#IVE BEEN NEEDING TO DRAW THIS FOR OVER A MONTH

[maxpawb]

something happened to me on that day

#art #perfectly ok to rb :) #IVE BEEN NEEDING TO DRAW THIS FOR OVER A MONTH #but ironically i was too physically and mentally ill to make it #i will probably make a lot more art based on the worst parts of the last 2 months #needles #tw needles #medical #gore art #gore #tw veins #veins #vent art

[stoopidstapler]

SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED. #ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO??????? #ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP. #also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER. #im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

[semrielle]

ok fine i guess you guys get to see some splatoon oc doodles

#also i will be just dropping lore crumbs of them left and right #depends if you guys are interested tho smile #ive been drawing them nonstop for the past month #gatekeeping isnt enough i need to go haywire over them #aid and river #splatoon ocs #semrielle ocs #splatoon #splatoon 3

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt. #and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

[insufferablemod]

should maybe take the 'my lines r shaky cus my hand is injured so I'm drawing with my left hand atm' from my pinned post cus they arent really shaky anymore lol

#farewell wobbly as hell art #it was fun while it lasted but also fucking torture #theyre still a bit wobbly traditionally if i use a pen #and theres certain motions that r still kinda a struggle to do but over all theres prob not a huge difference between my left n right anymo #speed and some precision n line weight control mostly #but i cant fucking say for sure since its been fucking Months since i could properly use my right for art......... #and its prob rusty as hell atm ... #ive started using it a bit for school work(need it for 3d modeling u_u shits hard 2 do one handed ive tried) #but not gonna risk drawing with it cus id 100% get carried away n could fuck it up again.. lmao #rambles

[glittergoats]

and if you don't love me now

#hunter x hunter #hxh #kurapika #uvogin #hxh 2011 #my art #tw eye horror #kinda #yeah ive been watching hxh for the first time w my bf! #he finally got me to watch it after begging for months and i have been loving it #we're somewhere in the greed island arc rn idk how far though #but yorknew city arc had me GRIPPED #definitely my favorite so far!! #anyways yeah uh kept singing the chain while we were watching it bc the word chain was said SO much #and then this was a joke doodle #until it wasn't #so now here we are #I'm happy with it though! #uvo is very fun to draw and i struggle with kurapika everytime i doodle him lol #i have some other art from my watch thru i need to post here! ill do that over the next couple days probably

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[todayisafridaynight]

mine pretty //explodes into a bazillion pieces//

#snap chats #IM ALLOWED TO MAKE THIS POST ITS BEEN MONTHS #ive been distracting everyone from the fact im still in love with him. AND his face. #saw a pic of him and yeah... hes still the most gorjus man ever made sorry im not over him mwahmwahmwah ily you freak #I GET TO SEE HIM ON SATURDAY !!! PROBABLY !!! I MIGHT BE STREAMING Y3 my bro let me take the ps4 to college so hehe.. #no one get their hopes up i havent actually tried it yet but anyway #im gonna make a lil doodle then sleep #i need brain nourishment for my day tomorrow... #i should draw mine again sometime. not anytime soon cause im evil I GUESS

[britneyshakespeare]

A featherless biped

#a man #more spefically laurence olivier in wuthering heights 1939 #ive been working on it for 2 hours and i desperately need some distance from him #take a break and refresh my head #not all that ashamed of the progress tho #tales from diana #i hope to finish this today #i havent done a charcoal drawing in... 9 months! jesus #a little over. last time i drew in charcoal was intl. women's day #i couldve had a baby in that time #well i lost my charcoal that's why i rly haven't done any #one of my family members mustve misplaced it when they were cleaning in the attic (a place where i often draw) #no one is fessing up to it. >:( #but i had a few spare pieces and my mom got me new drawing paper for christmas #i hate drawing in graphite anyway. pencils can kiss my ass #there's smth very off w his right eye but im not ready to fix it #oh well. oh well

[astranauticus]

aight just 2 more weeks until my finals are over i got so many things i wanna draw..

#asto speaks #just tryna put all my ideas in one place so i dont forget #arcane au rwd old crew thats the one thats been gnawing at me for months #some heartsteel sketches will definitely happen thats just. inevitable #i mean i'll be shocked if i dont draw them *before* my finals are over because i have 0 self control #my friend: i need more settphel art now #me: im not drawing them i have finals (<- lying) #theres that 超度我 animatic ive been spinning in my head also #like if i keep animating segments of that song eventually i might just bite the bullet and do the whole thing #马 vs 超度我 aka the primms algo vs kruskals algo approach to making an animatic LMAO #..........the most year 2 cs major joke ive ever made in my life

[arthur-r]

i ran out of storage while drawing this so i had to add the white parts in markup and call the rest of it good but this is “self portrait with future beard and pending scar” and i drew it after surgery this morning

#the outfit is stuff i have in real life and so is the scar except it’s not a scar yet it’s a wound #that’s what my mom keeps on telling me when i say wow this is such a cool scar #which is what i say to not terrify myself about how i might always have this scar #anyway if i had still been in ibispaint for the end of this i would’ve added some bright light behind me #because that’s what i was planning on but then i ran out of storage #anyway hi i did the surgery this morning and it went good the IV hurt and the anesthesia was scary but everything else was good #anyway i was gonna fix the shape when i was still in ibispaint but i would need 250 megabytes of storage and i don’t have it :( #so markup is all i have now shdhdf i can’t erase i can only draw on top #which is mostly how i draw anyway but still #anyway the surgery to make my face look regular again all the way would cost money and not insurance at all #so unless it heals really good on it’s own i might look like this forever #so i started thinking about forever and i reassured myself by adding a beard to the picture. and so. that’s why i drew this shdhdf #anyway i missed my dynamic brush and this was my first time using it in a lot of months and i had missed it shdhdf #idk if this is like. good. to people who aren’t on anesthesia. i will have to find out in the morning #but i wanted to break to you guys that it might never go away. but i did that by drawing instead of a picture #because i get nervous on the internet and especially today #and anyway i hope i still like this in the morning but mostly the point before is i have a scar there now #cause that’s what i had to get to not have a tumor there now. and so it’s better and it’s okay but also makes me nervous #but i’m gonna grow up and it will still be okay and this is scary but the worst dangerous part is over #and this is just maybe what i look like right now and maybe it will heal. but i will just have to find out #me. my post. mine. #my art #delete later

[abimee]

despite how much WOL art i make i still have the ''I NEED TO DRAW 14 ART'' crave in my gut like i need to draw canon scenes and canon characters and such. it is disgusting how much this game motivates me to pick up a pencil and write or draw NOTHING has ever pushed me like this

#the need to create and share my thoughts and feelings on it has not weaned every day i wake up with a zest for it #when i get home from work and all my obligations are taken care of and my birds are fed and played with i sit down #and either plauy this game or draw for this game. or both back to back #its so funny too cause when i talk to other people they seem to have like hyperfixations that last in bouts of only a month or so #and they jum #p interests quickly but every day i wake up untired thinking of this game. and it does NOT help new content comes out every #5 months #but look at me. its been over a year and im STILL thinking about endwalker. and its OVER. DONE WITH. NO new content #ive been thinking about heavensward for a #lmost 3 years #something unwell. i can criticise and pick at this game and its fans for days but theres also a lot i fenuinely love about it

[bobzora]

god. will today finally be the day that the stars of my physical and mental health align and ill be able to do a little bit of animatic work. please. please

#bobtalk #still alittle peeved that someone apparently got to my idea first in amv form #but its ok bc i watched 10 seconds and we dont have the exact same vision...its fine. this is fine #my ideas have been locked in for nearly a year anyway lmao. no clue what ill do with the ending instrumental tho. yolo i guess #also funny to me that if i finish (he says barely having started it months ago) ill have established a pattern with my song choices.lol #it prolly wont be as much of a banger ideas wise as GAPAB but i have gotten better at drawing by a little bit over...nearly a year. #i just need to work myself up into a frenzied state and then ill b able to Get Something Done #.......please #i need to do my obligatory whole-story animatic for 5. #at least its not as bad as the state of my kgpro idea that ive been sitting on for...nearly 5 years...ILL GET TO IT SOMEDAY

[ayakinari]

you ever just

#duck rants about something #hoooooo man. why did all my motivation and ability to create go out the window as soon as i finished that valk piece #i cant draw. i dont know what to draw i knew what i had to draw but i cant. put it on canvas #cant go in an art block now of all times theres less than one month and a half until finals and i need some sort of portfolio put together #by then and. i am Still exhausted i thought !! it was getting better but nope i am still incredibly fatigued by Everything #and to make matters worse its thursday tomorrow meaning the classes i dislike the most i just want to lie down for 10 years maybe i dont kn #maybe pursuing art as a career was a bad idea. maybe im not fit for this but im already over a year into this art school and i dont want to #waste the money my family's put into letting me go to this school #and i absolutely love it here the teachers are nice and my classmates are cool and i made friends for the first time in years #but god if i havent been in the worst headspace of my life this past year. #well this year was going a bit too well for me in terms of art i had a steady pace of imrpoving and trying out new things but now its just #i cant do anything. no matter what i doodle or sketch or just let my hand do whatever nothings coming out and it terrifies me #maybe im being dramatic! i know someone would say im being just that #god i dont want to go to class tomorrow either im not in the mood for a religious lecture but ive already skipped the past two weeks #keep it up any more than that and itll probably result in a call to my parents #my parents are probably gonna call me later tonight anyways. should get it together til then #maybe i need a nap. maybe i need to go outside and take a walk and look at a bug. maybe i just need to go out in a field and scream #auhgh but i need to draw i need to make Something i cant halfass something the way i did last semester and barely pass #and now im getting dizzy just typing this out thanks brain #ill probably delete this later i just really need to. hhghghhhgh please let me draw. please let me make something or anything at all #i dont know what id have if it isnt art. #ive always been mediocre at everything in my life the only thing giving me peace of mind is drawing #if thats all im good for then what even use am i without it #and sure! maybe im actually not that good at it! maybe my artstyle is uninspired and boring maybe im just wasting my time!!! #but i still love it immensely i love making my silly characters i love drawing out my dumb stories i love just. #making things and being okay at it. maybe. am i actually good at this probably not. maybe im also mediocre at this and just kidding myself #sorry for being emotional on a wednesday. must be the curse #anyways

[scoreplings]

ptsd is such a bastard fuck of a disorder

#btw. i hate it soooo much #you will b safe for months and months and then have a panic attack over something that isnt going to hurt you in any way #im like. fine. and safe. ive just gone so long without an episode and i hate it that it’s back #well— without an episode related to what set it off today. #ive had one over being yelled at like a month ago but it was tiny n i think unrelated #im so. blaurgh i shouldnt say dumb. im hopeful every time that i go awhile without an episode that its over with #n i basically dont have it anymore #but that’s never the case #anyway ive been hiding in my room crying for like an hour i need to leave soon there are people over and i basically ran away but i really #dont want people to see me crying n then ask about it because that’s so very not their business. so im gonna get my sketchbook n draw and #see if i can calm down

[walleeli]

Thinking about…… him <3 (Sylvain Jose Gautier Fire Emblem)

#divine punishment for trying to draw him HFJSHDJSHDJ #its always such an ordeal!! #sitting at the computer tablet out google images open smiling to myself over him GIRL. GET IT TOGETHER. #THAT MISOGYNIST IS PIXELS. FOCUS UP. #need to finish out persona 5 so i can go home (play three houses for the like. 10th time.) #or actually i still need to play three hopes #LMAO #havent even made it past champter 4 and it came out what 7 months ago? god #sylvain sweetie im so sorry. ive been disloyal. #no but fr i miss him.