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milo-is-rambling · 10 months

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Had a nightmare last night that many different large scary animals were trying to break into the house I lived in in New Hampshire and I kept running around and locking doors and screaming and crying and begging for my family to help me and they were just sitting and laughing or sleeping or living their lives and I was watching huge black bears pound on glass sliding doors and fog them up with their breath as they drool over the idea of demolishing my family and there were like big mountain lions finding small holes to crawl through trying to get in and I’m sobbing and bleeding and kicking them and trying to get my family to do something and they don’t even notice and act like I’m crazy

#hahahaha that’s totally unrelated to me having a panic attack and calling out of work only for my mother to tell me that she’s disappointed #in me and I should’ve just sucked it up and gone to work #my life is honestly me vs my mental health vs my mother #like if she could just. no. I’m the one with the problem. I stopped taking my meds. that’s on me. she shouldn’t get mad at me for the way I #deal with my own brain especially cause the first half of June went so well for me. but whatever. she’s allowed to be upset when her child #isn’t taking care of themselves. that’s fair. however. FUCK OFFFFFFFFFF #I DONT WANT NIGHTMARES WHERE IM DYING AND THEN I WAKE UP AND STILL FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT TO DIE #LIKE GIRL BE THE LITTLEST BIT SUPPORTIVE OF ME INSTEAD OF SAYING YOURE MAD AT ME BC I HAD A PANIC ATTACK SO BAD I COULDNT HANDLE A FIVE HOUR #SHIFT AT WORK LIKE JUST TELL ME IVE COME SO FAR FROM WHERE I WAS LAST YEAR (bad panic attacks every day) AND THAT I JUST NEED TO BREATHE AND #ILL GET THROUGH IT AND ITLL BE OKAY AND YOU CAN GO TO WORK AND EXPLAIN NEXT SHIFT AND APOLOGIZE AND ITLL BE FINE #INSTEAD OF SAYING TO YOUR KID ‘are you TRYING to get fired so you don’t have to go to work anymore?’ WHILE IM SOBBING WITH MY HEAD IN A #TRASHCAN DRY HEAVING LIKE YEAH MOM THATS JUST WHAT I WANT TO HEAR YOU THINK IM NOT FREAKING OUT ENOUGH ON MY OWN WHAT DO YOU THINK SENT ME #INTO THIS PANIC ATTACK LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP #sorry. having a moment.#I just keep getting really vivid flashbacks to my dream and it’s like I was trying to protect my dad bc in my dream he was still alive and #then I woke up and felt so powerless to everything and remembered my mom still being mad at me which I’m sure is going to continue and I’ll #be guilt tripped for the rest of the weekend at least #and she’s going to be on my ass about going back to therapy when therapy has nothing to do with this #rage rage rage rage fear fear fear fear fear that’s all I seem to know anymore

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unexpectedbrickattack · 1 year

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#chattin #nothing bad or spicy i just feel like peep peeping rn #📢🐀!#but there is talk of panic attacks and Bad Stims up ahead (not related to me dw) ->#i was thinking of autistic peppino bc i am planning out the vigilante comic in my head #and like the quick premise is that vigilante comes into the pizzeria and shoots a blank into the ceiling to get everyone to shut up #and quiet down so he can go ask for (demand really) to see peppino bc this fuckerhas a bounty FOR A REASON and hes here to find out why #bc u know; cowboy yeehaw shenanigans #only its like 5am and no one is there jdkdndjdndk he just saw the lights one and went BANGBANG #anyway peppino is in the back cowering bc someone came into his fucking shop and started shooting UNPROMPTED #and hes so fucking scared and unwilling to move and when he sees someone actually come through the back door he starts having a legitimate-#-panic attack and he starts doing the stimmy hands thing over his ducked head #and vigilante is like whoa whoa WHOA WHOA HOL UP WHATS HAPPENIN #like i dont think peppino has ‘happy stims’ he has ‘extremely self soothing’ stims #that include flapping but only if hes so unbelievably stressed that he cant think #or he has more violent ones like pulling at his hair and biting his hands #that on top of like a genuine panic attack where he cant breathe and he thinks his heart is stopping is 😵‍💫#vigilante is like christ almighty what the fucks got you so damned spooked?? like he doesnt even think of the blank he shot #he assumed someone came in before him or something #and hes like oh shit wait thats mE I DID THAT I SCARED HIM #i am still planning it out but yes. autistic peppino is on my mind 😊#in a more positive light hes very earnest; and good at his job bc cooking in an interest of his #and his responses in social situations are bizarre enough sometimes to wrap back around to endearing #also its an excuse to draw peppino looking very confused but happy and gustavo somewhere in the shot going-#‘the bad bitch i pulled in by being autistic’#swag #ALSO THE TAG IS BACK so i guess i can doodle again heehee

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coolnonsenseworld · 2 years

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Sketch Commission for @CastingEsuna on Twitter. Thank you so much! 💖🥰🥰

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#lance mcclain #voltron lance #commission work #voltron legendary defender #woke up 5:37 to rain #so im here making a post now #right after asking if my sister is alive bc she wasnt home when i went to sleep like sure she is an adult #but adults get abducted too #those past two days ive been just making groceries and crying at the inflation #i also hot glue gunned a box for my drawer to keep the charms in and reorganized things !#first b3cause packing preorders will be much nicer now and second of all #im avoiding putting myself in a position where my brain can speak out loud when im under stress like shut the fuck up collect things into #boxes okay #oh have i told you i made list of reasons my mom called me lately?#accordingly it was because: someone died #then because she had a panic attack (she still doesn't call them that)#and then because my sister wasn't picking up #we ended up talking about taxes and an ongoing trial which was postponed from last year when my mom and grandmother didn't get there bc #they had a car accident #if this doesn't make you go 'lol' about life #i dont know what will #you just can't start thinking about it and have to draw beautiful Lance's that people commission from you look at him #and those shoulders trying to compensate that flat ass #i hope yall like him #😆#everyone is totally cool so far btw i hope it doesn't distress anyone HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND

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stellerssong · 4 months

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starting the new year off right with some werewolves being fucking unwell

@lucienne-thee-librarian @raspberryjellybrains pspspspspsps

#f: mansand #stories #my fic #morphienne #dream/lucienne #TWELVE THOUSAND????????? DREAM IF YOU DON'T SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR REAL.....................#i guess the meta moral of the story is. perseveration takes up a lot of real estate both mentally and in the notes app.#the real moral of the story obviously is even if your gf says it's cute please don't actively have your panic attacks in her workplace.#like she WORKS there bud.#also GWEN IS HERE AGAIN. EVERYBODY SAY HI GWEN WE LOVE YOU GWEN

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crispyjenkins · 4 months

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welcome to cj/crispy's bi-yearly ptsd rant about fireworks, you are all safe and valid here and i am mentally giving out juice boxes and animal crackers

#last year wasnt too bad i barely remember nye tbh but OH BOY are the neighbors making up for it this year #they arent like super big or anything but they are LOUD and we're just rural enough that nobody gives a shit #like i cannot tell you how much i love the idea of fireworks and their history #but id also like to not have 12 consecutive minor panic attacks because the neighbors have some money to burn #it's worse around the 4th of july ’cause that also has the caveat of ''what tf are you even celebrating fuck you''#and im much more chill when it's like families celebrating with their kids because i remember how much fun mine had #but there are no kids around us #they're all adults and i want so badly to just be like ''yeah you do you man im glad youre having a good time'' but also like #they have to sell specialised jackets and blankets and medication for pets for nye and 4th of july #we dont have too many veterans in our part of town but i will never forget that pic of the vet hiding in the subway with his hands over #his ears #i dunno man i know not every activity can be accommodating to absolutely everyone #but i also think avoiding loud triggering (for a bunch of different reasons) noises is like #doable #there are quiet fireworks #thankfully my cat couldn't give two shits about loud noises but /I/ give two shits about loud noises #shut up cj #to delete

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sa-bo · 1 year

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Genuinely need a break from this arc real quick why does One Piece delve so deep into the ethics of war this arc, like holy shit I'm gonna fucking die

#so much emotional shit been happening during the marineford arc im gonna come out of this feeling like a jaded war soldier #seeing coby having a downright full-on panic attack while bodies fall to the ground around him?? isnt this kid like 15-17 #and literally any scene where some shit happens to luffy is absolutely mortifying in nature ever since drum island #one piece sets itself up like ''lol look at these pirate friends getting into hijinks and saving each other and conquering the world!''#but then shit gets crazy every time #i can no longer in good conscience recommend this without warning people abt how scary it gets sometimes #i feel like the first taste comes during arlong park where we see nami repeatedly stabbing herself #then with us seeing zoro's wound stapled shut and bleeding like a motherfucker as he still tries to fight #because they couldn't get professional medical help even if they probably saw his fucking guts and ribcage #but shit just keeps getting more terrifying every arc #alabasta? civil war. we see the princess of her country screaming her lungs out in vain for her people to stop fighting #sky island? mass genocide. for funsies. by a man so hopped up on delusions and apathy he thinks it's funny #water 7? we see the downfall of ohara and robin trying to Fucking Commit Suicide because she finally found ppl who like her #thriller bark--THRILLER BARK SPEAKS FOR ITSELF.#seeing brook's crew sing together one last time as they all progressively drop dead one by one until only one is left #and the utter terror as we see zoro standing surrounded by his own blood in a 20 foot radius around him #impel down we see the horrors of the world government and how they treat their prisoners with layers of hell #and marineford we see a war even worse than that which we saw in alabasta #horrible horrible shit

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art-from-the-pantry · 11 months

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Just posting this so I can delete it on my devices and know where to find this should I ever need it again (unlikely)

#tw suggestive #bendy and the ink machine #sammy lawrence #au #Does this make any sense in my au? No #I just made this for fun and because I was in the mood for some shading and stuff #really liked the outcome too!#but you know how it is #my fucked up little brain decides to be extra nice to me and make me have a whole panic attack over my art and style and anatomy #because of some (harmless) criticism I wouldn’t even have gotten if I had kept my damn mouth shut 👌#gotta love it <3 #I wouldn’t have posted this tho if I didn’t want to desperately get it out of my gallery lest I risk making it worse #so a win for anyone who likes it! Have fun with it

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funerals · 9 months

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GOD watching vinny vinesauce clips and the fucking CAPUSSI one is gonna get the fucking cops called on me again for laughing so loud my neighbors think I'm being murdered or some shit holy fuck it was sofunny my stomach is fucking cramping I haven't laughed that hard in a fucking decade

#yss this has actually happened ..... twice #cops showing up at my door bc apparently my laugh sounds like a murder victim or some shit #LIKE FUCK MY NEIGHBORS FOR THAT SHIT BTW JUST KNOCK ON MY DOOR AND TELL ME TO SHUT UP DONT CALL THE FUCKING COPS WTF IS UR PROBLEM DIE #like if u call the cops on ppl for any fucking reason i hate u immediately #had to fucking try and convince 2 different cops 2 seperate times that im fine just have an insane laugh and im not being beaten #then closed the door and had panic attacks about it for like days :)#ANYWAY ill try and rb this with the vid hold on ..if i can download it

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bpdohwhatajoy · 10 months

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Wanna know my autistic nightmare? Finally speaking your mind about ableism towards autistic people in a fandom after ignoring it for so long and everyone dogpiling on you and making fun of you and your entire Twitter tl being indirects towards you and saying your takes are bad and mocking you until you’re turned into a joke

#ryan.txt #I can’t stop crying #just had a panic attack over this #I hate being autistic #why couldn’t I just have shut the fuck up #why did I have to speak up #it’s just like my trauma #I would speak up to my abusers finally and would get abused further #I can’t stop shaking this s a nightmare #autism #actually autistic

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whydoifeelthisquiet · 2 months

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#slight tw for the next few tags…………#my sister emotionally and verbally abused me last night and I don’t use those terms lightly at all #basically I texted my mom ‘yikes’ yesterday after she was being rude to us and she found it and started screaming #and said we all treat her so badly and none of us care about her which cannot be further from the truth #the gaslighting was out of this world #she said we started it?#my mom and I were both crying #she called me all kinds of awful names and kept saying fuck you so I said fuck you back #I have an anxiety around swearing out loud so the car fell silent #then she kept screaming #and I was sobbing and it ruined my makeup #then I had a panic attack #she got out of the car and then we had to go in fucking margaritaville resort to have a dinner w family we don’t see #she thought she was entitled to this outburst.#and I cried silently the whole way home and my pain was so bad on top of it #and now she’s acting like nothing happened. I did not get any apology.#it was HELL #and I just need to rant #I love her but…I did not deserve this #also slightly pissed at my mom bc she told my sister something I said that was supposed to be kept private #and my sister used it against me #sorry I needed to rant ❤️‍🩹#Abby doesnt shut up

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devilfruitdyke · 3 months

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i love when my parents talk about me when they think i cant hear them 🤑🤑

#mom said im a control freak #this is because when i lose control i fuck up and will ruin my chances of having a future hope this fucking helps #also. said by someone whos only home half the time and half of that time im at school. you dont know me lmao #im not pretending im perfect but you dont see me shut the fuck up and take it for like five hours a day #even like yesterday. took 20 mins to get out of bed. my assigned partner hasnt put a word down on our doc #seating chart in my next class left me pretty much alone. fucking panic attack #i had to stay 30 minutes after to finish an assignment because i didnt do it fast enough #because when im not hard on myself i dont get anything fucking done!

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finnslay · 7 months

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There's this kid in my theater that thinks they know all abouty freak outs like bro- stfu and stop saying "she's having a panic attack" when I'm slow to answer a question. Im not freaking out. I'm handling it. Now shut up because Friday when you got the nurse it turned it into not only an actual freak out but the worst I've had in high school. Maybe you should listen to Arte, he's known me 10 years, he knows better than you do

#like really.#stop #i dont want you meddling #it wasnt a panic attack #i stopped it from getting there #so please #as politely as i can say #shut the fuck up

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angeltism · 7 months

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girls who are still kinda afraid of the dark :(

#➳ the fool speaks #was setting up for the night and the light in my room shut off. mind uu the door stays closed and i have two little night lights that aren't #very strong bc i require minimal light 2 sleep well but some light so i don't convince myself I'll get possessed or murdered while i slumber #so it gets DARK #less noticeable when I'm up in my bed but when uur standing on the floor uu NOTICE all the dark corners and shadows n such #so i had a. bit of a panic attack.#it SPOOKED ME OKAY #anywyS I am so fucjing tired me n my dad spent like an hr talking to eachoyher abt random things and then i had THIS happen so #I'm fucking exhausted. i meant 2 go to sleep like 2-3 hrs ago. zznxjxbzhzjxjznxjxxzzjxjznmimimiminimimizzzzzzzzzzsnookoooresjdnskdjsjdxzzzz

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harmonizewithechoes · 9 months

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#sometimes I think that if the worst happened and I had to do so that I’d be fine living with just my kids and me #but then another fucking bat gets in the house and I’m humbled REAL QUICK #just having an immediate shaking nauseous panic attack as soon as I hear the first squeak #I’m not gonna be able to sleep well after that #thank goodness he was home and knew what was happening and what to do right away because I was gone #I jumped up and shut the door and proceeded to cry #this is embarrassing but I’m so grateful he understands and doesn’t make me feel worse about it #my son likes to say that daddy is mommy’s true love #and while sometimes I feel embarrassed when he phrases it like that #tonight I’m definitely feeling it 💕#my true love is the person that doesn’t judge me when faced with my irrational fear of bats in the house #I feel so paranoid now though #I won’t be able to sleep for a while and I had to turn off the fan downstairs because every squeak is now a bat in my mind #it’ll be like this for a few days before my brain decides to be normal about things again #what is it like to not be crazy?

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