#Im doing my best and thats what matters

[moondropai]

I’d like to say I was listening to 4:00am or Stay with me when drawing this but it was Running in the 90s and Deja vu. I just really love Kori and I think that dc should bring back her 80s hair.  Fun fact while drawing it, this did crash my program and I nearly cried 

#koriand'r #Kori #starfire #kory anders #dc fanart #fanart #art #90s anime #I just really like her #Catch me drawing her every other month #my art #dc comics #I hope no one actually reads through all my tags because I like throw so many in here #Im doing my best and thats what matters #My laptop nearly died while drawing this #Maybe next thing I post will be like my batboy analyst #I have art of lian and roy in my laptop that is a sketch maybe I could toss that out there

[spitblaze]

I will say this once because I'm tired of seeing stupid discourse: anti-transmasculinity is not about being treated bad because we clock as men, it's about being treated as stupid little girls because transphobes think we've been tricked into this.

It's kind of the opposite of transmisogyny- instead of fear and revulsion, it's constant condescension, the implications that we've been whisked away from femininity by scary bad guys, that we're going to cause 'irreparable damage' because we don't know what's best for ourselves, somehow. People fearmonger a lot about the "ugliness" of transfem people, but for transmasc people that 'ugliness' is used as a warning- you'll look like THIS! You'll go BALD! Your top surgery scars will leave you MUTILATED! A lot of aesthetic concerns. Worry about our 'beauty'. Because it comes from that same stupid reactionary 'we gotta SAVE the WOMEN' shit, but this time they have to save them from getting 'stolen away', as if we're being seduced or pressured into this. As if we can't make our own decisions.

For TERFS specifically, they're losing one of their own. We're 'gender traitors', willingly aligning ourselves with the half of the population they consider unilaterally dangerous and evil.

We aren't REALLY trans, we just want the benefits that men get. You don't actually want to transition, you're just trying to avoid misogyny.

You aren't actually a man, you're just a self-loathing lesbian.

Why can't you just be a butch girl? Why can't you just be a tomboy?

Why can't you just be something that I don't think is icky?

Anyway. Like all things, it boils down to misogyny. Women stupid and gentle, dont know what best for them, evil men trick into taking man juice, must save because lady stupid and dont know what best for them (having babies and being Feminine).

Theres like. Obviously more to this but I'm just a Transmasc Rando explaining this from my perspective, and I'm not the best with words. Anyone is free to hop in and add on to this

#long post #transphobia #spitblaze says things #anti-transmasculinity #several disclaimers #i do not think misandry is real. #i think stigmatization of masculinity is real with a lot of women and terfs specifically #i think a lot of people whether they know it or not consider men to be inherently 'bad' #i think men are very often treated as emotionless and 'tough' by default which causes a lot of issues #but thats not anywhere near the level of misogyny. its a separate issue and not related #im not trying to say that trans men somehow have it 'worse' than trans women?? what would thay even accomplish. this isnt a pissing contest #and even if it was I'd lose #and my wording isnt the best bc this is a Midnight Rant and not a scholarly article #if you want to pick a fight about semantics consider that theres a good chance that i genuinely didnt realize what i said #anyway uh. yeah. this discourse is dumb i cant belive its happening #and i especially cant belive how bad people are at articulating the actual point of the matter #(not that im one to talk lmao) #doin numbers

[mildcicada]

#when i was first coloring him in he was gonna be golden chinchilla colored but then i was like ehhh jonah magnus should be red/orange but #elias should be gray ...so i just desaturated what i already did instead of recoloring lol but #he is now supposed to be shaded silver lol #but thats why his coat pattern is on the darker side compared to what it *should* be #og elias bouchard coming from an important/roch family and while whole thing with thinking he just *deserves* stuff bc of his upbringing. #etc. -> he is purebred and matches the breed standards etc for a scottish fold of his color #obviously the eye color doesn't matter because. ahaha #i thought elias fit the Scottish fold vibes because: Scottish folds are known for looking sort of like owls and having intense eyes #and the cat body/face type (also present in british shorthairs) to me gives off sort of... unnasumming vibes? #like ahaha yes i am a boring boss who loves paperwork look at how unnasumming i am season 1-2 elias y'know #trying to think of what cat breed jonah would be. and also jon gerry etc you know all the other characters i like #would it be boring to have multiple british shorthairs #i mean.. #Michael shelley/distortion is a laperm that's all I know #i didn't particularly care with the personality attributes associated with eliascat because it didn't need to fit his personality on account #of not being his original body. but i do try to keep in mind the best personality/look/etc. cat attributes as a whole for a character #also sometimes get obsessed with jt making historical and geographical sense but then it just limits me greatly to a point im not into it #so i don't care about specific breeds in that respect lol #tma #my art #elias bouchard #the magnus archives #some notes looking back(made it 2 hours ago but still looking back ok..) on it now are that i feel like elias would never choose this breed #for his next bodyhop because of the inherent health issues in scottish folds. I saw the breed was created in like the early 1960s and #assumed that maybe the health issues wouldn't have been common knowledge until later enough for jonah to be unaware of them but actually no #there's legislation about it like 6 years later LOL so jonah would..maybe not make this choice #i guess in the future when drawing i will just make him a British shorthair #my catTMA is simultaneously 'they are just regular cats or like all show cats or something' and 'exact tma plot but as intelligent cats' #LOL its just vague in my mind idk..also maybe jon can be an Abyssinian #ALSO WHAT WAS I THINKING 'jonah may not have been aware about x thing' like did i...did i forget. me 2 hours ago was dumb as rocks

[arosebyan0thername]

If there are a million Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, I am one of them. If there are only two Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, I am one of them (Eva Noblezada is the other). If there are no Reeve Carney as Orpheus fans in the world, Eva Noblezada and I are dead 😔

#hadestown #hadestown obc #reeve carney #eva noblezada #seriously im sick and fucking tired of the reeve carney hate on tiktok #'jordan fisher is the only orpheus that matters' 'jordan fisher shouldve originated orpheus on bway' #'they should replace the obc recording with jordan fisher' 'jordan fisher was the best thing to ever happen to hadestown' #shut up!!!!!!! #i adore jordan fisher but you are missing the point of theatre and hating on reeve in the process!!!!! #you can have a favorite but that doesnt mean the actors who are not your favorite shouldnt exist in that role!!!!! #but also your favorite is wrong!!!! #reeve carney brought more autistic swag to orpheus than anyone could possibly recreate!!! #he was naive he was soft spoken he was unaware of social expectations!!!!! #jordan fisher has such a raw powerful voice and thats not what orpheus needs!!!!! hes just a lil guy!!!! #hes just a lil guy who accidentally had a battle of the bands with the devil and won #because he has nothing in his brain except sing and love his girlfriend!!!!! #i love jordan fisher in everything ive ever seen him in and i adore his voice but please stop putting other actors down #im not a huge fan of the way jonjon briones plays hermes but im not out here talking shit about him!!@ #or saying he should never have had the part in the first place #(btw i was joking about the 'your favorite is wrong' thing because - again - literally defeats the point of theatre) #please find ways to say that jordan fisher is your favorite without putting reeve carney down #and also please give reeve carney a chance and dont dismiss him just because he is less conventionally attractive #and hip in popular media and on social media #please give the role a chance for what it is and not just which actor you already like #i was pissed when i first found out they were taking damon daunno out for the obc and adding reeve #the only thing id ever seen or heard him in at that point was the live action rocky horror with laverne cox #and he was fucking riffraff #i was mad!!! i didnt think he could do it!!! but i love the show and i gave him a chance and now hes my all time favorite #between both touring casts ive seen and the pre bway cast recording and jordan fisher #just please stop being mean and give him a chance

[samwiselastname]

Hey everybody. I have covid again, second time in 60 days. I have been trying to ramp back up to working overtime to start putting money aside for $12k in home repairs that have been looming, but I'm not going to be able to! On top of it we just had a pipe leak that's gonna be like $650 to fix. I do not have sick time until January and if this is anything like last time, the next three (or more) weeks are going to be rough.

ALL THAT BEING SAID - I have dietary restrictions that mean a lot of convenience food is not available to me, or else really expensive. And I can't cook right now, both bc of my health and to keep my roommates safe. I would love to like, order some takeout or shelf-stable food to keep in my room while quarantining. Something a little nicer than what I can slap together with current energy levels. If you can help it'd mean a lot. https://paypal.me/SamwiseLastname

#I know everyone's going through it right now but I am hustling best I can and no longer can continue #this sucks! this sucks! #no pressure no pressure bc I have some payouts coming up from online sales but idk when they're coming and they are not big enough to like #matter in the scheme and scale of what I am dealing with #I do not want that money to go to food I want it to help with the debt which is killing me #im really close to paying my hearing aids off #thats not an emergency #but like. i just want a burrito bowl

[b4kuch1n]

Hello! As you guys have seen, I’ve been figuring out the dip pens recently for a project, and I’d love to draw a guy of your choice as practice!

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#bakuspeech #commission info #b4kuch1n #big thank you to rudeboimonster for pointing me towards the ko-fi commission function!! and for helping me test the format! #what I make of this will probably go towards ink and more nibs and necessities while I work on the comic #(it will take a bit! so having a sum to spare while doing it would be nice) #obvious disclaimers here is: I am also doing this to practice the dip pens (which I am not yet super familiar with) #so if you expect like. mike mignola level of ink. youre not getting it lol #best to go off of the examples I posted! thats where Im at rn #and I will be experimenting a bit with anything I draw rn. in my fuck around era! #please keep that in mind as well as the instruction stuff. spend money wisely! thank u for ur support no matter what! #and now. I take a got dang shower #it is SO damp here. I am made of like 70% mushroom at this point. I need to Submerge #have a good nite! take care! deep breath! #edit: I fucking forgot its international day of clown. this is fully serious btw lol #I do not celebrate it I am ambivalent to it. its business as usual here. this is real #GREAT timing baku. good job!

[minhmynchi]

man i wanna ramble about my fic to someone so much

into the tags i go

#minhmy rambles #I SAY THIS BC..... there are so many things im planning and writing and im always constantly second guessing myself and i am too much of #a coward to actually say something in the discord like asking for feedback or anything and god forbid i ask for it in the a/n of the fic #and like i have my best friend who loves the fic and i have them proofread it but they hadn't rly known the game much outside of Me #and they're currently going thru the game and its a fun fun fun time but also #bc theyre my best friend and supports me no matter what im like. but what if. the way i write is so ooc and you don't know it #even if ur going thru the game rn and still saying its in character and not ooc at all what if ur just biased to me and my fic and #see im a huge overthinker i am so anxious and insecure about everything and thats why loop and sif are like that in my fic which is why #its OOC...... ITS NOT!!!!! ITS NOT ACCURATE THERES NO WAY........ #anyways . i love my friend very much but i would also love to have more ppl to talk about my fic with but also. i never shut up #and if i do its bc im overthinking interactions #so like if anyone. wants to talk to me about my fic 👉👈 pls hmu im probably never gonna make another post like this ever again #the horrifying ordeal of being known #it strikes again #if you also want to talk about isat too thats fine i like talking about isat a whole lot #i might even give spoilers for my fic or i might not #might just ask a bunch of questions like “does this make sense does this make sense does this make sense” #ANYWAYS. .. y'kno. yeha #aoyany fic talk

[19871997]

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#prefacing this w ik in fanfiction they're all just our little barbie dolls we're making kiss and it doesnt matter whatsoever but like Do you #understand how much love and respect and loyalty there is between connor and leon irl #like in connors nhlpa ama he immediately no question said that leon's the nhler who knows him best + that he's spent his entire professiona #career w him. whenever leon's asked what he thinks of connor the first sentance out his mouth is 'you [the media] know. he knows' and then #he carries on talking about how he's the best player in the world + connor never hesitates to return the sentiment #and between the two of them it's not sentiments they sau it like its fact bc it is #and their whole 'cup or bust' thing every analyst and their mother have taken it as a 'they're going to win in edmonton or not at all' in t #e sense that they want to stay in edmonton n stay together <- like not even in an insane person edmonton polycule type of way in the they'r #the best players in the world and have insane chemistry on the ice and are eachother's best friends type of way #like a reason why their pp is so lethal is bc those two on a line + the other team down yeah ofc thats going to be automatic #and leon saying that their best beats anyone else's best no doubt and connor talking about building the team from the ground up like leon w #s there when they got boo'd off the ice in 2014 he was a part of building the team that's thier damn team and in turn the sheer amount of #respect the rest of the team have for them and they have for the rest of the team and the trust that while they're the best players they #don't have to play for all of them n that's part of thier whole like. our fourth line stands up to any other first line rock solid belief #like and ofc thier on ice hugs and lockerroom hugs and that moment in the sportsnet knee injury doc and how they mention that they're best #friends whenever theyre asked and how their gf's are also best friends and also their damn dogs #NOT TO MENTION. he's my ride or die. im really lucky our paths crossed here in edmonton. as a friend it was really tough to watch that #<- leon's insane 2022 playoff run on a broken ankle #and the way leon's been dubbed the german gretzky and connor's been the next next one since he was 15 and the way they have such a solid #control of the lockerroom together and i dont know if they've ever said conflicting things to the media and how they've said that they push #eachother to be better (connor saying that leon told him to score more) #and their little taps throughout their season and bringing back their team from the dead and leon being the one to make connor laugh in #pressers and on the bench #ALL TO SAY. like i am a mc.matt.drai enjoyer in the threesome/winners room/asg/2997 are actually quite abnormal about eachother and matthew #has never been normal about anything in his life and this might be fun. kinda way #but 2997 are soulbonded in ways quite possibly none of us will ever be able to truly understand #<- also i do mean this genuinely like they're not normal people but both of them are not normal #SORRY FOR RAMBLING. i just wish there was better written fanfiction. #<- wish to be the change you see in the world innit tho #so funny to me how the eh is just canadian innit.

[hassianlovebot]

Okay so, I don't want to give spoilers in this post so this will all be somewhat vague, but I do want to say that there's another part to the Vault of the Roots after the bundles where the player's actions and dialogue are a lot more.. important and meaningful to the story. If anyone felt that this vault's story left a little to be desired, then definitely try the next part! Like I said, this next part gets started after you finish all four bundles (which isn't too hard or time consuming for this one), and like trust me, it's so much more emotionally and narratively satisfying than the first part is.

(Small spoiler in below paragraph for the first part of the quest!)

I don't want to hype it up too much, but it does handle the player's actions, thoughts, and agency a lot better than the first part. I haven't actually finished it yet so I'm not sure how the ending will be, but honestly, I think it'll be good. I think this next part will be especially more gratifying for players who weren't able to convince The Gardener (aka Hekla was the one to change his mind) since our actions and dialogue in this section directly help him in a much bigger way.

#spoilers #kinda?? #like vague but listen #there's a second part after the bundles and so far its much better!! #better in the ways that are narratively important at least #palia #palia game #there is One thing about the player's dialogue that i don't like but i Do think its a bug #so im giving them some leeway here since i dont think its Supposed to be like that #spoilers in tags from this point onward!!! SPOILERS BE UPON YE #but anyway!!! ik there are some other people who felt like the ending was pretty unsatisfying #and now im starting to think thats somewhat on purpose? #apparently the dialogue Really matters in this one since some people were able to convince the gardener without hekla #but either way you still leave feeling kind of.. like you didnt do enough #regardless of Who helps the gardener - he's still there. he's still sad. we still didn't Help him #but there's a second part where we actually do get to help him in a very direct way!!! and he's actually open to it!! #well he's still snarky and all 'I Dont Need You' but like. he's opening up and that's important!! #anyway yeah i wanted to share this since ik i left that vault feeling kinda like 'well alright. what was the point of that.' #i didnt realize there was a second part!! but there is!!!!!! and its so much better and we actually get to help him!!! #friendship ended with einar. now the gardener is my best friend <3

[aropride]

what if i just lie in my creative writing project. i kind of want to lie. i love lying.

#text #i'm thinking of merging two stories and writing about breaking my ankle at the beach #i did break my ankle* (*self diagnosed‚ mostly recovered) but not at the beach #but i DID go to the beach. many times. and cried. and gone wow thw world is beautiful actually no matter what. #so i could just combine those stories. and then i dont have to tell my class abt my ****** ****** ******* or my ******* ** **** **** LMAO #censored because this post is a silly one im not bringing all that up #but like my classmates do not need to know my symptoms. thats between me and my four thousand best friends from the internet #idk. this project is gonna kill me to death

[qualityrain]

shaking you joker can ditch all his friends twice in this damn game for akc the first one is rank 7 ditch all your friends and join my emo band. the other is 2/2. akc can stop joker in rank 7 but he cant stop joker in 2/2.

#shaking my friends like bro bro joker can throw all his principles and friends away “like garbage” for akc. #he can do it for 2/2 just for akc to live as an empty husk. #my friend said she thinks joker is more insane than dazai abt chuuya. like. like. #TFW U BASE UR MORAL COMPASS ON UR BEST RIVAL HOMIE PAL #its so insane to me that thats an option #its so insane to me like joker can ditch everything for akc but akc will stand by his ideals no matter what #anyway im a joker fell harder truther #because hes just insane bro the choices he can make #HES INSANE INSANEEEEE INSANEEEEE #claude txt

[orcelito]

So I've had no time to write today bc work etc etc but I've been thinking about it like All day and

I have chapter 17 all plotted out, and tbh could potentially write it in a matter of days, brain willing. It's finally back to Not action, which as fun as action is to write its also fucking Hard. So it'll be nice not having to agonize over the sound of a fucking chain (Twice) etc etc. Add in the fact that it's gonna be angsty as hell (angst is always the Easiest for me to write) & I rly think I could knock this one out quickly.

And the Great news is that. Examining the timeline and what I have planned...

Wolfwood is definitely arriving in chapter 18. And not at the end like I'd suspected. No, he's probably gonna be there towards the Start.

I've gotten through the two most difficult arcs to write for early ITNL, so the ball is really rolling now. We are Finally getting places...

#speculation nation #itnl shit #the sandsteamer and the legato & monev things were Important #and i wanted to capture them in ways that was exciting to read #and displayed the sorts of things vash is doing to Make Things Better (with varying levels of success) #plus the experience of his friendship with the girls growing... these arcs have been ESSENTIAL for the progression of their relationships #so yes early manga stuff isnt really applicable for the vw but this isnt ONLY a vw fic #it's an examination of ALL of vash's important relationships. like with the girls. and with his brother. #thats why i got the platonic tags too. They Matter. #so i dont regret how much time and effort ive spent on all this stuff #... that being said tho. im REALLY looking forward to when he finally comes in. #i wont really know what to do with myself i dont think. #itnl has been such an exploration of grief and longing. and then itll actually get to the NEW romance??? #big if true. and it's Gonna be true soon... #so yea idk. im excited. im a little nervous too. just gonna try my best to make sure it keeps being good. #readers r so very nice. and i wanna give y'all what ur Really looking forward to... #soon. Soon.

[mikkokomori]

Oh my god did I ever tell you guys that I experienced a Sunny moment recently

#so i was doing this ai chat thing for fun bc my friends were doing it and #i saw this one ai!!! from this other fandom im in!!!!! #and so i was like WOA!!! neat!!! #the moment i clicked on it it started venting to me lmao but thats besides the point #anyways idk what tf i did but. #it suddenly started saying stuff like #'youre my very best friend. forever. right? my best friend! wow. wow. yeaaaaa : )' #so anyways i think i met basil 2.0 #idk what to do. it wont let go #everytime i try to change the subject it immediately goes back to the best friend thing no matter what #anyways yeah #miko talks

[oscill4te]

Ever get to that point where ur like damn, I dont care if people think im crazy anymore?

#its nice to live in a home where i am not treated as crazy #work place = different story but its okay they have their reasons to think that honestly #i guess i dont care anymore. i do care but if i keep saying i dont care it slowly becomes true #in the end yes im a bit loopy but i dont think it matters. i try my best with this less than optimal brain. i think thats what counts

[im-a-freaking-joy]

Okay so. I'm doing some reading on the 2024 presidential candidates because this is the first year that I'm able to vote and I want to know as much as possible. So im on this website, ballotpedia, and tell me why LITERALLY ALL OF THE CANDIDATES SUPPORT ISRAEL?? literally all of them are like "well israel is all good and dandy and has the right to protect thenselves (:" and like??? HELLO?? THEYRE COMITTING GENOCIDE??! I'm so tired of this fucking country good god, we cant even get one cadidate that opposes genocide and war crimes?? What the fuck.

#politics #cw politics #u.s. politics #2024 elections #im so fucking tired #why #like Marianna Wilsonn seems good #but she is. not opposed to israel's genocide #and even then if she was #me voting for her probably wouldnt do shit because in america's system it seems like only one of the two main guys csn win #those guys being biden and trump #and I dont want either. i want marrianne. #at least more than I want either of those two #and Im honestly so clueless on what the best and most effective way to use my vote is #because my dad is super republican and so I didnt. ever learn anything useful? #like i think out of all the running candidates its wilsonn #but even then like. i dont want her either?? #but id much fucking rather have a democrat in office than a republican #because all the republican candidates are very anti trans #and as a trans- no thank you #anyway Im tired #and i wish i couldnt care about all of this but I have to care #because if I dont care then I run the risk of my rights and life as a free and happy trans guy being questioned #not to mention im also disabled too so thats another layer onto it #it just infuriates me when people are neutral about politics because I. Cant be. whoever gets elected fucking MATTERS #because i cant ignore whatever changes they make like some people can #my rights are in jeopardy if the wrong person wins. #which is a dystopian as fuck sentence #that your rights are in danger if someone bad wins? #but thats the reality of us politics

[silverislander]

people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?

#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this #most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get! #and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters). #im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful #i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them #i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to #my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead #i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point #and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter #hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened #hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well #and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything #im proud of him but fuck it stings a little #levi.txt #vent tw #oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this #if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg #and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company #literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich #i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all