#IM SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW [LIE LIE LIE LIE]

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

[piastristimtams]

benny.jacobs on instagram story!

#i am not normal about this. at all #hello #hiiii #oscar. #logan #oscarlogan #loscar #hi #i need to lie the FUCK down #op81 #guys im so so unnormal about this right now #im going insane #oscar piastri #logan sargeant #piastri #oscar #f1 #formula 1

[badolmen]

The ‘vote blue no matter who!’ crowd is starting to get on my nerves. Like, I’m trying not to give away the game, but do they even know that we’re playing?

The point of loudly denouncing Biden and the Democrats NOW is to threaten them into stopping a fucking genocide that’s happening NOW. It is the only (legal) way we can threaten them as their constituents. It’s a game of fucking chicken! If the Dems were legitimately concerned about ceding office to Trump, they would take action NOW to try and recapture voters. But they don’t because they think they can get away with literal genocide and still win the Oval Office because voters like you are too chicken or too paralyzed to make a simple threat.

I don’t give a fuck what you do in the ballot box come November but jfc this is about collective bargaining and you cowards can’t even pretend to give enough of a fuck about a genocide to threaten your reps like??? Grow a fucking spine and do the bare fucking minimum of voicing your solidarity.

#ra speaks #personal #us politics #vote blue no matter who #genocide joe #YOU 👏 CAN 👏 LIE 👏! you can say out loud in public ‘I’m not going to vote for Biden’ and vote for genocide Joe in November anyway #I can’t say i (random internet user) will think highly of that future decision but at least you MADE A THREAT even if you couldn’t stomach #carrying it through. god. you claim to care and know so much about how broken the system is #but you can’t even play one of the few games we have left as voters to get leverage against people who do not care abt us. #‘trump will be worse!’ WHO IN PALESTINE WILL LIVE TO SEE THE DIFFERENCE IF YOU CANT MAKE A THORNLESS THREAT TO A MAN WHO IS ‘BETTER’ #‘we know you’re not firebombing Walmart op’ IM NOT. IM MAKING A POLITICAL THREAT OF WITHDRAWING MY SUPPORT. #IT IS LITERALLY THE FUCKING LEAST I CAN DO. #my followers know I’m very much a ‘everybody wants a glorious Revolution but no body wants to do the dishes’ kinda anarchist #I believe in the little incremental victories of mutual aid and community gardens. #but incremental victories will not save lives in Palestine right now. this is the time to BLUFF and THREATEN the ‘lesser evil’ #into being you know. LESS FUCKING EVIL. #if you reblog this be real niceys to me or at the very least be fucking normal.

[magnuficent76]

Blease tell me more about like Jonah and Melaines relationship how'd they get together? Who started? What's their relationship been like over time?

Whenever I see those two together I'm like yeas... That's them two (puts them next to each other like two rocks)

GAAAAAHHH YOUUU !!! GIVES YOU 1000 BOOBOO BEARS. OUGH... These are good questions let me get my LORE HAT. 👒

Okay so !!!!!

They first meet in a really...non ideal way, with Jonah almost dying after being careless and falling off a cliff, but luckily Melaine was nearby travelling with a couple other doctors. It was a less than optimal situation, but they help him back on his feet. I'd call it love at first sight but the most he saw was just a blur of a lady asking him questions so he didn't pass out, so I'll say it was destiny instead. They were both 18ish and real stupid <333 They started bumping into each other way more after that, and at some point began a little friendship in the wastes. Jonah flirted with Melaine first but never really made a move on her, or even tried to get her to flirt back. It was mostly him joking around and using the worlds cheesiest pickup lines for fun. She thought it was charming however and started actually flirting with him. So now he's just like "🕴🏿augh." [Not actually as smooth as he seems and cannot for the fucking life of him take what he dishes out]. It was just a fling for that moment though, since Jonah was too busy thieving and running around from bandits and Melaine had her patients to care for, so their relationship ends up on the backburner.

When they're in their early twenties though, they finally make some time for each other and start getting more serious about everything. Jonah gets injured in minor ways to go see her in the new hospital she works at, and although she knows he's being reckless and stupid for that, it's reckless and stupid in a charming way <3. She's so obsessed with this weird little freak who keeps coming in with the weirdest injuries just to see her again, and she starts doing the same by meeting him out of the hospital in his outposts and other work spots. . . Until she sees him badly injured in said work spots and goes fucking apeshit. Legally as a healer She's not SUPPOSED to hurt anybody with scalpels, but hey, just try to fucking stop her while in stabbing range. Her insane combat skills make Jonah swoon and sigh dreamily. She's so passionate about everything, and the fact she can take on so many people at once without breaking a sweat, leaving them all alive on the ground but unable to get to her, all while having that murderous rage in her eyes... it just leaves him like [Heart eyes] uehehe. Oh doc you're so cool ♡ [bleeding out].

She scolds him for being reckless and almost dying while patching up his wounds [again] and he's just. So lovestruck. Now that he's seen this other side of her and it drives him kind of crazy. From there on they both see each other more often, do more things for each other, get them presents, up until it culminates in Jonah being like "oh doctor you ever hear the joke about hospital food haha.a..... its not great.... so.... hey.... why don't you let me cook for you, right ?" [Love confession]. And they're finally official from there ♡♡♡♡ The obssession is so mutual and they're both so normal about it [lie]

The adventure from Jonah's life combined with his bright eyed hopeful ideas even in the face of so much hardship everywhere just charmed her beyond words, and it helped her keep pushing in the darkest of hours. He was a man who struggled in a planet filled with danger in every corner, and yet he remained so kind, no matter the situation he found himself in. It inspired her to do the same. As for Jonah.. well, Melaine's ever gracious self was just impossible for Jonah not to love. There was something so incredible about her that he never could explain. Something about how she was always so blunt, so endlessly patient but never to a point where she would allow someone to ignore her authority, how she always held herself as someone with a very noble goal, but still remained kind and helpful for the people who needed her help... She was an angel on earth to him. Someone so admirable, so good hearted, yet with the skill and speed of a trained soldier, never letting her guard down, willing to do anything to protect what she believed in... what a woman ♡

Their relationship has always been based on both mutual admiration and in slight obsession with each other in like, a soul mate kind of way, but they worked it out and it became much more healthy don't worry. They're both endlessly attracted to each other, everything about the other is perfection incarnate and they'll accept no less than that. Even after they reunite, they're still helplessly in love, like they never left at all... they're soooo everything coded ♡ [<- so normal right now]

They're in bisexuals with each other your honour

#magocs #my oc stuff #rambles #my oc rambles #original character #original art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #my writing #fan oc #fan character #borderlands oc #oc: jonah #oc: melaine #IM SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW [LIE LIE LIE LIE] #thank you for the asks ! #beloved mutuals tag <3 #AUGH. #THANK YOU FOR ENABLING ME ELVIS. ILY <3

[perenlop]

watching a video on girl meets world and i hate the dad/teacher character. he sounds like the exact kind of teacher i wouldve had in hs that i wouldve despised

#also wow the autism section like. made me uncomfortable rnfnjfnf #bc the way those asshole friends respond to the kid who might have autism responded the exact same way my family did when i brought it up #‘’YOU DONT DO THOSE THINGS!!! well ok you do. but you know not to now!’’ #or ‘’you are NOT autistic ok. you are NORMAL. ok. youre our friend!’’ #i specifically remember my mom literally holding my head and going ‘’you are so smart… you dont have an autistic bone in your body’’ #like gee thanks #it’s outrageous they had that air on tv and those ppl were seen as in the right #but itd be a lie to say im shocked lmao #echoed voice #also i remember i was watching disney channel when gmw first aired and i had no idea it was a sequel fjdjdjdjfj #so good job on ur audience there

[todayisafridaynight]

would you guys still like me if i rambled about my cringe crackship

#snap chats #masadai #yeah ill ramble down here im not brave for the main text #see this is my version of a read more the main text is just a warning #anyway main text is semi a lie i am rambling bout masadai but just mostly bout sawashiro cause Shotgun Dad is my favorite #oh im sleep so im going to be even more incomprehensible than normal #like like like like sit here and be delusional with me alright. '95-2000's era right. #jo knows masato- as a civvie- tries to keep outta yakuza shit (with the exception of ichi helpin him at least) #so can you imagine bro having to process the fact now his son's Apparently entangled not just with a yakuza's son but SOHEI'S #bitch ass sohei who get necked and since then his bitch ass son's been going on a bitch ass rampage as a street thug #How The Fuck Did Those Two Happen but w/e. if masato's happy jo'll Begrudgingly not do anything. on the surface. #i know he's already having some poor arakawa grunt tail daigo until dude inevitably notices and beats his ass #and hes def not goin back to sawashiro a failure bro's getting outta town 💀 but yeah point is jo dont exactly have. The Highest Opinion #we all saw my masumi and daigo comic right. we all know i think masumi adopts daigo at some point cause the seeds of that are here #masumi knows whats goin on in his own house he knows jo's being ill so he prob just assures him daigo's not That Bad of a kid #he wouldnt hurt masato anyway. listen if theres a fight he knows his son's starting it He Loves Him but he knows how he is #and daigos way too soft spoken and like. Depressed Rn to really instigate anything unless prompted #either way jo's still edgy- prob isn't too stoked to hear news daigo's in jail after he an aoki get back to japan in '04 either #but no listen there's a turnaround OBVIOUSLY for one thing aoki and daigo could never date nowadays #but now daigos become chairman and ?? he isnt a single thing like sohei and he isn't at all how jo initially thought he'd be #he might make awkward decisions sometimes but considering the cards he's dealt he's not doing TERRIBLE #jo's designated to hang with aoki most of the time anyway so even if he did have any lingering grievances theyre not something to worry bout #too late to give that blessing tho For Starters bro's living a new life now and Secondly he's getting everyone evicted in ten years 💀💀 #thats the end of my ramble sorry everyone. if i had more time nd energy to draw nowadays i prob woulda just drawn somethin quick and dummy #but alas. i do not. potentially more text posts to come because of this because i very much am still mentally ill #i love masadai i love making shit up its actually so fun #im bad at writing full on fics so the spark notes version <3 ok im sleeping now bye

[ban-joey]

sending laser beams to my professor with my mind. kenneth you said midterm grades would b up by this afternoon. it is officially TONIGHT and guess what? kenneth i would love to not be clenching my teeth in my sleep tonight. kenneth i will be sending you a bill in the mail. yes i know its probably a TAs responsibility but i blame you personally. i hate school

#i dont im having a lot of fun (genuinely) but it is often pretty stressful #did find out there are a few folks adjacent to my program doing zoonoses & climate change research so im very excited to chat w them next w #possibly directing my thesis towards one health. social epi gradually becoming less interesting #plus i think my strengths do lie in applying epi to biological concepts so. one health works there #my brain continually trying to get back to lyme disease :( sometimes i really do miss the east coast tbh! #not lying actually i think the number one thing i miss is the amt of vector borne disease research LMFAO #i do unfortunately kind of have a crush on a classmate so that's fine but whatever. grad school. men are nice to me and i lose my mind ig #need to go make out w a hot trans person i think that would solve my problems rn #but also it's nice to be so excited about someone deciding to sit next to me in every class :) #like wow how isolated have i been the last 3 years to be so delighted by like. active signs i have Officially Made Friends. #even if he does live like a block away from my dad and jokes every goddamn day like 'so i saw your dad yesterday' no you DIDNT shut UP #idk yesterday he sat right next to me in a class he usually sits w other people in and it sort of sent my brain off the edge and now im jus #yeah. sitting with this one. it's fine like it's normal. but wowie i do think it's my first time having a Big Ol Crush since (redacted) #a little scary for my animal brain i think but it's okay! #im 25 in like 3 ish weeks and i still get embarrassed about this stuff somehow? stupid. #he's just really nice and always really fun to talk to! i think i had to officially Sit With Myself today bc epi is doing a holiday party #and there's a baking contest and we were talking abt it in class and i was indecisive abt whether i want to participate #and he like fully cut me off and was like oh you should bake something so i can have some :) #and. well fuck now i have to lmao. IM SO EASY IT'S SO EMBARRASSING #good evening everyone. guess this is my journal now. anyway ken rice you owe me twenty dollars and i aim to COLLECT

[keptthepieces]

just another diary entry obvs

#i still feel so sad #yk i mean i take things very deeply very personally im sure some people remember may '21 lol #but this is just very hard for me because im so confused #why would you let resentment build towards someone about something they dont even know theyre doing to bother you #to the point that youre hurting the other person and they dont even know why for the longest time #it hurts a lot it wasnt even addressed at all until i brought it up bcs i couldn't stand not knowing and yet feeling so hurt and confused #i needed to know it wasn't in my head and i was right #but now im second guessing everything they talked to me so normally said they care about me all the way up until the day before #but ive felt the distance for a while so do they love me like they said or was that not true #if they dont then im such an idiot i really care about them i really respect them and love them #idk im really hurting very badly #really stupid for a 25 yr old to feel so hurt because they annoyed someone #but i just wish it was addressed sooner and for someone who prides themselves on being open and honest and direct.. #it feels like they maybe just didnt care enough to talk to me about it. #so yk maybe they dont care about me. #which also feels like an offensive conclusion to come to about them when they dont lie and value honesty and openness so much #i dont want to think they dont love me bcs i do think i know them pretty well i do think theyd never lie about that #but maybe ive only convinced myself of that because it would hurt far worse if they didnt #whatever anyways im so stupid and i know i must have fucked things up by being too much again. #ill leave them alone and the hurt will ease up eventually #their friendship has meant a lot to me theyve done a lot for me i dont want to lose it completely i really dont #i just dont regulate well how much i care for my friends and its too much sometimes its one of the worst things about me #but i genuinely want my friends to know theyre loved and thought of and cared about and i mean it #and i cant always tell when i hit overbearing so i fuck things up. #anyways i am sorry i made someone i care about feel overwhelmed and i regret that i made them uncomfortable for i dont even know how long #im hurt but thats the worst thing i couldve done #okay ill shut up now stop talking about it its just still fresh to me obviously cant talk abt it on twt and they dont follow me here #i needed to vent without my irl friends 'fuck them' attitude bcs theyre a good person and friend and it does feel like its only my fault #for the most part anyways minus yk the communication bit #but we'll circle back to the do they even count us friends doubts and we dont need that ill move on now needed to get it off my chest

[aria0fgold]

I just realized that I've gotten old enough that my old habit of waking up and immediately going about my day will not work anymore because of the risk of low blood pressure resulting in fainting.

#aria rants #earlier today i woke up with the urge to pee. so i just opened my eyes and then got up immediately with no pause #speedwalked to the bathroom then did my business there but as i sat there i could feel it again. and i was like: ohfuck #i had to quickly finish up then speedwalked again to my room to immediately lie down cuz if i spent another second #out of bed im gonna have a bad time. and then i could feel my heart struggling to catch up from just on the verge #of slowing down to beating normally cuz it was a quick action from my heart noticing the low blood pressure to my brain #to suddenly being provided just the right amount and i was lying there like: would a handstand help speed this process up #like back then when i was attending school. my mom would wake me up and then id just get up right after cuz i was like: #if i stay laying down i might end up sleeping again so better to get up alrdy. and also cuz i had a strict schedule #so waking up is the very start of it and i gotta just get going once that happens but now if i try to do smth like that #my body hates it and immediately punishes me for it so now i gotta spend a few mins just lying there after waking up

[boltgunkiller-archive]

everyone sees santana as the jealous one which is true. but i think brittany would be jealous too just more low key about it

#i mean after s4 i think santana really gets over it #like that’s her acceptance. she just can’t have brittany like that anymore and it sucks #because well also my bpdtana headcanon. she probably felt really possessive over brittany for a bit there #and also hated brittany a little i’m not even gonna lie because she was so frustrated at how seamlessly brittany moved on #but then she accepted it after she realized brittany wasn’t out to get her nor was sam #it was just. moving on. and santana would have to accept that. also need to mention the distance definitely fucked w santana’s head about it #being away from brittany for so long? yeah. she took it as a sign that brittany was abandoning her which caused her to kinda freak out #cause she spent so much time being so dependent or close in general to brittany. the sudden distance was Weird and Bad to her head #and heart #but then you know brittany talks to her about it so she realizes she needs to move on #then dani comes in right #she’s over it. they’re both just fine. but then 5x12. well brittany certainly didn’t like that there was another person in the picture now #-for santana. like she may not have shown it as much as santana does but she was kinda pissed about it i’m ngl #like the whole immediately kissing santana and then bringing up their history? she was about to KHS over the idea of santana just finding #-someone else and even preferring them more over her. llikeeee she wants santana so bad #jealousy im telling youu but she was trying to be normal about it #endgame though so we’re good. i just think about it sometimes #god nobody can rip jealousy tropes out of my hand i just love them #draft clearing spree! woohoo #and also i mostly just think that brittany was jealous in s5 going crazy. near end of s4 a bit. SHE NEEDED HER GIRL BACK asap. #gleeposting

[fakestage]

I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.

#uhm well anyway I hope everyone finds people and a place where they feel safe and loved #I'm feeling really emotional sorryy #basically. tldr; found the problem! trying to get better now through loving myself instead of hating myself #its been really hard. its going to be really hard. I feel like ive barely made any progress #I wish I had a therapist to talk about this stuff with. but I dont. #btw the uh root problem: finding out my mother was actually hugely abusive & I already knew my dad was #so basically ive been having to confront the fact that Ive been living a lie and my mother is actually deeply terrible as much as my dad #and my parents should have never had children & ive never had one single decent adult in my life #so basically uhm yea lol. I was born into dysfunction. I was never going to turn oit normal or okay. #so its been hard to like. figure all that out alone. learning I have ptsd and extreme ocd + dissociation because of them hasnt been easy #its made me so deeply miserable because I guess I assumed what my mom was doing to us was normal this whole time? #because I thought no. surely not. surely i cant have TWO terrible parents. I need at least 1 good one right? #but yea no actually every adult has hurt me in some way. and I was never going to turn out alright because #I am the king of obsessing and cycling over everything in my life #Im like. not okay right now but not being im in danger just because I wish I had someone to talk to about all this. #I just need to learn to drive so I can get out of here. I need to get out like #all these realizations have been really really heavy on me and ive been having trouble sleeping #Its been hard to process and I dont really know where to go from here. I guess I cant properly heal and grow until I move out? #idk this has been really long im so sorry. #vent #tw vent #tws -> #abuse ment #parents ment #<- in tags

[matamisin]

Against my own will, I haven't seen the afternoon in a week

#I CANT KICK THIS JET LAG AUGSHSKDBX #it was so easy adjusting when i was at the philippines like two days max i was already good #HERE THO??? I AM A SLEEPY GIRL #once the clock strikes 2 PM i blink and suddenly im all swaddled up in bed and its fucking 10 PM AAJSJDHDJ #i wont lie i only like it bc that means i get to see sunrises 🤭🤭🤭 #BUT I CANST STAY LIKE THIS #EVERYONE ELSE HAS ADJUSTED LIKE NORMAL AND IM OVER HERE BEING A NIGHT OWL LOL #im gonna try to draw tonight ehehehe might as well #the only thing about being the only one up at night is im trying to vibe downstairs by myself right?? #and its a vibe dont get me wrong #however i am what the young people call extremely paranoid #so i carry an emotional support knife around as i watch my silly modern families and scroll and tikkytok #if i at least had my 3 big akitas with me id feel a little bit less ummmm like i need to be on guard #but they go up to bed with my parents every night 😞😞🥲 #i tried drawing last night and i doodled a genya but that was all i could muster :( #so maybe DS isnt the best thing for my art block right now 🤔🤔 #but idk if im feeling SDV 😩 #once i fall for 2 ✌️ sibling-like characters that would die for each other and are like a gold mine for angst i am GONE from everything else #its funny cause ive liked DS for about 3 years but when i first got into it i just COULD NOT get into making fanart #and even tho i loved the charas i was like nahhh none of them are hiting the right chord for me to full on hyperfixate and build my own aus #but i got back into it a bit ago cause i was like alright if the world insists i read the manga thru for the 4th time WHO AM I TO SAY NO LOL #AND SUDDENLY THE SHINAZUGAWAS CAPTURED MY HEART AND THEYVE BEEN ON MY MIND EVER SINCE #HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO BLIND TILL MY 4TH REREAD #🤔🤔 hmm maybe its cause we finally got to see genya in action with the 3rd season #they did him so right bros i LOVE HIM HE IS MY SON #anyways thats all for now #gonna go get comfy and make my nest on the couch to try to draw again >:)

[netscapenavigaytor]

hmmph... people in jet set radio tag talking abot leak stuff and wiki vandalism. when every body should be talking about. ME AND MY FRIENDS MAEKING EDGY BRAINWEIRD BULLSHIT . (joke) (nobody would even know about this properly outside of discord) (just wanted to make a post because my brain is full of many thoughts) (jet set radio fans dm me if you want my bad yoyo opinions) (there is a lot of that. and other dubious opinions too)

#jet set radio #making this post so fast so that i can't regret it and not post it :thumbsup: #ULTIMATELY LIKE. i think i really want to join a jet set radio discord but im wayyyy too afraid to #so i just kind of keep waving jsr in front of everybody else like Hey. Hey can you look at this? For me? #which admittedly i did drag AT LEAST one other person into my madness so im doing something right. but that is not enough for me #and like idk if this fixation will fizzle in a month. its already lasted scary longer than expected #and done scary things that most hypfixes don't (unpublished 8000 word fanfic. god help me) #and even that aside i have no idea whether or not this fandom is receptive to hcs that are like. idk. this brand of weird and kind of edgy #[long ramble over the nature of ''dark'' headcanons and how i am afraid of getting typecast to a kind of writer i am not removed] #Any Way tl;dr any jet set radio fans want to stick their hands through the bars of my enclosure please dm me. its normal in here (LIE) #aaand hmm that. took up way more tags than expected. i wanted to . actually say my piece on the leak #i guess short version of my thoughts on the leak is ''nothing we can do but wait and see if its real'' #but also regardless of my opinion on the leak itself (dont care for the artstyle much but eh) (also its funny that corn isnt there. rip) #i think ultimately i am Against the idea of a new jsr game. something something capitalism and nostalgia pandering #but whatever nothing i can do but wait. #everybody just play Jet Set Radio Paradox instead (you can't) (it does not exist) (why do i keep doing parentheticals on this post) #wow this post is a solid 0/10. posting it now so i dont just delete it #error 0

[chainreh]

they raised ferdinand death flags and then killed off edelgard instead wtf is this game

#me when i spread misinformation on purpose me when i lie me when i make things up etc etc #like shes not dead but twsitd used a crest stone on her turning her into hegemon husk form:( #and when they returned to the palace she was unable to speak and they gave power back to duke aegir #and a random imperial npc on camp next chapter said ferdinand and hubert disappeared after the battle #so uhm :) this game is fine im fine #anyway since she literally couldn't speak and now is being used as a puppet i assume twsitd did the same thing to her dad #anyway i was so prepared for ferdie to die this caught me off guard 😵‍💫 #AND IT WAS RIGHT AFTER DIMITRI AND EDELGARD WERE ABOUT TO DISCUSS THE TRUE EVENTS OF THE TRAGEDY #since dimitri isnt in 'ah yes 13 year old edelgard is the one who murdered our parents that makes perfect sense' hes #more normal about her than usual #literally just saved her from a fatal attack omg hes just like me fr (in another timeline) #anyway. sorry im normal

[tacit-semantics]

little rose from my current WIP which i am.. tentatively hopeful about? Anyways, she is Looking. She is also not impressed.

#id in alt #rose lalonde #homestuck #the rest of the drawing is a little stranger but in the same vein as the rest of my stuff so nothing too exciting #can't wait to be good enough to put out the genuinely weird shit thats what im working towards #im also watching serial experiments lain for the first time as i work on it and im being very normal about it promise #thats a lie im. losing it. 6 more episodes heres to hoping that the rest is as good #for right now tho i am on the internet... just like lain from my shows... #and now im thinking about that one post thats like i wanna tell a joke but then people will think i dont understand themes and narratives i #understand themes and narratives i promise i do i do. i also dont like the song im listening to shit gotta get on that

[yamikawas]

happy valentines day darlingggggggggg!!!!!!!! :3 a little late cuz i may have had to kill someone who had a gift for u but that just means i get to give it to u AND all the gifts i already got for u >:3 i love u soooooo much tobiiiii ur my only valentine and i will make sure im ur only one too no matter the cost heehee~ 💖⚡💖⚡love ya!!!

- yoomtah!!

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