#I'm just soooo sleepy

[toaster-fire-art]

misc old Hua Cheng doods i meant to post a long time ago and theeeeen i forgot

maybe one day I'll finish the paintings (you can tell how old they are by the peak at one of my ocs in the strawberry dress)

#i'm not dead i swear #I'm just soooo sleepy #i miss him #my art #old art #toasterfireart #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #tgcf fanart #hua cheng #san lang #crimson rain sought flower #xie lian #e'ming #i'm still stuck obssessed with my ocs but I need a breather #he is sooooo #i forgot how to draw #everytime i draw him I want his gender #don't have surgery it's draining #:)

[coquelicoq]

have been feeling really weird and am trying to figure out what's wrong with me and i almost just texted my friend "i feel like i might be sick but i don't have any symptoms. except for the symptoms." so hm. that's not working lol.

#i feel like i need to sleep for approximately 127 years even though i'm not dramatically sleep deprived or anything #i just need to sleep eternally and then maybe i'll feel fine #i have been having so many dreams and waking up so tired but not at all sleepy and then being soooo out of it all day long #but i don't have any like. cold or flu symptoms which i feel like is usually the culprit in this scenario?

[dandyshucks]

i love g.uzma sm 🫶

#thats the whole post thats all I got #i am so sleepy and tired fhfjdkdl #just played a family game of catan for five hours and I'm wiped fhdkdl #i won though which was bonkers bc i went into it with no plans on winning fhdksl i was just there to participate rly #anyways awaauuhhh i love guz soooo much and i would give him the biggest hugs ever and make him so happy and feel safe #sobs !!!!! awaugh !!!! #dandy.cmd #💜so good at being in trouble

[ghstslut]

anyway i need a nap so um like! who's gonna come let me sleep on them!

#i am soooo freakin sleepy like #i think I'm just gonna do my classic play bioshock until i fall asleep <3 #me #bi girls #cute girls #soft girls #babygirl #curvy girls #cute #baby #brat #ok to rb

[daz4i]

seeing dazai call chuuya "princess" in a fic, even like to insult him, is ooc to me. dazai would NEVER let someone else be the princess. especially not chuuya

#this is a joke no one take me seriously please. #i just saw a moment like this in a fic and it stood out to me bc i like that term in their context. for obvious reasons #anyway this fic has like soooo many dan rights tags but it's 10k words and I'm sleepy so wish me luck with that 🫡

[mysandwichranaway]

today's warmup. just some dudes hugging

#sandwichart #sketch #warmup #i just wanted to draw something soft. and a guy with short hair #i've acquired a taste for men with really short hair #anyways. i'm soooo sleepy

[mavis-merry-magnolia]

next question

i think you will like this one...

what parts of hanekawa makes her your favorite? give me the full blorbo thoughtdump 😈

OH so you want it to be go time? It's go time? I suppose it's go time.

Note I am NOT a writer or well articulated so this is going to be ALL over the place fdjkhds.

So just to begin, Hanekawa is such a fun and mysterious character for a lot of Bakemonogatari. She's literally the first character we're introduced to properly other than Koyomi. And their very first scene already establishes that they have some history together, what with her seemingly being Koyomi's only friend. And shows us a couple flashes of Black Hanekawa but refusing to elaborate. And the season just continues to drip feed us that there is just something UP with the sweet little glasses wearing student council president. Allusions to spring break, and Something happening during Golden Week that Koyomi and Meme don't really elaborate on much. Her genuinely offputting comments about the way Koyomi hitting Mayoi and how he's "supposed" to do it, combined with the fact she could see Mayoi at ALL once it's revealed what exactly Mayoi is and how her mechanics work. The fact that whenever she's on the phone she's NEVER at home, always wandering the streets. It builds up so much subtle intrigue in what the hell is going on with her behind the scenes, given that Koyomi basically outright idolizes her and talks up how amazing and perfect she is in most cases.

I'm a very big fan of these kinds of setups for characters and their arcs. It's why i'm currently so fascinated with how information and scenes regarding Ougi are being dripped out and revealed across Second Season. But I digress.

And then Tsubasa Cat rolls around and begins to shed some light on just exactly how NOT okay she is by revealing information on her home life, as well as the beginnings of exactly what the hell went down during golden week. It's at this point that the narrative starts to pick at the part of her that it's kept hidden so far. How much of her Good Girl act is a raw self defense mechanism for her. She's never had anyone she could actually open up to like Koyomi before. She just so...casually talks about the abuse she's suffered to him.

To go on a small tangent, a character trait about Koyomi that I like is that he's really willing to throw himself under the bus for the sake of cheering others up if need be. During the talk where Hanekawa talks about her father hitting her, he realizes that he can't really...do anything about it, and can see that she's getting really upset and desperate when she asks him not to tell anyone. So he starts going on a goofy little pervy bit to cheer her up, since she likes his weird sense of humor. It's a really sweet moment for them.

Anyway, back on topic. Not to detail my own life all too much but, the way Hanekawa defends herself from her environment and the world around her hits VERY close to home with my own experiences. As someone who's had to constantly mask and people please her whole life, it hits so close to home seeing how she handles all of that and...the consequences it has, in the form of Black Hanekawa.

This is just me speaking entirely from my own experiences but, learning from the Nekomono Duology that ultimately even with the influence of the Sawari Neko, Black Hanekawa is STILL Hanekawa, hit really close to home, in the way that when stresses in my life build up like this, due to my own masking and outright rejection or ignoring of them, it manifests in....destructive episodes. I start thinking, talking, and acting erratically in a way that doesn't feel like Me at all. I've ended up nearly permanently damaging very close and important relationships to myself several times because of this. I don't feel like myself at all, like I become a totally different person. And, I dunno, I just...I really felt something seeing Tsubasa be pushed to her breaking point and lashing out at everything around her in a similar way. It made me really...invested. In seeing where her character would go after that.

Augh and speaking of where her character goes like...I've mentioned it in past posts but I love how absolutely dynamic of a character she is too. Like, we've gotten to see her ENTIRE journey through this story. From her mysterious introduction in Bake, seeing her chronological introduction in Kizumonogatari and just...seeing how MUCH her and Koyomi went through together. With Kizu you can just...it's SO easy to see how Tsubasa fell in love with him. Their budding friendship and complicated feelings for one another through the story arc are SO sweet and precious to me. Like. For every part of her that's a front, she really is just a sweetheart underneath it all. She just isn't able to express it all healthily. I mean, her persistence and care managed to break through Koyomi's shell at his MOST soggiest and cringiest. And then Nise...while she doesn't appear much, I REALLY like how she's shown here, taking the aftermath of Tsubasa Cat where everyone just kinda...puts a bandaid on the situation.

Okay doubling back to talk about that, something that I think makes Tsubasa Cat stand out compared to the other 4 Bake arcs is that each of the other arcs resolve themselves pretty soundly? Like yeah we know that down the road more complications arise but, looking at the story in the order it's written, pretty much all of the arcs have a solid and happy end. But that doesn't really happen with Tsubasa Cat, because the issue of Hanekawa being unable to express her feelings just isn't addressed at all. We just go back to ignoring it and hoping for the best. And I love how Tsubasa tries to give off the air that something has changed. Wearing contacts and cutting her hair. Hair cutting being a pretty common symbolism of change and all. But...it's both superficial. It's another act, and I love it. I've been there myself so many times. Acting like i've made a big change to fix something going wrong when really...it's a lie i'm telling myself and to others.

And then there's the Nekomono Duology just, making EVERYTHING come full circle. The full explanation of just What Black Hanekawa is and how she relates to how Tsubasa is. Tsubasa spending time with Hitagi, who helps her start to break down some of the barriers she's put up, with their discussion of cooking among other things. Kako manifesting at a time that Koyomi is NOT there anymore for her to fall back on and depend on, forcing her to take what she learned from spending time with Hitagi, Karen and Tsukihi to heart and just...coming to terms with herself. ALL parts of herself. Tsubasa, Black Hanekawa, and Kako all together. Finally coming to change herself for REAL and make REAL steps towards healing and growth, symbolized far more proper by Black Hanekawa and Kako's white hair mixing with her natural black....it all comes together so wonderfully. And it's really helped me start to figure myself out in a similar way and make real, ACTUAL changes for the better for myself.

It's the narrative in Monogatari that has hit me the absolute hardest to date and I love every second devoted to it.

...and on a much less personal level, I just think she's really funny and cute in how she bounces off of all the other FREAKS in this cast. It's hard to call anyone in Monogatari "Normal" but I think she plays a hilarious straightman in most situations she's thrust into.

Gods and I've barely even talked about Black Hanekawa or Kako have I? Silly cat and Angy cat. The fact that Yui Horie can have such a distinct range for Tsubasa and Black Hanekawa is amazing, on top of the fact she has to pepper all those nyas into her speech too. I just love that the manifestation of Tsubasa's repressed stress and feelings is just acting like a silly catgirl who fucking GETS you. I wish that's how my stress manifestations were.

I've been typing this for like, an hour and I still feel like there's more I can say jdkhdf.

Basically. I love her so much. All of her. And she's been helping me understand and come to love all of me too.

#merry mumbles #monogatari #tsubasa hanekawa #hanekawa tsubasa #this is soooo long and so unorganized and not even half of what I could say i'm just too sleepy to keep going fdskjhfd

[niieve]

still the best moment of the entire show

#they baited tf out of these two but #i'll take what i can get ig #my expectations were super low and they still managed to give us less than that lmao #anyway #i have two episodes left to gif #and then i'm done #but one of them is the last episode and i have over 200 folders of caps for it soooo #i just counted and in total i have 280 gifs left to make #(give or take - i'm sure a few won't make the final cut( #anyway im too sleepy for replies today but hopefully i can get some done tomorrow #figured i'd try and get another good amount of these done so in the meantime

[riverswater]

Isaac Anderson via ig // Henri Matisse

#If this was already done well sorry. Just opened tumblr 😔 #Parallels #Louis tomlinson #Art #Ltwt #m #I did t even edited Isaac's photo I'm soooo sleepy and ready for bwddddd #louis #mystuff

[frogcoded]

i hate when it gets cold because all of a sudden i need to lay in bed half-asleep for 3-5 business days until i get used to the new temperature range

#i'm soooo sleepy and itìs just because it's cold #i slept a normal amount of hours and i barely did anything today

[advnterccs-archive]

{ OOC } half asleep and slightly busy today, so uh, don't expect much from me -- also i'm so sleepy that i blinked at the dashboard and went "which blog am I on?"

#wubba lubba dub dub. ᴏᴏᴄ ᴘᴏꜱᴛꜱ #{ me when i'm sleepy : yes this is my new personality for today i'm just soooo sleepy } #{ -proceeds to mention it at any chance i get- }

[cowardlycowboys]

world so cruel to a kid like me like have you considered i have the sleepy tired

#omg kiera no one cares #wanted to take selfies i look cute wanted to make cupcakes for my kids and for me #but i just went potty now I'm back in bed I'm soooo sleepy

[clumsyhusky06]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Hermitcraft SMP Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: John Booko & Xisumavoid Characters: Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF), John Booko | BdoubleO100 Additional Tags: Tired Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF), Sharing a Bed, Xisuma is not weak and cowardly hes just exhausted ok, Bdubs is a good friend, Cuddling, but its mostly vague, Could be read as romantic, probably more accurately described as queer platonic, Author Is Sleep Deprived, xisuma is sleep deprived, We are all Sleep Deprived, how does tagging work, oh yeah, Fluff, Very very fluffy, First fic woohoo!, Bdubs says one(1) swear word, Xisuma gets harrassed by phantoms for 20 minutes while bdubs just tries to sleep Summary:

Xisuma needs sleep. Who better than the sleep king himself to get Xisuma to finally settle down and rest?

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So. Uh. I wrote something? 

#do I dare main tag #hermitcraft #hermitfic #xisumavoid #bdoubleo100 #i do dare #not necessarily romantic #but #hermitshipping #just in case #im almost embarrassed to post this #who am I kidding I'm extremely embarrassed #but what better way to get better at something than to put it out into the world! #i am soooo sleepy tired can someone pet my hair until I fall asleep? No? OK fine I'll just make allll my blorbos sleepy tired then

[fangedtracks]

half way through phys org i do not want to be doing this anymore

#chatter #what if i just fell asleep instead actually #my sleep schedule is so incredibly fucked up lmao #ive just been doing like... little bursts of sleeping this week bc i have things i gotta get done but i'm soooo sleepy

[yohankang]

i would never imagine my worst enemy at university would be sociology...

#i hate it so much #mostly because we have unreasonable amount of homework. i waste on it like 8h every week.... #but also i don't understand anything from what i'm reading #i mean i kinda do. like i get what it is about. but i read a page and there's like... 2 lines of information and the rest is just Words. yk #like it's soooo theoretical it feels like the authors are writing just for the sake of writing #and i feel like i'm wasting my time reading 200 pages when it could be said in 50.... and every single one of these books is like that #but also it's just. not interesting at all #i thought my enemy this year would be economics but surprisingly it's my favorite class??? i just love learning useful things #*sigh* #someone pls do my reading for me. and written assignments. i'm so sleepy i can't do this today #k.txt

[ambreiiigns]

nooo one of my roommates came home noooooo

#i love being alone soooo much nooo #at least she's not the one i share the actual room with. #And she woke me up? from my sleepy? that i was having? instead of going to class? bc it's raining? #no i feel bad she couldn't open the door bc i leave my key stuck in it 😭😭 girlie i'm sorry #well i know she doesn't really stay around so hopefully she'll do like she did last time and. go away this afternoon #i have NOTHING against her. i just love to be by myself! in my little house! this is my little house!!! #oh nay