#I'm learning to drive because I have to

[sadgi]

drove around town today with dad and he asked me "is there anything you like about driving?" and I just started laughing lmao

#knowing things about cars doesn't translate into being able to drive well #or liking it #I'm learning to drive because I have to

[mistfallengw2]

Feel free to be more specific in comments/notes if you want! If you want to elaborate further, how do you organize them? By role, species, age, alphabetical order, vibes or something else?

#I use a mix of improperly used site (Trello) and writing it all down in Drive (docs and sheets my beloved) #sure I also use tumblr but it's all already written in the sacred texts(?) so that feels like an extension of my note docs #and lol it used to be ALL in my mind. then I learned not to trust my memory too much. anything I think and I like goes down on a note. #that said I'm considering moving it all to Obsidian (as soon as I learn how to use it) because of some nitpicks I have with docs #anyway so far I organized my gw2 ocs in story-relevancy categories: Main. Extra. Background. Companions. #mains do story-relevant stuff. extras are supporting characters to mains or have minor roles in important story stuff. backgrounds are - #- mostly family or part of others' backstory. companions are pets/mounts/constructs/creatures (and get their own subcategories). #I should probably go back and change some OCs' categories though oops #poll #am curious therefore I ask #(and I need to compare how I do these things because I feel like I could improve in some areas)

[froganni]

Maybe a little overly serious approach to the situation, but y'all have GOT to be more respectful towards the creators you watch and consume content for. fWhip's message about getting a lot of hate is honestly abysmal.

Like, don't get me wrong, I love lore-related series! I think they're a lot of fun and I love watching them.But give non-lore series a chance! They're also a lot of fun!

These creators are all responsible adults who are very capable of creating boundaries for themselves and deciding amongst themselves what rules they want to follow when joining a project.

Obviously, there are many viewers and community members who this isn't directed at. :D

Please don't send hate to anyone, it's not helpful. If you don't like something, don't engage with it. Just leave it at that. Show respect to the community you're apart of, and to the creators that head it.

(It's fine to be annoyed with something and talk about it, but don't force a creator to see that negativity. It's not benefiting anyone.) The more hate a creator gets, the less they engage with and organize fun things for the community. Please remember to be kind.

#I might delete this later and probably won't add relevant tags #because I have the sneaking suspicion that the people who would see this post are probably those who are already aware of this #sorry to get serious on a silly fanart account lmao #It just drives me nuts when people are mean to creators. like. that's a human person #and for the crime of- *checks notes* doing something they enjoy and having fun in a way that isn't how viewers want it to go #please take a step back and revaluate if you ever feel the urge to yell at people and send them death threats #if you follow me and actively send dts please do me the favor and learn some respect and unfollow me #I don't need that negativity in my life #will def delete if I get backlash from this lmao but my opinion will never change even so #feel free to reblog tho if you read this far #I'm just a little bish and scared to add tags lmao

[uncanny-tranny]

Once I started being completely honest with myself about how I wanted my body to look and how I wanted to present, the clearer my path forward has become.

Now, instead of being blinded by traditional ideas of the masculine body, I'm embracing the masculine body I've always had. Even though it isn't "traditional," I have never felt more masculine and more secure in my maleness and also my place in the world.

This is why I so strongly recommend that people leave out as much societal pressure as they can when they think about what is best for themselves. It's unreasonable to ask people to completely leave society out of their decisions, I think, but doing that as much as you can where you are at currently is very freeing. It has taught me how to value myself and how to build my sense of self-worth.

#anti diet culture #bodily autonomy #advice #not sure how to tag this but!!! this is heavily inspired by anti diet culture!!! and is why i wanted to make this post :) #my thighs feel so muscular now because i'm embracing that this is what my *own* maleness is #and i won't pretend like i'm ~above society~ and am never influenced by my surroundings (because i am to a degree!) #but i want to do my best to learn how to prioritize my own drives and ambitions over the shallow ideas of what i 'should' do y'know #if you want to try this out: please do. you have nothing to lose but your chains. you are ALIVE

[essektheylyss]

I am obsessed with how narratively convenient Lark's divinatory abilities are. She's the only one of the protagonists who is both pragmatic and has a working sense of self-preservation, so having some internal impulse that is actually the guiding hand of the cosmos pushing her into doing the REALLY stupid shit is both necessary and really useful.

Like, I am the type of writer who kind of scoffs at the idea that characters are beyond the writer's control and will completely screw over your outline, because on one hand, a sensible outline will follow the characters' personalities and tendencies anyway. Obviously in an ensemble cast you will need to do some wrangling, but in theory your characters are responding to varying degrees of stimuli in order to maneuver them into the places you need them to be for things to all come together in the end.

But more importantly, "curse from god" is the funniest and easiest way to push any character to do things beyond the realm of reason when necessary, and frankly, what the fuck is the point of playing god if you don't embrace that?

#midst podcast #midst spoilers #cr meta #anyway at all times I am advocating for taking full responsibility for your characters and overall story #this is also why I laugh at those posts like 'um if you're not going to treat your characters right then you shouldn't get custody of them' #sorry babe there is no CPS in my head. I am the cruel custodian and these are my poor darwinian orphans. #that's a joke but really like. look. yeah sometimes you gotta fabricate scenarios to make characters do what you want #but like... you do that by going 'who is this character and what would it take to push them to x'??? #and especially in an ensemble cast sometimes that thing is 'curse from god' or 'divine insight' #fun fact: I LOATHE that post about 'my writing teacher made a joke that the characters are driving and the writer is locked in the trunk' #absolutely fucking hate it. #because THE WHOLE POINT OF FORMALLY LEARNING WRITING IS LEARNING HOW TO BE INTENTIONAL. #it is perfectly possible to write successfully without ever having a formal teacher but IF YOU HAVE A FORMAL TEACHER. UH. #like yeah yeah 'workshopping' but like. okay go build your own workshop group don't pay somebody jfc #(cuz it's not like most creative writing teachers know how to teach you to workshop. let's be fucking real.) #if you wanna learn how to workshop take a script class for the love of god. #ANYWAY rant over but I'm correct. the highest purpose of a writer is to be a control freak and to play god.

[aropride]

sorry for the rant i am reaching a breaking point 👍 (cis person asked me why i dont "just change my name" and seemed baffled when i said i live with my parents. what's not clicking girl draw your own conclusions here.)

#text #WHILE I'M ON THE TOPIC #'why cant you drive' ASIDE FROM THE FACT THAT I WAS HEAVILY DISCOURAGED FROM LEARNING TO DRIVE TIL I WAS 18 #ASIDE FROM THE COST OF DRIVERS ED #ASIDE FROM GETTING A CAR #ASIDE FROM HAVING SOMEONE TO BE THERE WHILE I GET MY HOURS IN OR WHATEVER #LOOK ME IN THE EYES. HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO GET TO DRIVERS ED????? HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO GET THERE???? #I LIVE IN MAINE. WE HAVE NO PUBLIC TRANSPORT. ONE TIME I SPENT $90 UBERING TO CLASS #HOW. DO YOU WANT ME TO GET TO DRIVERS ED. ANSWER QUICK #'just do it online' 'you dont need drivers ed now that ur over 18' I CANNOT PASS ONLINE CLASSES. DO YOU WANT ME TO GO ON THE ROAD LIKE THIS #DO YOU REALLY. you want me to get behind the wheel of a car and freeball it????? because im 21?????? your funeral man #kidding . it's OUR funeral NO ONE is coming out of 'driving freeball' alive #neg

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

#i know and love so many people who have intense anxiety about their ability to create art and who are so hard on themselves about the result #and i think that's a REALLY easy thing to feel because creating is also vulnerable & physically difficult and there is SOOOO much to master #but i think for me the people who churn out 300 colored pencil front facing hands behind their backs oc doodles on lined notebook paper- #are the ones with the right idea. they're the ones i aspire to be like #i'm not saying i never struggle either bc tbh #as someone with depression and adhd there are times where the Act of Having Fun is simply not possible #sometimes i CAN'T enjoy things because my ability to feel joy is locked behind a barrier of my mental illness #so i don't think it's an Easy thing to do by far and I don't think you can just Magically Make Yourself Happy And Having Fun #but i DO think that experimenting in a low-stakes low-pressure manner until you find something that clicks in your brain helps #doing things for the sake of doing them is the only way to figure out which ones WILL be fun to you #not all of them will. some things will feel like a slog #but i think you have to look for the passion before you're able to face the slog #if you jump right into the parts that are Hard and Challenge Your Limits it's easy to spin your wheels and get stuck #but if you focus on the super small stakes and the things that are thoughtless and focused more on Sensation- #the sensory experience of mixing paint or the scratch of pencil on paper or the smooth way a specific pen makes lines- #then you can lose yourself in the physical aspect of it FIRST #and then once you've started really ENJOYING those sensations you can start learning new ways to use them #because now you have the drive to want to do more #now you have the desire to find new ways to apply this thing you like doing #long post #even longer tags #art #drawing #artists #art advice

[lyxchen]

Okay so I am going to meet David Tennant in ONE WEEK and I was going to cosplay as Campbell Bain but I haven't been able to sew the hoodie or even buy farbric for it so please everyone send me some motivation so I can do it!!

#i just need to clean my desk #then buy the fabric #hope it arrieves on time #and learn how to sew a hood for the sweater #i technically should also get a haircut because my hair is too long for for the campbell hair but idk if i can do that on time #if i'm lucky i can drive to my aunt's place cause she was a hairdresser and could cut my hair #but she lives an hour away and i'd have to take the train because i don't have my driver's license yet #anywaysss #help a girl out #or more like #motivate a girl <3 #lea's random thoughts #david tennant #campbell bain

[last-flight-of-fancy]

made myself emotional thinking about how smart sora actually is and how little credit he gets for it just because he struggles with stuff like math

#ITS RELATABLE OK #you can't math and everyone immidietly goes 'lol ur dumb' #'haha he counts on his fingers' yeah so do i. you gonna call me dumb too? #because i've heard it before and you're wrong. i'm unlearning that shit and i'm not dumb. i'm smart as hell actually #thirty years of thinking i was stupid i think i've earned the right to say 'nah yknow what. they were wrong. i'm not.' #the prioritizing of mathematical smarts over every other kind drives me nuts tbh #artistic intelligence? emotional intelligence? kinetic learners? there's so much more than just math #sora is SO GOOD at a lot of things!! #he's incredibly intuitive and emotionally intelligent #and he is probably a legit genius in terms of like... learning things on the fly #never gonna get over him learning lingering wills moves after fighting him (presumably) once #he learns to fly the gummiship- and probably would have done fine that first time if donald hadn't taken offence #(it also should be noted that i don't think sora's ever *wrong* in his numbers*. it just takes him a while to get there) #(* except six hearts but uh. there's probably more going on there. like memory loss. again) #stop talking to yourself flight #kingdom hearts #'he can't keep up with the plot' bitch WE as the audience can barely keep up with the plot and we have the benifit of seeing all of it #do remember that sora is running on about a third of the information we have at any given time #anyway sora isn't dumb he just has adhd and that's the hill i'm gonna die on

[running-in-the-dark]

it's so funny when I rewatch a show but with a new/different/additional crush. like I'm rewatching the librarians with my partner right now and it just feels soo different lol

#anyway. Jenkins 😍 #on a completely unrelated note... #I need to learn more about pocket squares and ties. #because it's already driving me insane when they don't go together on night court but it's much worse on the librarians where I can actually #like. see stuff lol #I don't mean 'oh no the colour isn't an exact match'. more like 'these patterns and/or colours look fucking bad together' #but maybe there's like. reasons for that. rules that my silly little brain isn't smart enough to figure out #because all I'm basing that on is. my eyes and my opinion lol #anyway he's so baby. 🥰 and I definitely like him better now. very very huggable. #he takes that suit jacket off and I'm like 🥵 #man I feel so weird about this :') but I must talk about it anyway or I will never get over that :) #like it just feels like. ohh this is weird I'm not supposed to think he's hot because he's old 😬 but he just. is 🤷 #anyway touching his ears would fix me man it totally would #*with my mouth also. but whatever it's cool I'm not thinking about that #no haha why would I be thinking about it that :) #or when he sits on that table sometimes and I totally don't think about how I absolutely need to sit in his lap :) #haha noo I'm not thinking about fucking him at all who even brought that up #anyway i am very tired & have already taken my sleep meds so I am extra stupid rn :) and the dumb thoughts just keep coming out

[providencehq]

Since I am online for a moment I will say nothing except to fic enjoyers, attempt two at fic writing is occuring and I will in fact drop it on ao3 and never acknowledge it here but know i am personally I am excited

#I'm making it make sense!!!!!!!!! #I have time to write/mess with it because driving between field sites #Shrike au #Also an attempt to fix bad story telling because it is and was bad and that's okay i have learned

[rimouskis]

I'm going to preface this story by saying: I don't necessarily believe in karma, but

I may have been walking through today with a vague sense of disbelief tainted with unkind smugness after my tiktok fyp was flooded with poor fans who tried to get presale ticket to one mr n. kahan's new tour only to find that demand was through the roof and GA pit tickets were seriously going for $300, in presale, and even the "worst" tickets in the lawn were going for $70

and while I undoubtedly think it's deeply unethical for both platforms (thanks ticketmaster) and artists to allow such dramatic ticket cost inflation, I also generally don't relate...

I (VERY LUCKILY) gravitate towards smaller acts, and the most I've paid for a ticket all year has been, like... $90 for a ticket to beyonce, which got cancelled and I was refunded lol. if I look back at all my receipts from shows this year, most have been around $50/ticket after fees, and several have been closer to $20. my favorite show I've seen all year was a $15 ticket.

it's mostly luck—I tend to like smaller acts, and I've been seeing mainly rock acts this year, and those tickets simply don't run as high as pop acts. and part of me is honestly very grateful that I haven't been swept into any of the really recent huge acts.

I think of all the people scrabbling for boygenius or taylor swift tickets and how much money they've had to shell out... how a lot of them don't even GET to see the acts they want to see because they've been priced out or tickets sold out. I can't remember the last time a show I wanted to go to sold out lol. maybe bastille in london?

and again, it's just a matter of luck that I'm not really into any of these megastars and therefore don't have to compete in the gladiator arena to try to see shows I want to see, but sometimes luck manifests as a feeling of self-satisfaction, you know? who among us hasn't experienced a little self-superiority from time to time.

look, if YOUR tiktok was flooded with people saying concerts have been awful since 2021 (including rock and metal shows), but every concert YOU'VE been to since 2021 was amazing and the crowds were really good and you always got tickets and it never broke the bank, you'd feel pretty validated in your choice of musicians and the crowds they attract too, alright?? sue me! I felt frugal AND undeservedly clever!

anyways back to karma. guess who got invited and subsequently agreed to shell out $70 to sit in a lawn and listen to mr. n. kahan sing. I'll give you a hint, her tumblr username starts with an r and ends with an s

#I KNOW LIKE. A SINGLE ONE OF HIS SONGS. #the thing about me is I'm earnestly really good at not judging other ppls music taste because: #I have a whole 1000-song playlist dedicated to music I love but don't play for other ppl bc I regard it as my Fun Time No Taste Music #and it's not that it's bad it's just not as curated as I prefer my music showed to other people lol #and that means I don't judge people for getting really into a band that doesn't do it for me personally #but. I will admit that I have that deeply annoying personality trait wherein if a billion people get into something... #for unknown reasons my own desire to learn about and get into that thing plummets. hashtag hipster. hashtag annoying #so that's kinda why I've never explored a lot of mega-popular musicians #(see: hozier; mitski; boygenius; taylor swift; one direction; noah kahan; etc etc) #+ obviously I don't make quality judgements off of that. I've heard some hozier songs. he's very good. I like handfuls of TS and 1D's music #but I don't have the drive to Also Get Into It #which means I never have to fucking melee for tickets in the queue ahaha and I am very grateful for that #but idk. I think there's something to be said for purposefully seeking out midsize or small acts. I don't really like stadium shows! #my fave concert this year had less than 100 attendees and the lead singer walked right off the stage into the crowd #everyone was chill and gave him space (this was the friday pilots club show) #and I think I can compare it to big vs. small fandom #small fandoms tend to be well-behaved bc everyone knows everyone and beef poisons the whole space lol #and also it's a matter of numbers! the more people who are in a space... the higher likelihood someone's an asshole #and I've been in tiny fandoms that blew up (hellooooo omgcp) and saw that happen firsthand #and I sort of suspect that rule holds true for concert spaces/music fanbases! more people = more variables = higher likelihood of foolery #hell I think of when I was really into 2010s alt rock DURING the 2010s and had to deal with assholes at alt j concerts hahahah #and it was just because I *was* into the music that WAS of-the-time in 2015!!!! #and now as an agèd 20something who likes metal shows I'm just chilling and watching pits form at lowkey 1400-capacity venues #because that's the scene! and I'm not in the thick of it with the current Music Of The Hour #anyways all this is to say that I don't think noah kahan is bad or untalented or unworthy of seeing!!!! #clearly he is if I'm going to fork over $70plusfees to see him with my friend #it's just that I'm grateful my tastes have veered into the cheaper side of the music industry. #I think I'd keel over if my favorite artist was TS and I had to deal with. all that. to go see her. #stronger than the marines etc etc

[vivy-nx]

hi!! look at my cool kirby walking simulator fangame i made over the course of last year!! i worked very hard on it!! it's downloadable for windows and linux!

#kirby series #kirby #kirby's adventure #my art #pixel art #it's got a little jank to it but i think it works about as well i could have hoped for. #unfortunately due to “my first time using this game engine proper” brain the two things i'd really like to have added if I could- #those being support for other screen resolutions and input remapping #were kinda. not something I considered at all #and trying to add them in retroactively was a bit of a nightmare #and i kinda lost steam on it and didnt work on the project for a long while #but i figured i'd rather have a release thats rough around the edges than an almost-perfect video game languishing alone on my hard drive #so i'm putting it out as is. #i hope you like it !!! #i learned a lot about godot engine making this thing. hopefully soon i will make even more cool things with godot!! #i can even try godot 4 now!! i've got no idea what that's like because when i tried to port this over to it all the visuals broke somehow #so i just stuck with godot 3.5 #anyway. please enjoy!!! #Youtube

[torchickentacos]

REALLY want to legit learn how to sew. I can't just buy myself things for various reasons, so I'm always looking at, like, how to make dinner with random shit around the house, how to alter clothes since they WILL fit differently from 2013 (because I only own old things and hand me downs), how to repair things at home, and I really just want to have things I like to wear without resorting to fast fashion or even shipping stuff to my friends and picking it up that way. I bought one jacket off of amazon as my, like, single purchase of the last five months and I feel really bad about it (which is silly and I know it, but alas), and I just really want to be able to sew actual garments on my own. Do I need another hobby right now? Not really but we'll see.

#vent post. ish???? idk i'm fine! vibing #it's not that I'm super controlled or anything per se re: all of this #though. that is somewhat debatable (it's in good intentions though. overportective rather than controlling) #but just. i have so many people in this house and SOME OF THEM take mail and lose it bc they're confused a lot of the time #so i never order stuff bc i won't get it anyways. but i usually can't even if i want to because #i STILL don't have a credit card. cash only. i operate on gift cards. #i can't drive either #constantly banging my head against the wall trying to gain independence and jump through hoops for it #i'm working on it though. really pushing and my therapist has my back on it. #again. GOOD INTENTIONS in my household. usually. but questionable impact #the GOOD NEWS about that iffy approach is that it's very incentivizing to me to learn life skills on my own quickly #one day. i will be able to do basic things and not have it be ten people's business. #i am only 21. this is fine and normal. I have time. telling myself that I'm 'not THAT behind' until I actually believe it.

[marshmallowgoop]

2022 AMV Review

It's a bit late, but since I do yearly writing reviews, I thought it might be fun to do AMV reviews, now that I've started seriously editing with DaVinci Resolve.

This video collects a piece of every AMV I posted last year, from my very first Resolve AMV to the one I made right before my previous laptop broke completely. If I continue this in the future, I think I'd limit it to Top 10 or one per month, but since I only have 10 Resolve AMVs under my belt right now, it felt right to include all of them!

One of my biggest struggles with video editing—and with Creating in general—is doing Too Much, going way overboard and making things worse with the additional time and effort. It's a real struggle to cut back, but I think I'm slowly learning to limit my clip amount to make my videos (slightly) easier on the eyes.

But all that said, I've always admired AMVs but never felt like I could actually make them, so that I uploaded 10 in 2022 is amazing to me! I'm excited to start editing some more on my new laptop!

#ah heck i'll actually post this why not #i'm maybe feeling a little sad because my project files for all of these might be lost forever... #i got my c drive out of my old laptop (where the files should have been stored) and attached it to another motherboard #then i should have copied everything off of it to my external drive but... i couldn't find the 'resolve projects' folder #where it was supposed to be was just 'empty folder' #maybe i'll try to get a reader for the drive (it's no longer attached to that motherboard) and take a closer look but gosh it kills me :'( #still... very proud of myself for putting in all the time and effort to learn things on davinci resolve! #i really really love video editing (even if it takes *forever* and i average maybe 20 hours a vid) #i hope my new laptop handles it well! it has a much better graphics card and was silly expensive so... fingers crossed aha #i'd do so many things differently now but the heiji fancam is still the most important thing i've ever made #detective conan #video #eye strain

[edge-oftheworld]

truly nothing is as wild as youtube comments on top of the people infodumping their entire life stories you'll have people saying stuff like 'they're an excellent band! they all have severe depression unfortunately :(' like okay 5sos psychiatrist. does this inference of yours in any way impact their abilities as artists? please please just be normal about all things mental health

#this slightly misquoted comment has been stuck in my brain #like. it was (i'm pretty sure) well intended. but why? #because there's something so infantalising and patronising about 'unfortunate' imo. it doesn't make art or work less/more valid #it's a pretty small criticism but like. putting mental health headcanons about artists on the internet is already just. hmm #i can't talk i know for quoting it but. it's inference not fact #it's a learning process to hold space for someone to suffer and not get too uncomfortable about it or make assumptions #and i'm not an expert leader. but i do tend to think they should be able to drive the narrative around what they share with us #and also the vibe!! bc it doesn't have to be 'unfortunate'!!! feel the mix of emotions they share with us (same w other artists too) #it's a bit of a silly example bc this is just the way some people understand things!! and not necessarily wrong wrong. but funny