#If [redacted] doesn't go on I WILL be upset

[theloveinc]

OlderDad!Bakugou who gets a haircut and his baby doesn't recognize him and he doesn't want his dad to pick him up 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Bakugou has a cry in the bathroom and you have to spend the rest of the night consoling him.

Also Hiiiiiii, miss u, hope youre gooooood

head in my hands bc of this, just thought abt bakugo growing out his hair a little bit right after baby's birth...takes him months to go and get a real haircut cuz he doesn't wanna burden you more than he already has and by the time he's okay with the thought (but only for "AN HOUR MAX," is what he says), he has a mullet thing going on and all this scruff on his chin🥺🥺🥺

so he gets home with his regular ol' haircut, maybe a little shorter just to account for ... not wanting to go again so soon, and baby's HOLLERING bloody murder as soon as they see him and refusing to be taken out of your arms, doing that thing where they're flipping their face back and forth to dodge a kiss...

it's so tragic bc not even a little cheek nuzzling helps to calm them bc bakugo's CLEAN SHAVEN and smells like aftershave instead of like dad when he tries!!!!!!

and after, you watch him kinda sulk into the bathroom, thinking like aw yeah thats a bummer but also pretty funny, too (esp bc the haircut does look good🫣🤓), AND HE DOESN'T COME OUT FOR LIKE an hour???

....until you finally have to ask him if he's okay in there and you're opening the door to him sitting on the toilet seat, arms crossed and red cheeks a little streaky with tears...

LJFKASDJFADSJK it's the cutest, most sad sight you ever did see!! ofc Bakugo tries to deny it, but the way he tears up again (after you're done assuring him he did nothing wrong) when his baby finally realizes it's him and smiles (and then how he refuses to give them up again until bedtime) has his ass. EXPOSED.

(i love and miss u more than air, earth, water, dirt + HOPE YOU'RE GOOD TOO BESTIE ILY)

#bakugo #HI PYGMY THIS WAS INSANE OF U TO SAY THANK U PYGMY MY BFFL #but sorry u said this and i had to rip the idea right out of your hands and put it straight into my mouth #i feel like i'm high on a drug i really do #bakugo doing that thing where he he refuses to leave baby or u for long periods and fights being told to go do something nice for himself #he's showing up to his first guys night in like 6 months and doesn't know what do with himself #needs a baby picture once and hour #and he gets home to baby asleep in the crib and YES he's upset he missed bedtime but also like. wow. alone time with y/n. #and he just wants to hold u🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and watch a movie and be together #and he;s finally at a point in his life when he's able to admit vulnerability and talks abt feeling like an inadequate dad. #and finally u just have to shut him up by fuc-[redacted for profanity] #oh my god gonna think abt this all night #ALL NIGHT I LOVE U PYGMY #caitie things #kids tw #gen #pygmy lurks

[teddybasmanov]

Mr ZSaku, what part of "April Fools" and "jokes" don't you understand? I know people who post this sort of meta-semi-forth-wall-break-brutally-honest-character-nonsense on Halloween and they're at least honest about it.

#zsakuva #I didn't watch the break up video because I knew it was going to upset me #because the jealousy one already did and I couldn't relate to the listener's actions and I was absolutely not in the mood to be yelled yet #because of something I never did/would never do #and here I thought it would be a joke - you know since it's April Bloody Fools - maybe it would be mean but at still a joke #but nope #it's also really funny how in the description he's like 'I'm glad there's discourse it means I caused you to feel things' #mate - we've been there - the 'controversial listener discourse' is not something you want - trust me - doesn't lead you anywhere good #I'm not really in the fandom but even I've seen it tangentially and yeps - been there done that #- it's exactly like with [redacted] and [redacted] and [information has been destroyed] and [information has been destroyed]

[k3fanblog]

Overview group stage polls (with links)

Reminder: Polls in this stage will last a week and only contain non-singles. The winners will continue to the main bracket, but the numbers 2 and 3 of each poll will get placed in another group stage of 4 polls of which the first 3 all continue.

Also, this is not voting advice but please do not discount newer songs just because they're not from the original K3

Poule 19 (Finished!)

Winner: Dieper dan de zee; 2nd place: Je doet maar wat; 3rd place after a Tie-break: Kusje van jou

Poule 20 (Finished!)

Winner: Jupiter; 2nd place: Alle baby’s; 3rd place after tie-break: Verliefd zijn

Poule 1 (Finished!)

Winner: Parels; 2nd place: Zonnestraaltje; 3rd place after a tie-break: Hippie happy holiday

Poule 2 (Finished!)

Winner: Iedereen is anders; 2nd place: De weddenschapsgospel; 3rd place after a tie-break: Sprookjesboek

Poule 3 (Finished!)

Winner: SMS; 2nd place: Hokus pokus dikke dokus; 3rd place: Altijd van je dromen

Poule 4 (Finished!)

Winner: Amor; 2nd place: Geloof in jezelf; 3rd place after a tie-break: Hollywood

Poule 5 (Finished!)

Winner: Wij zijn gibbertjes; 2nd place: Smoorverliefd; 3rd place: Superformidastisch

Poule 6 (Finished!)

Winner after a tie-break: 1, 2, doe met me mee; 2nd place: Etiquetterap; 3rd place after a tie-break: Verlegen vlindertje

Poule 7 (Finished!)

Winner: Verliefd (3 biggetjes); 2nd place after a tie-break: Telepathie; 3rd place: Voel je die zon

Poule 8 (Finished!)

Winner: Zonder liefde; 2nd place: Laat de wind maar waaien; 3rd place: Toetje

Poule 9 (Finished!)

Winner: Een ongelooflijk idee; 2nd place: Dat ding dat je doet; 3rd place after a tie-break: Mooier dan je denkt

Poule 10 (Finished!)

Winner: Lollypopland; 2nd place: Letter V; 3rd place: Ik schreeuw het van de daken

Poule 11 (Finished!)

Winner after tie-break: Jongens zijn gek!; 2nd place: Wij blijven vrienden; 3rd place: Meisjesdag

Poule 12 (Finished!)

Winner: Eeuwig en altijd; 2nd place: Fiesta de amor; 3rd place: Muziek

Poule 13 (Finished!)

Winner: Superster; 2nd place: Boembiboem; 3rd place: Hakuna matata

Poule 14 (Finished!)

Winner: Keileuke zomer; 2nd place: Liefde heeft je vleugels; 3rd place: Giddy-up-a-gogo

Poule 15 (Finished!)

Winner after a tie-break: Ali Baba; 2nd place: Opa; 3rd place: Wanneer zie ik jou terug

Poule 16 (Finished!)

Winner: Hey hallo; 2nd place after tie-break: Ra-ta-ta-ta; 3rd place: Jurkje

Poule 17 (Finished!)

Winner: Baby come back; 2nd place: Babouchka; 3rd place after tie-break: Filmster

Poule 18 (Finished!)

Winner: Mr. De president; 2nd place: Feestje in de keuken; 3rd place: Alles kan in Wonderland

#Best K3 song bracket #K3 #If [redacted] doesn't go on I WILL be upset

[straydogged]

:( it figures, I finally got my shoulder back in place with the help of a supportive pillow and a heat pack to make the muscles relax, and now it feels like it might be slipping out again because I am no longer holding myself up by a pillow.

#the state of my shoulders is. every time I think too much about it I get stressed #idk how I'm gonna wear a backpack for school hahah #maybe I need to look into a shoulder brace or something. kinesthetic tape doesn't mix well with my skin; I've tried it and it's not worth i #I wish I had a doctor holy shit!!!!! #idk how I'm supposed to get one when the organization that is SUPPOSED to match people to doctors straight up told me #that I would have to go to multiple walkins with the same issue in order to be fastracked to have a proper doctor #guys. I have a complex multisystemic genetic condition that requires a joint effort by multiple specialist to properly manage. #which. by the way. it has not been. I have recieved zero support from my doctor who I saw when I lived in [redacted] #even after I was diagnosed! and she fought the diagnosis so hard and gaslit me constantly only for the geneticist to tell me that he was #without a doubt certain that I have hEDS. it took SIX YEARS to get off the waitlist for him. #sorry I'm getting off topic #I just. I need a lot more medical support than I can access and it scares me and makes me want to cry #I don't know how to manage or recognize when something is wrong with my body because of the gaslighting and the medical neglect #and the thinking my body was completely normal so never really questioning symptoms #:( #I need to stop before I make myself even more upset

[juniefruit]

☆- biker bf minho -☆

y'all, happy almost friday. winter gloominess is kicking my butt fr. p.s, I like motorcycles, so this is totally not self indulgent...

word count: 946

Before you met, he was closed off and not really all that personable. His friends pestered him about it, too. He would never go back to living like that, though. Just looking at you brings a smile to his face without him realising it. Has he gone soft? Just for you. One thing he loves you for is that you understand his humor. He’s naturally sarcastic and witty. He can let his guard down around you and truly be himself. He knows when it’s time to joke around, or when to just chill out and take it easy.

Bonus points if you have a bike of your own, he would eat that up. Like, you get to go on little motorcycle adventures together? Sign him up. He loves when you can ride side by side looking cool af. 

Granted, he also loves having you on the back of his bike. He tries to act like having your arms wrapped around his waist doesn't affect him, but of course it does. He’s a sucker for physical touch, perhaps even touch starved before you started dating. When he has to speed up and he can feel your arms tighten… he has got to stay focused on the road. 

He looks absolutely godly in his tight leather riding gear. The jacket hugs his torso and shoulders just right, and the pants… (redacted)

If you have your own gear already, cool. If you don’t, he would love to go shopping with you to find something. It has to be perfect (his own words), because safety is the most important thing. 

So there’s this thing called a Cardo, but there's other brands too. It’s like a bluetooth speaker you can put inside your helmet, it can play music or act as a microphone. He got you one immediately. He couldn’t wait for Christmas, or Valentines, or your birthday. He’s too impatient for that. He enthusiastically ran up to you one day, with the box in his hand. For you!! He exclaimed. He helped you set it up, and afterwards, to test it out, he insisted you try talking through it in separate rooms. He was all smiles and giggles for the rest of the day. 

He’s not big on PDA, but he’s fine with holding hands or wrapping his around your waist in crowded spaces. Also, he definitely puts his hand on your lower back when he has to squeeze by or grab something near you, muttering a small ‘excuse me babe’. 

When you’re riding seperately, he will try to annoy you through the intercom. He’ll spew dad jokes, or honestly just make random noises. Until he figures out you muted him and he gets whiny and upset. You pull up to a stop light when he flips up his visor hastily. “Yah! y/nnie, did you mute me? What if I had something suuuper important to say?” 

Even though you constantly tell him to be careful… He knows his limits. As a biker, it’s in his blood to do at least a couple risky things a week. Whether it was a dare, or just to show off, he will pop a wheelie on the road. A couple times a month, he meets up with his other biker friends just to hang out. At first, you were intimidated. I mean, being surrounded by 8 biker dudes doesn’t sound too inviting. Minho promised they were nice, or at least some of them tried to be. He begged and whined, promising to take your share of cleaning the house for a week. When you finally complied, it really only took about 15 minutes but to Minho it felt excruciating. Minho gave you a soul crushing hug while repeating thank-you’s for a good while. Lucky for you, they were actually quite nice, but they take some getting used to. 

He definitely custom ordered sticker packs of his cats to plaster onto his helmet. He was so ecstatic when they came in the mail, and he spent the rest of the day showing off his newly decorated helmet to you. 

He definitely sends you funny videos or selfies of him in his gear while he’s out. He’s a victim of “helmet confidence”. Meaning, as long as nobody knows who he is, he’s 100% doing funny weird shit. It fuels something in him when he sees you flustered or embarrassed, it’s just a part of his nature. 

Motorcycles do require a bit of regular maintenance (if you want them to run properly) and over the years, Minho has learned how to do repairs on his bike at home. It’s cheaper than always going to the shop. He’s well versed in what his bike needs. He’s always offering up his help for your own bike. On bright spring days, the garage to your condo is pulled up, and the bikes are parked in the driveway. The bright green leaves are practically glowing as they shimmer against the blue sky. Minho’s got on a tank top and shorts; with a few tools by his side. When he calls you over, it’s because he made the executive decision to show you how to fix this one specific thing he’s working on.  You lean in close to him. His teaching voice is soft but firm as he’s always checking to see if you’re still paying attention. You’re more so paying attention to the way his biceps ripple when he moves, or the tiny sweat droplets forming on his brow. 

I would like to think that his motorcycle would be all black with a few mint/teal accents. It’s a sports bike, something along the lines of a Ninja or GSXR.

If you like drabbles like this, check out my masterlist :3

#stray kids #stray kids x reader #stray kids drabbles #stray kids imagines #stray kids oneshot #skz x reader #lee know x reader #minho x reader #lee know imagines #lino skz #stray kids x you #stray kids x y/n #lee know #lee minho

[anarchy-and-piglins]

okay i think i understand the assignment this time.

So due to humans being way more common the Origin society is very insular to protect themselves since they're usually seen as threats and oppressed. It takes a long time for the osmp to warm up to Techno. But eventually they do, basically seeing him as one of their own.

Small problem...they don't filter like they normally would when forced to interact with humans. Because one small mutter about mistreatment from humans can be really really dangerous when outside the hybrid community. The hybrids take a lot of comfort in being able to actually freely speak their minds in the safety of their community. And since they register Techno as 'one of them' he overhears a lot of nasty, frustrated comments about humans, like how they're all prejudiced garbage, or greedy expansionists encroaching on shrinking hybrid territory that despise nature, or whatever. Occasionally he might get a 'ah mate, don't worry you're not like them' from Philza or 'sorry I didn't mean it like that' from Niki or a 'you're basically a hybrid, not one of those [severely redacted]' from Tommy. Probably not from Ranboo I think she's prissy in origins I don't know. And Techno tries to not take it personally but he's highly aware of how human he is every time a comment like that is said.

And Techno obviously has some sort of problem with human society, since he's outcast enough to decide he's best off with hybrids. And hybrids are mistreated, so he gets it. So after a long time of offhand comments and occasional rants, he feels alienated but grins and bears it since he doesn't have anywhere else to go, and knows the hybrids also don't.

At the same time, he's keenly aware his friends would hate and fear him on sight if they didn't know him, and that he fits in, but he doesn't, and never will, belong.

UGH, ye, that's good.

And it's like, they're not doing it on purpose. Techno doesn't have the right to be upset because they're the ones who have been dealing with the terrible things humans have done to them and made the commune to escape that, they deserve to feel safe there. They're not even entirely wrong. Techno can (partly) attest to that with his own past.

But sometimes, the jokes sting. If nothing else, it pronounces that sense of 'not belonging' he struggles with.

Maybe he starts to think it would be better for all of them if he left.

#asks #technoblade #thoughts

[sarucane]

Why didn't Ed always protect Stede?

I'm a bit late to the party and only really got into OFMD with S2, so I've started watching S1 really thoroughly only recently. And I've noticed that there's this narrative in the fandom that Ed and Stede are super protective of each other, particularly Ed--but as I've gone through S1 (number redacted) times, it's been driving me nuts how much Ed doesn't protect Stede.

Sure, there's the meme we all love when Ed stands in front of the firing squad--but for most of the scene before that, he's been standing and watching Stede beg for his life. He's upset, but he doesn't intervene until it's nearly do late. And before that, Ed doesn't say or do a thing about Calico Jack treating Stede like shit--sure it's believable that he just doesn't notice the passive aggression, but not even catching the "Steve" thing? That's something that isn't even intervening, Jack could be making an honest mistake. But the thing no-protection moment that's really driven me nuts is this moment

In the scene before this, Ed and Stede have just had an incredibly emotionally intimate conversation. Ed is clearly at least half in love with Stede at this point. This is a relationship that means something important to him, this is a person he cares for deeply. And…and Izzy almost murdered Stede in front of him, because of him, and he just looked away.

But at the same time, Ed does love Stede, he does intervene to protect him from the English--at great personal risk and cost. By the end of S2 Ed's much better about this kind of thing (though I'd argue he's never as super-protective as I've seen suggested).

So what was going on here? Ed's a total softie inside, especially with Stede, so why was he like this?

And I've got a theory! Here goes:

Mr. "greatest pirate who ever lived" is, in fact, an overachieving rule-follower (cough teacher's pet cough).

Ed doesn't intervene to help Stede because Ed conforms himself to the rules set by whoever has the strongest personality in a room, or whatever "code" is being pushed on him/is easiest to follow.

I think this is part of why Ed often struggles to identify what he wants, or hold onto a firm sense of his self-identity. And I think it's a lot of why he's so attracted to Stede, and why that relationship is so important to his development: Ed is much less likely to follow the rules when he's one-on-one with someone, and spending a lot of time alone with Stede gives him much more mental space to understand what he wants.

And just like Stede is most successful when he doesn't try to follow the traditional rules of pirating, Ed is most successful--in his relationship with Stede and outside it--when he doesn't obsess over bending to the rules, and instead picks and chooses which ones to follow and which ones to discard.

I have a partly-written super-long version of this where I go episode by episode looking at how the rules theme works with Ed's character mechanics, but I'm just going to focus on the topic question here (I might get around to posting the long version, but I also might be distracted by something shiny;) )

So let's start with The Art of Fuckery and the thing that was driving me crazy.

Ed's core conflict in this episode was whether he'd going to send Stede to "doggy heaven." Why would he follow Stede to doggy heaven? Because according to Izzy, Stede is categorized as a pet, and Ed has "a policy regarding pets aboard your vessel." It's a rule. Ed has to follow it.

And Ed fully intends to follow it, right up until the kraken turns up and the rules go out the window. And then he's in a safe space with Stede, drowning in memory of the good rules he broke (don't kill people you love). But Stede rejects the idea that Ed breaking that rule makes him a bad person. He appeals, instead, to friendship. And offers his own rule: that they could pretend the murder thing never happened.

Because that's the amazing thing about Stede: he lives at the intersection of aristocratic and pirate rules (which isn't supposed to exist, and which drew Ed to him), and he makes up his own rules.

When Ed's with Stede, he can follow different rules, unlike anything he'd imagined. Can even sometimes make up his own rules. Can actually pay attention to himself, think about what he wants, what he likes and fears.

But when Ed's in a crowd, or alone with someone trying to impose something on him, he conforms. So when Izzy invokes Pirate Rules and steamrolls Ed ("no you're not doing this,") Ed lets him.

It's a character flaw, and it's a serious one...but it's also one Ed works on when he stops complaining about the treasure hunt business. And when he and Stede discuss the idea of co-captains, and arrangement that would break the rule that "a ship has only one captain."

Which Ed is able to do because he's in a safe space. Calico Jack disrupts that, and introduces a succession of games with clearly defined rules, which Ed follows one after another. And Ed has so little self-awareness, is so easily swamped by Jack's personality, that he doesn't notice how Jack's treating Stede, let alone defend him, and he bows to every hint of pressure.

And all that culminates in Ed having to make a decision: follow pirate rules, where everyone's just at "various stages of screwing each other over," or do what he wants. Go help his friend, the guy he loves.

Which just ends up with him being absorbed right back into the pirate system of rules. He tries to use this at first, faking a confession on the grounds that he's a "life is cheap sort of guy." But Izzy's outsmarted him, and Izzy invokes pirate rules again: that Ed told him the rule for a first mate was "above all loyalty to your captain."

Ed doesn't call out for the Act of Grace until the last minute. He could have done it at the trial--he didn't. This is a hard thing for him to do, because he's surrounded by rule-following pressure, from Izzy and from Chauncy. The last time he was in a situation like this, Ed just looked away and let Stede die (he thought).

But the thing about Ed is that he's "half insane." For years, he used the combo of being considered "mad" and also having Izzy around to have his cake and eat it too with rules, to be the world's greatest pirate and also hang onto his own authentic self.

As a result, Ed got good at finding loopholes. Places where you can follow the rules and break them, at the same time. Getting run through, but in a place that missed "all the important bits." Being sentenced to death, but asking for an Act of Grace.

It's a big deal when Ed steps in front of Stede like that. He's acting against pirate rules, risking being absorbed by the rules set by the English.

He does it for Stede--and that starts to set him free. After that, Ed's never just following the rules again. He actually can't, even when he tries: his going kraken at the end of S1 and start of S2 is doomed from the start and full of contradictions, starting with the fact that he's on Stede's ship, the ship with hidden passages where rule-breaking can be hidden until it's needed.

Ed struggles a lot to figure out which rules to follow ("I will abide by the guidelines"), which rules to set aside ("Can we take it slow?"), when to make up his own rules ("So we're innkeepers now."). And Stede helps him, telling him things like "This can be whatever we want it to be," and "you're not a dick, life's a dick."

I don't really have a clever conclusion to this particular meta. It's a messy thing, and individual figuring out how to their life does and does not intersect with society. This theme doesn't resolve neatly, it just stops at the end of the season, like the tension between Ed/kraken/Blackbeard.

But there's a lot of hope here, I think. When Ed acts to protect Stede, and to fight alongside him, he's not just being a protective partner. It's a learned action, the physical manifestation of a decision Ed's made about who he wants to be in the world. Rules be damned.

#ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd #ofmd s2 #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #ofmd meta #ed teach #stede bonnet #blackbonnet #izzy hands #gentlebeard #i swear there really is a much longer version of this this theme is hella iceberg #every single episode has references to rules guys this is A THEME running straight through EVERYTHING and i'm a moron for missing its size

[rocksibblingsau]

what are some of your headcannons for funk branch?

He was only just learning wiring/mechanics so he took some time to catch up to Funk science levels of advancements, but people were VERY encouraging of his progress.

He felt very out of place for a while (as much as Techno Branch) due to how Funk/Techno are visibly the most different to him.

Vibe City was very disorienting to him because there was 0 nature. Even the lowest point of the ship was still part of a ship. The escape bubbles didn't feel safe enough for him, so Essence and Quincy had a special escape pod built special for him for going off the ship/in case of an emergency.

Quincy and Essence were very horrified to learn of the Bergens, and felt some guilt as with their technology it would have been relatively easy to rescue Pop had they have known. Branch feels a little upset to learn that years of suffering could have been fixed by a device made in a single day, but accepts that it wasn't their fault. Quincy and Essence resolve to keep tabs on Pop just in case.

Branch likes Quincy's dad jokes, and getting kisses from Essence, but pretends to be Too Cool for them.

Personally I believe the gold/silver fringe is jewelry/clothing, so I like the idea Branch gets a fringe necklace like his family. Maybe at one point wore a fringe dress-like clothing that gave him a similar silhouette (minus the neck) as a bipedal Funk Troll. I also think he switches between glass like his dad and a gold hat similar to an old concept of Prince D (his appearance in some of the toy lines).

He's too short for a lot of things so when they get closer, Prince D lets Branch stand on his back for stuff.

He's worn a boa like Lownote's. It made him feel very fancy.

He likes disco music. [Further information redacted]

He goes by Prince B in the future, but some people say B for short, which ends up getting confusing when Blues is around. For many years before he accepted the 'Prince' title he was just B, so some people started saying Big B and Lil B.

R and B are called the 'Funk Sisters' and they dubbed Branch and D the 'Funk Brothers'. Branch doesn't get the title because surely there are TONS of siblings in Vibe City so why do THEY get the title?

#funk branch au #sibblings qna #trolls branch #queen essence #king quincy #prince darnell #prince d trolls #lownote jones #trolls rhythm #trolls blues

[takami-takami]

More venting, sowry. Actually embarassing to be doing this with this pfp, bye. Interact (like button) if you read.

Trauma, grief, sui threats, animal harm, abuse (not going to label it. Just assume it's in there). This is kinda long. It's honestly just a trauma dump but I'm just tired of holding it inside. Anyways.

Hiiiiii i'm so fucking stressed ^-^ Re: the situation with my dadddd. ^-^

Uragh. There was a huge argument last night. It's very harrowing living in this house. One day, you spend 2 hours talking someone through "dude this is literally wrong" and they're just... Chipper. Smiling into the phone, "uh, yeah. I know? Why do you think I did it?"

They detail to you exactly how much they want another person to hurt, to suffer, over a slight against them. Over "disrespect." You spend careful effort not to tell them how their actions made the other person cry, in case they find sick satisfaction in that. You listen to them detail the way they feel absolutely no remorse because they are incapable of such remorse. They only cry when recounting their own pain. They never cry for another. When another person cries that's sport, that's "games."

And a few days later, he's smiling asking you how you're doing. And everyone else is "trying" with him. I don't blame them, it's self protection.

Honestly. I think part of the problem here is that I'm just describing This week. Instead of a lifetime. You know?

Because I've sat through my dad telling me how people are pawns. Faceless. I've watched him boast with glee about how manipulative he is, how he wears the title "master manipulator" with pride. How he's the smartest person, how he's above everyone else. Don't mistake this as praise for him. In one of the hundreds of times he's talked to me about this he got six times seven wrong.

But anyways. I've seen how his face morphs into a smile slowly, crawling up his face as he gets me upset.

I'll give an example. One of the many times he basically tried to kill himself in front of us or said he was going to, he explained that the reason why is because he's personally experienced grief, and that's why he chose to do it as a punishment. Specifically so that we could feel the overwhelming experience of pain and anguish. He likes that kind of shit. Makes him feel all vindicated, ya know?

But he provides for us, cuz he cares about us or whatever. I mean, we're "extensions of him and he owns us" and all, if I'm being cynical; but he definitely is capable of love. At least, love the emotion, not the action. The problem lies in that he is physically incapable of feeling empathy, remorse, or guilt. Not having empathy itself is fine, by the way, like tons of people don't have empathy and are perfectly chill people but the problem lies in that he really doesn't have that "off" switch to stop him from doing sadistic things. It's a really bad combination.

I mean I guess there's fear. Of god, of being a bad person, of being like his father. I honestly don't know what's holding him together at this point.

It's just... A lot. Dealing with someone like this as your dad. But things are "better" now. Right? He just terrorizes mom now. He just picks fights now. It's not like "before." When he threatened to slice my pet rabbit up. When he threatened to [redacted] me. When he did something to me I don't want to talk about that I read is actually a war crime. Torture. You know? Stuff like that.

I feel... So much disgust in my body. I feel so much rage and shame. I don't even know why I'm posting this. But anyways.

It'd be an insult to call this "my story" or whatevs because it's nothing like that. I'm just... Tired. I thought I'd be happier not talking about what happened but I'm not. I probably won't feel any happier saying this either. But who knows.

I haven't been able to do my schoolwork. I'm supposed to get it done by tomorrow. I have to leave wednesday for my trip. Haven't done shit all day.

#SERIOUSLY heed the fucking tags #🐇 rambles

[ruisutea]

Why can't you love me back? - Capitano ft. Dottore

"You still love [REDACTED], huh..? "

...

Capitano x gn!reader

Angst - gore

CW - implied kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome(?), manipulation, mentions of dead loved ones(s/o), mentions of forced marriage, mentions of needles(or just dottore test subject), OOC(possibly), possible abuse, Capitano and you we're friends, one-sided love. Lmk if I missed any!

How long has this been going on now? You seemed to not recall.

Sitting in a fully equipped room, with a warm bed, and comfortable clothes.

And yet, it is still cold.

You are cold.

He is cold.

And everything that has happened, is cruel and cold. Life seemed to show you no sympathy, even after finding someone to devote your life to. Here you are now, chained to a room that is not yours.

Perhaps this is the consequences of befriending him? He was the one who did this, or in his eyes, you who dug your hole into this.

As your mind was Cluddered with thoughts, you hear the door open. Revealing a large shadow, him, with barely any light from behind.

"Y/n, my dear" he calls out.

You do not respond.

"You can't always act like this"

His voice was stern and cold, anyone could believe with such a stern voice he would be upset. Yet he breaks slightly at your refusal.

"Why won't you look at me?"

You don't dare to move an inch, not wanting to look at your captor, all that fills you when he comes by is disgust, hatred and confusion.

The silence is loud, he only sighs and closes the door walking towards your hunched figure.

"Y/n, I don't want to be your enemy, I just want to love you. Is that so hard to understand? This world, the people, that person you call your fiance aren't as safe as you may think. "

Every word he spat out made you feel sick, always the same excuse. How dare he say such things and calling it corrupt! He's been the one who forced you here, away from your lover, away from the life you had.

"You're so selfish.. " you muttered out, drops of tears slowly running down your cheeks.

You try to keep your composer, but soon you were only just a muttering and crying fool.

"Y/n.."

He held you, tightly. As if he wanted to take out all the air, and even if he would, you'd let him. Death was your only hope, no matter how many times you escaped him, you would always find yourself in the same room with needles and some medical supplies at the side.

"O-off!! Get away from me! " you yelled, squirming around trying to loosen his grip from you.

"Don't you understand Capitano!? I don't love you, I'm already married why can't you move on and be happy for me!? "

Your voice was strained, wanting to say no more, a bit of shock and worrying washed over you.

You said too much.

And his patience had already run thin through your little games. And hearing such words from his one and only.

Before you could do anything, his hands gripped your own, harshly. It hurts. "This is what I mean when I tell you the world is corrupt. "

His frustration making him tighten his grip even more, as if it wasn't enough. He doesn't have anymore time for such games and rejection.

"Y/n why can't you give me the same amount of love that I give to you!? "

His voice echoes through the room.

"I have killed people for you, saved you, helped you, did everything for you. Why can't you see that I'm the one for you?" He continues.

As he stares at you from his armor, more tears begin to drop. Your hands, they feel so numb.

Before you could say a word, he let's go. Standing back up and fixing his posture, he turns away from you.

As he reaches to the door, although not looking back. He once utters a small sentence.

"I hope the next time we meet, you will love me. I'll be sure to ask the Doctor to come help you realize that. "

Jolting up, you run close to the door before Capitano could close it. But it's too late.

"Wait, I'm sorry! Please come back! Please! I-Ill do anything I swear I don't wanna go back there please!-"

The door slams closed, stopping your beggings to continue.

"No, no no no.. " you mutter, hoping, praying he would spare you some sympathy.

But at the end of the day, it will always be the same.

"I advise you next time, y/n, you should be more careful with your words. "

You awake from slumber, a harsh ping hits your head like a person wakening from drinking so much.

With your blurry vision, you look around to see the same lab once more.

"Your very lucky though, " the man continues, to who you know as the doctor.

"If I was your, captor, you'd already be dead" he says, an eerie smile creeps back up.

"Or perhaps, another fine specimen" he adds, before pointing to the person in the large tube floating around a mix of chemicals.

You head turns to see what he's pointing to, only to see your fiance there, with parts of their skin unattached, to where you could not pin point.

You were out of words, and even if you had the courage to speak at that moment, only a sob would come out of your mouth.

If only this was a dream.

It was just quiet until the Damslette came in, letting you come back to reality.

"Good afternoon, doctor" her voice, although angelic, you knew from the others she's quite the deceiver.

"And to what do I owe the pleasure to see you? Ms. Damslette? " They both have a small chat as if it's a normal thing to see a person in pain, and a body afloat.

"Just some stuff to give to you for your, " she pauses, "experiment."

"If it's just that, you should have let my segments take care of such trivial matters. " dottore says, they continue of their small talk.

As they continue, nothing of what they say has quite the interest. You stare at your lovers body, guilt washes over you.

"They never deserved this" you thought.

Your thoughts were only snapped back again when you hear your name being said.

"I will make sure of that" dottore says, letting the women to nod and leave the lab.

Hearing the door close, Dottores back still facing you from the distance, you hear him talk to you again.

"Do you hear that y/n? Your getting married. Sad to say that I won't be seeing you for a while, you were a good test subject, would've been better if you stopped screaming.. " he mutters the last part, before walking off somewhere else in the room.

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[strwberri-milk]

Tearful Embrace: Diluc

Diluc x GN!Reader || (Slight) Hurt/Comf, Fluff || 573 words

Hugs make everything better, don't they?

a/n - tell me why my team lead bought me an appreciation hippo and also hugs me a lot i go through w it bc it makes [redacted] happy and idrm hugs anymore but man are they uncomfy (in general im not a hugger LMAO)

Diluc knows that sometimes you aren't going to be talkative. That is perfectly fine in his opinion. After all, he's not going to just sit there and strongarm you into having a conversation with him. However, today just felt very different.

Right now you were just sitting across from him in the drawing-room. the two of you beginning to wind down to get ready for bed later. He watches discreetly as you fiddle with your fingers, toes tapping the ground a little restlessly as you continue to fidget. He can clearly see that something is weighing on your mind, making you fidget as aggressively as you are in his presence.

He's not too sure on how to breach the subject. Does he risk embarrassing you and asking you if everything is okay when there might actually be nothing wrong, or does he ask and also upset you by making you talk about something that you actively wish to ignore? His mind worries over this, creating a rut in his head as he mentally walks back and forth.

In that time, you manage to sneak your way over to him and slip into his lap. You immediately settle in his warmth, sighing contently as he just stares at you. Diluc doesn't really mind that you're being touchy, gingerly brushing out your hair in confusion but he wishes he could do more.

"Luc," you say a little sleepily, his presence calming your once racing thoughts.

"What is it my beloved?" he hums back, voice low to avoid stirring your thoughts up too much.

"I love you."

His heart skips a beat. No matter how many times you say that to him it'll always feel like the first time, making his mind scatter and body still. That, paired with the affectionate look in your eyes makes him think he really will just melt into your arms, leaning down to kiss your lips softly.

"I love you too."

For some reason, you shake your head. It's funny the way you do it, eyes closed and lips pouting. He can barely contain his laughter, giving you a soft smile as his shoulders shake.

"Why are you shaking your head?"

"I love you," you repeat, the emphasis not really explaining to him what you were trying to communicate.

"And I love you," he mirrors, wondering if that would manage to sate you.

It doesn't seem to but he doesn't mind as you crawl onto his lap and hug his body tightly to yourself. Your arms wrap around his neck and you bury your face into his hair, breathing all of him into you so intensely he thinks your body will mold into his.

"I love you so much," you whisper into his skin, the words etching into his body and imprinting them onto his soul.

"You are what is good with the world, what it means to be fulfilled, the only reason why the sun rises in the morning after the majesty of the moon has had it's fill of you," you continue in an almost ramble of his praise.

Diluc can't respond, the words knocking his breath away as you hold him even tighter, pressing kisses to his throat slowly. Clearly you've won whatever battle you were waging against him he thinks as you smirk against him, fully resting your weight on him.

"Well, when you say that how could I ever trump your love for me?"

#diluc x reader #diluc ragnvindr x reader #genshin x reader #diluc fluff

[gyumibear]

✂️ three's a crowd — 00: my clematis

synopsis — being an ex-obsessive fan is hard, but you've been doing well so far. that is until your rival is revealed to be dating choi soobin, the idol you've been dreaming of for years! so, now your road to recovery is detoured because you're not going to let that slide. you're going to break them apart at all costs. doesn't she know three's a crowd?

taglist — open! send an ask or comment on the main masterlist to be added! @imsiriuslyreal

warnings — violation of hippa laws 😭, mentions of mental illness (codependency, obsession, parasocial relationships), allusions to suicidal thoughts and mentions of violence.

(wc — 1.5k)

It is our intention to include a transcript of the therapeutic sessions run by Dr. [REDACTED] with his client [REDACTED]. These transcripts are protected by doctor-client confidentiality laws (HIPPA) and should only be accessed by the verified person(s). Please call [xxx-xxx-xxxx] if you are in fear of those laws being violated. 

August 24, 2019 / #Session 1

Note: C refers to client [REDACTED] while T refers to Dr. [REDACTED].

T: Hello, [REDACTED], it’s nice to see you today. 

C: I’m only here because [REDACTED] wants me to be.

T: And might I ask who that is? Is he your father?

C: He’s my cousin, in a way. He’s more like a brother though.

T: Is he your legal guardian?

C: Yes, but only for a few more days. I’m about to turn 18 soon.

T: I’ll note that down. Well, thanks for coming, and I’m happy to help you. First, I want to go over a few things with you. I just want you to know that everything we talk about here is confidential. 

C: Obviously. You’d get sued if you didn’t keep things between us.

T: *Dry laugh* You’re correct. Let’s start talking, what happened today that brought you here?

C: Hm.

T: Feel free to start whenever you’re comfortable, [REDACTED].

C: I pushed a girl down a flight of stairs.

T: Did she do something to anger you? Why did you push her?

C: She said that [REDACTED] is the weakest member of [REDACTED].

T: Can you enlighten me as to who that is? Is he a celebrity?

C: Yes, my favorite! He’s the leader of [REDACTED] which is a K-Pop group.

T: Ah, right. Why did her comment about him upset you so much?

C: Because he’s the love of my life? She was spewing absolute bullshit and she doesn’t even know him. Not like I do. I know how hard [REDACTED] works, how much he does for the group and the other members. She deserved to get put in her place.

T: Hold on, [REDACTED]. You said he’s the love of your life? Can you explain that?

C: He is. We’re gonna get married one day. I know it.

T: Let’s dig deeper into this, okay? Tell me more about [REDACTED].

September 28, 2019 / Session 3

C: So, I doxxed her, and I got her expelled.

T: All because she said she preferred [REDACTED] to [REDACTED]?

C: Yeah! I like [REDACTED] and all, but the best member will forever be my [REDACTED]. He’s not the leader for no reason, Dr. [REDACTED].

T: I understand how you feel, but [REDACTED], she is allowed to have her own opinion. You can understand that, correct?

C: She can. That doesn’t mean she won’t face the consequences for them.

T: Hm.

January 4, 2020 / Session #10

T: Welcome back, [REDACTED]. How was your Christmas?

C: It was pretty good, [REDACTED] bought me two [REDACTED] albums. I pulled [REDACTED] of course. It’s because he loves me. He made sure I got his PCs.

T: Hm. Have you been taking your medication regularly?

C: …

T: [REDACTED]?

C: No. I just… forgot. [REDACTED] got really mad at me over the break and I felt like he was gonna leave me and I- I just couldn’t focus on anything else.

T: Why did he get upset with you?

C: I spent the rent money on some [REDACTED] merch cause his birthday was coming up. December 5.  He had to call [REDACTED] and ask him to pay this month. They both were really pissed at me, [REDACTED] was the angriest though. I felt bad, like genuinely bad about it.

T: When you say bad, do you really mean sad?

C: Yeah… I just, I don’t ever want him to be mad at me. He’s all I have… But, it’s like… When it comes to [REDACTED] I just can’t control myself. It’s like I’d [REDACTED] if he asked me to.

T: Do you want to [REDACTED]?

C: Sometimes.

March 4, 2020 / Session #14

C: Lately, I’ve just been feeling… Empty? Today’s supposed to be a happy one, cause it’s their one-year anniversary, but I just… Don’t feel anything?

T: Why do you think that is? Did something happen?

C: My classmate recently started biasing him and she actually met him. She ran into him at the convenience store or something and he… talked to her.

T: Continue.

C: At first I thought she was lying, just to piss me off, but… She pulled out her phone and she showed a whole group of us. He took a picture with her and she said he even called her pretty…

T: How did that make you feel when you heard that?

C: Pretty upset. I didn’t do anything to her though, I just walked away.

T: That’s good, [REDACTED]. I’m glad nobody got hurt.

C: Doesn’t mean I didn’t want to hurt her.

T: I understand, but we’re working on that, now aren’t we?

C: Yes. Yes, we are.

August 5, 2020 / Session #25

T: Woah, [REDACTED] you seem very upset today.

C: I’m not in the mood Doc.

T: Would you mind telling me why?

C: [REDACTED] has dating rumors. With this random bitch [REDACTED]. Literally, just because they’re working together as emcees does not mean they’re dating! He wouldn’t do that. He knows that would crush me.

T: [REDACTED], you remember [REDACTED] doesn’t know you, right?

C: That’s not true! He responded to my message on [REDACTED]. Twice. He knows me.

T: Oh dear. [REDACTED], I’m sorry. That was out of line on my part.

C: It’s fine, just don’t say that again. I’m already in a bad mood.

April 16, 2022 / Session #x 

Note: C stopped seeing T for a few years due to her time in [REDACTED] after an incident in which she [REDACTED] after an altercation with her classmate. A few of her files were lost, these were the earliest we could find.

C: I’m going to [REDACTED] for University. It took a lot of hard work, but I’m gonna study fashion! [REDACTED] is paying my tuition, but I’m gonna work so I can pay him back.

T: That’s a good idea, [REDACTED]. I’m proud of you.

C: It is a little scary though…

T: What’s scary?

C: Being away from [REDACTED] and [REDACTED]. Cause I have to move into a dorm, I’m not going to see them every day like usual… I’m a bit nervous. I think it’s my separation anxiety.

T: That could be it. Let’s talk more about this. 

May 31, 2022 / Session #x

T: This is the last time I’m going to be seeing you regularly, [REDACTED]! 

C: Yeah, it feels like it was just yesterday when I met you for the first time.

T: How are you feeling? Been keeping up with your meds?

C: Yep! I’ve been feeling pretty okay! When I start feeling bad I just remember the exercises and the practices you taught me and I work around them. I’m healed, basically.

T: You were never broken, [REDACTED]. You just needed some guidance. You are doing exceptionally well, but don’t start slacking off. We don’t want you to relapse.

C: Yeah, I got you Doc. I’m gonna be on my best behavior!

T: I believe as much. So, what music do you have to share with me this week?

C: I’ve been listening to [REDACTED]! She’s so cool, she makes me wanna learn how to play an instrument.

T: That’d be a good hobby, don’t you think?

C: Yep. Also, Doc..?

T: Yes, [REDACTED]? You look concerned?

C: I, um… I saw some photos of [REDACTED] online… I blocked all the tags that I could, but I guess they just slipped through.

T: That’s alright. these things happen. How did you feel about that?

C: I felt like screaming. I don’t know how to describe it, but it wasn’t a good feeling. So I turned my phone off and I went to go talk to [REDACTED] about it.

T: Is that fully true?

C: …

T: [REDACTED], please tell me the truth.

C: Hm… No.

T: What did you really do?

C: I binge-watched all the fancams I could find of him…

T: Is that all?

C: I also argued with some people online… But then [REDACTED] came and he distracted me.

T: *Sighs* Let’s have another session tomorrow, I want to investigate something.

C: Okay…

August 1, 2023 / Session #x

T: You’re going back to school soon. How do you feel?

C: Fine. It’s just school, you know?

T: Mhm. How’ve you been feeling?

C: Fine. I spent the weekend at [REDACTED]’s so I’m pretty out of it, haha.

T: I see. Did you keep up with your medicine?

C: Do you even need to ask? Of course. I haven’t missed a day in months.

T: I’m very proud of you. Why did you schedule this meeting though, might I ask?

C: I dunno… I just felt like I should.

T: That’s okay! I’m here for you for that very reason. So, tell me what’s on your mind?

C: There’s this girl who’s supposed to be my roommate… I don’t like her.

T: What’s her name?

C: [REDACTED]. She’s a music major.

T: What don’t you like about her?

C: She just… Seems fake? There’s something off and it makes me feel weird.

T: Hm… When was the first time you two interacted?

C: Well… Let’s see…

Note: End of recovered transcripts.

a/n — this was just a simple prologue/teaser to show what yn's mental state is like! i've never done therapy transcripts so i'm sorry if they're an inaccurate portrayal? let me know if there's something that needs to be tagged or changed.

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[harrowharks-iliac-crest]

Gideon the Ninth Appendices (continued)

Cohort Intelligence Files

Oh, these are written by Judith!

Wow, she and Marta joined the Cohort when they were literal children - eleven and ten, respectively. I guess it's somewhat common to burden little kids with responsibilities early amongst the Nine Houses?

On Naberius Tern:

He also has an extremely good opinion of himself and his swordplay, an opinion that Lt. Dyas notes occasionally aligns with reality.

Oh I love the subtle shade here. I'm also noting that Coronabeth's charisma seems to dazzle even Judith Deuteros as she is writing this, since she doesn't know about her or Ianthe's necromantic prowess - yes they were homeschooled, but knowing that necromancers are usually frail, wouldn't you wonder whether Ianthe is more necromantically apt, quietly, from her sister's shadow?

I guess not.

On Isaac Tettares:

the eldest of eight. [...] Father killed by terrorists out on [REDACTED] nineteen years ago: all of his children have been posthumous and the title held in stewardship.

Interesting! Also the bit about how kids can be born either of XX-carrier or vat-womb. Reproduction sure has advanced a great deal (as has the disconnection of sex from gender, apparently - which I've noticed before, but is obvious enough here to comment on it!)

Anyway, as we learned in Harrow the Ninth, the father does not have to be physically present for a child to get their genetic material. All you need is said genetic material. If you're in an important position in your House, presumably it's custom to save an amount of genetic material so you can continue to have heirs in the event of your death.

It seems customary for the Fourth to go to school at the Fifth, which explains the close relationship between Isaac and Jeannemary, and Abigail and Magnus.

On Protesilaus:

He's married??? He has children???? Oh my goodness, that makes his unfortunate demise at Cytherea's hands so much more tragic.

... Okay, I think that's all I really have to say on that!

A little explanation of naming systems

I did already get the idea, literally from the Dramatis Personae in Gideon the Ninth, that names refer to your House. Interesting to me is that they work differently to current surnames: people have different last names to their parents, and their last names are at least somewhat unique to them. Even siblings rarely share a name, making Coronabeth and Ianthe exceptions to the rule.

Interesting!!

Pelleamena and Priamhark: It shouldn't surprise me that these two are named for people in the Iliad. I kind of figured, with Priamhark, but it's a little less obvious with Pelleamena.

I adore the little pronounciation guides, tbh.

Crux, to rhyme with "sucks": Yeah sounds about right

Marta Dyas: DIE-ass. I'm sorry, I couldn't come up with anything better.

You know, I'm glad I decided to dig into these in a bit more detail, because Tamsyn's notes on these are hilarious.

On Ianthe and Coronabeth:

In the original, Ianthe and Corona were "Cainabeth and Abella", a feat of naming so unsubtle that I might as well have just gone with "Goodtwin" and "Badtwin". And it's not even accurate! It should be Badtwin, and Lessbadtwin.

I'm reminded of Coronabeth going "She could have taken me!!!" after Ianthe became Lyctor. Oh, she sure could have! Why do you sound jealous, Coronabeth?

On Jeannemary and Isaac:

Isaac here foreshadows Gideon's death by doing the "bravest and stupidest" thing, i.e. getting his abdomen made into a huge Connect-4 board. I might as well have called Jeannemary and Isaac "Don'tgetattached" and "Deadsoon".

Okay, rude. I mean, I didn't end up reading into the naming while reading Gideon for the first time, though maybe I should have. Maybe I wouldn't have gotten so attached (and upset) when they were both deadsoon.

On Palamedes:

Pal-AM-a-dees. At first I had a coarse comparison here, but then I removed it.

Palamadeez nuts, lol. So rude, Tamsyn.

Oh wow, more foreshadowing in the names of Dulcinea and Protesilaus. Wow. Okay remind me to dissect any new names that come up in Nona the Ninth (whenever I get to actually reading that).

... Okay, we're done with the appendices of Gideon the Ninth!!

Now soon to follow: Appendices of Harrow the Ninth, including As Yet Unsent, then I will read The Mysterious Study of Doctor Sex, and then, then finally, we will start on our reread of Gideon and Harrow.

I can't wait!

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[anonymousredactedconfessions]

Your blog was posted on our Redacted Discord and people have been discussing topics to send you as troll Asks. I can see some have already been posted. To anyone reading this. 75% of these aren't real "Confessions" but troll Asks a bunch of Catty fans got together to create Drama and Make people upset.

Yes Hello friends. We all can now post this and tear each other apart in the Discord trying to figure out who sent it and ruined the "fun". I'm sick of the way you all have been behaving. I even took the liberty of using words and terms each of us is known for just to make the game more exciting.

To the Mod here. I apologize for their behavior. I didn't think we would go this far and what started as just sending Goofy things turned mean and cruel very quickly.

💔

Oh :(

i honestly dont know how to react to this.

this blog was meant for genuine confessions that people wanted to get off their chest on anon, not manufactured bullshit meant specifically for upsetting people and being mean.

im not surprised, considering the way that this fandom behaves and all. 99% of the people here are either children or people who act like children, but that doesn't exactly stop me from being upset about this.

ill think about what i should do about it on my part, if i even can do anything. thank you anon, i really appreciate you telling me.

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #not a confession #the priest speaks #this is fucking bullshit

[piracytheorist]

Spy x Family headcanons for Daemons AU

Quick breakdown of how a Daemons AU works:

Based on Philip Pullman's His Dark Materials book series, it's a world pretty much like our own, but its main difference is that people's souls are manifested in the form of animals, called daemons, who accompany their humans for the entirety of their lives. Humans and their daemons need to stay close to each other. Any distance more than a few meters will cause them both pain, and if pushed further, there's a high chance they'll die. Once a human dies, their daemon turns into dust and dissipates in the ether. Touch between human and their daemon can be comforting. Even the most stuck-up humans are shown to be affectionate with their daemons. When a human is very distant with their daemon, it's usually a sign that something is wrong. However, there are cases of a human getting angry with their daemon; but if they hit each other, they feel the strike on their own bodies. Daemons can touch each other, either playfully, affectionately, or with aggressive intent, but it's considered absolute taboo for a human to touch another human's daemon. In such a case the touched daemon's human can feel the touch in their body like a form of assault or violation. The only cases where it's allowed and not upsetting is when the humans involved are lovers, and still not all lovers touch each other's daemons. Children's daemons can change forms. They can vary in size from the smallest moth to an eagle or a leopard, but the book doesn't mention daemons being any bigger, aside from one case of someone's daemon settling into a dolphin, which confined him to a life constantly at sea (since he couldn't be too far from his daemon and the daemon couldn't be out of water). When children reach adolescence, their daemons stop changing forms until they settle on a form that they keep for the rest of their lives. For the most part, daemons are the opposite gender of their humans. Male human, female daemon, female human, male daemon. In the book there's only one mention of male human with a male daemon, but no reference to non-binary or trans identities. Daemons have their own names, usually picked by their human's parent. Daemons also have their own personalities, and while usually in accordance to their human's personalities, they may differ a bit and more often than not provide a voice of reason. Daemons speak with a human voice, regardless of their animal form. The voice may deepen in pitch as the human grows from child to adult, but the timbre stays the same; it's like a growing human's voice. Daemons speak to each other, but it's rare for them to talk to another human, especially one they don't know. (Remember, daemons are manifestations of one's soul. You wouldn't usually bare your soul to a stranger)

Hoping that's enough explanation, here are some headcanons I came up with!

Since we're dealing with a story with spies, I've made a tweak in the rules, so that spies can train so that their daemons can change forms even long after they've settled into their final form. It takes a lot of training, though, and no-one achieves a high level of form swapping. Even Twilight™, whose daemon is the best at changing forms, cannot have her change as quickly as a child's daemon does. But she does a good enough job for his infiltration missions.

The existence of daemons gives spies double the job; they have to study their targets and their daemons' personalities, especially when they plan on impersonating them.

Within the story, it is not made clear what Twilight's daemon's settled form is, nor what her real name (given to her by [redacted]'s mother) is. Spy training in that world includes letting go of your daemon's name as well. In fact, there's a days-long exercise where human and daemon are kept in separate rooms (though close enough so that the distance won't hurt or kill them) for hours on end. Being afar still hurts them and too much distance can still kill them, but they're trained to get used to the pain. After Twilight's training, his daemon felt almost separated from him.

Similarly to how Twilight doesn't remember his mother's face anymore, he also barely remembers what form her daemon had. I'm wondering whether I'd make it extra traumatic and make the story so he witnessed his mother's daemon turning into dust (I haven't read the manga so I don't know the details of his mother's death and don't spoil me about them) and the last thing he remembers of him is his particles of dust spreading in the air over his mother's dead body, so it's very upsetting to think about him enough to remember his form.

When not in a disguise, Twilight's daemon calls him Twilight (though she barely speaks to him) and she doesn't have a name, and since he's distanced from his emotions and self, he doesn't really refer to her enough to need a name to call her. She usually keeps in small forms so she can hide more easily. When he takes the identity of Loid, she has a given name and stays in the form of a squirrel, small enough to not gather attention.

Anya's daemon, since she's a child, constantly changes forms to his liking. They can both read minds of both humans and daemons. However, Anya's more attuned to human minds and her daemon to daemon minds. They can communicate telepathically, something that makes other people wary of them, since the connection of human and daemon isn't supposed to be that detailed; they're supposed to speak to each other for some things. So Anya and her daemon slowly learn to be careful with what they express about each other. The daemon sometimes takes the form of a squirrel or mouse and nuzzles up to Loid's daemon, much to Loid's annoyance. If anything, because he knows his daemon isn't as emotionally detached as he is, and he doesn't want her getting attached. Loid's daemon is very, very repressed. Like, imagine all of Twilight's emotional constipation and repression manifested into an animal. That's her.

Yor's daemon is a poison dart frog. Hear me out. Those animals are considered among the most protective parents. He's small and lithe, he's poisonous (yes he attacks her targets' daemons to poison them) and his colourful appearance would make her stand out among a plethora of small mammal daemons, bird daemons, and serpent daemons with natural colours. Luckily, he's small enough to hide in her pockets (contributing to her low self-confidence, by the way). His colour is, of course, red. Biologically, poison frogs raised away from tropical climates don't develop poison, but for the sake of the story let's say that here he can secrete enough poison to cause pain to another daemon, and also develop Yor's poison immunity, since she's very affectionate with her tiny daemon. When she comes to live with the Forgers, Anya's daemon also turns into a frog sometimes to play with her daemon, but he cannot create poison, and Yor's daemon is careful to not secrete any when playing with him.

Yuri's is a dog, I'm thinking either a German shepherd or a pit bull. She's very protective of Yor, very suspicious of Loid, and counter to most humans, she's the one egging Yuri on instead of being his voice of reason. When Yuri visits for the first time, he also points out to them that their daemons barely touch, and the two daemons rush to rub themselves together, Yor's daemon sweating profusely (metaphorically) in an effort to not secrete poison all over Loid's daemon's fur. (In certain interpretations of the book's lore, dog daemons represent a loyal human. So I think Yuri's extreme loyalty to Yor could manifest in a very protective large dog)

Franky's is a bearded dragon.

Henderson's is a Persian cat because Elegant™.

Donovan Desmond's would be an eagle. His family crest is still a griffin, but he's too proud to allow his daemon to be a fantastical beast, so she's settled into an eagle, which is one part of griffin either way. Taking after the father's influence, Demetrius' has also settled into an eagle, and Damian's mostly keeps that form too - he's one of the few young kids in the school whose daemon doesn't change forms much, though she still can. He claims she has already settled as an eagle (pretending to be older and such), but in secret, sometimes she turns into a cat to nuzzle with him, and when he's allowing himself to feel a little playful, she turns into an actual griffin. They've never shared this with anyone, though. Anya overhears it at some point in his thoughts and it's one of the first times she feels she has invaded someone's privacy.

During the aquarium visit, Anya's daemon turns into a small penguin. It's a little uncomfortable though because in that form he can't run too fast and is too slow for a super energetic Anya. That's another thing that gives Loid the idea of gifting Anya the giant penguin plushie - both Anya and daemon absolutely love it.

Anya and her daemon find it really cool that Papa's daemon can change forms. She wishes her daemon never settles so she can be just like him. Though she also finds it super cool that Mama's daemon is poisonous. She's conflicted.

For most of his missions, Twilight didn't need to talk to his daemon much, and spy training had taught him to be distanced from her, so they almost never spoke. Being part of the Forger family brought forth the need to be a "normal" father, so he had to get used to speaking to her again. For The Mission, of course. Same way his existence in the family slowly makes him open up, so does this "pretend" relationship with his daemon. Before he knows it, he thinks of her with her cover name, talks to her without their cover needing it, and - *gasp!* - pets her. His daemon recognizes it's all against his spy training but she's missed him so much all those years that she can't bring herself to tell him anything.

I'm thinking of having Sylvia's daemon be an owl. He usually stays in that form, but with a bit of effort he can also change forms when she needs to hide who she is.

I'd want Nightfall's daemon to be settled as a kind of bird too, though a much smaller one. Maybe a blackbird, or a magpie. He's not as good at changing forms like Twilight's daemon is, so he usually chooses other bird species when he needs a cover form.

The Forgers probably still get Bond, cause it's different to have a dog as a daemon and a dog as a pet.

The identity reveals would be more tense as the daemons would have a much harder time hiding their emotions. Loid's daemon is what would provide a contrast to his spy instinct telling him to abandon the mission; she would instead tell him to give the family a chance. Yor's daemon though would seethe and nearly spit poison in their direction. But it's a kind of honesty they'd both need in order to develop.

Twilight would know that his daemon is hurt by him ordering her to not comfort Anya's daemon; Twilight insists that Yor and her daemon are enough comfort and he's not worth a damn for a father, and since he's going to leave, he doesn't want Anya and her daemon depended on a daemon that's going to leave.

But then he'd finally accept his feelings. He'd let his daemon comfort Anya's daemon, and Yor's daemon would slowly warm up to her... and then it would be a Moment™ when Loid and Yor finally touch each other's daemons. A few of his past fake relationships had been bold enough to think they're the right kind of couple to touch each other's daemons, and for the sake of the mission, he allowed them that touch, despite how disgusted it made him feel (both that someone else was touching his daemon and that he was touching the daemon of a person he wasn't in love with). But when Yor touches his daemon, it feels so loving and sweet and caring and true that he bursts in tears right in front of her.

It's impactful for Yor's daemon, as well. A selective few times in her jobs, her desperate targets would grab her daemon in order to shock her, and the daemon was so shocked he couldn't even think to make poison to shake them off. Loid is the first human that touches him when the daemon has full control of the situation, and he only feels the need to protect him, no thoughts of poisoning again but for a wholly different reason.

At some point after they're officially a couple, Yor asks Loid about his real name and his daemon's real form and name. He tells her that whoever he was before is now gone, and the daemon's previous form doesn't matter (though knowing her name was chosen by his mother, a part of him still treasures it); what matters is who Loid and daemon want to be now; a part of their little family.

Yeah, that's all I got for now, lol. Might add more later.

#Spy x Family #sxf au #sxf plot bunny #long post

[digenerate-trash]

Oo I just had a brand new scenario idea. What if one day PC came to the orphanage late at night and yan Robin was waiting for them and asking where thye hav been and PC just decides to. Snap at him. Like. BY [REDACTED] ROBIN I WAS WORKING TO PAY OFF OUR MF DEBT. YOU DONT GET TO QUESTION ANYTHING I DO WHEN IM THE ONE PULLING MY ACTUAL WEIGHT AROUND HERE. ATLEAST I HAVE AN ACTUAL JOB. ALL YOU DO IS GO TO YOUR LEMONADE STAND EVERY WEEKEND TO SELL LEMONADE FOR £1. THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS GET AN ACTUAL JOB LIKE AT THE CAFE OR KNOCK ON PEOPLES HOUSES. I AM YOUR PROTECTOR ROBIN SO YOU DONT GET TO SAY ANYTHING WHEN I HAVE TO COME BACK SO LATE. JUST GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM AND GO TO SLEEP. I dont want to hear you bring up this conversation again. Considering Yan Robin is an emotional manipulator and gaslighter lil crap whats his reaction to PC snapping at him like this?

Someone has already done something like this and it's honestly so well done but let's do yan robin!!!

AMAB Robin | GN PC

Your door slams in his face and he stands there... stalk still. His plan has backfired and now you're upset with him...

Helpless robin. Poor robin. Downtrodden robin. He's always been your little bird he's always been the thing you protect. But now you're yelling at him? Upset with him? Telling him to pull his own weight? You're just upset. You're just a little roughed up and stressed...

And robin knows the one thing that will always get you running to his room looking for comfort and love.

Robin makes his way to bailey's office. He writes down a little note before slipping it under the door. When he hears the chair creek he quickly gets away from the door and heads back to his room.

And hours later like clockwork you knock on his door. He's curled up in bed but he sits up the light from the hallway streaks across your newly bruised face. Your lip is dappled with blood and you try to wipe it away.

Robin opens the door more and takes your hand leading you back to his bed. He wipes up your face and kisses your cheek. You try to apologize for your out burst but he hushes you. He doesn't need you to say sorry. He only wants you to be with him...

As you two curl up in his bed robin can't help but feel satisfied as you cling to him. Your shaky breaths and twitches in your sleep. Only to slowly calm when robin pets your head or speaks to you soothingly. His voice making the storm in you subside just a little...

Your his. You're trapped with him. Even if you don't know it.

#robin the orphan #yan dol #yandere #tw yandere #parental abuse #kinda????? #tw abuse #tw parental abuse #tw manipulation #tw truama bonding