#Let me enjoy my thing in peace

[bowserbabe]

@tmsource secret santa gift for @teresalisbns! Happy Holidays!

#tmsecretsanta2023 #the mentalist #robin tunney #i want to start making nicer looking gifs #but i don't know what i'm doing #i'm frustrated with some of this but i have to post or i'll die #YOU CAN'T GET BETTER IF YOU DON'T MAKE THINGS #yeah yeah just let me die in peace with my one awkwardly-colored lisbon-in-the-car gif #okay i have to post #this is a random selection of lisbon gifs! #the rhyme and reason was lost in the fire #hope somebody enjoys! #i made this

[8rujaa]

i feel so happy i have the urge to get on my hands and knees and worship something

#i’m emotional because i feel like recently i’ve been actually like genuinely happy #i thought i was going to feel broken forever. i thought i was going to feel like half a person forever #i’ve made so much progress #looking back i don’t know how i got through certain things i really don’t #i was being traumatized while also being severely tortured daily by my body pain #i hadn’t talked to my family or friends in months #i lost my mobility and i lost my independence and i lost everything i worked hard for #i felt like a dog and my nightmares still make sure to remind me how terrible it was #and the healing journey afterwards was somehow even worst because i was reliving it constantly. i feel like i fought so hard for my peace #i know i thought about offing myself multiple times #i don’t know what kept me alive… #i think i stayed for all the wrong reasons/people…. but either way i’m glad i stayed #i’m struggling with letting myself be happy because life has a way of taking everything from you just as you were getting comfortable #and i know bad things can and will happen wether i worry or not so the only thing i can do it try to savor and enjoy these beautiful moment #as best as i can and maybe these moments are what will keep me alive in the future #this year i don’t ‘want’ anything per say…. i just don’t want to lose anything…. like god i don’t ask for anything else…. just don’t take #anything from me that i love please ���😭😭😭😭 #brain vomit

[spitblaze]

brain: you're heavily invested in an rpg that doesnt engage with moral nuance?? thats pretty cringe bro

me: hey just checking we're still heavily invested in pokemon right. the pokemon series that is made primarily for children and whose deepest moral diving is 'peta sucks'. that pokemon series

brain: yeah why

me: cool just checking

#spitblaze says things #yea brain. its a squenix snes throwback style turn based rpg. its not gonna have the narrative depth of a goddamn shin megami tensei game #will you lay the fuck off and let me enjoy my funny little pixel people in peace #anyway idk why brain is complaining. cotc isnt even a mainline game its a mobile spinoff #and while the writing isnt as good as the mainline games its still pretty fuckin good for a mobile spinoff #it gets me invested in its original npcs which is more than i can say for. any other phone game ive played lmao #(except maybe pokemas?? paulo's got a cool thing goin on) #tbh this feels dismissive of pokemon but uuuuuuuh gen 5 was really the most nuanced the series ever got i think #7 had some! 9 DEFINITELY had some #but 5 sticks out the most for sure #also if i wanted an rpg with moral/ethical depth. as mentioned. i would play an atlus/rgg game :V

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

ugh just my luck to fall sick during the last exam (which is maths btw)

So I cannot study properly nor can I (if my sickness persists) have fun after exams end.

#Also I hate being sick #Worst thing ever #My skin becomes so sensitive to everything that if my legs are touching anything it starts to feel weird and extremely uncomfy #Oh well #Atleast I don't have fever yet #Could be worse #Not q #Personal #Also it's so fucking cold like ughh I hate winters but now I'm cold in summer too? #Not only cold tho #Randomly it gets soo hot (especially after I drink boiled water/eat something hot [obviously]) #But I hate it #Let me enjoy summer/spring in peace

[elephantbitterhead]

Having finally been driven to blacklisting content, I'd like to take this moment to say that no annoying/overexposed/boring/formulaic/etc. musician will ever be as irritating to me as their fans and their haters are.

#let us all shut up more often & more vigorously #especially about the artistic virtues & vices of strangers whose lives affect us not at all #amen #just go about your business in peace #also why is this something that happens to me so often #so many musicians I could do without attract the most devoted evangelists #for example #perhaps I could have learned to like Nick Cave #but I will never know because too many Cave-ites were constantly trying to ram him into my ears at every turn #and eventually I rebelled on principle because so many annoying people were trying to make me do the same thing #there are very few people with whom I want to have in-depth conversations about music #as someone who does not press music upon others #I don't understand this behavior #if you like the music I am playing #presumably you will ask about it #if you hate it #I assume you'll let me know #that's good enough for me #also if you hate the music I'm playing & say so #I will not start crying about how the music is actually great & the musician is secretly the messiah #I will play something else that we can both enjoy #I am OK with you not liking my music #I can blast it for myself when you are not around

[last-flight-of-fancy]

hey, hey, quick internet fandom ettiquete lesson; X has two hands jokes only vibe if you are talking to someone who is ALSO already talking about how X has two hands. Okay? Okay. It is in fact very rude to go onto other people’s posts where only one set of hands is involved to evangalise about two hands. When seeing ship art/fic of only half your ot3, it is proper ettiquete to simply enjoy the art/fic as it is, and if so inspired create/commission/seek out the ot3 content of your choice. This has been your quick internet fandom lesson, thank you for your time.

#this is one of those things that has been cropping up a lot lately and it's. not cool. don't do this okay? #bc no one likes being evangelised at; for any reason #i know its probably just because you love your ot3 and i 100% feel that. i have many an ot3 i adore #but to the person who reads your comment on the thing they put hard work and love into it just reads as- #-'the product of your hard work and love is WRONG you should fix it to MY PERSONAL STANDARDS' #you are not better than the singular otp sides of things and its *certainly* not a solution to ship wars #the ot3 is going to have a different dynamic than either side of the individual otps and thats simply not going to vibe with everyone #and thats okay! #long story short: enjoy your ot3. love it! and let others enjoy their otps in peace. tell them you like their art if you want! #just dont go on to say what you think is missing that the creator clearly never intended #stop talking to yourself flight #ngl this is like. at least half the reason i've kinda been shuffling away from srk #kh3 convinced me sr was endgame but i could have happily kept on shipping an ot3 without canon. i dont need canons permission to ship #but wow has the constant bombardment in almost exclusively sr fanworks of 'omg two hands' has really soured the whole thing to me tbh #stand au srk is kind of the only srk to me now

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

#also i used to get beaten to finish my food nearly daily & it would take me forever to do that like literally hours with no exaggeration #just made me hate eating even more. now my technique is eating as fast as possible before i even realize how overwhelming #the sensory experience is & i can just be done with it VS the pain&dread of eating slowly -> disgust of Everything+hyperawareness #eating tightens my muscles like i hate it so fucking much catching the food putting it in my mouth CHEWING swallowing #what a damn chore #so i always liked cheese it was my “safe food” pretty much the only thing i liked #i even hated the foods autists usually like like fries & fried chicken meatballs ETC. HATED. #i was/am more of a soup & turning all my food into varieties of Slop kind of girl nothing hard for me please... #i experienced middle school during the like ♯Thick era of the world which was honestly a good thing like for The Populace #but i felt like killing myself because i felt like an unforgivable fugly genetic failure & people did not hesitate to let me know #anyway either way i would be unhappy caus if i did gain weight during puberty i would have a meltdown about all the Changes #so i feel content for the time being about only losing the fat in my face & getting age appropriate wrinkles really #trying to enjoy the privilege of thinness while i have it because it will not last forever 0_0 but that should not matter anyway... #the privilege of thinness: being way uglier than others & constantly looking like a gibbon dying of disease + no energy or strength ever #JK people are much MUCH nicer to thin people & they do things for me on account of looking physically incapable so um yay i guess #light at the end of the tunnel that is very significant in the grand scheme of things socially. ♯CountingMyBlessings #also i was raised on ♯HAES tumblr from 2014-2018 i truly believed in that & was so damn envious i was not curvy & beautiful LOL #so i never hated overweight people really i think for the most part the SJW tumblr values stuck with me #but now i know it depends on your base frame & genetics & there is no guarantee to what you choose to do (naturally) acceptance is peace #sorry for the gigantic Arse post i just needed to get that off my chest for a long time. not on here specifically just in general #oh & i am a ♯Grignoteuse but grignoter (grazing) is different from eating in my mind&body #& my insecurity was not a result of wanting to fit in really but kind of in the sense that i wanted people to stop berating me for my looks #like body wise only & also not understanding why every other girl looked like a girl blossoming into a woman #& i looked like i was transitioning to Malnourished (unsexed) Ape made worse by bein GNC.& like the need for control later on & erthang ETC

[pupsolstrom]

You know sometimes life is hard and sucks and you get overwhelmed, like today I had to do very hard and draining stuff. But I think it's always important to remember that fizzy drinks are real, they exist, and you are real, and you exist, and instead of being sad about the fact that u exist you can be happy knowing that you exist at the same time as a fizzy drink and you can enjoy it as much as you want in this reality we live in. I love fizzy drinks I love existing bcs I have the blessing of enjoying fizzy drinks

#autism thoughts #autism love #autistic thoughts #actually autistic #motivation #motivational #live laugh love #Fizzy drinks are actually the best thing to ever exist #Getting to spend time enjoying fizzy drinks is my favorite activity #Always makes me love the world a little bit more #Gives me a little bit of peace #Let's me feel the sun on my skin a little bit more

[yogfan14]

Gettin real tired of Hazbin/Helluva haters dunking on fans once more now that Hazbin Hotel is out and gaining traction again.

Y'all are free to dislike the shows, it's a very niche audience and definitely not for everyone. The pacing in Hazbin is very rushed and as a result a lot of the characters aren't getting to shine like they deserve. Helluva Boss can be a bit much for those with a more conservative taste. They both cater to a very specific audience and, like I said, definitely aren't for everyone.

But also I'm not shitting on you for liking whatever else is objectively problematic so maybe shut the fuck up.

Anyway, Hazbin good despite its flaws, but don't watch it on Prime; make sure you're pirating it bc Vivzie is a horrible fucking person <3

#like please let me enjoy my stupid demon squads in peace #I'm so tired of people being like WELL THIS THING SUCKS SO U CAN'T LIKE IT #sir that is your opinion #I happen to like the shows but highly encourage people to pirate and overall not give Vivzie any more money than she already has #hazbin hotel #helluva boss #yog rambles #rant

[kukkakisu]

I'm always baffled by people who claim they're accepting of autistic people but the second you show any not socially acceptable signs of it you're deemed weird or childish. It sure has been a rough week.

#personal #vent #also like?? people getting weirded out by me being genuinely happy and excited about things?? #let me enjoy things in peace! let me express my joy in a way that is comfortable to me! #For years I've had to tone down my emotions for the sake of making others around me more comfortable #I don't want to do that anymore. I deserve to express myself and my feelings as much or as little as I need to.

[cheekblush]

i wish i could just turn off my thoughts like a light switch

#i have a day off why can't my brain just let me relax in peace #no i have to contemplate and reevaluate my entire life & every decision i ever made #i'm laying here thinking about how i let my childhood self down how empty my life is how i went to uni in vain etc #instead of just enjoying my day off 😭😭😭 i really wish there was a turn off switch for my brain it needs to be unplugged!!! #this is a mentally ill thing right bc i feel like healthy people don't question their entire lives just bc they have a day off?? #they actually enjoy their down time & pursue hobbies or meet up with people & are productive instead of spending the whole day in bed #i was such a lively creative excited kid.. where did it all go wrong 😔 #i need to stop entertaining these thoughts but ultimately i'm unhappy with my life & it's my responsibility to change it #but i'm barely getting by i don't have the energy to uproot my entire life #and at the end of the day we still live in a capitalist society that doesn't let you thrive unless you're already rich #god.... where's the turn off switch???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #☁️

[blue-lollipops-and-ice-clouds]

Hey,

Sleep Token fans (of which I am included)!

Let's look at something interesting today! No new pictures, but we'll probably get those tomorrow and Saturday!

No, no, let's look at something really, really interesting that I'm sure we can allllll relate to!

I am sure we all saw this and still all see it.

Now, we have five (5) days left in July! Five! This hasn't changed, nor have I received an email about any updates on this! But what I have received is a lot of, really, nothing from them!

Now!

AHEM.

Now, I know what you're thinking. Well, isn't Trustpilot open to all? There's no moderation, so maybe, oh, not trustworthy (there's a pun there, but I'm too sleepy) or something. But, with consistent reviews, like these...(and many more in the link above to look through on your own)

You can't help but wonder!

So, yeah, maybe a shit company for consumers. Especially with policies like this: "We hold NO RESPONSIBILITY for MAGAZINES that may be damaged, confiscated, or not delivered. All sales are final, if shipped."

Because isn't THAT fun. But the keywords there are "IF shipped".

Oh, and Terms of Service, silly me, why didn't I just read the "We are not responsible if information made available on this site is not accurate, complete or current. The material on this site is provided for general information only and should not be relied upon or used as the sole basis for making decisions without consulting primary, more accurate, more complete or more timely sources of information. Any reliance on the material on this site is at your own risk. [...] We reserve the right to modify the contents of this site at any time, but we have no obligation to update any information on our site."

You know, gosh, I should have expected that! Why not just lie then and say "Coming Soon" like new movies on DVDs! At least then I'd have lower expectations than I have now, which are, in fact, at the bottom of the ocean!

"We do not guarantee, represent or warrant that your use of our service will be uninterrupted, timely, secure or error-free."

I mean, wow, no shit, I would have never guessed!

So, anyway, do I have a solution? Nope, I'm still at the level of creative violence that we all know and love! Their customer service is known to be shit, but below, I've listed it along with their Twitter and Instagram.

Revolver Shop Customer Service

[email protected]

Revolver Magazine Twitter

https://twitter.com/Revolvermag?s=20

Revolver Magazine Instagram

https://www.instagram.com/revolvermag/

Overall, shitty company! I hope this isn't just a scam or the wait is over a year. I hope we get our magazine and the other variant or whatever you purchased without it being of terrible quality or actually torn up in transit within the next month or at least recieve some form of update, especially if you or a loved one spent money on those bundles, you may be entitled to a little bit of anger!

But, anyway, I'm angry, it's 7 in the morning, and my crow brain kind of just, ya know, realized it's almost the end of July.

Fuck Revolver Magazine.

#sleep token #revolver magazine #like sleep token babygirls did you check the reputation of this site #if any of the links are wonky pls let me know im on mobile #if any of you say oh this is normal i am stringing you up like a lightbulb using a candy necklace i swear #july edition should mean idk JULY edition not JULY OF NEXT YEAR ya know #anyway im going to gut the ceo with a spoon make em swallow his eyeballs and smother him with a towel soaked with his own blood #how is everyone else doing? hope you're well have lots of warm things or cold things or whatever temperatures you enjoy #i bought an ice cream maker bc im allergic to milk and all other options have coconut another allergy! what did you do today or yesterday? #my crow brain and me are out! peace!

[incorrectlasthours]

Will: I want you to know that I used to think there was nobody on this earth good enough for Lucie.

Jesse:

Will: And then, you came back from the dead-

Jesse: Aw-

Will: -but I still think that there’s nobody good enough for her.

Jesse:

Jesse: Ffs

#when I tell you I’m here for will and jesse content #if you thought will was bad with Gabriel and Cecily of boy #it’s going to be a new storm brewing for Jesse #poor Jesse comes back from the dead just be tormented 24/7 by will saying he’s not good enough for lucie #and Jesse is like: i know im not good enough for her please 😭 #and Gabriel is rushing to defend him haha #lucie makes matters worse by stirring the pot when things get too dull #she goes to will and is like: my husband really pissed me off yesterday… #and Jesse is like: please let me live in peace #EVENTUALLY WILL AND JESSE CATCH ON AND TEAM UP AGAINST LUCIE HAHA #they’re besties after that let’s be real #way off track anyways enjoy this quote #incorrect last hours #the last hours #tlh #will herondale #jesse blackthorn #lucie herondale #ghostwriter #blackdale #chain of thorns #original: unknown

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[nananarc]

just realized that i have lived past the age that i thought would live

#hmmm #i mean not dying isnt a thing that i can celebrate #if only i can give my life force away to people who truly crave life #im not being suicidal at the moment #its just that i wanna talk openly and carefree without judgement about the fact that i do not wish to be here and not even in a sad way #i just am #kinda sick of the toxic positivity ngl #i am just indifferent about being alive as much as i enjoy the beauty of life and the world and nature #cryptic na posting #if another person tell me to “oh but life is beautiful and you should treasure it” and “be happy that you are alive” and and and #fuck off #i am taking advantage of life as much as a person life me can and im not throwing it away #but at the same time #let me be at peace with death and the end #allow me to think of an eternal rest

[hkpika07]

Me: live for yourself. Enjoy and create for yourself. Your little aus and stories and drawings are for yourself. Its in the privacy of your own journals, sketchbooks and dms. That's good enough you're not a bad person what you're doing isn't hurting anyone it's fine. You're okay.

One singular post: you shouldn't actually do this. These types of aus are bad they wouldn't fucking do that. You have no reading comprehension and this is bad.

Me: *4+ years of work instantly shattered* Well time to return to the ocean and become a mollusk.

#im going to disintegrate into nothing and my bones will fall to the bottom of the ocean. anyways. #just. just let me have my little domestic aus let my little blorbos have a family so i can fantasize in a way thats healthy and nice #I GET IT I KNOW NUCLEAR FAMILIES ARENT SOMWTHINF EVERYONE SHPULD HAVE. I KNOW THEYRE WRONG JUST LET ME BE HAPPY DAMMIT #i just want to enjoy my things in peace without feeling like scum of the earth. #vent #anyways gonna eat some berries to make myself feel better.