#If I want to get lung cancer

[pointless-letters]

“And the people who also die of lung cancer thanks to my second-hand smoke will happily lay their lives down to protect my freedom!”

#Daily Express #Right wing politics in a nutshell #Freedom without responsibility #Smoking #Listen #If I want to get lung cancer #To own the libs #That’s my business #And you can stick that in your pipe #And NOT smoke it snowflakes #So there #And when you do die of that terminal lung cancer #The average IQ will go up

[riaki]

WHY DONT U LIKE HIMENO X AKI?? i thot theyre kinda cute 😭 better than aki x makima...

i just. i have a deep hatred for her... she literally tried to gr00m denji and she just annoys me. also bc i love aki he's too good for everyone no one deserves him especially not h*meno ik she smells. AND SHE SAID SHE ONLY LIKES HIM FOR HIS FACE EUGH there aint no way she went to heaven like aki said she did

#the only ship w him i can tolerate is akiangel... if i try hard enough... obv riaki is the best 😓😢 #do not even get me STARTED on aki and makima EWWWW we all puked #i hate h*meno sorry if its like incredibly petty idc #yes shes hot but shes also trash and just a terrible person overall #the only good thing about her is her developing akis character #and using the ghost devil to hold him back in that one scene UGHHH #ig she gets brownie points cus shes the one who made him get piercings and smoke which is kinda hot. but lung cancer isnt hot so nvm #thats it. #honestly r there any cute couples in csm #reze and denji on top though!! #whos excited for the csm movie #MEEEE #give me more aki content idc if its akiangel ill take any crumbs i can get #nonnie! #inbox 💌 #all jokes aside ship who u want idrc its none of my business as long as its not like. weird or gross or just stupid #me x aki 4ever #when im (himeno) in a terrible person competition and my oponent is makimeat

[opens-up-4-nobody]

hi so so sorry if this sounds genuinely deranged but I need to know did you write a fanfiction in like 2014 that was set during ww2 where zoro from one piece was sent to a japanese internment camp and sanji went to conversion therapy I remembered it recently because it blew my mind at age 13 and I had to reread it + need a kind of where are they now with the author so if that's you 1) what's your stance on the fic today 2) how much of the research was done during writing and how much did you just know beforehand and used as inspo 3) did you have any ideas for where the other characters ended up because I did always wonder if like idk chopper overcame the trauma of being in the war and also just what usopp's situation would be in general what with the political climate. once again. if you didn't actually write this fic so sorry this must look like the ravings of a crazy person. godspeed

Hi. Uh, yeah I did write that fic. I would have been like only 17 at the time. I did do A LOT of research, like the fic was basically an excuse for me to research Japanese internment and WWII history in general bc I thought it was super fucked up. I was absolutely hyperfixated on the topic and my parents probably thought i was nuts for my ability to talk at length on this particular area of history. I just finished skim reading back through the fic and woof. What a bleak fucking story. I was very cruel to everyone. It's frustrating bc I think it's an interesting and compelling idea for a story. But to me it feels like: here is all the research I did and also characters talking in what feels like a too modern way. Plus, I was 17 and didnt understand people very well. I wish I had the energy and motivation to rewrite it. Although, I forgot I used to do song lyrics at the start of each chapter and the tonal dissonance of Owl City lyrics at the top of a chapter of harrowing events around the time of WWII is unfathomablly unhinged.

#as for where r they now? i forgot the last chapter was like fuck u nothing matters life goes on sanji probably died of lung cancer #like jesus dude calm down. i think now id give them a bit of a softer ending #like i mean sanji still prob dying of lung cancer but he lives a long life with zoro and thry make the most of the time they have together #and i mean when u see horrific things in war i imagine its something u never really get over but i think the crew members that became #soldiers go on to live fuffilling lives and usopp finds a stable and relatively well paying job. gets married and lives happily ever after #god. its so frustrating to me that ill probably never rewrite this. it could habe been so good #but i just dont have thst kind of energy. i do think abt this fic more than almost all my other tho #im glad u liked it anon. its a fucking unhinged fic just from the perspective of: rural ohio teen wants to research a fucked up aspect of #ww 2 history and decides to write a fucking fanfic abt it. like bro what why. but idk weird weird times #there could have been themes and exploration of trauma and adversity. complex relationships. but no u get cringe written by a child #and now at the age of nearly 26 i am old and tired. christ thst was almost 10 years ago. i was a whole different human #weird the fanfics that stick with u. i have many i think abt from hs. wonder where the authors r now... #unrelated #i also forgot that in the authors nots i was like: if u r a n4zi fucking kill yourself. #which i standby but i was not expecting to see thst in the notes of a one piece fic i wrote as a kid good god

[immabreaksmth]

WHY DO PEOPLE WANT WILL TO SMOKE!?!?! DO YOU WANT HIM TO DIE?!?!? HASNT HE BEEN THROUHH ENOUGH?!?!? WHY CRUEL WORLD WHYYYYYYYY

#byler #will byers #this is my inner mike but not really #he could get lung cancer or whatever!! #i thought we didnt want him to die!!

[terrifyingstories]

ya'll i got a practicum!!!!!!!

#out. #cancer mention / #sibling death mention / #i haven't really spoken about this to anyone other than laura and dax but my sister passed away at the beginning of may and we found out #literally two days later that my mom most likely has lung cancer #so it's been probably the hardest couple months of my life and i've been just WRECKED and i thought about dropping out more than once #because i was in such a low place mentally where just. Nothing Mattered and I Didn't Care #but i was just accepted to this amazing placement where i get to work with kids in foster care and foster families and it just feels so #right and i'm just having a Crying Moment because everything has been SO much but i'm so profoundly grateful and EXCITED and i haven't been #able to really feel that in awhile Because of Everything #it's really everything i've wanted as someone who really wants to work with kiddos specifically kiddos in care #plus it's seven minutes away from home which was a big concern given i don't know what's going to happen with my mom going forward and i'm #her primary caregiver (she's 89 besides Everything) #funnily enough literally right next door to my sister's church which like. i'm not religious (big christian family don't practice not into #it you know) but it was a place she loved and that feels nice #ANYWAY THIS WAS A RAMBLE but i'm just feeling a lot of things and wanted to put them down somewhere #now that i've gotten a placement and i have that stress off my shoulders i would love to be around more #grief / #death / #depression /

[originalkid-basement]

There has to be some sort of subliminal messaging or universal omens thing going on or SOMETHING because last night I had ANOTHER dream about smoking and I just now found an entire box of new cigarettes outside my house. They're the expensive ones too

Last night I had a dream that I went to the store and got a huge thing of cigarettes and I smoked the entire thing and I got addicted and kept going back to this store to get more and then I went on a hunting trip and spared a bunch of albino deer because I wanted to know if there was a chance they'd survive. But I did kill a bunch of deer that were like rusty red but for some reason I thought of it as like mercy killing because they'd never survive and it was better than me letting them suffer

#tw addiction #? #cw smoking #i swear ive never smoked in my life and i dont plan on it until im 21 but they have been EVERYWHERE for the past week #cheriesdreams #the universe is trying to get me to smoke #someone wants me to get lung cancer

[areus-in-a-little-cave]

:( I miss technoblade

#areus rambles #cw cancer #cw death #one of the comments from technodad........ man #2 dozen tumors in his lungs by the time they found it #he discontinued treatment around the time he unprivated all those videos #man. #I remember watching the unprivated videos #and just like. he was my age in them. and he wanted to be a writer and idk man #I started crying watching it because like. god I get it. I mean like adhd teenage kid wanting to be a writer and publish novels like. #yeah. #yeah #that's where I'm at #and just. I wanted him to beat it so bad #:(

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

realised the reason my heart issues freak me out is partly because unlike any of my pain it’s harder to just deal with it or find ways around it and also it could be a lot more dangerous than most of my other day to day medical stuff and also it was one of my cancer symptoms

#we brought down my medication dose and im still having issues #we could bring it down again but my doctor wants it high to decrease any chance of recurrence which is slightly higher for me #i haven’t had any caffeine amounts other than a little bit of chocolate since 10 am this morning #maybe im just tired or overtired or whatever but if i stand up im immediately tachycardic #it’s. like ive never fainted or anything but im recording higher and higher heart rates in response to exertion that shouldn’t be producing #that at all. like i took it manually so maybe i was wrong but i went up a slight hill and some stairs that usually leave me around 120-125 #not great but whatever. and i also used to be a runner so i make sure to control my breathing so that doesn’t have a big effects #this week? went to class up that hill and those stairs. sat down. took my pulse. i recorded 148 bpm #i live in a single room and stuff and im a little nervous about this potentially getting worse #plus like. im usually chill abt my cancer bc all they had to do was whip my thyroid out and that’s been it and it hadn’t been an #easy process per se but it wasn’t as intense as it could have been and im very lucky #but there is a chance of recurrence and treatment decisions were less ‘what will make it less likely the cancer returns’ and more ‘which #cancer chances do i wanna take’ #it was between radiation induced bone or breast cancer vs recurrence of my cancer (comes back most often as bone or lung) #and i. would not like to have to deal with that el oh el #im mostly fine it’s just been an off day and simply standing and getting an average bpm of 108 (the thing i use averages it out) is weird #not to mention showering was hellish bc I could feel my heart pounding #vent tw #cancer tw

[lilly-white]

me: Hey what do you do to lessen emotional reactions when people are shitheads to you in this industry?

author colleagues, invariably: I take Xanax and I drink darling. I also eat my emotions and then go shout about everything on twitter and tiktok

me: great that’s really helpful thanks

#when i mention i'm gonna drink my colleague is like 'hahaha i adoooore you' #uh no my brain is in shambles lmao becoming an alcoholic is not in fact on my list #indie adventures #thank god for FF7 omg i would be a shriveled corpse if it wasn't for these 'chocobo & chill' mixes #also i wish CBD oil worked #i really want to try smoking some but i also don't want to get lung cancer you know

[howarddevotoeater]

I can't believe my mom is dying it's so fucking unfair

#it's so unfair to everyone... #this March just a bit of a tumor in her lung and lymph nodes... now all around her spine IN HER BRAIN just everywhere #people don't really survive metastatic brain cancer... like it doesn't get cured... I only just found that out #I just want her to see me do the things she's been wanting to see me do #unfair #I don't get it #it's all happening too fast... #I hate this

[boysnberriespie]

The unending struggle to explain to people that shaming smokers was never gonna solve anything and tobacco companies target marginalized communities and we will never be free as long as you blame other people for their suffering and addiction is addiction is addiction and I’m tired…

#sorry the way people talk about smokers just makes me want to give up on quitting ngl #like makes me feel like shit and in turn makes me want to pick it up again #‘we know it’s bad for you why would you ever start’ I was in pain and suffering Samantha #I know it’s really hard for you to believe that people make harmful choices #when they have severe life problems and mental illness #but uhh it’s true 🙄 #like I’m sorry I wasn’t intending to live past 22 and didn’t care about the potential lung cancer I would get at 50 #I’ll make sure to live in the lap of luxury in my next life

[asiancatboy]

back sore. when i lie down & breathe in deep, i get a sharp shooting pain :/

#i can't tell if the pain is down my spine or deep in my chest. it just like. it hurts bad #i think it's both but it hurts so bad i don't want to try it again bc it's the kind of pain that feels like it could lock #not consulting google bc the last time i did it told me i have lung cancer. #every time i think maybe i should go get it checked out it fixes itself & i'm like. well. that's that #7

[smerzbeliever]

i'm glad i don't live in war torn syria but also fuck my grandfather for moving from the mediterranean to the eastern seaboard of the united states

#his family members moved to france and became very successful but he just haaad to #to move to the nastiest most miserable country on earth where everybody hates each other and wants to shoot each other over ring cam footage #i know we hate france on here but come on just like in terms of quality of life.. get real #i'd love to live in a place where there's orange trees in the park and #sure i'd dress terrible and get lung cancer by the time i'm 30 but at least i could go see a movie without wondering if i'm gonna get shot

[soryualeksi]

Okay, so. I'm ALL for not spreading, you know, deadly fucking disease to your fellow human beings, but WHAT is it with people, like, pretending to not understand the mere concept of a common cold anymore??

I keep being made an unwilling participant in a discussion that goes as follows:

"Hm, I have a cough and a sore throat."

"Oh dear."

"But I keep testing for Covid every day before coming into work."

"That's the responsible thing to do."

"The tests keep coming back negative."

"That's good to hear. Let's hope it stays that way."

Now normally, this would be the end of this extremely awkward sickness-smalltalk that I don't actually wanna know anything about. But no. Then they suddenly double down.

"I don't trust the tests."

"Well, I trust you to have done the tests in the correct manner, so if they keep coming back negative I would assume you don't have Covid."

"But I have a cough and a sore throat."

"Yes, I mean, it could just be a common cold. Those still exist."

"But I've been like this for a week now."

"Colds are like that."

"But also my head hurts a bit."

"Colds do that, too."

"But also I feel kind of tired and ill."

"Yes, that's... Look, I'm sure that before Covid you've had a cold at some point, too?"

"But I don't trust the tests."

AND THEN IT JUST GOES ON LIKE THIS.

WHAT IS BEING EXPECTED OF ME HERE.

;_;

I don't want to invalidate people feeling worried and then I usually say, look, if the ONE blob of nose slime that contains like three little particles for the test to come back positive on, is hidden SO deep within your nasal cavities you can't get it on your swab no matter how hard you poke around there, then even if you HAD Covid - which you don't - I think it's unlikely there'd be enough of the virus in that other little blob of nose slime over there you could possibly fling into the air IF you coughed wetly on the next person without covering your mouth.

Like?? Is this a new kind of social ritual I don't understand??? Are we signaling our place in the "We are mindful of the pandemic" hierarchy by??? Insisting our runny nose must be from Covid and we just cannot detect it AND ALSO IF YOU'RE SO WORRIED THAN WHY ARE YOU AT WORK WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT WHY DO I HAVE TO PARTICIPATE IN THAT

???

I don't wanna have this discussion anymore, I don't know what to say other than "In this case the evidence points to: common cold."

What is the purpose of this discussion, what answer do they want, what am I supposed to provide them. ;_; Please. You probably have a cold. If you feel so shitty that you have to constantly let me know, than maybe you should go get sick leave from your doctor, why are you telling ME, why do you believe that there's no other respiratory infections besides Covid anymore, WHAT DO YOU WANT, and also WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO GIVE *ME* YOUR DISGUSTING-ASS COLD SOB

I'm sorry for ranting, but this keeps happening and I'm TIRED. If you're really, truly worried you are infectious with a nasty disease, then stay the fuck home. And if you're not. Then WHY. Are we having this stupid discussion.

;_;

#I'm so confused and tired #this keeps happening #'my daily tests are negative but my throat is scratchy wow i think I'll pass the fuck up your lungs and blood vessels disease to you' #it's a cold and i don't care about your colds everyone has a scratchy throat this time of the year #if you're ill stay home #if not then don't try to rope me into endless 'but maybe it's covid after all don't you think' discussions #'but i don't get how i can feel under the weather and also my nose is runny' IS THIS A GAME I'M NOT GETTING #sob #it's so stupid to be annoyed about this but it just. keeps. happening. #if you think you'll give our cancer and dialysis patients the death cough than don't come #if you keep testing and nothing comes up and you do the tests right than i still can't help you #YES SOMETIMES YOUR THROAT WILL BE SCRATCHY THAT'S CALLED A COLD IT'S AUTUMN WHY IS THIS MY PROBLEM #maybe they actually want sympathy and 'wow this must be so hard on you' #but also i can't do more than say 'i hope you'll feel better soon and also I'm sure you'll live' #and frankly i don't want to #??? #random ranting #soryuchan's personal issues #I'm just tired i don't mind comforting people but the 'my throat is itchy' discussions are getting too much #too. much.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

doctors are like “look out for symptoms” and im like “but which ones and how do i know they’re not caused by one of my other issues” and there’s no answer

#going to bed now but anyway #‘bring anything up if you’re concerned’ can we scan my body please just to be safe #i mostly wanna make sure my lungs are fine bc i have bad acid reflux that’s probably gerd so that causes a tickle in my throat a lot #but also one of the symptoms that can show up early for lung cancer is a cough that can come from irritated airways #bad fatigue is also a symptom but again. other issues #i don’t want to get to more worrying coughing or something before we look #im a little paranoid bc i had extensive angioinvasion so we don’t know if there are more cells or if they’re setting up shop somewhere else #in my body. and we probably won’t do rai or if we do it’ll be months until we do it #but yea. shits wild. i probably need a new dr. anyway #im like a vampire but not and also worse

[ilygetou]

I SEE THAG U LIKE CIGS.. how was ur first cigarette how did it feel, i might try my first cigarette ever so could u share some tips with hiding the smell?

WOOOO IT WAS DEFINITELY SCARY.

especially because i did it behind my mother’s back and i knew that if by any chance i ever get caught i would be doomed <\3

The first puff from a cigarette was definitely hard, coughing everywhere until your eyes get teary n shit...but then after a couple more puffs like two or three i got the hang of it and it was pretty easy if you ask me, very smooth but risky process.

TIPS THAT I USED; okay so first off i purchased a bunch of mint gum, mentos, and a bunch of mint type breath removing stuff, AND THIS IS IMPORTANT scented perfume or cologne THE SMELL SHOULD BE VERY STRONG AND STICKS ON YOU FOR SO LONG. IT SHOULD BE A KIND OF A COMMON SMELL like vanilla or strawberry but anything that has a strong smell works as well.

extra: showering after smoking is also very helpful to remove the smell especially since the smell sticks on your hair as well, so if anyone got very close to you they MAY be able to smell cigarettes from your hair, so just to be extra careful, shower. Also brush your teeth!!! this should be very obvious but you know being extra careful is always helpful.

ALSO IF BY ABY CHANCE THE SMELL STILL STUCK ON YOU AND SOMEONE QUESTIONED YOU ABOUT, you could always bring up excuses like; “we passed by a bunch of smokers on the way” “my friends parents smokes (you can always add on this excuse like they smoked a whole pack)” ANY HALF-ASSED EXCUSE THAT U CAME UP WITH WOULD WORK, just don’t show that you’re nervous or anything, and don’t show signs that you’re hiding anything just be chill and calm while saying your excuse.

I HOPE THESE HELPS ANON<3

#tw. cigarettes #but remember smoking is really really bad for your health and i definitely do not recommend it hut if you want to do it #then fuck it it’s ur life live it #just remember that you could get several diseases from smoking #and that one of them is lung cancer WHICH U DON'T WANT TO GET #u also kost definitely don’t want that smoker voice #very deep and hugh pitched sometimes #sounds like ur dying #JUST BE CAREFUL ANON. #[ evelyn’s anons !] #[ evelyn's asks ! ]