I was #But then I got kind of weirdly slowed down? In my being less freaked out process #Mostly because of Hellenite everyone say thank you hellenite (sarcastic love those fics so much) #But reading the fic kind of reminded me of the emotions that were going on at that time #And while I don't really miss or regret what happened too much anymore I think the general emotions of it started popping up again #Like idk how to say this but I'm over IT as a whole- but the emotions are still kinda left over? #Man really do NOT know how to put this #Cause it's kinda old news and frankly I am wildly happy with where I am right now #And I'm kind of thankful?? But also just a little :I about the whole thing. Which is making me inwardly side-eyeish #And I do think that I probably wouldn't change much if I could- and honestly I'm a little more embarrassed than anything else #Sorry for the weird long rambling tags just didn't want to call either of the like- maybe 3 friends I'd consider bringing this up with #I probably should check in with them though #Ough and I have work to do tmrw #Ew ew ew ew #Feel like this week has gone too damn fast and also not fast enough lmao #I'm also kinda nervous because I might have to take the ASL placement test soon to see if I qualify for skipping a couple ASL classes #Which would be nice cause I would LOVE to graduate quicker #And with all the AP classes I took in high-school it'd be nice to knock a bit of time off my college thing #Although admittedly I DID get that scholarship so it couldn't hurt??? #It might actually give me more time to get EIPA certified and check out some internships?? #Which would make getting jobs out of college WAY easier #Although maybe it'd be easier to get NIC certified if I retook a couple classes instead of trying to skip them??? God maybe I'd be behind #Ofc that wouldn't be a thing until after college #I'll probably have to save up money soon to start thinking about taking the test since it's so damn hard and so damn expensive #At least from what other interpreters have told me #Which is good!!! The it being hard thing anyways. Makes sure Deaf people get GOOD interpreters thst they deserve!!

[the-kipsabian]

so ready for the funny number fic lmao

#who will post it? what will it be?? idk but im so ready lmao #just a fun thought #it wasnt even that long when we reached 50 fics.. and now its funny number time... #three digits here we come ~ #im just. so happy to be contributing to this idk. it just feels good. it feels like something #its super silly cause its just fanfiction on the internet but its the one thing rn that i do that feels like it serves some kind of purpose #idk. i have a new au at works (cause im the worst lmao) so you might see that soon #they just keep me creating no matter how much i complain. they keep me going. they make me want to make things. which keeps me alive #idk fam this is stupid but it means so much to me when theres nothing meaningful going on in my life otherwise #...anyways this was a post about the upcoming funny number sorry didnt mean to make it real ough #night is an absolute mess on main

[so-you-melted-22]

i'm obsessively checking my email in the hope that a fanfic i'm really obsessed with is finally updated and i think i'm slowly going insane

#im scared because like all of that fic so far has been hurt&very little comfort and i kinda doubt that the author is gonna change that up #any time soon #and im even more scared that it might get a main character death tag added #wich as far as i know would make sense in the canon of the story (i never played cod and i dont think ill start now i just read the wiki) #but i desperately need these characters to get something closesly resembeling a happy ending #a not dead ending is already great enough and also probably the best you can get out of this #i read in his own image and sex at frigid temperature multiple times i should be used to my blorbos not getting anything even #close to happiness #idk how to write that #the english exam tomorrow is gonna be fun #at least i now know the plot of mac beth #anyways idk maybe moth (the author whos writing is currently killing me) is from california and they have like the entire day left and #its just timezone fuckery #it probably is that #but i need that new chapter #desperately #stuff #text #fanfic

[crystalkitty1220]

Gotta love when your life slowly but surely becomes more like a fanfiction (I have gained the fake dating trope. probably not gonna turn into real dating but it still counts)

Can I get an update when it inevitably does turn into real dating? /j

#i have never read a fic where the fake dating did not turn into real dating #WAIT there was one where they got fake married but the actual marriage was a different pair. but i dont remember the outcome #ive really gotta start reading fics again. however i have recently added ''make a pixelmon world'' onto my to-do list in front of that #and ''reread the batim book and finish reading storm bite'' after the pixelmon task #. might actually move the batim book to the front of the list and storm bite to the end. cause storm bite is long. #and the batim one was what taught me a lot about translating visual art into written words so i'd like to reread that soon #but i told echos to read it. so i might wait until he does that before i reread it. if he actually plans on reading it at all. #idk he said he would but then he immediately put it back on my bookshelf instead of taking it to his? so thats a bad start. #i can relate tho. i havent been in a reading mood all summer either. or maybe echos just wants to finish that 300ish chapter fic they're on

[majimassqueaktoy]

Just thinking. Trying to maybe write later...

#Okay so in a decent amount of fic the writers make it that Makoto can read braille #and at the end of the day its a completely understandable little detail #but it always makes me 🤔 #because being blind doesn't mean you'd automatically learn to read braille... #my aunty has this thing called stargardts disease which is genetic and she was diagnosed over 20 years agao #and has been legally blind for god probably 18 years #and she's still never learnt to read braille #she got taught to walk with a cane bc australia does have p good healthcare for the visually impaired #she even did a touch typing course back before she got put on the disability pension and was still working #i think they might have even given her a book of braille bc i vaguely remember touching it #but she never learnt #so im just not really sure makoto wpuld have learnt to sufficiently read in braille in the short period she had #theres no reason for Lee to know how to read it either so I imagine in 1988 it would be difficult #i mean Lee could have known someone who came and taught her a bit but idk #i think logically she probably just couldnt read in braille #had the tojo clan not upended her life with Lee and depending if she regained vision anytime soon #she might have learned but i think a lot of people who had vision and then lost it as an adult dontnecessarily #act the same as someone who was born with it or lost it very very young #case in point: my aunty #so yeah one of those things thats genuinely not really an issue #im just a mental case that THINKS and reads into things #and goes Hmm 🤔 #lmao #apparently she says she reads in braille in the game which i dont remember but ? #tbh that just reads as the writers not actually properly thinking about how short a time she would have had to learn it tbh #like she might have been learning bit by bit but i highly doubt she was fluid with it #idk these games are bad with disability lmao #Aoki is a prime example just bc he got a lung transplant doesnt mean he would suddenly be fuckin able bodied like ????

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

right. so. i meant to be writing the thasmissy fic. i did not do that but

i can explain

#hit over the head with the obsession baseball bat #hit SO hard i think i have a concussion #i might actually be more excited for the mcr us tour in 2 months than dw now this is BLASPHEMY dsfhgkjfhg #nuts this is the quickest a special interest has ever taken hold of me it usually takes like. a season #bc it's usually tv so it usually takes the first season. it took all of s12 in 2020 #but this was like... last sunday i told my sister like 'you know gerard way? theyre kinda cool maybe' #and this sunday i was painting the biggest painting ive ever done and it’s THEIR FACE #one week ago i was like 'idk i want to like it but this music is really not my genre' and two days later i was listening to it all day #a wEEK #like unfollow me now this is gonna be the only thing i talk about for the next week #actually no thats not true ive got nothing interesting to say about mcr #i did expect/hope to wean myself off of dw but i didnt expect it to get so violently replaced by something else #better than having nothing for a bit tbh #anyway it's not really replaced either im still writing fic and making videos #and i dont think mcr is gonna become a real special interest bc it has the obstacle of having real people so i cant get too involved #so it’ll just stay a fling i think. i Am excited for new music though. im excited for the old music! #i think the obsession will pass soon tho. fucking hope so this is the worst. im so annoying abt this #but for as long as it lasts it at least has produced maybe the best painting ive ever done. i think this might be the best #aND IT WAS SO FUN do you know how much fun it is to paint this big?? im never painting anything small ever again #also i Have actually been slowly working on a scene this past week in my notes app but it’s absolutely unnecessary thoschei octopus sex #like what i SHOULD be doing is loadbearing scenes to fill in the plot gaps. what i AM doing is more of the this. #more of the garbage that needs Connecting #anyway i didnt paint the mic bc i couldnt be bothered. i like painting faces and hands i dont care about objects sorry #hashtag artistic choice #mcrposting

[loumauve]

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#running face first straight into every single rejection sensitive wall atm and it's so frustrating #like. can we just not do this rn brain? I'm too tired to deal with this on top of everything else #all it does is make me alienate myself from people I care about and make me feel like shit afterwards #and it doesn't fix any of the underlying issues either. (like. I've been upset about ppl not doing what I do) #(as in read all of my fic like I try to read all my friends' fic usually. but like.. not everyone can and not everyone wants to) #(but it's one of those irrational things of 'if they cared about me wouldn't they also try' even tho that's not a fair ask) #(and like.. most people don't read random fic for fandoms they're not even in so this is entirely stupid to be upset about) #(but here we are anyway) #just.. me. raw to the very nerve and too tired to fix anything that might help alleviate it #I just want to feel normal again. and like I have control over my emotional state #but between 'dude fucked up bc of his borderline being triggered by grief and letting out all his frustrations on me for weeks' #and 'other dude grieving but not processing and not even taking a break to figure out where he's at emotionally.. #..therefore dropping all of his unprocessed baggage and his part of the group work right on top of me' I'm just having a heck of a month #and idk. it would have been nice to talk to sb about my fic even if it's older now and not the best perhaps #(doesn't help when everybody you know writes really great fic and you're just outside the door scribbling some ideas into the sand) #idk. usually I do better in disconnecting self-worth and accomplishments and stop myself before the comparisons with others start #but rn it's all too much and I'm drained and exhausted and nothing feels good or helps much at all. #anyway. #it is what is I guess. and what it is is fucked and I doubt it's gonna change anytime soon. #that's not me being unrealistic or depression talking. it's based on how things have progressed thus far #there's another year and a half of this kind of stress which will likely get worse when our group grows from 18 to 31 in October #and then I'd have to start working proper again which I haven't in over two years bc of all the rehabilitation I've been going through #and it's terrifying and I'm already exhausted and worn down and worn out and I just don't know how normal is ever gonna be my life again

[extremelyputridfishbreath]

tonight i give you agent n/a. tomorrow? who knows.

#club penguin oc #club penguin #club penguin ocs #agent n/a #yes thats their name #nonbinary people have the names ever: my source is me because IM NONBINEY #what does n/a stand for? who knows <3 #will i make a fact post about them? hmmm probably not because you might learn about them sooner than you think :) #and by sooner than you think i mean a vague soon. because idk how long this fic i impulsively made is gonna take #for now the gist is that they are simply an epf agent and /was/ the ace of diamonds :) #and theyre not too fond of rolly #being purple just makes you a certified rolly hater i guess

[indigodawns]

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#i feel so restleeeeess like i wanna make something but idek what like idk write a fic bc i have a bunch of emotions #or i wanna like. i don't know. make a gifset??? i've never done that before i wouldn't know how #i wanna skip 20 levels and be fluent in korean!!! finally picking it back up bc the past year was rly just. getting by man #and it sucks but im back to the basics. might as well. at least it's less daunting this time around yk #i think what i really need is to sit next to yoongi for a few hours. maybe hold his hand for a bit yknow? #also i know i have a thesis to write but. tomorrow. #(and a yoongi docu to watch and iu's palette with him and and. soon?) #(anyways. finally downloaded everything ttmik for real so let's try it like this)

[crybaby-bkg]

cant believe there are days where I’m like, well shit, let me log on here after having a stressful day and feeling bad and then I actually log on and become even more stressed and feeling worse lmfao

#this double ear infection has spread and become something even worse #and idk what it is but I’ve been in pure pain for the past like four days #and then I come on here for some mental relief #and feel TERRIBLE after scrolling for five secs LMFAo #not the o was little #I think it’s bc I’m #PMSing and everything just makes me feel worse especially mentally #I have an appt tho for my PMDD soon and I’m excited for it bc hopefully I’ll stop feeling like this #I’ve been complaining so much recently good lordt but I’m NAWT apologizing for it damnit! ☝🏼 #this is my open diary!! ☝🏼 #okay gn I might still search for fics on here tho #bc that’s all I want 😔 where are all the good fics 😔 I’m mf tied of scrolling 😔 #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[orcelito]

uhm. uhmmm. ladue chapter 18 sure is the goal.

... though im still kinda in the mood for angst. this is a problem.

#speculation nation #ladue shit #me writing that one shot & posting it like 'phew! surely this will get it out of my system' #... apparently not. #im sooooooo close. so fucking close to finishing ladue chapter 18 #but it requires a Heart To Heart kinda thing and i am Not feeling that vulnerability rn #im just tired and annoyed in general. and that manifests as wanting to write angst. #maybe this will change after i get my tax return. i can start Living It Up #(paying off debt and not having to calculate expenses down to the dollar!) #im just like. hm. we'll see if my mood changes enough to work on the ladue chapter 18 #but i have been introduced to the ease of one-shots. like holy Fucking shit that was really easy to write #im used to writing fics being a fucking massive undertaking. but i wrote that in literally 2 sittings. #... i could also write a continuation of ce n'est rien #though idk. it's supposed to just sit within canon. a peek into his life #OH oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh i just remembered an idea i had for 3rd semester and omfg #hm. hmmmm #oh yes that would hurt Quite a lot actually. #not entirely original but neither is my 11/20 fic. it's about what i do with the idea that makes it new #well i might have a new severely angsty one shot to write soon. We'll See

[astarriscus]

HELPFISVDKSJ I KINDA LOWKEY FORGOT EBG IS STILL ONGOING

#☘︎ ⋮ ebg ! ↶ #dw i wasn't close to slipping up rn LMAO /gen #maybe i shld send more sabos soon ... altho i am in the mood rn to write for actual fics i might post >.> #also i have !!! uh. well idk if it will be a miniseries or series or just another old fic but <3 hehehe bloodborne inspired YES #this was tbh for a selfship but actually i want to make it an x reader so nw at all hehe #it's abt time i worked more on that esp bcs i had it for almost 2 years !!! but since recently (like months ago) #BLESS that artist who reignited my brainrots for the yeah ......... idk how i will go about and write it tho #hence why i stoppef atm alrdy TwT even w literally making the docs and writing a synopsis and all wtvr ya ya just today riehfishodja #i'll try to come up w more ideas! idk if reader should also be a hunter... or if they should be like. some kinda 'npc' #or if theyre one of thr monster thinggies but like a good guy somehow ........... the guy who will remain unnamed for now tho is def hunter