#It's a nebulous concept since I've never had to write it happening | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bellshazes · 1 year

Text

do it again directors commentary part 2

He and Etho had shown up at her favorite diner for takeout midnight breakfast while she had been hanging out at the bar, chatting with Scott, and without even thinking about it she’d joined their argument, switching sides periodically to keep it going. Years enough have passed that she can’t remember now what it had even been about, but she remembers Bdubs’ instant adoption of her as an ally and the wounded look he gave her when she conceded Etho had some good points, too. Etho had smiled brightly with his eyes and given her the faintest nod of approval, opening up the takeout boxes and settling down on the seat next to her.

this is very explicitly inspired by all the times i've gone to waffle house and the encounters i've had meeting old friends there who i never expected to see again. it's about the familiarity but also the capacity to shift and surprise and change the dynamic if it's funny. so it goes

Bdubs smiles knowingly at her. He heard all the goings-on of her tabletop campaigns and knows exactly what happened to her old D&D group. He’d been an exceptionally good sport about it, showing up for many late-night dinners to let her vent, as if it were a recap of his favorite TV show.

this and other things allude to the cleo-big b breakup that i never found a good place to make more explicit. i like the idea of it being some nebulous D&D situation partially because i despise D&D and because i think it's fun that since cleo continues to care that big b betrayed them, it should show up in silly ways, because it's fundamentally a betrayal in the specific context of a game. but it matters, what we did or didn't do, etc.

Cleo pauses and holds eye contact. For half a second she imagines a red bandana around Bdubs’ head, but it’s only the force of Bdubs’ belief that snares her.

another thing i never quite made explicit but is true: cleo received an unusually high number of lives, as did bdubs, and it's that fact that makes her more susceptible to remembering. if i had got to make it more explicit, i could've got into the exchange of lives as memory and as permanency, as debts and owing and relationships built across lifetimes... but I didn't. so this is what you get.

“That is a lot to ask of a guy, Cleo,” he says, but he stands up when she does. “If I for some reason am prevented from talking to Etho by such things as him being asleep all day, or un-overcomeable anxiety -”

i hate this line? i think i nailed bdubs' voice in the first half but i've spent so long trying to come up with something better than "un-overcomeable anxiety" and never did. i think he says things in super fucking weird ways but that's not right. it was worth leaving because i do believe in the dynamic of cleo playing mediator insofar as it's funny to them, and in cleo chastising bdubs, and their back and forth.

“Bdubs,” he says. “Hey, Bdubs.” He squeezes his hand again. “I wanted you to know. I’m so glad you were my partner.”

this whole Death Coffee Incident is borrowed wholesale from opera25's mll au, but it was fun making something kind of fantastical work. etho never was given any lives, and only gave one up to tango for the you bet your life game; he remembers here solely due to the life-threatening duress of consuming wayyyyyy too much caffeine. it was fun to write but also the pivotal moment in bdubs becoming convinced etho always had remembered and thinking then that the only reason he'd behave the way he did if he remembered was out of bloodlust... not that bdubs had yet unlocked memories of enjoying that murderousness and play back and forth.

there's a level to which this misunderstanding is a satirization/playing with fandom conceptions of if you view LL in a vacuum you get some crazy interpretations. but as they both learn, the threats were fun BECAUSE they had history and both enjoyed it. four more chapters for that to sink in though.

The process of checking into the ER is as onerous as he expected – trying to fill out the paperwork for Etho, who is still more out of it than Bdubs was when he had a head injury, having to put his foot down that he’d like to stay with his partner as much as possible and yes he had the paperwork to back him up, because Etho had made him keep a copy of important things in his wallet after he fell of the roof in case of something like this.

this part is in spite of my severe medical phobia, but also because of me working in insurance-related fields for the last 4 years. this document is called an advance directive or living will and if you live in the USA you should complete one by searching "advance directive [your state]" and filling it out and filing it according to the directions on your attorney general's website or whatever. it's genuinely imporant esp if you're not married and queer in any way. this is my one genuine PSA of the fic. but also they would. etho requesting to dot Is and cross Ts bc he thinks bdubs will be the one who needs and and then needing it himself... well. anyway.

He remembers fragments from his last death: that he had made some promise that didn’t save him, that cost him his last life. That he died calling Etho’s name, calling out to an Etho who took great joy in menacing him and making him paranoid, who had attacked him in that long dark stairway. It does not comfort him to know Etho thinks he’s responsible for whatever happened.

this chapter ends with bdubs trying and sort of succeeeding in believing in etho, but that last sentence is the lynchpin of what comes after: etho feeling even a little responsible for bdubs permadying - esp when bdubs remembers being a ghost for session 7 but was not present for etho's permadeath in session 8 - makes him think etho knows more than he does, and holds him accordingly responsible. the metacommentary is there but it wasn't the point; it's true, but incidental. the reveal eventually is that the trust was there, and that bdubs' permadeath was stupid and willing because it's about the novelty and the endless beginnings. spoilers but whatever if you're reading this you must not care by now.

chapter 4

He can feel his heart beating in his chest, and he has a sense-memory of falling down with all the vivid, terrifying sensation of jumping from the height of a swing in the park as a child, down to the faint awareness that the intervening years meant it was no longer quite the same body, that something had been knocked out of alignment by time.

it's a little tonally dissonant, but i'm still proud of this. you can tell later on i floundered for plot in this chapter, but the image of being both in the past and in the present and the overlay is important to me. it's very poetic.

Etho snagged a nametag off the apron that had been draped over the drinks counter, presumably in a now-ruined hope of ending the shift quickly, and slipped it into his pocket before turning back to smile placidly over Bdubs’ shoulder.

etho stealing the nametags is another MLL AU concept i stole and can't take credit for, but again trying to find a plausible concrete explanation for it was really fun and was the impetus for this whole chapter. grateful for it, and he's an ass and also nosy like that. he would.

Etho punched the crosswalk button and tried to remember that conversation but couldn’t. He remembered getting coffee, and that he’d almost finished it off by the time he’d gotten home. [...] “No,” he said, sounding strangled. “That hadn’t come up, actually.”

the limited alternating third person POV is restricting at times, but i really enjoy the contrast between what we already know of bdubs' perception of the Death Coffee Incident re: etho's knowledge and etho's POV making clear he doesn't know jack shit, but he cares. bdubs is reacting this way because etho saying he took the crazy coffee to stay up to see bdubs sounds like a threat, but it's also an expression of caring and not knowing how to bridge a distance.

if theres anything i believe it's that these two motherfuckers don't capital-T talk. they exclusively communicate through threats and shenanigans and team-ups and every time they mention talking outside of Events it shocks me. and yet their friendship persists over more than a decade! what miracles.

“You can’t take dreams too seriously,” Etho said, cat purring loudly under his hands, a soothing anchor. “It’s just your brain picking up on whatever’s going in your life and making up stories about it. No good worrying too much about them.”

this is mine own opinion on dreams, despite my sincere involuntary belief in signs and omens, but more importantly it is another point at which bdubs is implicitly in his own POV goign oh my god this son of a bitch is manipulating me. miscommunication for ages.

He spends a few nights on the couch, methodically trying to rule the variables out: the quality of moonlight through his bedroom window, some oppressive sense of confinement, embracing the possibility his roommate is testing him and trying to prove to his subconscious that fishing rods are nothing to be worried about.

etho being experimental and scientific about this all is important to me. almost as much as half-remembering bdubs misinterprets this exacting need to know as being meaningful and knowing when it's not, especially when he was trying to elicit some response. guy gets a response and thinks the worst even though he's causing his own problems? there's a thesis in that

Etho bites back a comment about Bdubs’ dedication to sleep schedules and waves the criticism off instead. “I’m trying to sleep right now,” he lies. “Not my problem if you want to haunt me.”

if i ever let myself revise this chapter (and this chapter is the one i want to revise most) i want to include the detail from beau's comic of this passage of etho having his glasses on when he says this. my dude was definitely not tryign to sleep AT ALL and i forever wish i'd thought of that indicator myself.

When he sits down to start his own work for the day, he thinks about the drawing and decides then and there what his plan is to fix all this.

i wrote this line bc i have such a sense that chapter endings, like the endings of short stories, should have a paritcular cadence and effect - but neither etho nor i knew how "to fix all this" and in fact the subsequent chapters indicate he definitely was not laying his final plans yet. i've let it stay because putting this line in let me move on to write the rest of the fic... but it's untrue and a red herring and i hate it. i will fix you eventually. but not yet because i still dont' know how to satisfyingly transition.

etho doesn't get his next POV chapter until the second half of chapter 6 at the diner with cleo, where he finally confronts that his dreams might be real enough to have to deal with, and even then he goes through great lengths to validate cleo's theories by messing with tango... so who knows. but it's fine. it's fine. i hate it. it's fine

#peter writes #do it again au #for whatever it's worth i'm still always thinking abt them #even my anon fic was in my braims about DIA!ethubs.#but also these 2 chapters have several lines i hate but won't revise until/if i ever do a real revision

8 notes · View notes

feyravenchatter · 2 years

Text

This is that plot bunny. The one that I've mentioned in tags so many times now. The one where I cleaned out canon's house, rearranged all the furniture, and am haunting the place like a primary-colored poltergeist. This one, as long as it's going to end up, will also have 2 prequel pieces to cover a few things happening before the main plot.

Time is nebulous, which means I have no idea when tf this is set, although it’s technically post-s6, kind of, canon timeline means nothing, they’ve been out there a while, like a five years a while, alpha Lance, omega Keith, mpreg after the first couple-ish chapters, nsfw, very very canon divergent, omegaverse, No Blades or Paladins were harmed in the writing of this fic, except maybe Keith, there is stress and drama and angst, and all this stress is bad for the babies, both klance and their spawn

·::·★·::·

During a battle to liberate yet another planet from the empire’s rule, Keith is feeling his heat coming on, and has been since the night before. His reaction times are slower than usual, and he has a few near misses. He convinces himself that no one noticed those slips bc he never actually got hit. He really should have known better than that.

Klance talk immediately after the battle because Lance noticed Keith slipping. Pack knew he wasn't feeling great the night before, but didn't know how bad it was. Lance goes to find Keith first to ask about it and while he knows about the irregular heats, he’s only now finding out about the infertility diagnosis. Keith dismisses it, saying that he's gotten used to it and knows he'll never have children of his own. Lance is upset for him, and lets slip that not having their own wouldn't bother him, leading to his admitting that he's kinda-sorta-maybe had a thing for Keith for a while. Keith then admits that he's kinda-sorta-maybe had a thing for Lance for a while as well, but doesn't think any alpha would want him due to his sterility. Lance tells him that that really doesn't matter to him, because adoption is always there and that he still wants a relationship with Keith despite him being /broken/. Keith is still feeling gross from his coming heat, and Lance decides they’ll talk more about their new relationship later.

While Keith is napping, Lance attempts to, but only lays in bed, trying not to think about how exhausted he is from two major battles in as many days, which leads him to thinking about the planet from the day before, Xuvelten, and how odd the Xel are. The race has a cultural obsession with balance, their entire civilization and religion built around the concept. They firmly believe that everything, good or bad, must have a counter, and that to disrupt balance is to disrupt reality. Lance shivers at the memory of the tour around their central worship site, an artificial cavern roughly carved into a mountain, and the god-spirits that are inside. Each has their own, smaller, altar and worship place, god-spirits dedicated to almost everything, and each with a direct opposite. It had unnerved not only him, but the rest of the pack as well, especially with the Xel’s insistence that their god-spirits were actual entities and not concepts. They had willingly joined the coalition, thrilled at the idea of assisting to restore universal balance.

Lance’s half-asleep thoughts are interrupted by an intercom announcement from Allura that they’re heading down to Atruvela in 1 varga. He’s pretty sure Keith didn’t hear that, and rolls out of bed, changing into his formal outfit before going to wake his newly-named omega. Lance was right, Keith didn’t hear the announcement, waking him with the knock on his door. He relays the message, but doesn’t come in, listening to Keith changing from the hall. A few minutes later, he’s met with a frustrated, whining Keith. He’s still half-asleep and can’t seem to figure out how the buttons on his blood red silk waistcoat (that Lance had convinced him into to begin with) work, pouting at his new alpha. Lance knows that it’s his heat and helps with the buttons, asking if Keith heard him about them leaving and getting a grumbled answer.

Lance is a little concerned that his heat is too close for him to be able to join them, but decides not to say anything about it, knowing what the reaction will be. When the entire pack meets up in the ballroom, the pack notices, but Keith swears that he's ok enough to go down to the planet, despite objections from Shiro, and especially after Allura tells them that they're all expected to be there for the celebration and negotiations. Lance sticks close to him after letting Pidge and Hunk in on what's going on (about Keith’s incoming heat, but nothing else). They both agree to keep an eye on Keith as well in case he gets any worse.

#multiverse theory #my writing #canon divergent omegaverse au #keith kogane #lance mcclain #keith x lance #klance #alpha lance mcclain #omega keith kogane #omegaverse #a/b/o dynamics #mpreg #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender

7 notes · View notes

ckret2 · 4 years

Note

So I've been deeply pulled into the Radiosnake pairing bc of your fantastic writing! Problem is, now I have fic ideas but no knowledge of the Hazbin background. Can you tellI me where I can get more Hazbin info? I've only watched the pilot and read your stuff. I heard there were comics??

That is an excellent question anon, because right now it is really hard to get Hazbin background easily.

Okay, so, the canon info on Hazbin Hotel can be sort of sorted into four tiers, from most to least canon.

Tier 1: The Definitely Canon

There is, of course, the pilot. And then there is an Angel Dust prequel comic, only seven pages of which have been released so far. We’ve been told it’s gonna be finished and we’ve had glimpses of in-progress prequel comics for a couple other characters—most prominently Alastor’s and Charlie’s—but so far that unfinished Angel Dust comic is the only one that’s been officially released.

Finding the in-progress comic pages is... a challenge. Nobody, as far as I can tell, has been specifically collecting all of the pages we’ve seen so far. I was able to scrounge up:

Couple more Angel pages

some Alastor pages

another Alastor page

a random Alastor panel

another random Alastor panel—I’ve seen the full page of this before, Alastor goes “Hello ladies!” and they go “HELLO ALASTOR~<3″ but I can’t find the full page now

There’s a smattering more canon panels on the artist faustisse’s twitter, but I haven’t dug them all out, and some of the posts I’m gonna link in a lil bit have a glimpse of another panel.

If you haven’t already heard of Helluva Boss, I recommend looking into it as well. It’s a second series being created by the same folks, different cast of characters but set in the same version of Hell, so any canon details we learn in Helluva also apply to Hazbin.

Helluva’s pilot is here. Plus a cute music video here.

Earlier this month, during a BLM charity stream hosted by show artist Ashley Nichols—she runs regular streams under the title “HuniCast”—they released a few sneak peaks of future Helluva scenes, all compiled here.

And that’s it for canon. Two pilots, a music video, a smattering of future scenes, part of one comic, a few WIP pages/panels from other comics.

Tier 2: Pseudo-Canon

Everything else we currently know about Hazbin (and Helluva) are things that the creators have told us. Consequently, they’re all pseudo-canon—and likely subject to change in the future as the shows and comics are further developed and released. Some details that were released/described in the past have been contradicted at other times, or else radically changed by the time the pilot came out.

(For example, when Alastor was first created years and years ago as an OC with no plans for Hazbin, he was a demon deer who could shapeshift into a human shape—now he’s a demonized human with a few deer traits. And Charlie and Cherri Bomb used to look very different.)

So until and unless they make it into canon, all these pseudo-canon details are subject to change and should be taken with a grain of salt—but, they also comprise most of what we know about the characters’ backstory and the as-yet-unaired characters.

Pseudo-canon info on Hazbin is scattered mainly between two sources: the creators’ twitter accounts, and livestreams where they take questions and talk about the making of the show. If you and livestreams do not get along (my ADHD and livestreams do not get along), or if you don’t want to wade years and years back into twitter accounts to dig up every scrap of info on the characters the creators have ever mentioned, collating all the pseudo-canon info is gonna be hard. (It’s gonna be hard even if you do want to sit through the streams and dig through all their tweets.) Lots of fans, me included, depend on the absolutely heroic work of various fans who are willing and able to watch hours-long streams and collate a list of canon factoids released during the streams. I’ve reblogged as many of these posts as I’ve been able to find:

Alastor’s sound design (on twitter)

Alastor's Sound Design (post I made with screenshots of weird—but very interesting—subtitles slipped into the aforementioned video)

Sir Pentious and Cherri Bomb’s sound design

Niffty and Husk’s sound design

Charlie, Katie, and Tom’s sound design

Intro song’s sound design

Happy Hotel’s sound design

details from Faustisse (including a pic of a couple costume designs. Most of these posts come from zatyrlucy, who’s been doing a fantastic job of going stream-by-stream to get lists of details from the regular streams by Ashley Nichols and by comic artist Faustisse.)

more details from Faustisse (including a pic of the Von Eldritch family dining room)

Faustisse 3 (better look at that table)

Dollymoon’s Hazbin Hotel Facts - PART ONE (Shoutout again to dollymoon for compiling these, we’ve never spoken but I am eternally grateful for this service. Dollymoon’s posts are THE single most reliable compilation of Hazbin Hotel’s nebulous pseudo-canon facts that I have found to date, including both links to the sources and timestamps where applicable. Dollymoon’s URL has changed since making this post so the “read more” link doesn’t work but the “source” or “reblogged from” links direct correctly to the new blog. Incidentally, the risk of other blog creators deleting their blogs/posts or changing their URLs is why in info posts like these, I always link to my own reblogs rather than their original posts—their original posts might vanish without warning, but I know I ain’t gonna delete my posts, so these links will still work in the future.)

Hazbin Hotel Facts - PART TWO

Hazbin Hotel Facts - PART THREE

Faustisse 4

HuniCast - Australian Wildlife Relief charity stream

I think this was a faustisse stream (the original source deleted these posts, so the comic pages that were originally behind that read more cut are now gone.)

Faustisse stream 6?

And those are all the masterposts of factoids I’ve managed to collect. If anyone has more masterposts, chuck ‘em at me.

Even this isn’t all the knowledge that’s been released about the show. The posts that dig the farthest back are Dollymoon’s, and even they don’t comprehensively cover all of Hazbin’s production. A couple of these characters, Vivziepop created as a teenager, so there’s some truly ancient concept art floating around out there that will have details that probably aren’t canon anymore... but might still be until something happens to actively contradict them.

Tier 3: The Wiki

The wiki is kind of an absolute mess. It’s a chaotic blend of things actually seen in the pilots/comic, things mentioned at some point in some stream somewhere, and wild fan speculation based on what they headcanon as plausible based on the above, all mixed together with very little indication for which is canon, pseudo-canon, fanon, or speculation. Most of the statements on the wiki don’t have citations.

(And, on top of that, half the main characters’ info gets split up into separate tabs instead of just having a normal-ass wiki page, AND their image galleries are on COMPLETELY SEPARATE pages that are linked to in one of the tabs, and the most important characters all have TWO SEPARATE GALLERIES. Which doesn’t have anything to do with the quality of the facts hidden underneath those tabs, but nevertheless drives me up the wall.)

Some things on the wiki were added according to info released so long ago it’s probably changed by now. Some are possibilities that got reported as facts. Other things on the wiki have unambiguously changed, or else are just flat-out incorrect. (For instance, at this moment Alastor’s page still lists him as an overlord, even though it's been confirmed that Alastor is not an overlord despite his power level because he isn’t interested in and didn’t pursue that position, per this stream. For a little bit, somebody’s fanart of their headcanon human Alastor got added to the wiki as concept art.)

tl;dr: the wiki should never be trusted as a primary source. The wiki’s better than it used to be. Even so, at this time, it’s only trustworthy to fill in the gaps of what you already know is true from other, better sources.

The thing it’s good at is it more or less compiles all the known info all in one place. Trying to figure out who the hell this Vox guy is is really hard if you’re reading for mentions of him in compilations of a dozen different streams, much less if you’re trying to comb through those dozen streams yourself, plus a dozen more, plus three different artists’ twitters. In comparison, it’s really easy to, say, just go look at Vox’s wiki page, where all the trivia is compiled. (And Vox’s page is actually one of the better cited on the wiki. Look at all those numbers!)

So, if you need to find out who this character is you’ve never heard of before, if you want to see a full list of the thus far named characters, if you don’t remember whether Alastor likes coffee or tea, if you want to know what Angel’s twin sister looks like, if you need a reminder of Sir Pentious’s death year... check the wiki. It’s an okay starting point.

But, if you see a “fact” on the wiki that you yourself don’t remember from straight out of the pilot, and it doesn’t have a citation that links to a tweet or a stream... regard it suspiciously. And do not trust it unquestioningly as fact until and unless you have seen the source.

Tier 4: Noncanon Creator Shitposting

I’ve mentioned Ashley’s HuniCast streams a couple times. The biggest draw of them is that she usually gets several of the voice actors in the streams, where they’ll happily say nonsense in their character voices. For the most part, they’re not sharing any actual canon info they’ve been given on their characters, just goofing around pretending to be their characters. Nevertheless, a lot of the things that happen in streams get accepted as broad fandom headcanons, like Alastor being into dad jokes. (My favorite, for obvious reasons, is this one.)

It’s easy to find the source audio for all this wonderful nonsense by searching youtube for “HuniCast highlights,” and then rummaging around for animatics people make out of the audio. The only one noncanon video of this sort I can think of that didn’t originally come from HuniCast is a lone one from Alastor’s singing voice (who’s a different voice actor than his speaking voice).

So, obviously, none of these are canon. But they do come from some of the people actually involved in the creation of the show, and they are in the characters’ canon voices, so a whole lot of people treat them as semi-canon anyway. (Even the wiki lists “dad jokes” among Alastor’s likes, which to my knowledge hasn’t come up anywhere except for HuniCast streams.) Since they’re so broadly-known, they’re worth knowing about as important sources of fanon, even if you don’t want to adopt them into your own headcanons. They’re basically the same level of canon as blooper reels.

#anonymous #ask #hazbin hotel #reference #helluva boss

37 notes · View notes

starshine-selfships · 2 years

Note

Chaos time. Do all of the aro spec asks <3 /hj

You're too late, I'm already writing a novel with my little aro hands!! /j

I've already done 1 and 5 (and 6) in the immediate previous ask and I'll gladly do the rest! Idk if I've ever actually been in a place to celebrate aro awareness week and I'm having so much fun, this ask game is very good <3

2 - How important is your arospec label to your overall identity?

VERY! Tbh I love labels, I love being able to point to an aspect of myself and say "this is something that I know for sure"; it's hard when it comes to orientation type stuff bc it can be so nebulous and there's the refrain (which I agree with! don't get me wrong!) of how it's okay to not have a label or know what's up, but I always found labels to be personally comforting. Being able to call myself aro ties a lot of traits together and it just feels so nice to know there's a name for an experience you know? Because of there's a name, then it means it's probably something that's happened to other people, enough for their to be a name, a community, all that.

Combine aro with being ace and what used to be nonbinary (I'm trans masc now!) and you can see that I have a pattern of removing myself from the social paradigm lmao, I feel like putting the pieces together paints a more complete picture of who I am, but aro on its own is so so important to me, especially since dating and romance is so expected, so when someone's not doing it there's a whole bunch of scrutiny, and idk. It just seems a little overblown to me, looking for a problem that doesn't exist. Finding a name for an identity where you don't feel something seems like it would be harder to work through, and I'm lucky I happened to see/hear the words while I was in the process of finding things out, and idk. It's important to me for a lot of different reasons and I feel like I'm having a little bit of a hard time articulating exactly what those reasons are lmao

3 - Are there any aromantic microlabels you use?

Every so often I see the term "oriented aroace" and if I'm interpreting it correctly as "aroace person who still leans one way or another", then maybe something like that! It's hard to say, mostly just bc my attraction is all with fiction, but just going off that I've pretty much exclusively talked about men here lmao; I also remember seeing a microlabel today actually, it was this one!

and this feels pretty close to me! It's mostly the concept of it like I do on this blog, romance media is boring and lowkey a little frustrating to me lmao, but conceptually!! Thinking about it!! Is very nice :D

4 - What does aromantic mean to you?

Pretty similar to what you said actually! It means me feeling confident in being who I am on my own, and not feeling like I'm missing out by not dating or putting myself out there. Truthfully, I never actually tried dating, but I also had a lot of stressful things going on in my life while I was a teen so it wasn't really anything I wanted to add to my plate lmao; now, as an adult with a lot of that stress gone, it feels so nice to be able to stand up and say that this is who I am, and I don't have to make excuses for why I'm not trying to "find someone". With how deeply entrenched into society romance is, it feels like a revolutionary act to simply exist like this, and I wouldn't trade it for anything <3

7- Here's one (1) gush pass for a platonic or familial f/o!

I wanna rewatch b.sd before making strong statements but qpp'ing d.azai straydogs feels like such a fun thing, you know friendships where people know each other well enough to gently tease one another? That's this, we just gently mock each other and it's 90% of how we communicate bc he is just a Funny Little Man at the core of it all

Am also considering just parental f/o'ing all the kids in the b.inding of i.saac and?? They're Good Kids Brent. Doesn't matter if they're part demon, a ghost, or if their status of being alive is questionable, They Are Good Kids and I am making them soup and putting their blankets on the dryer as we speak 😤😤😤

8 - Are you tired of being nice? Don't you just want to go apeshit? Free pass to go on a little aromantic rant.

A little cynical but it's kinda tiring knowing that most people I know are gonna get partners and if I'm unlucky, they'll just disappear off the face of the map for a while :/ it happened once, I know someone who's not good at keeping up communication, but when she got a bf i would hear absolutely nothing from her for weeks on end and every message I *did* get was always "I was out with my bf!!" like yeah I know our decade long friendship takes backseat to a dude you got with a month ago 🙄 that hasn't happened since but I'm always frustrated how friendship is usually put a step under romance, that and how you're supposed to be attached at the hip?? I knew a couple and both were nd and overwhelmed by a lot of contact so they didn't spend the expected amount of time together and people began to wonder if something was wrong because. they were just. giving each other space?? Maybe it's the autism showing through but I honestly don't understand it. The norms and social rules around romance seem so arbitrary to me and they don't make sense 😞 it does seem overwhelming to constantly have someone right there in that kind of way, and idk? Why do yall take this so seriously lmao, like the feeling doesn't totally register with me, so I can't fully speak on the matter of course, but with the way it's treated like. it can't be that serious lmao

#💚🖤🤍#pikes don't look #''talk about a platonic/familial f/o!'' *sweats in ''i have other f/os i just almost exclusively enjoy talking about pouf''* sjjdkfk #thank for the asks!! you can see i got a little muddled between what it means to me and how important it is to me but you see #i am Head Full Many Thoughts on the matter lmaooooo #again thank you!! and happy aro awareness week!!

0 notes